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-- eternalFugitive [EF] began pestering lavenderSiren [LS] at 21:45 --
[09:46] EF: ...
[09:46] LS: ...
[09:46] LS: ...you're still in bed?
[09:46] EF: ...yeah.
[09:47] EF: it's... hard to get up.
[09:48] EF: the weight... it's too much.
[09:48] LS: ...I know...
[09:48] LS: sigh...
[09:49] LS: why did this have to happen...
[09:49] LS: we had just gotten settled down and everything...
[09:49] LS: we were going to settle down and live happily ever after...
[09:50] LS: instead, the rug's been swiped from under our feet...
[09:50] LS: the stability of the timeline as we know it is in jepardy
[09:51] LS: and we don't even have all the answers we need to set things right...
[09:53] LS: Atria may have been given the task of filling Fannie's shoes, but we don't even know if it's going to work, or if it's even right to force such a monumental task upon her...
[09:53] EF: For the sake of the timeline...
[09:53] EF: is this fucking timeline even worth saving though...
[09:54] EF: are we even going to get the kats back?
[09:54] EF: or is Ikelos just feeding us lies?
[09:55] EF: we were supposed to get them back when Isaac made that fucking deal, damn it!
[09:56] LS: it feels like we're at her mercy...
[09:57] LS: is there any way for us to gain the upper hand so we don't lose anyone else?
[09:57] EF: ...I don't know.
[09:59] EF: what did we ever do to get caught into this fucking mess...
[09:59] EF: this hole in my chest... will it ever be filled?
[09:59] EF: will she even fit?
[10:00] EF: what if she's nothing more than an unatainable ideal?
[10:00] LS: ...
[10:00] LS: ...with the way you yearn for her...
[10:02] LS: ...I want to believe that she wants you as much as you do for her...
[10:02] LS: but,
[10:02] LS: people aren't miracle cures.
[10:03] LS: you can know somebody, you can be friends with somebody, but they won't solve everything.
[10:03] LS: even if it looks like they do.
[10:04] LS: ...sometimes the greatest heroes turn out to be against everything you ever stood for.
[10:05] EF: ...youre thinking about Micha, aren't you?
[10:05] LS: ...yeah.
[10:05] LS: for the longest time... she was always there.
[10:05] LS: she was the only one who seemed to care.
[10:05] LS: even if she was a huge pervert
[10:05] LS: she was at least there.
[10:06] EF: she did save you life on at least a few occasions.
[10:06] EF: *your
[10:07] LS: one of the times I was trying to off myself for bringing misfortune to the mirror meteor.
[10:08] EF: another I was trying to fight any of your group that I could.
[10:09] EF: she was the difference between outcomes that time...
[10:10] EF: why am i such a fucking violent ass bitch who can't control himself...
[10:11] LS: why am I such a passive doormat...
[10:12] LS: always subject to the whims of others...
[10:12] LS: just because I can't always have enough energy to act on my own...
[10:13] EF: ...I wonder.
[10:13] EF: what if we traded places
[10:13] EF: what if you were the killer robot, and I was the mild mannered girl.
[10:14] LS: uh.... are you sure you want to do that?
[10:14] LS: like,
[10:14] LS: you'd have to deal with like... girl stuff
[10:14] EF: it'd be better than pretending not to be dead.
[10:15] EF: ...probably.
[10:16] EF: but maybe, just maybe...
[10:16] EF: if I were in another person's shoes for a while...
[10:16] EF: maybe i wouldn't be such a fucking menace.
[10:17] LS: uh, I'd probably have to explain it to shiny first
[10:18] LS: you know, so she doesn't freak out
[10:19] EF: I guess she would flip the fuck out if she suddenly had me under her roof unannounced, almost identical in her appearence.
[10:20] LS: heh
[10:21] LS: I will say one thing though: don't dirty my mouth with your vulgar language.
[10:22] LS: I plan on staying cuss word free, even when I'm not exactly there.
[10:22] EF: I can't promise that.
[10:22] EF: by the end of this ordeal, there's a high chance you will say fuck, in some manner.
[10:23] LS: ...please don't.