You woke up in tears.
I was there, to still your fears.
I wanted to hold you, make it all go away.
Just to lay there with you, till the end days.
Cuddle and kiss, to hold and miss.
Your love makes me stronger, more happy,less sad
If I'm with you, I'm never mad.
The world is being turned upside down,
but you're my steady grounds.


I hope what you feel is as real as what I feel.
This is a done deal, you and me, versus the world.




You're beautiful girl,
I'm lucky you graced my world.
I'd wait for you till the end of time,
I'm yours, without reason nor rhyme.
I'm hungry for your love, needy of your touch, grateful of your lust.

The pills are working
I'm losing control
my minds spiraling down this dark hole
I see the light at the end of the tunnel
My sweet release is near
I shed a tear, not from fear, but from the joy of knowing my journey is over.\


Suicidal tendencies, lack of self control.
the knife cuts the vein, I let the blood pool.
the water grows cold, my head becomes light.
What comes after death? Eternal Night?
I think of times past, why I'm here now.
A bead of sweat drops from my brow.
The pains going away, my senses go dull.
I'm slipping away, away, away from it all.


Why I can't be happy like the rest?
Why am I sad, even at my best?
I'm not ok, I hide it quite well.
I consider suicide, deterred only by hell.
Yet I can' tkeep living this way, day by day.

i'll always be by yourside
no matter how hard you need to cry

when darkness consumes
and light does not shine bright
I'm sure to help guide you through the  night

When you're at your weakest
with no one to hold
remember you never need to be told
how much I love you dear

for if it's as clear as I say
you  never need to have a lonely another day


my love for you shines bright and true
oh what ever did you do?

My heart aches when you're not around
my mind wonders without your ground

your heart is pure, this isn't untold
with your loving warmth, I'm never cold





when good comes to bad
light turns to gray
alls I need is to think of you and say
OH LAWDY HOW YOU LIGHT UP MY DAY.


-Growing up-

Seasons are changing, days come and go.
Light turns to the  night, oh I see snow.
I'm getting older, no longer a lad.
I'm growing up, I should be glad.
Yet a coldness still lies with me
as I grow and change
I'm not ready to be on my way
I'm still a boy at heart, not a man
How come this no one can  understand?
I don't want to move out, live my own
I always want to be here, in my home.
Yet the day awaits, when I'll be gone
In the end, I must be strong.


-Rage-

This rage consumes me
It's growing inside, I'm coming undone.
I feel this hate, it can't be overcome
I want to maim, kill, and hurt
People are seeming more like dirt
I'm seething, trying to keep it behind a wall
if I let it out, surely everyone will fall
I'll struggle to contain what can't be forced away
Judgement is coming, it iwll be my day.