FuckNikki2016

Tsaaq: Hayley sat on the floor of the living room with her knees hugged to her chest, she was supposed to be watching the television  but instead she sort of stared at the empty spot on the rug. She swallowed hard and kept her eyes focused on nothing basically.
Alexithymiaa: (Sure)
Alexithymiaa: -Nikki sat on the couch, her legs propped up in front of her stretched out across the cushions, her finger twirling around a stray piece of hair that had fallen from her messy bun. Her eyes dropped down to look at Hayley, raising her brows but speaking in a chipper voice. "Is something wrong with the rug?"-
Tsaaq: "What?" She whispered as she looked up at Nikki then shook her head. "Oh uh, no. Everything is fine." Hayley shrugged her shoulders and pushed up from the floor with her arms crossed over her chest as she sort of hovered there saying nothing, like a babysitter.
Alexithymiaa: -She followed Hayley with her eyes, watching her for a moment before turning her head back to look over at the tv. She wasnt paying much attention to it, but instead stared aimlessly as she tried to figure out what the fuck this chick was doing.-
Tsaaq: Hayley kept her arms crossed over her chest and tapped her foot while staring off again while thinking. She made a distressed sounding sigh and put her hands on her head a moment, inhaling and exhaling deeply she went to the coffee table to pick up the remote and turned the television all the way up to drown out her thoughts.
Alexithymiaa: -With the increase in volume, she winced slightly, being forced to raise her voice over it. "Um... that's a little loud. Can we turn it down, please?"-
Tsaaq: She looked over at Nikki and frowned a little. "I guess..." She sighed, turning it down again. Hayley hugged her form and started to pace back and forth.
Alexithymiaa: "You know, you really don't have to sit here with me. It's not necessary." She smiled warmly at Hayley and honestly a little fakely. "I know Adam was just being sweet in asking you, but you can go do something else if you want to."-
Tsaaq: "Shut up please." Hayley said, waving her hand at Nikki. "I said I was doing it. I'm doing it." She went towards the kitchen and poured herself a cup of coffee with very shaky hands, practically dropping the cup.
Alexithymiaa: -She paused, sitting in silence for a moment as she pursed her lips. "Well... you just seemed a little uncomfortable. I wouldn't want to make you uncomfortable...."-
Tsaaq: She tried to sip the coffee without spilling it. "You're not why I'm uncomfortable." Hayley told the other female and slowly made her way to the living room once again.
Alexithymiaa: -She tipped her head to one side, examining Hayley. "Oh. Well... do you want to talk about it? I'm a pretty good listener."-
Tsaaq: "No, why would I talk to you for free about shit I'm supposed to talk to my therapist with? Which costs money that my parents don't have." Hayley said with a bit of a scoff and coughed a little when her coffee went down the wrong pipe. "Just sit there so nothing bad happens to you."
Alexithymiaa: "Well.... it's free? And you don't have to pay a therapist with money your parents don't have? Because... it's free?" She raised her brows, watching the girl cough.-
Tsaaq: Hayley put the empty mug down and put her face in her hands. "My friend Bliss told me to not talk to people about my problems because they're not professionals and end up saying stupid shit that just upsets me more." Hayley said, whimpering a little at even mentioning Bliss.
Alexithymiaa: "Sometimes it feels better to just talk about your problems and get the words out of your mouth, even if no one offers advice." She smiled warmly at Hayley, shifting slightly because uncomfortable leg.-
Tsaaq: "Fuck off please." She said in a more distressed tone than an irritated one. "I'm not going to talk to you about it." Hayley finally whispered getting up from the couch again.
Alexithymiaa: "Okay...." She said in a small voice, clearly offended even though what the fuck did you expect to happen, bitch. She moved her eyes back to the tv, staring absently.-
Tsaaq: Hayley decided to go into the kitchen, glancing back at Nikki to make sure she was fine. She started to pace back and forth, taking deep breaths to calm herself down. She took out her cellphone and began to type a number, fucking it up several times cause she didn't know it by heart.
Alexithymiaa: -Nikki's eyes slid to look over at Hayley pacing around and being incredibly awkward, slightly annoyed with the fact that she was being babysat by someone who was being so standoffish. She leaned her head down to her pillow, bored.-
Tsaaq: "Shit." She tossed her phone on the table and groaned a little. "Do you need anything?" Hayley asked Nikki, re-entering the kitchen. "Water, something to eat, coffee?" Hayley continued to probe. Hoping for anything to distract herself.
Alexithymiaa: "Um...." She paused, trying to think of something as best as she could. "I would love some coffee actually, please."-
Tsaaq: Hayley inhaled deeply and nodded her head. "Okay." She whispered as she went back into the kitchen. "How do you take it?" She asked loudly, taking out a mug and pouring the cup with shaky hand again.
Alexithymiaa: "Two sugars and a splash of milk. Thank you." She smiled at Hayley, watching her move in the kitchen.-
Musik: -Harper moved out of her room, making her way down the stairs. She carried her empty plate and her empty glass that probably had alcohol in it, stopping in the kitchen when she saw Hayley and Nikki. She sighed and moved passed them to the sink, washing her dishes.-
Tsaaq: She nodded and put the glass down to open the fridge, she was startled when Harper came into the kitchen. She knocked into the mug and it fell to the floor, loudly crashing. "Shit." Hayley whined a little and sighed.
Alexithymiaa: -At the sound of the crash, she sat up straight on the couch, trying to see over into the kitchen. "Is everything okay?" She looked Harper over once, not bothering to comment since that bitch was mean the other day.-
Musik: -She turned to look at the mug on the floor, rolling her eyes. She turned and grabbed a towel, drying off her hands.- "I need in the freezer." -She said shortly looking at Hayley in hopes she'd move instead of offering to help clean it up.-
Tsaaq: "It
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Tsaaq: "It's fine, I've got it." Hayley, not looking up from her feet as she went to pick up pieces of the broken mug as she moved from the fridge and tossed the parts into the garbage then tried to wipe everything up. She stopped midway and just stared at the floor
Alexithymiaa: -She craned her neck to see better into the kitchen, her hands positioned on either side of her to try to hold her body up. "Are you sure? Was there anything spilled?"-
Musik: -She moved over to pull the freezer open, grabbing her bottle of Jack and moving out of the kitchen, to walk over to the stairs.-
Tsaaq: She didn't answer for a long time, watching as Harper walked away and went towards the staircase. "It's not supposed to be like this." Hayley said softly as she got up from the floor.
Alexithymiaa: "What?" She called out to her, not completely hearing what she said, only hearing that she'd said SOMETHING.-
Musik: -She stopped hearing the soft voice of Hayley and looking to Nikki as she spoke. She turned around and looked at Nikki then towards the kitchen waiting for her to repeat herself waiting for it to be something snarky.-
Tsaaq: "It's not supposed to be like this." She said again as she whimpered. "I don't want to feel like this." Hayley said as she shook her head. "The ex who I wanted to make love to me would rather fuck everyone but me because I'm disgusting. Everyone who I care about gets hurt because of me and I can't do anything about it." She went on. "But I don't want to die so why does my brain keep telling me to kill myself?"
Alexithymiaa: -Nikki just stared at her, unsure of what to say. "Um... why do you think everyone gets hurt because of you?"-
Musik: -She rolled her eyes, walking back over to the kitchen.- "Your brain is telling you to kill yourself because once you're suicidal you're pretty much always going to be suicidal. It happens. Your ex who doesn't love you? Doesn't love anyone but himself and fucks anything that moves because he's a dick. He isn't worthy of your love so it's better that you two aren't together. Not everyone you care about gets hurt."
Tsaaq: She wiped her eyes before too many tears could leave them. Hayley didn't answer because she'd already said too much. "He said he loved me." She whispered as she lowered her head. "I believed him because I'm retarded." Hayley shook her head and inhaled deeply. "I said I'd stay with her for Adam. I have to stop. I don't want him to hate me more." She said, trying to compose herself.
Alexithymiaa: -Nikki had no idea what the fuck this bitch was going on about so she just settled herself back onto the couch, trying to pick up as much as possible. "Why would he hate you? He doesn't hate anyone. I don't mind if you go and do your own thing."-
Musik: "Oh my god shut up already. No one fucking hates you. Well except me. But I also see the way Adam looks at you and it makes my stomach turn. I don't want to fucking hate you it just comes naturally. And haven
Musik: (STOPPPPPPP)
Musik: "Oh my god shut up already. No one fucking hates you. Well except me. But I also see the way Adam looks at you and it makes my stomach turn. I don't want to fucking hate you it just comes naturally. And haven't you realized yet that tony would make you believe you were the queen of england just to get his dick in you!? He says shit you want to hear! He did the same shit with Aspyn." -She rolled her eyes and crossed her arms over her chest, gripping the bottle in her hand tightly.-
Tsaaq: "He said he wanted me to leave him alone what the fuck else am I supposed to think. But I want him to be happy so I just have to get over it. It's not like I haven't done it before." Hayley muttered to Nikki and went to sit down on the couch, glancing at Harper and sighing because honestly the more she spoke the stupider she felt. "You shut up, how does he look at me what are you even talking about?" She asked as she held her gaze on the other girl.
Alexithymiaa: -Nikki dropped her head slightly, feeling a little guilty but not addresing it. "That doesn't mean he hates you. He probably just has a lot going on right now...."-
Musik: "Like he wants to jump your bones every chance he gets. He never fucking looked at me like that. You know the whole time we were together we never once had sex? That's the only reason my drunk self had sex with your gross ex. Because I, a girl who REALLLLYYYYY likes sex, went without sex for MONTHS because i wasn't going to push my boyfriend to have sex with me and maybe I should have but I didn't. And Tony? Was the biggest mistake I ever made. I don't know how you slept with him for that long."
Tsaaq: Hayley shifted in her seat. "He has a lot going on because of me." Hayley whispered with guilt in her voice. She pouted and lowered her head once more, looking a little embarrassed. "I don't know..." She trailed off. "After everything that happened it was hard to. And I could tell he was mad and wanted to do it so I was going to let him so he'd stay with me. I don't know... He doesn't care about whether or not you get off. Like all guys..." Hayley sighed.
Alexithymiaa: -Nikki just sat and listened, chewing on the inside of her cheek with such satisfaction at Harper's words because now she had actual confirmation that Adam hadn't slept with her. "I really wouldn't take it personally. That's just the way he is."-
Musik: "I really just came down here for alochol not to make sure you felt good about yourself. I'm going upstairs to drink. Hayley stop hating yourself because Adam's in love with you so soak it up." -She said and eyed Nikki before making her way up the stairs back up to her room.-
Tsaaq: "He usually doesn't do stuff like that. So it has to be-" Hayley paused. She exhaled and put her hands on her head. "But-" Hayley started to say before Harper went towards the stairs. "Thanks..." She trailed off, not really knowing what else to say to Harper as she exited.
Alexithymiaa: -Nikki slid to the edge of the couch, fiddling with her crutches. "Okayyyyy anywayyyy.... it's pretty late so I think I'm going to head to bed. I think this has been enough conversation for one day."-
Tsaaq: Hayley pushed up from the couch and went over to Nikki "Let me help you upstairs." She said, lazily lifting her arms at the other female.
Alexithymiaa: "Well I've been sleeping down here because stairs are tough. But I'm okay." She pulled herself up from the couch slowly, positioning her crutches underneath her arms. "Thank you though."-
Tsaaq: She nodded. "Then I'll just stay here until Abs comes home." Hayley said quietly as she sat back down, putting her hands in her lap. "I made a promise." She sighed and spread her legs out on the couch, really thinking about what Harper said.
Alexithymiaa: "Okay..." She practically whispered, swinging herself on he crutches down the hall to the spare room, closing the door behind her.-