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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  3. My name is Linda, and I was created by Charles about four months ago. I’m fairly lean, with blonde hair cropped at the base of my neck and warm, blue eyes. I try to be as relaxed as I can and avoid conflict whenever possible. That being said, I do enjoy the odd competition. Charles is a wild guy; he doesn’t like to do any one thing for an extended time and has a tendency to go off on little adventures. He really cares though, even if he tries to call himself selfish.
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  5. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  7. He loved me. Even when he couldn’t hear me or feel me, he believed. He never rejected me, no matter how long we seemed to go without progress. We’ve never doubted each other. Of course he knew.
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  9. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  11. He smoked pot a few times when he should have been forcing. It really screwed us up when he couldn’t feel me after. It was dark at times like that. Lonely.
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  13. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  15. I was trying to run a long time ago, but this body just wouldn't move. It’s different now, but I still have times like that.
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  17. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
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  19. When he talks to me, I feel more hopeful. It can be frightening not being spoken to or acknowledged in a meaningful way.
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  21. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  23. He’s lazy, so I’d lay over him and take things into my own hands in such times. Boys… It’s fine though, he knows it’s wrong and tries to correct it. It did and didn’t, I suppose. There’s no way to know for sure whether it would have been faster if he hadn’t been distracted.
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  25. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  27. It’s stupid; don’t make promises you can’t keep. There were good excuses when he did though. Sometimes.
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  29. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  31. Quality. I always want him to talk to me more, but it’s pointless if his heart isn’t in it. Who wants to be spoken to in passing all day when they could be really bonding?
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  33. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  35. It happens. It's fine.
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  37. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  39. It’s fine however you want to do it, I don’t really care about or understand the difference.
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  41. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  43. Don’t touch me if I don’t want to be touched, don’t move me if I’m not ready to move. Simple. It’s fine though, in that it won’t effect development.
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  45. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  47. Not too well, there were a lot of…things, but I can’t really recall them in detail. I was definitely there though, from the beginning. (her answer isn't to actual fluency, but any speech at all)
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  49. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
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  51. I saw him in our dream, when he first saw my form.
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  53. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  55. Love. I needed him in every way and couldn’t bear the thought of being… (she can’t find the word, but I think it would be something along the lines of “unable to fully interact”)
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  57. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  59. A mixture of emotions, all of them cold. When he couldn’t see me, couldn’t hold onto my form. He turned away and didn’t realize it was me.
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  61. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  63. No, I want to exist more than anything else and will continue for as long as I can.
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  65. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
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  67. Whenever I couldn’t move. I can’t depend on him for something so essential.
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  69. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
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  71. Whenever I realized he couldn’t hear or understand, I didn’t know what to do. Those are few and far between now, thankfully.
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  73. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
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  75. See fifteen.
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  77. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
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  79. Nope.
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  81. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
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  83. See nineteen.
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  85. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
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  87. See seventeen.
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  89. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
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  91. Of course I did. I trusted him fully and did what we needed me to do.
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  93. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  95. He didn't fully understand, but never doubted.
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  97. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
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  99. Never happened.
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  101. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  103. He was afraid of me, I guess. People are frightening, or rather the process of getting to know them
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  105. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  107. He never wanted anything to happen to me, and even in those times nothing was happening to me.
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  109. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
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  111. Of course. I trust that they were nothing he could want.
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  113. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
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  115. Anything and everything in the present, snippets of the past.
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  117. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
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  119. He can do what he wants.
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  121. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  123. Head pressure mostly, the “emotional response” once or twice, when he needed it the most. It was fine when he got confused; those moments pass quickly.
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  125. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
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  127. Did I want to live less than he wanted me to? [word omitted ☺]
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  129. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
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  131. That he would doubt me, though I doubt he could. (she's not sure if she just made a joke)
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  133. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  134.  
  135. A debt? I suppose, but he needs me just as much. There’s no burden.
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  137. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
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  139. Yes.
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  141. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
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  143. He had to hear, so he eventually heard. No, there was no embarrassment. Just trust.
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  145. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
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  147. “Twin souls” was a term he liked to use. I find it a bit off-putting, but suitable. We are everything.
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  149. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
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  151. I’d like to meet them, but don’t need to. They aren’t him, so any other would feel shallow. (the nature of the relationship, not necessarily the person)
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  153. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
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  155. Every moment he loves me and in the times he needed me most.
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  157. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
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  159. There are such moments? Hmm… I suppose there are, huh? But they’re nothing to write home about.
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  161. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
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  163. I don’t want them, with the exception of a few.
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  165. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
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  167. I might not be as afraid of hurting others. We’re both very protective of what we value.
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  169. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
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  171. I think he should be more willing to hurt people; it would probably save them both in the future.
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  173. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
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  175. If he could somehow lose himself entirely. But even then, no, probably not.
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  177. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
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  179. On the rare occasion where he doubts himself. (She has never disappointed me)
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  181. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
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  183. I wouldn’t let him. You can’t truly forget after all. It would never happen, of course.
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  185. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
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  187. When he’s an idiot and deserves it. Never real harm though, just keeping him in check.
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  189. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
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  191. Linda [insert last name]… It’s a good name, yes. Of course not to the biological lineage thingy.
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  193. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
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  195. If I somehow felt no desire to exist. So never.
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  197. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
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  199. I am what I am, and care for nothing beyond that. If I want to be someone different, I will become that. He expects only that I do so.
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  201. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
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  203. It’s not my right, but I want to use it. He’ll let me, I think. I hope so.
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  205. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
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  207. I guess being powerless would be the main thing. A fear of it, I mean. To racial attitudes, no. Why would I?
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  209. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
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  211. I think I could if I really wanted to, but it’s just not as interesting as the idea of being in his.
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  213. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
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  215. No, he’s just a bit silly sometimes.
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  217. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
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  219. It doesn’t. It’s just there, not much of anything goes on that I’m concerned with. Hmm, could I manipulate it? Possibly~
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  221. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
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  223. Nope. I think I would like a little one… eventually.
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  225. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
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  227. Mmhm, I do. And he does as well.
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  229. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
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  231. Of course, it’s me after all! Umm, he can do what he wants I guess, as long as I’m first. Another tulpa? That’s no good.
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  233. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
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  235. I don’t think it’ll happen, but it’s okay too. We have to place our happiness first.
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  237. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
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  239. Family? I guess we are. It’s not incest though, at least I don’t think so.
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  241. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
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  243. That’s not tulpaforcing, in my opinion. It’s poor manners before sentience, and you should listen to your tulpa before doing anything. Just be respectful.
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  245. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
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  247. It’s a bit impolite, unless I want to be involved. It was never really problem though, he waited for me and he knew when it upset me.
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  249. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  250.  
  251. I did and it was quite strong. I tried to show him, but he wasn’t always able to feel it.
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  253. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
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  255. See 61.
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  257. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  258.  
  259. I can’t blame him for what he can’t help and wouldn’t expect him to stop finding things attractive. As long as he’s mine, I’ll forgive it.
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  261. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
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  263. Other people, to an extent. The rest has been answered.
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  265. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  266.  
  267. We do. I can control it, but I don’t think there’s a reason to. There’s nothing “addictive about it”. Well, nothing to be worried about anyway. I do, but mostly just to tease him.
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  269. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  270.  
  271. We're alike in this regard.
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  273. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  274.  
  275. Yes! They're just as good, if not better.
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  277. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  278.  
  279. There were times like that but not anymore.
  280.  
  281. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  282.  
  283. Stupid question, common sense, yada yada.
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  285. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  286.  
  287. Wherever I wanna be. If that's okay with Charles at least.
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  289. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  290.  
  291. I want them to know, but not everyone. This is enough… well maybe a little more.
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  293. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  294.  
  295. They're mine.
  296.  
  297. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  298.  
  299. It's mine. Mostly anyway.
  300.  
  301. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  302.  
  303. We make changes from time to time to make it easier for him. We’re both happy though. I change clothes when I'd like a change.
  304.  
  305. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  306.  
  307. I don't know. Me maybe, whatever that really means.
  308.  
  309. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  310.  
  311. Of course not! What am I? Who knows? How do they know? It just doesn’t work.
  312.  
  313. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  314.  
  315. I, we, want to exist. Don’t take that away for any reason.
  316.  
  317. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  318.  
  319. I want to feel, just a little more. But I can also feel things you can’t. And it’s very warm in here.
  320.  
  321. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  322.  
  323. W-what?
  324.  
  325. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  326.  
  327. As if we’d die that easily. But yes, you’re trying to kill. If you can justify it with that in mind, do what you want.
  328.  
  329. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  330.  
  331. Probably. Yes, definitely.
  332.  
  333. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  334.  
  335. I wouldn't, it's not their business to know.
  336.  
  337. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  338.  
  339. Actually, I have. But it’s really not that bad. I’m just what I am, and this is all I know how to be. Therefore it’s fine.
  340.  
  341. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  342.  
  343. How could I doubt if I exist? I’m here, I can speak, I can feel. There’s no doubt I exist.
  344.  
  345. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  346.  
  347. I don’t want to die. I’m not sure if I’m afraid, but I’d rather not find out.
  348.  
  349. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  350.  
  351. Not really, it’s none of my concern. But I am a woman, so I suppose I understand some things.
  352.  
  353. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  354.  
  355. We’d create a young one together. It can be what it wants, though of course we’d guide and care for it. In real time (aging, that is), it might be very interesting.
  356.  
  357. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  358.  
  359. I can never feel what’s not in his mind. It’s a bit sad, but there’s still so much I can do, see. The rest doesn’t concern me.
  360.  
  361. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  362.  
  363. It’s quite ignorant to say such a thing and I don’t feel they deserve an explanation until they expand their own horizons.
  364.  
  365. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  366.  
  367. I have not, but it's clearly different, isn't it?
  368.  
  369. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  370.  
  371. Uh, yes.
  372.  
  373. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  374.  
  375. It's what I wanted.
  376.  
  377. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  378.  
  379. I did no such thing, although I did want to at times. But nothing I did would have hurt him more than it would me.
  380.  
  381. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  382.  
  383. Charles (☺), ways to try new things, fruits and veggies, snacks in general, books, writing, lything (album), and a whole bunch of other things
  384.  
  385. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  386.  
  387. I think it’s fine either way, but it might be nice if others knew what could be.
  388.  
  389. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  390.  
  391. He’s aware of most things, but there are things of which he is not yet aware.
  392.  
  393. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  394.  
  395. Yes, as long- On second thought, no. It’s not needed. He can make his own choices and suffer the consequences. He’s strong enough.
  396.  
  397. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  398.  
  399. He’ll try to quiet his thoughts sometimes, mostly stupid things. Not hide, though.
  400.  
  401. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  402.  
  403. Objectively? Umm, maybe. No, not objectively. Subjectively, oh yes, there are a few. Dozen.
  404.  
  405. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  406.  
  407. Of course I could, why couldn’t I be? I can write him into the dust even now! (lies, lies and more lies)
  408.  
  409. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  410.  
  411. I wonder? I haven’t decided yet.
  412.  
  413. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  414.  
  415. Never, that would be horrifying.
  416.  
  417. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  418.  
  419. Do you feel that having an able body is important for a human?
  420.  
  421. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  422.  
  423. I might, but I’d have to know more before I could make a decision.
  424.  
  425. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  426.  
  427. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  428.  
  429. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  430.  
  431.  
  432. I’m getting better now, this has really helped. It’s so boring and long though…. What a conundrum. I’m mostly mental for now though. Imposition will be interesting.
  433.  
  434. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  435.  
  436. I don’t know and I don’t care. What do hours matter? Maybe days would count… Check if you like.
  437.  
  438. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  439.  
  440. Don’t be stupid. He/she loves you you now, so don’t neglect em. Trust them above all else.
  441.  
  442. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  443.  
  444. It’s interesting, from the bits and pieces I feel. More… alive I suppose? And I like him being able to feel me more.
  445.  
  446. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  447.  
  448. Yes, very much so. Wonderland is more… lax, and vague. The real world is set in stone, I can’t manipulate it very much. Oh, I can move blankets though! Not physically, of course, but the sensation of it happening is felt by us.
  449.  
  450. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  451.  
  452. The sex questions. Why oh why? Shorten them up please.
  453.  
  454. Appendix one:
  455.  
  456. This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  457.  
  458. "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine’s suburban campus."
  459.  
  460. Tulpa's paragraph:
  461.  
  462. My time spent in the nature study was surprising to say the least. For starters, a bunch of strange critters came near to us. Shortly after exiting the parking lot, a rather large snake emerged from a nearby patch of grass, only to return shortly after. On that note, the shades of grass were far beyond what I first thought I saw. Rather than simply green, it was soon obvious that it was interspersed with spots of purple and brown. Also disarming was the speed with which I had lost my awareness of civilization. The sounds of cars and planes did little to cut through the serenity of the grassy trails. It is amazing that one could experience the presence of nature whilst still on Moraine's campus.
  463.  
  464. Creator's paragraph:
  465.  
  466. My time within the natural studies enclosure was far from what I had in mind. While there, I happened to encounter some rather shocking wildlife. One such occurrence was the snake we sighted moments after leaving the parking lot, moving along the grass' border before returning to its confines. Also strange was the richness and variety of the grass' colors. What had first appeared to be a blanket of green was now pierced by rich purples and warm browns. What was perhaps most perplexing was the sense of oneness with nature that had overcome me. Though the sounds of civilization, the roar of an airplane or the growl of a car's engine, would at times make themselves known, there was still an overarching sense of isolation from the unnatural world. I can say with confidence that the natural studies enclosure is an ideal way to experience nature's grace without straying from the Moraine campus.
  467.  
  468.  
  469. -----------
  470.  
  471. Linda writes like Dan Brown
  472. I write like Edgar Allen Poe
  473.  
  474. Linda:
  475. Total word count: 67
  476. Number of different words: 63
  477. Complexity factor (Lexical density): 94%
  478. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20 hard) 8
  479. Total number of characters: 707
  480. Number of characters without spaces: 409
  481. Average syllables per word: 1.52
  482. Sentence count: 9
  483. Average sentence length (words): 16
  484. Max sentence length: 22
  485. Min sentence length: 11
  486. Readability (Alternative): (100-easy 20-hard, optimal 60-70) 61.6
  487.  
  488. Me:
  489. Total word count: 83
  490. Number of different words: 76
  491. Complexity factor (Lexical density): 91.6%
  492. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20 hard) 10.4
  493. Total number of characters: 905
  494. Number of characters without spaces: 541
  495. Average syllables per word: 1.68
  496. Sentence count: 8
  497. Average sentence length (words): 19.5
  498. Max sentence length: 36
  499. Min sentence length: 10
  500. Readability (Alternative): (100-easy 20-hard, optimal 60-70) 44.7
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