10:45 PM - ally: i took em cuz i didn't have anything else to really look forward to
10:46 PM - ally: so i became obsessed with the idea of academia or studying smth and i was a weirdo about it and pretty indecisive but to me
10:46 PM - ally: if i can't make friends or have a fun social life with people
10:46 PM - ally: simply because it's not who i am then i can try other things
10:46 PM - ally: and maybe meet people that way idk
10:46 PM - ally: just dont wanna live for no reason
10:46 PM - ally: and then die without having ever achieved anything
10:47 PM - wintor: having goals is great but i think you should live for you and do whatever makes you happy
10:48 PM - wintor: cus dying happy is all tht matters
10:48 PM - ally: and that's one of my issues right now because nothing particularly makes me happy
10:48 PM - ally: i'm not overly excited about any specific thing
10:48 PM - ally: and even though i've tried to chill with friends and meet people irl
10:48 PM - ally: i just don't belong
10:49 PM - ally: it feels like a ghost town and everyone's on the same wavelength
10:49 PM - ally: and im not
10:49 PM - ally: cant connect with people
10:49 PM - ally: then there's people like you
10:49 PM - ally: who add me
10:49 PM - ally: every 3 months
10:49 PM - ally: to fuck around with me
10:49 PM - ally: laugh at me supposedly with jacob and your discord friends
10:49 PM - ally: call me crazy or w/e
10:49 PM - ally: for your own entertainment
10:50 PM - ally: and things like that just push me away further
10:50 PM - ally: from ever being able to connect wit hpeople
10:50 PM - wintor: hahahaa you think its my fault that you are antisocial adn cant connect with people? i hope youre not bneing serious u fucking idiot
10:50 PM - wintor: get a grip
10:50 PM - wintor: desire is the source of all suffering
10:50 PM - wintor: quit wishing
10:50 PM - wintor: and do it
10:51 PM - ally: it's not your fault at all but there's a stigma associated with the type of person i am
10:51 PM - ally: and quite frankly
10:51 PM - ally: "wintor: quit wishing
wintor: and do it"
10:51 PM - ally: i think i'm just fine the way i am
10:51 PM - ally: opposing personalities
10:51 PM - ally: you're extroverted, more social, outgoing
10:51 PM - ally: i'm more introverted
10:52 PM - ally: and i'd also say more introspective due to the fact
10:52 PM - ally: and i use that instrospection to kinda understand other people like yourself
10:53 PM - ally: so its easy for me to empathize emotionally