Ren DMMd re:connect Bad End Translation

Ren Dramatical Murder Re:connect Bad End:

A: Ren…?
R: ….
R: Gururu…
A: !
I lift my head to look at Ren, and am in shock.
Ren’s eyes are bloodshot, his fangs are sharp and thick, and he’s growling low in his throat.
…He’s like a beast who has just spotted his prey.
A: Ah…
I retreat, spurred on by fear.
Ren takes one slow step, shortening the distance between us.
…This isn’t Ren.
Did he break…
Because I failed at scrap?
R: GAaa!!
A: …!!
A: …Ren…!

…In the past.
I was called “a friend inside Aoba’s head.”
The one who called me that was a different fragment of Aoba…. I was with “one other Aoba”.
The “other Aoba” was the part of him that was his “instinct” and was a special existence that had no restraint over his desire and good or evil wishes.
Every humans have desires but they are not controlled by this desire in their ever day lives.
They are able to live while controlling their desire of theirs.
I was born into Aoba as that “deterrence”.
Most people have “instinct,” “reason,” and “deterrence” all bundled into equilibrium in their unconscious, coexisting, or else they would be thrust into confusion.
However, Aoba was different.
There is the fact that he was born in a special way, and surely his young body was unable to handle the burden and hold it in his heart.
In order to escape from the stress, he split up his consciousness into three parts.
He tricked himself by making himself believe he was not just one person, but three.
Sei also divided up his consciousness but only into just one more to be able to escape from stress.
Aoba met his father figure called Nain, and when he gave Aoba his name, his previous instability matured into stability.
Aoba seemed to think that he resembled his father in a way. That may be why he became more stable.
After that, both me and the “other Aoba” calmed down a lot and were unable to talk on our own terms.
Aoba’s “reason” strengthened because he had changed the balance between us.
But Haruka and Nain disappeared for a long amount of time and the equilibrium inside Aoba became destroyed.
He had lost what had become a support to him and he took on a new burden.
The “other Aoba” and I resurfaced once again.
Furthermore, this situation was a little different than it had been before.
Aoba let… the “other Aoba” take control on him.
It seemed that Aoba’s “reason” was rather weak.
Sensing danger I frantically tried to stop Aoba.
But Aoba did not here my voice at all.
After the time that Aoba was in disorder and holed himself up in his room…
He left one rainy night and picked up an all-mate’s body that had been thrown on the ground.
A: …
He must have pitied the thing that had been thrown away. He probably thought of it as being the same as him.
Aoba hadn’t used an all-mate up until that point but, it seemed like he became especially interested and thought it would be worth it to use it.
I thought that was a chance.
It was a temporary establishment for me to hook my consciousness up to the online wavelength of the all-mate.
Like Sei had put some of his consciousness over the net, I thought I wanted it to be a secret from Aoba that I was putting my consciousness into his all-mate.
I believed that having a physical body, though as well being influenced by the all-mate’s programing, I would be able to influence Aoba in a better direction.
It didn’t go that smoothly.
I wanted to be able to control Aoba from not the inside, but the outside.
He gave the all-mate the name “Ren”.
Once, Aoba said “the first time I embraced you I thought you were large,” but that was wrong.
A: The first time I held you I thought you were super fluffy and pretty large. I feel like you were a lot bigger then than you are now.
The correct answer is that since he was younger I was “a friend in his head” and he had registered me as “an existence big enough to envelop him”.
He must have confused the all-mate, “Ren” with the “friend in his head” that was inside of him.
Aoba had registered the “other Aoba” as “a fearful existence that could swallow me up whole”.
…However, for a little bit of time that “fearful existence” the “other Aoba controlled Aoba; he fell into that trap.
Aoba ended up barely listening to my words.
Even so I thought that me becoming an all-mate would make it easier for me to protect him in the worst case scenario.

Guy: Hey, it’s all good, right? Once is good, you can just take it like a girl, yeah?
A: Haa?
Guy: I’ve been interested in you for a while. You’re strong in Rhyme and the more I look at you you’re pretty damn cute
A: …
A: Move, don’t touch me.
Guy: Heyhey, you’re so cold. You’ve been playing around over there for a while.
Guy: If that’s the case you can at least give me a little…
Guy: Ugu!
A: I told you to move the hell away, go somewhere.
A: Playing around and being an ass is completely different. What you’re saying is…
Guy: Gua.
A: You just want to satisfy your sleazy desires. I have no interest in that kind of shit.
Guy: Th-that hurts! Get your foot away from my head!
A: …If you want to be broken, destroyed, beaten up by, and killed by me then I’m fine with being your opponent.
A: Do you have interest in being broken by me? (sorry the way they are speaking in this part is hard for me to translate, but I got the meaning across even if it isn’t exact, please understand.)
Guy: Hi…!
R: Aoba, don’t do more than that.
A: …Ah?
R: It’s already enough, isn’t it? It’s best to leave it at that.
A: …
A: …tch
Guy: Dammit!
Guy: Your head is screwed… you’re mad!
A: …Hmm
A: You have no right to decide whether I’m mad or not.
R: Aoba…
A: And you stopped me at the most interesting time, Ren. It would have been interesting to hit him.
R: I think it’s best not to compete uselessly.
A: Sure sure. I mean, I don’t have any reason to compete.
A: Haha
R: …

…After that.
Aoba had an accident during Rhyme, and he was forced into remission from the outside, forgetting everything about the incident in Rhyme.
I remembered what Aoba forgot, but it would have been too overbearing for me to remember when he didn’t, so my memories were wiped as well.
Which meant that I also forgot that I was “a part of Aoba’s consciousness”.
The me after that really thought of myself as “the all-mate Ren”.
…I was infected by the “passing by” worm and the bug made it so that I remembered everything that had happened.
I remembered everything.
Not just my memories.
The impossible feelings of being “a part of Aoba’s existence”… were called out even thought I was an all-mate.

I love Aoba.
I’m actually a part of Aoba.
That’s why it felt so weird that “I had feelings of love towards myself”.
Because of that I’ve been distressed.
At the very least I was able to register what was going on within me.
Even so those feelings were frightening.
The feelings of me “loving Aoba” welled up so much I was scared they would burst.
The words, existence of Aoba that had come back to me as memories.
All of those whirled around in my head like a beacon and spurred on my feelings for Aoba.
I wondered if it was from the bug, or if it was something I had always been faced with.

The answer was both.
It’s certain that that’s where the bug had a chance to start, but the days I had spent with Aoba had always been irreplaceable.
Even more so it was a natural course of events.
I am an existence… that was born to protect Aoba.
But there wasn’t supposed to be any wish for collateral.
I had never thought about that in the first place, and from the beginning I had always looked purely at Aoba.
I want to protect Aoba.
But, I couldn’t come into contact with Aoba like I had before.
I was toying with contradictory feelings and I was surprised to find that I was dealing with human feelings.
Once they started, they couldn’t stop.
It’s something that was inside of me, but I couldn’t control it.
Is this something that humans hold on to from the inside?
At the same time my feelings towards the “other Aoba” also started to change.
It does not mean that… I started feeling hostile towards the “other Aoba,” “instinct”
It was just that I wanted to be able to control the “instinct” side of him.
But, when I registered it as a feeling I finally understood what “instinct” wanted from aoba.
“Instinct”… he was lonely.
He was treating Aoba as an enemy.
In reality, “instinct” was created in order to protect Aoba, too.
For some reason he was treated as the bad guy and in the end he needed to be controlled.
It’s not that he had a huge sense of self but…
He wanted to return to Aoba, to be recognized by him; he was lonely.
“Instinct” and “desire”… are both part of Aoba.
I held different feelings towards Aoba but I understood what “instinct” was feeling.
Because I was once “part of Aoba” as well.
That’s right. No matter how much of my own will I hold, I was originally “part of Aoba”,
I’m not a human, so I can’t do anything about yearning for Aoba.
In the first place it’s wrong for me to be holding these feelings for him.
These feelings are a sin.
That’s why I have to kill these feelings.
If I don’t I won’t be able to accomplish what I was created to do.
I’m a contradictory existence towards Aoba.
I felt like I have to erase this existence.
I have to hurry and erase it.
…But.
The more I tried to kill these feelings, the more Aoba’s filled me.
A: What’s wrong?
R: You’re just overthinking. You’re train of thought is short.
A: Really? I mean, how poorly can I really be thinking.
R: Compared to the thought process of a growing man, those patterns of thought are at 100, so yours should be… (sorry, I don’t really get what Ren is saying, so I just translated it by what the words mean…)
A: It’s okay, it’s okay. You don’t have to say that. You’re explanations aren’t short enough.
R: I see.
A: Thank you, always.
R: Same here.
A: Please treat me kindly from here on.
R: Same here.
A: …You always just answer like that.
R: Is something strange?
A: The first time I held you I thought you were super fluffy and pretty large. I feel like you were a lot bigger then than you are now.
R: That must be because you grew.
A: Right. It hasn’t changed that you’re still fluffy. I mean, we’re basically like siblings. I’m the older and you’re the younger.
R: I have to approve.
A: I thought you would say that.
R: If I can’t act competently here I will inconvenience Aoba.
A: Nothing like that. I’m not saying that, I’m purely worried about you.
R: It’s fine. I don’t want to trouble you.
A: I’m not saying that. Ren, listen!
R: Please don’t worry.
A: You… cut it out!
A: What’s wrong with you? What you’re saying is all messed up!

…Aoba.
If I wasn’t “a part of Aoba”.
Would these feelings become fulfilled?
…No. That is completely impossible.
If I wasn’t “Aoba” I wouldn’t exist in the first place.
Because Aoba is here, so am I.
To say that I wish I wasn’t “part of Aoba” would mean that I wished I didn’t exist.
I know.
I understand that quite well.
Even so..
The point where I start thinking “if only” is when I stop being “deterrence.”
I can’t complete my task anymore.
These feelings don’t show any signs of disappearing.
No matter how much I try to erase them, to kill them.
…Aoba.
I want to be by Aoba’s side. I want to hold Aoba.
Is that as Ren?
The name Ren is something that was given to the all-mate.
Then what am I?
What name should I be called by, what kind of existence am I.
I don’t know.
I’m Aoba. But, I have a different consciousness.
I’m not Ren.
Then what am I?
I can’t fulfill my role as “deterrence”…
I’m the same as trash just rolling down that path.
I don’t have a name or a task.
…If
If I wasn’t Aoba from the beginning I wonder if I would have these feelings.
I know that it’s useless to think of these things, going around in circles like this.
If from the beginning I was a whole different existence.
…No, that’s not it.
If I held a different body than Aoba.
If Aoba and I had separate existences in reality.
If Aoba and I were different people.
Would this happen?
…Surely it wouldn’t have.
There wouldn’t have been any problem.
It wouldn’t have been something so fundamental.
I can’t permit myself to have these feelings towards Aoba when we “are the same”.
There has to be a boundary between Aoba and I.
There was a line keeping us from becoming completely one.
I can’t be by Aoba’s side.
I’m right near him, but the distance is endless.
This is because I ended up feeling everything.
In that case, soon…
I should just become one with Aoba.
…The thing I shouldn’t have thought flashes by my mind.
I’m the closest to Aoba but I can’t do anything.
If that’s so, right away…
We should just become one.
…I can’t. I can’t think that.
Here, now.
But my thoughts won’t stop.
My thoughts are… running wild.
If I give up here, what will happen?
Aoba will just become someone else’s.
If I wish for myself to disappear, I should just let it happen.
But what if I can’t?
I will have no choice but to be holed up in this world with these feelings.
I will have no choice but to watch… as Aoba falls in love with someone else.
…No.
I don’t want that.
If that’s the case then, soon.
I should to Aoba.
I should to Aoba.
I should to Aoba.
I.
I.
I.
I.
I,
I s h o u l d,

A: …!
…Like a beast, Ren is on all fours, pressing me down with both his arms and thighs.
The surroundings are pure black and I can’t see anything.
Only Ren’s form is in front of me like it’s floating.
His face is shadowed and I can’t really see him.
But I can hear the low groan in his throat and see the white gleam in his eyes that means he’s glaring at me.
Clear liquid is dripping from his mouth onto my face.
A: Ren…!
Compelled by sudden dread I call his name.
It’s Ren, but at the same time it isn’t.
What should I do. I’m scared.
I don’t know what I should do.
I want to run away. But I can’t.
I mean, this guy is Ren…
But at this rate…
R: Gaaa!
He cries out a trembling growl and lays something over my head.
I’m attacked by a violent heat in my neck and I open my eyes wide in shock.
A: UA, Ah!
He bit me…!
His sharp fangs rip into me easily, and blood rushes forth, spilling out of me.
A: Ah, It hurts…! Stop, Ren…!!
I yell with all my might and push at Ren’s chest with both of my hands.
My pressure seems to have no effect at all and Ren swings his right hand down at my chest.
A: UAaa…!
Like perfectly sharpened knives, Ren’s claws rip at my clothes, into my chest.
His claws dig into me and it feels like he’s ripping out my pectoral muscle.
More than pain, I’m shocked and rushed with heat, and it feels like I’ve been hit hard in the back of the head, making me lose hope.
Ren’s fingers claw deeper into me, stirring the blood around.
As he does so, the pain spreads so much that it feels like he’s grabbed my lung, making it hard to breathe.
Why…
How could something like this…
This isn’t reality.
We’re still in my subconscious.
I failed at scrap with Ren.
Ren is part of me so we’re in this weird situation where I’m in my own consciousness.
But right now, this is Ren’s world.
Here, Ren is everything. Things will happen as Ren wishes.
If so, is what Ren wishes for…
for me to die?
If that’s not the case I couldn’t understand this situation.
But, why…
R: Gu…
Ren licks and slurps at the blood spilling from me.
I can hear perfectly the sound of Ren enjoying t like it’s delicious.
A: Ah…
I notice that I’m crying from both eyes.
I can’t catch up with the pain, the sadness, or the suffering I feel.
A: Ren… please stop… Ren…
At the sound of my voice Ren raises his head.
The pupils of his eyes are thin, like a beast, and he stares at me.
I can’t even see pieces of reason in those eyes.
Blood hangs from his reddened fangs that are in a mouth covered in red.
A: Ren…
Looking at him like that makes more tears fall.
R: Gururu…
I don’t know what he’s thinking, but he pulls back and loosens up on his strength on me.
Both my hands and feet are released.
A: …!
R: Gau!!
A: Hi ah!
I try to run away and Ren bites at my neck and pulls back hard.
That pain makes me lose all strength, and I lose the chance to escape.
It’s all I can do to try to push back against Ren’s body.
A: S,to… Ren…!
He holds me in his mouth by the neck and swings it left and right.
It’s like I’m his prey, caught by him, and he’s trying to make me lose my will to escape.
Actually the pain is getting much, much worse, and I can hear the strange sound of my whole body pulsing with blood.
Biting my neck, Ren turns me over.
A: I… tsuu…!
My posture is twisted, making it so that where he’s biting feels stretched.
I follow Ren’s movements without resisting and end up face down.
Finally he lets go of my neck.
A: ….
I have a brief moment of relief at being released until my hips are raised high in the air from my face down position.
R: Guuuu…
A: !?
I’m surprised by this posture and something touches my thighs.
A hard, hot object slides against my thighs up towards my ass.
A: Ren…!
No…!
I try to crawl forward to escape, but feel teeth in my back.
It’s like a 5-edged tool is thrust into my shoulder and I’m pulled back.
A: AAaa…!
That sharp pain makes me unable to escape and at the same time I feel Ren force his raging cock inside of me.
A: UAAaa…! Hur…
It hurts so much… that I could forget what “pain” even means.
I feel like I’m being ripped up from the inside.
A: Hurts… ha…
I can’t breath. I can’t speak.
I’m completely useless.
It’s like a red, burning hot knife is buried inside of me, cutting me up.
I hear a high pitches ringing and then I can’t hear anything.
In front of me and in my head, everything turns red.
I spit up blood mixed with gastric juices, smelling the disgusting, bloody, acidity.
It gets stuck in my throat and I choke.
A: U… uu…
It’s so painful I can only sob.
I can only feel the pain so strong it’s making me go numb.
But more than that…
it seems like I’m being smashed by the despair in my chest.
I have no idea why it came to this.
But…
The fact that it’s to this degree feels like I’ve been thrust away by Ren.
It’s so much that I can’t help but know that Ren won’t come back.
Ren…
R: Guru…
Ren wraps his arms under my armpits from above me and holds my upper body.
A wet feeling creeps down my back.
Ren is licking… where he bit me before.
A: Ah…
I can easily mistake the warmth of his tongue for kindness and tears pour out again.
He’s comforting me… but it’s fake.
Even though the heat of the wound isn’t as bad as the pain of this useless act he’s doing to me.
A: Ah! I tsu…!
Ren holds me up with one arm and starts moving inside of me.
I feel like I’m being wrapped up in incredible wet heat as he opens me up forcibly, creating another wound.
Because of that wetness it makes it easier for him to move, and the pain doubles.
A: Uaa! Ah ha…! Uu…
The Ren right now has no reason, nothing.
This is just a beast.
Of course he has no consideration and he violently shakes my body.
My will has become so weak I can’t even get hard.
The part of my body he’s lifting half heartedly and him holding my chest and pushing into me hurts.
Red liquid trickles down from where I’m being split open.
Either because I cried before, or because of the terrible pain, I feel like the inside of my nose is packed with heat.
Ren’s sharp nails dig into my shoulder relentlessly.
A: It hurts, hurts…… Ren!
Even if I cry, call out, my voice won’t reach.
Rough breaths tear at my chest, I spit up blood, the scent of iron blooms in my nose, and my face is soaked in tears and snot.
…in an instant.
I feel like I could boil with rage.
I don’t know why this sort of thing happened but this is the way Ren thought the world would go.
If Ren maybe hated me, and wanted to kill me, I could consent to this world.
…I have no choice but to accept it.
Maybe Ren wanted to kill me.
Then, at the very least.
To escape from the pain of this situation I should try to start to hate Ren.
I’m still not really resisting seriously. I can’t do anything but accept this.
Because it’s Ren. I don’t want to hurt Ren.
But, honestly I’m to the point where it hurts so much I may not be able to say that.
Then if I were to hate him so much that I would want to kill him and could resist enough to rip up that body…
At the least I need to escape from this terrible situation.
These hopeless thoughts run through my head.
It’s my fault for failing at scrap in the first place.
That’s why I don’t think I can escape completely.
Even so, this is when I start to wonder if I could corner this mental and material being.
R: U guuu…
Moving in a fit of pleasure Ren sucks at the place where he bit me before.
Sometimes he licks my neck close to my ear.
That action is somehow so kind… it makes my heart waver again.
Cornered in my blood stained world I think of some way to survive.
…It’s no good after all.
 I can’t do it.
I can’t hate Ren.
It’s my fault that this happened…
For me to do anything more…
R: Gaa…!
Ren, always moving, lets out a deep groan and speeds up his movements inside of me.
He holds my chest tight and thrusts into me deeper than before.
Ren’s chest is glued to my back, and the wounds seem to spread on my back the more he moves.
A: Hi iaa…!
I scream, feeling like my wounds are being burned by a hot iron.
But at that time.
A: …?
For just a second I feel like something came into my body.
At that time…
it was just like when Ren had bitten my arm.
This is…
This feeling is…
: …
A: …!
R: Gaa!
A: Ua!
He bites the top of my shoulder and my voice is pulled out forcibly.
Even though… I thought I had just caught onto something.
Before I could even gasp the feeling was gone.
Was that… Ren?
R: Guuuuuu….
Ren growls while biting into my shoulder, digs his fangs deeper, eating me.
A: Hur…Ren! Gu.. I ahh…!
Deeper, deeper, the fangs dig into my skin, making blood pour.
I hear the sound of something being hit. The twisting of my muscles being torn.
The sound of something inside of me ceasing to exist. It hurts.
It hurts.
Ithurtsithurtsithurtsithurtsithurts.
A: Ren…!!
R: Gaaa!!
A: Gi… ah….
Ren tears something off of my shoulder.
The muscle… from my shoulder,
R: Gurururu…
He growls deep in his throat and I hear the sound of something dripping.
The sound of something crunching.
A: …..
R: Guru…
My consciousness is becoming hazy…
Because a lot of blood is leaving me, too.
But, more than anything…
Something is disappearing from inside of me like it’s being eaten out of my chest.
It’s abandonment past despair.
The deep, open wound is so dark and could you can’t even see into it.
Can I not return anymore.
Me…
and Ren…
A: Haa… ah… Aahh…
A dim feeling like a chill passes through my muscles.
Is it the decline in body heat from the loss of blood? It’s different.
It something different, something that makes me tremble.
It’s something like pleasure…
Maybe it’s just my head being released from everything as well.
The pain thins just a little, and I can hold on to a little bit of consciousness.
I think it’s strange.
This is happening but I can’t feel Ren’s intent to kill.
Even though he is killing me? Why.
That’s why, I… thought I should hate you…
But, I couldn’t… Even so…
Thinking of that I become incredibly sad and the tears fall.
It’s like this but… I want to tell Ren no matter what.
I turn one shaking arm and reach it up to pat Ren’s head, who’s licking the blood from my shoulder.
I…
treasure you.
There’s no way I could abandon you.
I want to next to you always.
I don’t have any strength so I might have only touched his hair a little but.
Even so, I…
you…
A: …
A: …Ren…