Vs. not being able to find Bella

"I was keeping tabs on Jessica," I went on, watching each word as it sank in. "Not carefully- like I said, only you could find trouble in Port Angeles." I couldn't resist adding that. Was she aware that other human lives were not so plagued with near-death experiences, or did she think the things that happened to her were normal? "And at first I didn't notice when you took off on your own. Then, when I realized that you weren't with her anymore, I went looking for you at the bookstore I saw in her head. I could tell that you hadn't gone in, and that you'd gone south....And I knew you would have to turn around soon. So I was just waiting for you, randomly searching through the thoughts of people on the street- to see if anyone had noticed you so I would know where you were. I had no reason to be worried...but I was strangely anxious..." My breathe came faster as I remembered that feeling of panic. Her scent blazed in my throat and I was glad. It was a pain that meant she was alive.