Last Wednesday my girlfriend breakup with me. We've been together 3,5 years and then she told me that she doesn't love me anymore and that I'm now more like friend than boyfriend for her.

I won't describe reasons because then this post will be long as hell, but long story short - she didn't tell me for last few months that she doesn't feel comfortable with me about few things, she was telling me about that with a lot of allusions that I couldn't read and catch and I wasn't aware that some things are in her head as she didn't even get me a clue, we've never talked about them and she pretend everything was ok.



But now I feel lonely and abandoned. Both physically and emotionally.

Emotionally because now there's nobody that wants to hug to me, nobody that I can hug, nobody that I can talk about my hobbies, share it with. Nobody that I can kiss in forehead and nobody that will kiss me. Nobody that I'll laugh or send some stupid shit meme. Nobody that I can talk all day and all night. Basically nobody to anything.

Physically because now there's nobody that I can be as close as I was to her. Nobody that I can touch the way I touch my girlfriend. Nobody that will touch my like my gf touched me. Nobody that I can make love with. And nobody that I can physically admire.

When my friend gave me a ride to home last time and I hug her for goodbye I realise she had the same perfume as my ex. I run away from her car because I was that close to basically pour in tears.

I don't know how to get over all these things. Physically it sounds easier in theory because if I ever feel the need I can just go to hooker, but I have no idea if it'll be good idea or not, if I'll have remorse or not etc, but I assume that you should try in life everything even once.

Emotionally however I feel completely lost. I don't know if I should rush to date again or give myself a time. And even how should I flirt or pick up girls.

Other thing is I'm not that physically attractive according to "modern canon of beauty". Despite I'm pretty tall (185 cm/6'1") I'm very slim (55 kg/121 lbs) and I know that not a lot of girls will physically like me and also this is also my biggest complex that affects my self esteem. Also that break up didn't help with it either...

Currently I'm writing my master thesis on my uni, but I'm close to finish it and I'll be left with nothing to do, as I'll just start looking for job in my profession and it could take a while...

Tell me what should I do. Should I go to this hooker or not? If not how to get over it from physically side. And what to do about emotionally side. I don't want to feel that loneliness as I feel now and I'm scared I find noone that will be attracted to me.

Yes - fortunately I've got friends, but they're all telling me that I should get over it. But I just don't know how. It was my first so long relationship and I feel completely lost right now. Please guide me in one way or another with all these stuff