xKARMAx: I think I’m just….. I don’t know, over how everything revolves around you and your needs.. I left Monday pissed about how you were talking to me, and assuming how I was feeling and what I was thinking, never once just asking me how I was feeling or wat I was thinking.. and here we are, just all about you again like normal. Ne regards to how I’m feeling or wat I am thinking. New hair… new partials.. new tune… and then right into my pants… starting to relize why I am here.. nothing about me matters, long as your getting wat you want.. which is why its been so easy to just not be here.. I don’t need to cater to you and your needs.. all I am is like your toy.. how I feel, how you make me feel, and I just don’t like it..so this is why im not in the mood, not that you care how I am feeling or wat I am thinking.. but there it is.. you make me feel like I am just your toy and only your needs matter..
xKRAVEx: Tuesday all I did was ask if you were off on Monday, you said you worked from home, and I asked if everything was ok at home, 1. because I thought maybe mel had gotten sick and 2. because I knew that you aren't generally off on Federal holidays. I wasn't trying to assume anything, hence asking the question "was everyone ok at home", sorry I came across that way. You aren't just my toy, I get told to show my feelings, and express myself, so that is what I was doing... I ask you every morning "how was your day or how was your evening" because I want to know but I don't get much from it so I ask questions like I did Tuesday... Nothing has to revolove around me, or my needs, or my wants... All attempt to do is share things with you, not make it all about me. I am sorry for being selfish, I am sorry for making you feel and think the way you do. I don't need to be catered too... You aren't my toy never have been and never have been thought of that way, and I am sorry you feel that way... your feelings do matter to me, or I wouldnt ask "how your days was" or "how your evening was" or "how your weekend was"... I ask because I want to know, but I am sorry for making you feel like it's all about me, and my needs.
xKRAVEx: I need to pee/
xKRAVEx: kiss
xKRAVEx: iloveyoubaby
xKRAVEx: brb
xKRAVEx: everyone should be everything.. typo
xKARMAx: yeah well.. again i am wrong to feel the way i do.. all my fault.. sorry sorry sorry.. i will not feel that way anymore
xKRAVEx: i never said that
xKRAVEx: how did you get that out of what i said? i was apologizing to you, not critizing you for feeling the way you do.
xKARMAx: forget it
xKARMAx: and you assuming on Tuesday.. smh..
xKARMAx: assuiming i was upset at you
xKARMAx: assuming i didnt like it cause he was home
xKARMAx: never once asking me how i felt
xKARMAx: or wat i thought
xKARMAx: just placing words in my mouth like normal
xKRAVEx: I am sorry for putting words in your mouth and assuming.
xKARMAx: big long ass bubble for such a short sentence
xKRAVEx: yeah, i just realized i was wrong, and apologized.
xKARMAx: ok, well guss i should let ya go and get on with your day..
xKRAVEx: why do you always leave
xKARMAx: i dont like the uncomfortable feelings..
xKRAVEx: why are you uncomfortable?
xKRAVEx: Are we not suppose to talk through things
xKRAVEx: I mean that is what we are doing
xKRAVEx: it's called communication, we are suppose to be able to do this
xKARMAx: yes i know wat its called... thank you for the lesson...
xKRAVEx: ok so why leave
xKARMAx: i dont like the uncomfortable feelings..
xKRAVEx: ok, sorry you feel that way
xKRAVEx: i dont understand what you are uncomfortable with
xKARMAx: when i left Tues, you didnt even care.. not once did you mail asking or concerned...
xKRAVEx: i did mail you
xKARMAx: about your internet
xKARMAx: about your not being able to log on
xKARMAx: not about me or if i was ok or if i was anything
xKARMAx: your internet
xKARMAx: your not being logged on
xKARMAx: its like.. oh ok he left
xKRAVEx: yeah, because i didnt want you to think i had just logged off, when i hadnt done that, i was waiting and hoping for you to come back, that's why i said "just incase you come back"... i didnt want you thinking again that i just didnt care if you were here or not
xKRAVEx: so i messaged as soon as it went down, and as soon as it came back
xKARMAx: yep
xKARMAx: i have the mail
xKARMAx: i know wat you mailed
xKARMAx: not concerned about me at all
xKRAVEx: i know what i mailed too. well you left mad at me. so yeah i was hoping you would come back and we would talk about it.
xKRAVEx: i was here, i already knew how you felt, you put it plain and simple in the chat before you left.
xKARMAx: ok,
xKRAVEx: i message you every single day, even though i know you wont see it till you get back, i dont do it for myself, i do it because i care about you, iloveyou, and imissyou. i always hope that when you arent here, you are having a good day, a good morning, a good evening. i do it because i care about you, iloveyou and imissyou. i am sorry for being selfish, and self centered. i am sorry for making you feel the way you do, like i dont care, or it's all about me, i was never intentially doing that, so i am sorry for everything.
xKARMAx: going to head to meeting,
xKRAVEx: ok baby
xKARMAx: im sure ill get over it
xKARMAx: but been feeling this way for a while now
xKARMAx: and kinda over it
xKARMAx: not that it matters
xKRAVEx: thank you for finally telling me. it does matter. i am sorry
xKRAVEx: iloveyoudustin i dont why you would feel like it doesnt matter, and i cant do anything about it if you dont tell me.