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- Princess Pigeon - 03/06/2018
- Hey, how are you holding up right now?
- Noah - 03/06/2018
- I'm trying to help Rissa hold on to her life..
- She's majorly suicidal
- Princess Pigeon - 03/06/2018
- I know
- Noah - 03/06/2018
- I know you'll stay her friend. So please help her
- Probably as soon as this call ends she'll ban and block me
- Princess Pigeon - 03/06/2018
- I will try.
- March 9, 2018
- Princess Pigeon - 03/09/2018
- What is going on with you?
- Noah - 03/09/2018
- I am being torn apart. I swear to God I love her to death half the time, but she's just so coarse for all the rest...
- I miss her, she approached me to come back into my life. I literally spent all day thinking we could be friends, and immediately in the conversation where I say I'll leave if she is still like that to me, she starts pulling the same stuff...
- I just, I need to block her. I can't do it.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/09/2018
- Yeah. You need to separate from her. She needs to separate from you. Its not healthy for either of you.
- Noah - 03/09/2018
- Yeah... I think that last conversation was what I needed to really convince me her and I could never be friends.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/09/2018
- I think it's best for both of you. All that comes out of it, seems to be pain.
- Noah - 03/09/2018
- Yeppppp
- Ah well, sorry to give you more shit to deal with
- Princess Pigeon - 03/09/2018
- Nah
- I'm going to be honest, I was Thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis close to flipping out on you.
- I'm glad I was able to control it though
- I know you aren't in the best of places either, and the last thing I want to do its make it worse
- Noah - 03/09/2018
- She was telling me how all of my friends think I'm shit now. So I figured that was coming to be honest xD
- I left her because we were incompatible, not because I wasn't in love with her.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/09/2018
- Yeah, no I don't have an issue with you leaving her. It was more the coming back, then leaving again and again type of deal.
- It's whatever though
- Let's move one
- Noah - 03/09/2018
- Yeah....
- Princess Pigeon - 03/09/2018
- No sense in dragging this out ^-^
- Noah - 03/09/2018
- Agreed xD
- I'm gonna go make Ramen, I'll catch you later
- Just wanted to wrap that up since you messaged me while I was at work
- Princess Pigeon - 03/09/2018
- Okay. I'll be here should you ever need me
- Noah - 03/09/2018
- If you wanna talk or hang out, you know where to find me
- Princess Pigeon - 03/09/2018
- Ditto.~
- March 11, 2018
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Hey. How are you?
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- I'm like two different people in the same body.
- Half of me is grieving over every lost romance of the past five years.
- The other half is moving on, and looking forward to whatever's next.
- It really dawned on me yesterday.
- I'm an awful person.
- So yeah, that's how I am.
- Yourself?
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- I'm tired, and my body hurts.
- If it makes you feel better
- I dont think you're 100% awful. You have faults sure, but who doesn't. It's good to recognize them, and start repairing them.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- I'm bad.
- And I know I can't change.
- Innately I'm flawed.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- I don't think you are. Personally.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- You don't know me like they did, or like I do.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Regardless. I have heard plenty. But I'm not going to pass judgments upon you.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- I believe anyone and anything can be fixed.
- I was.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- You don't seem to judge anyone xD
- Something in me says that someday I'll meet the one for me and this will all stop.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- It has no benefit.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- But I know I'm never deleting the logs from Georgina.
- I'm never throwing out the letters from Kimmy, or Victoria's shell.
- It's never going to be any different.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- You will eventually. For now, maybe not. It is difficult to see the future through the thick fog of today. But that does not mean tomorrow does not exsist. Things can change. One truly does not know.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- Even as we talk, I'm listening to Rissa's favourite album. That she hates now because I took it from her.
- Don't you think if things were going to change, they would've already?
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Nope
- They take time. They take many errors and faults.
- It might not come for years.
- Just because something Has not happened, does not mean it will never occur.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- I mean, literally you're right.
- We'll see how things go. Maybe one day it will all change...
- You know, I knew this was going to happen?
- When Georgina left me, I knew I would get like this.
- Leaving a path of shattered people in my wake xD
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- They will repair. As will you.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- It feels like you think you're talking to someone other than me xD
- As if I'm some destroyed human being.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Nah, just patch the things you want to change.
- I apologize if it's odd.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- I don't want to change anything...
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Well, scratch that then.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- That's the thing.
- Victoria really opened my eyes last night
- I hurt myself and other people for whatever reason.
- And I just keep doing it.
- And I don't want to change either... I like the way I am... I don't regret it...
- It's, bad...
- I'm a bad person
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Well, then find someone who either likes being hurt, or can't be hurt.
- That's how things work. Find compatibility.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- Yeah, I know.
- I wrote a paper on it xD
- Either compatibility of interests or of goals.
- I hate it
- I know how to help myself. I know how to stop the cycle(edited)
- But I don't want to...
- I'm happy to just wait for the next heartbreak to say hello.
- I knew it with Rissa, I literally told my sisters when I met her, I met the next girl who was going to ruin my life.
- The first day...
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Hm. Well, perhaps it will change with time. Can't be sure.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- Maybe...
- When I give up love forever xD
- Maybe some person will come along who changes me.
- Point is, at least I'm owning the person I am now.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Yes. I believe that's a good start.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- Anyway, you weren't feeling well and were tired right?
- Was there any reason you came to check up on me? xD
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- I saw you were online. I care about you, and wanted to see how you were. ^-^
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- Fair enough xD
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Plus, I enjoy talks like this. Conversations that mean something.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- Yeah, I'm the same way
- I hate small talk
- What's the point of talking if not to discuss things. Learn more about others and yourself, y'know?
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- I don't mind small talk with people I don't know. But I like deeper talks, that have a purpose, very much.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- I started hanging out more with the people in the bomb server. I realize one of my closest friends there, he stopped messaging me in mid February. Same thing with one of my other friends.
- Suddenly, they're welcoming me back, as if they've been waiting for me to get my life back xD
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Perhaps they were. XD
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- I'd believe it.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- It's nice to be free.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- As much as I love it.
- I hate it.
- I hate not having someone there constantly, a second voice in my head that wasn't my own...
- Maybe I'm just more sentimental now because I just finished listening to her and my song.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- That is very reasonable. I understand, though I'm much better on my own now, than I used to be.
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- I'm so... conflicted.
- Two different people in me.
- I need to start my laundry and stuff
- You prolly ought to get some rest if you're tired.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Im not even home yet xD
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- Where are you?!
- Also sorry, my mother and Harmony had sort of pressured me into giving the amount I was saving a month to my mother, and I was just talking her back into letting me actually save up for a car / to move out again.
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- It's okay. ^-^
- I was at work, and bussing home
- Noah - 03/11/2018
- Ahhh
- I assume by the past tense you're home now?
- Princess Pigeon - 03/11/2018
- Yep! Just got in a little while ago. ^-^
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