9 13 Reading

I hope I am not breaking boundaries that will make you feel uncomfortable here... but I did this Reading specific to "us". =) I can honestly say I have never been more 'nervous' right before a Reading, I feared the possible pessimistic / optimistic interpretations, but was more than willing to embrace whatever came. I couldn't be happier with the results. Hope I can explain why in a fluent manner, wish me luck pretty please... =D

The Queen of Cups, laying in the previous experiences or 'past' position, we see the nourishment we have given each other. As we both provide love, the effect continuously benefits those around us. Personal example is putting any sort of smile or interest in someone who hears me play guitar... Chandler can hear me say "my darling" or "you mean the world to me" and understand where the words come from. The relationship we have has come from mutual love, honesty and respect for the emotions of not only ourselves, but others as well. I see the Queen of Pentacles and your success (congrats ;) btw) throughout your experiences, but I also feel extremely blessed to see the emotional side, the extreme tender, gentle care you are willing to share with me. You feel lovely <3 Hold me and I will hold you is what I think of when I see The Queen of Cups. =)

The second card is when that smile brightens so vividly that its nearly impossible to refrain from a laugh or upcoming teary eyes. :P I love The Sun and the blissful enlightenment that it represents. Dancing, and smiling, it shows us well. =) It sits in the mental influence or personal guidance spot, which I see as a sign that nothing appears 'forced'. Everything seems to be happening naturally and neither of us are pushing the other away. We are just enjoying life in the way it was meant to be. <3 Soul mates <3

Normally I would admit that the Six of Pentacles is one of the harder cards to find words for to efficiently explain the state of resource transfer that it resembles. Today however, a few words that came from Slone while I was on the phone with him the other night, popped into my mind. Rightfully so too, as the position shows us outside surroundings, or environmental influence. I was explaining my 'nervous excitement' to him as I told him I loved you but was also scared. "I mean, I have never been in a relationship before man. She has this state of romantic experiences that makes me worried I might not meet subliminal expectations that she may or may not hold. She makes me feel comfortable but I still worry." I confessed...
"Dude, you got to think of the balance involved in this situation. Sure, maybe you are not experienced romantically, and she is, but maybe that is how it was meant to be, for you to meet someone who is willing to help you grow and find her own growth in the process. I mean think of if you were to meet someone in the same boat as you... The lack of romantic experience would most likely make it more awkward and it would appear more difficult if you both were too timid to engage. Don't worry about the past man, enjoy what you have and believe it was meant to be this way."
The words might have differed a bit ;) but the point I am trying to get at is this concept of give - take. I like to share what little I have with you, and feel completely blessed when I receive your energy. Your words, your voice and that pretty smile are the most beautiful things I have ever witnessed. You gave me an origami crane on WoW and I am able to play it for you on guitar. =) The cycle of energy flows from one another. The outside influence card positioning tells me others truly are able to see and share a smile with us. =)

King of Pentacles holds down the theme or present moment. Very thorough in his approach, I think our relationship is shown through our commitment to each other. Some of the ideas that come to mind are the easy obvious physical characteristics. Smiling as I wake up because I look at my phone or falling asleep with the feeling of you around me. My smile goes beyond just the phone and your beautiful words or gorgeous smile. I don't find myself in the lettuce aisle too often :P but I do have random objects around me at work all the time to cheese at. =) This King is a good indicator that we have motivation from one another that allows us to just naturally succeed in life. The optimism from a smile can result in great things. [congrats again btw ;)] One of the most exciting things about this relationship for me would have to be the physical changes happening. Playing guitar, singing, smiling, texting, skyping, vising you in Florida... =) These are all Pentacles and Kingly attributes at that. Thank you for all of your gifts you have given and inspired, I truly enjoy this present moment and the King of Pentacles connection we have.

Our Page of Pentacles is more symbolic of our 'readiness'. She stands tall in the expressions or behavioral location, which accurately describes many of my recent actions. I feel 'ready' to start learning to play guitar and sing. I feel 'ready' to open up romantically and feel you in a way I have never experienced before. I feel 'ready' to visit you and share a real genuine hug. Our connection spawns this sensation of change, of adjustment to life that we know will benefit both of us. If you are willing and patient enough, I 'd love to learn how to cook, how to become a more responsible adult. :P Hopefully I can convince you of some healthier habits as well *cough* sleep... As I write this you lay asleep so beautifully <3 I think the Page of Pentacles is symbolic of this 'readiness' we both feel in our journey to grow and evolve... together. =) Be fearless and play with me and encourage me to do the same. =D

We find our desires and aspirations in the Eight of Cups. I think we both want to leave something behind for better things. I immediately thought of your "closing doors" conversation when I drew this card. You had so elegantly decided that you were not going to let yourself feel down but instead just gently push the next door open and experience the beauty within. I realize that we both need to 'sacrifice' certain things in order to obtain some of our deepest, truest desires. I really hope that you don't need to lose anything in your life that makes you happy in order to retain a relationship with me, but the Reading all together tells me that every piece of our connection and the establishment within the world around us seems to be working in an amazingly timely manner. I really hope that I can leave behind parts of the joy I feel in order to be with you. 5 year boss question status: I pray with all my heart that I am not working at Brents. I pray that I can wake up and fall asleep holding you, and I am more than willing to make a leap of faith in order for these things to fall into place. Hold my hand on this path I walk please, I like walking together. <3

The path leads "down the road, into the future" [taken from chandler :)]. We finally reach the foot of destiny. The idea that something can be predicted or seen is a big position to fill. Our Four of Wands couldn't be a happier 'ending'. I have already analyzed this behavior on several personal occasions. The two women in the imagery show us a scene of celebration. Countless times have I had a smile that translated into goofy dance moves or outrageous singing because I am feeling so happy from our talks. I like to think bigger and see the Four of Wands in when I get to see you. The idea of getting off a plane, seeing your pretty green eyes, gorgeous smile, and getting to feel the warmth of your skin is the celebration of a lifetime in my eyes. I can't imagine a better day. Playing origami crane for you on skype is an act of achieving a desire that makes me think of celebration. (assuming I don't butcher it :P) Overall, I feel the Four of Wands every night I go to bed, and every morning I wake up knowing I have my love to share with you, and to feel so blessed to receive yours. This tarot Reading in itself, is a celebration of "us", I hope you can find joy in it as I have. =) Thank you so much, I love you <3