SynBalor: i had one more song.. and i was shaking.
iMoarte: Why were you shaking?
SynBalor: Far from what you believe Noa, and far from why i even understand. I still love you. seeing you hurts.
iMoarte: Ofc you do. I didn't expect anyless. I appolagiez that I hurt you by showing up.
iMoarte: When you fall in love with someone, you can't just fall out of love.
iMoarte: You learn to move on with your life and find happeness. but it'll still be there.
SynBalor: your words say other wise.
iMoarte: I love you, Alex.
iMoarte: I always will.
iMoarte: But you and I are both happy. :)
iMoarte: And I'm not about to do anything to fuck that up. for either of us.
SynBalor: Yeah.
iMoarte: Still have pictures of u on my phone. I have no idea why. And when I ran into them I shoulda deleted them, but I didn't, Idk why. Then when I was making an album with my friends.. I seen a pic I took with you.. still.. didn't delete em. I just know, that what happened between us, was for the best. And I'm happy with how things are now. I can love you from afar.
iMoarte: I do understand you better now though.
SynBalor: explain.
iMoarte: You couldnt let go of Eden while still loving me. I love Lucas, but, I also have feelings for Leafy.
SynBalor: Stop
SynBalor: stop,
iMoarte: Stops-
iMoarte: Did I say something wrong?
SynBalor: give me a minute
iMoarte: Okay.
SynBalor: I have heard things that should crush my soul. That should tear me apart and should have broke me the way I was broken before. but because I had Eden and because I had others. I am okay. Like i said for some twisted reason I still love you. I still have your pictures in my phone. and cannot listen to so much music because it hurts.
SynBalor: I brought you here for some semblance of closure. Some way to move on, and get passed the hole that i know we both left in eachother. because we arent dead, but we are gone. Way past picking up any peices that could be salvaged as friendship, Or so i feel at this moment in time. Maybe later down the line that will change.
iMoarte: Agreed.
SynBalor: So on the note of closure.
SynBalor: Be honset with me.
SynBalor: You were with lucas, while we were together?
iMoarte: Lol, really?
iMoarte: This is what you're worried about? This is what will bring you closure?
iMoarte: No I wasn't with Lucas while we were together.
SynBalor: no theres alot i want to tlk to you anout
SynBalor: about*
iMoarte: But I did start develope feelings for him.
SynBalor  nods
iMoarte: Anything else?~
SynBalor: There were, but i wont ask.
SynBalor: anything for me?
iMoarte: Nah. Ask away.
iMoarte: You may not get another chance.
SynBalor: i mean this really is a one shot oppurtunity
SynBalor: lol.
iMoarte: >.>
SynBalor: similar thoughts
iMoarte: ^
iMoarte: So spill, then I will.
SynBalor: while we were talking, the final time we broke up.
SynBalor: Was wanting to be with me the truth?
SynBalor: or were you scared?
iMoarte: You wanting me to say something that'll make you hurt, or hate me? Because if so, we can cut the bullshit out and I can do as you wish~
SynBalor: XD
iMoarte: Js.
SynBalor: Im already hurt, that time has passed. now im just looking for answers to questions i didnt even know i had.
iMoarte: When I get with someone, it's never because I'm scared. That is a redundent af question. I'm not scared of shit. You should know this. I speak my mind of how I feel when I feel. I don't hold tf back. So If I was scared, I certainly wouldn't of gotten back with you. The last time I got with you I actually wanted to work something out. I even had gone to my brother and sister about getting back with you.
SynBalor: No.
SynBalor: not when we got back
SynBalor: when we were talking
SynBalor: while we were split.
iMoarte: Ohh.
iMoarte: So you asking if the only reason why i wanted to, was cus I'm scared?
iMoarte: Why tf would I try to get with someone cus of fear?
iMoarte: wtf did I have to be afraid of?
iMoarte: >.>
SynBalor: just a question
SynBalor: now im done
SynBalor: so
SynBalor: ask away
iMoarte: You made it sound like it was more then just two questions~
iMoarte: You sure, thats all?
iMoarte: Because I don't believe it.
SynBalor: lost my thoughts.
SynBalor  plays with the string in her fishnet as she waits for his reply
iMoarte: Well. The questions I had before I had already gotten my answers from others or from your actions. Everything I needed to say was said in that last kik msg I sent to you. I may still love you, because of the connection we had. But I don't see us being friends in the future, what I found out crushed me enough for me to know better next time. But there is one thing I need to clear up. While you guys think Lucas is going to hurt me, is very unlikely. So far, he has not done shit to hurt me. I may not be with him, and I am happy with being single, for I need this. But he is my Dominant. And I'll stand up for him regardless of our statues. I was pissed off at you for the longest.. even hateful towards you. But honestly, I feel no weight from the past. I am happy, and My life has improved so much sense we last spoke like this. I have nothing to complain about. So do I hate you? No. I let that shit go. But I do know you better now. And I know not to make the same mistake as I done in the past. What you did to me, no one has ever done. After I found out about you seeing leafy while you and I was still together, destroyed me, you may be poly, but you cheated. Then lied about it. When I found out from a close friend of yours that you did it. Then you gunna sit there and shame me for assumptions and bullshit (not right now but in the past). I know a lot about you Alex, and your ways. And I found out a lot also. So you may have crippled my heart. But you also made me stronger, because of the shit you put me through, I know now that I can't trust easily, and that even the most beautiful flower can be extremly deadly. I do wish the best for you tho, because I'm not petty. We have mutual friends, so, when I come around, you don't have to feel the need to reach out to me, because I wont. I will greet you as every other person that comes into that room, and I will get along with you for the sake of respect. But friendship? Don't count on it, luv. I don't hold grudges, I just learn from past mistakes. And what had happened with us, was a valuable lesson, and lesson learned. ~