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- A NIGGER RANT: TLDR EDITION
- FULL EDITION: pastebin / ghostbin
- CONTEXT: NIGGER JOINS A GROUP I HAD CLAIMED ( #GRIMZSEC ) AND AFTER SOME TALKING SHE NEEDS TO RANT BECAUSE SHE CANT RANT TO ANYONE ELSE KEK
- PROOFS ITS REAL: https://i.sli.mg/Je3rLL.png / https://i.sli.mg/y0pfCY.png / https://i.sli.mg/YKOikK.png / https://i.sli.mg/6QxqDL.png / https://i.sli.mg/9Q2PgW.jpg / https://i.sli.mg/Zcr2Iz.jpg / https://i.sli.mg/gPSEJn.jpg / https://vid.me/MJRD
- I'm going to rant to you because I'm not allowed to show the people who care about me weakness
- So josh was my owner and we were really really close
- But he is so so busy and he's kind of a manwhore like tons of girls like him
- And one day he said he was sorry for being so busy and that if he had time he would call me that night
- So i stayed up until 6am
- Waiting
- Come to find out he had called two other people and didn't either bother to message m3
- And i had come in contact with one of his frienemeies who said that he was using me and if he said he cared about me he was saying just to use me
- I didn't want to believe his friend because i was already deep in love with him
- But then after waking up after my less than an hour sleep because of waiting for him to see him flirting with two girls
- I told him it was better if we parted because in the beginning he said "but the difference is when it ends no one gets hurt" and i didn't think that would be true now
- Then he said that i didn't do that with moody
- I said that i should have
- Then he said he had been busy and that he was just in the call and passed out
- I said he still could have added me or at least sent me a text message
- He said he didn't really think of it
- But i forgave him and in my mind we were still together however
- He thought we weren't
- And then Taylor came along
- I'm skipping irrelevant parts
- And they were like so bluntly saying shit right in front of me i literally thought he really doesn't give a shit
- But i just tried my hardest to ignore it because
- And him and someone told me to try and breakup my crush after i said he had a gf though he didn't know i meant him because he thought we weren't together i thought we were
- And he asked me to tell him about it and i got triggered because the night before i had been cutting and crying because in my mind he was cheating right in front of me
- I told him he didn't have the right to even be speaking to me as far as i was concerned
- And he was confused and said why and i got pissed off and was yelling at him and then he said he thought we were still together and then i realized that everything had been fucked up by a misunderstanding
- And then i decided to take his advice and break up him and his gf
- And so i made her think he was a jackass by manipulating her she literally thought everything i said was true and i was her best friend
- However what i said was so extreme she showed him
- And then he got PISSED
- And you know about partial leak
- I'll go find messages
- "I have seen a lot of broken hearts from his girls"
- "We have been friends a long time LOL"
- "He's really good with his words just don't get in to deep for your sake"
- "I mean in unbroken Guardians we help people even people with broken hearts so when the time comes feel free to talk to me we helped 7 of his girls who were suicidal after feel better so don't think your life is over without him"
- Etc
- It worked
- You know about the skype thing after (LINKS: )
- During which i was literally begging him on skype
- Then after everything was said in done and a bit more talking and crying he felt bad
- And then he made me feel guilty
- Then i ended up in a group call
- And i asked what everything meant
- He said he didn't know
- A bit deeper in he said that he had loved me he said it in past tense then i said i love you present tense he said dou
- [LINK: https://i.sli.mg/mE9WbP.png ]
- Then later he said "wtf was I saying an hour agi"
- The next day he was arrested
- And i was worried because he wasn't on and i didn't know he had been arrested
- The friendenemy nick
- Tells me he thinks he was arrested and i get scared because he has broken a lot of laws
- And then the next day nick confirms that josh was arrested
- Yesterday
- And i spend both days sad and crying about josh
- Then today nick gives me his phone number saying he's back
- And i get so excited and happy and i call it
- And it turns out its his landline
- Police took every device that could access the Internet
- So that's the only way he can talk now
- And then i called him a few times
- Then i called right before i started ranting to you guys
- And i said we never finished talking about what happened
- And so i tell him that he said he loved me
- He said he was drunk
- I said that studies show your true feelings come out when your drunk
- He said some about a keg or whatever
- And basically said he was fucked up and didn't mean it
- And didn't love me
- He said i had some how made him feel bad about the partial leak but now that he is thinking straight i should be lucky that he is still talking to me
- Then there was 4 minutes of silence because i was crying and didn't know what to sayAnd then eventually he asked about the rest of it and i said it didn't matter and wasn't important (I mean what he said was kinda like stabbing me in the heart with me living feeling every bit of the pain) then he said to tell him anyways and i said it didn't fucking matter anymore
- And he said ok then
- And hung up
- Then i started crying
- And then i said the gun thing
- Then removed everything from instagram like his last name
- The i changed my skype status
- Then changed my name and picture
- All the while i had and have i hate you i love you on repeat
- Then we get to the part where i tell you guys
- And this whole time i want to call him back
- But i called him Nico2.0 and
- So many times
- And i don't need to experience that again
- I miss the days where he said my kitten was doxed
- And said my kitten's name was Aries(then his own last name)
- And called me kitten (his own last name)
- And where he would say "You're doxed kid"
- And I'd mimic him
- And when we would be on the phone for 7 hours
- And i really want to call him back but
- :(
- And i love him so much
- And he is slowly killing me
- And
- I told him
- So many times
- "I feel like you'll be the thing to finally break and destroy me"
- Skype status
- [LINK: https://i.sli.mg/zjXqEs.png]
- On repeat [LINK: https://i.sli.mg/bKejIB.png]
- My name was supposed to [ https://i.sli.mg/ZEjk5Y.png]
- Quote from song
- We have a case of alcohol that is untouched because my dad doesn't drink
- And i want to get a bottle and drink it then call him and yell at him
- Him as in josh
- But if i got caught drinking
- My dad would kick me out
- But at the same time
- I won't be able to say all i want to say to josh unless I'm drunk
- I wrote a bunch of song parts about him in the two days i thought he was gone
- I need him:(
- </3
- I can't even tell my kik friends because I'm supposed to be Unbroken Guardians leader
- I'm supposed to be unbroken and unbreakable
- But I'm so fucking weak
- I can't tell my real life friends
- Because i don't trust them enough to give them a way to hurt me
- Even my best friend
- I can't tell my family because they never listen to me
- They always say they don't care 3 words in
- My kitten isn't here anymore
- I'm always fucking alone
- I always end up talking to myself
- Because I'm the only person who listens
- That's how i developed that issue of talking to myself
- Josh made me feel whole again like he made me so happy
- He made me get over nico
- He made everything bad go away in my eyes
- There was no pain just him
- He was like a hero in my eyes
- And now he is hurting me more
- Psychos aren't born they're made
- Well.my type at least
- As is the thing that causes me to obsessed and not want to let go
- It is made
- I was not born like this
- I was a normal girl who spent her time flirting and hanging out with friends in real life only
- Until i was
- What 11
- Around there
- Because i didn't want to be alone
- And that was a good way to make people stay
- Until my life went to shit
- And i wasn't allowed to interact with humans in real life
- For four fucking months
- And all i had were the people on kik
- I was never able to get out of my phone everything people around me said seemed immature and stupid
- I wasn't the same anymore then i got deeper and deeper and it got worse and worse
- And then people like dexter
- Nico
- Conner
- Etc
- Gave me more issues
- Asher
- Josh
- Everyone
- I feel worse for my brothers though
- But instead of happening in elementary for them it happened in highschool
- FUCK IT
- I'm calling josh
- I need him
- FUCK
- Kill meπ’π
- π’
- WTF
- HE CALLED ME SAY HEY I SAID HI
- THE HE HUNG UP
- HE'S TOYING WITH ME AND I DON'T LIKE IT
- AHHJ
- ----TWO HOURS LATER----
- :|
- [VIDEO OF HER SINGING: http://paste.click/AfRvJl.mp4 ]
- I messed up on the words:'(
- I made the lyrics though kinda tweaked it and winged it
- I said parts really weird
- Also part of the ending first part
- Then the transition
- I think i meant so come on don't you leave me now
- I think i got my words right this time :^)
- [ANOTHER FUCKING VIDEO OF HER SINGING: http://paste.click/qNzxQB.mp4]
- B)
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