Kevinz000 Chat

RaiqYesterday at 11:48 PM
You wanna talk here?
kevinz00008/24/2018
i know you care about the server
but honestly, nothing much i can do anyways
Please tell me what has changed that opinion.
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:52 PM
I've already said in the forum posts.
I don't care about the in game stuff anymore, I'm not willing to logdive for hours with crappy incomplete ""HRP"" logs to comment on that.
You care about it but you're misguided in my opinion.
RaiqYesterday at 11:53 PM
Funny how because I messaged Bhjin two days ago
About the admin stuff
Suddenly my ban reason is "because of admin leaks"
Something I've not once used against anyone.
And only talked to Black about.
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:54 PM
We've had so many discussions both public and private about it.
RaiqYesterday at 11:54 PM
And I saw the admin chat
I saw the ENTIRE convo
From the moment Improvedname bitched about me
To the moment Vincent typed up a ban reason and said they wanted me got
gone
And then got Leon to come in and bin me.
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:54 PM
Your ban reason is not "because of admin leaks"
It's why I personally will not support this at this time.
Once again I don't know much about it outside of OOC observation on discord.
RaiqYesterday at 11:55 PM
My ban reason has shifted
a dozen times now
It's not powergaming anymore
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:55 PM
You rban reason, as much as I know, is still the original or what was posted on the appeal.
RaiqYesterday at 11:55 PM
It's not metagrudging
No
All of those were proven wrong
90% of my discord drama in the past year
has been bitching about events
and players who are being shitlords.
And to be quite frank
Jade has caused a shit load of my friends to quit the RP server
when I was playing it
But those comments were ignored
I was called "being dramatic"
Despite the proof
Despite OTHER FUCKING ADMINS saying the same thing
That Jade's destructive events have caused people to quit
I complained about that for months.
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:57 PM
this isn't over jade lol
RaiqYesterday at 11:57 PM
That's a large chunk of my stigma
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:57 PM
i don't think that shit was constructive like i said in my forum post but i don't care about it as far as the grand scheme goes.
i've already said in the post that i do not care as much about your discord stuff and what people friends to you are doing i don't have reason to believe you are intentionally shitstorming for the laughs
i alread ysaid that this is over how you've pursued your ban appeal
RaiqYesterday at 11:58 PM
And how have I "persued my ban appeal" wrong
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:58 PM
i've stated that already.
RaiqYesterday at 11:58 PM
I was told
by Jay
to wait
30
days
I waited 60.
I waited double.
I didn't do shit
I still had dozens of people messaging me
Saying they miss me
Ect
Telling me to appeal.
I waited.
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:58 PM
That's great, you waited the host's minimum wait duration they asked for.
RaiqYesterday at 11:58 PM
Jay didn't even look at it.
He bitched in admin chat
That I asked him about it.
When a fucking head admin says a ban isn't legit
And one who witnessed my behavior for 4 solid months
on the RP server
Keep me banned from the discord
kevinz000Yesterday at 11:59 PM
What are you achieving to do in PMs instead of forum posts?
RaiqYesterday at 11:59 PM
You won't hear my name again
November 5, 2018
kevinz000Today at 12:00 AM
I'm going to say now that I'm not going to reveal anything over PMs I have not publicly posted
RaiqToday at 12:00 AM
I'm not asking for shit
kevinz000Today at 12:00 AM
Why? Partially because of the leak bullshit.
RaiqToday at 12:00 AM
Leak bullshit
Because it's my fault you've got 4 fucking admins leaking me shit
Because 4 admins are pissed off enough at the situation to give me shit other admins won't say to me?
That's held against -me-
Shit I've disclosed to Blacj
Black
and only two days ago, Bhjin.
You don't see me copy pasting things to tons of people, it's kept internal.
kevinz000Today at 12:01 AM
Really.
I recall at LEAST one screenshot in discord of adminchat of things involving you
RaiqToday at 12:01 AM
You realize
I had a discord channel
made
of admins
in which we talked about my ban
and I linked everything I was given, right?
Bhjin was in it.
kevinz000Today at 12:02 AM
Alright well I can't blame all of the leaks on you. For all I know someone else received it and spread it
But tl;dr, refer to the post, it's what I'm going to say.
RaiqToday at 12:02 AM
I haven't spread shit
kevinz000Today at 12:02 AM
If I am going to say it here it'll be said in public.
RaiqToday at 12:02 AM
I've kept my fucking mout hshut
I want a legitimate chance.
And like I said
Keeping me banned from the discord will alleviate 99% of the worry.
Because you won't hear shit from me.
I probably should have gotten the hint the first time I bitched about being fucked with by a shadekin spawned in by an admin
And got a fucking note over it
Here's the thing, Kevinz
You can avoid a player
You can't avoid an admin who spawns in shit to fuck with you.
Or shit that fucks with you.
And then when you complain about it, you get banned.
https://i.imgur.com/pTrqYgi.png
Imgur
That is why I get so upset
That very first note was because Jade spawned in a shadekin that proceeded to fuck with me and killed an otie in science I was working on
that 2nd one was when Jade shot me as HoS in the back, when I was responding to an emergency.
And I fucking snapped
Because I've been fighting with jade
AND I HAVE PROOF OF THIS
for over a -year-
I have tried mending ties with them
It's impossible.
I've even fucking ERPed with them
a full scene
only to have them whip out a esword and behead me
like, downright spiteful shit.
https://citadel-station.net/forum/showthread.php?tid=937
See that note appeal?
I gave Jade proof I did my objective
I gave Jade proof I had chem access and was given it
Denied.
What the FUCK am I suppost to do
When I bitch and nothing gets done.
Oh that's right, it makes me look dramatic.
When I go to the RP server because it's calm and collective, only to be told by multiple regulars
That Jade's events are focused on themselves only
You probably think why the fuck do I keep bringing up Jade
but that's because almost all my RP issues are about shit they've done
as an admin.
That I've tried to avoid
but I couldn't
Because they're a fucking admin
You can't CYRO OUT as the HoS
when you're told the bridge has Centcom in it
and they're demanding you go there or  you'll be executed.
But fuck me for snapping when I get so sick and tired of it, right?
Fuck me when I get an admin who's giving me logs of all of Jade's complaints being tossed under the rug because it's just "bandwagoning"
When I watch friends legit quit the server because they're so tired of the drama, only to have a ton of people from Main like Charlie Kirkson come around and smash windows and wear bunny slippers and do absolutely zero RP
Charlie Kirkson who told me IN OOC TO BULLY HTEM
and when I did so
After I got banned
Kept bitching about me bullying them.
when they fucking told me to.
kevinz000Today at 12:10 AM
i've already said this is not about in game behavior
i've already posted my thoughts on the ds shit months ago
please refer to my forum post.
RaiqToday at 12:10 AM
And you're judging me based off main behavior
and
bitching about players and events.
kevinz000Today at 12:11 AM
when
did i say that.
RaiqToday at 12:11 AM
That is literally all my OOC behavior, dude.
I'm not denying I was a sperg on main
But I came to RP to wipe that slate clean.
And I was almost perfectly fine
for months
until I butted heads with Jade
And I got livid
in discord
kevinz000Today at 12:12 AM
i already said i don't care about your ic behavior much because i'm not willing to spend hours factchecking shit from half a year ago
that includes main behavior
RaiqToday at 12:12 AM
the IC stuff
kevinz000Today at 12:12 AM
i've already said i didn't care much about you "bitching" about players and events
RaiqToday at 12:12 AM
is related to the OOC stuff
kevinz000Today at 12:12 AM
i've done that too
not to me it isn't
RaiqToday at 12:12 AM
Then please give examples
Of what you consider "toxic"
Tell me what you're judging me off of.
kevinz000Today at 12:12 AM
refer to my forum post i've made it abundantly clear i don't care about that.
RaiqToday at 12:13 AM
Well you need to understand
That most of the IC stuff is the reason why I snapped OOC
Because having yet another round where Jade spawns in drop pods that destroy the entire atmos and make it 9999 degrees after a fire, and nobody can play or even escape shuttle.
Gets exhausting
Is it IC? Yes
But to a good degree it's not
When it's an admin fucking with shit needlessly.
And pissing off a lot of people, not just me.
I just yelled the loudest.
And why am I messaging you on here? Because I'll tell you exactly what I told Bhjin.
Tell me what I need to do to redeem myself in your eyes.
Because I'm willing to do what I need to do to wipe my slate.
in your instance, tell me what you've seen that's toxic/nasty.
Please give me examples.
I am trying to be as rational as I can be.
Oh
And last thing
https://citadel-station.net/forum/showthread.php?tid=1873
See this?
It's disgusting that that appeal is being even SLIGHTLY considered. If you want a truly toxic person, who actually legitimately fucked over rounds and is one of the people whom I know mad epeople leave citadel permanently with their metagrudging.
That's someone who truly needs to be tossed in the bin.
And someone who I complained about for weeks.
It took Zeronetalpha having to witness their metagrudging against me first hand to ban them, FINALLY.
kevinz000Today at 12:24 AM
i heard and i'm against them
:shrug:
RaiqToday at 12:24 AM
But guess who got bitched out for causing drama.
Me.
kevinz000Today at 12:25 AM
thanks for reminding me to post though i almost forgot
RaiqToday at 12:26 AM
Well, it's a good example of my stigma.
Did I bitch too loud? Yeah.
Probably should have toned that down.
Anyway, can you please give me examples of what you've seen that make you distrust me coming back.
I genuinely want to make amends and prove my worth
I'm not trying to be annoying
kevinz000Today at 12:28 AM
like i said on the forum thread, any more would be a leak in of itself
you know what you did.
RaiqToday at 12:29 AM
That's such a BS reply. No, I don't know what I did.
kevinz000Today at 12:29 AM
i'm not going to further discuss a ban over pm this is already something i normally do not do as i do not like discussing official things over unofficial channels
RaiqToday at 12:29 AM
Please tell me what I "did"
I wouldn't be asking you if I know what I "did"
And if you even gave me a sliver of what it was, I'd tell you
I'm not here to hide anything.
This is so incredibly frustrating.
You're holding something against me that you're saying I "did" with zero context as to what it even is, so I can TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED.
I'm being 100% honest with you right now, and all I'm getting back is what I feel like smoke and mirrors.
I've shed actual tears over this
It's impossible to work this shit out, it seems.
Is it when Bhjin was on the fence?
If you're going to give me a -1, make it a TRANSPARENT reason why. This is why I made this appeal, I want transparency.
For everyone
kevinz000Today at 12:41 AM
i did.
refer to post.
RaiqToday at 12:41 AM
lol
"you know what you did"
is about as non-transparent as it gets.
Fucks sake. If you told me what you think I did, I'll admit it if I did it, and elaborate, or tell you that I didn't.
Instead it's this bullshit, thanks man.
kevinz000Today at 12:44 AM
:shrug:
RaiqToday at 12:44 AM
I haven't even saved so much as a screenshot
Of admin chat.
And if you want transparency, I'm just gonna dump this chat onto the post.
Take care man.
kevinz000Today at 12:45 AM
sure.
RaiqToday at 12:46 AM
How the fuck would it even be a leak to tell me what I did, when I already supposedly know it?(edited)
kevinz000Today at 12:47 AM
i will not be discussing this ban further over non official channels
RaiqToday at 12:47 AM
Then I want that in the ban appeal