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- "Did I clean all of the rooms? Did I prepare enough food for everyone? Am I dressed nice enough?" So many questions going through my head, and before I have enough time to process one, another one comes to bother me. "Maybe you should change dresses, I heard May and her kids are going to be dressed in blue floral pattern sundresses."
- It's just a family reunion, there's no need to panic and try to scare myself. I'll be fine. I just need to breathe, and everything else will come naturally. I take a breath, and start heading downstairs.
- I can hear my grandmother and my mother laughing in the kitchen, telling stories of the past. I hear the sound of kids running in and out of the house, screaming playfully and laughing without any worry. I hear my uncle and two unfamiliar voices outside around the side of the house talking about what their plans are going to be for the summer.
- Everything is fine. Everyone is having a good time, seeing old friends or catching up with their relatives. Acting completely natural. Why can't I just turn a switch and all of these small worry some thoughts would just go away? If only it were that easy. I reached the bottom of the steps and move to the kitchen. I'm greeted by big smiles and hugs from everyone I pass. "How have you been? You haven't changed much at all!" is one of the very common phrases I've been hearing today. I guess nothing new has really happened since last year.
- I just work on my art and take care of my animals, a really calm life. Nothing too complicated about it at all. The most I do outside of my home is spend time with my brothers and watch movies with them and listen about their day. Sometimes they just got back from a work trip and I get to sit for a couple hours and be in their shoes. I remember we used to always hide whenever family parties started and they were able to get away with it so casually, while I was always worried about getting some sort of punishment. In the end, nothing bad ever happened. I wish I had moved in with them, or maybe tried to of gotten in the same line of work as them. I probably wouldn't of had to participate in this reunion.
- What's the point in being so nervous? It's not like they're going to attack me if I answer something wrong. I guess this is what I get for constantly overthinking the little things.
- As I look around the room, looking at everyone's happy faces, talking about whatever comes to mind without any concern. Why can't I be more like them? Maybe they actually go through trouble themselves, but are just really good at hiding it. The point of a reunion is to enjoy yourself, and to reconnect with your family, is it not? I then wonder whether steeling my nerves and faking what I consider to be proper behavior is worth the stress, or is it better to choose freedom? I take a deep breath and decide that my personal well-being is more important than keeping up with societal pressures. I walk past the people, hoping that my choice to leave wouldn't be noticed.
- I head out the door, drove home, and cuddled up in my room to watch television for awhile. This felt better. I didn't have to stress myself over anything, I greeted a few people and left. I'm sure some people didn't notice at all, since I was always the quiet one. I pick up my phone and call my brothers to tell them about my day. They laughed about the fact that I told them that I wished that I could be more like them.
- "You're fine as you are" he said, with a calm tone. "Now, let me tell you about the day I had where I forgot that we had a family reunion." We both laughed, and I was able to sit and listen and be in their shoes for awhile once again.
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