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  8. DNA, your natural ability,
  9. the study of your craft,
  10.  
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  13. a development of
  14. and devotion to an aesthetic philosophy.
  15.  
  16. 3
  17. 00:00:38,329 --> 00:00:39,247
  18. Balls.
  19.  
  20. 4
  21. 00:00:40,457 --> 00:00:43,793
  22. Naked desire for fame, love, adoration,
  23.  
  24. 5
  25. 00:00:43,877 --> 00:00:45,795
  26. attention, women,
  27.  
  28. 6
  29. 00:00:45,879 --> 00:00:48,131
  30. sex, a buck.
  31.  
  32. 7
  33. 00:00:48,548 --> 00:00:51,342
  34. Then, if you want to take it
  35. all the way out to the end of the night,
  36.  
  37. 8
  38. 00:00:51,426 --> 00:00:54,471
  39. you will need a furious fire
  40. in your belly
  41.  
  42. 9
  43. 00:00:55,013 --> 00:00:56,639
  44. that just don't quit burning.
  45.  
  46. 10
  47. 00:00:57,432 --> 00:01:01,478
  48. These are some of the elements
  49. that will come in handy
  50.  
  51. 11
  52. 00:01:02,228 --> 00:01:04,064
  53. should you come face-to-face
  54.  
  55. 12
  56. 00:01:04,481 --> 00:01:07,317
  57. with 80,000 screaming rock 'n' roll fans.
  58.  
  59. 13
  60. 00:01:09,194 --> 00:01:13,073
  61. Because these are fans who are waiting
  62. for you to pull something out of your hat,
  63.  
  64. 14
  65. 00:01:13,531 --> 00:01:16,493
  66. out of thin air,
  67. something out of this world.
  68.  
  69. 15
  70. 00:01:17,035 --> 00:01:19,954
  71. Something that, before the faithful
  72. were gathered here today,
  73.  
  74. 16
  75. 00:01:20,038 --> 00:01:21,998
  76. was just a song-fueled rumor.
  77.  
  78. 17
  79. 00:01:22,832 --> 00:01:24,793
  80. Now, I come from a boardwalk town
  81.  
  82. 18
  83. 00:01:24,876 --> 00:01:28,546
  84. where everything is tinged
  85. with just a bit of fraud.
  86.  
  87. 19
  88. 00:01:33,343 --> 00:01:34,552
  89. So am I.
  90.  
  91. 20
  92. 00:01:35,595 --> 00:01:38,765
  93. In 1972,
  94. I wasn't any race-car-driving rebel.
  95.  
  96. 21
  97. 00:01:38,848 --> 00:01:40,558
  98. I wasn't any corner street punk.
  99.  
  100. 22
  101. 00:01:40,850 --> 00:01:44,020
  102. I was a guitar player
  103. on the streets of Asbury Park.
  104.  
  105. 23
  106. 00:01:44,687 --> 00:01:47,941
  107. But I held four clean aces.
  108.  
  109. 24
  110. 00:01:48,233 --> 00:01:52,195
  111. I had youth, I had a decade
  112. of hard-core bar band experience
  113.  
  114. 25
  115. 00:01:52,278 --> 00:01:53,446
  116. already behind me.
  117.  
  118. 26
  119. 00:01:53,738 --> 00:01:55,907
  120. I had a great group of musicians
  121. and friends
  122.  
  123. 27
  124. 00:01:55,990 --> 00:01:58,993
  125. who really knew my playing style,
  126. and I had a magic trick.
  127.  
  128. 28
  129. 00:01:59,744 --> 00:02:02,872
  130. Now I'm here tonight
  131. to provide proof of life
  132.  
  133. 29
  134. 00:02:03,748 --> 00:02:06,501
  135. to that ever-elusive,
  136. never completely believable,
  137.  
  138. 30
  139. 00:02:06,584 --> 00:02:09,045
  140. particularly these days, us.
  141.  
  142. 31
  143. 00:02:10,421 --> 00:02:12,090
  144. That's my magic trick.
  145.  
  146. 32
  147. 00:02:12,173 --> 00:02:14,259
  148. And like all good magic tricks,
  149.  
  150. 33
  151. 00:02:14,342 --> 00:02:16,010
  152. it begins with a setup.
  153.  
  154. 34
  155. 00:04:02,450 --> 00:04:05,703
  156. Now, I've never held an honest job
  157. in my entire life.
  158.  
  159. 35
  160. 00:04:07,372 --> 00:04:09,457
  161. I've never done any hard labor.
  162.  
  163. 36
  164. 00:04:10,166 --> 00:04:12,377
  165. I've never worked nine to five.
  166.  
  167. 37
  168. 00:04:13,086 --> 00:04:16,339
  169. I've never worked five days a week
  170. until right now.
  171.  
  172. 38
  173. 00:04:24,013 --> 00:04:26,140
  174. I don't like it.
  175.  
  176. 39
  177. 00:04:26,891 --> 00:04:31,396
  178. I've never seen the inside of a factory,
  179. and yet, it's all I've ever written about.
  180.  
  181. 40
  182. 00:04:32,605 --> 00:04:34,732
  183. Standing before you is a man
  184.  
  185. 41
  186. 00:04:34,816 --> 00:04:38,403
  187. who has become wildly
  188. and absurdly successful
  189.  
  190. 42
  191. 00:04:38,945 --> 00:04:42,532
  192. writing about something
  193. of which he has had...
  194.  
  195. 43
  196. 00:04:43,950 --> 00:04:46,160
  197. absolutely no personal experience.
  198.  
  199. 44
  200. 00:04:48,621 --> 00:04:50,623
  201. I-- I made it all up.
  202.  
  203. 45
  204. 00:04:52,625 --> 00:04:53,918
  205. That's how good I am.
  206.  
  207. 46
  208. 00:05:01,634 --> 00:05:02,635
  209. Now, how?
  210.  
  211. 47
  212. 00:05:03,636 --> 00:05:07,181
  213. I'm sure you're wondering,
  214. how did this great miracle come to pass?
  215.  
  216. 48
  217. 00:05:08,057 --> 00:05:09,058
  218. Well...
  219.  
  220. 49
  221. 00:05:10,143 --> 00:05:11,311
  222. in the beginning...
  223.  
  224. 50
  225. 00:05:12,061 --> 00:05:15,064
  226. there was a great darkness
  227. upon the waters.
  228.  
  229. 51
  230. 00:05:15,565 --> 00:05:19,402
  231. As a child, there was Christmas,
  232. your birthday, summer vacation,
  233.  
  234. 52
  235. 00:05:19,944 --> 00:05:23,614
  236. but the rest of life was a lifeless,
  237. sucking black hole.
  238.  
  239. 53
  240. 00:05:24,615 --> 00:05:29,037
  241. A lifeless, sucking black hole
  242. of homework, church,
  243.  
  244. 54
  245. 00:05:29,120 --> 00:05:32,206
  246. school, homework, church,
  247.  
  248. 55
  249. 00:05:32,582 --> 00:05:35,752
  250. school, homework, church,
  251.  
  252. 56
  253. 00:05:35,835 --> 00:05:38,379
  254. school, green beans,
  255.  
  256. 57
  257. 00:05:38,713 --> 00:05:42,258
  258. green beans, fucking green beans.
  259.  
  260. 58
  261. 00:05:44,635 --> 00:05:49,515
  262. But then,
  263. in a blinding flash of sanctified light,
  264.  
  265. 59
  266. 00:05:49,974 --> 00:05:53,102
  267. a human being and just a kid,
  268.  
  269. 60
  270. 00:05:53,811 --> 00:05:55,772
  271. just a kid from the southern sticks.
  272.  
  273. 61
  274. 00:05:56,522 --> 00:06:01,444
  275. But, a... new kind of man.
  276. And he split the world in two.
  277.  
  278. 62
  279. 00:06:01,861 --> 00:06:02,945
  280. And suddenly...
  281.  
  282. 63
  283. 00:06:04,030 --> 00:06:05,615
  284. a new world existed.
  285.  
  286. 64
  287. 00:06:08,785 --> 00:06:10,453
  288. The one below your belt.
  289.  
  290. 65
  291. 00:06:16,542 --> 00:06:17,835
  292. And...
  293.  
  294. 66
  295. 00:06:18,503 --> 00:06:19,587
  296. above your heart.
  297.  
  298. 67
  299. 00:06:20,463 --> 00:06:22,799
  300. On a Sunday night in 1956,
  301.  
  302. 68
  303. 00:06:22,882 --> 00:06:26,344
  304. at 39 1/2 Institute Street,
  305. into a cold-water flat
  306.  
  307. 69
  308. 00:06:26,427 --> 00:06:28,763
  309. and into the mind of a seven-year-old kid.
  310.  
  311. 70
  312. 00:06:29,013 --> 00:06:32,100
  313. The revolution had been televised!
  314.  
  315. 71
  316. 00:06:32,642 --> 00:06:34,143
  317. Right under the noses
  318.  
  319. 72
  320. 00:06:34,477 --> 00:06:36,145
  321. of the powers that be!
  322.  
  323. 73
  324. 00:06:36,854 --> 00:06:39,774
  325. Who, if they'd have known
  326. what was actually happening
  327.  
  328. 74
  329. 00:06:39,857 --> 00:06:41,442
  330. and the great changes...
  331.  
  332. 75
  333. 00:06:42,193 --> 00:06:44,195
  334. the changes that were about to come,
  335.  
  336. 76
  337. 00:06:44,779 --> 00:06:47,615
  338. they would have shut this shit down.
  339.  
  340. 77
  341. 00:06:48,950 --> 00:06:52,036
  342. Or more likely signed it up real quick.
  343.  
  344. 78
  345. 00:06:52,370 --> 00:06:57,250
  346. Because we, the unwashed,
  347. the invisible, the powerless, the kids,
  348.  
  349. 79
  350. 00:06:57,333 --> 00:07:00,002
  351. would want more.
  352.  
  353. 80
  354. 00:07:02,088 --> 00:07:03,381
  355. Now more life...
  356.  
  357. 81
  358. 00:07:04,382 --> 00:07:07,343
  359. more love and more sex
  360. and more hope...
  361.  
  362. 82
  363. 00:07:07,927 --> 00:07:09,095
  364. and more truth...
  365.  
  366. 83
  367. 00:07:09,720 --> 00:07:11,013
  368. and more power.
  369.  
  370. 84
  371. 00:07:12,056 --> 00:07:13,474
  372. And more soul.
  373.  
  374. 85
  375. 00:07:13,558 --> 00:07:17,186
  376. And most of all, more rock 'n' roll.
  377.  
  378. 86
  379. 00:07:24,068 --> 00:07:27,572
  380. So I sat with my mom,
  381. my little seven-year-old mind on fire,
  382.  
  383. 87
  384. 00:07:28,030 --> 00:07:31,451
  385. staring into a blue tube as fun happened.
  386.  
  387. 88
  388. 00:07:32,410 --> 00:07:34,620
  389. Fun, the real kind.
  390.  
  391. 89
  392. 00:07:34,704 --> 00:07:37,498
  393. The joyful, life-affirming, hip-shaking,
  394.  
  395. 90
  396. 00:07:37,582 --> 00:07:39,584
  397. ass-quaking, guitar-playing,
  398.  
  399. 91
  400. 00:07:39,667 --> 00:07:44,422
  401. mind- and heart-changing,
  402. race-challenging, soul-lifting bliss
  403.  
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  405. 00:07:44,505 --> 00:07:46,466
  406. of a freer existence.
  407.  
  408. 93
  409. 00:07:48,843 --> 00:07:53,806
  410. A freer existence exploded
  411. into unsuspecting homes
  412.  
  413. 94
  414. 00:07:54,182 --> 00:07:55,725
  415. all across America.
  416.  
  417. 95
  418. 00:07:56,225 --> 00:07:57,894
  419. On a regular Sunday night.
  420.  
  421. 96
  422. 00:07:59,270 --> 00:08:02,565
  423. The world had fucking changed.
  424.  
  425. 97
  426. 00:08:03,524 --> 00:08:05,067
  427. In an instant.
  428.  
  429. 98
  430. 00:08:06,235 --> 00:08:10,364
  431. In a sweating, wet orgasm of fun.
  432.  
  433. 99
  434. 00:08:12,492 --> 00:08:14,118
  435. And all you needed to do
  436.  
  437. 100
  438. 00:08:14,702 --> 00:08:16,162
  439. to get a taste of it...
  440.  
  441. 101
  442. 00:08:17,330 --> 00:08:19,624
  443. was to risk being your true self.
  444.  
  445. 102
  446. 00:08:22,919 --> 00:08:26,255
  447. Because a rock 'n' roll genie
  448. had been let out of the bottle
  449.  
  450. 103
  451. 00:08:26,339 --> 00:08:28,716
  452. and he told us that if you were...
  453.  
  454. 104
  455. 00:08:32,678 --> 00:08:36,474
  456. ...my fellow citizens,
  457. these feelings, these freedoms,
  458.  
  459. 105
  460. 00:08:37,016 --> 00:08:38,351
  461. this fun...
  462.  
  463. 106
  464. 00:08:39,727 --> 00:08:41,062
  465. was your birthright.
  466.  
  467. 107
  468. 00:08:41,854 --> 00:08:45,274
  469. I listened, I believed,
  470. and I heard a mighty call
  471.  
  472. 108
  473. 00:08:45,650 --> 00:08:46,943
  474. to action.
  475.  
  476. 109
  477. 00:08:47,944 --> 00:08:50,780
  478. So I studied my new hero.
  479.  
  480. 110
  481. 00:08:51,239 --> 00:08:55,117
  482. I know today he's got the same
  483. two arms, two legs, two eyes that I got.
  484.  
  485. 111
  486. 00:08:55,409 --> 00:08:58,079
  487. Yes, he's a human Adonis.
  488.  
  489. 112
  490. 00:08:59,205 --> 00:09:00,373
  491. And I'm...
  492.  
  493. 113
  494. 00:09:08,130 --> 00:09:09,757
  495. ...pathetically creepy.
  496.  
  497. 114
  498. 00:09:11,551 --> 00:09:13,844
  499. But I'll figure that part out, all right?
  500.  
  501. 115
  502. 00:09:13,928 --> 00:09:16,180
  503. The one thing he had
  504. that I didn't have was strapped
  505.  
  506. 116
  507. 00:09:16,264 --> 00:09:17,557
  508. around his waist.
  509.  
  510. 117
  511. 00:09:17,848 --> 00:09:19,350
  512. It was the guitar!
  513.  
  514. 118
  515. 00:09:20,101 --> 00:09:22,770
  516. The guitar,
  517. or as my father had christened it,
  518.  
  519. 119
  520. 00:09:22,853 --> 00:09:24,730
  521. "that fucking guitar."
  522.  
  523. 120
  524. 00:09:25,982 --> 00:09:28,693
  525. But that fucking guitar was the key!
  526.  
  527. 121
  528. 00:09:29,235 --> 00:09:31,862
  529. It was the sword in the stone!
  530.  
  531. 122
  532. 00:09:32,572 --> 00:09:35,575
  533. It was the staff of righteousness!
  534.  
  535. 123
  536. 00:09:36,284 --> 00:09:39,579
  537. And they sell 'em
  538. at Western Auto downtown
  539.  
  540. 124
  541. 00:09:40,413 --> 00:09:41,998
  542. for 25 dollars!
  543.  
  544. 125
  545. 00:09:43,583 --> 00:09:46,544
  546. So I begged and I pleaded with my mother
  547.  
  548. 126
  549. 00:09:46,627 --> 00:09:49,338
  550. just to rent me,
  551. 'cause we couldn't afford to buy,
  552.  
  553. 127
  554. 00:09:49,422 --> 00:09:52,717
  555. a guitar from Mike Diehl's Music School
  556. on South Street.
  557.  
  558. 128
  559. 00:09:52,800 --> 00:09:56,012
  560. One Saturday afternoon,
  561. I brought it home.
  562.  
  563. 129
  564. 00:09:57,388 --> 00:10:00,099
  565. And I sat on the living room couch,
  566.  
  567. 130
  568. 00:10:01,058 --> 00:10:04,186
  569. and I unlatched its full alligator case,
  570.  
  571. 131
  572. 00:10:05,271 --> 00:10:08,065
  573. and I slowly opened it up,
  574.  
  575. 132
  576. 00:10:10,401 --> 00:10:12,862
  577. and up from the green velvet lining...
  578.  
  579. 133
  580. 00:10:13,738 --> 00:10:15,656
  581. came the sweet smell...
  582.  
  583. 134
  584. 00:10:16,449 --> 00:10:19,952
  585. of a cherry wood cocktail of power,
  586.  
  587. 135
  588. 00:10:20,620 --> 00:10:23,164
  589. pleasure, salvation,
  590.  
  591. 136
  592. 00:10:23,831 --> 00:10:26,959
  593. dreams, and dreams and dreams.
  594.  
  595. 137
  596. 00:10:27,668 --> 00:10:31,213
  597. So I took lessons, dedicatedly.
  598.  
  599. 138
  600. 00:10:31,631 --> 00:10:35,134
  601. I took lessons for two solid weeks...
  602.  
  603. 139
  604. 00:10:39,680 --> 00:10:40,681
  605. and I quit.
  606.  
  607. 140
  608. 00:10:42,308 --> 00:10:43,809
  609. It was too fucking hard.
  610.  
  611. 141
  612. 00:10:45,269 --> 00:10:48,606
  613. Learning the guitar,
  614. not only was it fucking hard,
  615.  
  616. 142
  617. 00:10:48,939 --> 00:10:51,442
  618. but the lessons were boring!
  619.  
  620. 143
  621. 00:10:51,525 --> 00:10:55,529
  622. Just give me the three magic chords,
  623. please!
  624.  
  625. 144
  626. 00:10:55,863 --> 00:10:57,531
  627. And let me twist...
  628.  
  629. 145
  630. 00:10:58,282 --> 00:10:59,367
  631. and shout!
  632.  
  633. 146
  634. 00:11:00,910 --> 00:11:04,955
  635. But I was a seven-year-old kid
  636. and my hands barely fit around the neck
  637.  
  638. 147
  639. 00:11:05,039 --> 00:11:08,834
  640. and I couldn't waste my mother's
  641. hard-earned cash week after week,
  642.  
  643. 148
  644. 00:11:09,251 --> 00:11:13,756
  645. so very shortly, I knew.
  646. That back it was gonna have to go.
  647.  
  648. 149
  649. 00:11:14,799 --> 00:11:18,969
  650. But the morning before I returned it,
  651. I strapped it on one more time.
  652.  
  653. 150
  654. 00:11:21,013 --> 00:11:24,225
  655. I took it out into the backyard
  656. where the neighborhood kids were,
  657.  
  658. 151
  659. 00:11:25,518 --> 00:11:27,770
  660. and I put on my first show.
  661.  
  662. 152
  663. 00:11:29,313 --> 00:11:30,690
  664. Whoo!
  665.  
  666. 153
  667. 00:11:30,773 --> 00:11:33,859
  668. I slapped it, I shook it, I shouted,
  669.  
  670. 154
  671. 00:11:33,943 --> 00:11:35,903
  672. I sang voodoo nonsense.
  673.  
  674. 155
  675. 00:11:36,112 --> 00:11:38,155
  676. I burned a hole in the grass,
  677.  
  678. 156
  679. 00:11:38,572 --> 00:11:41,325
  680. I shook my little seven-year-old ass.
  681.  
  682. 157
  683. 00:11:44,954 --> 00:11:48,374
  684. Most importantly, I posed with it!
  685.  
  686. 158
  687. 00:11:49,458 --> 00:11:50,876
  688. That's the shit!
  689.  
  690. 159
  691. 00:11:55,172 --> 00:12:00,261
  692. I danced with it,
  693. I did everything but play it.
  694.  
  695. 160
  696. 00:12:01,429 --> 00:12:02,972
  697. I couldn't do that.
  698.  
  699. 161
  700. 00:12:04,181 --> 00:12:07,226
  701. I sucked so bad and the kids laughed
  702. and laughed and laughed
  703.  
  704. 162
  705. 00:12:07,309 --> 00:12:08,644
  706. at my silly ass.
  707.  
  708. 163
  709. 00:12:09,395 --> 00:12:11,731
  710. And we brought it back that afternoon.
  711.  
  712. 164
  713. 00:12:13,149 --> 00:12:16,026
  714. But riding back home
  715. with my mom in the car...
  716.  
  717. 165
  718. 00:12:16,652 --> 00:12:18,988
  719. I sat in the backseat and I was quiet.
  720.  
  721. 166
  722. 00:12:19,780 --> 00:12:20,823
  723. I was thinking...
  724.  
  725. 167
  726. 00:12:22,450 --> 00:12:25,578
  727. I was a little disappointed in myself.
  728.  
  729. 168
  730. 00:12:27,830 --> 00:12:29,415
  731. But somewhere inside...
  732.  
  733. 169
  734. 00:12:30,583 --> 00:12:33,586
  735. somewhere inside,
  736. I knew that for a moment,
  737.  
  738. 170
  739. 00:12:34,795 --> 00:12:36,338
  740. just a moment,
  741.  
  742. 171
  743. 00:12:37,590 --> 00:12:39,884
  744. in front of those kids in that backyard...
  745.  
  746. 172
  747. 00:12:42,052 --> 00:12:44,764
  748. Mm... I smelled blood.
  749.  
  750. 173
  751. 00:13:48,911 --> 00:13:51,330
  752. And it was bye-bye, New Jersey,
  753.  
  754. 174
  755. 00:13:52,331 --> 00:13:57,211
  756. I'm gonna be airborne!
  757.  
  758. 175
  759. 00:14:16,605 --> 00:14:18,023
  760. Now, everybody...
  761.  
  762. 176
  763. 00:14:18,524 --> 00:14:21,402
  764. everybody has a love-hate relationship
  765. with their hometown.
  766.  
  767. 177
  768. 00:14:22,903 --> 00:14:25,322
  769. It's just built into the equation
  770. of growing up.
  771.  
  772. 178
  773. 00:14:26,240 --> 00:14:27,283
  774. If you take me.
  775.  
  776. 179
  777. 00:14:28,492 --> 00:14:29,994
  778. I'm Mr. Born to Run.
  779.  
  780. 180
  781. 00:14:31,954 --> 00:14:34,081
  782. I'm Mr. Thunder fucking Road.
  783.  
  784. 181
  785. 00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:37,668
  786. I was born...
  787.  
  788. 182
  789. 00:14:38,752 --> 00:14:40,754
  790. to run, not to stay.
  791.  
  792. 183
  793. 00:14:42,840 --> 00:14:44,425
  794. My home, New Jersey...
  795.  
  796. 184
  797. 00:14:50,055 --> 00:14:51,181
  798. it's a death trap.
  799.  
  800. 185
  801. 00:14:56,562 --> 00:14:58,564
  802. It's a suicide rap.
  803.  
  804. 186
  805. 00:14:59,648 --> 00:15:02,151
  806. Listen to the lyrics, all right?
  807.  
  808. 187
  809. 00:15:02,776 --> 00:15:05,029
  810. I gotta get out, I gotta hit the highway,
  811.  
  812. 188
  813. 00:15:05,112 --> 00:15:09,033
  814. I'm a road running man,
  815. I got the white line fever in my veins.
  816.  
  817. 189
  818. 00:15:09,575 --> 00:15:12,620
  819. I am gonna bring my girl
  820. and I have had enough
  821.  
  822. 190
  823. 00:15:13,621 --> 00:15:15,789
  824. of the shit that this place dishes out.
  825.  
  826. 191
  827. 00:15:16,916 --> 00:15:20,210
  828. I am gonna run, run, run, and I'm...
  829.  
  830. 192
  831. 00:15:21,462 --> 00:15:23,088
  832. well, I'm never coming back.
  833.  
  834. 193
  835. 00:15:24,465 --> 00:15:26,634
  836. I currently live ten minutes
  837. from my hometown.
  838.  
  839. 194
  840. 00:15:35,935 --> 00:15:38,312
  841. But, uh... "Born to Come Back" or, uh...
  842.  
  843. 195
  844. 00:15:38,812 --> 00:15:41,440
  845. Who would have bought that shit?
  846.  
  847. 196
  848. 00:15:41,857 --> 00:15:42,900
  849. Nobody.
  850.  
  851. 197
  852. 00:15:43,567 --> 00:15:45,402
  853. Nobody, nobody.
  854.  
  855. 198
  856. 00:15:51,492 --> 00:15:53,953
  857. In our front yard,
  858. only a few feet from our porch
  859.  
  860. 199
  861. 00:15:54,036 --> 00:15:56,205
  862. stood the grandest tree in town.
  863.  
  864. 200
  865. 00:15:56,830 --> 00:16:00,292
  866. It was a towering,
  867. beautiful copper beech tree.
  868.  
  869. 201
  870. 00:16:00,876 --> 00:16:04,755
  871. And on sunny days,
  872. I lived under its branches.
  873.  
  874. 202
  875. 00:16:04,838 --> 00:16:09,760
  876. Its roots were a fort for my soldiers
  877. and a corral for my horses.
  878.  
  879. 203
  880. 00:16:10,552 --> 00:16:12,846
  881. And I was the first on my block
  882.  
  883. 204
  884. 00:16:13,514 --> 00:16:16,308
  885. to climb high into its upper reaches,
  886.  
  887. 205
  888. 00:16:17,476 --> 00:16:19,478
  889. leaving behind a world that...
  890.  
  891. 206
  892. 00:16:21,313 --> 00:16:23,273
  893. I didn't care for much already.
  894.  
  895. 207
  896. 00:16:25,109 --> 00:16:27,736
  897. And up near the top,
  898. I had the wind in my face
  899.  
  900. 208
  901. 00:16:27,820 --> 00:16:29,947
  902. and I had all the dreaming room
  903.  
  904. 209
  905. 00:16:30,823 --> 00:16:32,074
  906. that you could want.
  907.  
  908. 210
  909. 00:16:33,367 --> 00:16:36,036
  910. On slow summer nights,
  911. I'd sit beneath its arms
  912.  
  913. 211
  914. 00:16:36,120 --> 00:16:38,622
  915. with my pals like the cavalry at dusk,
  916.  
  917. 212
  918. 00:16:39,623 --> 00:16:41,750
  919. just listening and listening...
  920.  
  921. 213
  922. 00:16:42,751 --> 00:16:45,212
  923. for the evening bells
  924. of the ice cream man,
  925.  
  926. 214
  927. 00:16:46,714 --> 00:16:49,425
  928. and my grandmother's voice
  929. calling me in to bed.
  930.  
  931. 215
  932. 00:16:51,260 --> 00:16:54,430
  933. I lived on Randolph Street
  934. with my sister, Virginia,
  935.  
  936. 216
  937. 00:16:54,513 --> 00:16:57,057
  938. she was a year younger than me,
  939.  
  940. 217
  941. 00:16:57,141 --> 00:17:00,602
  942. my parents, Adele and Douglas,
  943. my grandparents, Fred and Alice,
  944.  
  945. 218
  946. 00:17:00,686 --> 00:17:03,981
  947. and my trusty dog Saddle.
  948.  
  949. 219
  950. 00:17:05,190 --> 00:17:09,403
  951. We lived spitting distance
  952. from the Catholic Church,
  953.  
  954. 220
  955. 00:17:09,486 --> 00:17:11,822
  956. the priest's rectory, the nuns' convent,
  957.  
  958. 221
  959. 00:17:11,905 --> 00:17:14,950
  960. the St. Rose of Lima Grammar School,
  961. all of it
  962.  
  963. 222
  964. 00:17:15,034 --> 00:17:17,244
  965. just a football's toss away,
  966.  
  967. 223
  968. 00:17:17,786 --> 00:17:19,913
  969. across a field of wild grass.
  970.  
  971. 224
  972. 00:17:19,997 --> 00:17:24,168
  973. I literally grew up surrounded by God.
  974.  
  975. 225
  976. 00:17:26,295 --> 00:17:28,464
  977. Surrounded by God...
  978.  
  979. 226
  980. 00:17:29,840 --> 00:17:31,550
  981. and my relatives.
  982.  
  983. 227
  984. 00:17:32,509 --> 00:17:35,471
  985. 'Cause we had cousins
  986. and aunts and uncles
  987.  
  988. 228
  989. 00:17:35,554 --> 00:17:37,306
  990. and grandmas and grandpas
  991.  
  992. 229
  993. 00:17:37,389 --> 00:17:39,683
  994. and great-grandmas and great-grandpas,
  995.  
  996. 230
  997. 00:17:39,767 --> 00:17:43,520
  998. all of us were jammed
  999. into five little houses
  1000.  
  1001. 231
  1002. 00:17:43,604 --> 00:17:45,272
  1003. on two adjoining streets.
  1004.  
  1005. 232
  1006. 00:17:45,355 --> 00:17:49,610
  1007. And when the church bells rang,
  1008. the whole clan would hustle up the street
  1009.  
  1010. 233
  1011. 00:17:50,319 --> 00:17:54,865
  1012. to stand witness to every wedding
  1013. and every funeral
  1014.  
  1015. 234
  1016. 00:17:54,948 --> 00:17:57,576
  1017. that arrived like a state occasion
  1018.  
  1019. 235
  1020. 00:17:58,160 --> 00:17:59,745
  1021. in our little neighborhood.
  1022.  
  1023. 236
  1024. 00:18:01,747 --> 00:18:04,958
  1025. My sister and I, we'd pick up
  1026. the thrown rice from the weddings,
  1027.  
  1028. 237
  1029. 00:18:05,959 --> 00:18:09,713
  1030. pack it away in small brown paper bags
  1031. and take it home and save it,
  1032.  
  1033. 238
  1034. 00:18:10,839 --> 00:18:13,717
  1035. and run up the street and throw it
  1036. at the next wedding...
  1037.  
  1038. 239
  1039. 00:18:14,426 --> 00:18:15,677
  1040. and the next wedding...
  1041.  
  1042. 240
  1043. 00:18:16,678 --> 00:18:18,222
  1044. and the next wedding.
  1045.  
  1046. 241
  1047. 00:18:19,723 --> 00:18:22,601
  1048. We also had front row seats
  1049. to watch the townsmen
  1050.  
  1051. 242
  1052. 00:18:22,684 --> 00:18:26,271
  1053. in their Sunday suits carry out
  1054. an endless array...
  1055.  
  1056. 243
  1057. 00:18:27,606 --> 00:18:29,399
  1058. of dark wooden boxes
  1059.  
  1060. 244
  1061. 00:18:30,317 --> 00:18:33,779
  1062. to be slipped into the rear
  1063. of the Freeman's Funeral Home
  1064.  
  1065. 245
  1066. 00:18:34,113 --> 00:18:36,949
  1067. long black Cadillac
  1068.  
  1069. 246
  1070. 00:18:37,908 --> 00:18:39,201
  1071. for the short ride
  1072.  
  1073. 247
  1074. 00:18:39,868 --> 00:18:42,913
  1075. to St. Rose Cemetery hill
  1076. on the edge of town.
  1077.  
  1078. 248
  1079. 00:18:43,580 --> 00:18:44,623
  1080. And there...
  1081.  
  1082. 249
  1083. 00:18:45,624 --> 00:18:47,918
  1084. all our Catholic neighbors,
  1085. all the Zerillis,
  1086.  
  1087. 250
  1088. 00:18:48,001 --> 00:18:51,588
  1089. all the McNicholases,
  1090. all the Springsteens who came before...
  1091.  
  1092. 251
  1093. 00:18:52,840 --> 00:18:54,842
  1094. they patiently waited for us.
  1095.  
  1096. 252
  1097. 00:18:55,968 --> 00:18:57,386
  1098. On Sundays,
  1099.  
  1100. 253
  1101. 00:18:58,762 --> 00:19:01,140
  1102. as my mom tended to our graves,
  1103.  
  1104. 254
  1105. 00:19:01,223 --> 00:19:02,766
  1106. my sister and I...
  1107.  
  1108. 255
  1109. 00:19:04,393 --> 00:19:07,437
  1110. we played hide-and-seek
  1111. amongst the gravestones.
  1112.  
  1113. 256
  1114. 00:19:10,566 --> 00:19:11,817
  1115. I gotcha.
  1116.  
  1117. 257
  1118. 00:19:12,943 --> 00:19:15,445
  1119. Now, when it rains in Freehold...
  1120.  
  1121. 258
  1122. 00:19:16,697 --> 00:19:18,282
  1123. When it rains,
  1124.  
  1125. 259
  1126. 00:19:19,074 --> 00:19:22,661
  1127. the moisture in the humid air
  1128. blankets the whole town
  1129.  
  1130. 260
  1131. 00:19:22,744 --> 00:19:27,708
  1132. with the smell of moist coffee grounds
  1133. wafting in from the Nescafé plant
  1134.  
  1135. 261
  1136. 00:19:27,791 --> 00:19:29,459
  1137. on the town's eastern edge.
  1138.  
  1139. 262
  1140. 00:19:30,294 --> 00:19:31,879
  1141. Now, I don't like coffee,
  1142.  
  1143. 263
  1144. 00:19:33,881 --> 00:19:35,716
  1145. but I loved that smell.
  1146.  
  1147. 264
  1148. 00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:40,888
  1149. It was comforting. It united our town,
  1150.  
  1151. 265
  1152. 00:19:41,471 --> 00:19:43,765
  1153. just like our clanging rug mill,
  1154.  
  1155. 266
  1156. 00:19:44,349 --> 00:19:48,020
  1157. in a common sensory experience.
  1158. There was a place here.
  1159.  
  1160. 267
  1161. 00:19:48,103 --> 00:19:51,064
  1162. You could hear it, you could smell it.
  1163.  
  1164. 268
  1165. 00:19:52,232 --> 00:19:54,693
  1166. A place where people made lives
  1167.  
  1168. 269
  1169. 00:19:54,776 --> 00:19:57,237
  1170. and where they worked
  1171. and where they danced
  1172.  
  1173. 270
  1174. 00:19:57,321 --> 00:20:02,075
  1175. and where they enjoyed small pleasures
  1176. and played baseball and...
  1177.  
  1178. 271
  1179. 00:20:03,160 --> 00:20:04,870
  1180. and suffered pain.
  1181.  
  1182. 272
  1183. 00:20:06,538 --> 00:20:08,498
  1184. Where they had their hearts broke
  1185.  
  1186. 273
  1187. 00:20:09,708 --> 00:20:11,376
  1188. and where they made love,
  1189.  
  1190. 274
  1191. 00:20:12,920 --> 00:20:14,296
  1192. had kids...
  1193.  
  1194. 275
  1195. 00:20:16,381 --> 00:20:17,841
  1196. where they died...
  1197.  
  1198. 276
  1199. 00:20:20,177 --> 00:20:23,931
  1200. and drank themselves drunk
  1201. on spring nights.
  1202.  
  1203. 277
  1204. 00:20:25,849 --> 00:20:28,060
  1205. And where they did their very best,
  1206.  
  1207. 278
  1208. 00:20:29,770 --> 00:20:31,063
  1209. the best that they could,
  1210.  
  1211. 279
  1212. 00:20:33,065 --> 00:20:37,027
  1213. to hold off the demons,
  1214. outside and inside,
  1215.  
  1216. 280
  1217. 00:20:38,278 --> 00:20:40,030
  1218. that sought to destroy them...
  1219.  
  1220. 281
  1221. 00:20:42,449 --> 00:20:44,910
  1222. and their homes, their families,
  1223.  
  1224. 282
  1225. 00:20:47,704 --> 00:20:49,164
  1226. and their town.
  1227.  
  1228. 283
  1229. 00:20:59,091 --> 00:21:02,386
  1230. Here, we lived in the shadow
  1231. of the steeple,
  1232.  
  1233. 284
  1234. 00:21:02,469 --> 00:21:06,098
  1235. crookedly blessed in God's good mercy,
  1236. one and all.
  1237.  
  1238. 285
  1239. 00:21:07,182 --> 00:21:10,060
  1240. In the heart-stopping, pants-dropping,
  1241.  
  1242. 286
  1243. 00:21:10,519 --> 00:21:13,397
  1244. race-rioting, freak-hating,
  1245.  
  1246. 287
  1247. 00:21:13,480 --> 00:21:16,566
  1248. soul-shaking, redneck,
  1249.  
  1250. 288
  1251. 00:21:17,859 --> 00:21:19,653
  1252. love-and-fear-making,
  1253.  
  1254. 289
  1255. 00:21:21,113 --> 00:21:22,948
  1256. heartbreaking town...
  1257.  
  1258. 290
  1259. 00:21:26,034 --> 00:21:28,036
  1260. of Freehold, New Jersey.
  1261.  
  1262. 291
  1263. 00:25:36,868 --> 00:25:39,579
  1264. My father worked
  1265. as a 16-year-old floor boy
  1266.  
  1267. 292
  1268. 00:25:39,663 --> 00:25:40,872
  1269. in that rug mill.
  1270.  
  1271. 293
  1272. 00:25:40,956 --> 00:25:44,376
  1273. And then he went off to war.
  1274. When he came home, he got married.
  1275.  
  1276. 294
  1277. 00:25:45,043 --> 00:25:47,337
  1278. They shut the rug mill down,
  1279. and so he went to work
  1280.  
  1281. 295
  1282. 00:25:47,420 --> 00:25:49,548
  1283. on the Ford Motor plant line
  1284. in New Brunswick.
  1285.  
  1286. 296
  1287. 00:25:49,631 --> 00:25:52,384
  1288. Then he worked at the Nescafé plant
  1289. in Freehold,
  1290.  
  1291. 297
  1292. 00:25:53,093 --> 00:25:55,095
  1293. worked in a plastics factory in town.
  1294.  
  1295. 298
  1296. 00:25:55,178 --> 00:25:58,557
  1297. He was a truck driver, a bus driver,
  1298. drove a taxi.
  1299.  
  1300. 299
  1301. 00:25:58,932 --> 00:26:01,518
  1302. He lived mostly at home,
  1303. except for his second home,
  1304.  
  1305. 300
  1306. 00:26:01,601 --> 00:26:04,104
  1307. which was a little local bar
  1308. in the center of town.
  1309.  
  1310. 301
  1311. 00:26:05,105 --> 00:26:10,860
  1312. Now, to a child, bars in Freehold
  1313. were these citadels of great mystery.
  1314.  
  1315. 302
  1316. 00:26:12,153 --> 00:26:14,781
  1317. When you walked through barroom doors
  1318. in my hometown,
  1319.  
  1320. 303
  1321. 00:26:14,864 --> 00:26:16,825
  1322. you entered the mystical realm of men.
  1323.  
  1324. 304
  1325. 00:26:17,450 --> 00:26:20,954
  1326. On the rare night
  1327. that my mother would call my father home,
  1328.  
  1329. 305
  1330. 00:26:21,580 --> 00:26:24,249
  1331. we would slowly drive through town
  1332. until we drew to a stop
  1333.  
  1334. 306
  1335. 00:26:24,332 --> 00:26:25,917
  1336. outside of a single lit door.
  1337.  
  1338. 307
  1339. 00:26:26,001 --> 00:26:28,878
  1340. She'd look at me and say,
  1341. "Go in and get your dad."
  1342.  
  1343. 308
  1344. 00:26:30,171 --> 00:26:33,008
  1345. This both thrilled and terrified me.
  1346.  
  1347. 309
  1348. 00:26:33,758 --> 00:26:36,886
  1349. Thrilled me,
  1350. because I had been given the license
  1351.  
  1352. 310
  1353. 00:26:36,970 --> 00:26:37,846
  1354. by my mother,
  1355.  
  1356. 311
  1357. 00:26:38,388 --> 00:26:40,807
  1358. the law...
  1359.  
  1360. 312
  1361. 00:26:40,890 --> 00:26:42,934
  1362. ...to go into the bar!
  1363.  
  1364. 313
  1365. 00:26:43,935 --> 00:26:45,061
  1366. I'm a kid!
  1367.  
  1368. 314
  1369. 00:26:46,313 --> 00:26:48,189
  1370. But it terrified me,
  1371.  
  1372. 315
  1373. 00:26:48,690 --> 00:26:50,358
  1374. because to enter the bar
  1375.  
  1376. 316
  1377. 00:26:50,442 --> 00:26:56,948
  1378. is to enter my father's privileged,
  1379. private, and sacred space.
  1380.  
  1381. 317
  1382. 00:26:57,490 --> 00:27:02,412
  1383. He was not to be disturbed
  1384. when he's down at the bar.
  1385.  
  1386. 318
  1387. 00:27:03,079 --> 00:27:05,665
  1388. Everybody knew that.
  1389.  
  1390. 319
  1391. 00:27:05,749 --> 00:27:07,208
  1392. So, I would walk in.
  1393.  
  1394. 320
  1395. 00:27:07,584 --> 00:27:11,588
  1396. And I was waist-high, and like a Jack
  1397. who climbed some dark beanstalk
  1398.  
  1399. 321
  1400. 00:27:11,671 --> 00:27:12,714
  1401. into a land of giants,
  1402.  
  1403. 322
  1404. 00:27:12,797 --> 00:27:16,635
  1405. all I remember is the men towering
  1406. over me on their way out the door.
  1407.  
  1408. 323
  1409. 00:27:17,052 --> 00:27:19,346
  1410. Now, once you were in,
  1411. to the left against the wall
  1412.  
  1413. 324
  1414. 00:27:19,429 --> 00:27:22,057
  1415. was a line of red leather booths
  1416.  
  1417. 325
  1418. 00:27:22,140 --> 00:27:24,934
  1419. that were filled
  1420. with husband and wife tag team drinkers.
  1421.  
  1422. 326
  1423. 00:27:25,185 --> 00:27:27,687
  1424. Now, they were your hard-core regulars,
  1425.  
  1426. 327
  1427. 00:27:27,771 --> 00:27:30,482
  1428. there night after night
  1429. after night, all right?
  1430.  
  1431. 328
  1432. 00:27:30,565 --> 00:27:32,651
  1433. Now, to the right was the bar,
  1434.  
  1435. 329
  1436. 00:27:33,151 --> 00:27:37,447
  1437. a line of stools filled by a barricade
  1438. of broad working-class backs,
  1439.  
  1440. 330
  1441. 00:27:37,530 --> 00:27:41,618
  1442. clinking glasses, too loud laughter,
  1443. and very few women.
  1444.  
  1445. 331
  1446. 00:27:41,701 --> 00:27:46,081
  1447. I would stand there lost in the noise
  1448. and the hustle of the crowd
  1449.  
  1450. 332
  1451. 00:27:46,164 --> 00:27:50,251
  1452. and I would drink in
  1453. that dim smell of beer
  1454.  
  1455. 333
  1456. 00:27:50,335 --> 00:27:53,046
  1457. and booze and aftershave.
  1458.  
  1459. 334
  1460. 00:27:53,129 --> 00:27:58,051
  1461. That, to a kid,
  1462. that was the scent of adulthood.
  1463.  
  1464. 335
  1465. 00:27:58,510 --> 00:28:01,471
  1466. It was the scent of manhood.
  1467.  
  1468. 336
  1469. 00:28:02,430 --> 00:28:04,599
  1470. I wanted some of that, you know?
  1471.  
  1472. 337
  1473. 00:28:05,016 --> 00:28:09,062
  1474. Finally, somebody would notice me
  1475. and draw me over to my pop.
  1476.  
  1477. 338
  1478. 00:28:09,145 --> 00:28:11,606
  1479. Now, my view from the floor
  1480. was the first thing I'd see
  1481.  
  1482. 339
  1483. 00:28:11,690 --> 00:28:13,817
  1484. is the chrome legs of the barstool.
  1485.  
  1486. 340
  1487. 00:28:13,900 --> 00:28:17,529
  1488. Then I'd see his black shoes,
  1489. white socks, dark green work trousers,
  1490.  
  1491. 341
  1492. 00:28:17,612 --> 00:28:19,072
  1493. powerful legs and haunches.
  1494.  
  1495. 342
  1496. 00:28:19,155 --> 00:28:22,951
  1497. My dad, till the day he died,
  1498. had the legs and an ass of a rhinoceros.
  1499.  
  1500. 343
  1501. 00:28:24,285 --> 00:28:27,789
  1502. And-- and his trousers always looked
  1503. like they were stretched,
  1504.  
  1505. 344
  1506. 00:28:27,872 --> 00:28:31,918
  1507. stretched over those legs and ass somehow.
  1508. I don't know how.
  1509.  
  1510. 345
  1511. 00:28:32,836 --> 00:28:34,921
  1512. He was always busting out, you know?
  1513.  
  1514. 346
  1515. 00:28:35,296 --> 00:28:38,299
  1516. Uh, then I would see
  1517. his black Garrison work belt,
  1518.  
  1519. 347
  1520. 00:28:38,383 --> 00:28:40,093
  1521. his green work shirt, and then his face.
  1522.  
  1523. 348
  1524. 00:28:40,176 --> 00:28:42,679
  1525. By the time I got there,
  1526. his face was flushed red,
  1527.  
  1528. 349
  1529. 00:28:43,430 --> 00:28:45,849
  1530. red as a tomato because he was Irish,
  1531.  
  1532. 350
  1533. 00:28:45,932 --> 00:28:49,227
  1534. and whatever he drank
  1535. went straight to his face.
  1536.  
  1537. 351
  1538. 00:28:49,936 --> 00:28:54,274
  1539. All right? He couldn't hide a thing
  1540. when he came home, you know? Uh...
  1541.  
  1542. 352
  1543. 00:28:54,899 --> 00:28:57,736
  1544. And not only was it red,
  1545. but it was like...
  1546.  
  1547. 353
  1548. 00:28:57,902 --> 00:29:03,867
  1549. ...it was, like, distorted, too,
  1550. into some sort of booze mask, you know,
  1551.  
  1552. 354
  1553. 00:29:03,950 --> 00:29:07,120
  1554. by... by Mr. Schlitz and-- and...
  1555.  
  1556. 355
  1557. 00:29:07,871 --> 00:29:12,500
  1558. It was so foreign to me as a child that,
  1559. uh...
  1560.  
  1561. 356
  1562. 00:29:15,044 --> 00:29:16,337
  1563. He...
  1564.  
  1565. 357
  1566. 00:29:18,089 --> 00:29:19,966
  1567. Fuck, I don't know!
  1568.  
  1569. 358
  1570. 00:29:20,049 --> 00:29:23,887
  1571. But it was scary, and he'd be peering
  1572. down over his shoulder,
  1573.  
  1574. 359
  1575. 00:29:24,220 --> 00:29:27,348
  1576. down through cigarette smoke
  1577. and he'd be looking at me like,
  1578.  
  1579. 360
  1580. 00:29:28,016 --> 00:29:30,477
  1581. "I've never seen you before
  1582. in my fuckin' life."
  1583.  
  1584. 361
  1585. 00:29:36,816 --> 00:29:40,028
  1586. I'd then uttered the immortal words
  1587. that I was sent to deliver,
  1588.  
  1589. 362
  1590. 00:29:41,196 --> 00:29:42,906
  1591. "Mom wants you to come home."
  1592.  
  1593. 363
  1594. 00:29:45,825 --> 00:29:50,121
  1595. I'd hear, "Go outside.
  1596. I will be right out."
  1597.  
  1598. 364
  1599. 00:29:50,580 --> 00:29:54,375
  1600. And I would follow my breadcrumb trail
  1601. back out the barroom door,
  1602.  
  1603. 365
  1604. 00:29:54,709 --> 00:29:59,506
  1605. I would hop into the backseat
  1606. and I would inform my mother...
  1607.  
  1608. 366
  1609. 00:30:02,425 --> 00:30:05,470
  1610. "Um, he'll be right out.
  1611. He'll be right out."
  1612.  
  1613. 367
  1614. 00:33:31,843 --> 00:33:35,221
  1615. Now, those whose love we wanted
  1616. but didn't get,
  1617.  
  1618. 368
  1619. 00:33:36,180 --> 00:33:37,473
  1620. we emulate them.
  1621.  
  1622. 369
  1623. 00:33:38,850 --> 00:33:41,769
  1624. It's the only way we have in our power
  1625.  
  1626. 370
  1627. 00:33:43,479 --> 00:33:46,983
  1628. to get the closeness and the love
  1629. that we needed and desired.
  1630.  
  1631. 371
  1632. 00:33:47,442 --> 00:33:49,861
  1633. So, when I was a young man
  1634. and looking for a voice
  1635.  
  1636. 372
  1637. 00:33:49,944 --> 00:33:53,948
  1638. to meld with mine, to sing my songs,
  1639. and to tell my stories,
  1640.  
  1641. 373
  1642. 00:33:54,032 --> 00:33:56,075
  1643. well, I chose my father's voice.
  1644.  
  1645. 374
  1646. 00:33:58,578 --> 00:34:01,205
  1647. Because there was something sacred
  1648. in it to me.
  1649.  
  1650. 375
  1651. 00:34:02,540 --> 00:34:05,001
  1652. When I went looking for something to wear,
  1653.  
  1654. 376
  1655. 00:34:05,460 --> 00:34:07,879
  1656. I put on a factory worker's clothes,
  1657.  
  1658. 377
  1659. 00:34:08,504 --> 00:34:10,590
  1660. because they were my dad's clothes.
  1661.  
  1662. 378
  1663. 00:34:14,177 --> 00:34:17,013
  1664. And all we know about manhood
  1665. is what we have seen
  1666.  
  1667. 379
  1668. 00:34:17,096 --> 00:34:18,306
  1669. and what we have learned
  1670.  
  1671. 380
  1672. 00:34:18,389 --> 00:34:22,477
  1673. from our fathers,
  1674. and my father was my hero
  1675.  
  1676. 381
  1677. 00:34:23,895 --> 00:34:25,396
  1678. and my greatest foe.
  1679.  
  1680. 382
  1681. 00:34:28,524 --> 00:34:31,819
  1682. Not long after he died, I had this dream.
  1683.  
  1684. 383
  1685. 00:34:31,903 --> 00:34:33,946
  1686. I'm on stage,
  1687. I'm in front of thousands of people
  1688.  
  1689. 384
  1690. 00:34:34,030 --> 00:34:37,075
  1691. and my dad's back from the dead,
  1692. and he's sitting in the audience.
  1693.  
  1694. 385
  1695. 00:34:37,158 --> 00:34:40,203
  1696. And suddenly, I'm kneeling next to him
  1697. in the aisle.
  1698.  
  1699. 386
  1700. 00:34:41,287 --> 00:34:45,166
  1701. And for a moment,
  1702. we both watch the man on fire on stage.
  1703.  
  1704. 387
  1705. 00:34:51,798 --> 00:34:53,174
  1706. And then, to my dad, who for years,
  1707.  
  1708. 388
  1709. 00:34:53,508 --> 00:34:56,344
  1710. he sat at that kitchen table, unreachable,
  1711.  
  1712. 389
  1713. 00:34:58,096 --> 00:34:59,555
  1714. in what I was too young
  1715.  
  1716. 390
  1717. 00:34:59,639 --> 00:35:02,809
  1718. and I was too stupid
  1719. to understand was his depression.
  1720.  
  1721. 391
  1722. 00:35:04,727 --> 00:35:06,896
  1723. Well, I kneel next to him in the aisle...
  1724.  
  1725. 392
  1726. 00:35:07,814 --> 00:35:09,398
  1727. and I brush his forearm...
  1728.  
  1729. 393
  1730. 00:35:11,317 --> 00:35:12,902
  1731. and I say, "Look, Dad,
  1732.  
  1733. 394
  1734. 00:35:13,820 --> 00:35:15,363
  1735. that guy on stage.
  1736.  
  1737. 395
  1738. 00:35:18,533 --> 00:35:20,076
  1739. That's how I see you."
  1740.  
  1741. 396
  1742. 00:36:28,644 --> 00:36:31,439
  1743. Now, my mom
  1744. was a different story altogether.
  1745.  
  1746. 397
  1747. 00:36:32,648 --> 00:36:35,776
  1748. I'm gonna release you
  1749. from suicide watch right now.
  1750.  
  1751. 398
  1752. 00:36:39,113 --> 00:36:40,990
  1753. Snap out of it! Come on.
  1754.  
  1755. 399
  1756. 00:36:42,617 --> 00:36:44,577
  1757. Because my mother was bright, happy.
  1758.  
  1759. 400
  1760. 00:36:44,660 --> 00:36:47,246
  1761. She'd merrily make conversation
  1762. with a broom handle.
  1763.  
  1764. 401
  1765. 00:36:47,622 --> 00:36:51,834
  1766. She believed that there was good faith,
  1767. good heart, good hope in all citizens.
  1768.  
  1769. 402
  1770. 00:36:52,126 --> 00:36:56,172
  1771. She gave the world a lot more credit,
  1772. perhaps, than it deserves,
  1773.  
  1774. 403
  1775. 00:36:56,255 --> 00:36:57,757
  1776. but that was her way.
  1777.  
  1778. 404
  1779. 00:36:57,840 --> 00:36:59,926
  1780. Now, on school mornings-- I hated school.
  1781.  
  1782. 405
  1783. 00:37:00,009 --> 00:37:01,886
  1784. That's just Rock Star 101.
  1785.  
  1786. 406
  1787. 00:37:05,556 --> 00:37:07,558
  1788. If you don't hate school in my business,
  1789.  
  1790. 407
  1791. 00:37:07,642 --> 00:37:10,019
  1792. please keep your fucking day job,
  1793. all right?
  1794.  
  1795. 408
  1796. 00:37:11,437 --> 00:37:14,732
  1797. Because it's a sign.
  1798. It's a sign that, brother,
  1799.  
  1800. 409
  1801. 00:37:14,815 --> 00:37:17,860
  1802. you're going nowhere, man. Nowhere.
  1803.  
  1804. 410
  1805. 00:37:18,236 --> 00:37:20,947
  1806. You need to have hatred in your heart
  1807.  
  1808. 411
  1809. 00:37:21,697 --> 00:37:24,116
  1810. to get to the top where I am, all right?
  1811.  
  1812. 412
  1813. 00:37:24,575 --> 00:37:27,411
  1814. You've got to hate, all right? Uh...
  1815.  
  1816. 413
  1817. 00:37:27,870 --> 00:37:29,497
  1818. So, of course I hated getting up.
  1819.  
  1820. 414
  1821. 00:37:29,580 --> 00:37:32,583
  1822. And, uh, my mom had perfected
  1823. this technique in the morning
  1824.  
  1825. 415
  1826. 00:37:32,667 --> 00:37:35,169
  1827. where she'd stand over my bed
  1828. with a glass of ice water
  1829.  
  1830. 416
  1831. 00:37:35,253 --> 00:37:36,337
  1832. and give me 30 seconds.
  1833.  
  1834. 417
  1835. 00:37:37,213 --> 00:37:39,840
  1836. You know, "Five, four, three, two..."
  1837.  
  1838. 418
  1839. 00:37:39,924 --> 00:37:42,260
  1840. Boom! Niagara Falls.
  1841.  
  1842. 419
  1843. 00:37:42,760 --> 00:37:46,138
  1844. I would get dressed,
  1845. I would drift downstairs to breakfast,
  1846.  
  1847. 420
  1848. 00:37:46,222 --> 00:37:51,060
  1849. where I would feast daily
  1850. on a huge bowl of Sugar Pops.
  1851.  
  1852. 421
  1853. 00:37:52,270 --> 00:37:53,729
  1854. A fine product...
  1855.  
  1856. 422
  1857. 00:37:54,981 --> 00:37:57,316
  1858. ...with just one problem.
  1859.  
  1860. 423
  1861. 00:37:58,234 --> 00:38:00,695
  1862. They don't put enough sugar
  1863. in those Sugar Pops.
  1864.  
  1865. 424
  1866. 00:38:01,362 --> 00:38:04,907
  1867. So, I wasn't content
  1868. until I snowed more sugar
  1869.  
  1870. 425
  1871. 00:38:04,991 --> 00:38:08,619
  1872. on my Sugar Pops
  1873. until they looked like the Himalayas.
  1874.  
  1875. 426
  1876. 00:38:08,995 --> 00:38:12,873
  1877. - And then... Mmm!
  1878. - "Good!"
  1879.  
  1880. 427
  1881. 00:38:13,249 --> 00:38:16,919
  1882. With a buzz on and a kiss from my mom,
  1883.  
  1884. 428
  1885. 00:38:17,003 --> 00:38:18,296
  1886. I was off
  1887.  
  1888. 429
  1889. 00:38:19,005 --> 00:38:22,633
  1890. with my sister, lumbering up the street
  1891. with our book bags
  1892.  
  1893. 430
  1894. 00:38:23,175 --> 00:38:25,928
  1895. as my mom's high heels clicked lightly
  1896. in the other direction
  1897.  
  1898. 431
  1899. 00:38:26,012 --> 00:38:28,973
  1900. toward Lawyers Title Insurance Company
  1901. in town center.
  1902.  
  1903. 432
  1904. 00:38:29,056 --> 00:38:30,558
  1905. She was a legal secretary.
  1906.  
  1907. 433
  1908. 00:38:30,891 --> 00:38:33,477
  1909. That was the job she did
  1910. since the day she got out of high school,
  1911.  
  1912. 434
  1913. 00:38:33,561 --> 00:38:35,021
  1914. 50 years that followed.
  1915.  
  1916. 435
  1917. 00:38:35,104 --> 00:38:38,566
  1918. Goes to work, doesn't miss a day,
  1919. never sick,
  1920.  
  1921. 436
  1922. 00:38:38,649 --> 00:38:41,027
  1923. never down, never complains.
  1924.  
  1925. 437
  1926. 00:38:41,110 --> 00:38:43,279
  1927. Work doesn't appear to be a burden
  1928. for her,
  1929.  
  1930. 438
  1931. 00:38:43,362 --> 00:38:46,282
  1932. but it's a source of energy
  1933. and of social pleasure.
  1934.  
  1935. 439
  1936. 00:38:46,866 --> 00:38:49,910
  1937. Now, some evenings, I would meet my mother
  1938. at closing time,
  1939.  
  1940. 440
  1941. 00:38:49,994 --> 00:38:52,872
  1942. and we would be the last
  1943. to leave the office,
  1944.  
  1945. 441
  1946. 00:38:52,955 --> 00:38:55,541
  1947. and this was always a great privilege
  1948. to me.
  1949.  
  1950. 442
  1951. 00:38:56,167 --> 00:38:59,128
  1952. I would have my mother all to myself.
  1953.  
  1954. 443
  1955. 00:38:59,503 --> 00:39:02,006
  1956. And with the building empty,
  1957. her high heels would echo
  1958.  
  1959. 444
  1960. 00:39:02,089 --> 00:39:04,383
  1961. down the long linoleum hallway.
  1962.  
  1963. 445
  1964. 00:39:04,717 --> 00:39:08,554
  1965. And with the fluorescent lights out,
  1966. lawyers' cubicles empty,
  1967.  
  1968. 446
  1969. 00:39:08,637 --> 00:39:12,725
  1970. secretaries' desks empty,
  1971. typewriters covered,
  1972.  
  1973. 447
  1974. 00:39:13,100 --> 00:39:18,481
  1975. silent, the building was so still
  1976. after all the noise of the day.
  1977.  
  1978. 448
  1979. 00:39:18,564 --> 00:39:22,234
  1980. You know, it was so--
  1981. It got so quiet, it was as if...
  1982.  
  1983. 449
  1984. 00:39:23,194 --> 00:39:28,366
  1985. It-- It was as if the building itself
  1986. was resting
  1987.  
  1988. 450
  1989. 00:39:28,991 --> 00:39:32,578
  1990. after a long day of service
  1991. in the interests of our town.
  1992.  
  1993. 451
  1994. 00:39:33,788 --> 00:39:35,831
  1995. And then suddenly,
  1996. we'd be through the front door
  1997.  
  1998. 452
  1999. 00:39:35,915 --> 00:39:37,166
  2000. and out on Main Street
  2001.  
  2002. 453
  2003. 00:39:37,249 --> 00:39:40,586
  2004. in the five o'clock rush hour,
  2005. and she would stride along,
  2006.  
  2007. 454
  2008. 00:39:41,003 --> 00:39:45,549
  2009. statuesque, and I would be running
  2010. alongside her just...
  2011.  
  2012. 455
  2013. 00:39:46,550 --> 00:39:49,261
  2014. trying to keep up and I would be,
  2015. you know, looking up at her.
  2016.  
  2017. 456
  2018. 00:39:49,345 --> 00:39:52,681
  2019. And, uh, it's a sight
  2020. that I've never, never forgotten.
  2021.  
  2022. 457
  2023. 00:39:53,516 --> 00:39:55,851
  2024. My mother walking home from work.
  2025.  
  2026. 458
  2027. 00:39:56,644 --> 00:39:57,853
  2028. It had some...
  2029.  
  2030. 459
  2031. 00:40:02,233 --> 00:40:04,443
  2032. just some eternal impact on me.
  2033.  
  2034. 460
  2035. 00:40:05,403 --> 00:40:06,445
  2036. You know? Uh...
  2037.  
  2038. 461
  2039. 00:40:07,154 --> 00:40:10,574
  2040. She-- She always had
  2041. these very ethnic features.
  2042.  
  2043. 462
  2044. 00:40:10,658 --> 00:40:11,575
  2045. She had...
  2046.  
  2047. 463
  2048. 00:40:12,118 --> 00:40:15,121
  2049. coal-black hair, Italian olive skin,
  2050. and when she was young,
  2051.  
  2052. 464
  2053. 00:40:15,204 --> 00:40:18,082
  2054. she wore that red lipstick
  2055. that was very fashionable
  2056.  
  2057. 465
  2058. 00:40:18,582 --> 00:40:19,792
  2059. in the '50s.
  2060.  
  2061. 466
  2062. 00:40:20,334 --> 00:40:23,421
  2063. And she'd be looking down at me
  2064. with a look that, for me,
  2065.  
  2066. 467
  2067. 00:40:23,754 --> 00:40:26,966
  2068. was like the grace of Mary, you know?
  2069.  
  2070. 468
  2071. 00:40:27,049 --> 00:40:30,928
  2072. Made me understand,
  2073. for the first time, how good it feels
  2074.  
  2075. 469
  2076. 00:40:31,929 --> 00:40:34,390
  2077. to feel pride in somebody that you love,
  2078.  
  2079. 470
  2080. 00:40:35,516 --> 00:40:37,226
  2081. and who loves you back.
  2082.  
  2083. 471
  2084. 00:40:38,644 --> 00:40:41,647
  2085. You know, she let the town know
  2086. that we are handsome,
  2087.  
  2088. 472
  2089. 00:40:41,730 --> 00:40:45,109
  2090. responsible members
  2091. of this shit-dog burgh,
  2092.  
  2093. 473
  2094. 00:40:45,192 --> 00:40:47,194
  2095. pulling our own individual weight
  2096.  
  2097. 474
  2098. 00:40:47,278 --> 00:40:50,489
  2099. doing what has to be done
  2100. day after day.
  2101.  
  2102. 475
  2103. 00:40:50,573 --> 00:40:53,659
  2104. We have a place here that we have earned!
  2105.  
  2106. 476
  2107. 00:40:54,535 --> 00:40:58,956
  2108. And we have a reason to open our eyes
  2109. at the break of each day
  2110.  
  2111. 477
  2112. 00:40:59,039 --> 00:41:02,084
  2113. and breathe in a life
  2114. that's steady and good.
  2115.  
  2116. 478
  2117. 00:41:04,545 --> 00:41:08,549
  2118. Now, my mom was truthfulness,
  2119. consistency, good humor,
  2120.  
  2121. 479
  2122. 00:41:08,924 --> 00:41:13,512
  2123. professionalism, grace,
  2124. kindness, optimism, civility,
  2125.  
  2126. 480
  2127. 00:41:13,888 --> 00:41:16,307
  2128. fairness, pride in yourself,
  2129.  
  2130. 481
  2131. 00:41:16,390 --> 00:41:19,810
  2132. responsibility,
  2133. love, faith in your family,
  2134.  
  2135. 482
  2136. 00:41:20,311 --> 00:41:23,981
  2137. commitment, joy in your work,
  2138. and a never-say-die thirst
  2139.  
  2140. 483
  2141. 00:41:24,064 --> 00:41:27,109
  2142. for living, for living and for life.
  2143.  
  2144. 484
  2145. 00:41:27,860 --> 00:41:31,113
  2146. And most importantly, for dancing.
  2147.  
  2148. 485
  2149. 00:41:31,947 --> 00:41:36,744
  2150. My mother and her two sisters
  2151. were dancing machines, all right?
  2152.  
  2153. 486
  2154. 00:41:37,244 --> 00:41:40,456
  2155. They grew up in the '40s
  2156. with the big bands and the swing bands
  2157.  
  2158. 487
  2159. 00:41:40,539 --> 00:41:43,584
  2160. and they--
  2161. they learned to jitterbug and-- and...
  2162.  
  2163. 488
  2164. 00:41:47,046 --> 00:41:49,465
  2165. It was in their bones, you know?
  2166.  
  2167. 489
  2168. 00:41:49,882 --> 00:41:53,552
  2169. My mom is seven years into Alzheimer's.
  2170.  
  2171. 490
  2172. 00:41:55,221 --> 00:41:56,764
  2173. And she's 93.
  2174.  
  2175. 491
  2176. 00:41:57,640 --> 00:42:01,894
  2177. But dancing and the desire
  2178. and need to dance is something that...
  2179.  
  2180. 492
  2181. 00:42:02,144 --> 00:42:03,771
  2182. it hasn't left her.
  2183.  
  2184. 493
  2185. 00:42:04,855 --> 00:42:08,317
  2186. Remains an essential,
  2187. primal part of who she is.
  2188.  
  2189. 494
  2190. 00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:11,987
  2191. It's beyond language.
  2192. It's more powerful than memory.
  2193.  
  2194. 495
  2195. 00:42:12,655 --> 00:42:16,742
  2196. And when she comes in the door,
  2197. we make sure there's music on.
  2198.  
  2199. 496
  2200. 00:42:18,244 --> 00:42:20,621
  2201. She wants to dance, you know?
  2202.  
  2203. 497
  2204. 00:42:21,622 --> 00:42:24,500
  2205. Uh, these things were the embodiment
  2206. of my mother.
  2207.  
  2208. 498
  2209. 00:42:24,583 --> 00:42:25,793
  2210. They were her heart.
  2211.  
  2212. 499
  2213. 00:42:25,876 --> 00:42:30,673
  2214. She carried on and she carries on
  2215. as if they never,
  2216.  
  2217. 500
  2218. 00:42:32,091 --> 00:42:33,551
  2219. never deserted her.
  2220.  
  2221. 501
  2222. 00:47:03,278 --> 00:47:06,198
  2223. There's nothing like being young
  2224. and leaving someplace.
  2225.  
  2226. 502
  2227. 00:47:07,115 --> 00:47:09,785
  2228. That was a feeling that, oh,
  2229.  
  2230. 503
  2231. 00:47:10,536 --> 00:47:11,578
  2232. I loved.
  2233.  
  2234. 504
  2235. 00:47:12,079 --> 00:47:14,289
  2236. Maybe that's why I became a musician.
  2237.  
  2238. 505
  2239. 00:47:15,082 --> 00:47:16,250
  2240. Um...
  2241.  
  2242. 506
  2243. 00:47:17,167 --> 00:47:19,378
  2244. Sleep late, stay up late.
  2245.  
  2246. 507
  2247. 00:47:20,254 --> 00:47:22,089
  2248. And you do an awful lot of leaving.
  2249.  
  2250. 508
  2251. 00:47:23,423 --> 00:47:25,717
  2252. Night I left Freehold for the last time,
  2253.  
  2254. 509
  2255. 00:47:26,802 --> 00:47:29,346
  2256. I laid back on the couch,
  2257. it was perched high atop a load
  2258.  
  2259. 510
  2260. 00:47:29,429 --> 00:47:30,764
  2261. of the band's junk furniture
  2262.  
  2263. 511
  2264. 00:47:30,848 --> 00:47:34,560
  2265. in the back of an open flatbed truck
  2266. on a beautiful summer night.
  2267.  
  2268. 512
  2269. 00:47:35,018 --> 00:47:36,937
  2270. I was 19 years old.
  2271.  
  2272. 513
  2273. 00:47:37,229 --> 00:47:41,441
  2274. Ooh... that felt pretty good.
  2275.  
  2276. 514
  2277. 00:47:41,525 --> 00:47:44,903
  2278. Soft ocean breeze of the shore
  2279. was reaching all the way inland.
  2280.  
  2281. 515
  2282. 00:47:44,987 --> 00:47:46,738
  2283. And as we drew through town,
  2284.  
  2285. 516
  2286. 00:47:46,822 --> 00:47:48,490
  2287. for the very last time,
  2288.  
  2289. 517
  2290. 00:47:49,366 --> 00:47:51,285
  2291. we were stopped by the police...
  2292.  
  2293. 518
  2294. 00:47:53,245 --> 00:47:57,332
  2295. ...who informed us that there was a law
  2296. against moving after dark.
  2297.  
  2298. 519
  2299. 00:48:01,253 --> 00:48:05,340
  2300. What the fuck?
  2301.  
  2302. 520
  2303. 00:48:06,049 --> 00:48:08,343
  2304. Who the fuck would know that?
  2305.  
  2306. 521
  2307. 00:48:08,760 --> 00:48:10,888
  2308. Don't move your shit after dark?
  2309.  
  2310. 522
  2311. 00:48:11,722 --> 00:48:14,892
  2312. What are we running off with,
  2313. Freehold's great antiquities?
  2314.  
  2315. 523
  2316. 00:48:16,018 --> 00:48:17,603
  2317. The sun goes down,
  2318.  
  2319. 524
  2320. 00:48:19,062 --> 00:48:21,440
  2321. they'll bust your ass in Freehold, son.
  2322.  
  2323. 525
  2324. 00:48:22,733 --> 00:48:24,902
  2325. Anyway, they, uh...
  2326. They sent us on our way.
  2327.  
  2328. 526
  2329. 00:48:24,985 --> 00:48:27,070
  2330. Glad to be rid of the town hippies,
  2331. I guess.
  2332.  
  2333. 527
  2334. 00:48:27,154 --> 00:48:28,864
  2335. And so, I lay back on my couch
  2336.  
  2337. 528
  2338. 00:48:28,947 --> 00:48:30,866
  2339. and I was watching
  2340. the tree branches rush above me
  2341.  
  2342. 529
  2343. 00:48:30,949 --> 00:48:34,077
  2344. and the stars scrolling in the night sky,
  2345. and I remember
  2346.  
  2347. 530
  2348. 00:48:34,453 --> 00:48:36,246
  2349. I felt absolutely wonderful.
  2350.  
  2351. 531
  2352. 00:48:36,580 --> 00:48:38,665
  2353. I had nothing, no parents.
  2354.  
  2355. 532
  2356. 00:48:38,749 --> 00:48:41,960
  2357. They had moved away
  2358. with my little sister Pam
  2359.  
  2360. 533
  2361. 00:48:42,544 --> 00:48:45,047
  2362. to California in 1969.
  2363.  
  2364. 534
  2365. 00:48:45,756 --> 00:48:49,301
  2366. My sister Virginia,
  2367. great soul that she is,
  2368.  
  2369. 535
  2370. 00:48:49,384 --> 00:48:52,304
  2371. she got pregnant and had a baby at 18.
  2372.  
  2373. 536
  2374. 00:48:52,387 --> 00:48:55,891
  2375. She left high school,
  2376. married a competitive bull rider
  2377.  
  2378. 537
  2379. 00:48:56,850 --> 00:48:59,269
  2380. and they moved into the wilds
  2381. of southern New Jersey,
  2382.  
  2383. 538
  2384. 00:48:59,353 --> 00:49:01,563
  2385. because that's where the cowboys live.
  2386.  
  2387. 539
  2388. 00:49:01,647 --> 00:49:03,023
  2389. I ain't kidding.
  2390.  
  2391. 540
  2392. 00:49:03,106 --> 00:49:05,901
  2393. The real joke is, 50 years later,
  2394.  
  2395. 541
  2396. 00:49:05,984 --> 00:49:08,862
  2397. they're still together
  2398. and they still go to the rodeo.
  2399.  
  2400. 542
  2401. 00:49:12,282 --> 00:49:16,161
  2402. Well, I had no money and no family
  2403. and no realistic future.
  2404.  
  2405. 543
  2406. 00:49:16,244 --> 00:49:20,916
  2407. But yet, I remember laying on that couch
  2408. with the summer wind rushing over me
  2409.  
  2410. 544
  2411. 00:49:20,999 --> 00:49:26,463
  2412. and, you know,
  2413. that-- that saltwater smell in the air
  2414.  
  2415. 545
  2416. 00:49:26,546 --> 00:49:28,757
  2417. of the shore coming on, and thinking...
  2418.  
  2419. 546
  2420. 00:49:29,758 --> 00:49:31,218
  2421. I was just happy.
  2422.  
  2423. 547
  2424. 00:49:31,843 --> 00:49:33,011
  2425. I was happy.
  2426.  
  2427. 548
  2428. 00:49:33,512 --> 00:49:37,474
  2429. I got it all, you know?
  2430. Maybe I did, you know?
  2431.  
  2432. 549
  2433. 00:49:38,225 --> 00:49:41,853
  2434. Maybe there's nothing like that moment
  2435. in your life of being young and...
  2436.  
  2437. 550
  2438. 00:49:42,312 --> 00:49:45,023
  2439. leaving someplace,
  2440. all that youthful freedom.
  2441.  
  2442. 551
  2443. 00:49:45,565 --> 00:49:49,069
  2444. You feel-- Finally being untethered
  2445. from everything you've ever known:
  2446.  
  2447. 552
  2448. 00:49:49,152 --> 00:49:51,655
  2449. the life you've lived, your past,
  2450. your parents,
  2451.  
  2452. 553
  2453. 00:49:51,738 --> 00:49:54,992
  2454. the world you've gotten used to
  2455. and that you've loved and hated.
  2456.  
  2457. 554
  2458. 00:49:55,242 --> 00:49:58,120
  2459. Your life laying before you
  2460. like a blank page.
  2461.  
  2462. 555
  2463. 00:49:58,537 --> 00:50:00,664
  2464. It's the one thing I miss
  2465. about getting older,
  2466.  
  2467. 556
  2468. 00:50:00,747 --> 00:50:05,293
  2469. I miss the beauty of that blank page.
  2470.  
  2471. 557
  2472. 00:50:06,253 --> 00:50:08,171
  2473. So much life in front of you.
  2474.  
  2475. 558
  2476. 00:50:08,714 --> 00:50:12,342
  2477. Its promise, its possibilities,
  2478. its mysteries, its adventures.
  2479.  
  2480. 559
  2481. 00:50:13,093 --> 00:50:14,553
  2482. That blank page...
  2483.  
  2484. 560
  2485. 00:50:16,054 --> 00:50:17,389
  2486. just laying there.
  2487.  
  2488. 561
  2489. 00:50:20,100 --> 00:50:21,810
  2490. Daring you to write on it.
  2491.  
  2492. 562
  2493. 00:55:51,056 --> 00:55:53,975
  2494. So... So, I'm 20 years old
  2495.  
  2496. 563
  2497. 00:55:54,434 --> 00:55:56,186
  2498. and I'm living and playing
  2499. on the Jersey Shore
  2500.  
  2501. 564
  2502. 00:55:56,269 --> 00:55:58,021
  2503. and I'm waiting to be discovered.
  2504.  
  2505. 565
  2506. 00:55:58,938 --> 00:56:01,483
  2507. Now, I have some confidence.
  2508.  
  2509. 566
  2510. 00:56:02,192 --> 00:56:03,651
  2511. I've been around a bit.
  2512.  
  2513. 567
  2514. 00:56:04,611 --> 00:56:05,862
  2515. And without a doubt,
  2516.  
  2517. 568
  2518. 00:56:06,404 --> 00:56:08,740
  2519. I am definitely the best thing
  2520. that I've ever seen.
  2521.  
  2522. 569
  2523. 00:56:10,825 --> 00:56:14,079
  2524. I've already played in front
  2525. of every conceivable audience.
  2526.  
  2527. 570
  2528. 00:56:14,621 --> 00:56:16,664
  2529. I have played firemen's fairs,
  2530.  
  2531. 571
  2532. 00:56:16,915 --> 00:56:20,877
  2533. midnight madness, supermarket openings,
  2534. drive-in movies,
  2535.  
  2536. 572
  2537. 00:56:21,169 --> 00:56:24,339
  2538. uh, in front of the concession stand
  2539. in between films.
  2540.  
  2541. 573
  2542. 00:56:24,756 --> 00:56:27,008
  2543. I've played beach parties,
  2544. officers' clubs,
  2545.  
  2546. 574
  2547. 00:56:27,092 --> 00:56:28,676
  2548. pizza parlors, coffee shops,
  2549.  
  2550. 575
  2551. 00:56:28,760 --> 00:56:32,389
  2552. bowling alleys, trailer parks,
  2553. roller rinks, VFW halls,
  2554.  
  2555. 576
  2556. 00:56:32,514 --> 00:56:36,267
  2557. CYO canteens, the Elks Lodge,
  2558. YMCA gymnasiums,
  2559.  
  2560. 577
  2561. 00:56:36,351 --> 00:56:40,397
  2562. hockey rinks, county fairs, carnivals,
  2563. high school dances, weddings,
  2564.  
  2565. 578
  2566. 00:56:40,688 --> 00:56:43,483
  2567. fraternity parties,
  2568. bar mitzvahs...
  2569.  
  2570. 579
  2571. 00:56:43,566 --> 00:56:47,278
  2572. ...soul revues, battle of the bands,
  2573.  
  2574. 580
  2575. 00:56:47,362 --> 00:56:51,783
  2576. Sing Sing Prison,
  2577. and Marlboro Psychiatric Hospital.
  2578.  
  2579. 581
  2580. 00:56:58,873 --> 00:57:02,794
  2581. Send me your murderers and your maniacs
  2582. and let me entertain them, all right?
  2583.  
  2584. 582
  2585. 00:57:03,211 --> 00:57:05,964
  2586. That's what I do. That's all true.
  2587.  
  2588. 583
  2589. 00:57:06,047 --> 00:57:08,425
  2590. That's all before I was 23 years old.
  2591.  
  2592. 584
  2593. 00:57:08,508 --> 00:57:10,552
  2594. I'm frustrated. I listen to the radio
  2595.  
  2596. 585
  2597. 00:57:10,635 --> 00:57:13,096
  2598. and I think, "I'm as good as that guy.
  2599.  
  2600. 586
  2601. 00:57:13,179 --> 00:57:14,764
  2602. I'm better than that guy.
  2603.  
  2604. 587
  2605. 00:57:15,056 --> 00:57:16,474
  2606. So why not me?"
  2607.  
  2608. 588
  2609. 00:57:17,183 --> 00:57:23,148
  2610. Because I live
  2611. in the fucking boondocks, all right?
  2612.  
  2613. 589
  2614. 00:57:23,898 --> 00:57:26,943
  2615. Let me explain this to you.
  2616. I live in the boondocks.
  2617.  
  2618. 590
  2619. 00:57:27,026 --> 00:57:31,197
  2620. There's nobody here,
  2621. and no one comes down here.
  2622.  
  2623. 591
  2624. 00:57:32,365 --> 00:57:33,867
  2625. It's a grave.
  2626.  
  2627. 592
  2628. 00:57:34,701 --> 00:57:40,290
  2629. There was no Jersey, Jersey,
  2630. Jersey Shore, Jersey Almighty shit.
  2631.  
  2632. 593
  2633. 00:57:44,043 --> 00:57:45,920
  2634. I invented that.
  2635.  
  2636. 594
  2637. 00:57:55,054 --> 00:57:56,347
  2638. Before me...
  2639.  
  2640. 595
  2641. 00:57:57,599 --> 00:57:59,559
  2642. Jersey was Jeserkhistan.
  2643.  
  2644. 596
  2645. 00:58:00,894 --> 00:58:02,562
  2646. Jeserkhistan!
  2647.  
  2648. 597
  2649. 00:58:03,396 --> 00:58:07,650
  2650. One of the little -stan things
  2651. that nobody knows a fucking thing about.
  2652.  
  2653. 598
  2654. 00:58:07,901 --> 00:58:08,776
  2655. You know?
  2656.  
  2657. 599
  2658. 00:58:08,860 --> 00:58:13,156
  2659. And New York was a million miles away
  2660.  
  2661. 600
  2662. 00:58:13,239 --> 00:58:16,201
  2663. from the Jersey Shore.
  2664. In my little town as a child,
  2665.  
  2666. 601
  2667. 00:58:16,284 --> 00:58:20,288
  2668. we knew no one who had ever been
  2669. to New York City.
  2670.  
  2671. 602
  2672. 00:58:22,332 --> 00:58:25,627
  2673. Jesus Christ, it was--
  2674. it was only an hour away!
  2675.  
  2676. 603
  2677. 00:58:27,295 --> 00:58:31,090
  2678. But no, you might as well have said
  2679. you're going to the fucking Moon.
  2680.  
  2681. 604
  2682. 00:58:32,258 --> 00:58:35,470
  2683. "Hey, we're going to the Moon,
  2684. you wanna go?" "No, no, no.
  2685.  
  2686. 605
  2687. 00:58:35,845 --> 00:58:37,931
  2688. No, New York. No..."
  2689.  
  2690. 606
  2691. 00:58:38,014 --> 00:58:38,932
  2692. We were provincial.
  2693.  
  2694. 607
  2695. 00:58:39,015 --> 00:58:42,644
  2696. Everybody was afraid
  2697. of the big city.
  2698.  
  2699. 608
  2700. 00:58:43,102 --> 00:58:45,939
  2701. And there was no Internet,
  2702. there was no ET, or MTV,
  2703.  
  2704. 609
  2705. 00:58:46,022 --> 00:58:48,691
  2706. or cable TV, or satellite, or...
  2707.  
  2708. 610
  2709. 00:58:48,775 --> 00:58:52,987
  2710. This is before anyone and everyone's
  2711. ass crack from Anyplace, USA...
  2712.  
  2713. 611
  2714. 00:58:53,738 --> 00:58:55,573
  2715. could be seen all over the world,
  2716.  
  2717. 612
  2718. 00:58:55,657 --> 00:58:59,577
  2719. uh, should they choose,
  2720. in the push of a key, in the next instant.
  2721.  
  2722. 613
  2723. 00:58:59,953 --> 00:59:02,247
  2724. So who was gonna come
  2725. to the Jersey Shore
  2726.  
  2727. 614
  2728. 00:59:03,081 --> 00:59:06,042
  2729. to discover the next big thing in 1971?
  2730.  
  2731. 615
  2732. 00:59:10,046 --> 00:59:11,130
  2733. You're correct.
  2734.  
  2735. 616
  2736. 00:59:16,261 --> 00:59:17,428
  2737. No-fucking-body.
  2738.  
  2739. 617
  2740. 00:59:19,389 --> 00:59:21,599
  2741. All we heard down there
  2742. was the sound of...
  2743.  
  2744. 618
  2745. 00:59:23,017 --> 00:59:24,310
  2746. one hand clapping.
  2747.  
  2748. 619
  2749. 00:59:24,978 --> 00:59:26,521
  2750. Wasn't gonna happen.
  2751.  
  2752. 620
  2753. 00:59:26,604 --> 00:59:27,647
  2754. I had one shot.
  2755.  
  2756. 621
  2757. 00:59:27,730 --> 00:59:29,774
  2758. My girlfriend
  2759. at the time did me a great favor.
  2760.  
  2761. 622
  2762. 00:59:29,857 --> 00:59:32,860
  2763. Brought a guy who had
  2764. a successful recording band
  2765.  
  2766. 623
  2767. 00:59:33,403 --> 00:59:36,614
  2768. down to the Student Prince,
  2769. our club in Asbury Park,
  2770.  
  2771. 624
  2772. 00:59:36,906 --> 00:59:38,408
  2773. to discover us.
  2774.  
  2775. 625
  2776. 00:59:38,491 --> 00:59:42,245
  2777. We got up on a little stage
  2778. in a club that fit 150 people.
  2779.  
  2780. 626
  2781. 00:59:42,328 --> 00:59:43,746
  2782. It was about half full.
  2783.  
  2784. 627
  2785. 00:59:44,080 --> 00:59:45,623
  2786. And we played for this guy
  2787.  
  2788. 628
  2789. 00:59:45,707 --> 00:59:48,501
  2790. like we were at Madison Square Garden.
  2791.  
  2792. 629
  2793. 00:59:48,793 --> 00:59:51,588
  2794. Everything we had, all night long.
  2795.  
  2796. 630
  2797. 00:59:52,547 --> 00:59:56,843
  2798. We played five sets,
  2799. from 9:00 p.m. till 3:00 a.m.
  2800.  
  2801. 631
  2802. 00:59:58,052 --> 01:00:00,888
  2803. At the end of the night,
  2804. I was soaked to my bones.
  2805.  
  2806. 632
  2807. 01:00:00,972 --> 01:00:04,017
  2808. I got off the bandstand,
  2809. this guy walked up to me.
  2810.  
  2811. 633
  2812. 01:00:04,100 --> 01:00:06,477
  2813. He looked me in the eye,
  2814. shook my hand and said,
  2815.  
  2816. 634
  2817. 01:00:06,561 --> 01:00:09,772
  2818. "You guys are the best unsigned band
  2819. I've ever seen."
  2820.  
  2821. 635
  2822. 01:00:11,482 --> 01:00:13,735
  2823. Then he slept with my girlfriend
  2824. and left town.
  2825.  
  2826. 636
  2827. 01:00:21,826 --> 01:00:23,328
  2828. That's the end of that story.
  2829.  
  2830. 637
  2831. 01:00:26,748 --> 01:00:28,041
  2832. It's a sad ending.
  2833.  
  2834. 638
  2835. 01:00:28,124 --> 01:00:30,710
  2836. I mean, I don't--
  2837. But that was enough for me.
  2838.  
  2839. 639
  2840. 01:00:32,211 --> 01:00:34,297
  2841. I gathered together the men...
  2842.  
  2843. 640
  2844. 01:00:35,340 --> 01:00:39,010
  2845. and I said, "Gentlemen,
  2846. we are going to have to leave
  2847.  
  2848. 641
  2849. 01:00:39,260 --> 01:00:43,139
  2850. the confines of the Jersey Shore
  2851.  
  2852. 642
  2853. 01:00:43,806 --> 01:00:46,434
  2854. and venture into parts unknown...
  2855.  
  2856. 643
  2857. 01:00:47,644 --> 01:00:49,354
  2858. if we want to be seen,
  2859.  
  2860. 644
  2861. 01:00:50,063 --> 01:00:53,524
  2862. heard by anybody or discovered."
  2863.  
  2864. 645
  2865. 01:00:54,108 --> 01:00:57,654
  2866. I found a manager, surfboard manufacturer
  2867. from the West Coast--
  2868.  
  2869. 646
  2870. 01:00:57,737 --> 01:01:01,074
  2871. he'd moved East-- by the name
  2872. of Carl Virgil "Tinker" West.
  2873.  
  2874. 647
  2875. 01:01:01,532 --> 01:01:05,912
  2876. Now, together, he,
  2877. Mad Dog Lopez, and myself
  2878.  
  2879. 648
  2880. 01:01:05,995 --> 01:01:08,247
  2881. we lived in the surfboard factory.
  2882.  
  2883. 649
  2884. 01:01:08,831 --> 01:01:13,086
  2885. In the industrial wastelands
  2886. of Wanamassa, New Jersey.
  2887.  
  2888. 650
  2889. 01:01:13,795 --> 01:01:17,465
  2890. Tinker said he had some remaining
  2891. rock 'n' roll contacts in San Francisco.
  2892.  
  2893. 651
  2894. 01:01:17,548 --> 01:01:21,135
  2895. So we all got excited,
  2896. and he said if we could get there,
  2897.  
  2898. 652
  2899. 01:01:21,594 --> 01:01:23,054
  2900. something might happen.
  2901.  
  2902. 653
  2903. 01:01:23,137 --> 01:01:27,433
  2904. So we saved up all our money
  2905. until we had $100.
  2906.  
  2907. 654
  2908. 01:01:27,517 --> 01:01:28,685
  2909. All right?
  2910.  
  2911. 655
  2912. 01:01:28,768 --> 01:01:31,562
  2913. And then me, Danny Federici,
  2914. Mad Dog Lopez,
  2915.  
  2916. 656
  2917. 01:01:31,646 --> 01:01:33,815
  2918. Little Vinnie Roslin, our bass player,
  2919.  
  2920. 657
  2921. 01:01:33,898 --> 01:01:36,275
  2922. rigged out Danny's station wagon
  2923. for the drive.
  2924.  
  2925. 658
  2926. 01:01:36,359 --> 01:01:39,445
  2927. Put a mattress in the back
  2928. for the drivers to spell each other
  2929.  
  2930. 659
  2931. 01:01:39,529 --> 01:01:41,239
  2932. and to sleep in on the way out there.
  2933.  
  2934. 660
  2935. 01:01:41,322 --> 01:01:44,826
  2936. We rigged Tinker's old '40s flatbed
  2937. to carry our equipment
  2938.  
  2939. 661
  2940. 01:01:44,909 --> 01:01:48,246
  2941. and we had three days
  2942. to make it across the country
  2943.  
  2944. 662
  2945. 01:01:48,329 --> 01:01:52,375
  2946. for a New Year's Eve gig
  2947. in Big Sur, California.
  2948.  
  2949. 663
  2950. 01:01:52,458 --> 01:01:54,419
  2951. Now, three days means
  2952.  
  2953. 664
  2954. 01:01:54,794 --> 01:01:57,797
  2955. those are gonna be thousand-mile days.
  2956.  
  2957. 665
  2958. 01:01:58,423 --> 01:02:01,634
  2959. You can make it, but you can't stop.
  2960.  
  2961. 666
  2962. 01:02:02,593 --> 01:02:05,596
  2963. You stop for gas and for nothing else.
  2964.  
  2965. 667
  2966. 01:02:05,972 --> 01:02:11,185
  2967. You drive, drive, drive, drive,
  2968. 72 hours straight.
  2969.  
  2970. 668
  2971. 01:02:11,269 --> 01:02:14,522
  2972. Somebody's driving all the time
  2973. around the clock.
  2974.  
  2975. 669
  2976. 01:02:15,064 --> 01:02:16,858
  2977. Now, of course, we lost Danny
  2978.  
  2979. 670
  2980. 01:02:16,941 --> 01:02:20,027
  2981. and the entire station wagon
  2982. full of drivers
  2983.  
  2984. 671
  2985. 01:02:20,486 --> 01:02:23,448
  2986. in Nashville, Tennessee.
  2987.  
  2988. 672
  2989. 01:02:23,531 --> 01:02:25,658
  2990. Now, there's no cellular phones.
  2991.  
  2992. 673
  2993. 01:02:27,326 --> 01:02:28,786
  2994. Young people, take a moment.
  2995.  
  2996. 674
  2997. 01:02:38,713 --> 01:02:39,964
  2998. Let's try it.
  2999.  
  3000. 675
  3001. 01:02:41,257 --> 01:02:43,634
  3002. Imagine a world
  3003. without the cellular phone.
  3004.  
  3005. 676
  3006. 01:02:44,802 --> 01:02:46,512
  3007. When you lose someone
  3008.  
  3009. 677
  3010. 01:02:46,888 --> 01:02:49,265
  3011. in that world
  3012. without the cellular phone...
  3013.  
  3014. 678
  3015. 01:02:51,017 --> 01:02:52,643
  3016. oh, they're fucking lost.
  3017.  
  3018. 679
  3019. 01:02:57,774 --> 01:02:59,484
  3020. There's no device.
  3021.  
  3022. 680
  3023. 01:02:59,734 --> 01:03:02,779
  3024. You can't get in touch with them.
  3025. They're gone!
  3026.  
  3027. 681
  3028. 01:03:03,196 --> 01:03:04,405
  3029. Out of your life!
  3030.  
  3031. 682
  3032. 01:03:07,533 --> 01:03:08,534
  3033. Into the ether.
  3034.  
  3035. 683
  3036. 01:03:10,620 --> 01:03:13,873
  3037. So now, it's just Tinker and me,
  3038. Tinker's dog,
  3039.  
  3040. 684
  3041. 01:03:14,290 --> 01:03:15,917
  3042. thousands of miles to go,
  3043.  
  3044. 685
  3045. 01:03:16,000 --> 01:03:19,754
  3046. and we got several problems.
  3047. One is I have no license.
  3048.  
  3049. 686
  3050. 01:03:20,129 --> 01:03:23,758
  3051. Second problem is I don't have a clue
  3052. as to how to drive.
  3053.  
  3054. 687
  3055. 01:03:24,550 --> 01:03:26,761
  3056. And by that, I mean the man
  3057.  
  3058. 688
  3059. 01:03:27,178 --> 01:03:30,473
  3060. who would very, very shortly
  3061. write "Racing in the Street"...
  3062.  
  3063. 689
  3064. 01:03:40,191 --> 01:03:41,692
  3065. That's how good I am.
  3066.  
  3067. 690
  3068. 01:03:43,903 --> 01:03:48,241
  3069. Because, at 21,
  3070. I had never driven a fucking block.
  3071.  
  3072. 691
  3073. 01:03:49,951 --> 01:03:51,327
  3074. Around 1:00 or 2:00 a.m.,
  3075.  
  3076. 692
  3077. 01:03:51,410 --> 01:03:54,539
  3078. Tinker's eyes glass over
  3079. and he says, "I'm fried.
  3080.  
  3081. 693
  3082. 01:03:54,622 --> 01:03:57,166
  3083. I need to get some sleep.
  3084. It's your turn to drive."
  3085.  
  3086. 694
  3087. 01:03:57,250 --> 01:03:59,377
  3088. I go, "Tink, I can't drive."
  3089.  
  3090. 695
  3091. 01:03:59,794 --> 01:04:02,171
  3092. He says, "Springsteen,
  3093. there's nothing to it.
  3094.  
  3095. 696
  3096. 01:04:02,547 --> 01:04:05,466
  3097. Idiots all over the world are doing it,
  3098. all right?"
  3099.  
  3100. 697
  3101. 01:04:06,509 --> 01:04:09,262
  3102. He pulls me into a parking lot.
  3103. He puts me behind the wheel.
  3104.  
  3105. 698
  3106. 01:04:09,345 --> 01:04:11,389
  3107. I start grinding gears,
  3108. pumping the clutch,
  3109.  
  3110. 699
  3111. 01:04:11,472 --> 01:04:15,685
  3112. jerking the truck all over the lot--
  3113. It's a 1940s manual transmission.
  3114.  
  3115. 700
  3116. 01:04:15,768 --> 01:04:18,271
  3117. I can't get past first gear!
  3118.  
  3119. 701
  3120. 01:04:19,856 --> 01:04:22,650
  3121. After a moment Tinker says,
  3122. "This isn't going to work,
  3123.  
  3124. 702
  3125. 01:04:22,733 --> 01:04:24,360
  3126. but I got another idea."
  3127.  
  3128. 703
  3129. 01:04:24,443 --> 01:04:26,070
  3130. He gets in the driver's seat.
  3131.  
  3132. 704
  3133. 01:04:26,153 --> 01:04:29,115
  3134. He slips in the clutch.
  3135. He smoothly shifts it into first.
  3136.  
  3137. 705
  3138. 01:04:29,198 --> 01:04:30,825
  3139. He eases out on the clutch.
  3140.  
  3141. 706
  3142. 01:04:30,908 --> 01:04:33,411
  3143. He gets that truck going
  3144. on a sweet little roll,
  3145.  
  3146. 707
  3147. 01:04:33,661 --> 01:04:36,163
  3148. looks at me and says,
  3149. "Now let's switch seats."
  3150.  
  3151. 708
  3152. 01:04:37,748 --> 01:04:39,375
  3153. And that's what we did.
  3154.  
  3155. 709
  3156. 01:04:40,418 --> 01:04:44,088
  3157. I was fine in second, third, and fourth
  3158. and I could keep it in between the lines
  3159.  
  3160. 710
  3161. 01:04:44,171 --> 01:04:48,092
  3162. as long as I didn't have to stop
  3163. or go near first gear.
  3164.  
  3165. 711
  3166. 01:04:48,926 --> 01:04:52,388
  3167. If I've gotta do either of those things,
  3168. I have to wake up Mr. West.
  3169.  
  3170. 712
  3171. 01:04:52,763 --> 01:04:55,933
  3172. All right? Now, it doesn't matter
  3173.  
  3174. 713
  3175. 01:04:56,392 --> 01:04:58,185
  3176. because he's awake anyway,
  3177.  
  3178. 714
  3179. 01:04:58,269 --> 01:05:00,897
  3180. because the guy who can't drive
  3181. is driving!
  3182.  
  3183. 715
  3184. 01:05:03,983 --> 01:05:06,027
  3185. You're not gonna sleep through that!
  3186.  
  3187. 716
  3188. 01:05:07,445 --> 01:05:08,863
  3189. So...
  3190.  
  3191. 717
  3192. 01:05:08,946 --> 01:05:12,074
  3193. You'd be surprised how far
  3194. you can go across this big country
  3195.  
  3196. 718
  3197. 01:05:12,158 --> 01:05:14,285
  3198. without having to stop. You know, it's...
  3199.  
  3200. 719
  3201. 01:05:14,952 --> 01:05:18,623
  3202. it's a long ways between things out there,
  3203.  
  3204. 720
  3205. 01:05:18,998 --> 01:05:20,917
  3206. and, man, I drove my share
  3207.  
  3208. 721
  3209. 01:05:21,417 --> 01:05:23,085
  3210. of 2,000 miles...
  3211.  
  3212. 722
  3213. 01:05:24,253 --> 01:05:26,380
  3214. in second, third, and fourth gear.
  3215.  
  3216. 723
  3217. 01:05:30,092 --> 01:05:31,928
  3218. Without killing anybody.
  3219.  
  3220. 724
  3221. 01:05:34,847 --> 01:05:38,684
  3222. Uh... And we made it on time,
  3223. you know, but, uh...
  3224.  
  3225. 725
  3226. 01:05:39,226 --> 01:05:40,061
  3227. that trip was...
  3228.  
  3229. 726
  3230. 01:05:42,396 --> 01:05:44,899
  3231. ...was where I saw the United States
  3232. at its fullest
  3233.  
  3234. 727
  3235. 01:05:44,982 --> 01:05:49,111
  3236. and as a young man, I was overwhelmed
  3237. by its size and its beauty, and...
  3238.  
  3239. 728
  3240. 01:05:49,195 --> 01:05:51,530
  3241. this is a short piece
  3242. from the book about...
  3243.  
  3244. 729
  3245. 01:05:52,823 --> 01:05:55,409
  3246. riding across the country
  3247. for the very first time.
  3248.  
  3249. 730
  3250. 01:05:59,997 --> 01:06:01,582
  3251. The country was beautiful.
  3252.  
  3253. 731
  3254. 01:06:01,791 --> 01:06:06,921
  3255. And I felt a great elation at the wheel
  3256. as we crossed the western desert at dawn.
  3257.  
  3258. 732
  3259. 01:06:07,755 --> 01:06:11,175
  3260. The deep blue, purple shadowed canyons.
  3261.  
  3262. 733
  3263. 01:06:11,968 --> 01:06:13,970
  3264. The pale yellow morning sky
  3265.  
  3266. 734
  3267. 01:06:14,845 --> 01:06:16,847
  3268. with all of its color drawn out,
  3269.  
  3270. 735
  3271. 01:06:17,848 --> 01:06:20,184
  3272. leaving just
  3273. the black silhouetted mountains
  3274.  
  3275. 736
  3276. 01:06:21,978 --> 01:06:23,521
  3277. in your rearview mirror.
  3278.  
  3279. 737
  3280. 01:06:24,939 --> 01:06:27,400
  3281. Then with the eastern sun rising
  3282. at our backs,
  3283.  
  3284. 738
  3285. 01:06:27,483 --> 01:06:30,987
  3286. the deep reds and the browns
  3287. of the plains and the hills
  3288.  
  3289. 739
  3290. 01:06:31,737 --> 01:06:34,532
  3291. came to life slowly in front of us.
  3292.  
  3293. 740
  3294. 01:06:38,452 --> 01:06:42,957
  3295. Your palms turn salty white
  3296. on the wheel from the aridity.
  3297.  
  3298. 741
  3299. 01:06:43,249 --> 01:06:46,502
  3300. Morning woke the Earth
  3301. into this muted color.
  3302.  
  3303. 742
  3304. 01:06:46,585 --> 01:06:49,255
  3305. And then came the flat light
  3306. of the midday sun
  3307.  
  3308. 743
  3309. 01:06:49,588 --> 01:06:52,800
  3310. and everything stood revealed
  3311. as pure horizon.
  3312.  
  3313. 744
  3314. 01:06:53,968 --> 01:06:57,388
  3315. Just sky, sky, sky, and more sky.
  3316.  
  3317. 745
  3318. 01:06:57,972 --> 01:07:00,391
  3319. Lowering onto two lanes of blacktop
  3320.  
  3321. 746
  3322. 01:07:01,684 --> 01:07:04,562
  3323. and disappearing into nothing.
  3324.  
  3325. 747
  3326. 01:07:06,105 --> 01:07:07,648
  3327. My favorite thing.
  3328.  
  3329. 748
  3330. 01:07:09,400 --> 01:07:12,653
  3331. Then the evening
  3332. with the sun burning red into your eyes
  3333.  
  3334. 749
  3335. 01:07:12,737 --> 01:07:15,906
  3336. and dropping gold
  3337. into the western hills in front of you.
  3338.  
  3339. 750
  3340. 01:07:16,615 --> 01:07:18,576
  3341. All felt like home to me.
  3342.  
  3343. 751
  3344. 01:07:19,952 --> 01:07:23,205
  3345. And I fell into a lasting love affair
  3346. with the desert.
  3347.  
  3348. 752
  3349. 01:11:25,447 --> 01:11:27,408
  3350. So, it's-- it's 1980.
  3351.  
  3352. 753
  3353. 01:11:27,533 --> 01:11:30,953
  3354. I'm 30 years old, I'm on another
  3355. cross-country trip with a buddy of mine
  3356.  
  3357. 754
  3358. 01:11:31,036 --> 01:11:33,497
  3359. and we stop outside of Phoenix to gas up.
  3360.  
  3361. 755
  3362. 01:11:33,580 --> 01:11:35,874
  3363. Go into a small-town drugstore,
  3364.  
  3365. 756
  3366. 01:11:35,958 --> 01:11:38,210
  3367. I'm rifling through a rack
  3368. of paperback books,
  3369.  
  3370. 757
  3371. 01:11:38,294 --> 01:11:41,130
  3372. I come across a book
  3373. called  Born on the Fourth of July
  3374.  
  3375. 758
  3376. 01:11:41,338 --> 01:11:44,174
  3377. by a Vietnam veteran named Ron Kovic.
  3378.  
  3379. 759
  3380. 01:11:44,258 --> 01:11:46,719
  3381. Now, his book was a testimony
  3382. of the experience
  3383.  
  3384. 760
  3385. 01:11:46,802 --> 01:11:50,055
  3386. that he'd had as a combat infantryman
  3387. in Southeast Asia.
  3388.  
  3389. 761
  3390. 01:11:50,556 --> 01:11:51,932
  3391. A week or two later,
  3392.  
  3393. 762
  3394. 01:11:52,725 --> 01:11:56,854
  3395. I'm bunked in at the fabulous
  3396. Sunset Marquis motel in Los Angeles.
  3397.  
  3398. 763
  3399. 01:11:57,354 --> 01:12:00,774
  3400. Uh-- For the uninformed,
  3401. it's kind of an upscale,
  3402.  
  3403. 764
  3404. 01:12:00,858 --> 01:12:03,694
  3405. lowlife rock star hangout, all right?
  3406.  
  3407. 765
  3408. 01:12:03,777 --> 01:12:05,529
  3409. Uh, small world theory.
  3410.  
  3411. 766
  3412. 01:12:06,030 --> 01:12:08,324
  3413. Small world theory proves itself
  3414. once again.
  3415.  
  3416. 767
  3417. 01:12:08,407 --> 01:12:10,409
  3418. I'd been seeing a young guy
  3419. with shoulder-length hair
  3420.  
  3421. 768
  3422. 01:12:10,492 --> 01:12:13,287
  3423. sitting in a wheelchair
  3424. by the pool for several days.
  3425.  
  3426. 769
  3427. 01:12:13,662 --> 01:12:18,834
  3428. So, one afternoon he rolled up to me
  3429. and said, "Hi, I'm Ron Kovic.
  3430.  
  3431. 770
  3432. 01:12:18,917 --> 01:12:21,462
  3433. I wrote a book
  3434. called  Born on the Fourth of July."
  3435.  
  3436. 771
  3437. 01:12:21,920 --> 01:12:26,091
  3438. I said, "Jeez. I just-- I just read it.
  3439. And it-- it destroyed me."
  3440.  
  3441. 772
  3442. 01:12:26,633 --> 01:12:30,846
  3443. He spent the afternoon talking to me
  3444. about many returned soldiers
  3445.  
  3446. 773
  3447. 01:12:30,929 --> 01:12:33,265
  3448. who were struggling
  3449. with a wide variety of problems,
  3450.  
  3451. 774
  3452. 01:12:33,349 --> 01:12:38,145
  3453. and he wanted to know if I'd take a drive
  3454. with him to the vet center in Venice...
  3455.  
  3456. 775
  3457. 01:12:38,896 --> 01:12:41,607
  3458. meet some
  3459. of the Southern California veterans.
  3460.  
  3461. 776
  3462. 01:12:42,066 --> 01:12:44,777
  3463. So I said, "Sure."
  3464. The next day, we headed out there,
  3465.  
  3466. 777
  3467. 01:12:44,860 --> 01:12:48,572
  3468. and I'm usually pretty easy with people,
  3469. but once we were at the center,
  3470.  
  3471. 778
  3472. 01:12:49,490 --> 01:12:53,369
  3473. I didn't know how to respond
  3474. to what I was seeing. Uh...
  3475.  
  3476. 779
  3477. 01:12:54,203 --> 01:12:58,040
  3478. Talking about my own life
  3479. to these guys seemed frivolous.
  3480.  
  3481. 780
  3482. 01:12:58,123 --> 01:12:58,957
  3483. You know?
  3484.  
  3485. 781
  3486. 01:12:59,041 --> 01:13:02,669
  3487. There was homelessness and drug problems
  3488. and post-traumatic stress and...
  3489.  
  3490. 782
  3491. 01:13:03,253 --> 01:13:06,173
  3492. young guys my age
  3493. dealing with life-changing...
  3494.  
  3495. 783
  3496. 01:13:07,299 --> 01:13:08,675
  3497. physical injuries.
  3498.  
  3499. 784
  3500. 01:13:08,759 --> 01:13:11,929
  3501. And it made me think about my own friends
  3502. from back home.
  3503.  
  3504. 785
  3505. 01:13:12,513 --> 01:13:13,847
  3506. Walter Cichon.
  3507.  
  3508. 786
  3509. 01:13:14,473 --> 01:13:18,477
  3510. Walter Cichon was the greatest
  3511. rock 'n' roll front man
  3512.  
  3513. 787
  3514. 01:13:18,560 --> 01:13:21,897
  3515. on the Jersey Shore
  3516. in the bar band '60s.
  3517.  
  3518. 788
  3519. 01:13:22,314 --> 01:13:24,358
  3520. He was in a group called The Motifs,
  3521.  
  3522. 789
  3523. 01:13:24,441 --> 01:13:28,946
  3524. and he was the first real rock star
  3525. that I ever laid my eyes on.
  3526.  
  3527. 790
  3528. 01:13:29,530 --> 01:13:32,741
  3529. He just had it in his bones.
  3530. He had it in his blood.
  3531.  
  3532. 791
  3533. 01:13:32,825 --> 01:13:35,327
  3534. It was in the way that he carried himself.
  3535.  
  3536. 792
  3537. 01:13:35,411 --> 01:13:39,665
  3538. On stage, he just was deadly.
  3539.  
  3540. 793
  3541. 01:13:39,748 --> 01:13:44,128
  3542. He was raw and sexual and dangerous,
  3543.  
  3544. 794
  3545. 01:13:44,211 --> 01:13:48,841
  3546. and in our little area he taught us,
  3547. by the way that he lived,
  3548.  
  3549. 795
  3550. 01:13:49,425 --> 01:13:52,344
  3551. that  you  could live your life
  3552. the way you chose.
  3553.  
  3554. 796
  3555. 01:13:52,428 --> 01:13:54,304
  3556. You could look the way you wanted to look,
  3557.  
  3558. 797
  3559. 01:13:54,388 --> 01:13:56,432
  3560. you could play the music
  3561. you wanted to play,
  3562.  
  3563. 798
  3564. 01:13:56,515 --> 01:13:58,475
  3565. you could be who you wanted to be,
  3566.  
  3567. 799
  3568. 01:13:58,559 --> 01:14:00,769
  3569. and you could tell anyone
  3570. who didn't like it
  3571.  
  3572. 800
  3573. 01:14:00,853 --> 01:14:02,604
  3574. to go fuck themselves.
  3575.  
  3576. 801
  3577. 01:14:02,688 --> 01:14:04,523
  3578. Walter had a...
  3579.  
  3580. 802
  3581. 01:14:05,607 --> 01:14:07,818
  3582. guitar-playing brother, Raymond.
  3583.  
  3584. 803
  3585. 01:14:08,861 --> 01:14:10,112
  3586. Raymond was...
  3587.  
  3588. 804
  3589. 01:14:10,487 --> 01:14:12,906
  3590. tall, tall, kind of sweetly clumsy guy,
  3591.  
  3592. 805
  3593. 01:14:12,990 --> 01:14:16,827
  3594. one of those big guys
  3595. who just isn't comfortable with his size.
  3596.  
  3597. 806
  3598. 01:14:17,369 --> 01:14:21,039
  3599. You know, uh, he's always, like,
  3600. "Ooh. Ooh."
  3601.  
  3602. 807
  3603. 01:14:21,123 --> 01:14:25,294
  3604. Knocking into shit wherever he is.
  3605. And wherever that is,
  3606.  
  3607. 808
  3608. 01:14:25,627 --> 01:14:29,548
  3609. there is just not enough space
  3610. for Raymond, for some reason.
  3611.  
  3612. 809
  3613. 01:14:30,048 --> 01:14:31,133
  3614. And, uh...
  3615.  
  3616. 810
  3617. 01:14:31,717 --> 01:14:35,095
  3618. But the strange thing was
  3619. he was always dressed impeccably
  3620.  
  3621. 811
  3622. 01:14:35,179 --> 01:14:40,184
  3623. with a pastel shirt, long pointed collar,
  3624. sharkskin pants, nylon socks,
  3625.  
  3626. 812
  3627. 01:14:40,559 --> 01:14:44,104
  3628. spit-shined pointy-toed shoes,
  3629. slicked-back black hair
  3630.  
  3631. 813
  3632. 01:14:44,188 --> 01:14:47,858
  3633. with a little curl that would come down
  3634. when he was playing the guitar.
  3635.  
  3636. 814
  3637. 01:14:47,941 --> 01:14:50,360
  3638. Uh, Raymond was my guitar hero.
  3639.  
  3640. 815
  3641. 01:14:50,652 --> 01:14:53,071
  3642. He was just a shoe salesman in the day.
  3643.  
  3644. 816
  3645. 01:14:53,780 --> 01:14:56,992
  3646. And, uh, Walter, I think,
  3647. worked construction.
  3648.  
  3649. 817
  3650. 01:14:57,075 --> 01:14:58,952
  3651. They were only a little bit older
  3652. than we were,
  3653.  
  3654. 818
  3655. 01:14:59,036 --> 01:15:02,539
  3656. never had any national hit records,
  3657. never did any big tours,
  3658.  
  3659. 819
  3660. 01:15:02,831 --> 01:15:04,500
  3661. but they were gods to me.
  3662.  
  3663. 820
  3664. 01:15:05,584 --> 01:15:06,585
  3665. And...
  3666.  
  3667. 821
  3668. 01:15:07,252 --> 01:15:09,755
  3669. the hours I spent standing
  3670. in front of their band,
  3671.  
  3672. 822
  3673. 01:15:09,838 --> 01:15:13,342
  3674. studying, studying, studying,
  3675. class in session.
  3676.  
  3677. 823
  3678. 01:15:14,176 --> 01:15:16,345
  3679. Night after night,
  3680. watching Ray's fingers fly
  3681.  
  3682. 824
  3683. 01:15:16,553 --> 01:15:18,931
  3684. over the fretboard,
  3685. and Walter would scare...
  3686.  
  3687. 825
  3688. 01:15:21,225 --> 01:15:23,143
  3689. the shit out of half the crowd.
  3690.  
  3691. 826
  3692. 01:15:23,894 --> 01:15:25,103
  3693. Oh, man.
  3694.  
  3695. 827
  3696. 01:15:26,355 --> 01:15:29,858
  3697. They were essential to my development
  3698. as a young musician.
  3699.  
  3700. 828
  3701. 01:15:30,317 --> 01:15:35,322
  3702. I learned so much
  3703. from Walter and from Ray.
  3704.  
  3705. 829
  3706. 01:15:35,739 --> 01:15:37,032
  3707. And my dream,
  3708.  
  3709. 830
  3710. 01:15:37,533 --> 01:15:40,494
  3711. my dream was I just wanted
  3712. to play like Ray
  3713.  
  3714. 831
  3715. 01:15:40,577 --> 01:15:41,787
  3716. and walk like Walter.
  3717.  
  3718. 832
  3719. 01:15:42,162 --> 01:15:43,413
  3720. And then there was Bart Haynes.
  3721.  
  3722. 833
  3723. 01:15:43,497 --> 01:15:47,834
  3724. Bart Haynes was the drummer
  3725. from my first band, The Castiles.
  3726.  
  3727. 834
  3728. 01:15:48,293 --> 01:15:51,588
  3729. He was the first real drummer
  3730. I ever played with.
  3731.  
  3732. 835
  3733. 01:15:51,672 --> 01:15:53,549
  3734. He was an absurdly funny kid,
  3735.  
  3736. 836
  3737. 01:15:53,632 --> 01:15:57,761
  3738. classic class clown,
  3739. was a good, good drummer...
  3740.  
  3741. 837
  3742. 01:15:58,178 --> 01:16:02,641
  3743. with one strange quirk--
  3744. couldn't play "Wipe Out" by The Surfaris.
  3745.  
  3746. 838
  3747. 01:16:04,726 --> 01:16:08,605
  3748. This may not seem so critical to you
  3749. right now, I understand.
  3750.  
  3751. 839
  3752. 01:16:09,690 --> 01:16:12,234
  3753. But in those days,
  3754.  
  3755. 840
  3756. 01:16:12,818 --> 01:16:15,696
  3757. your skills, your mettle,
  3758.  
  3759. 841
  3760. 01:16:16,029 --> 01:16:21,410
  3761. your self-worth as a drummer
  3762. and as a human being
  3763.  
  3764. 842
  3765. 01:16:23,120 --> 01:16:27,583
  3766. was tested in front of your peers
  3767. once an evening
  3768.  
  3769. 843
  3770. 01:16:27,666 --> 01:16:30,168
  3771. by your performance of "Wipe Out."
  3772.  
  3773. 844
  3774. 01:16:30,752 --> 01:16:34,214
  3775. Now, Bart could play
  3776. every other fucking thing,
  3777.  
  3778. 845
  3779. 01:16:34,298 --> 01:16:36,300
  3780. but when it came to "Wipe Out"...
  3781.  
  3782. 846
  3783. 01:16:40,679 --> 01:16:42,973
  3784. beyond his capabilities!
  3785.  
  3786. 847
  3787. 01:16:44,474 --> 01:16:45,809
  3788. It was tragic.
  3789.  
  3790. 848
  3791. 01:16:47,561 --> 01:16:49,354
  3792. You know, uh...
  3793.  
  3794. 849
  3795. 01:16:50,355 --> 01:16:52,441
  3796. One day he got off...
  3797.  
  3798. 850
  3799. 01:16:52,983 --> 01:16:56,278
  3800. got up off the drum stool,
  3801. he joined the Marines, and...
  3802.  
  3803. 851
  3804. 01:16:57,487 --> 01:16:59,990
  3805. Walter and Bart...
  3806.  
  3807. 852
  3808. 01:17:00,073 --> 01:17:05,829
  3809. ...they were both killed in the war
  3810. in 1967 and '68.
  3811.  
  3812. 853
  3813. 01:17:06,580 --> 01:17:09,625
  3814. Bart was the first young man
  3815. from our hometown
  3816.  
  3817. 854
  3818. 01:17:10,334 --> 01:17:12,377
  3819. to give his life in Vietnam.
  3820.  
  3821. 855
  3822. 01:17:12,753 --> 01:17:18,634
  3823. So, I really didn't know what to say
  3824. to the guys that I was meeting in Venice.
  3825.  
  3826. 856
  3827. 01:17:18,717 --> 01:17:22,220
  3828. I sat there for most of the afternoon
  3829. and I just listened.
  3830.  
  3831. 857
  3832. 01:17:23,180 --> 01:17:27,267
  3833. Then in 1982, I wrote
  3834. and I recorded my soldier story.
  3835.  
  3836. 858
  3837. 01:17:27,351 --> 01:17:29,770
  3838. It was a protest song, a GI blues.
  3839.  
  3840. 859
  3841. 01:17:30,270 --> 01:17:33,148
  3842. The verses are just
  3843. an accounting of events.
  3844.  
  3845. 860
  3846. 01:17:33,940 --> 01:17:38,487
  3847. The choruses were a declaration
  3848. of your birthplace...
  3849.  
  3850. 861
  3851. 01:17:38,987 --> 01:17:41,782
  3852. and the right to all of the blood
  3853. and the confusion
  3854.  
  3855. 862
  3856. 01:17:41,865 --> 01:17:45,118
  3857. and the pride and the shame
  3858. and the grace...
  3859.  
  3860. 863
  3861. 01:17:47,079 --> 01:17:48,955
  3862. that comes with birthplace.
  3863.  
  3864. 864
  3865. 01:17:50,040 --> 01:17:54,461
  3866. In 1969, Mad Dog, Little Vinnie,
  3867. and myself,
  3868.  
  3869. 865
  3870. 01:17:55,212 --> 01:17:59,633
  3871. we were all drafted on the exact same day.
  3872.  
  3873. 866
  3874. 01:18:00,133 --> 01:18:01,218
  3875. All three of us.
  3876.  
  3877. 867
  3878. 01:18:01,301 --> 01:18:05,597
  3879. We rode together early one Monday morning
  3880. from the Selective Service Office
  3881.  
  3882. 868
  3883. 01:18:05,681 --> 01:18:10,060
  3884. on probably the unhappiest bus
  3885. that ever pulled out of Asbury Park,
  3886.  
  3887. 869
  3888. 01:18:10,143 --> 01:18:12,229
  3889. because we were on our way
  3890.  
  3891. 870
  3892. 01:18:12,312 --> 01:18:16,108
  3893. to what we were sure
  3894. was going to be our funeral.
  3895.  
  3896. 871
  3897. 01:18:16,942 --> 01:18:20,278
  3898. We'd seen it already, up very close.
  3899.  
  3900. 872
  3901. 01:18:22,739 --> 01:18:28,078
  3902. When we got to the Newark Draft Board,
  3903. we did everything we could not to go.
  3904.  
  3905. 873
  3906. 01:18:28,453 --> 01:18:31,039
  3907. And we succeeded, all three of us.
  3908.  
  3909. 874
  3910. 01:18:31,123 --> 01:18:32,666
  3911. When I go to Washington,
  3912.  
  3913. 875
  3914. 01:18:32,749 --> 01:18:35,544
  3915. and I have the occasion
  3916. to visit Walter and Bart,
  3917.  
  3918. 876
  3919. 01:18:35,877 --> 01:18:40,298
  3920. I'm glad that Mad Dog's, Little Vinnie's,
  3921.  
  3922. 877
  3923. 01:18:41,216 --> 01:18:45,637
  3924. for that matter,
  3925. my name isn't up on... on that wall.
  3926.  
  3927. 878
  3928. 01:18:45,721 --> 01:18:50,142
  3929. But it was 1969, and thousands
  3930. and thousands of young men to come
  3931.  
  3932. 879
  3933. 01:18:50,809 --> 01:18:54,479
  3934. would be called, simply sacrificed,
  3935.  
  3936. 880
  3937. 01:18:54,563 --> 01:18:57,566
  3938. just to save face for the powers that be
  3939.  
  3940. 881
  3941. 01:18:57,983 --> 01:18:59,860
  3942. who, by then, already knew.
  3943.  
  3944. 882
  3945. 01:19:00,944 --> 01:19:02,821
  3946. They knew it was a lost cause.
  3947.  
  3948. 883
  3949. 01:19:06,241 --> 01:19:08,577
  3950. And still, thousands and thousands...
  3951.  
  3952. 884
  3953. 01:19:09,745 --> 01:19:11,329
  3954. of more young boys.
  3955.  
  3956. 885
  3957. 01:19:13,039 --> 01:19:14,040
  3958. So, uh...
  3959.  
  3960. 886
  3961. 01:19:18,420 --> 01:19:21,590
  3962. So I do sometimes wonder
  3963. who went in my place.
  3964.  
  3965. 887
  3966. 01:19:22,716 --> 01:19:24,468
  3967. Because somebody did.
  3968.  
  3969. 888
  3970. 01:24:12,756 --> 01:24:13,673
  3971. Now...
  3972.  
  3973. 889
  3974. 01:24:14,549 --> 01:24:19,304
  3975. a real rock 'n' roll band
  3976. evolves out of a common place and time.
  3977.  
  3978. 890
  3979. 01:24:19,763 --> 01:24:24,559
  3980. Bands come out of towns,
  3981. out of a city, out of a neighborhood.
  3982.  
  3983. 891
  3984. 01:24:25,268 --> 01:24:28,354
  3985. And they come along
  3986. at a particular moment, you know?
  3987.  
  3988. 892
  3989. 01:24:28,855 --> 01:24:32,150
  3990. Bands are all about what happens
  3991. when musicians
  3992.  
  3993. 893
  3994. 01:24:32,650 --> 01:24:34,819
  3995. who come from the same streets,
  3996.  
  3997. 894
  3998. 01:24:35,236 --> 01:24:42,202
  3999. with the same passions and influences,
  4000. go in search of lightning and thunder!
  4001.  
  4002. 895
  4003. 01:24:42,285 --> 01:24:44,370
  4004. They come together in a whole
  4005.  
  4006. 896
  4007. 01:24:44,454 --> 01:24:47,082
  4008. that is greater than the sum
  4009. of their parts.
  4010.  
  4011. 897
  4012. 01:24:47,165 --> 01:24:50,376
  4013. They may not be the best players.
  4014. That's not necessary.
  4015.  
  4016. 898
  4017. 01:24:50,460 --> 01:24:54,130
  4018. They need to be the right players
  4019. and when they play together,
  4020.  
  4021. 899
  4022. 01:24:54,214 --> 01:24:57,967
  4023. there is a communion of souls
  4024.  
  4025. 900
  4026. 01:24:58,551 --> 01:25:02,597
  4027. and a natural brotherhood
  4028. and sisterhood manifests itself,
  4029.  
  4030. 901
  4031. 01:25:02,680 --> 01:25:05,767
  4032. and a quest, a quest is begun.
  4033.  
  4034. 902
  4035. 01:25:05,850 --> 01:25:07,977
  4036. You're in search of something,
  4037.  
  4038. 903
  4039. 01:25:08,269 --> 01:25:10,188
  4040. an adventure's undertaken.
  4041.  
  4042. 904
  4043. 01:25:10,730 --> 01:25:12,607
  4044. And you ride shotgun.
  4045.  
  4046. 905
  4047. 01:25:14,025 --> 01:25:19,656
  4048. In a real band, the principles of math
  4049. get stood on their head.
  4050.  
  4051. 906
  4052. 01:25:20,281 --> 01:25:22,325
  4053. And one plus one equals three.
  4054.  
  4055. 907
  4056. 01:25:34,045 --> 01:25:37,090
  4057. Now one plus one equals two,
  4058. that happens every day.
  4059.  
  4060. 908
  4061. 01:25:37,382 --> 01:25:40,677
  4062. That is not magic. That's the grind.
  4063.  
  4064. 909
  4065. 01:25:41,052 --> 01:25:42,971
  4066. That's when you get up, one,
  4067.  
  4068. 910
  4069. 01:25:43,054 --> 01:25:46,015
  4070. go to work, one, go to bed...
  4071.  
  4072. 911
  4073. 01:25:46,766 --> 01:25:48,852
  4074. Two.
  4075.  
  4076. 912
  4077. 01:25:49,435 --> 01:25:52,522
  4078. Two, geniuses, two.
  4079.  
  4080. 913
  4081. 01:25:53,690 --> 01:25:58,361
  4082. But when one plus one equals three,
  4083. that's when your life changes
  4084.  
  4085. 914
  4086. 01:25:58,945 --> 01:26:00,780
  4087. and you see everything new.
  4088.  
  4089. 915
  4090. 01:26:01,614 --> 01:26:05,243
  4091. And these are days
  4092. when you are visited by visions...
  4093.  
  4094. 916
  4095. 01:26:06,035 --> 01:26:08,580
  4096. when the world around you
  4097. brings down the spirit,
  4098.  
  4099. 917
  4100. 01:26:08,663 --> 01:26:10,957
  4101. and you feel blessed to be alive.
  4102.  
  4103. 918
  4104. 01:26:12,542 --> 01:26:15,420
  4105. It is the essential equation of love.
  4106.  
  4107. 919
  4108. 01:26:15,503 --> 01:26:18,923
  4109. There is no love without one plus one
  4110. equaling three.
  4111.  
  4112. 920
  4113. 01:26:19,007 --> 01:26:21,509
  4114. It's the essential equation of art.
  4115.  
  4116. 921
  4117. 01:26:21,593 --> 01:26:23,970
  4118. It's the essential equation
  4119. of rock 'n' roll.
  4120.  
  4121. 922
  4122. 01:26:24,053 --> 01:26:28,141
  4123. It's the reason the universe
  4124. will never be fully comprehensible.
  4125.  
  4126. 923
  4127. 01:26:28,224 --> 01:26:33,188
  4128. It's the reason "Louie Louie"
  4129. will never be fully comprehensible.
  4130.  
  4131. 924
  4132. 01:26:35,440 --> 01:26:38,026
  4133. And it's the reason true rock 'n' roll
  4134.  
  4135. 925
  4136. 01:26:38,109 --> 01:26:41,988
  4137. and true rock 'n' roll bands
  4138. will never die.
  4139.  
  4140. 926
  4141. 01:28:18,209 --> 01:28:21,879
  4142. Now, Gary, Danny, Little Steven,
  4143. Mighty Max, Professor Roy,
  4144.  
  4145. 927
  4146. 01:28:21,963 --> 01:28:26,634
  4147. Nils Lofgren, Patti Scialfa,
  4148. that is my one plus one equals...
  4149.  
  4150. 928
  4151. 01:28:26,718 --> 01:28:30,221
  4152. - Three!
  4153. - Excellent, grasshopper.
  4154.  
  4155. 929
  4156. 01:28:32,098 --> 01:28:34,642
  4157. But nobody captured
  4158. my audience's imagination
  4159.  
  4160. 930
  4161. 01:28:34,726 --> 01:28:36,644
  4162. or their hearts like Clarence.
  4163.  
  4164. 931
  4165. 01:28:42,066 --> 01:28:43,359
  4166. Clarence was...
  4167.  
  4168. 932
  4169. 01:28:44,068 --> 01:28:46,988
  4170. Clarence was a figure
  4171. out of a rock 'n' roll storybook,
  4172.  
  4173. 933
  4174. 01:28:47,071 --> 01:28:50,325
  4175. and together, we told a story
  4176. that was bigger than...
  4177.  
  4178. 934
  4179. 01:28:50,950 --> 01:28:53,411
  4180. any of the ones I'd written in my songs.
  4181.  
  4182. 935
  4183. 01:28:53,494 --> 01:28:57,040
  4184. It was the story where,
  4185. not only did Scooter and the Big Man
  4186.  
  4187. 936
  4188. 01:28:57,123 --> 01:28:58,708
  4189. bust the city in half...
  4190.  
  4191. 937
  4192. 01:28:59,584 --> 01:29:01,377
  4193. but we remade the city.
  4194.  
  4195. 938
  4196. 01:29:02,337 --> 01:29:05,048
  4197. We remade the city,
  4198. shaping it into the kind of place
  4199.  
  4200. 939
  4201. 01:29:05,131 --> 01:29:09,802
  4202. where our friendship
  4203. and our love for one another
  4204.  
  4205. 940
  4206. 01:29:11,220 --> 01:29:13,556
  4207. wouldn't have been
  4208. such an exceptional thing.
  4209.  
  4210. 941
  4211. 01:29:15,099 --> 01:29:18,019
  4212. First night I saw Clarence,
  4213. he came walking out of the shadows
  4214.  
  4215. 942
  4216. 01:29:18,102 --> 01:29:19,312
  4217. towards the bandstand,
  4218.  
  4219. 943
  4220. 01:29:19,395 --> 01:29:24,192
  4221. nodded to me, got up,
  4222. stood to my right for the very first time.
  4223.  
  4224. 944
  4225. 01:29:24,442 --> 01:29:26,486
  4226. He picked up his saxophone.
  4227.  
  4228. 945
  4229. 01:29:27,445 --> 01:29:29,072
  4230. And when he played...
  4231.  
  4232. 946
  4233. 01:29:36,412 --> 01:29:39,665
  4234. When he played,
  4235. he whispered that story in my ear.
  4236.  
  4237. 947
  4238. 01:29:42,585 --> 01:29:44,962
  4239. And then we whispered it into your ear.
  4240.  
  4241. 948
  4242. 01:29:47,548 --> 01:29:50,718
  4243. And we carried it together for a long...
  4244.  
  4245. 949
  4246. 01:29:53,179 --> 01:29:54,931
  4247. a long, good time.
  4248.  
  4249. 950
  4250. 01:29:57,475 --> 01:29:59,936
  4251. The Big Man was big.
  4252.  
  4253. 951
  4254. 01:30:01,145 --> 01:30:02,897
  4255. Everything about him.
  4256.  
  4257. 952
  4258. 01:30:03,398 --> 01:30:06,984
  4259. His personality, his size, his laugh...
  4260.  
  4261. 953
  4262. 01:30:07,568 --> 01:30:09,779
  4263. the sound of his saxophone.
  4264.  
  4265. 954
  4266. 01:30:10,613 --> 01:30:14,158
  4267. When I first heard it, I thought it was
  4268. the biggest sound I ever heard.
  4269.  
  4270. 955
  4271. 01:30:15,618 --> 01:30:16,869
  4272. And it was.
  4273.  
  4274. 956
  4275. 01:30:18,371 --> 01:30:23,334
  4276. His heart and his problems,
  4277. they were big.
  4278.  
  4279. 957
  4280. 01:30:27,380 --> 01:30:29,924
  4281. But he was elemental in my life.
  4282.  
  4283. 958
  4284. 01:30:32,218 --> 01:30:34,720
  4285. And losing him was like losing the rain.
  4286.  
  4287. 959
  4288. 01:30:53,739 --> 01:30:55,992
  4289. If I were a mystic...
  4290.  
  4291. 960
  4292. 01:30:56,742 --> 01:30:59,620
  4293. If I were a mystic,
  4294. I guess Clarence and my's friendship
  4295.  
  4296. 961
  4297. 01:30:59,704 --> 01:31:03,082
  4298. would lead me to believe
  4299. that we-- we stood together
  4300.  
  4301. 962
  4302. 01:31:03,166 --> 01:31:04,709
  4303. in other older times.
  4304.  
  4305. 963
  4306. 01:31:05,918 --> 01:31:07,003
  4307. You know, in, uh...
  4308.  
  4309. 964
  4310. 01:31:07,503 --> 01:31:08,880
  4311. in other lives.
  4312.  
  4313. 965
  4314. 01:31:10,089 --> 01:31:11,632
  4315. Along other rivers.
  4316.  
  4317. 966
  4318. 01:31:13,885 --> 01:31:15,678
  4319. In other ancient cities.
  4320.  
  4321. 967
  4322. 01:31:16,804 --> 01:31:18,347
  4323. In other fields...
  4324.  
  4325. 968
  4326. 01:31:19,390 --> 01:31:21,225
  4327. working side by side,
  4328.  
  4329. 969
  4330. 01:31:22,643 --> 01:31:24,187
  4331. with the sun setting,
  4332.  
  4333. 970
  4334. 01:31:25,521 --> 01:31:28,191
  4335. doing our modest version of God's work.
  4336.  
  4337. 971
  4338. 01:31:34,572 --> 01:31:36,824
  4339. I'll see you in the next life, Big Man.
  4340.  
  4341. 972
  4342. 01:32:30,294 --> 01:32:33,714
  4343. Ladies and gentlemen, let's hear it
  4344. for the biggest man you ever saw.
  4345.  
  4346. 973
  4347. 01:32:36,300 --> 01:32:41,138
  4348. Clarence "Big Man" Clemons!
  4349.  
  4350. 974
  4351. 01:32:46,185 --> 01:32:48,145
  4352. And the legendary...
  4353.  
  4354. 975
  4355. 01:32:50,815 --> 01:32:54,527
  4356. - E...
  4357. - Street Band!
  4358.  
  4359. 976
  4360. 01:32:55,695 --> 01:32:56,654
  4361. That's it!
  4362.  
  4363. 977
  4364. 01:33:18,926 --> 01:33:23,472
  4365. All right, all right,
  4366. she is the queen of my heart!
  4367.  
  4368. 978
  4369. 01:33:24,807 --> 01:33:27,184
  4370. She is my flaming beauty!
  4371.  
  4372. 979
  4373. 01:33:27,560 --> 01:33:30,021
  4374. - Patricia!
  4375. - My Jersey girl.
  4376.  
  4377. 980
  4378. 01:33:30,396 --> 01:33:31,939
  4379. She is a great songwriter.
  4380.  
  4381. 981
  4382. 01:33:32,023 --> 01:33:34,442
  4383. She's one of the loveliest voices
  4384. I've ever heard.
  4385.  
  4386. 982
  4387. 01:33:34,525 --> 01:33:37,862
  4388. She is smart, tough... but fragile.
  4389.  
  4390. 983
  4391. 01:33:39,280 --> 01:33:40,698
  4392. Don't forget that part.
  4393.  
  4394. 984
  4395. 01:33:40,781 --> 01:33:43,909
  4396. If we love those in whose company's
  4397. reflected the best of us,
  4398.  
  4399. 985
  4400. 01:33:43,993 --> 01:33:46,245
  4401. that's the light that she shines on me.
  4402.  
  4403. 986
  4404. 01:33:46,537 --> 01:33:49,790
  4405. In 1984 one night, I'm hanging out
  4406. at the Stone Pony
  4407.  
  4408. 987
  4409. 01:33:49,874 --> 01:33:54,879
  4410. and this beautiful redhead shows up,
  4411. sits in with the Sunday night house band.
  4412.  
  4413. 988
  4414. 01:33:55,379 --> 01:33:58,549
  4415. And that is the night
  4416. I fell in love with Patti's voice.
  4417.  
  4418. 989
  4419. 01:33:58,633 --> 01:34:01,093
  4420. She got on stage, this blaze of red.
  4421.  
  4422. 990
  4423. 01:34:01,177 --> 01:34:04,972
  4424. She performed a great version
  4425. of The Exciters' hit song "Tell Him."
  4426.  
  4427. 991
  4428. 01:34:05,348 --> 01:34:12,063
  4429. So the first line of the first song
  4430. I ever heard Patti sing was...
  4431.  
  4432. 992
  4433. 01:34:19,487 --> 01:34:22,531
  4434. She does. Ladies and gentlemen,
  4435. Patti Scialfa.
  4436.  
  4437. 993
  4438. 01:34:36,295 --> 01:34:37,380
  4439. Thank you.
  4440.  
  4441. 994
  4442. 01:39:14,281 --> 01:39:15,783
  4443. Yeah, trust...
  4444.  
  4445. 995
  4446. 01:39:17,076 --> 01:39:19,703
  4447. Trust in a relationship's a fragile thing.
  4448.  
  4449. 996
  4450. 01:39:20,955 --> 01:39:23,916
  4451. Uh... Always been a little complicated
  4452. for me
  4453.  
  4454. 997
  4455. 01:39:23,999 --> 01:39:26,377
  4456. because trust requires allowing others
  4457.  
  4458. 998
  4459. 01:39:27,544 --> 01:39:31,548
  4460. to see as much of our real selves
  4461. as we have the courage to reveal.
  4462.  
  4463. 999
  4464. 01:39:32,758 --> 01:39:34,051
  4465. But, I mean, uh...
  4466.  
  4467. 1000
  4468. 01:39:34,885 --> 01:39:37,429
  4469. I don't want to see my real self.
  4470. Why would...?
  4471.  
  4472. 1001
  4473. 01:39:38,305 --> 01:39:41,809
  4474. - Why would others want to?
  4475. - You know? But...
  4476.  
  4477. 1002
  4478. 01:39:41,892 --> 01:39:45,646
  4479. But it means allowing others to see
  4480. behind our many masks,
  4481.  
  4482. 1003
  4483. 01:39:46,313 --> 01:39:49,108
  4484. the masks we wear, overcoming that fear.
  4485.  
  4486. 1004
  4487. 01:39:49,984 --> 01:39:52,987
  4488. Or rather, learning how to love
  4489. and how to trust in spite of it.
  4490.  
  4491. 1005
  4492. 01:39:53,737 --> 01:39:55,447
  4493. That takes a little courage...
  4494.  
  4495. 1006
  4496. 01:39:56,115 --> 01:39:57,908
  4497. and a very strong partner.
  4498.  
  4499. 1007
  4500. 01:39:58,867 --> 01:40:00,953
  4501. 'Cause in this life,
  4502. you make your choices,
  4503.  
  4504. 1008
  4505. 01:40:01,036 --> 01:40:02,204
  4506. you take your stand,
  4507.  
  4508. 1009
  4509. 01:40:02,287 --> 01:40:05,541
  4510. and you awaken
  4511. from that youthful spell of immortality
  4512.  
  4513. 1010
  4514. 01:40:05,624 --> 01:40:08,419
  4515. where it feels like the road
  4516. is gonna go on forever.
  4517.  
  4518. 1011
  4519. 01:40:09,837 --> 01:40:15,634
  4520. And you walk alongside your chosen partner
  4521. with the clock ticking.
  4522.  
  4523. 1012
  4524. 01:40:16,635 --> 01:40:21,473
  4525. And you recognize that life is finite,
  4526. that you've got just so much time.
  4527.  
  4528. 1013
  4529. 01:40:22,057 --> 01:40:23,475
  4530. And so together...
  4531.  
  4532. 1014
  4533. 01:40:24,184 --> 01:40:27,771
  4534. you name the things that will give
  4535. your life in that time its meaning,
  4536.  
  4537. 1015
  4538. 01:40:29,064 --> 01:40:32,735
  4539. its purpose, its fullness,
  4540. its very reality.
  4541.  
  4542. 1016
  4543. 01:40:33,944 --> 01:40:36,947
  4544. And this is what you build together.
  4545. This is...
  4546.  
  4547. 1017
  4548. 01:40:38,198 --> 01:40:40,284
  4549. what your love consists of.
  4550.  
  4551. 1018
  4552. 01:40:41,160 --> 01:40:42,911
  4553. This is what you...
  4554.  
  4555. 1019
  4556. 01:40:44,329 --> 01:40:46,373
  4557. This is your life, you know?
  4558.  
  4559. 1020
  4560. 01:40:47,332 --> 01:40:50,586
  4561. And these are things
  4562. that you can hold onto
  4563.  
  4564. 1021
  4565. 01:40:51,253 --> 01:40:52,880
  4566. when the storms come,
  4567.  
  4568. 1022
  4569. 01:40:54,298 --> 01:40:55,466
  4570. as they will.
  4571.  
  4572. 1023
  4573. 01:45:28,447 --> 01:45:30,198
  4574. Patti Scialfa!
  4575.  
  4576. 1024
  4577. 01:45:31,867 --> 01:45:33,577
  4578. She's a badass!
  4579.  
  4580. 1025
  4581. 01:45:44,755 --> 01:45:47,132
  4582. Gonna add this song to our set tonight.
  4583.  
  4584. 1026
  4585. 01:45:48,050 --> 01:45:52,804
  4586. All right, this is the final days
  4587. of Patti's first pregnancy.
  4588.  
  4589. 1027
  4590. 01:45:53,555 --> 01:45:58,477
  4591. I receive a surprise visit
  4592. from my father at my home in LA.
  4593.  
  4594. 1028
  4595. 01:45:58,560 --> 01:46:01,438
  4596. You know, he had driven 500 miles,
  4597. unannounced,
  4598.  
  4599. 1029
  4600. 01:46:02,022 --> 01:46:03,523
  4601. to knock on my door.
  4602.  
  4603. 1030
  4604. 01:46:04,608 --> 01:46:05,859
  4605. That's his style.
  4606.  
  4607. 1031
  4608. 01:46:06,485 --> 01:46:08,487
  4609. So at 11:00 a.m., we sit
  4610.  
  4611. 1032
  4612. 01:46:08,570 --> 01:46:11,907
  4613. in the sunlit dining room
  4614. and we're nursing morning beers.
  4615.  
  4616. 1033
  4617. 01:46:13,241 --> 01:46:15,327
  4618. That's his style.
  4619.  
  4620. 1034
  4621. 01:46:15,410 --> 01:46:17,746
  4622. It's my father's breakfast of champions.
  4623.  
  4624. 1035
  4625. 01:46:18,789 --> 01:46:24,294
  4626. When my dad, never a talkative man,
  4627. right, blurted out,
  4628.  
  4629. 1036
  4630. 01:46:25,045 --> 01:46:26,630
  4631. "You've been very good to us."
  4632.  
  4633. 1037
  4634. 01:46:27,798 --> 01:46:31,551
  4635. And I nodded that I had, you know?
  4636. And, uh...
  4637.  
  4638. 1038
  4639. 01:46:33,178 --> 01:46:36,098
  4640. And then he says,
  4641. "And I wasn't very good to you."
  4642.  
  4643. 1039
  4644. 01:46:39,059 --> 01:46:41,728
  4645. And the room just...
  4646.  
  4647. 1040
  4648. 01:46:44,815 --> 01:46:46,942
  4649. well, stood still...
  4650.  
  4651. 1041
  4652. 01:46:48,110 --> 01:46:52,239
  4653. as to my shock, the unacknowledgeable
  4654. was being acknowledged.
  4655.  
  4656. 1042
  4657. 01:46:52,322 --> 01:46:53,156
  4658. If I...
  4659.  
  4660. 1043
  4661. 01:46:54,199 --> 01:46:57,160
  4662. If I didn't know better,
  4663. I would have sworn an apology...
  4664.  
  4665. 1044
  4666. 01:46:58,120 --> 01:47:00,080
  4667. of some sort was being made.
  4668.  
  4669. 1045
  4670. 01:47:01,081 --> 01:47:02,249
  4671. And it was.
  4672.  
  4673. 1046
  4674. 01:47:03,333 --> 01:47:06,503
  4675. Here in the last days, before I was...
  4676.  
  4677. 1047
  4678. 01:47:07,838 --> 01:47:11,299
  4679. to become a father,
  4680. my own father was visiting me...
  4681.  
  4682. 1048
  4683. 01:47:12,717 --> 01:47:15,220
  4684. to warn me of the mistakes
  4685. that he had made,
  4686.  
  4687. 1049
  4688. 01:47:16,054 --> 01:47:19,057
  4689. and to warn me not to make them
  4690. with my own children.
  4691.  
  4692. 1050
  4693. 01:47:20,559 --> 01:47:24,020
  4694. To release them
  4695. from the chain of our sins,
  4696.  
  4697. 1051
  4698. 01:47:24,104 --> 01:47:27,399
  4699. my father's and mine
  4700. and our fathers' before.
  4701.  
  4702. 1052
  4703. 01:47:28,733 --> 01:47:30,444
  4704. That they may be free...
  4705.  
  4706. 1053
  4707. 01:47:31,153 --> 01:47:34,364
  4708. to make their own choices
  4709. and to live their own lives.
  4710.  
  4711. 1054
  4712. 01:47:36,241 --> 01:47:41,329
  4713. We are ghosts or we are ancestors
  4714. in our children's lives.
  4715.  
  4716. 1055
  4717. 01:47:42,247 --> 01:47:46,084
  4718. We either lay our mistakes,
  4719. our burdens upon them
  4720.  
  4721. 1056
  4722. 01:47:46,543 --> 01:47:47,961
  4723. and we haunt them.
  4724.  
  4725. 1057
  4726. 01:47:49,129 --> 01:47:52,632
  4727. Or we assist them in laying
  4728. those old burdens down,
  4729.  
  4730. 1058
  4731. 01:47:52,966 --> 01:47:57,554
  4732. and we free them from the chain
  4733. of our own flawed behavior.
  4734.  
  4735. 1059
  4736. 01:47:58,763 --> 01:48:02,559
  4737. And as ancestors,
  4738. we walk alongside of them,
  4739.  
  4740. 1060
  4741. 01:48:03,268 --> 01:48:06,062
  4742. and we assist them
  4743. in finding their own way
  4744.  
  4745. 1061
  4746. 01:48:06,688 --> 01:48:08,440
  4747. and some transcendence.
  4748.  
  4749. 1062
  4750. 01:48:09,608 --> 01:48:11,026
  4751. My father...
  4752.  
  4753. 1063
  4754. 01:48:12,611 --> 01:48:16,364
  4755. on that day, was petitioning me
  4756.  
  4757. 1064
  4758. 01:48:17,240 --> 01:48:20,285
  4759. for an ancestral role in my life
  4760.  
  4761. 1065
  4762. 01:48:20,368 --> 01:48:24,706
  4763. after being a ghost for a long, long time.
  4764.  
  4765. 1066
  4766. 01:48:25,957 --> 01:48:30,754
  4767. He wanted me to write
  4768. a new end to our relationship,
  4769.  
  4770. 1067
  4771. 01:48:31,046 --> 01:48:34,841
  4772. and he wanted me to be ready
  4773. for the new beginning
  4774.  
  4775. 1068
  4776. 01:48:35,759 --> 01:48:37,969
  4777. that I was about to experience.
  4778.  
  4779. 1069
  4780. 01:48:42,599 --> 01:48:45,519
  4781. It was the greatest moment
  4782. in my life with my dad.
  4783.  
  4784. 1070
  4785. 01:48:46,353 --> 01:48:48,188
  4786. And it was all that I needed.
  4787.  
  4788. 1071
  4789. 01:48:56,321 --> 01:48:58,198
  4790. Yeah.
  4791.  
  4792. 1072
  4793. 01:52:47,802 --> 01:52:48,887
  4794. All right.
  4795.  
  4796. 1073
  4797. 01:52:49,888 --> 01:52:52,599
  4798. I never believed that people come
  4799. to my shows
  4800.  
  4801. 1074
  4802. 01:52:52,682 --> 01:52:55,477
  4803. or to rock shows in general
  4804. to be told anything.
  4805.  
  4806. 1075
  4807. 01:52:57,896 --> 01:52:58,730
  4808. But...
  4809.  
  4810. 1076
  4811. 01:52:59,481 --> 01:53:02,108
  4812. I do believe that they come
  4813. to be reminded of things,
  4814.  
  4815. 1077
  4816. 01:53:02,192 --> 01:53:04,986
  4817. to be reminded of who they are
  4818. at their most joyous,
  4819.  
  4820. 1078
  4821. 01:53:05,069 --> 01:53:07,322
  4822. at their deepest when life feels full.
  4823.  
  4824. 1079
  4825. 01:53:07,864 --> 01:53:10,408
  4826. It's a good place to get in touch
  4827. with your heart and your spirit.
  4828.  
  4829. 1080
  4830. 01:53:10,492 --> 01:53:12,285
  4831. It's good to be amongst the crowd,
  4832.  
  4833. 1081
  4834. 01:53:12,869 --> 01:53:15,622
  4835. be reminded of who we are
  4836. and who we can be collectively.
  4837.  
  4838. 1082
  4839. 01:53:15,705 --> 01:53:17,916
  4840. Music does those things pretty well.
  4841.  
  4842. 1083
  4843. 01:53:18,458 --> 01:53:21,669
  4844. Sometimes, they can come in pretty handy.
  4845.  
  4846. 1084
  4847. 01:53:22,587 --> 01:53:24,964
  4848. And particularly these days,
  4849. when some reminding
  4850.  
  4851. 1085
  4852. 01:53:25,548 --> 01:53:28,426
  4853. of who we are and who we can be
  4854. isn't such a bad thing.
  4855.  
  4856. 1086
  4857. 01:53:28,510 --> 01:53:29,552
  4858. You know?
  4859.  
  4860. 1087
  4861. 01:53:36,810 --> 01:53:40,730
  4862. I-- I refer back to the weekend
  4863. of the March for Our Lives
  4864.  
  4865. 1088
  4866. 01:53:40,814 --> 01:53:43,233
  4867. when we saw all those young people
  4868. in Washington,
  4869.  
  4870. 1089
  4871. 01:53:43,316 --> 01:53:45,318
  4872. and citizens all around the country,
  4873.  
  4874. 1090
  4875. 01:53:45,401 --> 01:53:48,029
  4876. remind us of what faith in America
  4877.  
  4878. 1091
  4879. 01:53:48,112 --> 01:53:50,698
  4880. and what real faith in American democracy
  4881.  
  4882. 1092
  4883. 01:53:51,241 --> 01:53:53,201
  4884. and how sacred that is.
  4885.  
  4886. 1093
  4887. 01:54:00,416 --> 01:54:01,543
  4888. You know...
  4889.  
  4890. 1094
  4891. 01:54:02,752 --> 01:54:07,298
  4892. that weekend, you just saw
  4893. what it actually looked and felt like.
  4894.  
  4895. 1095
  4896. 01:54:07,882 --> 01:54:09,467
  4897. It was just encouraging
  4898.  
  4899. 1096
  4900. 01:54:10,093 --> 01:54:12,428
  4901. to see all those people out on the street
  4902.  
  4903. 1097
  4904. 01:54:12,512 --> 01:54:16,599
  4905. and all that righteous passion alive
  4906. in the service of something good.
  4907.  
  4908. 1098
  4909. 01:54:17,517 --> 01:54:19,185
  4910. To see it's still there,
  4911.  
  4912. 1099
  4913. 01:54:20,186 --> 01:54:22,939
  4914. at the center of the beating heart
  4915. of our country...
  4916.  
  4917. 1100
  4918. 01:54:24,148 --> 01:54:25,233
  4919. and...
  4920.  
  4921. 1101
  4922. 01:54:26,901 --> 01:54:29,946
  4923. in spite of what we've been going through.
  4924. And it was a good day, you know?
  4925.  
  4926. 1102
  4927. 01:54:30,029 --> 01:54:31,239
  4928. It was just...
  4929.  
  4930. 1103
  4931. 01:54:31,948 --> 01:54:33,741
  4932. it was just one good day.
  4933.  
  4934. 1104
  4935. 01:54:34,784 --> 01:54:36,744
  4936. But it was a necessary day.
  4937.  
  4938. 1105
  4939. 01:54:37,370 --> 01:54:40,790
  4940. Because these are times
  4941. when we've also seen folks marching,
  4942.  
  4943. 1106
  4944. 01:54:40,874 --> 01:54:46,045
  4945. and in the highest offices of our land,
  4946. who want to speak to our darkest angels,
  4947.  
  4948. 1107
  4949. 01:54:46,379 --> 01:54:50,091
  4950. who want to call up the ugliest
  4951. and the most divisive ghosts
  4952.  
  4953. 1108
  4954. 01:54:50,174 --> 01:54:53,928
  4955. of America's past.
  4956. And they want to destroy the idea
  4957.  
  4958. 1109
  4959. 01:54:54,012 --> 01:54:56,764
  4960. of an America for all.
  4961. That's their intention.
  4962.  
  4963. 1110
  4964. 01:54:57,307 --> 01:54:59,517
  4965. That's what we've been seeing,
  4966. in the outrage
  4967.  
  4968. 1111
  4969. 01:54:59,601 --> 01:55:01,978
  4970. of the broken families on the border,
  4971.  
  4972. 1112
  4973. 01:55:02,061 --> 01:55:07,191
  4974. and in hate-filled marches
  4975. on American streets this year.
  4976.  
  4977. 1113
  4978. 01:55:07,567 --> 01:55:13,364
  4979. Things I never thought
  4980. I would see again in my lifetime.
  4981.  
  4982. 1114
  4983. 01:55:13,448 --> 01:55:17,327
  4984. Things that I thought
  4985. were dead and gone...
  4986.  
  4987. 1115
  4988. 01:55:18,036 --> 01:55:21,331
  4989. forever, on the ash heap of history.
  4990.  
  4991. 1116
  4992. 01:55:22,123 --> 01:55:23,249
  4993. You know...
  4994.  
  4995. 1117
  4996. 01:55:24,626 --> 01:55:26,920
  4997. We've come too far and worked too hard,
  4998.  
  4999. 1118
  5000. 01:55:27,003 --> 01:55:30,590
  5001. too many good people paid
  5002. too high a price,
  5003.  
  5004. 1119
  5005. 01:55:31,132 --> 01:55:35,678
  5006. paid with their lives,
  5007. to allow this to happen now.
  5008.  
  5009. 1120
  5010. 01:55:36,846 --> 01:55:38,723
  5011. You know...
  5012.  
  5013. 1121
  5014. 01:55:39,641 --> 01:55:42,936
  5015. There's been too much hard work done,
  5016.  
  5017. 1122
  5018. 01:55:43,853 --> 01:55:45,146
  5019. and sacrifice.
  5020.  
  5021. 1123
  5022. 01:55:46,940 --> 01:55:48,858
  5023. There's a beautiful quote by Dr. King
  5024.  
  5025. 1124
  5026. 01:55:48,942 --> 01:55:51,027
  5027. that says,
  5028. "The arc of the moral universe is long,
  5029.  
  5030. 1125
  5031. 01:55:51,110 --> 01:55:52,737
  5032. but it bends toward justice."
  5033.  
  5034. 1126
  5035. 01:55:53,488 --> 01:55:57,533
  5036. It is important to believe in those words
  5037. and to carry yourself
  5038.  
  5039. 1127
  5040. 01:55:58,117 --> 01:56:01,454
  5041. and to act accordingly,
  5042. to live with compassion.
  5043.  
  5044. 1128
  5045. 01:56:02,455 --> 01:56:05,166
  5046. And to have faith
  5047. in that what we're seeing now,
  5048.  
  5049. 1129
  5050. 01:56:05,750 --> 01:56:07,627
  5051. it's just another hard chapter...
  5052.  
  5053. 1130
  5054. 01:56:08,544 --> 01:56:11,464
  5055. in the long, long, ongoing battle
  5056.  
  5057. 1131
  5058. 01:56:12,465 --> 01:56:14,175
  5059. for the soul of the nation.
  5060.  
  5061. 1132
  5062. 02:05:24,934 --> 02:05:28,437
  5063. I always--
  5064. I always thought I was a typical American,
  5065.  
  5066. 1133
  5067. 02:05:28,521 --> 02:05:31,857
  5068. and so I fought my whole life,
  5069. and I studied and I played
  5070.  
  5071. 1134
  5072. 02:05:31,941 --> 02:05:33,734
  5073. and I worked,
  5074.  
  5075. 1135
  5076. 02:05:33,817 --> 02:05:37,404
  5077. 'cause I wanted to hear and I wanted
  5078. to know the whole American story.
  5079.  
  5080. 1136
  5081. 02:05:38,489 --> 02:05:41,825
  5082. I wanted to know my story
  5083. and your story.
  5084.  
  5085. 1137
  5086. 02:05:42,743 --> 02:05:45,538
  5087. I felt like I needed to understand
  5088. as much of it as I could
  5089.  
  5090. 1138
  5091. 02:05:45,621 --> 02:05:47,581
  5092. in order to understand myself.
  5093.  
  5094. 1139
  5095. 02:05:48,290 --> 02:05:50,334
  5096. You know? Who was I? And...
  5097.  
  5098. 1140
  5099. 02:05:51,627 --> 02:05:54,046
  5100. where I came from and what that meant.
  5101.  
  5102. 1141
  5103. 02:05:54,880 --> 02:05:58,300
  5104. What did it mean to my family?
  5105. Where was I going?
  5106.  
  5107. 1142
  5108. 02:05:59,426 --> 02:06:01,762
  5109. Where were we going together
  5110. as a people?
  5111.  
  5112. 1143
  5113. 02:06:02,346 --> 02:06:05,474
  5114. And-- and what did it mean
  5115. to be an American?
  5116.  
  5117. 1144
  5118. 02:06:05,975 --> 02:06:11,689
  5119. And to be a part of that story
  5120. in this place and in this time.
  5121.  
  5122. 1145
  5123. 02:06:12,815 --> 02:06:16,193
  5124. I wanted to be able to celebrate
  5125. and honor its beauty,
  5126.  
  5127. 1146
  5128. 02:06:17,570 --> 02:06:18,779
  5129. its power.
  5130.  
  5131. 1147
  5132. 02:06:19,697 --> 02:06:21,949
  5133. And I wanted to be able
  5134. to be a critical voice
  5135.  
  5136. 1148
  5137. 02:06:22,032 --> 02:06:24,910
  5138. when I thought that
  5139. that's what the times called for.
  5140.  
  5141. 1149
  5142. 02:06:25,536 --> 02:06:26,954
  5143. But most of all,
  5144.  
  5145. 1150
  5146. 02:06:27,037 --> 02:06:31,000
  5147. more than anything else, I wanted
  5148. to be able to tell that story well to you.
  5149.  
  5150. 1151
  5151. 02:06:32,418 --> 02:06:34,920
  5152. That was my young promise to myself.
  5153.  
  5154. 1152
  5155. 02:06:35,588 --> 02:06:37,756
  5156. And this was my young promise to you.
  5157.  
  5158. 1153
  5159. 02:06:38,215 --> 02:06:40,426
  5160. From when I was a very young man,
  5161.  
  5162. 1154
  5163. 02:06:41,176 --> 02:06:43,262
  5164. I took my fun very seriously.
  5165.  
  5166. 1155
  5167. 02:06:43,345 --> 02:06:45,180
  5168. You know?
  5169.  
  5170. 1156
  5171. 02:06:45,264 --> 02:06:47,975
  5172. And this is what I have pursued
  5173. as my service.
  5174.  
  5175. 1157
  5176. 02:06:48,058 --> 02:06:51,937
  5177. I still believe in it as such.
  5178. This is what I've presented to you
  5179.  
  5180. 1158
  5181. 02:06:52,021 --> 02:06:55,524
  5182. all these years
  5183. as my long and noisy prayer,
  5184.  
  5185. 1159
  5186. 02:06:55,608 --> 02:06:58,986
  5187. as my magic trick.
  5188.  
  5189. 1160
  5190. 02:07:04,950 --> 02:07:06,201
  5191. I wanted...
  5192.  
  5193. 1161
  5194. 02:07:06,952 --> 02:07:10,414
  5195. I wanted to rock your very soul!
  5196.  
  5197. 1162
  5198. 02:07:10,914 --> 02:07:14,960
  5199. And have you bring it home
  5200. and pass it on and...
  5201.  
  5202. 1163
  5203. 02:07:15,544 --> 02:07:20,549
  5204. I wanted it to be sung and altered by you
  5205. and your folks and your children,
  5206.  
  5207. 1164
  5208. 02:07:20,633 --> 02:07:21,967
  5209. should they be interested.
  5210.  
  5211. 1165
  5212. 02:07:22,885 --> 02:07:25,429
  5213. I wanted it to be something
  5214. that you could call on
  5215.  
  5216. 1166
  5217. 02:07:25,512 --> 02:07:27,181
  5218. when things were good.
  5219.  
  5220. 1167
  5221. 02:07:28,140 --> 02:07:29,016
  5222. And, uh...
  5223.  
  5224. 1168
  5225. 02:07:29,975 --> 02:07:31,894
  5226. and when things were not so good.
  5227.  
  5228. 1169
  5229. 02:07:32,811 --> 02:07:36,523
  5230. You know, that it might strengthen,
  5231. help make sense of...
  5232.  
  5233. 1170
  5234. 02:07:37,149 --> 02:07:40,569
  5235. your story and your life the way
  5236. that you strengthen me and help me
  5237.  
  5238. 1171
  5239. 02:07:40,653 --> 02:07:43,614
  5240. make sense of my life.
  5241. You've provided me with purpose,
  5242.  
  5243. 1172
  5244. 02:07:44,239 --> 02:07:47,868
  5245. with meaning and with a great,
  5246. great amount of joy.
  5247.  
  5248. 1173
  5249. 02:07:48,369 --> 02:07:49,828
  5250. I hope I've done that for you
  5251.  
  5252. 1174
  5253. 02:07:49,912 --> 02:07:52,373
  5254. and that I've been
  5255. a good traveling companion.
  5256.  
  5257. 1175
  5258. 02:07:56,960 --> 02:08:01,548
  5259. Remember that the future
  5260. is not yet written.
  5261.  
  5262. 1176
  5263. 02:08:02,049 --> 02:08:07,680
  5264. So when things look dark,
  5265. do as my mighty mom would insist,
  5266.  
  5267. 1177
  5268. 02:08:08,097 --> 02:08:11,975
  5269. lace up your dancing shoes
  5270. and get to work.
  5271.  
  5272. 1178
  5273. 02:10:12,763 --> 02:10:14,640
  5274. There's a joke here somewhere.
  5275.  
  5276. 1179
  5277. 02:10:15,849 --> 02:10:17,935
  5278. When I figure it out, I'll let you know.
  5279.  
  5280. 1180
  5281. 02:15:48,849 --> 02:15:50,142
  5282. Whoo!
  5283.  
  5284. 1181
  5285. 02:16:12,789 --> 02:16:14,082
  5286. Thank you.
  5287.  
  5288. 1182
  5289. 02:16:14,416 --> 02:16:15,667
  5290. Please...
  5291.  
  5292. 1183
  5293. 02:16:16,251 --> 02:16:19,045
  5294. be seated.
  5295.  
  5296. 1184
  5297. 02:16:19,713 --> 02:16:23,592
  5298. It was a beautiful fall November evening.
  5299. It was during the writing of my book.
  5300.  
  5301. 1185
  5302. 02:16:23,967 --> 02:16:26,678
  5303. I drove back to my neighborhood
  5304. where I grew up,
  5305.  
  5306. 1186
  5307. 02:16:27,554 --> 02:16:28,889
  5308. looking for, uh...
  5309.  
  5310. 1187
  5311. 02:16:31,850 --> 02:16:33,560
  5312. I still don't have a fucking clue.
  5313.  
  5314. 1188
  5315. 02:16:33,643 --> 02:16:35,353
  5316. All right?
  5317.  
  5318. 1189
  5319. 02:16:35,437 --> 02:16:36,771
  5320. But, uh...
  5321.  
  5322. 1190
  5323. 02:16:37,689 --> 02:16:39,774
  5324. All I know is the streets were dead empty
  5325.  
  5326. 1191
  5327. 02:16:39,858 --> 02:16:44,529
  5328. and the whole place looked
  5329. like it had been locked down since 1955.
  5330.  
  5331. 1192
  5332. 02:16:45,447 --> 02:16:47,782
  5333. My corner church was silent and unchanged,
  5334.  
  5335. 1193
  5336. 02:16:47,866 --> 02:16:50,118
  5337. no weddings, no funerals. I...
  5338.  
  5339. 1194
  5340. 02:16:50,577 --> 02:16:53,455
  5341. rolled slowly another 50 yards up my block
  5342.  
  5343. 1195
  5344. 02:16:53,538 --> 02:16:56,208
  5345. to visit my great tree, and it was gone.
  5346.  
  5347. 1196
  5348. 02:16:57,584 --> 02:17:02,005
  5349. It had been cut to the street
  5350. since the last time I had drove through.
  5351.  
  5352. 1197
  5353. 02:17:02,797 --> 02:17:06,176
  5354. So I got out of the car
  5355. and I looked down and there was a...
  5356.  
  5357. 1198
  5358. 02:17:06,927 --> 02:17:11,097
  5359. square of musty earth that held
  5360. the remaining snakes of its roots
  5361.  
  5362. 1199
  5363. 02:17:11,181 --> 02:17:13,058
  5364. on the edge of a parking lot.
  5365.  
  5366. 1200
  5367. 02:17:13,516 --> 02:17:16,728
  5368. So I reached down and I picked up
  5369. a handful of dirt
  5370.  
  5371. 1201
  5372. 02:17:17,103 --> 02:17:19,522
  5373. and I just kind of ran it
  5374. through my hands.
  5375.  
  5376. 1202
  5377. 02:17:20,774 --> 02:17:23,151
  5378. And my heart sank like...
  5379.  
  5380. 1203
  5381. 02:17:24,110 --> 02:17:26,947
  5382. like a kid who had suffered
  5383. some irretrievable loss.
  5384.  
  5385. 1204
  5386. 02:17:27,030 --> 02:17:28,448
  5387. You know, like some...
  5388.  
  5389. 1205
  5390. 02:17:29,824 --> 02:17:32,827
  5391. some piece of me was gone.
  5392.  
  5393. 1206
  5394. 02:17:34,913 --> 02:17:36,206
  5395. Um...
  5396.  
  5397. 1207
  5398. 02:17:38,416 --> 02:17:40,835
  5399. I don't know. I guess I...
  5400.  
  5401. 1208
  5402. 02:17:43,338 --> 02:17:46,091
  5403. It was just it had been there
  5404. long before I was.
  5405.  
  5406. 1209
  5407. 02:17:46,174 --> 02:17:49,177
  5408. I assumed it would be there
  5409. long after I was gone.
  5410.  
  5411. 1210
  5412. 02:17:49,261 --> 02:17:51,054
  5413. And I liked that.
  5414.  
  5415. 1211
  5416. 02:17:51,846 --> 02:17:53,723
  5417. It-- It felt eternal.
  5418.  
  5419. 1212
  5420. 02:17:54,307 --> 02:17:58,687
  5421. It was at the center of our street
  5422. and it had rooted
  5423.  
  5424. 1213
  5425. 02:17:59,854 --> 02:18:03,817
  5426. our neighborhood for so long.
  5427.  
  5428. 1214
  5429. 02:18:04,734 --> 02:18:07,821
  5430. So I sat there for a while
  5431. just cursing the county.
  5432.  
  5433. 1215
  5434. 02:18:08,655 --> 02:18:11,157
  5435. And listening to the sounds
  5436. of the evening come on,
  5437.  
  5438. 1216
  5439. 02:18:11,241 --> 02:18:14,244
  5440. and I looked again
  5441. and I realized it was gone, but some...
  5442.  
  5443. 1217
  5444. 02:18:15,245 --> 02:18:17,497
  5445. some essential piece of it
  5446. was still there,
  5447.  
  5448. 1218
  5449. 02:18:17,580 --> 02:18:20,166
  5450. the air and the space above its roots.
  5451.  
  5452. 1219
  5453. 02:18:20,792 --> 02:18:25,005
  5454. I could still feel the life
  5455. and the soul and the light
  5456.  
  5457. 1220
  5458. 02:18:25,964 --> 02:18:28,174
  5459. of my childhood friend there.
  5460.  
  5461. 1221
  5462. 02:18:29,467 --> 02:18:32,429
  5463. It's just that its leaves, its branches
  5464. and its massive trunk
  5465.  
  5466. 1222
  5467. 02:18:32,512 --> 02:18:36,599
  5468. were now outlined, shot through,
  5469.  
  5470. 1223
  5471. 02:18:37,392 --> 02:18:40,103
  5472. by evening stars and sky.
  5473.  
  5474. 1224
  5475. 02:18:41,271 --> 02:18:45,483
  5476. But my great tree's life couldn't be ended
  5477. or erased so easily
  5478.  
  5479. 1225
  5480. 02:18:46,234 --> 02:18:48,361
  5481. from this place, because it's history,
  5482.  
  5483. 1226
  5484. 02:18:49,154 --> 02:18:50,488
  5485. and history matters.
  5486.  
  5487. 1227
  5488. 02:18:51,531 --> 02:18:53,450
  5489. Its imprint was too great.
  5490.  
  5491. 1228
  5492. 02:18:53,533 --> 02:18:57,495
  5493. It was too old and it was too strong,
  5494. and it had been there too long...
  5495.  
  5496. 1229
  5497. 02:18:58,413 --> 02:19:00,415
  5498. to be done away with so easily.
  5499.  
  5500. 1230
  5501. 02:19:00,498 --> 02:19:02,125
  5502. It had stood witness
  5503.  
  5504. 1231
  5505. 02:19:02,959 --> 02:19:07,881
  5506. to everything that had happened
  5507. on these small streets beneath its arms.
  5508.  
  5509. 1232
  5510. 02:19:08,590 --> 02:19:09,883
  5511. All the joy...
  5512.  
  5513. 1233
  5514. 02:19:11,134 --> 02:19:12,677
  5515. and all the heartbreak.
  5516.  
  5517. 1234
  5518. 02:19:14,304 --> 02:19:15,764
  5519. And all the life.
  5520.  
  5521. 1235
  5522. 02:19:18,308 --> 02:19:23,396
  5523. And we live amongst ghosts,
  5524. always trying to reach us...
  5525.  
  5526. 1236
  5527. 02:19:25,732 --> 02:19:27,400
  5528. from that shadow world.
  5529.  
  5530. 1237
  5531. 02:19:28,360 --> 02:19:30,570
  5532. They're with us every step of the way.
  5533.  
  5534. 1238
  5535. 02:19:31,780 --> 02:19:34,282
  5536. You know,
  5537. my dead father's still with me every day.
  5538.  
  5539. 1239
  5540. 02:19:34,366 --> 02:19:36,785
  5541. I miss him, and if I had a wish...
  5542.  
  5543. 1240
  5544. 02:19:38,286 --> 02:19:39,746
  5545. Oh, man...
  5546.  
  5547. 1241
  5548. 02:19:41,748 --> 02:19:44,167
  5549. I wish he could have been here
  5550. to see this.
  5551.  
  5552. 1242
  5553. 02:19:47,962 --> 02:19:50,882
  5554. But I visit with him every night.
  5555.  
  5556. 1243
  5557. 02:19:52,050 --> 02:19:55,011
  5558. A little bit. That's a grace-filled thing.
  5559.  
  5560. 1244
  5561. 02:19:55,095 --> 02:19:56,930
  5562. And Clarence, I get to...
  5563.  
  5564. 1245
  5565. 02:19:57,931 --> 02:20:01,226
  5566. I get to see and be with Clarence
  5567. a little bit every night.
  5568.  
  5569. 1246
  5570. 02:20:02,602 --> 02:20:03,895
  5571. And Danny...
  5572.  
  5573. 1247
  5574. 02:20:04,562 --> 02:20:05,605
  5575. Walter,
  5576.  
  5577. 1248
  5578. 02:20:06,731 --> 02:20:07,774
  5579. and Bart.
  5580.  
  5581. 1249
  5582. 02:20:07,857 --> 02:20:10,568
  5583. My own family, so many of them gone...
  5584.  
  5585. 1250
  5586. 02:20:11,361 --> 02:20:15,240
  5587. from these houses that are now filled
  5588. by strangers, but the soul...
  5589.  
  5590. 1251
  5591. 02:20:15,907 --> 02:20:17,742
  5592. the soul is a stubborn thing.
  5593.  
  5594. 1252
  5595. 02:20:18,993 --> 02:20:21,204
  5596. It doesn't dissipate so quickly.
  5597.  
  5598. 1253
  5599. 02:20:21,287 --> 02:20:22,956
  5600. Souls remain.
  5601.  
  5602. 1254
  5603. 02:20:24,040 --> 02:20:26,042
  5604. They remain here in the air,
  5605.  
  5606. 1255
  5607. 02:20:26,668 --> 02:20:28,211
  5608. in empty space,
  5609.  
  5610. 1256
  5611. 02:20:28,920 --> 02:20:30,296
  5612. dusty roots,
  5613.  
  5614. 1257
  5615. 02:20:31,089 --> 02:20:33,675
  5616. in sidewalks
  5617. that I knew every single inch of
  5618.  
  5619. 1258
  5620. 02:20:33,758 --> 02:20:35,635
  5621. like I knew my own body
  5622.  
  5623. 1259
  5624. 02:20:36,261 --> 02:20:37,429
  5625. as a child...
  5626.  
  5627. 1260
  5628. 02:20:39,514 --> 02:20:41,766
  5629. and in the songs that we sing.
  5630.  
  5631. 1261
  5632. 02:20:44,853 --> 02:20:47,772
  5633. You know... That is why we sing.
  5634.  
  5635. 1262
  5636. 02:20:49,566 --> 02:20:52,527
  5637. We sing for our blood and for our people.
  5638.  
  5639. 1263
  5640. 02:20:54,404 --> 02:20:57,532
  5641. Because that's all we have
  5642. at the end of the day.
  5643.  
  5644. 1264
  5645. 02:21:01,703 --> 02:21:03,121
  5646. Each other, and...
  5647.  
  5648. 1265
  5649. 02:21:03,746 --> 02:21:06,207
  5650. maybe that's what I'm looking for
  5651. when I go down there.
  5652.  
  5653. 1266
  5654. 02:21:06,291 --> 02:21:08,042
  5655. I just want to commune...
  5656.  
  5657. 1267
  5658. 02:21:09,043 --> 02:21:10,628
  5659. with the old spirits,
  5660.  
  5661. 1268
  5662. 02:21:11,713 --> 02:21:13,465
  5663. stand in their presence,
  5664.  
  5665. 1269
  5666. 02:21:14,007 --> 02:21:15,925
  5667. feel their hands on me...
  5668.  
  5669. 1270
  5670. 02:21:23,516 --> 02:21:24,893
  5671. one more time.
  5672.  
  5673. 1271
  5674. 02:21:28,646 --> 02:21:32,233
  5675. Anyway, once again, I stood in the shadow
  5676. of my old church, you know?
  5677.  
  5678. 1272
  5679. 02:21:32,317 --> 02:21:34,611
  5680. You know what they say about Catholics?
  5681.  
  5682. 1273
  5683. 02:21:35,778 --> 02:21:38,865
  5684. Yeah, there's no getting out.
  5685.  
  5686. 1274
  5687. 02:21:38,948 --> 02:21:42,577
  5688. No, no. You know,
  5689. once they got you, they got you.
  5690.  
  5691. 1275
  5692. 02:21:42,660 --> 02:21:45,497
  5693. The bastards got you
  5694. when the gettin' was good.
  5695.  
  5696. 1276
  5697. 02:21:46,080 --> 02:21:49,042
  5698. They did their work hard
  5699. and they did it well.
  5700.  
  5701. 1277
  5702. 02:21:50,835 --> 02:21:54,839
  5703. 'Cause the words of a very strange
  5704. but all too familiar benediction
  5705.  
  5706. 1278
  5707. 02:21:54,923 --> 02:21:57,800
  5708. came back to me that evening.
  5709.  
  5710. 1279
  5711. 02:21:58,468 --> 02:22:01,095
  5712. And I want to tell you,
  5713. these were words that as a kid,
  5714.  
  5715. 1280
  5716. 02:22:01,179 --> 02:22:04,599
  5717. I mumbled these things,
  5718. I singsonged them,
  5719.  
  5720. 1281
  5721. 02:22:04,682 --> 02:22:08,895
  5722. I... chanted them,
  5723. bored out of my fucking mind
  5724.  
  5725. 1282
  5726. 02:22:08,978 --> 02:22:11,898
  5727. in an endless drone before class
  5728.  
  5729. 1283
  5730. 02:22:11,981 --> 02:22:15,568
  5731. every fucking day.
  5732.  
  5733. 1284
  5734. 02:22:15,652 --> 02:22:19,489
  5735. Every day, the green blazer,
  5736. the green tie, the green trousers,
  5737.  
  5738. 1285
  5739. 02:22:19,572 --> 02:22:23,993
  5740. the green socks of all
  5741. of St. Rose's unwilling disciples.
  5742.  
  5743. 1286
  5744. 02:22:28,081 --> 02:22:29,165
  5745. You know?
  5746.  
  5747. 1287
  5748. 02:22:29,666 --> 02:22:31,626
  5749. But for some damn reason
  5750.  
  5751. 1288
  5752. 02:22:32,669 --> 02:22:35,880
  5753. as I sat there on my street that night,
  5754.  
  5755. 1289
  5756. 02:22:37,465 --> 02:22:41,177
  5757. you know, mourning, mourning my old tree,
  5758.  
  5759. 1290
  5760. 02:22:42,136 --> 02:22:44,889
  5761. and once again surrounded by God,
  5762.  
  5763. 1291
  5764. 02:22:46,516 --> 02:22:49,894
  5765. those were the words that came back
  5766. to me and they flowed differently.
  5767.  
  5768. 1292
  5769. 02:22:52,939 --> 02:22:56,442
  5770. It was "Our Father, who art in Heaven,
  5771. hallowed be thy name,
  5772.  
  5773. 1293
  5774. 02:22:56,776 --> 02:22:58,319
  5775. thy kingdom come,
  5776.  
  5777. 1294
  5778. 02:22:59,612 --> 02:23:01,823
  5779. thy will be done on this Earth
  5780.  
  5781. 1295
  5782. 02:23:02,574 --> 02:23:04,033
  5783. as it is in Heaven.
  5784.  
  5785. 1296
  5786. 02:23:05,243 --> 02:23:07,161
  5787. Give us this day.
  5788.  
  5789. 1297
  5790. 02:23:07,996 --> 02:23:10,582
  5791. Just give us this day, and forgive us
  5792.  
  5793. 1298
  5794. 02:23:11,583 --> 02:23:14,127
  5795. our sins, our trespasses,
  5796.  
  5797. 1299
  5798. 02:23:14,210 --> 02:23:17,547
  5799. as we may forgive those
  5800. who trespass against us.
  5801.  
  5802. 1300
  5803. 02:23:17,964 --> 02:23:21,676
  5804. Lead us not into temptation
  5805. but deliver us from evil,
  5806.  
  5807. 1301
  5808. 02:23:22,093 --> 02:23:23,386
  5809. all of us,
  5810.  
  5811. 1302
  5812. 02:23:24,804 --> 02:23:26,806
  5813. forever and ever. Amen."
  5814.  
  5815. 1303
  5816. 02:23:35,315 --> 02:23:40,111
  5817. May God bless you, your family,
  5818. and all those that you love.
  5819.  
  5820. 1304
  5821. 02:23:40,737 --> 02:23:42,739
  5822. And thanks for coming out tonight.
  5823.  
  5824. 1305
  5825. 02:27:56,868 --> 02:27:59,871
  5826. Bruce!
  5827.  
  5828. 1306
  5829. 02:28:01,747 --> 02:28:02,623
  5830. Thank you.
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