rivermorevandaag om 16:52
well
if i had a choice between spending time with you or sharkguest
i'd choose you every time
so there's that lol

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 16:52
...
But I've been treating you like shit
and pushing you away
i dont even understand
how you're still trying  to be my friend
even after all the shitty things ive been saying to you

rivermorevandaag om 16:53
i mean we've both been harsh to each other and you have a bunch on your plate
so i don't blame you for how you've been acting

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 16:53
i've constantly been attacking you

rivermorevandaag om 16:53
we both said things to each other that we regret :/

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 16:53
and putting it more and more on your shoulders
how you made this friendship die and blablabla
and while that shit fucking broke me when you did what you did back then
i've been doing fucking nothing
to fix this shit in the end
i've been spending some time with you
but what the fuck
ive constantly been a massive asshole

rivermorevandaag om 16:54
i mean you're dealing with a boatload of issues, so i understand that you're super stressed out about everything
including our friendship sadly

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 16:54
and then my conscious keeps on telling e
why the fuck am i even trying
to fix this friendship

rivermorevandaag om 16:54
but like ive said every single time we had this conversation
i'll always believe that our friendship can be fixed

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 16:55
if it has been proven that you're apparently not as trustable as i though tyou were and then i just turn into a dick already
because yeah
why the fuck not
i just turn into a massive asswipe then

rivermorevandaag om 16:56
eeh
maybe i'm not as trustable as you thought then
but i like to think i'm more trustable than you think now at least

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:01
i mean
if you betrayed someones trust once already
how trustable are you with any secret
is the thing
if you proof that you're capable of just breaking someones trust
than what does everything else that person or ANY person ever shared with you mean
trust is quite a shitty difficult concept

rivermorevandaag om 17:02
you're looking at it as too black and white

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:02
because if you can break someones trust
then you can break anyones trust that easily

rivermorevandaag om 17:02
either someone is trustworthy 100% of the time or untrustworthy 100% of the time
context matters

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:02
except you still break someones trust

rivermorevandaag om 17:02
imo given the right circumstances, anyone can break someone's trust

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:03
and thats the moment that i cant befriend those people any longer

rivermorevandaag om 17:03
not trying to justify what i did, just saying you can't expect people to be flawless 100% of the time

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:04
i mean if you proof that you are perfectly fine capable of breaking someones trust in something even THIS important and risky
than i dont know what the hell you can be trusted with

rivermorevandaag om 17:04
anyone can make a mistake, no matter how close they are to you and how they feel about you

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:04
that goese for like
any person

rivermorevandaag om 17:04
well

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:04
anyone could've done what you couldve done

rivermorevandaag om 17:04
nothing bad happened with welly, did it?

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:04
no,  thankfully not.
but you put it entirely in risk though
and thats also just a terrible argument

rivermorevandaag om 17:05
sorry but i still don't think there was ever any real risk

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:05
so wait, you go to the one and only person I trust the very least with this information at this very moment
and you show that information to that person
how do you expect me to react
that you show something that could get me hurt

rivermorevandaag om 17:06
that's why i waited for like 2 months

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:06
to like LITERALLY

rivermorevandaag om 17:06
before i told you

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:06
honestly, i just find that even more fucked

rivermorevandaag om 17:06
to show you that whatever you thought of xandricia, she had no intentions of sharing anything with welly

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:06
that you waited forever

rivermorevandaag om 17:07
myself, i trusted her 100% not to show him anything
guess which one of us was right

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:07
You, does that make it right.
No, you still risked it all.

rivermorevandaag om 17:07
it doesn't make what i did right, not at all

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:07
I could've easily told you hey aeon is a good guy
back in the day
while you would've said no

rivermorevandaag om 17:08
i'm just trying to show that there was never a risk involved
at least in my perspective

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:08
there was a fucking risk involved 24/7 because nobody is fucking trustable especially not this slimy piece of shit

rivermorevandaag om 17:08
see that's why i waited 2 months to tell you

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:08
because I TRUSTED HER LESS THAN I'D TRUST RPGREEGY SDGSDFHDHJDSHJ

rivermorevandaag om 17:08
if i just went to you and said "hey i told xandricia but it's ok shes a good girl u can trust her" then of course you'd call bullshit
and i wouldn't blame you for it at all

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:09
??? i stil called bullshit
becauuse she can easily
at any time

rivermorevandaag om 17:09
that's why i waited 2 months before letting you know, so you could see that nothing bad happened

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:09
any given day
use this against me

rivermorevandaag om 17:09
she understandably blamed welly for it more than she blamed you

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:09
the fact that she didnt i'd consider myself very goddamn lucky with

rivermorevandaag om 17:09
why would she go to the one person she disliked the most?

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:09
to fucking bring me down
because i was hurting her

rivermorevandaag om 17:11
aaaaaaaa why are we talking about xandricia again lmao

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:11
because you still fucking say to me
that theres no risk
there never was

rivermorevandaag om 17:11
anyway she knew you were hurting her yes, but she still cared about you
and always asked me how you were

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:11
if aeon and me  ended up working out

rivermorevandaag om 17:11
of course theres no way in hell she'd go to welly lol

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:11
would there actually be a fucking risk
of him sharing my nudes
YES THERE FUCKING WOULD BE
even if i trusted him

rivermorevandaag om 17:12
well i don't know aeon on a personal level
all i know is he has a spiky sausage in his pants

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:12
who the hell cares about that
look at how shark is treating me rn
i've sene that guys dick
i know about very personal shit
that he has done
even illegal shit
and weird shit

rivermorevandaag om 17:13
but imo i had good reasons to trust xandricia not to go to welly

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:13
you thought you did

rivermorevandaag om 17:13
i did
and still do

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:13
you thought you did

rivermorevandaag om 17:13
but...she didn't go to welly??
you did.

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:13
yeah to save my own ass
from you
and xandricia
because you two are fucking insane for letting it go this far

rivermorevandaag om 17:14
but neither of us was going to let welly know anything

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:14
okay, how much money can you actually fucking bet
that such a thing
would never happen tho
would you actually

rivermorevandaag om 17:14
xandricia was even super nervous about letting welly know anything about it

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:14
bet your own life on it

rivermorevandaag om 17:14
like she literally asked me for advice

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:14
becausee i fucking would never
fucking ever

rivermorevandaag om 17:14
on whether to ignore welly when he talks to her

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:14
bet my own life on what a random person
thinks
and can suddenly do

rivermorevandaag om 17:15
because she thought that if she suddenly starts ignoring him, welly might figure it out or idfk

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:15
good for her

rivermorevandaag om 17:15
like she literally forced herself to pretend her and welly were okay, just to make sure there was 0% chance he would find anything out

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:16
she and you can easily at any given moment
break another persons trust
no matter the situatiopn
the morefucking people who know
the most people chances there are

rivermorevandaag om 17:16
that's the thing i want to emphasize to you, the situation DOES matter

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:17
the situation doesnt fucking matter because xandricia couldve easily went to save HER OWN ASS
TO WELLY

rivermorevandaag om 17:17
you view other people as chances that things can go wrong
lol save her ass from what???

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:17
THIS LEAKING?
THIS SPREADING MORE?

rivermorevandaag om 17:17
?????? why would she go to welly about it of all people

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:18
because welly fucking made the screenshots
duh

rivermorevandaag om 17:18
yeah and?

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:18
welly of all people
should be fucking able

rivermorevandaag om 17:18
that's stupid, why would she beg the person who started the whole thing

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:18
to put a stop to the sharing

rivermorevandaag om 17:18
especially when WELLY was the one who prohibited you from sharing it with anyone to begin with
wouldn't going to him defeat the whole purpose of it being kept secret?

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:19
why keep it a secret when you can bring down 1. the person who has been bringing you down,  me
and 2. get on good terms with welly again by doing such a thing
and restore your friendship with him

rivermorevandaag om 17:19
she didn't want to bring you down, she never did
and she definitely 10000000%
did not want to be on good terms with welly

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:20
i didnt want to be on good terms with xandricia either

rivermorevandaag om 17:20
which i wouldn't either if someone spread my personal information

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:20
but i guess i fucking had to
in the end

rivermorevandaag om 17:20
not really, she wouldn't have done anything even if you continued to hurt her

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:20
nah i think she wouldve
she proved herself in my messages
that shes still a massively toxic whore
and that as a matter of fact
she even grew worse than before

rivermorevandaag om 17:21
and she proved in my messages that she was completely against welly knowing no matter what happened
so theres that

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:21
yeah just like aeon proved he was a great boyfriend
at the start
very caring and makes you feel beautifu
l
and like you can trust him with anything
i just think you havent had enough people come to you betraying you yet

rivermorevandaag om 17:22
aeon betrayed you, xandricia didnt
at least not when it came to welly

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:23
What?

rivermorevandaag om 17:23
idk what reasons you had to trust aeon

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:23
What did she betray me in.

rivermorevandaag om 17:23
but i think my reasons for trusting xandricia on this were good

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:23
What did that dumb bitch say about me to you

rivermorevandaag om 17:23
idunno you said she couldn't be trusted
so i assumed she did betray you at some point??

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:23
oh

rivermorevandaag om 17:24
she said nothing about you, don't worry '-'

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:24
yeah no i dont believe that at all lol

rivermorevandaag om 17:24
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
do you really want me to copy and paste an entire discord log of our conversations since we added each other

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:24
yeah

rivermorevandaag om 17:24
because i can if thats what it takes to prove my point

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:25
except you'll edit out texts

rivermorevandaag om 17:25
assuming she's fine with it

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:25
like any fucking person does to hide special information

rivermorevandaag om 17:25
i'll edit out the texts when she talked to me about personal issues, no shit
not when she said anything concerning you

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:25
personal issues about me

rivermorevandaag om 17:25
lol
nope

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:25
uh yeah
now this is anotherthingof
trust me that i wont remove everythingshe said about you
and i'd need to be
OH YEAH
OF COURSE
YOU'RE GONNA REMOVE SHIT
EXCEPT THAT

rivermorevandaag om 17:27
smh you're being way too stressed and paranoid about this shit

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:27
no idea what the hell
you  sending me
edited messages
is going to actually proof

rivermorevandaag om 17:27
maybe i should just give you my discord login so you can check for yourself idfk

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:28
i wonder what the fuck elseyou've said about me honestly to her
but you probably remove that shit

rivermorevandaag om 17:28
nothing about you '-'
no i don't remove anything lol
brb i need to do school related shit

Muda Muda Mudavandaag om 17:29
eitherway. there's always going to be a reason not to trust someone with someone elses fucking safety
just like you as an adult
dont date a minor even if you wanna
because there's afucking risk
a fuckintg chance
no matter howgood you trust that minor
that your safety is fucking in danger
you put that safety into that persons hands
and then its SO MUCH MORE FUCKED
to put SOMEONE ELSES
SAFETY
into THE PERSON THAT PERSON TRUSTS THE LEAST
THAT persons hands
and let THAT person handle the situation
i think you have to genuinely be fucked in your priorities and shit
if you're gonna do something like that
your ass just went oh yea heres stu's safety take good care of it dont drop it
and xandricia went oh yeah thanks
and you because you know her
and for some retarded reason
YOU didnt have a shitty experiennce with her like i had
YOU felt it was fucking okay to put my safety into someone elses hands
and watch her play around with it
as some proof that she wont do anything with it
i warned continuously that welly was fucking crazed around trust and that he'd hurt people over it
and you still went to the person i fucking constantly, over and over again, told you not to go to
with this shit
you  genuinely were putting my fucking safety on some goddamn stick
and hung it above a fire
and did little skateboard tricks with it
and went hahaha look at me
it can fly
huhuhuhuh
you dont play around with other people their safety like that
its someone elses fucking well being
that you're sharing around
you're literally putting the faith that xandricia, the person who fucking hurt me
you're putting my well being, my safety
into that persons hands
then it doesnt even fucking matter
if its xandricia
or someone else
the fact you just share my safety around like its nothing
is absoolutely mindbottling
its fucking mindblowing
or ANYONES safety for that matter
not just mine
this shit is not a fucking game or something
this is playing with someones safety
someone elses well being
thats fucked
if someone elses safety and well being means this goddamn little to you you'd share it around to other people
then you shouldnt be trusted by literally any person at all
because doing this shit
one fucking day
it's gonna go wrong
and you'll share private shit
to the wrong person
and trust the wrong person
and you're gonna fucking be responsible
for something extremelyterrible
and when that happens
i hope you get punished so goddamn hard you'll end up as scared as i am
as paranoid as i am
thats all i'll tell about it unless you seriously still think this means fucking nothing