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- Careful's Charge: Part IV
- >Whump.
- >The front door swings shut, the slam muffled by cold air gushing in from outside.
- >Even Safe understood pretty quickly when to leave you and Careful to talk.
- >She gave Careful a hug that evolved from awkward to close and loving, exchanged a few quiet words with her, promised to visit tomorrow, then nodded politely at you and bounced.
- >You sit on the couch with Careful.
- >You haven't said anything to her yet except "hi."
- >Silence is never awkward between you two, but it won't do here nonetheless.
- "I've missed you. You feeling better?"
- >"I need to check in with a shrink every week," admits Careful, rolling her eyes. "Only way to get back on duty as soon as I want."
- >You love hearing her voice again.
- >Even tinted with boredom and exhaustion from civilian life and physical recovery, it has a certain melody to it.
- >"You been okay? This whole thing has been..."
- >Careful trails off, gathering her thoughts.
- >"You look so much better. Magic worked fast, huh?"
- "Still a little stiff. Some scars. I'm fine otherwise. Great, even."
- >"Great."
- >She smiles.
- >What a smile.
- >That face of hers alone just makes you happy.
- >Your stomach tries to wrench.
- >You don't let it.
- >"You've got something on your mind," says Careful, her expression turning reflective, then concerned.
- "...yeah."
- >She waits.
- >You spill it.
- >All of it.
- >"I love you."
- >It's the first thing she says.
- >At first you're not sure you heard it right.
- >You hold your tongue.
- >You reflect on it.
- >It's what she says.
- >She waits for you.
- >You can't bring yourself to say anything.
- >Your chest heaves.
- >You try to keep your eyes from watering.
- >"Do... you still love me?"
- >She can't stifle a hiccup.
- >That does it for you.
- >You're not a crying man, but Careful brings out aspects of yourself you sometimes forget are there.
- >You try to shake yourself.
- >This makes no sense.
- >No sense.
- >Right?
- >Try to surface.
- >Try to breathe.
- >You feel like this for a... for a talking horse.
- >How does this make sense?
- >How can you feel these things?
- >How would this have made sense before?
- >Not that you can even remember before.
- >That's it.
- >That's your backstory.
- >The great secret.
- >The one you don't think about.
- >The one you certainly don't talk about.
- >The one even Careful doesn't know.
- >You can't remember.
- >You remember certain things about yourself, but not who you are.
- >You remember things about where you came from, but not where it was.
- >You woke up around here about a year ago.
- >You came to the city.
- >You found a place.
- >That's it.
- >You can rely on the last thing you know for certain.
- "I love you."
- >Careful sniffles.
- >"I-I'm sorry."
- >You nearly gape.
- >"I didn't pay enough attention. I didn't help you with what you needed. I didn't know how to help you feel close to me."
- "Care-"
- >"I could have... like other mares, I could look into a hormone supplement, or I could find toys, or I could help with... with my mouth..."
- >You have to say something.
- "That was never-"
- >"Then what was it?" Careful asks.
- >Not desperately.
- >Not coldly.
- >Just calmly.
- >Eerily and unexplainably calmly.
- "I won't make any excuse. You deserve better."
- >"An explanation, then. Anything. Please."
- "I... I thought it was over. I don't know why. I wanted to feel what I feel with you. I... I just wanted it."
- >You can't get anything else out.
- >Careful nods.
- >"Okay."
- >You sit in silence a while longer.
- >It's not awkward.
- >It's something close but worse.
- >Something you don't know the exact word for.
- >"Can I be alone?"
- >'Can you leave,' she means.
- >"I need to think. Please understand."
- "Yeah."
- >You've only started with the zipper on your coat when Careful ushers you to the door.
- >You're not too stupid to cooperate.
- >"Come back later."
- "I will."
- >You leave through the door.
- >"You-"
- >You turn back.
- >She leans toward you, as if she forgot something she needs to give you.
- >"You... YOU..."
- >Her features contort, then harden.
- >Her tears drip and glisten in the icy cold.
- >She shakes with sheer effort of physical control.
- >"You god damn imbecile."
- >She slams the door harder than you could ever believe.
- >Snow cascades from roofs all down the street.
- >Flakes blow in the wind, silent and unaware.
- >...
- >Marescow Mel's isn't the first place you'd choose for a beer alone, but damn if you wanna walk any further.
- >It's late in the day as far as you're concerned, but still not quite happy hour.
- >It's just you and a few of the regulars in there.
- >Not the regulars who like being there.
- >The ones who have to be there.
- >One lounge singer plays bongos on the stage, crooning softly.
- >Mel gives you her usual look as you sit at the bar.
- >It's better than contempt, but not as kind as disinterest.
- >"It's you."
- "I love you too, Mel."
- >"You look like shit."
- "Yeah. Can I get a stout?"
- >"You want fudge with that?"
- "I don't have the appetite."
- >"PEANUT BUTTER FUDGE!" she calls to the kitchen.
- "That on the house?"
- >"No."
- >You don't bother to drum up any over-the-bar conversation with Mel.
- >She's not the type to offer you sympathy even when you deserve it, much less now.
- >You haven't said a thing to her since ordering, and still her look hardens each time she passes by you.
- >You're certain you're not imagining it.
- >Maybe she can smell guilt.
- >Is that a thing ponies can do?
- >Does guilt have a scent?
- >"Something weighs upon you, my son," observes someone behind you.
- >You swivel on your stool to identify the speaker: a big, fat stallion with a thin mustache and a well-fitted, well-worn suit.
- >"Miss Mel," he says over the bar. "If you would, another plate of double brownie and one of the mint surprise for my table. And a bottle of wine. That 1635 Celestian, if you would."
- >He gestures to a dusty, well-aged bottle on the liquor shelf.
- >Mel regards him stoically, nods, and fetches it, giving you a sideways glance as she makes her way toward a booth out near the stage.
- >The stallion drops a stack of bits near you on the bar.
- >"Should cover my tab as well as yours, plus gratuity for Miss Mel. May it lift some of that weight from you, if only a little."
- >That was out of the blue and more than slightly eccentric, but you appreciate the favor.
- "Thank you very much."
- >He waves a hoof as if it were nothing.
- >You extend your hand.
- >He takes it and gives it a single shake.
- "Anonymous."
- >"Fat Stacks."
- >You just manage to suppress the smirk that comes to your mouth, but you must have a tell.
- >Stacks tilts his head.
- >"Do you find my name amusing?"
- "Only a little. Very sorry."
- >He waves his hoof again.
- >"Just how I weed out bullshitters. You're not one. You should join my companions and I at my table. I insist."
- >You can't see the harm.
- >He did pay for your shit.
- "Glad to."
- >"Oh, and what is that, peanut butter? Bring that."
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