i have a new toy

Do you know the definition of forgiveness? Do you? It comes from the old english word forgifan which, broken up, comes to for and gifan, which means to give. The actual definition of it now, in this modern age, is to stop feeling anger toward someone who has done something wrong or to stop blaming. I think the latter portion is very important to remember because if one stops blaming another person for a problem, it means to let the problem disappear and to move on. That's truly what the word forgiveness means. It's a verb which means it's an action. Do you understand? I don't blame anymore.

I also gained a lot of that from reading comic books like Batman and Captain America. They always brought out the best in people, even if they lived on opposite sides of the spectrum. No matter how fucking crazy The Joker could get, you could always expect Batman, in some way, to forgive him by not killing him. And you could always admire how Captain America in some ways forgave those who betrayed him and who lied to him. I kept those comics in particular with me and I always turned through them when I need personal guidance and in a way, it always felt like they were right by my side, helping me.

(get seductive, sultry, etc)
I'm sorry if that seemed long winded baby. But I want you to understand that right now, as I gently glide this knife across your chest, that I forgive you.

Shh. Shhhhh. No more crying. That won't help you now. No one can hear you. As of right now, you are my new meat toy. You're nothing more to me than a piece of meat for me to fuck whenever I get bored. And after drugging you with some... pills, it seems as if you're stiff... and ready.

(Moan in excitement, then laughter, insane laughter)

(start to get a little unhinged)
Now... Now that's a delicious cock if I've ever seen one. It's been so... so... so  long since I've had one inside me. But people find it hard fucking the "insane" girl. I mean, me! Insane! How fucking could they! I've done so much to get to get their attention, to finally feel their hard cocks inside my holes, to let it slide in and out of my throat. I would have made a GOOD SLUT! I WOULD HAVE BEEN THEIR CUM DUMPSTER! I'D LET THEM DEHUMANIZE ME! LET THEM CALL ME ALL THE MISOGYNIST NAMES IN THE BOOK IF IT MEANT I'D GET TO FUCK! But no! They never! Paid! Any! Attention! To ME! I've fantasized about it so much OH MY GOD IT WAS ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT AT NIGHT! I'VE MASTURBATED SO MANY TIMES! Even drugging you got me so wet with anticipation! I couldn't wait! And now (more laughter) now I've got you for myself.

(more insane laughter)
A FUCK TOY A FUCK TOY A FUCK TOY YES!

Hehe well now I have a new toy. But it's okay. I don't blame you. Now. Lets. Let's begin.

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[If you want to improvise something lewd and keep going, by all means, I'm not really good at writing sex dialogue so]