Btw for anyone who wants to know the current state of the stream

Viewcounts are good, people in chat seem to be enjoying mario party, dkr, melee tournaments and some other content. I even have UK front page when slots are available and that should be pretty often.

Things are pretty rough in terms of revenue making like $800 in this month, when I originally moved out my revenue was between $1300-1800 a month.

I've dropped down to about 186 subs outside of gifted subs from around 260 half a year ago. In terms of gifted subs I used to have 150 - 200 consistent, but now I have 17 so you can imagine how much of a swing that is (going from 350 sub points to around 200)

It's been really tough since covid, I've been mostly working on my mentality and just trying to have fun when streaming. I feel like I've been very successful but its hard to not feel that my stream is slowly falling apart.
I used to just have certain things as excuses to grow my stream such as marathons, sub goals etc but most of those were very unhealthy and fake growth.

I've kinda accepted at this point that I will never achieve my dream of getting a bigger stream and it hurts..but that's life.

I'm still going to keep streaming fulltime until I have something more prepared outside of streaming. Luckily I have government money for self-employment playing a huge part and saving my ass financially so I can still save for my future.

My gf has been speaking to me a lot about it, and of course my close friends and nearly everyone suggests I try something else, and stream for fun again so I dont have to even think about sub revenue (because it really sucks to have to even think about money when streaming, its not about money at all)

I have set up my laptop and tablet to have guides + tools to start learning Java which will be my first adventure into something else. I realised I have more time than I think after streaming and should be less lazy.

Gonna keep my head up and keep streaming for fun whilst I figure things out fuzzyLove