kamina & dave feelings jam

CTG RIGHT NOW opened memo on board FEELINGSJAM.
Memo is now Secret by CTG
CTG made HS an OP.
CTG: so um
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] settles someplace comfortable, curling a bit --
CTG: i should probably start with the dog thing huh
CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] RIGHT NOW responded to memo.
CHS: Yeah, good idea.
CHS: Just take your time with it, man.
CTG: well um
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] scoots close to Kamina to hug the other's arm, eyes downcast behind his shades --
CTG: there was this guy me an my bro teamed up to fight
CTG: strong as hell
CTG: and me and bro were pretty evenly matched against this guy right
CTG: and we probably would have kicked his ass
CTG: and then shit went wrong dude
CTG: way wrong
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] hugs him properly, listening to the story --
CHS: ...Turned out he was part dog, huh?
CTG: thats when he became part dog
CTG: he wasnt before
CTG: but then stuff happened and it changed him
CHS: Hrm..
CTG: and he became this giant vicious sword wielding dog
CTG: and he could teleport and fly and do all this crazy fucking shit
CTG: and next thing i know
CTG: me and bro are pinned together on the ground with a sword through our middles
CTG: like some sort of morbid fffuckin strider shishkabob
CTG: an
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] pauses, taking a few deep breaths, feathers standing on end. --
CHS: .....
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] squeezes his hand, kissing his cheeks --
CTG: that version of bro that you know
CHS: You don't have to tell me more if you don't want to.
CHS: It's ok.
CTG: no i need to tell you
CHS: If you're sure.
CTG: that bro that you know
CTG: he aint the version from my universe
CTG: some kind of alt dimensional thing
CTG: hes older than i ever knew him to be
CTG: and my bro shouldnt even be around
CTG: cause
CTG: he died dude
CTG: after jack ganked us with his sword i survived somehow because of spritey bullshit and
CTG: and bro died
CHS: ...Fuck.
CHS: Fuck, man.
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] is shaking, streaks of bright yellow running down his face from under the shades. --
CTG: and its my fault
CTG: i couldve done something
CTG: i couldve fought better
CTG: so he wouldnt have had to protect me
CHS: Dave, it's not your fault.
CTG: if it wasnt my fault then hed be still alive!
CHS: You were not the one that fuckin' killed him!
CHS: Listen, he's one of the best fighters I have seen! He's increadibly fast and can think as quick as he runs.
CHS: You think he wouldn't have beaten that dog if he was able to?
CTG: he couldve if i had been better
CTG: i couldve helped him
CTG: stead of being a useless sack of feathers
CTG: couldve moved faster couldve done better
CTG: hes dead and its cause of me dude
CHS: A man protects his family, yeah, and you did a great job! But he was protecting you too, alright? You weren't a burdon, you never were and never will be. You went against increadible odds - neither of you knew what you were getting into!
CHS: Hahaha, I would have died a long time ago if I didn't have Simon with me.
CTG: i just
CTG: i feel so guilty about it man
CTG: i feel so much like
CTG: like i could have done so much better
CTG: and that i slacked
CTG: and got him killed
CHS: Hey, no.
CHS: No.
CHS: I get it.
CHS: I uh... my dad too.
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] bites his lip, nodding. He leans heavily against Kamina, nuzzling his face against the other's shoulder. --
CTG: ive just been kinda
CTG: pretending it didnt happen
CTG: since this alternate bro has been hanging around
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] holds him tight, kissing him lightly --
CTG: and its just
CTG: like
CTG: the reason i look like i do
CTG: is cause i came from a doomed timeline where two of my best friends died
CTG: and i used time travel to stop it from happening
CTG: and changed my body into this to help them keep going
CTG: and i swore id never let anyone important to me die again
CTG: and i let it happen anyway
CHS: ....God, dude.
CHS: Fuck.
CHS: Do you know the circumstances of his revivel?
CHS: Cause obviously there's a way to bring him back.
CTG: i dont know man
CTG: i asked him and he doesnt know either
CTG: he just remembers
CTG: dying
CTG: and then suddenly being not dead
CTG: but every time i see that fucking dog
CTG: i just
CTG: i think of jack
CTG: and i think of that sword through my bros chest and i think of him being dead and not being able to do shit about it
CTG: because im so fucking useless
CHS: You're not useless, though.
CTG: yes i am
CTG: theres no point to me anymore man
CTG: i did my job
CTG: i was ready to die even
CTG: it was practically my time
CHS: But you didn't.
CTG: only still alive cause jade pulled me out of the reckoning before i got meteored
CTG: theres nothing left for me to do though
CTG: jade and rose and john and regular dave are all veritable gods now
CTG: i aint nothing compared to them
CTG: ill never be near their level
CTG: im just
CTG: useless
CTG: they got their own dave anyways
CTG: a better dave with less baggade
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] baggage* --
CTG: they dont need some remnant of a doomed timeline
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] takes a deep breath --
CHS: A MAN'S WORTH IS MEASURED IN ACTION - ALWAYS MOVING FORWARD, EVEN WHEN THERE'S NO LIGHT TO SEE! BELIEVE IN YOUR BRO'S WORDS, DUDE! A BRO IS A BRO, BEYOND DEATH, BEYOND TIME AND SPACE! THE UNBREAKABLE CONNECTION BETWEEN FATHER AND SON TRANSCENDS IT ALL! WHEN YOU LOOK UP AT THE STARS, DO YOU SEE THE ENDLESS HEAVENS OR DO YOU SEE ANOTHER ROOF? ALL THOSE LIGHTS ARE STARS, DAVE! EVERY SINGLE ONE ANOTHER POSSIBILITY,
ANOTHER LIFE, ANOTHER ENDING! YOU'RE NOT RESTRICTED TO JUST ONE ENDING! YOUR BRO IS /ALWAYS/ YOUR BRO, JUST LIKE YOU ARE ALWAYS YOURSELF. YOUR PAST IS THE PATH LEFT BY THE CHURNING OF THE EARTH ITSELF! BLOODSTAINED AND BATTERED YOU ROSE UP AND DID YOUR DUTY, NOT TO YOURSELF, BUT TO YOUR FRIENDS, TO YOUR WORLD! YOU DID WHAT MATTERED AND BEYOND! I HAVE NEVER SEEN A MAN SUCH AS YOU. WHEN I SAY YOUR BRO IS GREAT, IT'S
BECAUSE HE RAISED SUCH A GREAT SON. YOUR WORTH IS NOT DEFINED BY WHAT YOU DIDN'T DO, DUDE. FORGET THAT! YOU'RE /ALIVE/, AND ALL THE STARS IN THE SKY? THEY'RE SHINING AS BRIGHT AS ALWAYS! YOU WENT BEYOND DEATH, DUDE! YOU AND YOUR BRO BOTH! YOU DIDN'T LOSE, EVEN WHEN YOU LOST!
CTG: o-oh
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] is just staring at Kamina, eyes wide as saucers saucers behind his shades, cheeks yellow not just from the stains of his tears but from a flush. --
CTG: i-i
CTG: kamina i um
CTG: i wow
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] 's shoulders start to shake, breath catching in his throat and he almost chokes on it, lifting a hand to push up his shades and rub his eyes. --
CTG: im-!
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] gives him a solid kiss, then, all needy and harsh and full of life --
CTG: mmff!
CHS: You're fuckin' /amazing/, dude. Don't you dare forget it!
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] clutches at Kamina's arms, returning the kiss with fervor, tears smearing on Kamina's face before the other pulls away --
CTG: i
CTG: ok
CTG: i wont
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] nods, sniffing loudly and shoulder's shaking and voice cracking. --
CTG: thank you
CHS: You better no! I'd have to hit you if you did!
CTG: i wont forget i promise
CHS: Swear on it.
CTG: i swear on the soul of my bro i wont forget it ever again
CHS: Good.
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] seals it with a gentler kiss, wiping away his tears --
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] whimpers just a little into the kiss, shades on his forehead, eyes shut. --
CTG: thank you
CHS: No, dude. Thank you for telling me.
CTG: i just
CTG: needed you to know
CTG: was afraid you wouldnt like me as much
CHS: Why wouldn't I, dude?
CTG: i dunno
CHS: You fuckin' traveled through time and space to do everything you could for the people important to do.
CTG: i guess i thought you wouldnt like me as much knowing the truth about me because i was being stupid and self conscious
CHS: *important to you))
CHS: Yeah, no shit!
CTG: im sorry i was being so stupid
CHS: I wouldn't kiss a coward, but you ain't one at all.
CHS: Hey, no.
CTG: im not gonna be stupid again
CTG: k?
CHS: Hahaha, alright.
CHS: I'll hold you to that.
CTG: hey um
CTG: do you still have that medallion on you
CTG: from earlier
CHS: Huh? Yeah, I do.
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] pulls it out of his sarashi --
CTG: ok um
CTG: see thats something from when i became a sprite ok?
CTG: its a little hard to explain all the details but
CTG: basically
CTG: my existance kinda revolves around that medallion
CTG: like i cant go too far away from it
CTG: i mean theres a decently wide range but still
CTG: its like im a genie and thats my genie bottle
CTG: if you even know genie stories
CTG: wow ok im getting off track here
CTG: basically um
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] bites his lips for a moment, considering his words --
CTG: i want you to keep it
CHS: ....No way. I'm not going to restrict you like that. It's your life and your freedom! You have wings, use them!
CTG: no really babe its ok i want you to have it
CTG: if i kept it id use it as an excuse to stay inside and sit on my ass
CHS: But-!
CTG: if you have it then when you go off to do whatever awesome shit you do i can get my ass up and do shit too
CTG: at least take it for a little while
CTG: as a trial maybe??
CTG: incentive to help me do stuff for a while?
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] fidgets, really not liking the idea --
CHS: Aaaugh, ok.
CHS: Just for a bit.
CTG: we could give it a week maybe?
CTG: see how it goes
CHS: Sure, that'd work.
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] loops it around his neck --
CTG: this is really important
CTG: so
CTG: im trusting you
CTG: ok?
CHS: You can trust in me.
CTG: thanks kamina
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] loops his arms around the other's neck, pulling him in for another quick kiss --
CTG: i think im feeling better now
-- CURRENT heavensmashingSwordsman [CHS] mwah --
CHS: I'm glad.
CTG: wanna go grab a snack?
CHS: Oh fuck yeah.
CHS: I'm starving!
-- CURRENT turnedspriteGodhead [CTG] and then they ollied outy to the kitchen --