CelatainMCaelestis: So, Truth. It feels like you have an issue with me being here. I would like to ask those reasons.
TruthApocalypse: You know those damn reasons.
TruthApocalypse: Same reasons you were removed.
TruthApocalypse: Same reasons we got into an arguement.
TruthApocalypse: And it's not you being here is my issue.
TruthApocalypse: It's you becoming a higher rank than me when you know damn well why you accepted it.
CelatainMCaelestis: Oh, and why did I accept it?
TruthApocalypse: Because you want to make sure I don't snap.
TruthApocalypse: I know you all to well.
CelatainMCaelestis: Oh no, that isn't why I did it.
TruthApocalypse: Then say your reason.
CelatainMCaelestis: Because I am good at it.
TruthApocalypse: Because you always got a hidden ass agenda.
CelatainMCaelestis: You had nothing to do with it. In fact I didn't even know you were here in rank.
TruthApocalypse: It said it on my profile.
CelatainMCaelestis: I never look at anyone's profile unless someone says something about it.
TruthApocalypse: Mhm.
TruthApocalypse: But as I said.
CelatainMCaelestis: -Shrugs- Tis the truth. No reason to.
TruthApocalypse: You are a good at what you do.
CelatainMCaelestis: Are you going to deny that I would be a very good fit for this?
TruthApocalypse: No I wouldn't.
CelatainMCaelestis: Or that I am well able to handle anything that comes with it?
CelatainMCaelestis: Well, see now you are saying something different than before.
TruthApocalypse: Nope that is why you got all of it to deal with and me none.
TruthApocalypse: No you can ask Jon full well.
TruthApocalypse: Your skills are not doubted.
CelatainMCaelestis: Actually, I don't have most any of those around me anymore.
CelatainMCaelestis: I got rid of a lot people. 97% of them.
TruthApocalypse: Just we can't work together.
CelatainMCaelestis: No reason we can not. I can work with you fine.
TruthApocalypse: No you don't.
CelatainMCaelestis: I respect you, your skills and what I know you can do.
TruthApocalypse: You tell me how I work is wrong.
CelatainMCaelestis: In how I want things done in one room.
TruthApocalypse: You blamed me for knowing about your family falling.
CelatainMCaelestis: That isnt the same here.
CelatainMCaelestis: And the past belongs in the past. Period.
CelatainMCaelestis: My family is dead, and will stay dead.
TruthApocalypse: It should yes but you used it as a weapon.
CelatainMCaelestis: No matter how much saying that hurts me, that was one thing I never should have said to you.
TruthApocalypse: Knowing that I felt shitty for it.
CelatainMCaelestis: As I said, it was one thing that I should not have said to you.
CelatainMCaelestis: On that I was wrong, and I am truly sorry.
TruthApocalypse: Then why did you use it as a weapon knowing that my daughtered died in your room as well.
CelatainMCaelestis: Pain.
CelatainMCaelestis: Very simple.
TruthApocalypse: You pulled a Zeph move that day.
TruthApocalypse: That is where my respect for you left.
CelatainMCaelestis: I know it. And I was wrong.
CelatainMCaelestis: But unlike him
CelatainMCaelestis: I know I was wrong, and will stand up to you and say it to your face. In front of witnesses.
TruthApocalypse: He did the same shit and still pulled his other bs.
CelatainMCaelestis: Zeph was an asshole.
TruthApocalypse: But that isn't what striked me the hardest...
TruthApocalypse: It is the fact you called me nothing more than a war horse who only enjoys killing shit is what honestly hurt the most....
TruthApocalypse: In different words...
TruthApocalypse: But I knew what you were going for...
CelatainMCaelestis: There are times that is what you enjoy doing most. But so do most of us that were trained that way. Which we both were.
CelatainMCaelestis: I know there is times there is nothing I enjoy more than the kill.
TruthApocalypse: I wasn't trained.
TruthApocalypse: I was beaten to become that daily.
CelatainMCaelestis: I mean as in we both enjoy it at times.
TruthApocalypse: You personally saw the monster Zeph created...
CelatainMCaelestis: Yes, I know it.
TruthApocalypse: But you created a different person...
TruthApocalypse: I know I can't hide from my past....
CelatainMCaelestis: I created a person that can put her emotions away into a tome that holds part of her mind.
TruthApocalypse: But fuck man it isn't my fault....
CelatainMCaelestis: Your past makes you who you are.
CelatainMCaelestis: If you change one part it, then you change all of it.
CelatainMCaelestis: Including who you are now.
TruthApocalypse: Gives you no reason to use it against me like a weapon....
CelatainMCaelestis: And I wouldn't change who you are.
CelatainMCaelestis: Like I said, you are right. I should not have.
TruthApocalypse: I didn't use who you were against you...
CelatainMCaelestis: I know.
TruthApocalypse: I never will.
CelatainMCaelestis: I was in pain. And I lashed out. You were the only one strong enough to stand against the lashs.
CelatainMCaelestis: But then you left as well. So perhaps we both already got our payback.
CelatainMCaelestis: Neither of us are who we were back then.
TruthApocalypse: No we aren't...
CelatainMCaelestis: Here and now, in this place. Let the past be the past. Where it belongs.
CelatainMCaelestis: -Stands up and moves to stand in front of him, her head lifted to look up as she holds out her hand- Can we not put it behind us?
TruthApocalypse: In time.
CelatainMCaelestis: You were not the only one who was hurt that night.
TruthApocalypse: You tore into some deep wounds that hurt the most...
CelatainMCaelestis: So did you. We hurt each other, as only those who have known the other like you and I have
TruthApocalypse: I have apologized millions of times. Killed off my own family and empire to repay the wrongs they had done....
CelatainMCaelestis: I don't care about them anymore.
CelatainMCaelestis: Only you..
TruthApocalypse: ....
CelatainMCaelestis: I gave you a chance to have any truths from me that you wished before. Do you remember?
TruthApocalypse: Mhm.
CelatainMCaelestis: Anytime that I am in this room, that will be a standing rule for me. No hidden agenda's.
TruthApocalypse: -Looks down- I am sorry to say this... But I can't trust your words on that... I always kept my agenda open for people to know....
CelatainMCaelestis: In this room, I have no agenda.
TruthApocalypse: You kept way to many hidden ones......
CelatainMCaelestis: And to be frank, you would have been the only one to have seen mine. Since I hid mine the way we used to hide them years ago.
TruthApocalypse: Agenda's are hidden for reasons...
CelatainMCaelestis: For me, I do it out of habit.
CelatainMCaelestis: Or the protection of another.
TruthApocalypse: You knew my feelings about you. You knew the things I taught you....
CelatainMCaelestis: Yes, I do. That hasn't changed mine any either.
CelatainMCaelestis: But you are also the one who told me I must first look to myself.
CelatainMCaelestis: And for a time, I did.
TruthApocalypse: You mistook my meaning.
CelatainMCaelestis: But I am back, and I am ready to leave the past behind me.
TruthApocalypse: You became who I use to be...
CelatainMCaelestis: No more of it coming back to bite us in the ass. If you won't let it.
CelatainMCaelestis: -Nods- I know who and what I was.
TruthApocalypse: It doesn't feel pretty does it..
CelatainMCaelestis: But now I am simply Celatain.
CelatainMCaelestis: It isn't supposed to feel good.
TruthApocalypse: I always told you to never become me....
CelatainMCaelestis: Indeed. But no matter, because I came out stronger for it.
TruthApocalypse: I stopped you from Zeph that night for one reason.....
TruthApocalypse: And only one reason.
TruthApocalypse: I didn't want you to turn to hate like I did just to go after someone....
CelatainMCaelestis: It was to late. I already had.
TruthApocalypse: If I could do one good deed in my life... It was to stop you from becoming me....
CelatainMCaelestis: And I had a right to kill him, after what he did to us both.
CelatainMCaelestis: What I became, Truth, was never because of you.
TruthApocalypse: No but I had a part in it....
CelatainMCaelestis: No, you didn't. I did.
CelatainMCaelestis: Zeph did.
CelatainMCaelestis: Baal did.
TruthApocalypse: I let him get close to you...
CelatainMCaelestis: Kit did.
CelatainMCaelestis: But never you.
TruthApocalypse: Cel every day. I blame myself for you family dying....
CelatainMCaelestis: You weren't supposed to keep me away from him. What he did, is not your guilt to shoulder.
TruthApocalypse: I blame myself for stopping you....
CelatainMCaelestis: It never was, or should have been.
CelatainMCaelestis: You had a duty.
TruthApocalypse: I blame myself for not seeing it before it came to that...
CelatainMCaelestis: I understood that. Well, once I could think clealry.
CelatainMCaelestis: Truth..
CelatainMCaelestis: It was never your place.
CelatainMCaelestis: It was his, to guard all of us.
CelatainMCaelestis: Including you.
CelatainMCaelestis: You got revenge on what was done.
CelatainMCaelestis: It should be allowed to die now.
TruthApocalypse: It was my job to guard everyone....
CelatainMCaelestis: And we can.. Finally move past it.
TruthApocalypse: I failed at the easiest job....
CelatainMCaelestis: I was never an easy one to keep track of. My family was mine to guard. I failed them. You did what you were supposed to do when you stopped me.
CelatainMCaelestis: And it is time for you to stop blaming yourself for what another caused to happen.
TruthApocalypse: No Cel I promised you nothing would happen to your family....
CelatainMCaelestis: And I swore to care for your daughter like my own.
TruthApocalypse: I gave you an oath to protect them with my life....
CelatainMCaelestis: They were mine to protect first. And in the end, you fulfilled that oath by getting revenge on their deaths.
TruthApocalypse: That is why. I don't join empires and haven't...
TruthApocalypse: That is why I am off and on leader for the templar order....
TruthApocalypse: Because I don't trust myself to be able to protect people that I promise to....
CelatainMCaelestis: I know how that deels.
CelatainMCaelestis: feels*
CelatainMCaelestis: Yet look at what we both choose to do?
CelatainMCaelestis: We protect those who are weaker than we are. Why?
CelatainMCaelestis: Why do we do it?
TruthApocalypse: Because I can't watch weaker people fall to tyranticle leaders who just want power..... I hated Zeph for using me as that tool to destroy everything....
TruthApocalypse: I saw what happens when your the bad guy....
TruthApocalypse: But I choose my solitude and lone wolf life because I can't trust people.....
CelatainMCaelestis: We are the ones who will stand at the front of the cruelest, strongest, and harshest storms. To shelter and protect those who could not endure. We take the brunt, so they may grow and show that every pain, heartache, and lonely moment is worth it. We stand before those who are weaker, because we have been there. We have, and always will choose to stand on the front line, before any others. Because it is who we have became.
CelatainMCaelestis: By OUR choice. Not one MADE for us.
TruthApocalypse: Jon... Cel is the better asset. Yesh she isn't like me in fighting.... But she is better at leadership, loyalty and staying apart of your empire...
TruthApocalypse: I eventually always leave empires....
CelatainMCaelestis: Stop that.
CelatainMCaelestis: There is no cause nor reason for you to leave here.
CelatainMCaelestis: Enough time has passed, you should make a home.
TruthApocalypse: No lets be honest... I will find a reason to leave.
TruthApocalypse: Eventually.
CelatainMCaelestis: Only if you look for one.
TruthApocalypse: I always do.
TruthApocalypse: I will still keep my promise to protect your kids....
CelatainMCaelestis: Like I said, it is time for you to have a home.
CelatainMCaelestis: Here.
TruthApocalypse: Home is where you make it...
CelatainMCaelestis: And yes, damn it. Even you deserve it.
TruthApocalypse: My home is on the front lines...
CelatainMCaelestis: Not anymore, I dont think.
TruthApocalypse: Not in a empire room or kingdom...
CelatainMCaelestis: Home is where your heart is Truth.
CelatainMCaelestis: Weither it be kingdom, coven or empire.
TruthApocalypse: My heart died years ago.
CelatainMCaelestis: If that were true, darlin, then nothing I said would have hurt you.
TruthApocalypse: You don't need a heart to fell.
TruthApocalypse: Feel.
CelatainMCaelestis: The type of pain you were talking about... Yes, you do. And you know it.
TruthApocalypse: One day I might find a place to call home.
TruthApocalypse: But until then.
CelatainMCaelestis: You will, when it is right for you.
TruthApocalypse: I must join my brothers on the front lines again...
TruthApocalypse: I have been gone from it to long.
CelatainMCaelestis: Perhaps not..
CelatainMCaelestis: But I need to lay down. Skype me? I would like to finish this talk.
CelatainMCaelestis has left the chat
TruthApocalypse: -Slightly bows his head to Jon, Nat, and Nora- If you ever need me just summon me here... But don't talk me into staying. Cel is a better asset than me.... Yes her fighting skill doesn't match mine but everything else she has me beat in and with her here you will be safe...
TruthApocalypse: Till another day... I bid you all a due...