teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 4:08 PM
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hey so
SilverYoshi - Today at 4:48 PM

teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 4:48 PM
we really need to talk
SilverYoshi - Today at 4:48 PM
uh oh
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 4:48 PM
look.. i'm really trying to like you in that way, i'm trying since i know you like me a lot..
SilverYoshi - Today at 4:48 PM
I didnt eat it
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teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 4:48 PM
it's just.. i can't force that kinda thing, you know?
and i feel terrible about not liking you in that way since you do all these things for me
and try so hard
and i think that's really sweet and nice of you..
i just.. i like you as a friend, y'know?
and i know this hurts you so much, but it would hurt you more if i kept trying and still nothing happened
and i want to keep talking to you as a friend
because you do mean a lot to me
but i will understand that me not returning your feelings and you don't want to talk to me..
i'm sorry if i've given out the wrong vibes from the start, i just like being nice and talking to everyone.. and guys do tend to take it the wrong way.. and i'm sorry, i try to make it clear that i'm just being friendly..
i do care about you a lot and want to be there for you.. just as a friend..
i'm sorry for not saying this sooner, i really should have but you seemed so happy, but that was wrong because i can't imagine how much i've hurt you with this.. and i don't think i can really do anything to atone..
SilverYoshi - Today at 4:53 PM
done?
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 4:53 PM
since a word doesn't exist to express how sorry i am, yes
SilverYoshi - Today at 4:53 PM
Gonna type this in one message instead of 11
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:03 PM
What a bombshell to just come out of left field. Look, I've told you countless times I care for you, wether you return the feelings or not, even if you dont feel the same way, I still want you in my life be it as a friend or more then just friends. I didnt believe you when you claimed to be lesbian from the very moment you said it. Bi seems more resonable. BUt regardless of sexual preference, I'd still want you as a friend. Be it things change in the future between us, or not, I still want you in my life. I'm not mad at you. I honestly was expecting this kind of outcome, with you blatenly trying to avoid returning messages of my feelings, and the fact that I came on too strongly too quickly, I honestly didn't expect you to feel the same way. But thats ok, because I believe there CAN be something between us, again, be-it feelings change, etc, and if not, so be it. I have had feelings for multiple girls in the past, being a 20-year-old male, it should be a given. However, I don't think- no, I can say for certain, that I havn't felt as strongly towards them as I do you. I feel we have so much in common that it's almost uncanny. If you dont feel that way now, fine, but I believe that you can feel that way, and will be waiting for that day. Maybe it will take meeting you to do that, but again, so be it. I feel I have just repeated the same thing over and over in this message, but whatever. I care for you, and don't want anything more than you to be happy. I'm a blunt person, you should know this. So I prefer you telling me this rather than just keeping it locked away for who knows how long. Theres nothing I hate more than lies that are just to keep face, or girls saying this confusing ass shit because they're girls. Ya know the, "I'm fine" when they're not fine. Really annoying. But now im rambling. TL:DR, I believe you can change, and I think I come off too strongly, but I just say how I feel. Guess thats about it
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:04 PM
okay.. i'm glad you're not angry at me... thank you for understanding.
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:06 PM
So long as theres a chance it can change, its fine by me. Even if we tried to make it work, and it didnt, and stayed friends, again, wouldnt be mad then. BUt not even trying to make it work would kinda make me a bit mad, but seeing as you are ACTUALLY trying, its fine. If I may, what exactly is it? Is it that you dont want to look at me like that, so as if we were to break things off, you would be afraid we wouldnt be friends anymore?
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:07 PM
it's more i just really don't like you romantically..
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:07 PM
oof
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:09 PM
and since you want me to be blunt i'll try: i kinda get annoyed a lot and when we "argue" i'm actually kinda upset... i feel like i couldn't get along with you well enough to take it to a romantic point but more just as friends.. not to say you have a bad personality or that you're rude or mean, i just think we're not right for eachother. i can be too headstrong and emotional, you sometimes say things that you dont think are hurtful but do hurt me, stuff like that.. i didnt want to say anything because i feel like its hurtful even though thats what i feel, but.. yeah.
it's honestly me thats the issue, i get hurt super easily etc
i think i have a lot of personality issues that would cause us to argue
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:14 PM
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teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:14 PM
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SilverYoshi - Today at 5:22 PM
character limit
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Ok, to address that, I can say stuff that is super hurtful, I will agree, however, 99% of the time, I dont mean it. Its usually just like a... security blanket. I guess. We all put on our persona when talking to other people. Im sure youve noticed it. In VRChat, I get "mad" and yell at people alot, but I guess thats how I am when I meet people, and then the shell breaks when I get to know them, and actually feel I can open up to them Like right now    And I started to notice the argueing thing, most noteably, when you were defending your computer, and eeven then, I literally said "I can see where this is going, so I'm just drop it here". WHICH, MIGHT I ADD, I DONT NORMALLY DO WITH OTHER PEOPLE, when I start argueing, I HAVE to win. Even if I realize mid way I'm wrong, I still NEED to win the arguement, however, I think you're the first person I have actually went back on what I've said, partly because I realized mid way how it was making you feel, and didnt want to hurt you more than I already had just to bolster my ego more, and also partly because I care too much to mess things up with you over some silly arguement, which is how I imagine future "arguements" will go. Another thing I have learned about relationships, every relationgship NEEDS arguements some times. So long as they arnt self-destructive, they can usually improve them at the end of the day. Another thing about me, I usually dont get LEGITIMATLY mad easily, I'll get ticked, and then almost immediatly cool down, however, when I actually get mad, even then, just give me till the next night, and im already over it. I'll take the most prominent example, CS GO.
I fucking hate CS GO now, and was able to break away from that Love-hate relationship, but I would play a game, get mad at shit teams, game ends, im over it. Play another. same thing. But what got me mad in that game was when it just pile bullshit on top of bullshit on me mentaly at once. Shit team, god tier enemy team, my poor performance, and their godly performance. THATS when I ACTUALLY get mad. HOWEVER, even then, I went back to the game. I... I may have 1500 hours, on my main, and then 500+ on 4 other accounts... Bottom line of that explaination about me, so long as I am not bombarded with bullshit simultaniously, I will always go back to it, if its something I love. Be it CS GO, USED TO, or someone whos name rhymes with Sphlegan  HHad nervous shakes through half of this btw If thats  what bothers you most about me, I can try to change that, because thats what relationships are meant for, learning about onceself, learning about the other person, and changing each other for the better. and determining if they are a sutible mate, but thats a different storyt
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:39 PM
okay SORRY i had to do something
i understand where you're coming from.. and i really just feel like we won't work out sadly..
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:41 PM
Just like oyur black hair, never know till we try
All im sayin, is dont knock it till we spend the week we are plannin on together, if you still dont feel anything, I'll drop it, but I would still want to be friends.
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:43 PM
mkay..
but one last thing..
this is probably the part i dread the most to tell you..
no i'm not taken if thats what you're thinking
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:44 PM
Already see where this is going
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:44 PM
i have a crush on the brandon guy..
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:44 PM
oh..
Guess I didnt
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:45 PM
i'm sorry..
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:47 PM
Well, if he accepts your feelings say you confess to him, I'm sure he will accept, seeing as your such a wonderful person, and wish him the best with the best girl in the world..
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:47 PM
i can give you some space and leave you alone if you want..
i do want to be friends but if that's too much i understand..
SilverYoshi - Today at 5:53 PM
Well, normally, since I'm shit with dealing with other people, I usually talk to Marshy about situations about this when they happen to arise, but as you know, he never responds EVER! So I'll say how I feel. You liking this other guy doesnt change how I feel at all, may just put a MINNOOOR  roadbump in it, but I'm a pretty commited guy. If I care for something, theres nothing stopping me from getting/doing/etc what ever it is that I care for. And what I care for is your happiness, so, if you're happy, im happy. Maybe not as happy as I can be, but I've spent the last 3 years in the worst pit of my life, anything if better than that. And its only gotten better since ive met you. But I think a day to think it over, talk to Marshy, sleep it off, and send a 3 part character limit snap should do the trick. ree...
teaghan(brandon's owner) - Today at 5:53 PM
okay, i undesrtand