Isn't nice to feel blatantly ignored explicitly blamed for people leaving or other bad things and just being the opposition. Not once over many months did anyone reach back out of have courtesy to relpy. I thought I was doing good things and bad things too ofc, Ik I'm not perfect, but, I thought more good than bad, which doesn't seem to be the case now. I just felt stuck in all the interpersonal drama even between only three people, and it's hard and unpleasant to work like that. I think I do need to step out so I don't get as consumed and can have perspective on other things.
moonyYesterday at 12:33 AM
I left the servers, which feels a bit worse than I imagined
moonyYesterday at 12:59 AM
Oddly and ironically I randomly learned kyu was telling people I created the rule to ban childrens pics and some other mod stuff that's not even accurate. eh messy and shitty and feels like people are disingenouos. I'll work on letting it all go and try to think of other things.
I'm a bit sad and don’t want to end anything on a bad note, but learning more negatives about myself means I wasn't helping to even it out. I'm very grateful and I gained a lot being on Haven. I have a strong sense you'll reach your goals.
moonyYesterday at 1:51 AM
Not to be dismissive or focus on this but I’ve signed out of all haven accounts. I'd like to get the haven ipad back to you after I save some files.
moonyYesterday at 4:56 AM
I can't be an everyday admin and that seems to be the goal. Sorry I haven't been here like you expected. I guess I should have made a decision sooner, but I'm not always clear.  Thanks for letting me help and I hope you and charlie and whoever else head toward where you see Haven going. You have a ton of support and you'll get there.
moonyYesterday at 5:15 AM
I may delete discord bc I'm not on any servers. I have a few dms so I'll just leave it for now. I don't game and I don't think I'm good at socially involved things and don't like other servers so I'll probably leave bc I won't use it for anything. Seems sad now anyways and not so pretty now. Just sad and bad ending after everything. I hope I at least helped some people even if it's shitty now. I shouldn't expect anything for the good stuff but I hope it was or is good at least. I left but already disconnected and I don't think it matters much to people overall. I just wish I didn't end things like this or before arguing and me being immature or fixated, but smarter and more diplomatic and nicer and less arguing or fixating or ranting or editing and obsessively typing and writing or any of it really. I know I can't go back but I would have like another way even though I knew it would likely end this way on this kinda platform and considering I'm really not connected to anyone at all I don't think, except you, which is different and changed some, which I guess is inevitable to some extent.
moonyYesterday at 5:34 AM
I hope you feel better tomorrow after sleeping