Ph leaving topic

TLDR: Can't keep trying to meddle in the clan's affairs, and i can't keep forcing my self to stay up late at night and sleeping so little for even fewer redeeming prospects.


Long version i didn't revise it - this is a shoot just wrote it once and kept writing till the end, its pretty random and incoherent and its a ramble because i didn't actually sleep today!.

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I knew from the first day i pked with ph in late December 2008 that i stumbled onto something that had unique potential; ph wasn't my first clan I've seen what persistence and dedication and proper guiding can accomplish on Runescape - it can lead to levels of fun, solidarity and enjoyment that you never could have ever perceived or imagined.

That's what i liked about ph, there was a group of people that didn't know Runescape Community existed, didn't know about the importance of IRC, teamspeak or forums and hell some of them fought the clans they encountered at low level wild just opened on the same day (some ph member thought trwf was a new clan in 2009 lol!).

What am trying to say, i've been around and i did my part for this clan, in 2009 i saw that potential being over shadowed by repetitive mistakes made by a key individual i knew i had to suggest and influence and eventually lead to get the clan to a stage where they could be laid back and be "That" clan that everyone wants to fight because they give good fights.

And we accomplished everything together - i take no credit what so ever, i give credit to all the members that stayed, understood the long term achievements we will obtain from suffering through short term obstacles, for example, several events in ph were simply focused on 'avoiding' dk in the widlerness others were to waste dk's time (and to some extent ours). The reason am bringing this up - is to let you know i am no hypocrite i know what i did when i lead and i know what i put my clan through and i learned from those mistakes.

Which brings me to the next point, am sure everyone is aware of the fact i haven't really had pure fun in ph for a long time but here you see me trying again and again to rejoin and to get active and to help around and to give input and constructive criticism and what not, that holds very little redeeming value for me seeing as i stay up late to two - four am just for events that i don't even enjoy.


What changed it all for ph was the February update of 2011, that single update ruined our clan: it made greed rampant, it brought inner flaming, inner drama, crash trips and so on and so on it brought the worst of us and just like these times, we needed selfless people at selfish times. Luckily we had that and we still do.

Longer ramble, incoherent:
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Whats the point of this post? am really tired of quitting and rejoining only to get disappointed and frustrated again and again and again, coming back to RS and seeing the potential ph had yet was just wasted doing the most stupidest shit possible on RS at crucial times broke my heart, it felt like when i lead i wanted everyone to experience greatness, to give them that event they can say 'i was proud to be apart of that' 'i honor that' but it felt like ph was just using its numbers for a meat grinder, just numbers! thats what we all were just fucking numbers. These members that show loyalty and respect they deserve to be treated better than this there must be an end result, a reward they can  cherish forever and ph has yet to give them any of that.

its like that time when we were pulling 20s to fight clans with 50s and just staying through the cap, yes it built up amazing man for man quality and really helped us in the long run but at that time that really frustrated some members, yes i listened eventually and stopped (IT was only ONE WEEK NOT A FUCKING long PERIOD) and if you go back and check you'll know i warned in advance that thats whats going to happen a predicable slump and what did ph do? Everyone pulled through and payed their dues.

Player safety and player enjoyment these are two aspects that are entangled and inseparable, this is something seized to offer to its members (i mean not allowing hackers join that end up hacking/spying and giving people good wars to remember such as the First downfall war or the biggest dk war or even the genesis tourney war).

At this point of the post am pretty sure no one has read anything, as i pretty much summed it up in two sentences, it broke my heart to see how much effort and time morgan put into that summer's award, ph could never probably give her that great war in return... its too late to do things right now.

I never imagined it but i actually stopped caring about ph just a week ago, i literary don't care about a clan that doesn't CARE ABOUT ITS SELF, the clan is so focused on some other its ..its inexplicable What is this OBSESSION and here comes the real shoot, if you want people to fucking crash? or get motivated when they are being crashed? then MOTIVATE THEM.

Get rid these jabronies that you call officials, It should be Krunal, lathus and too only rest of you monkey jabronies don't contribute too much. Its their fucking duty to motivate me and YOU to try and war and be the best we can be and get pumped and feel so obliged to attend events, but they dont, they dont even know where the clan is going they dont even know what the hell their supposed to do? either get rid of them or actually tell them what to do?.

Enough about the Jabronies, dont even fucking deny the fact you see us as numbers reward us not by fucking signature, but by putting us through real wars NOT STOPPING TO CLEAR every 5 seconds, but to war and fucking tank and snipe and get piled and get sniped and bind and blast and return and then and then AND THEN ... AND THEN when we just had enough and ready to fucking slice the crashers you then stop. And then we clear them, not going to fucking lie but when Ni would crash us in 2006 we could do very very little other than submit you couldn't fight them even if you tried you would lose but there was one clan nI would crash and they would still continue fighting regardless.

Get the members to care about the clan, you can do that its not too late for that, its too late to build a back bone or a deterrence built, its way too late to do things right for the overall clan, its not too late to do the best for the members..

Oh and lastly when some one fucking tells you that a member wants to quit and hints at a possible solution yu can implement, why is he ignored? why should that member be allowed to part ways...

I could on and on and on and aon aondsandasndon...

I dont wanna even try to revise this, i shot it all at once, its incoherent, you dont have to read any of it.

I could just say good job to all the ph members that struck through and all the new members (90% of the clan) for caring and trying!, thank all.

Sorry i aint gona go into a name list and name the attributes i liked about each member.
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jabronies.. Piece of a shit no good motherfuckers, suplex them but them in a Camel clutch break their back and fuck them in the ass and make them humble. Would love if for sheiky baby to take care of some players on this game.
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Do whatever you want with me, retire or guest i dont think i'll ever get the ph spirit again.