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- Lu-Uh-du-Uh-dub. Lu-Uh-du-Uh-dub.
- My heart pounds in my chest...
- Off-tempo and only barely doing its seemingly-basic job of moving my blood around - I hear its every movement slamming around in my eardrums.
- For once, though - there's an actual justification for it.
- Nervousness...
- I'm following my new teacher up a stupidly oversized stairwell to meet my new class.
- A new school... A new life...
- Well... actually - not so much. More like just picking up the pieces of my old one and haphazardly sticking them back together with masking tape.
- A life that shattered four months ago...
- ...
- 'Arrhythmia'. A strange word...
- "Do you want to introduce yourself?" The freaky-looking teacher I'm following asks as he stops us before the doorway.
- Snapping back into reality, I only barely register the question.
- After a minute, I shake my head in response.
- He accepts my answer before even I do and simply turns around with a nod.
- Feeling a bit relieved that I won't have to give a speech, I sink back into my reverie.
- 'Arrhythmia'...
- I mouth it soundlessly as I follow him through the door.
- It's a word that's foreign to the tongue. A word you don't want to be in the same room with.
- "We have a new student." He introduces me. "Class, meet Hisao Nakai."
- With no small measure of reluctance, I force my head up and look over the class.
- My new class.
- The first thought that crosses my mind is that it looks more like a field hospital.
- Practically everybody looks injured in some way:
- There's canes and other supportive devices scattered about, a few bandages are decorating our otherwise drab olive uniforms.
- There's more than one person who's completely missing some limbs.
- This is... my new class?
- ...
- 'Eh?'
- A small flash catches my vision for the briefest of instants.
- At the back of the class, a dark-haired girl has made a movement with one hand as if to cover her face...
- Ironically, that concealing motion is the one which caught my attention.
- It's a movement I probably would like to make myself right now since I've got twenty-so pairs of eyes on me.
- ...
- Probably not even pairs, actually - in a class like this, you can't even make the basic assumption that everyone has functioning vision...
- ...
- Why is it so quiet?
- Finally, the sallow teacher remembers that 'he's' the one who's supposed to be doing the introduction and gives a bland, generic-sounding tirade.
- I don't really care. 'Less interesting' means 'less unwanted attention'.
- The conclusion of his introduction is followed by a supposedly polite clapping-of-hands and banging-of-stumps.
- This... is my new classroom?
- "Nakai, you can sit over by Miss Hakamichi over there." He tells me, motioning towards a bubbly looking girl who looks almost ridiculously out-of-place in this sideshow act.
- I only nod and begin mechanically moving forward.
- 'Arrythmia'... A strange word.
- To me it's a word that sounds so much like a curse.
- = New World ====================================
- School life is mostly as I remember... Mostly.
- Unwanted group work because it takes less time for the teachers to grade you in groups instead of individually.
- I work with two girls, a busty deaf-mute named Shizune and a vivacious girl named Misha, who has bright pink hair styled into spiraling drills through some kind of horrible arcane process.
- They're nice enough, but, well...
- I'm still on edge.
- On top of that, I've never really liked group work, to be honest...
- Well, we manage to finish just a few minutes before the lunch bell rings.
- Having assisted Mutou in his noble goal of fucking off work early, I reign in behind my newfound companions to go obtain something edible.
- "It's the caf~e~te~ria!" Misha declares, exploding into the room with a disproportionate passion.
- A few people glance over, but no one really pays it any mind, least of all her.
- I can't help but smile at this strangely cheerful person.
- Psychologists call this the 'Chameleon Effect' - the phenomenon of your emotions changing to mirror those around you.
- If it does exist, then having someone like Misha around is definitely kind of a comfort.
- Sadly, even Misha's borrowed exuberance comes crashing down when I read the cafeteria menu.
- You don't even need medical knowledge to figure out that its main focus is to accommodate students who need special diets.
- Half of the items available I wouldn't even normally consider 'food'.
- How lovely.
- Picking out a lunch at random, I follow them both to a table by the window.
- I can't help but notice that the spaces between the tables are too wide...
- Oh, I see. It's for the people who need wheelchairs.
- I shake my head as I sit down across from Shizune.
- This is my second chance at life?
- How... foolish.
- You can't really call this a 'second chance'.
- "-an?"
- I was naiive to even think that would be possible.
- "HIIIICHAAAN~!"
- ?!?
- Misha's lilting voice accompanied by a gunlike snapping sound thankfully pull me back before I really start to brood.
- I look up into my drilled companion's bubbly smile. "You seem distracted, Hicchan. Is something on your mind?"
- Too much.
- I glance from Misha to Shizune to the cafeteria surrounding us and finally back to Misha.
- My heartbeat's pounding in my ears again.
- Too much new stuff, Misha.
- I... I need something familiar.
- "Is there a library in school?" I ask, praying that the world I knew hasn't been completely shattered.
- Misha pauses.
- I feel it took at least seven years for her to respond.
- Finally, she cracks a smile in response and gives a jovial nod.
- "WA~HA~HA! There is! Would you like us to show you?"
- Nodding, I can't help but feel a wave of relief rush through me as I realize I can still have my shield of books...
- Lunchtime manages to be tolerable thanks to this.
- Finishing, I hike back up to Mutou's classroom with Shizune and Misha in tow.
- More at ease than when I left, I manage to arrive back at the correct classroom and slide through the partially open door.
- ...
- There... At the back of the class I spot that same dark-haired girl again, reading a book.
- I smirk a little to myself.
- What a novel idea.
- !!!
- She practically leaps out of her seat as Misha smashes into the room behind me with the elegance of a rhino.
- Misha and Shizune either don't notice or don't mind her, as they walk directly past her to their seats and begin to converse.
- I'm left wondering about her, even as the classroom fills with other students and finally, the teacher.
- Class proceeds at a bleary pace - towards the end I start yawning and counting the minutes left.
- ... I shouldn't be this tired on my first day of school...
- Maybe it's my long stay in the hospital.
- Maybe it's the new environment.
- Maybe it's my condition itself.
- But for whatever reason, I genuinely feel physically weak and lifeless.
- = Dollhouse =========================================================
- After class finally ends Shizune and Misha deign to show me to the head nurse's office.
- He's an insufferably smug fellow, but he's efficient at least - and before I know it I'm out of there.
- I can't play soccer but I should do some kind of 'light exercise'.
- Up until thirty seconds ago, I would have considered soccer to be 'light exercise' but apparently not.
- I didn't ask him about the distinction. I don't care.
- I'm trying to avoid thinking about my heart condition, not center my life around it.
- Arriving at my dorm, I fish out my key.
- Looking up and down the hall, I note that it's only myself and one other person in residence here.
- On impulse, I knock on the door across from me.
- Best to greet my dorm-mate, I suppose.
- After about fifteen locks snap back, the door creaks open and I'm greeted by a sallow corpselike entity.
- I can't help but step back when confronted by the freakish figure before me.
- His hair is irregularly styled upwards into twirling grimy spikes.
- His skin glistens beneath multiple layers of partially-dried sweat.
- The scent of garlic bellows forth from the darkened interior of his lair.
- After I shake his filth-encrusted hand I have the burning desire to go wash. Or possibly cut my arm off.
- I can't quite remember the specifics of what this hideous creature talked about, but thankfully, it was over quickly.
- It seems my parents went to my room ahead of me.
- Of course - god forbid I be entrusted with the grown-up task of unpacking.
- Before retreating into his foul-smelling room, he lets me know that I shouldn't get to know him for my own safety.
- Then he walks into the wall before fumbling for the doorknob and disappearing.
- I realize he was trying to sound deep, but I opt to take his advice quite literally and resolve to avoid talking to this squalid person if at all possible.
- Well, if I was hoping to attain a sense of belonging from the dorms, that idea was just shot down fairly quickly.
- With a defeated sigh, I turn and head back into my own room.
- My room... It's nobody's room.
- An empty room - devoid decoration of any kind with purely utilitarian items scattered about.
- Monotonous bland beige walls, of course.
- The kind of hospital color scheme which is so innocuous that it comes right back around and starts being offensive again.
- If hell is a real place, I'd bet money that the walls there are beige.
- I look about to the few objects contained within this unroom.
- My uniforms which I've never worn...
- My bed which I've never slept in...
- I yawn.
- With a groan, I resolve to change this.
- I need to feel more rested if I'm gonna blend in more naturally.
- I choke in my pills and flop down onto the sheets.
- ...
- ...
- ...
- There's a tingling sensation at the back of my head which never went away.
- Finally accepting that I'm not drifting off to sleep as I intended, I lift an arm to my head and stare up at nothing in particular.
- ...
- Christ, even the bare ceiling manages to feel unfamiliar.
- I keep drifting further away from the world I knew.
- After a while, I start to feel a burning sensation where my back meets the sheets.
- Spreading along my skin and into my spine.
- I shift over to my side and glance at the clock - 1:00am.
- It's alright... I can still get a functional amount of rest if I manage to fall asleep soon.
- I'm thinking way too much.
- Running my mind in circles.
- ...
- No, that side doesn't wanna work.
- Try the other one.
- ...
- These sheets are clean, right?
- Are they too clean?
- Something's itchy.
- Ugh.
- I slam my face down in my pillow, perhaps trying to knock myself out.
- Doesn't work and I just glance over at the clock.
- 3:26.
- Fuck it. I'm not getting any sleep like this. Might as well move around a little bit.
- Rising, I dress myself in one of 'my' new uniforms and head out to explore.
- Yamaku's grounds are quite spacious.
- And as with most environments at threeish in the morning, it's completely deserted.
- The world looks like a tabletop model.
- All the buildings are there. All tools are neatly packed away. Window panes are gray in color.
- It's like I've wandered into an oversized dollhouse.
- I idly pass the time walking in massive concentric circles to get a feel for the grounds, stopping to rest atop a small hill when I run short of breath.
- ...
- Really? I'm out of breath from just that?
- Giving a wry smile at this reminder of my newfound mortality, I watch the sun rise from my perch on the hilltop.
- = Feint ==========================================
- I never even bothered going back to my dorm since I knew leaving would only be that much harder.
- Since I was already dressed for it, I just trudged straight from the grounds to class.
- "WA~HA~HA~! HEYY HICCHAN~!" Misha greets me as if a long-lost friend, leaping up to her feet with a broad grin.
- I don't even acknowledge her beyond a wave and flop down into my seat, resting my head against my hand.
- Casting a bloodshot gaze about the room, I notice a girl wearing a knee-brace in much the same slouched physical position as myself looking straight at me.
- Lazily, she tilts her head to the side before tossing me a wink and turning back to the front of the class.
- She doesn't seem very energetic, either.
- ...
- Heh.
- Other than her, everyone else either doesn't notice or ignores the combination of my slovenly posture and sloppy state of dress.
- I suppose I should have known better than to worry about standing out in this school, of all places.
- Class starts without a hitch.
- However, we hit one quickly enough after we get going.
- I'd honestly prefer not to talk to anyone today since I'm still not entirely at ease here and on top of that, I know I'll be less than eloquent given that I haven't had any sleep since arriving here.
- Sadly, I guess Mutou has something to do over the weekend and once again we're divided into groups.
- Oh, come on, Hisao.
- This is the second freaking day. No being antisocial.
- "You look tired, Hicchan." Misha translates for Shizune as the three of us drag our desks together. Or maybe it actually was her talking?
- Is there a way to tell?
- "Couldn't sleep last night." I answer simply, deciding to leave out specifics.
- "Aw. That's no good, Hicchan." Shizune (I think) replies through Misha. "A healthy sleep pattern is fundamental for full combat capacity~!"
- ... Yeah, that was Shizune.
- "Forgive me." I answer her. "We you intending to go into battle?"
- "Yep!"
- "Really?"
- "Of course! What is life if not a battle, Hicchan? You should always be ready for anything~!"
- I can't really say anything to that and nod to Shizune, who smiles and adjusts her glasses in what I assume is her version of a victory-dance.
- "WAHAHA! Ok! Now let's get to the mission, soldier!"
- Feeling a little better as I resonate with Shizune's enthusiasm, we start on the assignment together.
- After a bit, something dark flutters in my peripheral vision, catching my attention.
- ?
- Out of the corner of my eye, I spot that girl with long dark hair rising from her desk before silently slipping out of the classroom door.
- Nobody seemed to notice.
- Odd.
- It didn't seem like she was in any group...
- And the teacher didn't try to stop her, either.
- Looking after her, I furrow my brow as I contemplate this situation.
- "Hi... chan...?" Misha asks, raising an eyebrow at me with a confused expression. "Is something wrong?"
- ... "No, nothing."
- The rest of the school day drags on with no events either good or bad.
- Well, for me at least, a 'bad' event could be lethal, so I suppose I can be grateful.
- Pleasure is the riddance of pain, as they say.
- "Heyy, Hicchan~?" Misha perks up after class as we pack up to leave. "Are you free, now?"
- ?
- Well, I was gonna try and sleep since I feel particularly dead, but I'm not sure if that counts as much of a plan...
- ?!?!
- As I formulate a reply, Shizune strolls up behind me and seizes my arm, pressing it up against her chest.
- Hey! I didn't say anything yet!
- "Come on!" Misha emotes, joyfully skipping to my other arm and seizing it in a similar manner as Shizune. "Come play with us, Hicchan!"
- ...
- Let's review:
- I'm alone in an afternoon classroom flanked by two cute girls cuddling against my arms who are asking me to 'play with them'.
- It's worth postponing a nap to investigate this storyline.
- Sadly, though not unexpectedly, their intentions are revealed to be chaste after they lead me downstairs into a vacant classroom and begin setting up a board game.
- "What is this place?" I ask, spotting several different board games tucked into the cupboard they withdrew this one from. "Some kind of game club?"
- Misha and Shizune exchange a grin. "Aha, nothing like that, Hicchan, this is the Student Council Room. Shicchan and I are both members. Actually, Shicchan is the president."
- "Ah. So... will anyone else be showing up today?"
- "Hm... No, I don't think so, Hicchan..." She leans closer and grins. "That is, unless you're offering to join?! Are you?!? YAY!!!"
- "Wait? What? No." I stammer out.
- "Aw... Really, Hicchan? You don't want to play with us?"
- "Those questions are not synonymous."
- Misha puts her hands on her hips. "Alright Hicchan. How about this: If we win this game, you have to join the Student Council!"
- "I don't even know what game we're playing yet."
- This tirade of illogical counterarguments continues for several minutes before I can finally get them to agree to a friendly game with no strings attached.
- We decide on a game called Risk - one of those Wartime Strategy Games where you take the role of a malevolent god sending hordes of impressionable youngsters to horrifically slaughter each other while you eat hot pockets and laugh.
- I don't fare so well. Shizune perfectly repels my initial assault and before I know it, I'm scrambling to defend my own territory.
- Defend... Defend... Can't lose any more ground.
- A few moves later, she's utterly crushed me.
- "Tsk, Tsk, Hicchan!" Shizune scolds me through Misha. "You'll never make student council unless you learn to be more daring!"
- "... Out of curiosity, do the other potential candidates have to go through this selection process, too?"
- Pursing their lips, the two exchange a glance as if my fairly straightforward question could somehow have multiple interpretations.
- After a minute, Shizune makes a couple gestures and Misha snaps back to me.
- "WA~HA~HA~! Yup! Yes they do~!"
- "Well, you won't get many new members if the selection process is this arduous... Shizune seemed unbeatable there."
- She adjusts her glasses at this. Yeah, that's her victory-dance.
- "That's alright, Hicchan!" Shizune philosophizes through Misha. "I'd rather have a dedicated small unit than a big, unwieldy army!"
- I shrug. "Actually, speaking historically, nations who fielded large armies of shit had a higher wartime success rate than those with a smaller warrior caste."
- This past spring, I was a confined teenage boy with a shelf full of history books and limitless boredom.
- Time to shatter some illusions.
- Shizune stops her preening dead as Misha translates.
- It's at this moment that I realize Misha's signing is apparently an automatic process, as she raises an eyebrow of her own when she finishes. "Eh? Really, Hicchan?"
- "Really."
- Whether we're talking about the Americans versus the British, the Dutch against the Spanish, or the Russians versus the Germans - as a general rule of thumb, the volume of soldiers has historically mattered more than their actual quality.
- As with most things, facts of reality would not make interesting movies.
- You don't strictly 'need' professional soldiers who devote their life to killing.
- Killing is easy.
- I should know.
- I've seen the fragility of life firsthand.
- ...
- I try to keep myself from becoming melancholy as I proceed to explain all of this.
- It's tricky.
- ...
- "Anyways." I perk back up, feeling quite tired and starting to slide into my brooding mode. "Congratulations on your victory." I tell Shizune as I turn to leave.
- ?
- A force tugging on my sleeve stops me. Further inspection reveals it to be her hand.
- "We were only teasing, Hicchan..." She informs me through Misha, who actually looks apologetic as she acts out Shizune's words. "We'd be really happy if you'd join."
- ... I can't just outright refuse Misha's pleading face. "I'll keep the offer in mind." I say ambiguously. "For now, I think I need to sleep."
- If either of them found that comment strange, they hide it well.
- "Night-night, Hicchan!"
- Shizune waves.
- Smiling back at these two, I head out of the double doors.
- I'll just go quickly pick up some books at random and then I'll get back to my dorm to try and rest.
- After a few moments, my sojourn to the library is offset by certain hitherto unnoticed procedural errors.
- The most detrimental of which is the fact that I don't know where the library is.
- Hm. Not as planned.
- After my traditional technique of 'wander aimlessly' fails, a half-open door catches my attention.
- The room doesn't seem as if it's large enough to be a library, but if nothing else I can probably ask directions.
- Ask directions?
- What if I interrupt someone doing something important?
- I freeze.
- ...
- Dammit.
- It makes no sense, but the feeling of being an outsider to this school just can't be shaken from my mind.
- It's so pervasive that I'm afraid of committing some kind of transgression just by the simple act of entering.
- Gingerly, I press my fingers up against the door as if expecting it to suddenly catch fire.
- It gives way with minimal pressure and creaks as it swings inwards.
- With no small amount of trepidation, I poke my head inside to gain sight within the room as quickly as possible...
- And the timid 'hello' forming on my lips completely dissipates.
- ...
- This is... not what I was expecting.
- = Mare Tranquillitatis =============================================
- Nestled within the light as if being one with it...
- I find a slender figure seated before an illuminated window.
- A radiant girl - with clear porcelain skin and goldenrod hair cascading in waves down her back.
- My breath is stolen away by the sight of this beautiful girl before me.
- In a motion of delicate ease, she sets down the tea cup she was holding as if in acknowledgement of my presence.
- ...
- The movements of her lips seem to break the silence moreso than her actual words.
- She speaks...
- "Shizune, if that's you, I will murder your family with a shovel and burn down the hospital you were born in. I will destroy all record that you ever existed-"
- Suddenly, she cuts herself off -
- !?!
- Heart pounding in my chest, I shake my head from side to side as time apparently resets itself.
- ...
- In a motion of delicate ease, she sets down the tea cup she was holding as if in acknowledgement of my presence.
- Huh? Did that actually happen?
- The girl repeats the motion I could have sworn I just witnessed her complete.
- What... Was that? Some kind of sleep-deprived hallucination? A bizarre signal I somehow received from an alternate reality? Nah. That's just crazy talk.
- Damn, I need sleep.
- For the first or perhaps second time, she speaks.
- "Hello there. May I help you?"
- "O-Oh." I stumble, hurdling my exhausted brain into gear. "Sorry for intruding. I was just kind of lost."
- Her hair flutters ever so slightly as she nods in acknowledgement before gesturing to an open seat on the side of the table opposite to her.
- "Would you care to take a seat?"
- As her eyelids open, I can make out a pale cloudy hue floating atop her otherwise cerulean-colored eyes.
- I nod, trying to catch her gaze.
- I'm at least perceptive enough to tell she's not looking at me. Or at anything. She's staring straight ahead of her...
- Then I remember where I am.
- Oh, I see... This girl must be blind.
- As I sit, she rises.
- "Please." She emotes, gesturing outwards with an open palm. "Have some tea."
- I blink in startlement as she rises from her chair with an unnatural degree of grace, as if following the carefully choreographed motions in a scripted dance.
- I feel myself grow calmer watching her.
- "I'm Lilly Satou." She introduces herself after a moment as she hands me a cup and saucer. "Pleased to meet you."
- I take it breathlessly. "Hisao. Hisao Nakai."
- She nods in acknowledgement as she sets herself back down into her seat.
- I can't help but stare at this beautiful girl against a backdrop of sunlight.
- She looks almost... holy.
- Time passes in a tranquil blur.
- We speak of this and that. Of nothing in particular.
- And moreover of subjects which do yet have some import.
- From her I learn that it's not compulsory to join a club.
- That's a welcome relief. It's enough to have Shizune and Misha breathing down my neck without adding faculty to the mix.
- Turthfully, I don't want to join a club: I've had the myth of clubs shattered before my eyes.
- The 'community' they're supposed to cultivate is fake.
- Not one single member of my old soccer club visited me when I was in the hospital.
- ...
- "Hi... sao?" The blind girl vocally prods me as if somehow sensing my mood.
- ... I have no idea what my tell was.
- Did she hear me gritting my teeth? Did I spill my tea? Bang the table with my knee, perhaps?
- In need of a deflection, I cite the first thing that comes to mind.
- "Do you come here often?"
- She nods, apparantly not confident enough in whatever her detective method was to pursue a conversation with it. "I do. Nearly every day, in fact."
- "Ah." I say, finishing my tea and placing it back onto its saucer. "I can see why you would. This is a nice place."
- Not a word of that is a lie.
- There's a definite sense of serenity permeating the room...
- Lilly has an arrestive calming presence about her.
- Whether it's because of her beauty, her soft tone of voice, or her delicate mannerisms...
- For whatever reason, I find it very easy to relax in her presence.
- ...
- More time passes, then-
- "Huh." I notice the sun setting through the window. "Time's gone by quickly."
- "Pardon?"
- Oh. Right. She can't see it... I feel as though I've committed a faux pas, but answer her all the same.
- "Oh, the sun's setting."
- I make it sound as nonchalant as I can, but to my surprise, she raises a hand to her lips in an expression of mild alarm.
- "Oh! Dear me."
- Nice work, His-
- "I'm so sorry, Hisao. I didn't mean to keep you from the library for so long."
- Huh? 'That' is what she was worried about?
- "No worries." I reply, becoming a bit apologetic myself for flustering her. "It's still open, right?"
- I take note of her fingers deftly flicking to a braille watch beneath her sleeve.
- She then smiles and nods. "Yes - you still have half an hour, about. Shall I show you where it is?"
- "Oh."
- I honestly wouldn't mind spending some more time with her... But...
- I'm probably being a bother.
- "It's no trouble, Lilly. I'm sure that I can-"
- "I insist." She speaks, rising and extending a thin navigational cane. "It's the least I can do to make up for detaining you like this, Hisao."
- ... Best. Detainment. Ever.
- "Well, when you put it like that, it's hard to refuse."
- Together, we leave the peaceful room and exit our impromptu sanctuary in search of the library.
- = Shared Library ===================================
- Paradoxically, my search for the library goes much more smoothly while being led by the blind.
- I guess old sayings can't always be said to be accurate.
- Entering it - I'm quite pleased to find Yamaku houses a true 'library'.
- Not at all like my improvised storeroom back at the hospital - it's both spacious and, from the look of it, quite well-stocked.
- ... I wonder if anyone uses that place now...
- "Yuuko?" Lilly calls as we enter, apparently unable to perceive the room's vacancy.
- BANG!
- Both of us jump slightly at a cacophonous smacking sound followed by another dull thud as a purple figure tumbles out from beneath the reception desk.
- "Owie..."
- Oh, it's a person?
- Indeed it is - a redhead with freckles and glasses, who convulses slightly before looking up.
- "L-Lilly!" She squeaks before staggering to her feet.
- It takes a moment to elaborate the situation to the somewhat-puzzled-looking blonde at my side.
- Afterwards, introductions are in order:
- I learn that this nervous-looking redhead is Yuuko, the Yamaku librarian.
- I learn that Lilly regularly imports English books for the visually impaired.
- I learn that Yuuko suffers from anxiety problems and desires to quit but can't because of her financial situation.
- I learn that she keeps a rather large stack of yaoi yandere doujins on her work desk and accidentally checked some of them out instead of reference textbooks earlier.
- I walk the hell away before I learn anything else which'll keep me awake with fear tonight.
- Leaving the girls to chat, I head down the book-lined corridors, breathing in that comforting musty smell.
- ?
- I recognize that figure nestled in the back corner.
- I find that wraithlike girl from my class nestled comfortably into a beanbag at the back corner of the library.
- Her flowing dark hair flutters ever so slightly through the ribbons of stale sunlight as she delicately flicks through the pages of her book.
- I can only see small snippets of her skin, but from what I can see she appears quite pale; it contrasts sharply with the dark blanket of her hair.
- That wispy figure resting against the plush beanbag chair... looks as if a shadow given form.
- I get a strange feeling from her... A calmness somehow different from Lilly's radiance...
- "!!!"
- A serenity that breaks in an instant.
- The girl suddenly jumps, looking straight at me.
- It's at this moment that I realize I've been dazedly walking straight towards her while I was thinking.
- And now I've seized her attention before I was ready to say anything.
- Yeah... 'seized' is definitely the right word here for its forceful implications. Her head jolts up as she locks her gaze directly on me with an almost fearful expression.
- I move to greet her, but stop suddenly.
- Beneath her hair, I can now make out that almost half of her face is discolored and leathery...
- It looks familiar somehow, giving me a strangely sickening feeling.
- Suddenly, my eyes meet hers and I realize how horribly tactless I must have been just now - soundlessly walking up to her and stopping my greeting dead the instant I saw her face.
- [] Hi! I'm new here. Hisao Nakai? We're in the same class...
- [] Oh! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to startle you.
- = Atrophy =============================================
- "Oh!" I force a sound out of my mouth just to kill the awkward silence. "I'm sorry... I... hope I didn't startle you."
- "It's... ok."
- She clams up instantly after this terse riposte.
- ...
- When you're meeting someone new, silence seems to have a visceral texture.
- "So..." I try again.
- Her gaze isn't oppressive at all, it's actually the opposite: I kind of feel like I'm giving her the silent treatment even though she's the one staying quiet.
- "Is it ok if I sit here?" I ask, indicating the beanbag chair at her side.
- She freezes dead for several seconds... and then finally, almost imperceptibly, issues a small nod.
- I settle myself down next to her.
- As I sit down, she never lifts her gaze from me once - or even blinks.
- Did I seriously scare her?
- I know I wasn't the smoothest just now, but I wouldn't say I was outright creepy.
- "So... Sorry for scaring you again. Um... I'm Hisao, hi."
- "I... k-k-know. We're i-in t-the same, tt-t-th-he same, s-s-same c-class."
- With quiet, stilted words, the clearly nervous girl haphazardly tumbles over her own speech in response.
- "Hanako. My name... it's Hanako."
- "Oh." I muse just to have something to say."That's a nice name. What characters is it written with?"
- "..."
- [INSERT CULTURAL TRANSLATION PLACEHOLDER]
- She volunteers nothing else.
- A one-sided inquiry like this is an interrogation - not a conversation, and really I'm not such a mean-spirited person as to enjoy that sort of thing.
- Deciding that I'm only going to be bothering her, I shrug and gesture to the bookshelves adjacent to us. "Don't mind me. I'll just... check these out."
- She nods, visibly relaxing as I retreat back a few steps.
- I retreat a little bit, but stay within visual range, a bit intrigued by this strange girl.
- Looking her over, I feel like such an idiot, being as perplexed as I am with her scars.
- Everyone in Yamaku is defective in some way; it's kind of the reason we're here.
- Yet - her level of physical disfigurement strikes me moreso than anyone I've met thus far.
- I'm not entirely sure why.
- It might be the contrast.
- Hanako... Between her alabaster skin and ebony hair she'd probably be very pretty if she didn't look as though she'd taken a grenade to the face.
- As for her figure...
- ?
- Although it seemed relaxed to me at first, I now find her posture to be extremely rigid.
- Suddenly a slight flicker of color resulting from Hanako's eyes jumping directly from her book to me reveals why.
- It's my presence.
- She was only pretending to immerse herself in 'the Porcelain Knight'.
- As our gazes meet, she practically leaps up from her beanbag chair, taking a deep breath.
- "I... I..."
- "'I'...?" I echo her.
- "IVEGOTTOGODOSOMETHING!"
- She suddenly bolts off to the side with the alarmed rapidity of a frightened rabbit.
- "H-Hey! Wait!" I call after her, starting to follow after her and hoping I haven't committed some kind of terrible faux-pas.
- Pushing myself, I accelerate to a dash as well-
- ?!!
- And slip.
- As I try to make a sharp turn in pursuit of her, my ankle slips off to the side and my top half careens along with my centrifuge directly into a bookshelf.
- BANG.
- A sharp wave of needle-like pain bursts out from the side of my head as I slam downwards.
- Unceremoniously, I smack into the floor tangled up in my own limbs, the world now glossed over in a haze.
- "FFFFFFUCK~!" I whimper out despite my best efforts to stay silent.
- Pain has a way of breaking down inhibitions.
- "Hisao?!" I pick up two female voices in unison.
- Lilly and Yuuko?
- I ignore them; My attention is elsewhere.
- The pain itself is only a secondary distraction.
- Every ounce of my awareness is firmly locked onto my heartbeat.
- My heart.
- My chest... Did I hit it?
- Lu-lu-lud-dub-ludub. Lu-lu-lud-dub-ludub.
- With my condition, the rhythm itself means basically nothing, but I pay close attention to the timing.
- ...
- It's normal.
- "Ow..."
- Relief and pain flood into me as one.
- I only hit my head.
- Hard.
- ? I detect a soft force on my arm.
- "Hisao?! Are you alright?" A shaky voice asks.
- Lilly?
- My eyes refocus on her genuinely worried visage.
- I'm almost touched that she can show earnest concern for someone she just met earlier today.
- "Ah... Ahaha..." I turn to her, flashing a reassuring smile without immediately realizing the futility of such an action.
- It comes out as a much broader smile than I intended, more like a maniacal grimace.
- In spite of myself, I start laughing.
- I'm relieved...
- I'm actually relieved that I 'only' smacked my head on the edge of a bookshelf.
- "Hahaha!"
- Am I really so close to death that 'this' is a relief?
- "AHAHAHAHAHA~!"
- Lilly's eyes widen in surprise while the redhead who can actually see me shrinks back from such an aberrant sight.
- I pull myself free of Lilly's thankfully light grasp and lever myself up against the bookshelf.
- "Hisao?! Do you need the Nurse?"
- "Aha! Ha? Oh... nah... I'm fine, Lilly... Just need some air..."
- Fighting down tearful giggles, I lumber off, piecing together what just happened through waves of inappropriate hysteria.
- I was chasing after Hanako... No, just 'starting' to chase her.
- And when I tried to make a sharp turn - my ankle gave way.
- I can still stand, so I didn't twist it or anything... It just literally gave out.
- Maybe it was because my muscles atrophied in the hospital.
- Maybe I was uncoordinated due to lack of sleep..
- Or perhaps it was just because my messed-up heart couldn't give me enough oxygen on short notice and I got dizzy.
- Whatever the reason, I just got hurt because my body was weak.
- No... Worse than that.
- Not only did I just almost brain myself, but I also scared Hanako and probably freaked the fuck out of Lilly.
- ...
- I feel horrible in every possible way.
- Biting my lip, I head off to my dorm and lock myself in without turning on the lights.
- Taking a seat against the wall, I yank a sheet off my bed and wrap myself in it.
- Alone in the dark, hating myself for my own fragility, I spend a good length of time sobbing into my knees.
- = Early Bird ==========================================================
- The night dragged on slowly, so slowly.
- I never got to sleep - just kind of sat there.
- I tried to read but quickly learned that all it does when sleep-deprived is give me a splitting headache.
- ...
- 'Finally' I noticed it was morning and pulled on my uniform to go walk the grounds.
- It's still quite early and before I know it I'm already looking over Yamaku's morning facade.
- Well, since I'm up before class anyways, I'd very much like to find Hanako and apologize for yesterday.
- As a rule, when you spook someone badly enough that they yell and run away, you have made some variety of non-negligible faux-pas.
- ... Dammit. Morning sunlight hurts.
- Meandering about somewhat stupidly, I can't spot Hanako anywhere.
- ...Wait...
- Why did I think I was going to find her just by aimless searching?
- I... really am not thinking rationally.
- Coming back to reality, I find myself heaving at the top of the hill overlooking the athletic grounds.
- No way she'll be there.
- Actually, pretty much no one is - I make out a single petite figure gracefully bounding around the track but it's otherwise empty.
- I guess I forgot how early it still was.
- The nurse did tell me I should get some exercise, but I feel as if I might collapse already.
- Despite my state of mental fatigue, I'm still counting my heartbeats, so I can tell it's normal.
- Well, whatever 'normal' means for me, at least.
- I guess it's just my meds. Or my mind. Or losing my mind because of my meds.
- ...
- I wanna pass out.
- Maybe I can springboard into a nap using a food-coma?
- Although I'm not really hungry, I decide to try it and head over to the cafeteria.
- Arriving as early as I have, I ascertain the cafeteria itself to be rather sparsely populated and, better yet, that the handful of food items which are actually edible are all available.
- Picking up some veal cutlet bread and milk, I move out of line, looking around for either Hanako or Lilly.
- No such luck, at this hour even early-bird students wouldn't be here yet.
- I do, however, spot one familiar figure: That sleepy-looking girl I noticed in class yesterday.
- Since I'm at least a little curious about why someone else would be here at this dreadful hour, I head over to her table and pray there's not some unknown complex procedural rite involved with speaking to her as well.
- Reaching her, I find her resting her head on the table with her body wrapped in a blanket.
- Huh?
- Was... she keeping that in her bag?
- "Morning?" I probe.
- In a dazed motion, she looks up at me and blinks a few times before responding. "Oh. Good morning. You're Hisao, right?"
- I nod, a little pleased that she remembered my name.
- "I'm Suzu. Suzu Suzuki." In a motion that seems to take her far more effort than it should, she reaches over to shake my hand - then stops midway when she notices my hands are full.
- Her lips form a wry grin as she simply squeezes my wrist instead. "Nice to meetcha."
- "Likewise." I answer. "So... is it ok if I sit here?"
- "Go for it."
- I don't need to be told twice, half-sitting, half-falling in the chair adjacent to her.
- My body feels as though it's made of jelly.
- The veal bread isn't that big... but I'm not feeling particularly hungry...
- I think one of my medications' side-effects was nausea? Maybe? I really should have paid closer attention to those.
- Well, shame to waste it.
- "Want some?" I ask her.
- The girl named Suzu tosses me a half-smile. "I guess I wouldn't say 'no' if you're offering."
- It's weird, actually - she's behaving as if I genuinely did wake her up but she doesn't seem the least bit bothered by it.
- Deciding it's too early to play detective, I file it away and split the bread before tossing her a half.
- Taking a few mechanical bites, I prop my hand on my head, staring off into space.
- "Trouble sleeping?"
- I jump a little as Suzu questions me with a mildness that belies her accuracy.
- "Gold star." I force a smirk. "What gave me away?"
- She returns the gesture. "I guess you could say I'm class 3-3's resident expert on sleep trouble."
- "Lofty title."
- A shrug.
- "I was thinking about 'Liege of the Viridian Nightmares" but I wanna get some feedback first."
- "Why Viridian?"
- "Long story."
- = Tonality ======================================
- I'm not sure what to say in response to Suzu, who tosses me a smile which I can't tell between being either genuine or forced.
- Asking about this sort of thing still kind of feels like a taboo.
- Luckily, she absolves me of the responsibility to ask and segues into a different topic which I really can't focus on at all.
- As we speak, I look her over: her hair's of a similar tone to Shizune's, maybe a bit lighter, but much less well-brushed, jutting and wavering about.
- There's a dark tint around her eyes - which are focused on me, but are far from analytical in nature - their texture resembling wisps of a cloud.
- It's at this moment that I realize I'm staring and hastily try to look engrossed in the divine mysteries of my bread.
- Having just woken up, though, she seems only barely more attentive than me and either doesn't notice or doesn't care enough to say anything.
- Or maybe she just didn't want to tease me this early.
- No matter which way you look at it, I'm not gonna look a gift horse in the mouth.
- "Sorry you got dropped in like this." I come back to the world as she makes an out-of-place comment. "I know Mutou's not exactly the easiest teacher in the world."
- As she speaks, I can't help but notice how she keeps her head propped between her hand and her shoulder - even though her eyes are on me.
- Am I that boring?
- "It's fine." I reply. "I can keep up."
- "You're about the only one, then." She muses with an exasperated expression.
- Huh. Well I wouldn't exactly say physics is that hard.
- It's just applied math. Anyone can do that. It's just patterns and formulas, like phrases in a language.
- I've been going over it in the hopes that the monotonous repetitions will help me fall asleep...
- ?
- As I ponder this, the bell rings, signaling us to class.
- I'm definitely not feeling it today, but I still want to try catching Hanako.
- I groan and lever myself up off the table.
- "Well, speak of the devil. I guess it's time for him now."
- Suzu doesn't rise, keeping her head nestled within her arms same as before.
- "Are... you coming?"
- "Eh?"
- At this, she looks at me. Then glances down, seeming as though going to class was an idea she was only haphazardly toying with.
- = Hollow Solidarity ============================
- "Hey, don't be a stickler. I'm going and I don't really feel that passionate about today either."
- She looks at me, blinking slowly a few times.
- "You really want to live with the guilt of being a bad influence on the new guy?"
- "Ok..." She decides a bit reluctantly.
- With even more effort than it took me, the girl pushes herself off the table into a standing position.
- It's at this moment that I notice she's wearing a knee brace.
- I decide not to ask. She didn't press me on my circumstances, so it'd just be plain rude to do it myself.
- After Suzu folds up her blanket and crams it into her bag, we take leave and head up to class 3-3 together.
- About ten minutes after class starts, Hanako slips in and takes her seat.
- The teacher doesn't comment on her truancy and nobody even looks at her.
- ... How...
- You'd think a school for the disabled would be more attentive.
- Mutou stops his lecture mid-sentence to tell us we're going to break into groups again.
- He then sits down at his desk and begins reading an academic journal in Norwegian for a couple minutes before looking up confusedly and remembering that he has to actually give us the assignment.
- Although he's certainly intelligent, Mutou's completely disordered approach to life makes him feel as though he's a malfunctioning robot moreso than a person.
- We break into groups and I'm quickly corralled by Shizune and Misha.
- Suzu seems to have fallen asleep at her desk. I could go for some of that.
- Hanako, at the back of the class, remains aloof from the commotion.
- No one's even seeming to acknowledge her.
- "Hey. Her, over there..."
- Misha follows my gaze across the classroom directly past Hanako and then back to me. "Huh? Who, Hicchan?"
- "Her. Hanako." I make a motion towards her...
- "Oh! Yes, Hicchan?"
- "Does she always work alone?"
- "I think so, Hicchan."
- I'm about to ask if we can invite her before she suddenly gets up and leaves again.
- Not really having any energy to spare, I halfheartedly devote myself to the assignment at hand.
- By the time lunch break rolls around and Shizune and Misha have started arguing about... something... I turn back and find Hanako's apparently snuck back in at some point.
- ...
- Wow. She is good at this 'sneaking' thing. I never heard the door open.
- As I look after her, she glances nervously from her book to the door.
- About half a minute later she repeats this same action.
- Maybe she's waiting for someone?
- Well, Suzu's still conked out at her desk.
- I guess Mutou's lecture 'was' kind of dry.
- Fearing the ire I'd gain from stepping in between Shizune and Misha, I fall back on my original plan of going and apologizing to Hanako.
- I suppose it wouldn't be so bad to take up a minute or so of her waiting period to apologize for yesterday.
- Leaving the Student Council Recruitment Agency to their pointless quarrel, I make my way over to the wispy girl nestled at the back. "Hey Hanako."
- She jumps a bit "His...sao?"
- I nod, a bit pleased that she remembers my name, at least.
- "I wanted to say... I'm really sorry about yesterday."
- "It's ok." She replies, looking down a bit. "It was my fault."
- ...
- Say something say something say something.
- "Were you waiting for someone?"
- "... Yes... Lilly."
- "Lilly? The blind girl?"
- She nods.
- Huh. "I guess the two of you are friends?"
- She looks up to me and smiles, her neatly kept fringe brushing over her face as her head moves.
- "?"
- After a minute, she nods and casts her gaze down at the floor. "Yes."
- With her gaze averted, I'm actually the first one to notice our mutual blonde acquaintance at the doorway.
- "Oh, she's here now."
- = Downcast =======================
- I announce Lilly's presence with a level-enough voice, but Hanako spins around with such force I'm amazed she doesn't give herself whiplash.
- "Lilly..."
- Hanako purrs her name softly.
- It's barely more than a whisper, but it's evidently enough to get her attention.
- Adjusting her collar, she walks in, trailing her fingers along the edges of the desks as she makes her way back.
- "Hisao?" She calls questioningly.
- I leave aside my amazement that she was somehow able to tell.
- "Yeah. Right over here."
- She gives a small nod.
- "You're feeling alright then?"
- I haven't slept in several days. I feel like someone's polishing the back of my eyes with a sand-blaster.
- "Yup. I'm fine."
- The blonde girl breathes a small sigh of relief at my lie. "Glad to hear it then."
- Hanako, on the other hand, looks at me with a pair of widened eyes. "What are you talking about?"
- "Oh." Right... She was probably out of the room already. "I sort of fell in the library after you left. It's nothing to worry about."
- Despite this, Hanako looks very worried, gazing her me with her hands clenched before her.
- Silence...
- "Then. If you're feeling up to it, would you care to take tea again?" Lilly suggests, breaking the awkward moment.
- I smile at her. "Yeah. I'd like that."
- "Same place as always?" Hanako probes, moving over to Lilly's side.
- She nods and we all file out of the room.
- As we walk, I notice that Hanako almost presses herself up against Lilly - almost. She leaves a barely perceivable distance between them.
- Oh yeah, I remember reading somewhere about how important an internal sense of balance is to the blind.
- Hanako keeps herself close to Lilly, but doesn't actually touch her.
- Instead, she opts to walk at her side with her expression downcast.
- It's a small gesture of tact, but I can't help but find it kind of ch-
- BAM.
- As we exit into the hall, something approaching the land speed record smashes squarely into my chest.
- I'm winded before I can even yell.
- My vision flashes black as I careen backwards in silence, unceremoniously smacking to the floor.
- "Hisao?!" Lilly and Hanako squeak in unison.
- Being the gentleman I am, I'd feel horrible about making two girls worry themselves despite the pain of being hit by whatever.
- So as I try to rise, I weakly lift my hand and move say I'm alright.
- It's at this moment that my vocal chords seize up.
- "AAKKKK~"
- What I produce instead is strained choking sound.
- Waves of pain shoot outwards through my body.
- A sense of terror floods through me alongside them.
- My chest feels like it's being smashed in a trash compactor.
- Lululududbudubdbdbdbdbduuuuuuuu
- My heart has no beat anymore. I'm in complete fibrillation.
- A sickening dizziness overtakes me as my brain starts malfunctioning from a lack of oxygen.
- Then darkness.
- Medically speaking, unconsciousness isn't really the same thing as sleep.
- I heard that once while I was in the hospital and didn't really get it. They seem pretty similar to me.
- Now though, experiencing a contrast of this magnitude, I wholeheartedly understand.
- I come back to the world still feeling like death.
- I'm still exhausted. Maybe even moreso than before.
- And on top of that, my chest hurts.
- Groaning, I pull myself up a little, trying to re-orient myself.
- This is the school clinic. Ok. No surprise there.
- What is surprising are the two girls sitting in the chair against the wall.
- Lilly and Hanako.
- What-
- As I try to wrap my mind around the situation, Lilly gently closes her book and smiles. "Welcome back, Hisao." She softly speaks.
- I can't help but gawk in amazement that she'd have waited for someone she just barely knew.
- As I do so, Hanako practically leaps up and takes my hand with a small smile.
- "You're ok..."
- Hanako...
- "How do you feel, Hisao?" Lilly asks tentatively. "The nurse would only say that you were stable..."
- A pang of emotion surges through me at these words.
- Lilly doesn't know about my heart condition. This episode must have been a complete surprise for her.
- "Did... you wait the whole time?"
- Lilly's expression falls a small note. "I was worried. I couldn't just leave."
- "W-we... c-c-can go if you want." Hanako peeps up.
- This comment sends a surge of terror down my spine as memories of being isolated in the hospital well up in my mind.
- "No!" I grab Hanako's hand since she's within reach.
- Her eyes shoot open in shock, but amazingly, she doesn't recoil or anything of the sort.
- = Requiem ===============================
- Lilly returns a motherly smile and nods, taking a seat by the side of my bed. Hanako settles herself down next to her.
- "I'm sorry that happened." I begin, trying to give an introduction that'll make talking easier.
- I'd rather not say it, but after an incident like that, I think Hanako and Lilly deserve an explanation.
- "I have a... guess the best way to put it would be 'messed up' heart. Congenital defect that causes arrhythmia."
- "I-i-is that..." Hanako tries to ask something, but quiets herself out of fear. Or perhaps out of tact.
- I nod. "Yeah. I had a bad heart attack a while ago and spent the spring in the hospital. Ended up in Yamaku on doctor's orders."
- Lilly's face is a porcelain mask of contemplation, but she acknowledges my words with a small nod.
- "So... that's about the size of it from my end. Either of you get the license plate number of whatever hit me?"
- "Ah..." Lilly gives a strained smile. "That was Emi."
- "Emi?" I ask.
- "Emi Ibarazaki. One of the girls on the track team. She... doesn't exactly follow the rules about running in corridors as stringently as most..."
- Holy shit. Hold the presses. A school rule exists that actually makes sense? This is major, man.
- "I overheard her getting yelled at while you were asleep..."
- Throughout Lilly's narrative, Hanako remains silent, her eyes fixed on the floor.
- Well, I'm still mostly keeping my attention focused on Lilly since she's speaking. Maybe Hanako's just being polite?
- It does kind of seem like her.
- "Well, she did seem genuinely sorry when she came in here." Lilly adds as a caveat. "She said to tell you she was really, really sorry and would make it up to you."
- "Tell her as long as she doesn't try to kill me again, that's enough."
- Lilly grimaces, as does Hanako.
- Ugh... Maybe gallows-humor isn't quite their thing.
- Still, they stay by my side the whole time.
- After a little, the Nurse comes in to ask how I'm feeling.
- "Kinda... tired?" I answer.
- He frowns a bit, looking me over. "I see... Anything else that you've noticed?"
- "Not.. really... I just haven't been able to sleep. At least, nothing else until earlier and I think we all know why that was."
- "Yes. Sorry about her." He replies with an almost disappointed tone. "Anyways. Just try to rest tonight. If it still doesn't work, come see me."
- A little amazed that he was able to deduce my insomnia without actually asking me much, I nod.
- "Good. Disrupted sleep is one possible side-effect of your meds, so if one is happening, there's a likelihood you might experience others. So don't hesitate to come get one of us if you think you need to."
- I just nod again.
- He smiles. "Alright. Well, I think you should be stable enough to try and go back to your dorm, but like I said, definitely come back here if something doesn't seem right."
- With that, he lets the three of us go.
- Lilly and Hanako walk me back to my dorm, staying rather quiet.
- Well, 'quiet' seems to be Hanako's default mode, anyways.
- It's a bit merciful. I don't think I'd be an overly engaging conversationalist.
- Still, when we arrive at the male dorms, I turn to the two of them.
- "Really... Thanks a lot for being there. It helped."
- Lilly puts a hand to her face before smiling sweetly. "Anytime, Hisao. Though still, let's not do that again, shall we?"
- "No objections on this end."
- We all bid each other a good night and head our separate ways.
- Reaching my room, I smack down into my mattress with a groan.
- Burrowing into my sheets is a surprisingly difficult task.
- My limbs feel as if they've been carved from rock by a drunk using a soup spoon.
- Amazingly, that burning feeling crawling along my back is still there.
- ...
- I'm cold.
- I feel really cold.
- With a grunt, I toss my blazer on over my sheets as kind of a makeshift comforter.
- It doesn't really help much.
- Ugh. This is not a good sign...
- The maddening part about insomnia is that you're too tired to get up but can't lie down either.
- It's almost like being entombed.
- Staring up at the ceiling, I keep thinking back to Lilly and Hanako earlier today...
- Or yesterday.
- Or tomorrow.
- Since every day since I've arrived at Yamaku has still been the same day from my perspective, time is blurring.
- I don't want to dwell on this.
- Where were my thoughts before this unwelcome tangent?
- Ah... Hanako. And Lilly.
- It's such a great thing that they're friends. I can just see myself trying to introduce them and totally fucking it up in some way.
- It makes sense, though, given that both of them are so caring.
- Not one person I called my 'friend' visited me for that long in the hospital. And they both stood by me as though it were nothing.
- Is this Yamaku? Or just those two?
- I think Lilly might be an anomaly... She's... So different from anyone I've ever met before...
- She's... graceful. Calming. That's a very welcome trait right now.
- And Hanako... Hanako...
- She's at the forefront of my mind as well.
- I think it's that she doesn't seem entirely at ease about being here, either.
- Ironically, this fact makes her perhaps the most relatable person I've met thus far.
- I pass the crushing darkness staring up at my ceiling, thinking about these two - with Shizune and Misha making guest appearances in my mind at random intervals.
- Then a light starts splitting through the cracks in my window and my heart plummets as though I've just seen my own executioner.
- It's morning. Again.
- Feeling abnormally cold, I throw on my blazer before heading over.
- I leave my tie bunched up on my nightstand. I can't fucking breathe with that on.
- Swapping out one part of the uniform for another part. I should be karmatically even.
- I stagger into the school building and glance around.
- Oh. I'm pretty sure that's Hanako over by the stairwell-
- "Hey, you, Ahoge-kun." A voice comes from over my shoulder.
- It says a lot about how often I get teased over my hair that I'll actually respond to that.
- A bit startled, I turn to find a tan, fit-looking girl walking up to me wearing a catlike grin.
- "Yo."
- I've seen her before in my class... But if I did know her name in the first place, I can't recall it.
- "Hello?" I ask.
- "Aw. You don't remember me? That hurts, man."
- "So does being teased about my hair." I respond, giving an exaggerated frown.
- "Ha ha. Point taken. Alright." She smirks and claps a hand on my shoulder, then gestures to herself with her other... stump?
- "Wha?"
- "Miki. Miki Miura." She indicates herself.
- "Nice to meet you. It's Hisao." I say, wincing a bit.
- Maybe I'm feeling fragile from exhaustion, but Miki's grip strikes me as surprisingly strong.
- That combined with her blunt manner and the somewhat striking fact that she's completely missing her left hand causes me to step back a little.
- At this, she frowns a bit. "What? Still upset about the hair thing?"
- Releasing me, she ruffles my head. "I'm sorry. Sorry. Didn't realize it was a sore spot. Come on, I'll buy you a coffee to make up for it."
- "Um... But we've got math in like, five minutes."
- "Screw math. It's boring as hell."
- = Threadbare ========================
- Well, I'm not exactly in agreement with Miki about math being boring, but I also don't have any burning desire to go to class.
- Actually, the prospect of being crammed into an uncomfortably hard desk for several hours sounds downright nightmarish right now.
- Yeah. Screw math. For today at least.
- "Ok."
- Apparently pleased with herself over her prowess in corrupting the new guy, Miki flashes a thousand-watt grin and grabs me. "Ok, off we go."
- The monolithic state of fatigue I'm feeling is counteracted a surprising amount by that sense of excitement one feels when they know they're breaking the rules.
- Heh.
- I reign in alongside Miki as we head to the vending machines outside the cafeteria.
- "So, how've you been settling in?" She asks.
- "Fine."
- She frowns at me, clearly having wanted an actual answer.
- Shaking my head, I mentally tut-tut myself.
- Something that I'm starting to pick up on is that unlike other places, when people at Yamaku ask how you're doing, it's a real question.
- "Honestly... Not so well." I respond in a tone that comes out much for resigned than I meant it to. "I just... Can't seem to integrate."
- "Aw." Miki emotes. "Could have sworn you and the Student Council were getting on."
- I return a wry grin. "I said 'integrate'. They're one step below a press gang."
- She laughs aloud at this as we reach the vending machines. "Yeah, true."
- It turns out that we both prefer the same blend of coffee.
- Miki awkwardly shuffles one can into the crook of her elbow and tosses me the other.
- "I don't know..." I continue, just barely managing not to fumble my can. "This place just feels kinda... 'Off'."
- "And how about you?" Miki remarks, now pulling me off to... I have no idea where.
- "Pardon?"
- "You mentioned how the place feels, but not yourself."
- Me?
- Rocking my coffee can back and forth, I think for a minute before responding. "If I had to pick a single term, right now it would have to be 'worn'."
- I realize, looking at my new friend's pensive face, that this sounded kind of grave.
- Damn. Even I realize what a downer I'm being.
- "So, why all the concern?" I ask, hoping to imitate Lilly's inquisitive smile.
- Miki's upbeat grin vanishes and she tilts her gaze down, mumbling. "What, are you saying I'm insensitive already?"
- Hm. I don't think it works as well for me.
- "N-No, I-I-" Stumbling over myself, I try to come up with a way to salvage this.
- After a minute, she lapses back into a teasing smirk. "I was just goofing."
- Ha. Haha. I try to stop myself from chuckling, but she got me.
- Satisfied with it, she throws her arms around a bit before replying. "Honestly, Emi asked if anyone shared a class with 'that new messy-haired transfer student'. Said she'd accidently blindsided you yesterday."
- I grimace a bit in recollection. "Ah... yeah."
- The one-armed girl nods."Yeah, well, she asked at practice yesterday looking guilty as hell. Wanted to know if anyone could check up on ya."
- I'm not entirely sure if I should be offended about being babied or touched that people here actually care enough to look out for each other.
- Not wanting to be overly negative, I decide on the latter.
- "I really don't know her that well, but it seemed a decent excuse to introduce myself, so I volunteered." She grins. "You're in one piece, then?"
- I return the expression. "Yeah. Thanks, Miki."
- We come to rest on a hill overlooking the athletic field, where Miki flops down on the grass.
- And not a minute too soon - I'm already winded just from walking here.
- I was trying not to let it show, but my heart rate is already a bit faster than I'm comfortable with.
- Thankfully, my armless friend doesn't seem to have noticed.
- Settling myself down next to her, we just sit in silence for a few minutes, sipping our coffee as we watch the world waking up in the midmorning sun.
- "I can't really blame ya, though." Miki breaks the silence.
- "Hm?"
- "Yamaku. Took me a bit to adjust to being here, too."
- = Tempus Fugit ==========================================
- I wind up hanging with Miki all the way from morning to lunch period.
- Once she's got her assurance for Emi that I'm not going to fall over and die, conversation takes on a mostly more lighthearted tone.
- As the sun rises higher in the sky, we swap little tidbits about each other.
- Miki's on the track team - formerly the best, though Emi Ibarazaki passed her times a while back and has only kept going.
- "I don't really mind." She adds with a shrug. "I'm just there to keep myself busy. Emi, though - man, it's like she just lives to run."
- I still haven't actually seen Emi. All I know is that she's incredibly solid.
- A mental image of Samus Aran takes over when I try to envision her.
- I laugh a bit under my breath, knowing this probably isn't the case but deciding to lose myself in the fantasy for a moment.
- Are there any disorders that would necessitate wearing a full-body suit of armor?
- "I mean, how am I supposed to compete against someone who wants first place that badly?" Miki breaks me from this strange yet completely awesome delusion.
- "You don't get along?" I wonder aloud.
- "Mmm..." She mulls this over, perhaps trying to find a good way to summarize their relationship. "She's nice and all. I just tend to get on better with the guys for whatever reason." Is the cryptic answer she decides on before staring off into the sky.
- I tell her about how I used to play in a soccer club.
- "I was decent." I summarize. "Better than average, but certainly not the best."
- "Gonna be joining the soccer club here, then?" She guesses. "They're usually looking for new blood."
- "I can't play anymore."
- Miki shuts herself up instantly, sensing that she's stepped on a landmine.
- Hastening to save the mood, I addend myself. "Well, to be honest, I'm not really much of a club person. It was just sort of mandatory at my old school."
- Miki grins. "Yeah. Clubs are just sort of a tool to help set up friendships. If you can just skip that step, all the better for you."
- Pleased that she's of a similar mind to me, I nod.
- After a bit, the lunch bell rings and both of our heads jerk in the direction of the sound ringing off of the school building.
- "Wow, we were out here for longer than I thought."
- "Time flies, yeah?"
- Does it ever.
- I straighten myself up and offer a hand to Miki, who takes it and effortlessly yanks herself off the ground.
- Taking note of the toned musculature on her arm, I realize how fitting her position in the track club is.
- "Back to class, then?" I ask her.
- She shrugs. "Sure. Why not?"
- We both head back inside.
- Reaching Mutou's class, I've prepared an elaborate cover story about how Miki and I missed the first half of the day because of a ninja-attack, but it proves to be unnecessary, since Mutou himself is absent when we arrive.
- That Miki and I arrived together, though, does not go unnoticed.
- I make out Misha looking over the both of us with a broad grin before breaking into an animated conversation in sign with Shizune.
- I try to put it out of mind and look around for the few others I've broken words with.
- Hanako seems to have made herself scarce as well.
- And that other girl, Suzu, is also absent.
- I'm starting to get the feeling that ditching here is rather easy.
- Tucking this useful tidbit of information away in my mind, I take my seat.
- A second later, someone lightly prods me in the back of the head.
- "Hicchan..."
- How did I know?
- The second half of the day passes considerably slower than the first.
- Mutou stumbles in halfway through a lecture that he apparently started in the hallway to a class of students in another dimension and either doesn't notice my tardiness or doesn't care enough to call me out on it.
- Both work in my favor.
- My massive state of exhaustion starts to creep back rather quickly as class drones on.
- The volume of Mutou's voice seems to alternate between blaring and whispering at random intervals.
- By the time the bell rings to release us for the day, I've stopped taking notes because my fingers were rebelling against me.
- With a yawn, I rise.
- I decide than since I can still move my legs, at least, I might as well go get some shopping done.
- I head out the gate.
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