Khapri-C: I gotta say.. I can't help but grow weary of theurgin here.. It all goes well just to never end up well
IS-AST: Well, If she was going to bless you all she would have done it. Asking for it looks greedy. You did this to honor her. To turn around and say, 'hey by they way, where is my kudos for honouring you?' Its not going to happen.
Khapri-C: I'm just fuckin bad at theurge man
Khapri-C: SNB was like ,ask for something
Khapri-C: So i was like haha sureokay
IS-AST: No, I think you're a good Theurge, you just have a slight tendency to not look before you leap or perhaps loose focus of the intent.
Khapri-C: I asked for that exact reason
Khapri-C: Why can't I be given things my char would know?
Khapri-C: I seek advice
Khapri-C: And its always "idk just act and see what happens."
Khapri-C: ... He is my first theurge, and I'm to the point of wanting to retire Khapri because I just cant deal with the stress of only learning from all of my myriad of mistakes
Khapri-C: And so I am unhappy waiting in between just to hope to do it better.. whenever next time is
IS-AST: These are things and lessons that you learn by doing, you are actually very par for the course of a young Theurge learning the ways and mood of the various spirits.
Khapri-C: I get it.. Theurges mess up, but its just making me unhappy to do it so much... Because we go weeks in between shots at doing right
Khapri-C: I don't get to try every day
Khapri-C: I would be okay messing up if I could try again a day or two later but.. the interval can be huge sometimes.. Does that make sense?
Khapri-C: That slight tendency is a huge thing, that always leaves me feeling terrible
IS-AST: I do, but please understand that this is a large game, we can't exactly run something for just you every other day
Khapri-C: I understand that and I'm not demanding anything. But it is hard to diminish what I feel man. Warriors are easy because they show up and easily do their job every fight and plot run.. I'm just getting too unhappy stewing between things sometimes.. Cause I only have to mess up a single time for things to go south