- Wednesday December 08 2010, 23:53 -
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): u there?
[email protected]: yeah...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): oh thank god
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): skype just keeps loading and loading
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): it wont open
[email protected]: dude, i dont want you to feel like this is your fault.
[email protected]: its not.
[email protected]: you didn't do anything but try to have a laugh.
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected]: my object here isn't to make you feel bad
[email protected]: i dunno
[email protected]: just like, nobody else ever wants to talk to me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): stop right there
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): DUDE
[email protected]: and i can't really help but spill my guts
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): you know im not to going to DO ANYTHING TO URT U NOW
[email protected]: cause you're here
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): hurt*
[email protected]: and fuck
[email protected]: now im crying
[email protected]: ugh
[email protected]: im sorry for bitching
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): calm down
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): do u want to see me on cam
[email protected]: ill leave you alone forever now, if you want
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): no stay
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): look
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i am not going to send anyone anything
[email protected]: What difference does it make?
[email protected]: My life's always been shit.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i will go to jail for ever if it means taking a life
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have a thing about this
[email protected]: I've always just been the fuck in the corner
[email protected]: who never gets the joke
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i willl turn into you later if u do
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): it will be on news
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): it i will be a murdurer
[email protected]: no
[email protected]: you didn't kill me
[email protected]: you didn't do anything wrong.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): cops will know and find me
[email protected]: no
[email protected]: they wont
[email protected]: i haven't told anyone anything about you
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): one of ur friends know and they will do anythinng to find me
- 23:58 -
[email protected]: my friend logan reported your shitass email to sunwave
[email protected]: thats about it
[email protected]: I'm sorry
[email protected]: i'm not trying to hurt you
[email protected]: don't feel bad
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): well thats not anything but it will be somethng
[email protected]: you don't even know me, you never beat me up
[email protected]: or told me i was a stupid faggot
[email protected]: or told me to go die
[email protected]: in fact
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): look im dont i wont tell anyone anything you know that
[email protected]: relative to everyone else
[email protected]: you're one of my better friends.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i will get all the support i can to not kill urself
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): u have more friends then me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have no fucking facebook
[email protected]: they aren't real friends.
[email protected]: when i talk to them
[email protected]: its like im not even saying anything
- Thursday December 09 2010, 00:00 -
[email protected]: its like im using words that aren't mine
[email protected]: hah
[email protected]: one morning
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i move 3 times every year
[email protected]: i decided i was gonna kill myself
[email protected]: but i couldn't find the right knife
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): eli
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): dont
[email protected]: so i just went to school
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): promis me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): please
[email protected]: and nobody noticed anything
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): look
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i did ths b4
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i got trapped
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): like u b4
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): on tinychat
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): it was scarry as shit i felt like u
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): but not with a note
[email protected]: dude
[email protected]: i wrote that note weeks ago
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): sooo
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): look
[email protected]: this has almost nothing to do with the tinychat
[email protected]: this has just been like
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): that email reprted proxxy or not
[email protected]: the last feather on a boys back.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): they will suspect something
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): and know
[email protected]: you didn't do anything
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): this is why u killed urself
[email protected]: no
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): or at least pushed it far nuff
[email protected]: go ahead and read the note man
[email protected]: i don't even mention you
[email protected]: because i wrote it weeks ago
[email protected]: because for the past few weeks
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): thats nice and all
[email protected]: i just want to die.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): but PEAOPLE WILL KNOW WHY U KILLDED URSELF
[email protected]: I guess.
[email protected]: they won't care.
[email protected]: nobody cares.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): buz of me god damn even if i was invisble
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i still would give you all the support you needed
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i do not want you to kill urself
[email protected]: *hugs*
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): not at all
[email protected]: You're a really nice person.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): look
[email protected]: Thanks for talking to me.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): YOU KNOW BY NOW IM NOT GOING TO SEND ANYONE ANYTHING NOW
[email protected]: go ahead and send it.
[email protected]: i dont care anymore.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): and now im going to tell all the people not to open that message
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i wasnt going to man
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i wasnt going to send anyone anything
- 00:05 -
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i keep my promises
[email protected]: thats really nice of you
[email protected]: <3
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): please dont
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): tell me u wont
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i dont want you to please!
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected]: why?
[email protected]: what do i matter?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i can read people
[email protected]: what difference would it make if i just vanished
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): you have a fucking band
[email protected]: you said it yourself
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): friends
[email protected]: i'm just some emo faggot.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): gay sex everywhere
[email protected]: i've never even held a boys hand.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i live no where
[email protected]: let alone kissed one.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): me to hurr durr
[email protected]: im just a fucking faggot, man.
[email protected]: fucking pathetic faggot who's gonna take the cowards way out.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): you have mre then me yet ur going to kill urself
[email protected]: cause thats what iam
[email protected]: and thats what ive always been
[email protected]: just a pathetic piece of shit.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): no ur not shut up ur better then me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i sound like some up tight no it all when u got friends
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i dont...
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): you go to school
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected]: why don't you go to school?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have been out of any school 4 2 years
[email protected]: you're obviously smart. proxxies and shit
[email protected]: D:
[email protected]: thats horrid
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): thats computer smart
[email protected]: you could be like
[email protected]: bill gates
[email protected]: you've got a future.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): good for me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): he went to school i cant giet a fucking job
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): wh dont i kill myself?
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): ill tell u why
[email protected]: why aren't you in school?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): oh
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): well, i got out of school after summer never wwnt back
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): was going to get home schooled
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): never did
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): what am i going to say when i want to get back in
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected]: just tell them
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): u can see how bad i am at spelling
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): you are spoiled is what u are
- 00:10 -
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): youi look at all the bad things
[email protected]: you're right.
[email protected]: I am spoiled.
[email protected]: No good.
[email protected]: Rotten.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have no friends i can prove that to u for sure
[email protected]: I don't even know why I'm still talking to you. The world fucks me over
[email protected]: you're proof of that
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): im online every single day
[email protected]: the universe fucking hates my guts
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): no....
[email protected]: shits on me and kicks me
[email protected]: fucking christ
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): why soulldnt i kill myelf?
[email protected]: i almost kill myself yesterday
[email protected]: and now this today
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have no dad
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): u prolly do
[email protected]: neither do i
[email protected]: he left before i was born
[email protected]: he left
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): oh well worth a shot
[email protected]: just like everyone else.
[email protected]: man
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): internet
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): letes go into that
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): u came from 4chan
[email protected]: I hang around /x/
[email protected]: Sometimes i go to /b/
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): expexing no shitstorm what so ever
[email protected]: Yeah.
[email protected]: I'm an idiot.
[email protected]: I know.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): u know how many ppl recorded yo
[email protected]: Tons.
[email protected]: You're right.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): and me when i did you shit
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): tinychat
[email protected]: Yeah
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i showd my dick
[email protected]: You know what's pathetic?
[email protected]: when you started messaging me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): and did the same stuff
[email protected]: I thought you liked me.
[email protected]: I thought I was gonna have like, a friend.
[email protected]: For once.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i did!!!
[email protected]: Who I could like, talk to and shit.
[email protected]: I was all hopeful
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): like you or not
[email protected]: and happy
[email protected]: for once
[email protected]: and then this happens
[email protected]: and like
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i will break people
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): thats mew
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i suck
[email protected]: you'll do it again then.
[email protected]: if i don't kill myself tomorrow
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): not to you....
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): WHAT!??!?!
[email protected]: you'll send the pics out to all my friends next week
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): IM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING!!!
[email protected]: and what do i get for enduring another week?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): I SAWARE
[email protected]: Man, it's not even you at this point.
Everytime, I tell myself that it gets better.
[email protected]: Everytime I get to the edge, I make myself hold on a little bit longer.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): look....
[email protected]: For some faint little fucking hope
[email protected]: that shit will change
[email protected]: and i'll be happy for once
[email protected]: but it never happens.
[email protected]: not for me.
[email protected]: it'll never happen.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): whatever lolilalala frpeigfergnwjerjgre u have it better than me way better everything thats has happed to u
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): has happend to me x10
[email protected]: Yeah.
- 00:15 -
[email protected]: But you're strong.
[email protected]: You're still alive.
[email protected]: Fuck, now I'm crying again.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have no mother fucking friends
[email protected]: I probably deserve it. You're right.
[email protected]: All the bad shit that happens to me
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): and im not dead god damn
[email protected]: I deserve it
[email protected]: because i'm pathetic
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i had a fread who a came out gay too
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): lost him
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): now im 0
[email protected]: I'll be your friend
[email protected]: : /
[email protected]: if you'll be mine.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): of corse we can internet date and shit
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): just be less emo
[email protected]: fuck this
[email protected]: you're just stringing me along
[email protected]: aren't you
[email protected]: you're just fucking acting, so you can get more fucking pics of me
[email protected]: internet date
[email protected]: fucking hell
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): stinging what does that mean
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): lol wat
[email protected]: it means you're just gonna fucking send the pics anyway
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): now i know thats fake
[email protected]: and it doesn't ever matter anymore
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): u think im going to take pic of u
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): WRONG
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): no
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): im not
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): internet date do u know what that is
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): ????
[email protected]: no
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): if ur online
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): we talk about shit
[email protected]: :-/
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): only cyberly
[email protected]: you really want to be my friend?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): not that now that ur going to kill ur self its that i wanted a little fun and i got it but now i am going to fuck up alife
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): and other
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): mom
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): friends
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): do you want to do that
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): to her?
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): ur mom
[email protected]: she knows its not her fault.
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): shes going to cry her ass off
[email protected]: dude
[email protected]: earlier
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): and die of a broken heart
[email protected]: you were telling me fucking up lives
[email protected]: is your hobby
[email protected]: i told you about how fucking shitty
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): not killing
[email protected]: i was doing
- 00:20 -
[email protected]: and asked you to stop
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): you sound happy
[email protected]: and you didn't
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i dont go for emos
[email protected]: i fucking told you, how much i had going on
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i did stop
[email protected]: no
[email protected]: you fucking blackmailed me
[email protected]: for more pics
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): when i messanged u the first time
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i stoped right there
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i know
[email protected]: : /
[email protected] (E-mail Address Not Verified): i didnt know u were emo