Stuck

(Hook)
(Girl singing) He pushes everyone away like a hurricane
Step away or you will pay
Buy it and feel dismay
Such is the nature of the disorder
Chaos is his perfect order

(Verse 1)
The monotony’s starting to bother me
Constant constancy constantly
Can’t see beyond my own eye
I’m blind, stuck in my own mind
A bee sees spell it out(a b c’s)
I’m less then an insect
I introspect I take a step it’s always left
It’s never right I’m never right
I’m not serious I’m just oblivious
can nobody see beyond the emcee(x-ray)
yet I feel mysterious there’s a huge variance cognitive dissonance
mirrors smoke shroud a cloud an invisibility cloak I’m imperious cursed
the things I’ve done are unforgivable I’m so fucking miserable

(Hook)
(Girl singing) He pushes everyone away like a hurricane
Step away or you will pay
Buy into it and feel dismay
Such is the nature of the disorder
Chaos is his perfect order


(Verse 2)
Dismiss the show(cancelled)
Oh no I know I need the audience wheres the confidence forget the consequence
it’s pathological not conscious not path of logical
Spent years numb the tears stung
Oh look the freaks come I clear off
Please the jeers stop he appears dumb a peers dumb they keep on getting more severe every year persevere and I’m sincere come here come near you’ll see steel then kneel still i will kill so volunteer oh god the sheer qualm I feel wrong
Not to worry I can heal wrong
Gotta hurry til I feel strong
But the truth is it’s all delusion
Shielding me from this lifelong confusion
Til I come up with some conclusion
Rationalization is my basis for existence this is my realization

(Hook)
(Girl singing) He pushes everyone away like a hurricane
Step away or you will pay
Buy into it and feel dismay
Such is the nature of the disorder
Chaos is his perfect order

(Verse 3)
I think everything’s about me
From the birds in the trees
To the songs that she sings
Whispers in the air rearrange them I don’t care
You can’t outstare someone who can only see themselves
So I go out into the world
Strategize like a chess board
And I have to ask myself am I gonna raise or raze it let’s face it
I’m too scared to be so I have to act
Well I’ve been thrown off the stage too many times to gauge
I became so fucking enraged
A traveling parasite who leeches off of someone else’s life
I have no connections no ties just lies
It’s a war between what you know and what you feel
Yet emotions are what makes the world real
Then it’s not real for me at least I don’t feel, right
It’s all a game I play it’s a shame
The same lesson drilled instilled to no avail, fail
Please lend an ear be where friends not here
trust makes for the simplest deceptions
But I have a goal to be remade whole to regain a soul
Swear I’ll bear the weight of all the pain I’ve caused the scars I’ve lost the whole dang cost
Do I dare to care