Socionics Questionaire 7/1

Q0: Disclaim now if you have any mental health problems or are in a particular mental state (sad, annoyed, etc) which may bias or change your answers. This will allow typists to make adjustments.
Currently, I'm in a pretty decent mental state/maybe a bit tired.  I do have clinical depression and very severe social anxiety, perhaps tied to a general anxiety thing.  Sensory issues too but ehhh.

Q1: Why do you want to learn more about your type? Also, why are you interested in personality typology in general?

At this point I just want "completion." I've been into typology for about 5+ years at this point and am sort of attached to it despite exhausting a good bit of it.  Socionics is interesting for the moment because it the theory I know least about, at least in depth. Generally speaking, I was attracted to personality theory because, similarly to psychology as a whole, it sort of maps and attempts to categorize human thought and, being a person who relies really heavily on gaining understanding on systems to feel secure and in control of the "world", personality theory seemed to give me an edge.  Also it's a theory, which makes it a bit lighter than deep psychology and allows me to play around a theorize myself with the system as well as other ideas.

Q2: Work/life balance: do you use a concept like this? Do you think that there is a distinction between "work" and "life"? Explain why or why not.

Work is my life.  For me, ambition and obligation are two big parts in my life, so I'm constantly "working" towards something.  It wouldn't make sense for me to separate the two.  Realistically though, in terms of what I think this question could be trying to get at, I think a better distinction could be "mobilization/productive activity/(I guess work still works)" and "leisure."  I'm very modal as a person, sliding between a work deposition and a relaxed phase in a way that very much does not mix even if I enjoy both.  My brain seems to require the separation in order to function best.

Q3: What do you look for in your friends? What qualities do you like having in your friends and what qualities do you not like? Explain why you like and dislike said qualities.

I basically just look for someone who a) is able to maintain my attention and b) is willing to continue to initiate contact with me.
 Both in an extreme introversion way and a social anxiety way, I find it very difficult to put a huge amount of effort into relationships because people don't interest me and it takes a lot of energy to figure out the more reasonable way to respond to each person.  I guess I like adventurousness, initiative, "low maintenance" friendships that don't require much upkeep.  I don't like people who are constantly trying to break into my space in terms of information and actual space, my boundaries are very thick and this tends to drain my patience.


Q4: Do you behave differently with strangers or in professional settings compared to people you know or in casual settings? Explain the differences and explain possible reasons why those reasons exist. If there are little to no differences, explain possible reasons why there are little to no differences.

Yes and no.  Generally speaking, I have a default persona that I use to interact with all people.  I am not casual by nature, and even in "casual" scenarios, I've been told that I'm incredibly formal.  I know what people desire and find palatable in an interaction, and it's easier to treat everyone in that one way than constantly adapting my nature or revealing my vulnerabilities through natural behavior.  I'm a bit more formal in professional settings though, as a bit more control is expected in such interactions.

Q5: When other people talk about you, how do they usually describe you and the way you act? How do other people say they perceive you? Do not talk about your opinion on how people perceive you (Q6).

I don't really get this often.  Most recently I've been called disagreeable and guarded, slow to give out information, quietly assertive with an underlying angry feel.  Emotionally honest/terrible liar, indecisive, but well meaning and "innocent."  A bit reactive in terms of anger.  Aloof, but pleasant and well meaning.  Tense.  Conscientious, orderly, and conservative, perhaps excessively introverted and evasive of people.

Q6: How do you think other people perceive you? What do you want other people to see in you? When others hear the name [Your Name], what do you want them to think of? Do you (or do you feel that you) are projecting a "persona"? Why or why not? Do you think you projecting (or not) your persona is a good or bad thing? Explain why.

It seems that people take me to be pleasant and awkward.  I generally though people took me to be agreeable, but recently especially I've been a bit tired of keeping myself outwardly agreeable, so perhaps not so much anymore.  Apparently conscientious is a really common one, though it's realistically far from the truth.  I'm just ambitious and goal oriented and quiet enough that that's what any generalist would assume from me I believe.  It's not a natural trait, one that I've had to develop over a long period of time. I don't really care what other people think of me, so long as they're not attacking me in any ways.  My whole persona is a disarming tactic taken to the extreme anyways.  Projecting this persona is good and bad.  It keeps people at a safe distance I guess and allows me to focus on what I want to get done, but it also really hinders my ability to actually pursue meaningful relationships.

Q7: When interacting socially, do you take note of who interacts with who? That is to say, do you take note of the "cliques" or "groups" that form in environments such as work or school? Does this knowledge or this not knowing factor into your decision making in social interaction?

Only if it benefits me?  I'm generally very self absorbed and inattentive to relationship dynamics that don't directly involve me.  The only time I was really aware of such things was when I was being bullied, since it allowed me to have more control over my environment and protect myself.  Cliques always exist and if I try, it's not hard for me to identify them, it's just not something I prioritize unless I'm absorbed into one or constantly interacting with one.  Only if it effects my safety does it really factor into my decision making.

Q8: What qualities or values do you value or want to see in yourself? Do you meet those qualities or values? Why do you value those qualities and values?

Organization, decisiveness, directness, adaptability, passion, openness/understanding, temperance, and competence are qualities that I really value.  I have perhaps an excess in temperance, but I value the ability to tame ones passions and focus on something further off.  I've become more adaptable and competent, both are important in achieving ambitions and goals and generally dealing with the world.  Same with openness and understanding, although that gears more into wider understanding of how things focus as a whole, which again ties into my whole control obsession.  I'm not direct, organized, or decisive, and am very much lacking in passions (as well as general emotional awareness as a whole).  Passion is a way to actually enjoy life and feel fulfilled I believe.  The other things are just things I'm constantly yelled at about and have always struggled with.  As my biggest weakness, they are in need of fixing.

Q9: Imagine your ideal house. What does it look like? What rooms are there and how are they arranged? What amenities does it have? You are free to design a house either for only yourself or for family/friends.

It's not too big (maintenance concerned), probably lightly secluded, not so far from society so that I'm allowed to completely isolate myself, because that'd be boring, but far enough away that I could enjoy my solitude.  Even though I'm quite dissociated from the world in terms of not being a very present person by nature, being in nature might be nice?  Frankly, as long as it housed me and had a place to do things/somewhere to walk, I'd probably be fine.

Q10: What hobbies or creative pursuits do you take in your free time? Why did you decide to take up these hobbies or creative pursuits? In what way do these impact your life?

Work is a hobby haha, I'm in a constant state of studying these days.  Anyhow, I do a lot of art, I'm currently attempting to create a comic or some written work.  World and story building is a big one too.  Initially, art was just a fun thing I could do, but I get really absorbed in my inner world, structuring it's very physics and the different aspects which surround it.  I guess you could compare it to a dm's job in dnd, creating a world and literally constructing everything within it, except I use the world to play with ideas.  Drawing just keeps it from draining all of my focus away and completely shielding me from the world, although I also find drawing relaxing and cathartic.  This is very much a huge aspect of my life.  I'm also a musician or sorts and a chronic walker.  Music's weird, I don't necessarily attached to it in a way I'm aware of, but when I take it from my life I become significantly more depressed.  I am a high energy person, so walking and hiking I find is helpful in maintaining focus and getting out that energy.

Q11: When beginning a romantic relationship, what are you most afraid of happening (with respect to the romantic relationship)? If you have never been in a romantic relationship, imagine.

Not satisfying my partner and simultaneously extending my boundaries past exhaustion.  I genuinely do no understand relationships, both romantic and friendly, which puts me at a huge disadvantage when dealing with such things.  I require a lot of space and, despite feeling expressive am very much not.  I conflate reactivity and expressiveness apparently, leaving my previous partner unsure if I even cared for them at all.  I'm not a fan of conventional relationship or physical affection and am at times unbending, which makes things tough.  I'm not half as warm as people wish me to be.

Q12: Related to Q11: describe your ideal partner and what traits or qualities they have. Describe their body and demeanor. Do the things you expect and want in a partner parallel what you expect and want from yourself?

Low maintenance, adventurous, willing to have philosophical/interesting discussions.  Patient with my introversion and more extroverted than myself so I'm forced to live in the real world by their force I guess?  I've never felt attraction, so I'm not really sure what I'd look for. I expect things like patience with behavior and low maintenance from myself, but I'd always expect more from myself than my partner I think, I'm incredibly self critical.

Q13: Also pertaining to romance: now that you have elaborated on your ideal partner, describe your ideal relationship with that partner. How will you and them interact? What will daily life be like? Why do you want this life?

These are exhausting questions.  I've basically described what I've wanted in almost the same words every time, I'm unsure how else to elaborate genuinely.  It's difficult to imagine an ideal when I barely can conceptualize the normal.

Q14: What is your relationship with money? Do you value money? What are your spending habits? Do you try to save money? Do you see yourself as good at handling money?

I'm a massive stinge prone to hording.  I can be giving sometimes I guess in a helpful way, but despite never being destitute hoard it close to me.  I still have money in my bank account from 5 or 6 years ago, I'm a saver who wants little from the material world.  I'm naturally good at handling money, but that's purely because I never use it.

Q15: What is your fashion sense? What do you usually wear when going out? Do you see yourself as being fashionable? Do you care about fashion and the manner with which you present yourself to others?

I have none haha.  Very plain and comfortable, but formal.  I only wear jeans really.  I have a tendency to over saturate color and am prone to tackiness.  I am occasionally attracted to weird stuff, I have a pair of toe shoes that I love purely because they have toes.  I dress very androgynous, not purposely, but people question my gender orientation because of that on occasion I guess?  I care little about fashion, but I guess my only fear is appearing sexualized since such things make little sense to me.

Q16: The bedroom is arguably the most personal space one has. So, describe the state of your bedroom. Is it organized or messy? How are the things arranged? What objects are in it? Decorations? Do you particularly care about the state of your bedroom or your living spaces in general?

Normally, my bedroom is messy, but not excessively so.  I get anxious with excess clutter, so when I have it, most of it is stuffed within cabinets so it's not in eye view.  I have decorations purely because people have bought me a lot of stuff and I just put it around my room.  It's color coordinated, mostly out of boredom, like my wardrobe saturated in color since I enjoy color.  I have some plants/succulents that I care for because they're sort of relaxing I guess.  As long as it doesn't give me anxiety and I was able to maintain temperature (I get nausea with too much warmth), I could live in a shed for all I care.

Q17: When you feel upset, what do you usually do to make yourself feel better/what do you do in general when you are upset? "Upset" I am defining to be "state of extremely feeling a/some negative emotion(s)".

I usually have to go to sleep, take a walk, or move around.  I rarely actually "feel" my emotions due to mental health issues, so when I feel negative it's typically very overwhelmingly so.  I don't really have a ton of natural emotional intelligence in terms of myself either (even outside of mental health), outside of perhaps sympathy and such from studying people and attempting to understand them, so usually me dealing with negative emotions comes across incredibly reactive.  Running and moving around kind of forces my mind to focus on emotion so that I can dissect it, understand it, and resolve it if I can.

Q18: Now that you have finished the questionnaire, do you have any notes or anything to add? You may talk about how you felt taking the questionnaire and the experience of answering the questions. This may also be used to help select a type for you.

The relationship questions were really exhausting to answer comparatively to literally every other question.  I sort of feel bad, my answers are just as lengthy as usual, but it seems as though I've repeated myself a lot.  In terms of types I've been typed as in the past, others have suggested Harmonizing ILE, LII, ILI, EII, etc. ect.  I've been lacking the time to study this in depth which is incredibly frustrating.  I'm pretty open to most suggestions.  Enneagram wise, I'm 6w5 3w4 1w9 sp/so if it's helpful?  Mbti probably an INTP?