so, chels passed on your message yesterday, and now that i’m in a slightly clearer headspace i figured i should go ahead and dm you. feel free to reply whenever you’re ready; there’s no rush. take all the time you need. this is probably going to get lengthy, so i apologize in advance for rambling.

i’m going to start by saying that i am not going to share who gave me this information, and i’m not bending on that. they wanted to clear something up with me, and the fact that i have no idea just how many people you’ve spread this narrative to is reason enough to have no desire to sell them out. this wouldn’t have happened if you hadn’t spread things around, period, and while i don’t condone leaking private conversations, what bothers me more is the fact that assumptions were made and you spoke behind our back about issues that have never concerned you.

“it hurts lulu’s exes that shannon is still friends with lulu” is untrue. i know you’ve heard from quinn and miki already, so there’s no need to dive into their side of things, but on my end, i am really hurt that you would share both blatant misinformation and your suspicion of me with multiple people. what does that solve? why not just come to me if you think i leaked your tweets? just... why?

maybe i’m wrong here, but i feel like you’re prioritizing wanting to know who spoke to me (to the point where kat has literally threatened them with violence) over a genuine apology. they can come clean on their own terms.

the lulu situation is complicated. i have known her for over ten years, and growing up, she used to be like a sister to me. she hurt me, too. what happened is something that quinn and i have worked through and acknowledged together. suspect me all you want, i can’t prevent that, that’s fine, but informing random people that i’m hurting him by still being in contact with her? he is one of the two most important people in the world to me, and hearing that blindsided both of us.

YOUR issues with lulu are valid, your discomfort is valid, your experiences are valid, absolutely! i get that, and lulu is not someone any of us feel the need to defend, for sure. this is not me defending lulu. i hate what she did as much as anybody else does, but how i chose to deal with it isn’t your business, let alone anybody else’s. quinn and i have been through so much shit because of her, and you took that and made it public without even knowing what happened, and in addition, you talked about your distrust of me and chels behind my back. there is no taking that back, and while i don’t exactly want to end our friendship, you’ve lost a lot of trust. it might have been unintentional, but your actions are your actions. quinn and miki’s trauma is not yours to share. my OWN issues aren’t yours to share. plain and simple. talking behind someone’s back isn’t a good look, vague tweeting about it afterward isn’t a good look, and i’m not too tolerant of either of those things in someone i consider a friend. i’d rather be honest with you than pretend i’m cool with it.

i’m not sure what else to add at the moment, so again, take your time. your health is more important to me than this, and i mean that. but i’m really disappointed, and i hope i was able to explain why.


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