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- My 'real name' outside of church is Cieran Desouza.
- Most of the trouble started around 2009-2010 I think, when I was involved with left-wing politics after being introduced
- to political documents and such online. I was involved with a fairly innocuous left wing group that just did local
- politics, but, online at least, I was always suspected of something more sinister by the left-wingers..I think. It's
- possible the authorities suspected me at this point as well, as I was quite a naive late-teen and got into a lot of
- arguments, threatened others and got threatened etc. I was working cash-in-hand as a computer tech loading software on
- people's computers; some legal some not so. I was also claiming welfare throughout this period.
- Anyway, I left the groups of far-left anarchists and joined a bunch of stalinists; they were a rather intriguing bunch.
- I managed to fall in with particularly unpleasant character who named himself after one of the Stalinist satellite
- state's intelligence services (God knows who he was involved with, idk who any of them were involved with). I think the
- first stage of the targeting started when I echoed the thoughts of some of the stalinists and said that it was "good",
- that a certain anarchist had died at the hands of the police (killed). In retrospect, this was a very nasty thing to say
- and it's certainly not something I *really* believed. Anyway, they banned me and I noticed small things started
- happening after this. All of that happened in Jun/Jul 2010.
- Shortly after that (the forum nonsense), and I think these things are linked but you can decide for yourself, I was
- having a lot of lustful thoughts and 'fiddled' myself frequently, but in too-close proximity to a Catholic statue of
- Jesus. But I started noticed increasing health problems from that point onwards..... I was also interested in
- 'experimenting' and ended up having a one-time tryst with a pretty gross crossdresser. I've got no sexual diseases or
- anything that I'm aware of, but I noticed my health problems increased massively just after these things happened, in
- quick succession of each other.... which I don't think is a coincidence. That happened in Dec 2010.
- I think the next stage started after I got banned from another political forum in early 2011 for starting arguments with
- one of the administrators, I was being a pain and started filing lots of spam complaint
- s via the system. As I said, I was an irritating kid.
- After that, I left all that online political stuff alone for a year or two.
- My life wasn't good in 2011-12, but it started to get really bad in late 2012; life was tough and random people were
- becoming increasingly aggressive for no apparent reason, they also seemed to know random things about me, but it wasn't
- so bad.
- In Feb 2013, I became homeless for a brief period of time (maybe 5-6 months in total, only about 1 month actually out on
- the streets). After that, I went back to live with my Mum/Brother (Jun 2013) and was no longer doing cash in hand work;
- I was completely unemployed and inactive and have been ever since (other than occasional volunteering at the church from
- Feb 2016 onwards). I wasn't even claiming welfare for a long time, so wasn't even contributing to my Mum's household. I
- only started claiming welfare from Oct 2013 and claimed it on-and-off from Oct 2013 until the present day. I got very
- bitter about the entire experience of being homeless and most of all my Dad being homeless etc. I started being really
- nasty onine once again, like I was around 2008-2011, I ended up getting involved with a crowd of very evil, very nasty
- online trolls who go on chatrooms etc... The main guys in the crowd's pseudonyms were 'roy' and 'matt'. There was also
- another group of trolls who in a seperate chatroom; their names were 'kun', 'whizz' and a few others; I managed to piss
- them off too, by making a 'whizz' jealous by half-chatting up his fiance and heavily insulting both of them and others.
- That was around Oct-Nov 2013. My computer 'mysteriously' died as did the second one I bought after all of this. I didn't
- realize how evil the first group of guys truly were until about Mid-2014; they had shared some literature about a 14
- year old girl being raped by her brother. Then they started verbally abusing a chatter who said he was an 8 year old
- boy. Imho this was evil, sick stuff... so I called them out on it and turned on them, I pissed a lot of them off; but I
- had passively let it go on for too long so in a way I was complicit in letting them get away with it. That's a bad
- thing.
- In Mid-2014, I was still bitterly trolling chatrooms like an ass despite having turned on those other posters, but I
- think I had already been targeted by then, it wasn't so bad though. In July 2014, I started posting anti-homosexual
- jokes in a gay chatroom, jokes that would be construed as violent, nasty and anti-homosexual etc..... anyway, I posted
- a fake advert saying "any gay lads up for meeting a wheelchair-bound jihadi suicide bomber in bradford? pm me". I got a
- message saying "your not funny, stop what your doing", but being a bitter troll I just fronted it out and kept telling
- him to get lost, he threatened me with prison and the security services etc but I thought he was just joking at first,
- until he said something really nasty that involved personal info (I have an insecurity about my Dad ruling over my
- life....), he said something like "you fuck your dad". After that, I just said the truth...that my life is terrible,
- that I go and troll these chatrooms because I'm bitter about everything, hate everything etc. He offered me the chance
- to stop and I said I'm going to post it again, being a stubborn, bolshy, obnoxious, irritating ass etc, and I did. After
- that, he said "now you're going to have it, I know a guy in the security services (mi5 etc) and they're going to do
- stuff to you". I suspect the guy behind this was a friend of the guy who's fiance I talked to.. his name was 'kun'. He
- had the exact same posting style as 'kun'.
- After that, the online and offline harassment became very extreme, I had all kinds of people turning on me and it's
- lasted to this day. What can I say, I was very irritating, obnoxious and arrogant and didn't know when to just stop for
- my own good, and there's not much else to say. The extreme harassment has lasted from 2014 until today and it's the
- worst it's ever been today. They have targeted all my phones, all the computers I've had, they've sent countless
- actors/stalkers after me, they've told my family things about me/coerced them into attacking me, they've coerced
- everyone else I know, friends, church etc. It's easy to be dragged into being a troll on the internet when you're
- bitter, but there's really no defence; it was extremely pathetic and crap of me to carry out that utter, indefensible
- idiocy.
- I stupidly tried joining a political forum and just posting about that, but was quickly driven off by the extreme
- trolling (people were registering as different names just to troll me etc). So from Oct 2014-Aug 2015, I remained in the
- same flat/apartment. I mostly isolated myself and refrained from too much posting online, just read books and stuff and
- exercised etc, tried to improve my health and tried to improve my mentality; get over my bitterness etc. I did say to
- the guys "ok what I did was wrong, you were probably right to warn me", but they completely ignored me and continued
- regardless.
- In Aug 2015, I moved out into my own apt/flat; they had already pre-warned my new flatmates about me. So my flatmates
- were acting funny towards me straightaway, but it was mostly ok, they were mostly quite nice actually, except for one of
- my flatmate's friends.
- I was still being stalked, harassed etc online but I re-started posting about politics on the old forum (whilst trying
- to refrain from being abusive, despite being consistently hounded and trolled..), needless to say this didn't last long;
- after the abuse started I relapsed into abusing people back and was removed from the forum around Jan/Feb 2016 (rightly
- so). Then I was attacked for my political beliefs continuously. I had also, stupidly, joined a seperate political forum
- around Oct 2015; left the forum quickly thereafter though. In Dec 2015, I had a temporary flatmate; a girl, she left
- after 2 weeks and a new flatmate moved in, a decent bloke who I got one with really well.
- In Feb 2016, I had also joined the orthodox church; everything was fine and life was really good; it felt like the
- harassment was almost non-existent from about March 2016 - Jun/Jul 2016; then my flatmate moved out and a new guy moved
- in..... I noticed life turned sour again. The extreme harassment began in Jul 2016 a month after the new flatmate moved
- in; I was, stupidly, posting about politics online from March - Jun 2016 without issue; and I remained on there until
- about Oct 2016 without much of an issue; but again the trolls started to become abusive from Jul.. and I, rather
- stupidly retaliated. l ended up leaving because the trolls were being passed so much personal information about me and
- were attacking me with every fibre of their being; they were registering multiple accounts on the site just to try and
- attack me etc....
- My flatmate started constantly trying to harass me throughout this period as well, but we were sort of friendly at the
- same time; I'd attack back and he'd back down, so we kind of kept things level. The harassment outside, at the church,
- online, at other places etc was still fairly bad, but it was getting worse; things came to a head around April 2017 when
- people started being openly abusive and I had to delete a lot of facebook friends and stop talking to quite a few people
- I knew in real life as well.
- My flatmate's child kept wanting attention from me; he had ADHD and possibly other undiagnosed mental issues, not sure,
- but he did fairly insane things and was very rude and abusive towards me, his Dad was very abusive towards him but he
- let me discipline his child as well (sort of), he'd let me be extremely abusive towards him verbally; occasionally I'd
- shove him with the cushions in order to discipline after he'd done something very bad. This was pretty bad and I didn't
- feel good about doing it; this must have certainly decreased my spiritual grace. My flatmate went way too far and poured
- multiple buckets of freezing cold water over his child; this resulted in his child being taken away from him by the
- child's mother..
- I also avoided church from april/may - aug; when I started going again I noticed the harassment increased 200%; they
- must have been passed a lot of exaggerated/faked information about me because they started being pretty nasty for no
- apparent reason, and they knew things about me that they shouldn't have known. This has continued and is at its worst at
- the moment; in Sept/Oct they made a real effort at poisoning my Mum/Bro against me (but I believe my brother has been in
- on all of this since 2014...) and it seems it started to have an effect; because they started saying things to me that
- they shouldn't know, they also started getting very nasty for no apparent reason.
- Last sunday (29th Oct), a guy came to the church saying he was homeless; he started telling me all kinds of things he
- knew about me, that I had said in confession; things that I had told very few people, he refused any kind of aid I or
- the church offered him. Someone took a flash-photo (it was a massive flash) from the balcony whilst me and the
- apparently homeless guy were standing outside in the street. I also think someone tried to run me over a few weeks ago
- when I was walking down a dark country lane.. I have been sent death threats, have been repeatedly trolled, had all
- kinds of electrical devices damaged/disabled, have had people shout threats in the street, have had people attempt to
- come up to me and physically intimidate me, have had things changed on the computer, so that I'm listening to edited
- material; I've had websites edited to look different on my screen, they've even modified bible passages so that they say
- different things! This is an extreme type of harassment/stalking/killing.
- I admit that there are times when I've lashed out, after being heavily insulted and attacked, both against innocents and
- against perps. I've also, in anger, verbally abused a homosexual orthodox man; but I apologised for and retracted that.
- In most cases, I wasn't entirely sure what was going on at the time, but now I'm dead-certain of what's happening and I
- can see clearly why, how this is happening and I'm very certain of who is carrying this out.
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