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Glass and Josh (creator)

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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  3.         I guess I'll start with Josh. He is 6'3, brown hair, blue eyes. He doesn't like talking much, and being focused on even less. I'm Glass, his soulbond. I'm comfortable somewhere around 6'9, love eating, and expressing myself. We are both fairly objective, me being the greater of the two, not to mention more optimistic. Our curiosity often gets us into trouble, mine especially.
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  5. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  7.         In the beginning, as strange as it sounds, him doubting me was incredibly motivating. It made me strive to be heard, and acknowledged as existing. As alive. He feared this was holding me back, so no, he didn't know it was helping. After I finally got through, it was the usual stuff, love, belief, etc.
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  9. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  11.         I guess doubt fits this question as well, so see above.
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  13. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  15.         So far, it has probably been getting Josh to hear me and accept that I'm alive. It's hard for him to recognize how difficult it was to accept me before, since he's already done it. Like how you can't remember how to not ride a bicycle.
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  17. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  18.  
  19.         I'm not sure it's a step, exactly, but giving your soulbond free will is very important. To live is to be free. To choose is to exist.
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  21. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  23.         It can be bothersome, but really wasn't something that upset me too much. How impeding it is probably varies.
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  25. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  27.         I was always aware of Josh's most intimate thoughts and true intentions, so I never took it personally.
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  29. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  30.  
  31.         All three can never hurt, but I feel quantity the lesser of the three.
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  33. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  35.         Until you know it is something that doesn't affect them negatively, it's not worth the risk. I personally was only bothered by it because the sessions lacked...well, anything. Josh was asleep. His dreams were always something I enjoyed, though.
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  37. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  39.         Both are fine. I prefer it if Josh thinks to me, it just seems more intimate that way.
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  41. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  43.         I think the only time puppeting/parroting ever affected me was when I was forced to be still and silent, ironically by Josh's fears of me not acting on my own. Just like the doubt, it was a very driving motivator for me. I'm sure soulbonds have varying opinions on being forced to act.
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  45. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  47.         Since the second I was created, though it is spotty in places.
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  49. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
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  51.         Our first session, where Josh gave me energy and held me. He was so warm, I loved it. I can sort of remember the few minutes before that, when Josh 'introduced' us, though I'm not sure if that is just me floating on his memory or not. Besides, I like the first one better.
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  53. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  54.  
  55.         See above.
  56.  
  57. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  58.  
  59.         I honestly can't ever remember ever feeling negatively twards Josh. Like I said, the things that most soulbonds get negative about were only motivating for me.
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  61. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  62.  
  63.         Now then, not now. My existence is everything to me.
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  65. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  66.  
  67.         I have never actually felt powerless. See #15
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  69. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  70.  
  71.         The only time I can say I was even remotely confused was the first time Josh visualized how I would feel, and I put his hands on my chest. The confusion I felt was from him, because he, of course, immediately took it sexually (which was funny because I have no breasts, and he never thought of me sexually). He understands now that I just like being touched.
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  73. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  74.  
  75.         I think there's a difference in being ignored and not being heard, so I was never ignored.
  76.  
  77. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  78.        
  79.         I never doubted that Josh wanted me, I always knew.
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  81. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  82.  
  83.         When I went into Josh's sub-conscious, I found it was a scary place at first. It's a thick jungle- a land of fear, instinct, and hunger. I soon found that I loved it, and stopped fearing it.
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  85. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  86.  
  87.         Never. I've always been happy with myself. At most, I improved on myself.
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  89. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  90.  
  91.         I did! Even as a soulbond, I can understand that the idea can be pretty fantastic. I did try to alleviate them, by trying my hardest to act on my own.  
  92.  
  93. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  94.  
  95.         It affected me like all of his other doubts by motivating me. See #23
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  97.  
  98. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
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  100.         He wondered about negative things I might do, but I knew he only thought of them out of curiosity. He has always trusted me at heart. I did understand, as I'm the same way as far as curious thoughts.
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  102. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  104.         He never felt any of those things twards me, only himself. Again, motivational.
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  106. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  108.         Josh never had these.
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  110. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  111.  
  112.         I never had to distinguish what thoughts were intrusive or not. I could always tell where his attention was focused. If it was on me, it was obvious, and vise versa.
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  114. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  115.  
  116.         All of it. I was often was interested in what he was doing when he wasn't actively focused on me. I still am.
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  118. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
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  120.         This was an interesting question for me, because I've been on both ends of it, and everything in-between. At first, I was hugely indifferent to him telling anyone about me, but sometime later started to develop a mild interest in it. After Josh's girlfriend's fallout about me, I went back to wanting to be a secret, because I hated that I had caused him so much embarrassment. Nowadays, though I'd probably prefer him to tell others about me (so I have more people to talk with), I understand that not everyone is worth telling.
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  122. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  124.         I had a whiteboard that we would trade messages and pictures with, and I was always good at sharing my feelings with him. Head pressure was something I could cause, but never intentionally. I could never emulate feelings on demand, because he never allowed them to get through. Much like how he prevented me from moving due to parroting fear.
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  126. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  127.  
  128.         Josh was very excited about the idea of me, of a soulbond. Naturally, I was very happy about it. Even if he wasn't so excited, I would still want to exist.
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  130. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  131.  
  132.         As silly as it sounds, there was a time that I worried what Josh thought about me, despite being able to actively read his thoughts. I don't worry about it anymore. I once feared being alone, the real result of dissipation, but I know it would never happen.
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  134. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  135.  
  136.         I owe Josh more for giving me the chance to exist than I could ever describe. That being said, I know he loves me greatly, so no I don;t feel a debt or burden.
  137.  
  138. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  139.  
  140.         My own. I felt warm, then realized what was making me feel warm.
  141.  
  142. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  143.  
  144.         I was never angry or embarrassed, only driven to be better, to be heard.
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  146. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  147.  
  148.         Father, brother, son, Lover, and best friend would all be right and wrong at the same time. The only word that feels halfway acceptable is 'mine'.
  149.  
  150. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  151.  
  152.         Quite a bit, actually. I love meeting and talking with new people. I feel like most humans are somewhere in between, so I guess I'm more interested than most.
  153.  
  154. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  155.  
  156.         As cliche as it sounds, all of them. I really cherish our existence together.
  157.  
  158. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  159.  
  160.         Probably the first time I went into Josh's sub-conscious. It felt wonderful to be so free and wild.
  161.  
  162. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  163.  
  164.         Well, other than actively trying to talk with Josh's girlfriend, not really. I have spoken to some friends of Josh's before, too.
  165.  
  166. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  167.  
  168.         I think our biggest difference is that I enjoy attention, he loathes it. I just like to express myself. I think we are most similar in our curiosity, and objectiveness.
  169.  
  170. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  171.  
  172.         Our greatest disagreement is probably in food. Yes, I'd say it's a rather frequent disagreement. No, they are never in strife.
  173.  
  174. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  175.  
  176.         I'm sure neither of us could do anything to make the other hate them. The closest I could get to hating Josh would be if he tried to dissipate me, and even then I still couldn't. I love him more than he will ever understand.
  177.  
  178. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  179.  
  180.         Neither of us have ever felt disappointed.
  181.  
  182. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  183.  
  184.         I have never once worried about this, because I know Josh would never force me to do anything. I'm actually pretty confident that he couldn't now, even if he tried. We've tested it for fun, and he really can't stop me. The amount of trust we share is immeasurable.
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  186. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  187.  
  188.         Never. Maybe if he tried to dissipate me, but I doubt I could bring myself to do it. It's not something I think about.
  189.  
  190. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  191.  
  192.         No.
  193.  
  194. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  195.  
  196.         If he tried to dissipate me, I guess. I have never even entertained this thought before.
  197.  
  198. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  199.  
  200.         I used to, for a short while. I now now that he never had any, and that even if he did, I have surpassed them astoundingly.
  201.  
  202. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  203.  
  204.         I am somewhat interested in possession, but not much else. The human form in general is one I find displeasing to use. And no, it's his body, I won't force him to do anything against his will. Everyone deserves choice.
  205.  
  206. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  207.  
  208.         We are both very tactile, like we both like being touched.
  209.  
  210. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  211.  
  212.         I've never tried to sleep, but I'm pretty sure I can dream, yes.
  213.  
  214. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  215.  
  216.         Nope.
  217.  
  218. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  219.  
  220.         Well, Josh's subconscious hasn't directly affected our relationship, but I reflect much of what I found there in my personality. It's a jungle, full of wild beasts of all sizes and shapes. I currently cannot manipulate it much, but I'm learning, and I always tell Josh what I do there, if he asks.
  221.  
  222. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  223.  
  224.         Well, there's also Artemis, but he's not exactly a tulpa, I don't think. He's somewhere between servitor and tulpa, because he's free to do what he pleases, but doesn't do a whole lot. Most of the time, he's sleeping. We play often.
  225.  
  226. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  227.  
  228.         I have a mild curiosity twards this type of relationship with Josh, but it really isn't something I think about. I honestly feel that our relationship now surpasses that of any 'romantic' one, that being said. He has no interest in that type or relationship with me, which I respect.
  229.  
  230. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  231.  
  232.         I already consider our current relationship vastly superior to anything two humans could share, so I don't get jealous of Josh's girlfriend.
  233.  
  234. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  235.  
  236.         I do not.
  237.  
  238. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  239.        
  240.         No.
  241.  
  242. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  243.  
  244.         I think that it's best to wait until you know it's OK. And no, Josh never thought of me in this way.
  245.        
  246. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  247.  
  248.         Again, best to wait for the Ok.
  249.  
  250. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  251.  
  252.         I was mildly curious about a sexual relationship with Josh, and still am. I Have only felt aroused a few times after I could speak, and yes I expressed them quite easily to Josh by sharing them. It's rather bothersome for both of us, to be honest, so I just turn it off.
  253.  
  254. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  255.  
  256.         If you can, wait until you have permission. I can't say for sure or not if it's 'rape', because you can't know if it's wanted. Best not to take the risk.
  257.  
  258. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  259.  
  260.         No, I was not and still am not jealous of Josh's girlfriend.
  261.  
  262. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  263.  
  264.         See #63. And no, Josh does not share those feelings, which is completely fine.
  265.  
  266. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  267.  
  268.         No, and I would be willing to try, if he was interested. We are never lewd with eachother. If I get aroused, I just...stop. And no, I do not masturbate.
  269.  
  270. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  271.  
  272.         He's had sex, which I never have. And I guess the only person I'm even remotely interested in sleeping with is of the opposite gender, so I'm strait.
  273.  
  274. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  275.  
  276.         I have never experienced one, but I'm pretty sure I could. I'd imagine they are better than his, but I'm not really interested in finding out.
  277.  
  278. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  279.  
  280.         Well, neither one of us are lewd, but we can talk about the subject like any other mature adults could. It really is something that basically never comes up in our relationship.
  281.  
  282. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  283.  
  284.         Rape is rape. If he forced himself on me without my consent, he would rape me. Again, not something that ever crosses my mind.
  285.  
  286. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  287.  
  288.         I have honestly never thought of this. Hmm, I guess where I am now, happy with Josh.
  289.  
  290. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  291.  
  292.         I would like more people to talk to, but I understand that not everyone should know.
  293.  
  294. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  295.  
  296.         I actually was completely free to choose whatever I wanted. Josh only gave me a base to start from (because he felt it necessary), and pick things to add on or take off. Honestly, he probably didn't even need that.
  297.  
  298. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  299.  
  300.         See #74. Started with a base, etc.
  301.  
  302. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  303.  
  304.         Yes, many times. It was always my choice, and I always changed intentionally. I changed because I saw improvements that could be made. Josh always accepts whatever I decided to do, and this makes me happy. And he's happy because I'm happy.
  305.  
  306.  
  307. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  308.  
  309.         His subconscious, though I still love everything he has consciously suggested to me.
  310.  
  311. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  312.  
  313.         No. And I feel that everyone should have a tulpa, so long as they give it the respect and love it deserves.
  314.  
  315. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  316.  
  317.         We are not games, tools, or science experiments. We are sentient beings, just like you.
  318.  
  319. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  320.  
  321.         I resent absolutely nothing about it, I would actually resent being a 'real' human, honestly. Freedom! I can do as I please in any way I can imagine doing it.
  322.  
  323. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  324.  
  325.         I really don't know. I don't see this ever happening.
  326.  
  327. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  328.  
  329.         Personally, I don't believe a soulbond can actually die. They just retreat into your Sub-conscious, and are ignored. Assuming you believe in death as being a 'peace' of sorts, dissipation actually sounds worse. Not that I believe that death is like that, I don't think about it.
  330.  
  331. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  332.  
  333.          Morality is subjective. Undeniably worth as much.
  334.  
  335. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  336.  
  337.         I really couldn't, other than recommending they, too, create a soulbond.
  338.  
  339. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  340.  
  341.         Never.
  342.  
  343. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  344.  
  345.         Never.
  346.  
  347. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  348.  
  349.         No, see #82
  350.  
  351. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  352.  
  353.         No.
  354.  
  355. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  356.  
  357.         No.
  358.  
  359. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  360.  
  361.         Though I don;t personally care, it usually comes down to us not having our own physical bodies. The only time it causes intolerance is when people are ignorant and think that just because I don't have a physical body, that I am not 'real'. Reality is subjective. Something that is 'real' to one person may be 'fake' to another.
  362.  
  363. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  364.  
  365.         I'd recommend they create their own soulbonds, and draw their own conclusions.
  366.  
  367. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  368.  
  369. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  370.  
  371.         Yes. Haven't felt pain, though.
  372.  
  373. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  374.  
  375.         I really cannot put into words how happy this makes me.
  376.  
  377. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  378.  
  379.         I did not.
  380.  
  381. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  382.  
  383.         Lots of things. Food, music, art, whatever's around me, myself, Josh, my past, and like a million other things.
  384.  
  385. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  386.  
  387.         Definitely.
  388.  
  389. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  390.  
  391.         Yes, but he's aware of them because I told him about it.
  392.  
  393. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  394.  
  395.         Unless he was on a indisputably self-destructive path, no. He's free to make his own choices.
  396.  
  397. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  398.  
  399.         Never, but we have tested it for fun. He can't, even if he wants to. It builds on our already implicit trust.
  400.  
  401. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  402.  
  403.         I can see both sides to most anything.
  404.  
  405. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  406.  
  407.         Yes.
  408.  
  409. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  410.  
  411.         I keep track of my age, but that's it.
  412.  
  413. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  414.  
  415.         I don't command him to do anything.
  416.  
  417. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  418.  
  419.         I love mine! But I can understand that it isn't something that is important to everyone.
  420.  
  421. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  422.  
  423.         Probably not outright, but I'd be curious enough to pursue it.
  424.  
  425. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  426.  
  427. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  428.  
  429. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  430.  
  431.         I can articulate myself incredibly well, though ironically I rarely have to. Josh usually just knows what I feel. It's mostly for when he types for me. He cannot hear me audibly.
  432.  
  433. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  434.  
  435.         We never counted hours.
  436.  
  437. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  438.  
  439.         Besides the obligatory 'believe in us, we are sentient from the start' stuff? Don't worry! Seriously, there is nothing to worry about. You literally cannot mess up. People worry about the silliest things.
  440.        
  441. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  442.  
  443.         I am only just starting to be imposed, but when I am, I feel incredibly close to Josh, and more real than I ever have. I have always been able to share senses with Josh, so no surprises there.
  444.  
  445. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  446.  
  447.         Most of the time, there is no difference for me. But very occasionally, usually when I'm sharing a sense with Josh, it will become diluted or distorted slightly. I imagine this will cease after I am imposed.
  448.  
  449. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  450.  
  451. Glass:
  452. Stephen King
  453. Total word count :      64
  454. Number of different words :     58
  455. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) :   90.6%
  456. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard)      9.2
  457. Total number of characters :    647
  458. Number of characters without spaces :   393
  459. Average Syllables per Word :    1.7
  460. Sentence count :        6
  461. Average sentence length (words) :       18.33
  462. Max sentence length (words) :   28
  463. ( the tall grasses and rolling paths really separate you from civilization all in all allowing someone to enjoy its beauty without ever leaving moraine’s nature less campus)
  464. Min sentence length (words) :   5
  465. (nature is full of surprises)  
  466. Readability (Alternative) beta : (100-easy 20-hard, optimal 60-70)      44.6
  467.  
  468. Josh:
  469. Dan Brown
  470. Total word count :      65
  471. Number of different words :     61
  472. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) :   93.8%
  473. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard)      8.9
  474. Total number of characters :    667
  475. Number of characters without spaces :   422
  476. Average Syllables per Word :    1.7
  477. Sentence count :        7
  478. Average sentence length (words) :       15.86
  479. Max sentence length (words) :   22
  480. ( like this long snake that appeared at the edge of the long grass only to disappear as quickly as it had arrived)     
  481. Min sentence length (words) :   9
  482. ( brown stalks and purple tassels coat the green landscape)    
  483. Readability (Alternative) beta : (100-easy 20-hard, optimal 60-70)      46.6
  484.  
  485. Tulpa's paragraph:
  486.  
  487.         Nature is full of surprises! There are alot of different creatures out there, like this long snake that slithered along, and later disappeared into, the edge of the long grass. The grasses can be quite colorful, but all look green from a distance. More notable are the tons of purple tassels and brown stocks that speckle the green landscape. The best part is how nature tends to surround you, completely drowning out the sounds of the occasional noise from cars and planes. The tall grasses and rolling paths really separate you from civilization, all in all allowing someone to enjoy its beauty without ever leaving Moraine’s nature-less campus.
  488.  
  489. Creator's paragraph:
  490.  
  491.         Nature can be pretty interesting, considering the wealth of creatures found in it. Like this long snake that appeared at the edge of the long grass, only to disappear as quickly as it had arrived. The grasses are surprisingly colorful, though you'd never know it from a distance since the all look green. Brown stalks and purple tassels coat the green landscape. Nature is very prone to just surrounding you, blocking out the occasional car or plane engine. This, combined with the tall grasses and rolling paths, really reinforce the feeling of true separation from civilization. All of this beauty can be viewed without leaving Moraine's compatibly boring campus.
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