Confessions/Facts

(Sorry I'm terrible at writing and stuff)

1.I hate being sick. It's the most terrible feeling imo. I don't get sick too often though which is nice

2.I have irrational fears of random things. Like somebody breaking into my home, or someone robbing a store while i'm there. I guess it's just anxiety

3.I feel inferior to pretty much everyone. I don't really know why, but I think i always have, and regardless of anything I've accomplished I still feel this way.

4.I don't feel right saying I'm good at something or bragging about something. Sometimes I feel like I brag without meaning to, and it makes me feel dumb. The only thing I don't mind bragging about is getting the first sub 3 in KH2 and on crit, because I earned the right to brag about that with how much energy I put into it

5.I constantly feel like I need to prove myself to somebody. Like, I need to constantly get better so people don't lose faith in me.

6.I hardly ask questions on twitter because I'm scared no one will reply and it'll make me look dumb

7.The fact that I hardly have any female friends kinda bothers me for some reason. I guess it's kinda weird for that to bother me, but idk

8.I think I get jealous of people way too easily. It's really hard to admit to myself that I'm jealous of someone, but I think it happens a lot. I really want to work on this

9.The thing that makes me feel happiest is when someone acts like they're genuinely interested in me as a person.

10.Something that makes me feel terrible is when people completely ignore me or act like they don't care about me. I think I kinda assume nobody cares about me, so that if it's true it's not a surprise and it doesn't hurt as much

11.One of my favorite things to do is listen to music. Sometimes i'll just listen to music without doing anything in the background and just think about stuff

12.I'm kinda optimistic about the future currently. I think a lot of amazing things could happen in the next few months

13.Sometimes I just get really sad for no reason. I've always told myself I can't have depression, because I feel like it's not right to say I have depression considering everyone who's diagnosed with depression and probably deals with things much worse. I don't know if this really makes sense, but that's how I think about it

14.When someone acts like I can't do something it makes me want to do it really badly

15.I find it weird that people have such different mindsets than I do. Like, of course no one will think the same as me, but in things like speedrunning, I don't get how people can reset over the smallest things when I wouldn't even care about it if I was doing the run