Drowning (2019) EN

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Subtitles by explosiveskull
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Turn to the right
and then look to the left.

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Like, your body
to the right, left.

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One more.

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It takes so long.

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It doesn't take so long.

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- Okay, yeah.
- Okay, that's it.

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I love you.

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I love you too.

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I've got to go, please.

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Everything's fine, Mom, okay?

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I love you.

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I love you too.

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<i>Hi, if you found this video,</i>

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<i>it means that
you are searching for something</i>

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<i>and I totally understand that</i>

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<i>because I search too.</i>

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<i>I'm a military dad,</i>

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<i>so here's some advice:</i>

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<i>Initially write everything down.</i>

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<i>Okay, because you might
have to share it</i>

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<i>with somebody down the line.</i>

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<i>So just write it down, okay?</i>

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<i>Another important thing</i>

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<i>that helped me get
to where I am today</i>

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<i>and that is that
I found support groups,</i>

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<i>there's so many people
out there like you, like me.</i>

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<i>They know the pressure,
they know the anxiety,</i>

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<i>and they can help,
I promise you.</i>

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<i>So just, try to stay positive,</i>

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<i>reach out to them, be available.</i>

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<i>I can tell you as
I mentioned earlier, I'm a...</i>

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<i>proud,</i>

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<i>proud military dad.</i>

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<i>Okay, and the main thing
you got to remember,</i>

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<i>because I learned it
the hard way,</i>

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<i>no news is good news.</i>

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<i>I promise you,
no news is good news.</i>

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<i>Because you have to
remember that your loved one,</i>

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<i>they are fulfilling
his or her destiny,</i>

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<i>they want to be there
and they are trained,</i>

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<i>and they know
what they're doing.</i>

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<i>Take up a new hobby,
learn a new skill.</i>

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<i>Hell, I even learned
how to swim.</i>

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<i>Another thing that helps for me,</i>

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<i>maybe This isn't
for everybody but...</i>

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<i>Praying.</i>

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<i>Praying.</i>

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<i>I promise you.</i>

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<i>God knows.</i>

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<i>How do you know God knows?</i>

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<i>How do you know
there's a God?</i>

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He left a message.

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He said he was calling
to tell me...

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that he loved me
and everything was fine.

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He didn't sound fine.

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He said he would
call back tomorrow,

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which would mean today...

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tomorrow's become today.

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He called at 11 a.m.

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so I, I have four more
hours to reach that point.

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My father died in Desert Storm.

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And...

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I still miss him.

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I still listen to his messages.

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"I love you."

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"Everything is fine."

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"Don't worry about me," he says,

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"Everything's fine."

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Hi, Mary.

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How are you?

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- So pretty.
- Thank you.

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Hi,
I'm looking for a book on medieval art?

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Oh, talk to her.

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- Hi.
- Hi.

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What are you looking for today?

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You know, medieval art,
it's for class.

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- Well, we've got this, in general.
- Okay.

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Then we got this.

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And then there's Giotto,
he changed everything.

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He was the first
to show human emotion.

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- Oh, wow, you should teach.
- Right.

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No, I'm serious.

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So what should I get?

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One general, then one of these.

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But, he knew Dante.

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- And he painted his portrait.
- Mm-hmm.

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And even in just a profile

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- he captures the...
- Hello.

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Hi, sorry to interrupt.

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- Claire?
- Yeah.

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Dominic, from the, you know...

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Yeah.

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Uh, so, I'm just going
to run across the street

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- get us a table.
- Oh, yeah, okay.

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- See you in a minute.
- Yeah.

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Do you want the book?

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Yeah, well, you know, he...

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- It's okay.
- Okay, thank you.

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Kids these days,
I mean, that was awkward.

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I feel so old.

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Tinder.

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I guess.

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I use it.

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No, really?

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Yeah, all the time,
other sites too.

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I don't want to know.

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Mm.

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It's so easy.

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- And you know, just convenient...
- No.

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Just please, stop,

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change this... no,
change the subject.

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- I know, but you really should.
- No, stop.

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- No.
- Okay, okay, um...

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- Change the subject.
- I know.

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I have started
selling my jewelry.

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- Congratulations.
- Thank you.

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Are you going to keep the store?

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Yeah, of course,
I love the store.

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I love art, books.

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Yeah, history,
and it feels safe there.

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Yeah, and it's a great
place to me to come by.

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Congratulations on
selling your jewelry.

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Thank you.

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So...

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I laughed,

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but honestly,
it made me feel sick.

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And I really feel old.

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- When you're naughty?
- Mm-hmm.

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You're going to think back
to when you're 70 and young.

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Mm-hmm.

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So what, what didn't
you like about it,

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that it didn't obey some
strict aesthetic rule?

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Yeah, I guess that's what I do.

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Mm.

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Well, I'm not saying
that you should, uh...

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hook up with
strangers or anything,

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but you could enjoy your life

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a little more, once in a while.

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I know.

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It just feels
like I can't breathe

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until he comes home.

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What's the matter?

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You don't like my risotto?

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I love your risotto.

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So, do you want to hook up?

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Or something?

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That's what I hear
my students say all the time.

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I love when you laugh like that.

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Some of my colleagues
do that stuff.

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- Oh, yeah?
- Mm-hmm.

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Which ones?

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You know,

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Jorge, Angela, yeah...

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And you?

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Because I can't.

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Why can't you?

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Because I can't.

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I think we should
go on a vacation.

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You know...

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Uh, Egypt, Italy, Greece.

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Hmm.

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I miss those places.

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I, I, I want to...

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make them feel alive
again, you know?

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My classes, they've gone stale,

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you could photograph.

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When, for how long?

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Oh, it'd have to be
between semesters,

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at least three weeks,
I want to immerse.

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- I can't leave.
- Why?

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- Because I can't leave.
- How come?

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Because, because of
what if something happened?

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So, I mean what if he calls,
or she calls, or Bob calls?

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When are you going to start
living your own life?

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I just...

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I mean, I, I just...

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I can't wait much longer.

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I'm not asking you to wait.

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I want to...

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I, I want to fall in love
with my work again,

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you know, I want to...

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I want it to make me feel...

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alive and, and, and vital,
I've been rereading.

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Joseph Campbell and Robert
Graves, the old myths.

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You know,

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I, I'm looking
to reconnect back to

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like it was when I was young and

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when I wanted to study
mythology in the first place.

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But you can't
recapture your youth.

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I understand, I,
I'm talking about recapturing

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and I'm talking about
recapturing the essence

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of what inspired me in the first
place, you know, reinvent it.

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Re...

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re-establish some kind
of current connection, right?

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Re... reclaim it.

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I want to write a book.

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- You should do that.
- And you should come with me.

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Yeah.

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Hello?

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Hello?

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- Hello? Charlie?
- <i>Mom.</i>

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- Are you okay?
- <i>Yeah, I'm fine.</i>

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<i>I have to go, I just wanted to
let you know everything's fine...</i>

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Wait, just wait a minute.

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I want to tell you something.

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<i>Please, don't worry, Mom.</i>

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No, please listen to me.

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I want to tell you that,
that I'm really sorry.

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I'm sorry, because...

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I never got to be just,
just your mom.

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I never got to be
just your mother.

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I, I never got to say, "Honey,
don't be so hard on him."

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I, I had to play both sides.

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I'm really sorry.

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Did, did you hear me?
Did you hear what I said?

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<i>Yeah.</i>

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Okay.

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<i>It's not your fault.</i>

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- Okay.
- <i>It's okay, I love you.</i>

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Yeah, I love you.

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<i>I have to go.</i>

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I'm scared.

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Well,
swimming in towel is scary.

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- I'm afraid of the water.
- Okay, that's fine.

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It's all good.

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You stay on the steps if you
want, all you want is fine.

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Hey, I'm not going
to touch you at all,

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just stay in the distance, okay,
what makes you comfortable.

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You're half wet. It's good.

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You can do it.

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It's good.

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You're doing good.

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Hey, hey.

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Can you put your head
under water?

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Well, I can.

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Take a shot.

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I don't know how
I swim like that.

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You're going to feel
like that too.

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Not today.

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How do you feel?

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All right, do you want
to get out? You can get out.

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So I submitted some writing
to the support group online

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and the response was
to put it in God's hands,

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pray, be strong...

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And one guy writes that
I'm writing like a crazy person

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and I should see a therapist.

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I should be so proud
blah, blah, blah...

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Hmm.

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- You're burning it.
- They get burned.

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Oh, my God, with ketchup,
that's disgusting.

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I don't care.

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You're going to burn yourself,

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and that is seriously
disgusting.

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I didn't.

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Hot.

257
00:19:22,780 --> 00:19:24,716
Hmm, yeah, that's
what happens when...

258
00:19:24,749 --> 00:19:26,918
- I didn't burn myself, though.
- You burn yourself.

259
00:19:43,835 --> 00:19:45,770
<i>...Where they were encouraged</i>

260
00:19:45,803 --> 00:19:48,371
<i>to view every Iraqi as the enemy</i>

261
00:19:48,405 --> 00:19:50,575
<i>and they committed
many massacres</i>

262
00:19:50,608 --> 00:19:52,009
<i>beyond what we know...</i>

263
00:19:53,343 --> 00:19:54,846
So, then...

264
00:19:55,913 --> 00:19:56,981
I cleaned his room.

265
00:19:57,949 --> 00:20:01,686
And I found things,
he was smoking heroin.

266
00:20:01,719 --> 00:20:04,021
I did these anonymous test.

267
00:20:08,492 --> 00:20:10,527
I don't even know
what I'm doing here.

268
00:20:13,898 --> 00:20:17,735
There was this article
someone said, um,

269
00:20:17,769 --> 00:20:20,403
"Boy, we sure didn't think
we'd be firing missiles

270
00:20:20,437 --> 00:20:23,406
when we left Fort Hood
last December."

271
00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:24,842
That's when he left Fort Hood,

272
00:20:25,743 --> 00:20:26,778
in December.

273
00:20:30,782 --> 00:20:34,852
I brought this child
into the world, why?

274
00:20:34,886 --> 00:20:36,587
For what?

275
00:20:36,621 --> 00:20:38,455
So he can just die?

276
00:20:39,991 --> 00:20:41,491
In fear?

277
00:20:48,498 --> 00:20:49,901
That's what's killing me.

278
00:20:54,572 --> 00:20:57,842
I feel like I, I, I have to...

279
00:20:58,776 --> 00:21:00,912
hold on, I have to wait for him.

280
00:21:06,818 --> 00:21:07,785
And then what?

281
00:21:09,554 --> 00:21:10,955
What do you mean?

282
00:21:10,988 --> 00:21:12,522
And then, what?

283
00:21:14,926 --> 00:21:17,662
He goes to live with his wife,

284
00:21:18,629 --> 00:21:20,031
live his own life...

285
00:21:21,132 --> 00:21:22,600
and what are you going to do?

286
00:21:24,534 --> 00:21:26,938
Your daughter will graduate,

287
00:21:26,971 --> 00:21:28,873
she'll be living somewhere,

288
00:21:28,906 --> 00:21:30,540
moving on with her life.

289
00:21:31,843 --> 00:21:33,778
And what are you going to do?

290
00:21:34,846 --> 00:21:37,849
- I don't know.
- I want you to try something.

291
00:21:39,750 --> 00:21:41,686
I want you

292
00:21:41,719 --> 00:21:45,857
to paint your bedroom the color
you always wanted to paint it,

293
00:21:45,890 --> 00:21:47,058
and I want you to write.

294
00:21:49,760 --> 00:21:51,796
You can't repress these things,

295
00:21:51,829 --> 00:21:54,866
you have to start
moving forward.

296
00:21:56,499 --> 00:21:58,501
Do you want to make
an appointment for next week?

297
00:22:08,913 --> 00:22:10,413
What else do you guys do?

298
00:22:11,949 --> 00:22:15,052
Well, I'm working
on my PhD, art history.

299
00:22:16,020 --> 00:22:18,122
I wanted to go to grad school

300
00:22:18,155 --> 00:22:19,489
and decided to work.

301
00:22:20,490 --> 00:22:22,593
I design clothes.

302
00:22:22,627 --> 00:22:25,563
That's right, I'm, I'm working
on creating my own line.

303
00:22:25,596 --> 00:22:27,497
- Wish me luck.
- Good luck.

304
00:22:30,500 --> 00:22:32,670
But you're an artist too?

305
00:22:32,703 --> 00:22:36,841
Yeah, I paint, I draw,
I sculpt a little bit too.

306
00:22:38,209 --> 00:22:41,913
My, um, my daughter
is studying chemistry.

307
00:22:41,946 --> 00:22:43,881
- That's nice.
- Yeah.

308
00:22:43,915 --> 00:22:47,517
And my son is deployed
somewhere over in Iraq,

309
00:22:47,551 --> 00:22:49,053
but he was...

310
00:22:49,086 --> 00:22:51,722
he is a really good artist too.

311
00:22:51,756 --> 00:22:53,157
Well, that's great.

312
00:22:53,190 --> 00:22:56,160
I mean, that'll be super
intense though, right?

313
00:22:56,193 --> 00:22:57,695
Yeah.

314
00:22:57,728 --> 00:22:59,797
- And you're okay though, yeah?
- Yeah.

315
00:22:59,830 --> 00:23:01,999
Yes, so, um...

316
00:23:02,033 --> 00:23:05,136
you know, thank him for
his service to our country.

317
00:23:07,238 --> 00:23:09,206
I will if, um...

318
00:23:09,240 --> 00:23:11,842
I will, when he calls.

319
00:23:14,078 --> 00:23:16,681
I have an uncle
who fought in Vietnam and

320
00:23:16,714 --> 00:23:19,617
supposedly it helps if
you talk to him about your day

321
00:23:19,650 --> 00:23:21,819
or you know,
show him pictures your dog,

322
00:23:21,852 --> 00:23:23,520
just like normal things,
you know,

323
00:23:23,554 --> 00:23:25,923
to take their mind off of...

324
00:23:25,957 --> 00:23:27,792
Yeah.

325
00:23:27,825 --> 00:23:31,729
You know, would you want some?

326
00:23:31,762 --> 00:23:33,130
They're edibles.

327
00:23:33,164 --> 00:23:34,598
Like, it's got
to be really hard,

328
00:23:34,632 --> 00:23:35,800
given that your son could...

329
00:23:37,534 --> 00:23:38,869
Shit, I'll take some.

330
00:23:39,971 --> 00:23:41,672
But, but they're not for you.

331
00:23:43,574 --> 00:23:44,775
You're always taking them.

332
00:23:46,143 --> 00:23:47,578
It's all right.

333
00:23:47,611 --> 00:23:49,647
Bye.
You know, you owe me though.

334
00:23:49,680 --> 00:23:51,649
- See you, guys.
- Bye.

335
00:23:51,682 --> 00:23:54,552
- You owe me, are you sure?
- Yeah.

336
00:23:54,585 --> 00:23:56,053
- Thank you.
- All right.

337
00:23:56,087 --> 00:23:59,056
- I'll see you later, all right?
- Yeah, okay, bye.

338
00:24:37,795 --> 00:24:39,697
Hello? Hello?

339
00:24:40,998 --> 00:24:43,901
- Hello?
- <i>Mom, it's me, I'm okay.</i>

340
00:24:43,934 --> 00:24:46,237
Charlie? I love you.

341
00:24:47,972 --> 00:24:50,207
I'm so sorry
about everything that happened.

342
00:24:50,241 --> 00:24:52,076
I'm, I'm sorry.

343
00:24:52,109 --> 00:24:54,245
<i>I love you too, Mom.</i>

344
00:24:54,278 --> 00:24:56,747
Charlie I, I...

345
00:24:56,781 --> 00:24:58,349
<i>I got to go now, Mom.</i>

346
00:25:14,131 --> 00:25:15,933
<i>So according to Arabella...</i>

347
00:25:17,001 --> 00:25:19,336
<i>he tells somebody
at school he has cancer.</i>

348
00:25:19,370 --> 00:25:21,839
- But he didn't have cancer, did he?
- Uh-uh.

349
00:25:21,872 --> 00:25:24,775
- Okay, so he told them that.
- Yeah.

350
00:25:24,809 --> 00:25:26,944
He tells someone he has cancer

351
00:25:26,977 --> 00:25:29,046
and then the headmaster
asks everybody

352
00:25:29,080 --> 00:25:30,981
to pray for him during assembly.

353
00:25:31,015 --> 00:25:32,950
She said she was mortified.

354
00:25:32,983 --> 00:25:34,351
- Mortified?
- Yeah.

355
00:25:34,385 --> 00:25:36,287
That's a good word
but still, that's crazy.

356
00:25:36,320 --> 00:25:38,022
Completely.

357
00:25:42,093 --> 00:25:43,694
The whole thing makes me sick.

358
00:25:44,662 --> 00:25:47,631
Just talking about it
makes me sick, nausea.

359
00:25:48,332 --> 00:25:50,334
Jean-Paul Sartre, <i>Nausea.</i>

360
00:25:50,367 --> 00:25:51,836
Okay, well, if it...

361
00:25:52,837 --> 00:25:55,239
If it's any consolation,
when I was his age

362
00:25:55,272 --> 00:25:58,676
I had a bit of a drug problem
myself and, you know,

363
00:25:58,709 --> 00:26:00,845
look at me, look,

364
00:26:00,878 --> 00:26:03,047
I turned out okay,
if I do say so myself.

365
00:26:07,718 --> 00:26:09,153
Military might
straighten him out.

366
00:26:09,186 --> 00:26:10,888
I hear that happens sometimes.

367
00:26:15,226 --> 00:26:16,293
You're not alone.

368
00:26:19,363 --> 00:26:20,798
And now...

369
00:26:20,831 --> 00:26:22,967
I'm going to go
grind some grain.

370
00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:24,201
I'll see you tomorrow.

371
00:26:39,750 --> 00:26:41,318
You did it, you did it!

372
00:26:41,352 --> 00:26:43,320
You did it,
it's great.

373
00:26:43,354 --> 00:26:45,322
How are you, are you okay?

374
00:26:45,356 --> 00:26:47,858
Okay, hold my hands.

375
00:26:47,892 --> 00:26:49,360
Okay, get your breath,
it's fine.

376
00:26:49,393 --> 00:26:50,895
Now just come with me and kick.

377
00:26:52,096 --> 00:26:55,132
You said a... you said you
wanted to learn to swim, right?

378
00:26:55,166 --> 00:26:56,267
I have you.

379
00:26:56,300 --> 00:26:58,068
Just kick your legs.

380
00:26:58,102 --> 00:26:59,370
Look at you swimming.

381
00:26:59,403 --> 00:27:02,006
Yay, yay, yay! Or sort of.

382
00:27:02,039 --> 00:27:03,307
Just keep going.

383
00:27:03,340 --> 00:27:04,808
Do a little turn here.

384
00:27:05,776 --> 00:27:08,245
Kick your legs,
keep getting them up straight.

385
00:27:08,279 --> 00:27:09,780
Behind you.

386
00:27:09,813 --> 00:27:11,182
Yeah, it's better, it's easier.

387
00:27:11,215 --> 00:27:13,250
Look at you, this is great.

388
00:27:13,284 --> 00:27:15,052
You're swimming.

389
00:27:15,085 --> 00:27:16,954
It's good, yeah...

390
00:27:16,987 --> 00:27:18,722
sort of.

391
00:27:20,791 --> 00:27:24,161
Legs up, all right, just kick
them, hold my hands, kick them.

392
00:27:24,195 --> 00:27:26,197
Whoa!

393
00:29:14,138 --> 00:29:15,339
You were sleepwalking.

394
00:29:15,372 --> 00:29:16,874
No, I wasn't.

395
00:29:16,907 --> 00:29:19,076
Rose, you were
fucking sleepwalking.

396
00:29:19,109 --> 00:29:21,412
No, I wasn't I, I woke up,

397
00:29:21,445 --> 00:29:23,147
I walked into the living room,

398
00:29:23,180 --> 00:29:25,416
Charlie was standing
there covered in dust,

399
00:29:25,449 --> 00:29:28,553
and he said, "This is
what happens to us, Mom.

400
00:29:28,586 --> 00:29:29,853
This is where we all end up,

401
00:29:29,887 --> 00:29:31,589
you know, like, dust to dust."

402
00:29:31,623 --> 00:29:33,558
- And then I...
- And then...

403
00:29:33,591 --> 00:29:36,994
I woke you up because
you were sleeping on the sofa.

404
00:29:40,964 --> 00:29:42,166
And?

405
00:29:42,199 --> 00:29:43,967
- I'm just saying it.
- Whatever.

406
00:29:45,469 --> 00:29:46,403
Hey.

407
00:29:47,471 --> 00:29:48,539
Thank you.

408
00:29:48,573 --> 00:29:49,973
You're welcome.

409
00:29:51,475 --> 00:29:54,244
Rose, Charlie's
going to be fine.

410
00:29:54,278 --> 00:29:55,179
Okay?

411
00:29:57,548 --> 00:30:00,451
He's in the reserves and they're
not going to send him to the front.

412
00:30:00,484 --> 00:30:02,886
He's not trained for that and...

413
00:30:02,920 --> 00:30:04,488
Arabella,

414
00:30:04,521 --> 00:30:07,958
she's in an Ivy League,
she's fine.

415
00:30:07,991 --> 00:30:10,094
You don't know that,
you don't know that she's fine,

416
00:30:10,127 --> 00:30:12,496
you can't assume because
she's in an Ivy League school

417
00:30:12,529 --> 00:30:14,031
that everything is fine

418
00:30:14,064 --> 00:30:16,934
- and IUDs explode...
- IED rooms.

419
00:30:16,967 --> 00:30:19,236
- It's an IED, not an IUD.
- Yes, stop.

420
00:30:19,269 --> 00:30:21,071
- You know what I'm talking about.
- I know,

421
00:30:21,105 --> 00:30:24,007
but there's nothing you can do
about it, so stop it.

422
00:30:24,041 --> 00:30:25,309
But I can't.

423
00:30:25,342 --> 00:30:27,478
It's like this thing
is seeping in

424
00:30:27,511 --> 00:30:28,912
between my thoughts,

425
00:30:28,946 --> 00:30:30,381
it's like a bee,

426
00:30:30,414 --> 00:30:33,117
and it's following me
like a shadow.

427
00:30:33,150 --> 00:30:34,652
We can't keep doing this.

428
00:30:36,453 --> 00:30:37,555
Stop.

429
00:30:38,989 --> 00:30:41,125
- I'm finished, I'm done.
- Oh...

430
00:30:41,158 --> 00:30:42,493
- It's over.
- Stop it.

431
00:30:42,526 --> 00:30:44,495
Fat, ugly, old, stupid.

432
00:30:44,528 --> 00:30:46,631
- Stop.
- And I'm running out of money.

433
00:30:46,664 --> 00:30:49,601
Oh, you... Shut the fuck up,
you're fine, okay?

434
00:30:50,702 --> 00:30:51,935
Rose...

435
00:30:54,004 --> 00:30:55,539
Light of my life...

436
00:30:55,573 --> 00:30:58,509
...fire of my loins, come on.

437
00:31:00,043 --> 00:31:02,346
So many things,

438
00:31:02,379 --> 00:31:05,115
but you are so fucking
stubborn...

439
00:31:05,149 --> 00:31:07,217
your head is made of rock.

440
00:31:07,251 --> 00:31:08,252
So is yours.

441
00:31:09,554 --> 00:31:10,622
You're stubborn too.

442
00:31:13,090 --> 00:31:15,693
I think you're
absolutely sensational.

443
00:31:16,594 --> 00:31:17,494
Okay.

444
00:31:41,151 --> 00:31:43,454
<i>Charlie says if
you don't answer his text,</i>

445
00:31:43,487 --> 00:31:45,657
<i>we will regret it
for the rest of our lives.</i>

446
00:31:45,690 --> 00:31:47,291
<i>I hate him, he's frightening,</i>

447
00:31:47,324 --> 00:31:49,426
<i>if you don't do something...</i>

448
00:31:49,460 --> 00:31:52,229
<i>I can't live with him, you don't
know what happened in New York,</i>

449
00:31:52,262 --> 00:31:54,566
<i>you don't know what he's like,
you're too stupid.</i>

450
00:31:54,599 --> 00:31:56,366
<i>I had to pretend I was asleep.</i>

451
00:31:56,400 --> 00:31:58,202
<i>I thought he was
going to kill me.</i>

452
00:31:58,235 --> 00:31:59,637
<i>You're an idiot.</i>

453
00:31:59,671 --> 00:32:01,573
<i>All my friends
say you're an idiot.</i>

454
00:32:19,691 --> 00:32:21,124
<i>Open the fucking door!</i>

455
00:32:21,158 --> 00:32:22,526
<i>No, get the fuck away!</i>

456
00:32:22,560 --> 00:32:23,661
<i>What the fuck is that?</i>

457
00:32:23,695 --> 00:32:25,028
<i>It's nothing,</i>

458
00:32:25,062 --> 00:32:25,797
<i>none of your fucking business!</i>

459
00:32:25,830 --> 00:32:27,064
<i>Give it!</i>

460
00:32:27,097 --> 00:32:28,332
<i>No, stop.</i>

461
00:32:28,365 --> 00:32:29,433
<i>What the fuck is this?</i>

462
00:32:29,466 --> 00:32:30,568
<i>It's ethene,</i>

463
00:32:30,602 --> 00:32:31,769
<i>just stop, get the fuck out!</i>

464
00:32:31,803 --> 00:32:33,571
<i>No!</i>

465
00:32:33,605 --> 00:32:35,239
<i>Stop going
through my fucking shit!</i>

466
00:32:36,206 --> 00:32:38,308
<i>What the fuck is going on?</i>

467
00:32:38,342 --> 00:32:42,279
<i>Nothing's going on,
you're fucking crazy, get the fuck out!</i>

468
00:32:52,489 --> 00:32:54,626
<i>...yes,
there's an element of ISIS,</i>

469
00:32:54,659 --> 00:32:56,628
<i>I don't know how dominant it is,</i>

470
00:32:56,661 --> 00:33:00,264
<i>that is, you know, trying
to establish the caliphate.</i>

471
00:33:00,297 --> 00:33:01,833
<i>And they are beheading people</i>

472
00:33:01,866 --> 00:33:03,635
<i>and they are imposing
a very strict</i>

473
00:33:03,668 --> 00:33:05,335
<i>interpretation of Sharia Law.</i>

474
00:33:05,369 --> 00:33:07,204
<i>But there are also,</i>

475
00:33:07,237 --> 00:33:10,173
<i>and I would suspect that
their best military figures,</i>

476
00:33:10,207 --> 00:33:12,644
<i>there's also a large
contingent of people</i>

477
00:33:12,677 --> 00:33:15,580
<i>that are fighting the same
battle that they were fighting</i>

478
00:33:15,613 --> 00:33:17,749
<i>when the United States
initially invaded.</i>

479
00:33:17,782 --> 00:33:20,752
<i>The fact is there was no
Al Qaeda presence in Iraq</i>

480
00:33:20,785 --> 00:33:24,254
<i>before George W. Bush
made the decision to invade,</i>

481
00:33:24,288 --> 00:33:27,424
<i>except in the Kurdish region,
in the north of Iraq,</i>

482
00:33:27,457 --> 00:33:29,426
<i>which was not under
Saddam Hussein's control.</i>

483
00:33:29,459 --> 00:33:32,797
<i>In fact, it was under the control of U.S.
backed entities.</i>

484
00:33:32,830 --> 00:33:34,398
Look, there's other strokes,

485
00:33:34,431 --> 00:33:36,801
and you'll get to them,
the dog paddle,

486
00:33:36,834 --> 00:33:38,836
it is goofy, I agree.

487
00:33:38,870 --> 00:33:40,838
It's weird
and it feels weird but,

488
00:33:40,872 --> 00:33:43,675
but like this though,
don't let any air through there,

489
00:33:43,708 --> 00:33:47,377
little, little like scoops
there, like ice-cream.

490
00:33:47,411 --> 00:33:50,180
Breaststroke, you'll get there.

491
00:33:50,213 --> 00:33:52,115
Kick like a frog,

492
00:33:52,149 --> 00:33:53,450
and the crawl,

493
00:33:53,483 --> 00:33:56,588
that's also known as freestyle.

494
00:33:58,322 --> 00:34:01,458
Butterfly, might be advanced.

495
00:34:02,760 --> 00:34:04,829
- What?
- I'm never going to learn.

496
00:34:07,899 --> 00:34:11,603
You are going to learn.
That's the deal.

497
00:34:11,636 --> 00:34:14,739
<i>...an epic formula for blowback.</i>

498
00:34:14,772 --> 00:34:16,506
<i>According to Yahoo News</i>

499
00:34:16,540 --> 00:34:18,743
<i>the Obama Administration
acknowledged a policy</i>

500
00:34:18,776 --> 00:34:21,244
<i>announced last year
calling for near certainty</i>

501
00:34:21,278 --> 00:34:24,548
<i>for no civilian
casualties in drone strikes</i>

502
00:34:24,582 --> 00:34:27,284
<i>will not apply
to the current bombing.</i>

503
00:34:27,317 --> 00:34:29,621
<i>The admission came
in response to queries</i>

504
00:34:29,654 --> 00:34:31,823
<i>about a strike that
killed up to a dozen civilians</i>

505
00:34:31,856 --> 00:34:35,325
<i>in the Syrian village
of Kafr Dariyan last week.</i>

506
00:34:35,359 --> 00:34:38,328
<i>This is kind of
Kabuki drone theater here,</i>

507
00:34:38,362 --> 00:34:40,932
<i>because the reality is that
even in their drone strikes,</i>

508
00:34:40,965 --> 00:34:43,768
<i>that are supposedly done with
precision and every, you know,</i>

509
00:34:43,801 --> 00:34:46,604
<i>every precaution is taken
not to kill civilians.</i>

510
00:34:47,839 --> 00:34:50,808
<i>The reality is that
they've created a mathematical</i>

511
00:34:50,842 --> 00:34:53,176
<i>process for
churning out the number...</i>

512
00:36:04,314 --> 00:36:07,852
So, uh, I'm not going to be able
to have lunch with you today.

513
00:36:07,885 --> 00:36:09,486
Okay.

514
00:36:09,519 --> 00:36:11,823
I have a meeting
for my jewelry, wish me luck.

515
00:36:13,006 --> 00:36:15,133
Good luck.

516
00:36:15,175 --> 00:36:16,093
Thank you.

517
00:36:18,029 --> 00:36:19,864
- Do you speak Italian?
- No.

518
00:36:19,897 --> 00:36:21,632
- No?
- No.

519
00:36:21,666 --> 00:36:23,634
- Why?
- Why?

520
00:36:23,668 --> 00:36:25,002
Because I don't.

521
00:36:25,036 --> 00:36:26,738
Well, that's <i>stupido,</i>
you should learn.

522
00:36:28,305 --> 00:36:30,908
- It's too late.
- It's never too late.

523
00:36:30,942 --> 00:36:35,345
Listen to me, Italian is the most
beautiful language in the world.

524
00:36:35,378 --> 00:36:37,715
I don't speak it
either, but I'm learning.

525
00:36:37,749 --> 00:36:41,018
And look, if you love
art and history,

526
00:36:41,052 --> 00:36:43,353
and you must, otherwise
you wouldn't be working here,

527
00:36:43,386 --> 00:36:46,490
then you should listen in
and talk in Italian.

528
00:36:46,523 --> 00:36:47,792
Okay, I will.

529
00:36:48,625 --> 00:36:51,062
- Good. Goodbye!
- Okay, okay.

530
00:36:55,398 --> 00:36:57,334
Okay, so he's either crazy...

531
00:36:57,367 --> 00:36:59,269
- He's crazy.
- Or he likes you.

532
00:37:04,041 --> 00:37:07,344
Maybe he's here to bring you
some kind of message.

533
00:37:07,377 --> 00:37:08,913
It'll wake you from your
slumber.

534
00:37:08,946 --> 00:37:10,882
I'm, I'm awake.

535
00:37:10,915 --> 00:37:12,415
I think you should do it.

536
00:37:13,117 --> 00:37:16,053
It's better than...
Whatever this is.

537
00:37:17,021 --> 00:37:18,723
I can't get comfortable.

538
00:37:18,756 --> 00:37:20,625
- Well, give me a...
- You hog the couch.

539
00:37:20,658 --> 00:37:21,793
I'm just trying to be cozy.

540
00:37:21,826 --> 00:37:23,360
You're not.

541
00:37:23,393 --> 00:37:25,362
- I can't sit.
- Come on, live with it.

542
00:37:25,395 --> 00:37:27,665
Let's absorb each other's...

543
00:37:28,566 --> 00:37:29,466
stuff.

544
00:37:32,637 --> 00:37:33,905
Mm.

545
00:37:33,938 --> 00:37:36,874
So, um, hey.

546
00:37:40,544 --> 00:37:41,411
What?

547
00:37:42,379 --> 00:37:45,016
Um, Egypt, Morocco or Greece?

548
00:37:46,383 --> 00:37:49,020
- Um, that's too difficult.
- Choose.

549
00:37:50,621 --> 00:37:52,422
- I can't.
- Yeah, you can.

550
00:37:52,455 --> 00:37:53,658
Choose.

551
00:37:53,691 --> 00:37:54,792
One week each.

552
00:37:54,826 --> 00:37:56,393
Uh, uh, it's not going to work.

553
00:37:57,795 --> 00:37:59,030
It's just... Okay.

554
00:37:59,063 --> 00:38:00,430
Come on, Rose, choose.

555
00:38:00,463 --> 00:38:01,732
I want to go to all three.

556
00:38:01,766 --> 00:38:05,368
Yeah, all right,
well, fine, but pick one.

557
00:38:07,605 --> 00:38:09,640
Okay, fine.

558
00:38:11,776 --> 00:38:13,376
Let me see.

559
00:38:13,410 --> 00:38:14,745
Hmm.

560
00:38:14,779 --> 00:38:18,415
So, is this like a tour thing?

561
00:38:18,448 --> 00:38:19,684
Or...

562
00:38:19,717 --> 00:38:21,586
Are we going to stay
in fancy hotels?

563
00:38:21,619 --> 00:38:23,120
It depends.

564
00:38:23,154 --> 00:38:24,589
Are we going to rent a plane?

565
00:38:24,622 --> 00:38:27,825
Depends, could be.

566
00:38:30,895 --> 00:38:31,963
That's Sekhmet.

567
00:38:32,997 --> 00:38:35,666
Yeah... perfect.

568
00:38:35,700 --> 00:38:37,101
I'm not one of your students.

569
00:38:37,134 --> 00:38:38,903
Oh, I know you're not
one of my students.

570
00:38:40,037 --> 00:38:42,039
No, that's great, Egypt.

571
00:38:42,073 --> 00:38:43,875
It's, uh...

572
00:38:43,908 --> 00:38:47,612
It's the oldest culture,
that and Sumeria.

573
00:38:49,914 --> 00:38:50,882
I can't.

574
00:38:51,816 --> 00:38:53,483
I'm buying two tickets.

575
00:38:56,053 --> 00:38:58,589
Yep, all right, now.

576
00:38:58,623 --> 00:39:02,093
14A and 14B.

577
00:39:02,126 --> 00:39:03,460
I told you.

578
00:39:09,967 --> 00:39:13,804
<i>Two, one, zero.</i>

579
00:39:20,044 --> 00:39:21,646
<i>And there's more,</i>

580
00:39:21,679 --> 00:39:23,748
but I've told you all of this.

581
00:39:25,750 --> 00:39:27,885
I, uh, what's the point?

582
00:39:30,021 --> 00:39:31,088
What good is this?

583
00:39:33,124 --> 00:39:34,859
Just keep moving forward,

584
00:39:34,892 --> 00:39:37,128
acknowledge your feelings,

585
00:39:37,161 --> 00:39:40,765
write, photograph, get it out.

586
00:39:42,633 --> 00:39:43,868
Did you paint your room?

587
00:40:25,009 --> 00:40:27,178
<i>Remember when we
met them at the airport?</i>

588
00:40:27,211 --> 00:40:28,913
That was the turning point.

589
00:40:28,946 --> 00:40:31,182
Are we really going to have
this conversation again?

590
00:41:15,259 --> 00:41:19,063
<i>Hey, Rose,
Rose, Rose!</i>

591
00:41:21,899 --> 00:41:22,833
Hey...

592
00:41:24,702 --> 00:41:26,737
I'm hungry,
let's go get something to eat.

593
00:41:26,771 --> 00:41:28,172
Okay.

594
00:41:28,205 --> 00:41:31,075
- It's freezing.
- Grab your coat, let's go.

595
00:41:31,108 --> 00:41:32,143
Okay.

596
00:42:31,402 --> 00:42:33,904
- You ordered a mocha?
- Thank you.

597
00:42:35,973 --> 00:42:36,932
Hello.

598
00:42:37,975 --> 00:42:38,976
What's up?

599
00:42:40,177 --> 00:42:43,047
I'm photographing
this ugly fucking city.

600
00:42:43,080 --> 00:42:44,882
Oh, some of us like it here.

601
00:42:44,915 --> 00:42:47,084
Then I'm happy for some of you.

602
00:42:47,118 --> 00:42:49,653
- Do you mind if I sit here?
- Go ahead.

603
00:42:49,687 --> 00:42:51,322
Go ahead take a seat,
enjoy the view.

604
00:42:51,355 --> 00:42:52,256
Thanks.

605
00:42:53,691 --> 00:42:55,893
Can I, can I see your pictures?

606
00:42:55,926 --> 00:42:58,796
Yeah, let me get it
to the start.

607
00:42:58,829 --> 00:42:59,897
There.

608
00:43:01,232 --> 00:43:02,233
Ah.

609
00:43:05,336 --> 00:43:07,771
You know, you say that you are

610
00:43:07,805 --> 00:43:10,407
"photographing this ugly city,"

611
00:43:11,408 --> 00:43:13,177
but these...

612
00:43:13,210 --> 00:43:13,924
these are...

613
00:43:13,963 --> 00:43:15,220
...gorgeous!

614
00:43:15,259 --> 00:43:16,046
Hey.

615
00:43:17,014 --> 00:43:18,557
...gorgeous, right?

616
00:43:18,599 --> 00:43:19,235
Yes.

617
00:43:19,274 --> 00:43:20,050
Thank you.

618
00:43:34,899 --> 00:43:36,734
Hey.

619
00:43:36,767 --> 00:43:38,302
Hello.

620
00:43:46,477 --> 00:43:47,845
Are you writing?

621
00:43:47,878 --> 00:43:49,313
If you can call it that.

622
00:43:52,082 --> 00:43:53,918
- I brought you flowers.
- Oh!

623
00:43:55,085 --> 00:43:56,453
Thank you.

624
00:43:57,955 --> 00:44:00,224
I'll, I'll put them
in, in water.

625
00:44:04,328 --> 00:44:05,863
They're really beautiful.

626
00:44:08,065 --> 00:44:09,733
I'm, I'm just trying
to get it out,

627
00:44:09,767 --> 00:44:11,368
you know, that's
what everyone says to do,

628
00:44:11,402 --> 00:44:13,737
and it's hard because...

629
00:44:14,838 --> 00:44:18,008
I see him
in my head crying and...

630
00:44:19,210 --> 00:44:22,346
he tells me that everything
is fine, but it isn't fine.

631
00:44:22,379 --> 00:44:24,748
That's just what they're
telling him to say.

632
00:44:27,552 --> 00:44:29,453
You just, stop.

633
00:44:31,055 --> 00:44:32,456
What?

634
00:44:32,489 --> 00:44:34,358
You sound like a parrot,

635
00:44:34,391 --> 00:44:36,894
over, and over, and over.

636
00:44:37,895 --> 00:44:38,862
That was mean.

637
00:44:40,264 --> 00:44:42,833
Rose, I, I was there,

638
00:44:42,866 --> 00:44:46,537
with you, when, when,
when you spoke to Charlie

639
00:44:46,571 --> 00:44:48,372
and you said to him

640
00:44:48,405 --> 00:44:50,774
that you would rather

641
00:44:50,808 --> 00:44:52,409
he died doing something good,

642
00:44:52,443 --> 00:44:54,878
then you find him dead
in his bed

643
00:44:54,912 --> 00:44:57,181
with a needle in his arm,
that could have happened.

644
00:44:58,115 --> 00:44:59,350
You did your best.

645
00:45:00,585 --> 00:45:02,453
Instead you're...

646
00:45:02,486 --> 00:45:05,489
you're trying to make up for
something that you never had.

647
00:45:05,522 --> 00:45:07,891
It's like you're doing
penance for surviving,

648
00:45:07,925 --> 00:45:10,861
- you're turning yourself into...
- He could actually die.

649
00:45:10,894 --> 00:45:13,998
We could all die, at any moment!

650
00:45:15,399 --> 00:45:17,167
So fucking stop.

651
00:45:17,201 --> 00:45:20,004
I can't fucking stop, I can't!

652
00:45:30,347 --> 00:45:31,882
Well, I can't

653
00:45:32,883 --> 00:45:33,951
do this anymore.

654
00:45:35,519 --> 00:45:36,420
I'm done.

655
00:46:12,489 --> 00:46:15,627
What the fuck, Rose, Rose!

656
00:46:15,660 --> 00:46:17,328
What the fuck are you doing?

657
00:46:17,361 --> 00:46:19,597
Hey, are you trying to drown?

658
00:46:19,631 --> 00:46:21,432
Hey!

659
00:46:21,465 --> 00:46:24,134
What the fuck is wrong with you?
Don't do that.

660
00:46:24,168 --> 00:46:25,469
You're not allowed to do that,

661
00:46:25,502 --> 00:46:27,271
hey, you're not allowed
to try to drown.

662
00:46:27,304 --> 00:46:29,373
Do you understand me?
You're not allowed to do that.

663
00:46:29,406 --> 00:46:32,009
That's not okay, what
the fuck is wrong with you?

664
00:46:34,011 --> 00:46:35,913
Oh, my God.

665
00:47:24,596 --> 00:47:26,230
Hey.

666
00:47:26,263 --> 00:47:27,197
Hello.

667
00:47:41,044 --> 00:47:42,714
I'm, uh...

668
00:47:42,747 --> 00:47:44,548
I'm, I'm going to New York.

669
00:47:46,584 --> 00:47:47,552
Great.

670
00:47:48,753 --> 00:47:52,289
I, uh, I took a stand as a...

671
00:47:53,290 --> 00:47:55,693
a visiting professor
for a semester at Columbia,

672
00:47:55,727 --> 00:47:58,262
so it'll give me
a chance earn right.

673
00:48:00,632 --> 00:48:02,166
Congratulations.

674
00:48:03,668 --> 00:48:05,603
Come with me.

675
00:48:05,637 --> 00:48:06,937
No, thank you.

676
00:48:16,681 --> 00:48:19,082
Don't fucking lie to me.

677
00:48:19,116 --> 00:48:23,454
Don't lie to me, you can't just get
a job at Columbia just like that.

678
00:48:23,487 --> 00:48:26,123
- I'm not stupid.
- Nobody said you were stupid.

679
00:48:29,293 --> 00:48:31,528
You're just leaving, Frank.

680
00:48:31,563 --> 00:48:32,564
I am.

681
00:48:33,598 --> 00:48:34,666
Okay.

682
00:48:36,333 --> 00:48:38,068
Okay.

683
00:48:38,101 --> 00:48:40,437
- Do you want me to say it?
- Yeah, say it.

684
00:48:41,538 --> 00:48:43,040
You're so insecure.

685
00:48:44,642 --> 00:48:47,478
Nobody can talk to you.
Nobody can deal with you.

686
00:48:47,511 --> 00:48:49,313
You don't talk to anybody.

687
00:48:49,346 --> 00:48:52,282
Everything drives you crazy,
everything.

688
00:48:52,316 --> 00:48:53,685
Anything sets you off,

689
00:48:53,718 --> 00:48:56,186
it's... all about you,

690
00:48:56,220 --> 00:48:58,690
your, your children
and your past.

691
00:48:58,723 --> 00:49:00,658
Oh, fuck you,
like it isn't about you.

692
00:49:00,692 --> 00:49:03,093
- You're so important in your job...
- It's not about me.

693
00:49:03,126 --> 00:49:06,263
- ...and you form in the future some fantasy...
- It's not about my job.

694
00:49:06,296 --> 00:49:08,232
- Passion that nobody cares about.
- This is about you.

695
00:49:08,265 --> 00:49:11,368
This is on you,
this is your fucking fault!

696
00:49:24,816 --> 00:49:26,551
So, when are you leaving?

697
00:49:28,352 --> 00:49:30,087
Sooner or later.

698
00:49:30,120 --> 00:49:32,523
- Like a week? One week?
- Something like that.

699
00:49:38,663 --> 00:49:40,430
Why don't you just leave now?

700
00:49:40,464 --> 00:49:42,432
I mean, that's what you
really want to do. Isn't it?

701
00:49:42,466 --> 00:49:44,669
Rose, come on, I'm trying
to talk to you, okay, look,

702
00:49:44,702 --> 00:49:47,538
- a friend found me a place in Carroll Gardens.
- A friend?

703
00:49:47,572 --> 00:49:49,206
Yeah, a friend.

704
00:49:49,239 --> 00:49:52,309
Carroll Gardens, Rose,
we talked about this.

705
00:49:52,342 --> 00:49:54,846
Okay, let's fucking do this!

706
00:49:54,879 --> 00:49:56,648
Just cut the crap and leave.

707
00:49:57,582 --> 00:49:59,182
Rose, come on.

708
00:50:00,217 --> 00:50:01,451
Come on.

709
00:50:02,419 --> 00:50:03,555
I'm trying to...

710
00:50:05,355 --> 00:50:07,792
I'm trying to do this
with some kind of dignity, Rose.

711
00:50:12,429 --> 00:50:14,264
Just go.

712
00:50:14,298 --> 00:50:16,366
Just cut it, you know,
like, cut the crap,

713
00:50:16,400 --> 00:50:18,435
- just fucking go.
- Rose, can we do this with some kind of dignity?

714
00:50:18,468 --> 00:50:20,504
Some kind, please.

715
00:50:22,339 --> 00:50:27,311
Just no, Frank, like, no, like,
you came in here and you knew.

716
00:50:27,344 --> 00:50:30,447
- It's really late, you just came in here, you're leaving.
- All right, okay, yeah.

717
00:50:30,480 --> 00:50:33,350
- Go, just go, just fucking go!
- Okay, I'm going, I'm going.

718
00:53:54,451 --> 00:53:55,352
Hey.

719
00:53:58,388 --> 00:53:59,456
I was, uh...

720
00:54:00,925 --> 00:54:02,794
reading around in the...

721
00:54:03,928 --> 00:54:06,429
bookshelves and I found this.

722
00:54:06,463 --> 00:54:08,331
Remember that?

723
00:54:12,036 --> 00:54:13,336
It was a good day.

724
00:54:23,748 --> 00:54:26,784
You know, this isn't
about Charlie being deployed.

725
00:54:28,920 --> 00:54:30,453
This is about you.

726
00:54:32,389 --> 00:54:33,758
Dealing with your past.

727
00:54:36,459 --> 00:54:38,129
Thanatos, the Angel of Death,

728
00:54:38,162 --> 00:54:40,097
follows you everywhere
all the time.

729
00:54:43,067 --> 00:54:44,702
And I can't do this anymore.

730
00:54:46,003 --> 00:54:46,938
It's okay.

731
00:54:48,773 --> 00:54:50,308
- Just go to New York.
- I am.

732
00:54:51,408 --> 00:54:52,109
Okay.

733
00:54:53,010 --> 00:54:54,011
I have to.

734
00:54:55,412 --> 00:54:56,113
Okay.

735
00:55:00,517 --> 00:55:01,518
It's late.

736
00:55:05,056 --> 00:55:06,724
This doesn't make sense.

737
00:55:08,860 --> 00:55:09,827
I know.

738
00:55:11,963 --> 00:55:13,463
But it's too late.

739
00:55:15,633 --> 00:55:17,034
Just, just go.

740
00:55:22,472 --> 00:55:24,575
I need you to go, right now.

741
00:55:34,018 --> 00:55:35,753
I know this
is very hard for you.

742
00:55:37,154 --> 00:55:39,991
And I understand that
you don't like support groups.

743
00:55:40,024 --> 00:55:41,125
I don't blame you.

744
00:55:42,927 --> 00:55:46,030
You think that you're not
as bad off as those other people

745
00:55:46,063 --> 00:55:49,700
and many of them
are very Christian based.

746
00:55:49,734 --> 00:55:51,501
And you don't really
believe in anything right now,

747
00:55:51,534 --> 00:55:53,470
especially not God, I get it.

748
00:55:54,238 --> 00:55:56,874
But you need to recognize

749
00:55:56,908 --> 00:55:58,809
that your fears

750
00:55:58,843 --> 00:56:00,144
and your sadness...

751
00:56:01,478 --> 00:56:02,613
are valid.

752
00:56:04,782 --> 00:56:06,951
And there are
others who understand.

753
00:56:08,653 --> 00:56:12,957
And they know that
you have to move through it

754
00:56:12,990 --> 00:56:14,592
to get to the other side.

755
00:56:33,144 --> 00:56:34,211
Uh...

756
00:56:36,213 --> 00:56:37,748
My ride's here.

757
00:56:39,516 --> 00:56:40,483
Great.

758
00:56:43,054 --> 00:56:44,021
I'll, uh...

759
00:56:45,289 --> 00:56:48,525
I'll have Natasha stop by and
pick up the rest of my things.

760
00:56:50,594 --> 00:56:51,562
Okay.

761
00:56:52,863 --> 00:56:53,798
Great.

762
00:58:48,846 --> 00:58:49,863
Good mor...

763
00:58:52,533 --> 00:58:53,492
Good morning.

764
00:58:56,370 --> 00:58:57,371
Good morning.

765
00:59:01,124 --> 00:59:02,042
Hello.

766
00:59:04,428 --> 00:59:06,730
I want to, I want
to tell you something.

767
00:59:08,999 --> 00:59:10,901
Actually, I want to
ask you something first.

768
00:59:11,936 --> 00:59:13,637
Are you happy?

769
00:59:13,671 --> 00:59:14,839
What kind of question is that?

770
00:59:14,872 --> 00:59:17,007
It is a question,
answer yes or no.

771
00:59:17,041 --> 00:59:18,209
Define happiness.

772
00:59:19,276 --> 00:59:21,011
So you avoided the question,

773
00:59:21,979 --> 00:59:24,882
which is an answer
in itself, "no."

774
00:59:24,915 --> 00:59:25,916
You're not happy.

775
00:59:28,319 --> 00:59:29,753
Well.

776
00:59:29,787 --> 00:59:32,323
Everything about you
says you're sad,

777
00:59:32,356 --> 00:59:35,993
you're, you're wilting
like an old woman.

778
00:59:36,026 --> 00:59:38,028
Older than your probable age.

779
00:59:38,062 --> 00:59:39,363
You don't know
what you're talking about.

780
00:59:39,396 --> 00:59:40,998
What are you talking about?

781
00:59:41,031 --> 00:59:42,800
Well, tell me
I'm not saying the truth.

782
00:59:44,702 --> 00:59:46,036
You don't know me.

783
00:59:46,070 --> 00:59:47,371
You are no sharey.

784
00:59:48,739 --> 00:59:49,740
Been that one.

785
00:59:50,741 --> 00:59:52,943
I think I already know.

786
00:59:52,977 --> 00:59:55,079
Listen, I'm going to...

787
00:59:55,112 --> 00:59:56,714
I'm going to tell you something.

788
00:59:59,083 --> 01:00:00,684
I lost my son

789
01:00:01,418 --> 01:00:03,287
three months after he was born.

790
01:00:06,423 --> 01:00:08,159
And I lost my wife...

791
01:00:09,326 --> 01:00:10,661
during his birth.

792
01:00:12,329 --> 01:00:15,199
I was in my 20s
and I thought to myself,

793
01:00:15,232 --> 01:00:17,001
"What do I do?

794
01:00:17,034 --> 01:00:18,202
How do I live."

795
01:00:20,204 --> 01:00:21,238
You know what,

796
01:00:22,139 --> 01:00:25,075
I wanted to travel to museums

797
01:00:25,109 --> 01:00:26,744
because I love art.

798
01:00:26,777 --> 01:00:28,212
Yeah, lucky for you,

799
01:00:28,245 --> 01:00:30,181
you had the money to travel.

800
01:00:30,214 --> 01:00:31,115
Money?

801
01:00:32,116 --> 01:00:35,286
No, it was much more
to the calling than that.

802
01:00:35,319 --> 01:00:37,054
Okay, right.

803
01:00:37,087 --> 01:00:40,291
Hey, listen, I'm talking
about the will to live.

804
01:00:42,993 --> 01:00:43,727
Love.

805
01:00:44,828 --> 01:00:46,897
We'll never see
each other again.

806
01:00:48,265 --> 01:00:50,801
Do, do whisper to me,

807
01:00:50,834 --> 01:00:52,036
tell me why you're not living.

808
01:00:53,404 --> 01:00:55,306
How do you know I'm not living?

809
01:00:55,339 --> 01:00:57,074
We'll never see each other.

810
01:00:58,242 --> 01:01:01,111
Whisper to me like the angel
in the Giotto painting.

811
01:01:09,420 --> 01:01:11,021
I made choices...

812
01:01:12,089 --> 01:01:13,824
they affected my children...

813
01:01:14,559 --> 01:01:16,393
my daughter is miserable...

814
01:01:17,528 --> 01:01:20,998
and my son is somewhere in Iraq,

815
01:01:21,031 --> 01:01:23,500
he could die, just like that,

816
01:01:23,534 --> 01:01:25,102
for no reason.

817
01:01:29,540 --> 01:01:31,208
You know,

818
01:01:31,242 --> 01:01:33,777
life makes absolutely no sense.

819
01:01:35,879 --> 01:01:37,414
Schopenhauer said that...

820
01:01:39,149 --> 01:01:42,319
"Men in one hand
the tormented souls

821
01:01:42,353 --> 01:01:44,121
and in the other
the devils in it."

822
01:01:45,990 --> 01:01:48,192
And your only salvation is to

823
01:01:48,225 --> 01:01:50,027
live life in Heaven...

824
01:01:52,263 --> 01:01:53,764
or at least enjoy the Hell.

825
01:01:56,000 --> 01:01:59,103
You know, you need to think that you
can control all these other souls.

826
01:02:01,372 --> 01:02:04,174
And who am I to think
that I can help you?

827
01:02:08,379 --> 01:02:09,143
Well...

828
01:02:09,183 --> 01:02:10,105
Goodbye.

829
01:02:10,615 --> 01:02:13,350
Beautiful, sad woman.

830
01:03:53,484 --> 01:03:55,219
Hey, how are you doing?

831
01:03:55,252 --> 01:03:58,055
I'm great, how are you?

832
01:03:58,088 --> 01:03:59,624
Uh, not so great, thank you.

833
01:04:01,492 --> 01:04:02,459
Why?

834
01:04:03,327 --> 01:04:05,663
Well, my ex is being
kind of a douche.

835
01:04:05,697 --> 01:04:07,231
Oh, I'm, I'm sorry.

836
01:04:08,265 --> 01:04:12,604
He wants a percentage
of my jewelry company.

837
01:04:12,637 --> 01:04:14,505
Can he do that?

838
01:04:14,538 --> 01:04:19,143
Uh, well, uh, yeah,
I guess he, he started it, um,

839
01:04:19,176 --> 01:04:21,412
it was like a joke to him, he
just handed me his credit card

840
01:04:21,445 --> 01:04:24,415
and he was like,
"Here, do whatever you want.

841
01:04:24,448 --> 01:04:27,251
And I will do whatever I want,

842
01:04:27,284 --> 01:04:30,588
and I will fuck whoever
I want, when I want,

843
01:04:30,622 --> 01:04:32,956
and who cares,
because you're nothing.

844
01:04:34,191 --> 01:04:35,092
You can just...

845
01:04:36,126 --> 01:04:38,061
raise the children and,
and show up at events

846
01:04:38,095 --> 01:04:39,631
and then I'll put you
in a limo and I'll go

847
01:04:39,664 --> 01:04:41,432
fuck somebody
else in another limo."

848
01:04:43,367 --> 01:04:45,637
I didn't even know you had kids.

849
01:04:45,670 --> 01:04:47,438
Yeah, I have three,
I have three children.

850
01:04:47,471 --> 01:04:50,007
They are all grown
and they hate me.

851
01:04:50,040 --> 01:04:52,109
Because daddy was one
who knew all the movie stars

852
01:04:52,142 --> 01:04:55,212
and mommy was the crazy,
jealous, angry

853
01:04:55,245 --> 01:04:57,047
mother who made them
do homework.

854
01:04:58,015 --> 01:04:59,316
I thought...

855
01:05:00,552 --> 01:05:02,219
I don't know what I thought.

856
01:05:04,087 --> 01:05:07,090
Yeah, but now that I finally,
you know, I have, like,

857
01:05:07,124 --> 01:05:09,193
my work, something,

858
01:05:09,226 --> 01:05:11,995
and he wants a percentage of it.

859
01:05:12,029 --> 01:05:14,632
- I had no idea.
- Yeah, fucking asshole.

860
01:05:14,666 --> 01:05:17,234
He represents,
you know...

861
01:05:17,267 --> 01:05:20,638
uh, actors, you know, writers,
all those kind of people.

862
01:05:20,672 --> 01:05:23,273
- Oh.
- Although he lost his better, biggest client.

863
01:05:23,307 --> 01:05:25,042
Well, he killed himself,

864
01:05:25,075 --> 01:05:27,444
and that set him off
in that kind of depression or,

865
01:05:27,478 --> 01:05:29,681
or some kind of aftershock
or some shit like that.

866
01:05:29,714 --> 01:05:30,715
Oh.

867
01:05:33,751 --> 01:05:36,053
I know it's, he's just
lashing out, I guess,

868
01:05:36,086 --> 01:05:37,622
but you know, I still like him.

869
01:05:37,655 --> 01:05:39,757
It's, it's going to be okay,
it's going to be okay.

870
01:05:39,791 --> 01:05:41,726
I mean, look at you.

871
01:05:41,759 --> 01:05:44,261
You're, you're so beautiful.

872
01:05:44,294 --> 01:05:46,196
And you have this...

873
01:05:46,230 --> 01:05:50,334
amazing, famous
jewelry design company

874
01:05:50,367 --> 01:05:52,402
that all the bougies
want to represent,

875
01:05:52,436 --> 01:05:55,172
you're always running off
with some man.

876
01:05:55,205 --> 01:05:57,107
I'm lonely, Rose.

877
01:05:57,140 --> 01:05:58,676
I know.

878
01:06:01,512 --> 01:06:02,647
I understand.

879
01:06:03,547 --> 01:06:04,616
I understand.

880
01:06:07,251 --> 01:06:08,485
It's going to be okay.

881
01:06:09,453 --> 01:06:11,522
It's going to be okay.

882
01:06:11,556 --> 01:06:14,258
It's going to be okay.

883
01:06:14,291 --> 01:06:16,694
You just have
to remember to breathe,

884
01:06:16,728 --> 01:06:18,563
that, that's supposed to help.

885
01:07:43,748 --> 01:07:45,617
Hello? Hello?

886
01:07:45,650 --> 01:07:49,386
Hello? Hello?

887
01:08:49,981 --> 01:08:53,584
Boo, boo, boo!
Boo, boo, boo, boo!

888
01:08:53,618 --> 01:08:54,752
Look, mommy.

889
01:09:57,615 --> 01:10:01,418
There you go... That's it.
Yes! Yes! You're swimming.

890
01:10:01,451 --> 01:10:02,854
I, I was?

891
01:10:02,887 --> 01:10:04,889
Yeah, you're swimming,
you just paddled up

892
01:10:04,922 --> 01:10:06,490
from the bottom
on your own accord

893
01:10:06,523 --> 01:10:08,025
and you got your own breath,
that's swimming.

894
01:10:08,059 --> 01:10:10,327
That, that's not swimming.

895
01:10:10,360 --> 01:10:11,929
That, that's swimming, Rosie.

896
01:10:11,963 --> 01:10:13,363
No, that's not swimming.

897
01:10:13,396 --> 01:10:14,799
That's almost or whatever,

898
01:10:14,832 --> 01:10:16,567
but that's not swimming,

899
01:10:16,601 --> 01:10:17,902
that doesn't count!

900
01:10:19,570 --> 01:10:21,371
You need to relax, Rose.

901
01:10:21,404 --> 01:10:23,406
You need to just
calm the fuck down.

902
01:10:23,440 --> 01:10:26,010
- I can't.
- Because you were swimming.

903
01:10:26,043 --> 01:10:27,511
You have a bad attitude,

904
01:10:27,544 --> 01:10:29,446
do I have to throw you
to the deep end?

905
01:10:29,479 --> 01:10:30,982
Because I'll do it,
I'll just, I'll just grab you

906
01:10:31,015 --> 01:10:33,517
on your little ribs
and toss you...

907
01:10:33,551 --> 01:10:35,753
into the deep.

908
01:10:41,559 --> 01:10:43,326
You're standing, right?

909
01:10:43,360 --> 01:10:44,662
Now go under and come back up.

910
01:10:45,897 --> 01:10:47,330
But come back up.

911
01:11:18,062 --> 01:11:19,030
Hello?

912
01:11:20,397 --> 01:11:21,098
Hello?

913
01:11:22,733 --> 01:11:23,835
Hello?

914
01:11:23,868 --> 01:11:25,803
<i>Mom, it's me.</i>

915
01:11:27,504 --> 01:11:28,840
<i>I just want to let you know
I'm fine.</i>

916
01:11:29,841 --> 01:11:30,875
I love you.

917
01:11:32,542 --> 01:11:35,378
<i>I love you too, Mom,
don't worry about me, I'm fine.</i>

918
01:11:37,114 --> 01:11:39,684
Of course I'm worried about you,
I'm your mother.

919
01:11:40,751 --> 01:11:42,086
<i>I'm fine.</i>

920
01:11:42,119 --> 01:11:43,955
<i>I have to go, Mom, okay?</i>

921
01:11:43,988 --> 01:11:46,791
<i>I love you, everything's okay.</i>

922
01:14:35,226 --> 01:14:37,561
There she goes, there she goes.

923
01:14:40,664 --> 01:14:42,166
Yes!

924
01:14:43,768 --> 01:14:46,837
Rose, that's enough, yes!

925
01:14:48,105 --> 01:14:49,740
- Yes!
- I swam.

926
01:14:49,774 --> 01:14:51,909
- You swam!
- That, that was swimming.

927
01:14:51,942 --> 01:14:54,712
Did you, did you breathe out
here? You picked your head up?

928
01:14:54,745 --> 01:14:57,314
- Yeah.
- You swam, that's swimming, that's exactly swimming.

929
01:14:57,348 --> 01:14:59,016
Okay, I swam.

930
01:14:59,050 --> 01:15:00,885
And the gold medal...

931
01:15:00,918 --> 01:15:02,253
goes to...

932
01:15:02,286 --> 01:15:04,055
Ro... you don't look very happy.

933
01:15:04,088 --> 01:15:06,323
- No, I can swim now.
- You can swim.

934
01:15:06,357 --> 01:15:08,993
- That was the deal.
- You just swam.

935
01:15:10,895 --> 01:15:12,696
<i>I'm not the only one,</i>

936
01:15:12,730 --> 01:15:14,331
<i>there are millions
of fathers and mothers</i>

937
01:15:14,365 --> 01:15:15,933
<i>of soldiers all over the world,</i>

938
01:15:16,934 --> 01:15:19,970
<i>throughout the history
of being human,</i>

939
01:15:20,004 --> 01:15:21,705
<i>waiting.</i>

940
01:15:21,739 --> 01:15:24,241
<i>Enemy soldiers' mothers waiting.</i>

941
01:15:24,275 --> 01:15:26,143
<i>What's the difference?</i>

942
01:15:26,177 --> 01:15:29,180
<i>We gave birth to something
that is suffering and could die.</i>

943
01:15:30,748 --> 01:15:33,117
<i>We try to hold them
from far away,</i>

944
01:15:33,150 --> 01:15:35,886
<i>try to send love, send prayers,</i>

945
01:15:35,920 --> 01:15:38,255
<i>send anger,
so they won't die in fear.</i>

946
01:15:39,857 --> 01:15:41,625
<i>But, we have no control.</i>

947
01:15:42,827 --> 01:15:45,796
<i>We can't even protect ourselves.</i>

948
01:15:45,830 --> 01:15:47,998
<i>We want to say,
"It will be all right,"</i>

949
01:15:48,032 --> 01:15:49,033
<i>but we can't.</i>

950
01:18:32,425 --> 01:18:36,058
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