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ANNA:
Okay. Happy birthday, Mom.

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Oh, is that for me?

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CHARLIE:
You don't look 40, much less 50.

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Charlie, please.
But thank you. I appreciate it.

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Can I open this now?
ANNA: Yes, open it.

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Oh, my goodness.

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[GASPS]

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Oh. Oh, I love it.

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ANNA:
Do you like it? Oh, good.

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It's so beautiful.

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ANNA: You can exchange it.
I'm not going to.

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You always get me things I love.
ANNA: Good.

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TOM: Sorry I'm late.
Oh, hey. Hey, isn't Lisa coming?

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No. We split up.

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Yes, I did notice your status
popped up to single, yet again.

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I, uh, forgot your present.
I left it in my locker.

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That's okay.
I hope you didn't spend too much.

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No, don't worry. He didn't.
JOHN: Where have you been?

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The ER was like a madhouse.
One guy came in, six stab wounds.

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One missed his heart by an inch.
No. Tom, it's dinnertime. Please.

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Not yet it isn't.
ANNA: Nearly.

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What kind of antibiotic did you give him?
Mom, have you spoken to Lydia?

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She wanted to be here,
but she had a really important audition.

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What for?
A guest spot on some TV thing.

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Something Enemy.
Maybe this'll be her big break.

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Mm-hm. Yeah, maybe.
Don't hold your breath.

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[IMITATES CAT SHRIEKING]

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Heh, heh. Stop it.

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CHARLIE: You guys must have been something
growing up. Dolls with heads cut off.

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No, my sister and I were very close.

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Oh, no. I'm sorry,
I was talking about Anna and Lydia.

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Oh. My goodness.
I don't know why I said that.

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We're here to celebrate you,
Mom. Dad, what about a toast?

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Dad.

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Toast.
Oh.

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Yes, yes, yes.

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To the most beautiful
and the most intelligent woman

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I have known in my entire life.
Thank you.

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Happy birthday.
ANNA: Cheers! Happy birthday!

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We love you.
I love you.

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TOM: Cheers.
Cheers, darling.

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[♪♪♪]

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My name is Frederick Johnson.

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I'm associate professor
of cognitive science here at UCLA.

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I'm here to welcome our speaker
who just flew in from New York.

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Now, in my dissertation,
I spent about a chapter and a half

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vituperatively citing today's guest
and saying why she was wrong.

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[CROWD LAUGHING]

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For the record, every time that Alice
and I have argued, she was right.

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Alice Howland is the Lillian Young
Professor of Linguistics

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at Columbia University. She famously
wrote her seminal textbook

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From Neurons to Nouns,
while raising three children.

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I'm getting more
than a few "aha" moments from them.

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And it is now considered
one of the cornerstones

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of linguistics education
all over the world.

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Please welcome Dr. Alice Howland.

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Thank you so much.

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Most children speak
and understand their mother tongue

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before the age of 4,
without lessons, homework,

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or much in the way of feedback.

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How do they accomplish this feat?

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This is a question that has interested
scientists at least since Charles Darwin

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kept a diary of the early language
of his infant son.

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He observed, "Man has
an instinctive tendency to speak

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as we see in the babble
of young children. "

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Much has been learned since then.

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But today I'd like to focus
on some recent studies from my lab

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on the acquisition of past-tense
irregular verb forms in children

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between the ages of 18 months
and two and a half years.

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Now, you may say that this falls

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into the academic tradition
of knowing more and more

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about less and less
until we know evertyhing about nothing.

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But I hope to convince you
that by observing these baby steps

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into the...

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Into, uh...

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I- I knew I shouldn't have had
that champagne.

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[ALL LAUGH]

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Into the word stock
of a given language,

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we will learn crucial information

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about the relationship
between memory and computation

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that is the very essence
of communication.

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[♪♪♪]

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Lexicon.

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[BLEEPING]

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[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

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[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

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MAN 1: I had that same
thought. Makes sense.

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WOMAN: I saw it.
MAN 1: Yeah, I thought about that.

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MAN 2: Okay. I'm gonna go down
and get Shel. I'll be right back.

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LYDIA: Hey.
Hi.

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Hey, no, I'm sorry.

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You just caught me by surprise.

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Come on in. It's, um-

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It's messy, but, you know,
I was in the process of cleaning.

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It's fine, honey. Don't worry.

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The boys are total slobs.
The kitchen is the main battleground,

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but I've got them in training,
so we'Il see how that goes.

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ALICE: So where are they?
Working.

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Doug's at Starbucks,
Malcolm does some catering.

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I guess that's what they mean
by working actor, huh?

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[CHUCKLES]

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ALICE: You involved with either one?
Uh, Doug's gay.

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And Malcolm and I did have a thing,
but it's over.

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He got me in with Open Space.

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It's, like, the best theater company.
Yes, I heard.

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Oh, thank you. Yeah, I'm done.

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[BOTH CHUCKLE]

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It would have been awesome
if you saw No Exit.

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Daddy said you were good.
I was all right. It wasn't my best night,

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but at least he could get,
you know, like, a sense of it.

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Figure out why he's doing,

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you know,
me a solid with the company.

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What do you mean?

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Um, it's really nice of him to help out.
How is he helping with the company?

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It's our responsibility
as members to raise equity

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for the productions we put on.
Eventually we get a cut

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of the box office.
We're sort of shareholders.

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So basically you have to pay to act?

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No. Um...

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It's a theater group.
It's just the reality of the situation.

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That's how it is. It's Los Angeles.

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Don't you think it's time
you reconsidered things?

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You're so smart. There's much more
you could be doing with your life.

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Like going to college?
Yes. Yes. Like college.

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Like we've never talked about that
before. Every single day of my life.

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I figured out what I wanted to do,
and I'm doing it. It's a good thing.

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But on whose dime?
You're helping Tom with med school.

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You helped Anna with law school.
Sweetheart, those are real careers.

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I just don't want you
to limit your choices.

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You want to make my choices.
No, I don't.

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I'm really happy.

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I'm sorry. I don't...

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I don't wanna argue about this.

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Just forget I said anything, okay?
It's forgotten.

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[PHONE BLEEPING]

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Gonna check your phone?
It's just a game.

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Your sister and I have an obsession
with "Words with Friends. "

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That's cute.
You don't wanna play with her,

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she's a demon.
I'm not surprised.

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[♪♪♪]

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John?

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Hi.

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John?

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[♪♪♪]

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MAN: Want one? Here you go.

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Two for one
at the Shoe Warehouse.

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Two for one,
Shoe Warehouse.

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Two for one at the Shoe Warehouse.

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[PANTING]

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[♪♪♪]

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[BREATHING HEAVILY]

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WOMAN: So
- I don't know. That's all he said.

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MAN: Two for one at the
Shoe Warehouse. Here you go.

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One?
No, thanks.

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JOHN:
Ali?

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I was wondering where you were.
Don't. I'm really sweaty.

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Oh. How did it go?
What?

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UCLA.
Oh, it was, uh, good.

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They were, um...

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They were really receptive.
I'm sure they were.

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How was Lydia?

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Good. You know...

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You guys argue?
Um...

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Well, we spent the whole evening
trying not to.

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The news that you're bankrolling
her theater company didn't help.

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I told you about that.
Uh-uh.

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You didn't.
I thought I did.

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You didn't.
You're not gonna like this either,

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but I have things to do at the lab.

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Maybe walk me over there right now?
No, I don't wanna go back to campus.

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I just went for a run.
I really need to be home right now.

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Are you okay?
Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine. I just-

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You said we were gonna
spend the evening in.

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I did. We will. The sooner I go,
the sooner I'll be back

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and we can watch a movie.

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I'm sorry. I'm just exhausted.

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Get some rest.

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Relax.

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[SIGHS]

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ALICE: I started forgetting
things, little annoying things

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like words and names.

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And I got lost, completely lost,

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running on campus.

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I talked to my doctor,
she said it could be menopause.

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Last time I'd had a period
was February.

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But I had one again, in September,
before my birthday.

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BENJAMIN: Are you taking any
pills, medication, supplements?

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I take a multivitamin, flaxseed oil,
calcium, iron.

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I occasionally take a sleeping pill
when I travel.

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Have you had any head injuries?
No.

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Would you consider yourself depressed
or under undue stress at the moment?

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No. I work a lot, but I thrive on it.

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How's your sleeping?
It's fine. Like, seven hours a night.

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Now, I'm gonna ask you to remember
a name and an address.

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I'm gonna ask you for it again later.
Okay.

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John Black,
42 Washington Street, Hoboken.

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Can you repeat that for me?
John Black,

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42 Washington Street, Hoboken.

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Good. How old are you?
I'm 50.

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What's today's date?
November 26th.

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Where are we?
We are on the third floor.

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of New York-Presbyterian.

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Can you spell "water" for me?

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W- A-T-E-R.

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Now can you spell it for me backwards?
R- E-T-A-W.

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Can you tell me what you see
on these cards?

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Pliers.

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A ladder.

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A sea horse.

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A screwdriver.

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An elephant.
Good.

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Tell me about your parents.
Well, they're both dead.

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My mother and my sister died
in a car crash when I was 18,

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and my father died in 1999
of liver failure.

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Hepatitis?
Cirrhosis.

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He was an alcoholic.

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And what was he like
towards the end?

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Incoherent. Incontinent.

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We didn't really see a lot of each other.

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He lived in New Hampshire,
and we weren't that close.

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Sorry.

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Do you have any other siblings?
No. I only had the one.

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Now, can you tell me that name and
address that I asked you to remember?

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Um, John Black.

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Mm-hm. And the address?

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Uh...

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Damn it, I forgot. Heh.

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Was it 42 Argyle Street,

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Cole Street, Washington Street,
or South Street?

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Um...

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I was distracted talking about my parents.
Can we do that again?

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There's no need to at this time.
Okay.

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So I'd like to do an MRI,
just to rule some things out.

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Like what?

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Because I think I have a brain tumor.

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A precaution. But it will allow us
to see if there are any lesions

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or any signs of a stroke. Just
find out what is going on in there.

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Okay.
What should I do in the meantime?

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Get plenty of exercise. It's always
good to get the blood pumping.

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00:15:24,714 --> 00:15:25,839
Drink lots of water.

241
00:15:26,049 --> 00:15:28,258
Good hydration
is excellent for the memory.

242
00:15:28,468 --> 00:15:32,179
Next time you come and see me,
bring in someone who knows you well?

243
00:15:32,389 --> 00:15:35,557
Your husband or a close relative?

244
00:15:35,725 --> 00:15:37,810
Heh. Sure.

245
00:15:38,019 --> 00:15:57,746
[♪♪♪]

246
00:16:11,469 --> 00:16:13,554
[TIMER RINGING]

247
00:16:13,805 --> 00:16:16,223
Uh, stethoscope,

248
00:16:16,433 --> 00:16:17,808
millennium,

249
00:16:18,018 --> 00:16:19,768
hedgehog.

250
00:16:22,397 --> 00:16:25,607
Okay.

251
00:16:25,942 --> 00:16:27,192
Um...

252
00:16:27,861 --> 00:16:29,695
Cathode.

253
00:16:32,615 --> 00:16:36,660
Pomegranate.

254
00:16:37,829 --> 00:16:39,663
Trellis.

255
00:16:40,874 --> 00:16:42,416
Okay.

256
00:16:49,090 --> 00:16:50,841
TOM:
Hello.

257
00:16:51,051 --> 00:16:52,217
Hi. Come on in.

258
00:16:52,427 --> 00:16:54,053
Hey, Mom. Hi.
Hey, hi.

259
00:16:54,262 --> 00:16:55,471
Good to see you.

260
00:16:55,680 --> 00:16:57,681
This is Jenny.
Hello. I'm Alice.

261
00:16:57,891 --> 00:17:00,017
I'm happy you could join us.
Thank you.

262
00:17:00,226 --> 00:17:02,519
Of course.
Sweetheart, why don't you guys

263
00:17:02,729 --> 00:17:05,230
go in there and get a drink,
and grab the-?

264
00:17:05,440 --> 00:17:07,649
The cheese thing and-
Ha, ha.

265
00:17:07,859 --> 00:17:08,901
All right.
TOM: Yeah.

266
00:17:09,110 --> 00:17:10,861
I'm so happy you could join us.

267
00:17:11,071 --> 00:17:12,988
I really am, Jenny.
Thank you.

268
00:17:13,198 --> 00:17:15,282
It smells so good in here.
Beautiful.

269
00:17:15,492 --> 00:17:18,077
JENNY: Yeah.
That's how we do it.

270
00:17:20,497 --> 00:17:22,247
Okay.

271
00:17:25,835 --> 00:17:26,877
[SIGHS]

272
00:17:27,045 --> 00:17:29,129
How many goddamn eggs?

273
00:17:29,297 --> 00:17:30,506
[TIMER RINGING]

274
00:17:31,591 --> 00:17:34,384
Cathode, pomegranate,

275
00:17:34,594 --> 00:17:36,637
trellis?

276
00:17:37,055 --> 00:17:39,056
Hey, Mom.
Hi.

277
00:17:39,265 --> 00:17:41,350
Merry Christmas.
Oh, merry Christmas.

278
00:17:41,559 --> 00:17:43,060
How was your flight?

279
00:17:43,269 --> 00:17:46,688
Actually, awful. This guy
coughed all over me the entire time.

280
00:17:46,898 --> 00:17:48,899
I hope you don't get sick.
Me too.

281
00:17:49,109 --> 00:17:51,401
Does this mean what I think it means?
Yes.

282
00:17:51,611 --> 00:17:53,195
Bread pudding?
Your favorite.

283
00:17:53,404 --> 00:17:55,239
Yes.
ANNA: Mom. Merry Christmas.

284
00:17:55,448 --> 00:17:56,740
Hi.
CHARLIE: Hello.

285
00:17:56,950 --> 00:18:00,077
Seen my latest "Words with Friends"?
I haven't had time.

286
00:18:00,286 --> 00:18:01,411
A real zinger.
Yeah?

287
00:18:01,621 --> 00:18:03,330
CHARLIE: "Jealousy" on a triple.
ALICE: Hey!

288
00:18:03,540 --> 00:18:05,958
Don't spoil it.
Already trending on Twitter.

289
00:18:06,167 --> 00:18:07,459
How's California?

290
00:18:07,669 --> 00:18:08,710
Nice.
Yeah?

291
00:18:08,920 --> 00:18:10,212
Warmer than here?

292
00:18:10,421 --> 00:18:13,340
Yeah. Heh, heh, heh.
Definitely warmer than here.

293
00:18:13,842 --> 00:18:17,177
Hey, guys,
why don't you get out of here,

294
00:18:17,387 --> 00:18:19,429
so I can concentrate on making this.

295
00:18:20,098 --> 00:18:21,306
Okay?

296
00:18:21,516 --> 00:18:23,725
Where's Dad?
He's upstairs.

297
00:18:23,935 --> 00:18:24,977
Can I help you?

298
00:18:25,186 --> 00:18:27,354
No, I'm fine.
Go get a drink or something.

299
00:18:27,564 --> 00:18:30,774
It's gonna be delicious. Yum. It will be.
Oh, I hope so.

300
00:18:30,984 --> 00:18:32,359
I can't wait.

301
00:18:32,569 --> 00:18:33,902
Jenny.
CHARLIE: Nice to meet you.

302
00:18:34,112 --> 00:18:36,113
JENNY:
Nice to meet you too.

303
00:18:37,282 --> 00:18:38,824
ANNA: Hi, Jenny.
JENNY: How are you?

304
00:18:39,033 --> 00:18:40,826
Hi.
ANNA: Hi.

305
00:18:41,035 --> 00:18:42,286
TOM:
Honestly.

306
00:18:42,495 --> 00:18:44,371
ANNA: Hey.
CHARLIE: Slider.

307
00:18:44,581 --> 00:18:46,582
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

308
00:18:48,251 --> 00:18:50,544
It's a very big decision.
We're excited.

309
00:18:50,753 --> 00:18:52,921
The place was recommended
by friends

310
00:18:53,131 --> 00:18:57,426
who've been trying for years, and they just had their first child, so
- Heh.

311
00:18:57,635 --> 00:18:58,844
So we'Il see.

312
00:18:59,053 --> 00:19:01,555
I've heard good things about Wellspring.
Good.

313
00:19:01,764 --> 00:19:04,516
It's expensive,
but we obviously want it to work.

314
00:19:04,726 --> 00:19:06,476
TOM:
You can't be a mom already.

315
00:19:06,686 --> 00:19:07,895
ANNA:
I know.

316
00:19:08,104 --> 00:19:09,438
Okay.
TOM: Are you kidding?

317
00:19:09,647 --> 00:19:12,774
What kind of soup, Mom?
Here we go. It's butternut squash.

318
00:19:12,984 --> 00:19:15,819
Hi, I'm Alice.
I'm so happy you could join us.

319
00:19:16,196 --> 00:19:17,321
Uh-

320
00:19:17,488 --> 00:19:20,282
I'm Jenny.
It's really nice to meet you.

321
00:19:20,491 --> 00:19:22,618
Well, I think
Yeah-

322
00:19:22,827 --> 00:19:25,537
I deserve a glass of wine
after that, don't you?

323
00:19:25,747 --> 00:19:27,789
LYDIA: You want white?
Yes. Thank you.

324
00:19:27,999 --> 00:19:30,125
Does everyone have a glass?
ANNA: Yes, we do.

325
00:19:30,335 --> 00:19:34,338
Let's have a toast. To Christmas.

326
00:19:34,547 --> 00:19:36,340
ALL:
Merry Christmas.

327
00:19:36,549 --> 00:19:39,218
Merry Christmas.
TOM: Merry Christmas.

328
00:19:39,427 --> 00:19:41,887
BENJAMIN: Now, I don't see
anything abnormal in your MRI.

329
00:19:42,096 --> 00:19:44,389
No cerebral vascular disease,

330
00:19:44,599 --> 00:19:47,309
no evidence of strokes, no masses.
Thank God.

331
00:19:47,518 --> 00:19:50,229
And your blood work came back
completely clear,

332
00:19:50,438 --> 00:19:54,816
but what worries me are
the memory tests that I sent you for.

333
00:19:55,026 --> 00:19:59,279
You have sporadic memory impairment
totally out of proportion to your age.

334
00:19:59,489 --> 00:20:03,951
And there is evidence of decline
in your level of mental function.

335
00:20:04,160 --> 00:20:07,162
I think we should do a PET scan.
It's similar to an MRI,

336
00:20:07,372 --> 00:20:09,706
but it can pick up things
at the molecular level.

337
00:20:09,916 --> 00:20:14,044
I know what a PET scan is. What
in particular would you be looking for?

338
00:20:14,837 --> 00:20:19,424
I wanna see if the results are consistent
with Alzheimer's disease.

339
00:20:19,634 --> 00:20:22,970
Now, it would be rare
for someone as young as yourself,

340
00:20:23,304 --> 00:20:26,390
but you do fit the criteria.

341
00:20:28,184 --> 00:20:30,727
Last time, I asked you
to bring a close relative.

342
00:20:30,937 --> 00:20:33,313
I really didn't think
that would be necessary.

343
00:20:33,523 --> 00:20:36,275
Okay. But next time, for sure.

344
00:20:36,484 --> 00:20:37,901
Okay?

345
00:20:39,237 --> 00:20:41,863
"Enhancement of endogenous levels
of endorphin

346
00:20:42,073 --> 00:20:45,158
has not been shown
to reduce incidence of metastasis

347
00:20:45,368 --> 00:20:47,119
in the distant cell sites. "

348
00:20:47,328 --> 00:20:49,705
That's not good.
Tell me about it.

349
00:20:49,914 --> 00:20:52,124
We've been working on this
for months.

350
00:20:52,333 --> 00:20:55,210
It seems beta endorphin
doesn't significantly impact

351
00:20:55,420 --> 00:20:57,671
the microphage activity.

352
00:20:58,006 --> 00:21:00,090
What about the cytokines?

353
00:21:00,300 --> 00:21:03,010
Elevated. Slightly.

354
00:21:04,137 --> 00:21:06,596
Oh, God.
Back to square one.

355
00:21:10,476 --> 00:21:13,729
Are we both here on the 17th?
Um...

356
00:21:13,938 --> 00:21:15,439
I don't remember.

357
00:21:15,648 --> 00:21:19,735
Phil and Diane were saying they
might come to town for the weekend.

358
00:21:25,742 --> 00:21:28,327
How long are you going
to keep at that thing?

359
00:21:28,536 --> 00:21:30,579
Till it's clean.

360
00:22:15,708 --> 00:22:16,958
[SIGHS]

361
00:22:26,803 --> 00:22:28,345
John.

362
00:22:30,681 --> 00:22:32,891
John, sweetheart, wake up.

363
00:22:37,063 --> 00:22:40,357
What time is it?
I need to talk to you.

364
00:22:42,402 --> 00:22:43,944
I've, um-

365
00:22:44,862 --> 00:22:47,489
I've got something wrong with me.

366
00:22:49,826 --> 00:22:51,660
What are you talking about?

367
00:22:51,869 --> 00:22:54,621
I've been seeing a neurologist.

368
00:22:55,039 --> 00:22:57,624
You've been seeing a neurologist?
Why?

369
00:22:57,834 --> 00:23:01,878
They think that it might be
early-onset Alzheimer's disease.

370
00:23:04,715 --> 00:23:07,676
Ali, Ali, that doesn't make
any sense at all.

371
00:23:07,885 --> 00:23:09,803
They don't know anything for sure.

372
00:23:10,012 --> 00:23:13,014
But I've been doing all these tests
and I'm really scared.

373
00:23:13,224 --> 00:23:17,978
Ali, that is completely insane.
I got-

374
00:23:18,187 --> 00:23:21,731
I got lost while I was running
on campus a while ago. I can't-

375
00:23:21,941 --> 00:23:26,153
I can't remember appointments,
words.

376
00:23:26,362 --> 00:23:28,321
Honey,
we all have memory lapses.

377
00:23:28,531 --> 00:23:31,032
That's a sign of getting older.
The other day

378
00:23:31,242 --> 00:23:34,327
I couldn't remember
the word, um, "glucose. "

379
00:23:34,537 --> 00:23:35,662
It's not like that.

380
00:23:35,872 --> 00:23:38,957
It's like something just drop-
Drops out under me.

381
00:23:40,126 --> 00:23:42,252
But there is no diagnosis yet?
No.

382
00:23:42,462 --> 00:23:46,465
Okay. Well, then I think that this
is ridiculous. It's complete bullshit.

383
00:23:46,674 --> 00:23:49,926
You don't have Alzheimer's.
Why won't you take me seriously?!

384
00:23:50,136 --> 00:23:51,553
I know what I'm feeling.

385
00:23:51,762 --> 00:23:55,474
I know what it's feeling, and it feels
like my brain is fucking dying.

386
00:23:55,683 --> 00:23:59,394
And everything I've worked for
in my entire life is going.

387
00:23:59,604 --> 00:24:01,146
It's all- All going.

388
00:24:01,355 --> 00:24:02,898
No.

389
00:24:03,065 --> 00:24:04,232
[ALICE SOBBING]

390
00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:05,567
Come here.

391
00:24:07,445 --> 00:24:09,237
Don't cry.

392
00:24:09,405 --> 00:24:11,990
[ALICE SOBBING]

393
00:24:21,167 --> 00:24:23,418
WOMAN [ON RADIO]:
Most of them are still awaiting trial.

394
00:24:23,586 --> 00:24:25,962
They have not been found guilty.

395
00:24:26,172 --> 00:24:29,841
Last year, officials at Rikers reported
to the Board of Corrections

396
00:24:30,051 --> 00:24:33,512
that on a typical day...
JOHN: What time is your tutorial?

397
00:24:33,721 --> 00:24:35,388
Eleven.

398
00:24:35,598 --> 00:24:37,766
Well,
that gives you some time.

399
00:24:37,975 --> 00:24:39,059
Mm-hm.

400
00:24:39,560 --> 00:24:43,730
I'm gonna be a little late
because I have a departmental meeting.

401
00:24:43,940 --> 00:24:46,775
When I come back, we can go
to dinner, have Thai food?

402
00:24:46,984 --> 00:24:48,443
Yeah, okay.

403
00:24:50,321 --> 00:24:51,613
[CHUCKLES]

404
00:24:51,781 --> 00:24:54,199
I'm okay. I just-

405
00:24:55,576 --> 00:24:58,537
Last night just got the better of me,
that's all.

406
00:24:58,746 --> 00:25:03,041
Well, two things: I think it's way
too early to jump to any conclusions...

407
00:25:05,711 --> 00:25:07,921
and whatever happens, I'm here.

408
00:25:09,966 --> 00:25:12,342
You can clearly see in here-

409
00:25:12,552 --> 00:25:16,388
The red areas are high
in beta-amyloid.

410
00:25:16,764 --> 00:25:20,517
The buildup has probably been
ongoing for several years.

411
00:25:21,936 --> 00:25:23,019
I'm sorry.

412
00:25:24,105 --> 00:25:26,815
There is evidence
of high amyloid in older people

413
00:25:27,024 --> 00:25:29,276
with normal cognitive function,
correct?

414
00:25:29,902 --> 00:25:32,904
Yes, but not in someone
as young as Alice.

415
00:25:33,698 --> 00:25:35,865
Well, at least
it would be extremely rare.

416
00:25:36,075 --> 00:25:39,536
High amyloid is associated
with conditions other than Alzheimer's.

417
00:25:39,745 --> 00:25:41,871
Unfortunately, in Alice's case,

418
00:25:42,081 --> 00:25:45,542
this corroborates the clinical
symptoms that she is presenting.

419
00:25:45,751 --> 00:25:48,753
Shouldn't any diagnosis be
accompanied by a genetic test?

420
00:25:48,963 --> 00:25:52,424
Hold on a minute, please.
Actually, I was gonna suggest that.

421
00:25:52,633 --> 00:25:55,552
In a case like this,
with the onset being so early,

422
00:25:55,761 --> 00:26:00,473
we would like to check for presenilin
mutations that would be an indicator

423
00:26:00,683 --> 00:26:04,853
of familial Alzheimer's disease,
which is a rarer form.

424
00:26:05,062 --> 00:26:06,896
We can make an appointment
for you.

425
00:26:07,106 --> 00:26:10,775
So this concerns my children?
Yes.

426
00:26:10,985 --> 00:26:14,362
I assume that if I have the gene,

427
00:26:14,572 --> 00:26:17,407
the odds of my passing it along
are fifty-fifty.

428
00:26:17,617 --> 00:26:18,825
I'm afraid so.

429
00:26:19,035 --> 00:26:23,496
And if they are carriers, what are the
odds of them developing the disease?

430
00:26:23,706 --> 00:26:26,374
I'm afraid it's a hundred percent.

431
00:26:27,293 --> 00:26:31,546
WOMAN [ON PA]: Radiology technician,
please dial extension 256.

432
00:26:33,799 --> 00:26:36,426
The kids will all be here
for our anniversary.

433
00:26:36,636 --> 00:26:39,387
I don't think we should tell them,
not until we have the results.

434
00:26:39,597 --> 00:26:43,350
We will by then, if I go in next week.
I wanna know as soon as possible.

435
00:26:43,559 --> 00:26:47,729
Where the hell is this goddamn elevator?
Here we are in a major hospital.

436
00:26:47,938 --> 00:26:49,981
Only one elevator running?
It's okay.

437
00:26:50,191 --> 00:26:53,652
We could've taken the stairs by now.
It doesn't matter.

438
00:26:53,819 --> 00:26:55,195
[SIGHS]

439
00:26:56,280 --> 00:26:58,239
AUTOMATED VOICE:
Going down.

440
00:27:05,915 --> 00:27:10,877
Well, um, everybody...

441
00:27:11,087 --> 00:27:12,420
What's going on?

442
00:27:15,758 --> 00:27:18,843
Oh, boy. Uh...
Are you guys gonna break up or...?

443
00:27:19,053 --> 00:27:20,804
No.

444
00:27:21,764 --> 00:27:26,643
No, it's nothing like that. It-
ANNA: Mom, are you sick?

445
00:27:31,357 --> 00:27:34,526
I have been seeing a neurologist
for the past few months

446
00:27:34,735 --> 00:27:37,987
and I have Alzheimer's disease.

447
00:27:38,239 --> 00:27:39,864
Early onset.

448
00:27:40,074 --> 00:27:42,951
That- That doesn't make sense.
Are-? Are you sure?

449
00:27:43,160 --> 00:27:45,870
There is no doubt.
She has the disease.

450
00:27:46,080 --> 00:27:48,164
TOM:
But at her age, it's-

451
00:27:48,374 --> 00:27:50,375
It is rare,
but it has been confirmed.

452
00:27:50,584 --> 00:27:52,585
Yeah.
ANNA: You're so young, Mom.

453
00:27:55,548 --> 00:27:59,592
I don't understand that.
LYDIA: I had noticed one or two things.

454
00:27:59,802 --> 00:28:02,595
You didn't know Tom's girlfriend
when she came over-

455
00:28:02,805 --> 00:28:05,515
Lydia.
TOM: What medications are you on?

456
00:28:05,725 --> 00:28:08,143
Right now,
I'm on Aricept and Namenda.

457
00:28:08,352 --> 00:28:10,019
TOM:
They can help slow the progress?

458
00:28:10,229 --> 00:28:12,021
Well, no.
I'm afraid not.

459
00:28:12,231 --> 00:28:13,940
Help alleviate the symptoms,

460
00:28:14,150 --> 00:28:17,110
but they can't prevent the disease.
The thing is

461
00:28:17,319 --> 00:28:20,238
that the type of Alzheimer's I have

462
00:28:20,448 --> 00:28:23,366
is very rare.

463
00:28:25,035 --> 00:28:30,165
It's familial. It's passed on genetically.
Oh, my God.

464
00:28:30,374 --> 00:28:32,709
JOHN: We believe that
she got it from her father

465
00:28:32,918 --> 00:28:36,087
and, of course, we're very worried
about the three of you.

466
00:28:36,297 --> 00:28:38,339
Now, there is a test you can take,

467
00:28:38,549 --> 00:28:43,303
but it's completely up to you
whether you wanna find out or not.

468
00:28:44,346 --> 00:28:46,222
I'm sorry.

469
00:28:47,558 --> 00:28:49,350
I'm so...

470
00:28:51,312 --> 00:28:54,898
[♪♪♪]

471
00:29:07,995 --> 00:29:10,663
[PEOPLE CHATTERING]

472
00:29:45,407 --> 00:29:49,536
Can anyone tell me what it says
in the syllabus for today?

473
00:29:51,705 --> 00:29:52,872
MAN:
Phonology.

474
00:29:53,082 --> 00:29:56,543
And can anyone tell me
what phonology is?

475
00:30:02,758 --> 00:30:06,636
"Phono" is from the Greek
word "phoné, " meaning "sound,"

476
00:30:06,846 --> 00:30:11,307
and phonology, broadly speaking, is
the study of the sounds of language.

477
00:30:11,517 --> 00:30:13,852
It should be distinguished
from phonetics.

478
00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:23,361
[PHONE RINGING]

479
00:30:27,032 --> 00:30:28,783
Hi, Anna.

480
00:30:28,993 --> 00:30:30,326
Hi, Mom.

481
00:30:30,536 --> 00:30:32,537
Are you okay?

482
00:30:33,038 --> 00:30:36,332
I got the results. I'm positive.

483
00:30:36,542 --> 00:30:39,419
Oh, God, Anna.

484
00:30:40,296 --> 00:30:43,339
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

485
00:30:43,549 --> 00:30:47,760
Tom turned out negative,
and Lydia didn't wanna know.

486
00:30:47,970 --> 00:30:49,387
But I'm positive.

487
00:30:49,597 --> 00:30:52,015
Baby, how are you feeling?

488
00:30:52,391 --> 00:30:54,225
I'm okay.

489
00:30:55,769 --> 00:30:59,981
One good thing, at least I found out now
before the next IUl session.

490
00:31:00,190 --> 00:31:02,108
I guess they can test the embryos,

491
00:31:02,318 --> 00:31:04,819
so they can be sure
the babies will be okay.

492
00:31:05,029 --> 00:31:09,157
I'm on my way to a lecture, but I can
cancel it and I can be right there.

493
00:31:09,366 --> 00:31:13,161
No, no, Mom, it's okay.
I'm with Charlie. I'm okay.

494
00:31:13,370 --> 00:31:17,123
No, I want to. I can-
I- I want to be there. I can come.

495
00:31:17,333 --> 00:31:21,294
No, please don't worry. I'll be fine.

496
00:31:21,921 --> 00:31:23,546
Okay.

497
00:31:24,423 --> 00:31:26,633
I love you, sweetheart.

498
00:31:26,967 --> 00:31:28,760
I love you.

499
00:31:29,762 --> 00:31:32,889
Bye.
Bye.

500
00:31:36,852 --> 00:31:59,999
[♪♪♪]

501
00:32:13,013 --> 00:32:17,058
ERIC: "I had been looking forward to
this course, but I was disappointed.

502
00:32:17,267 --> 00:32:22,605
The content was often muddled
and delivered with little focus or care.

503
00:32:22,982 --> 00:32:27,068
Class was a waste of time. I ended up
just following the online version.

504
00:32:27,277 --> 00:32:30,196
I found Linguistics 201
very erratic.

505
00:32:30,406 --> 00:32:34,200
I had a hard time
following Dr. Howland's lectures.

506
00:32:34,410 --> 00:32:36,911
Even she seems
like she gets lost in them. "

507
00:32:37,121 --> 00:32:43,042
Eric, I am so sorry.
I- I didn't know the students felt this way.

508
00:32:43,252 --> 00:32:47,797
Obviously, I will
- I will make adjustments and we can reevaluate my performance.

509
00:32:48,007 --> 00:32:50,675
Everything all right at home?
Between you and John?

510
00:32:50,884 --> 00:32:54,012
Yes, evertyhing's fine.
Is it something we can help with?

511
00:32:54,221 --> 00:32:56,014
Stress, depression?
No, no, no.

512
00:32:56,223 --> 00:32:58,683
Substance abuse? Alcohol?
No. No. God, Eric.

513
00:32:58,892 --> 00:33:01,644
No, it's- It's nothing like that.
I- It's, uh-

514
00:33:01,854 --> 00:33:06,190
It's medical.
It's a- It's a medical issue,

515
00:33:06,400 --> 00:33:10,111
and I admit I had a hard time
teaching last semester

516
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:12,697
and I wasn't aware
of how much it showed.

517
00:33:12,906 --> 00:33:15,700
Alice, I'm not following.

518
00:33:16,660 --> 00:33:20,288
I have mild cognitive impairment.

519
00:33:20,497 --> 00:33:22,665
Would you unpack that for me?

520
00:33:22,875 --> 00:33:26,711
In February, I was diagnosed
with early onset Alzheimer's disease.

521
00:33:27,588 --> 00:33:29,297
What?

522
00:33:29,673 --> 00:33:33,593
Alice, oh, my God, I'm sorry.
It's early. It's still early stages.

523
00:33:33,802 --> 00:33:36,220
It will limit my ability as time goes on,

524
00:33:36,430 --> 00:33:39,682
but for now, I feel capable-
There's no need to-

525
00:33:39,892 --> 00:33:43,186
I mean, we don't want you
under any undue stress.

526
00:33:43,395 --> 00:33:46,481
That would be counterproductive.
I can handle the stress.

527
00:33:46,690 --> 00:33:51,319
I would like to remain in the department
for as long as we all think is possible.

528
00:33:53,572 --> 00:33:57,408
Well, I'Il have to let the department
and the faculty know.

529
00:33:58,619 --> 00:33:59,744
Yes, of course.

530
00:33:59,953 --> 00:34:02,747
I am so, so sorry.

531
00:34:05,209 --> 00:34:46,791
[♪♪♪]

532
00:34:48,252 --> 00:34:53,506
I'Il have a regular
with blueberries and coconut, please.

533
00:35:08,272 --> 00:35:09,355
ALICE:
Hi.

534
00:35:09,523 --> 00:35:10,565
[DOOR CLOSES]

535
00:35:10,732 --> 00:35:12,775
Alice, where the hell were you?

536
00:35:12,985 --> 00:35:14,152
I went for a run.

537
00:35:14,361 --> 00:35:17,071
You've been gone for over two hours.
I was worried.

538
00:35:17,281 --> 00:35:19,073
Well, then I went to Pinkberry.

539
00:35:19,283 --> 00:35:21,826
You went to Pinkberry?
Yeah.

540
00:35:22,202 --> 00:35:26,706
Well, I hope you enjoyed that because
you completely blew our dinner plans.

541
00:35:27,875 --> 00:35:30,084
Susan Kirby and her husband.

542
00:35:32,713 --> 00:35:35,131
I'm sorry. I forgot.

543
00:35:35,716 --> 00:35:37,758
I have Alzheimer's.

544
00:35:37,968 --> 00:35:39,552
I texted you, I e-mailed you.

545
00:35:39,761 --> 00:35:42,305
There are ways to manage-
I said I was sorry.

546
00:35:42,514 --> 00:35:45,016
She's the chair of my department.

547
00:35:45,225 --> 00:35:47,935
I had no idea where you were,
if something happened.

548
00:35:48,145 --> 00:35:51,314
Why didn't you bring your phone?
I can't when I'm running.

549
00:35:51,523 --> 00:35:53,858
Wear a fanny pack.
Is it that inhibiting?

550
00:35:54,067 --> 00:35:55,568
Yes.

551
00:35:59,948 --> 00:36:03,826
I hate that this is happening to me.
I hate it too.

552
00:36:04,786 --> 00:36:07,705
We have to keep the important
things in our life going.

553
00:36:07,915 --> 00:36:10,124
We have to try
or we're going to go crazy.

554
00:36:10,334 --> 00:36:11,709
I know. I know, John.

555
00:36:11,919 --> 00:36:16,005
I am, I'm sorry, but I don't know what I
would've been like at a dinner party.

556
00:36:16,215 --> 00:36:19,592
I might not be able to remember names
or answer simple questions.

557
00:36:19,801 --> 00:36:22,803
Never mind get through an anecdote.
You're doing great.

558
00:36:23,013 --> 00:36:24,180
Relative to what?

559
00:36:27,643 --> 00:36:30,019
I wish I had cancer.

560
00:36:31,021 --> 00:36:32,313
Don't say that.

561
00:36:32,522 --> 00:36:35,650
No, I do. I mean it.
I mean, I wouldn't feel so ashamed.

562
00:36:35,859 --> 00:36:38,736
People have cancer,
they wear pink ribbons for you

563
00:36:38,946 --> 00:36:43,032
and go on long walks,
and raise money,

564
00:36:43,242 --> 00:36:47,995
and you don't have to feel
like some kind of a social...

565
00:36:50,415 --> 00:36:52,500
I can't remember the word.

566
00:37:01,385 --> 00:37:07,056
In 2013, we completed exterior repairs,
and inside, we replaced the elevators,

567
00:37:07,266 --> 00:37:10,434
refurbished the auditorium,
the library and lounge area

568
00:37:10,644 --> 00:37:13,562
and upgraded our HVAC system.
Well, that's good.

569
00:37:13,772 --> 00:37:16,357
We also took away
a lot of the old security doors,

570
00:37:16,566 --> 00:37:18,734
Residents are issued a bracelet
instead,

571
00:37:18,944 --> 00:37:23,739
which keeps them from using elevators or
leaving the building, depending on their level.

572
00:37:23,949 --> 00:37:26,242
I don't know if you've experienced
this with your parent,

573
00:37:26,451 --> 00:37:29,662
but they get nighttime restlessness
and wandering.

574
00:37:29,871 --> 00:37:33,874
We can prevent their elopement without
patients feeling they're locked in.

575
00:37:34,084 --> 00:37:35,126
I see.

576
00:37:35,335 --> 00:37:39,839
WOMAN: We saw that large group activities
left most of the residents unengaged

577
00:37:40,048 --> 00:37:44,343
and even distressed by the confusion
they experienced from all the stimulation.

578
00:37:44,553 --> 00:37:46,804
So we redefined activities

579
00:37:47,014 --> 00:37:51,058
to include all interactions
between staff and residents in the unit.

580
00:37:51,268 --> 00:37:55,354
Staff looks for opportunities to make
meaningful connections with residents,

581
00:37:55,564 --> 00:37:59,984
starting with knowing about the person
and what makes them comfortable.

582
00:38:00,193 --> 00:38:05,239
One woman who had worked as a nurse sat, most
days, in the nursing station, writing notes.

583
00:38:05,449 --> 00:38:06,490
Heartbreaking.

584
00:38:06,700 --> 00:38:09,702
Yes, but it's a behavior
we see time and again.

585
00:38:09,911 --> 00:38:12,246
We don't have restrictions
on visiting times.

586
00:38:12,456 --> 00:38:14,749
Family and friends
are welcome day or night.

587
00:38:14,958 --> 00:38:17,335
Doesn't look like anybody's here.
Sunday is the day they come.

588
00:38:17,502 --> 00:38:18,544
[ALARM BEEPING]

589
00:38:18,712 --> 00:38:20,212
ALICE: What's that?
Chair alarm.

590
00:38:20,380 --> 00:38:22,506
Certain residents have them
so we know they're up.

591
00:38:22,716 --> 00:38:25,134
ALICE: She all right?
WOMAN: Just a precautionary measure.

592
00:38:25,344 --> 00:38:27,970
OLD WOMAN: Get me to Penn Station.
It's all women.

593
00:38:28,180 --> 00:38:31,307
We do have mainly female residents
here, but there are men.

594
00:38:31,516 --> 00:38:34,018
There's William.
William was part of the team

595
00:38:34,227 --> 00:38:37,063
that sent the first satellite into orbit.
Mm-hm.

596
00:38:37,814 --> 00:38:39,815
[♪♪♪]

597
00:38:49,659 --> 00:38:52,828
They just aren't powerful enough
to put me to sleep.

598
00:38:53,038 --> 00:38:54,580
Do you want to try Lunesta?

599
00:38:54,790 --> 00:38:56,332
What about Rohypnol?

600
00:38:56,541 --> 00:38:57,750
That's very strong.

601
00:38:57,959 --> 00:39:00,086
I need something strong.

602
00:39:10,389 --> 00:39:11,847
Hi, Alice.

603
00:39:12,057 --> 00:39:16,394
I am you and I have something
very important to say to you.

604
00:39:16,603 --> 00:39:19,980
So you've reached the point
where you can no longer answer

605
00:39:20,148 --> 00:39:22,191
any of the questions.

606
00:39:22,401 --> 00:39:25,528
So this is the next logical step.

607
00:39:25,737 --> 00:39:27,530
I'm sure of it.

608
00:39:27,739 --> 00:39:30,574
In your bedroom there's a dresser
with a blue lamp.

609
00:39:31,076 --> 00:39:32,868
Open the top drawer.

610
00:39:33,078 --> 00:39:36,247
In the back of the drawer,
there's a bottle with pills in it.

611
00:39:36,456 --> 00:39:39,333
It says, "Take all pills with water. "

612
00:39:39,543 --> 00:39:42,169
Now, there are a lot of pills
in that bottle,

613
00:39:42,379 --> 00:39:45,798
but it's very important
that you swallow them all.

614
00:39:46,550 --> 00:39:52,304
Okay?
And then lie down and go to sleep.

615
00:39:53,014 --> 00:39:55,766
And don't tell anyone
what you're doing.

616
00:40:30,760 --> 00:41:04,543
[♪♪♪]

617
00:41:32,572 --> 00:41:34,573
JOHN:
Ali!

618
00:41:34,783 --> 00:41:36,659
Ali!

619
00:41:44,960 --> 00:41:46,252
Oh, I love it here.

620
00:41:46,461 --> 00:41:48,254
Me too.

621
00:41:51,049 --> 00:41:54,260
[♪♪♪]

622
00:41:57,556 --> 00:42:02,601
♪ And if I had a boat
I'd go out on the ocean ♪♪

623
00:42:03,395 --> 00:42:06,105
[LAUGHING]

624
00:42:08,483 --> 00:42:10,943
ALICE: Remember Santorini? Ha, ha, ha.
Santorini.

625
00:42:11,152 --> 00:42:15,990
Can you believe that was 30 years ago?
Don't do that to me. Oh, my God.

626
00:42:16,199 --> 00:42:18,409
Oh, it was a complicated time, huh?

627
00:42:18,618 --> 00:42:21,453
You were dealing with a lot.
What was it, a year after?

628
00:42:21,663 --> 00:42:24,248
Yeah, something like that.
Yeah.

629
00:42:24,457 --> 00:42:28,752
I know I've said this, but I am sorry I
never got to meet your mom or your sister.

630
00:42:28,962 --> 00:42:30,754
Me too.

631
00:42:31,548 --> 00:42:33,048
We had a great time, though.

632
00:42:34,634 --> 00:42:37,928
Yeah.
Don't you wish we had more of that?

633
00:42:38,513 --> 00:42:41,640
If you mean blow jobs on the beach, yes.
Ha, ha, ha.

634
00:42:41,850 --> 00:42:44,268
Yeah, but, you know.
I do wish we had more.

635
00:42:44,477 --> 00:42:46,645
Yeah, all of it.

636
00:42:47,188 --> 00:42:48,981
It all happened so fast, you know.

637
00:42:49,190 --> 00:42:51,692
Anna was born, our careers.

638
00:42:51,901 --> 00:42:53,527
Well, you were relentless.

639
00:42:53,737 --> 00:42:56,739
You wanted evertyhing
and all at once.

640
00:42:56,948 --> 00:43:00,576
That's how I am. That's how I like it.

641
00:43:01,620 --> 00:43:03,412
Anna's the same way, right?

642
00:43:03,955 --> 00:43:06,248
I like you the way you are.

643
00:43:07,876 --> 00:43:09,960
I like evertyhing about you.

644
00:43:10,170 --> 00:43:12,004
Thank God you do.

645
00:43:12,172 --> 00:43:14,381
Mm. Mm.

646
00:43:16,885 --> 00:43:18,302
This is so great, you know.

647
00:43:18,511 --> 00:43:19,803
I kind of like it.

648
00:43:20,013 --> 00:43:22,931
Being liberated from Columbia.

649
00:43:23,141 --> 00:43:26,101
Why don't you take a sabbatical
next year?

650
00:43:26,686 --> 00:43:29,355
And we're gonna do what,
drive around the country in an RV?

651
00:43:29,522 --> 00:43:30,731
[BOTH LAUGH]

652
00:43:30,899 --> 00:43:34,443
Sure. I don't know,
we could spend more time here.

653
00:43:34,653 --> 00:43:35,694
Go to Bhutan.

654
00:43:35,904 --> 00:43:39,657
Well, I think our summer on the island
is all the excitement I can handle.

655
00:43:39,866 --> 00:43:42,368
Okay. Well, you know what?

656
00:43:42,577 --> 00:43:46,330
This might be the last year
that I'm myself, you know?

657
00:43:51,878 --> 00:43:53,962
Please don't say that.

658
00:44:17,612 --> 00:44:19,321
John?

659
00:44:19,531 --> 00:44:21,323
I'm over here.

660
00:44:21,533 --> 00:44:25,411
Oh, hey, when are you
going to the conference?

661
00:44:26,913 --> 00:44:28,247
On Monday.

662
00:44:28,456 --> 00:44:31,375
And when is Lydia coming?
Lydia comes on Sunday.

663
00:44:31,584 --> 00:44:34,086
She doesn't have to come
just to babysit me.

664
00:44:34,546 --> 00:44:37,631
She's coming to do the Chekhov play
at Saugatuck, remember?

665
00:44:38,341 --> 00:44:40,300
Right.
When I get finished,

666
00:44:40,510 --> 00:44:44,054
are we gonna go for a run?
Yeah, I need to grab another layer.

667
00:44:44,264 --> 00:44:45,681
Okay.

668
00:45:02,323 --> 00:45:05,993
[♪♪♪]

669
00:45:27,766 --> 00:45:30,976
Hey, are we still going running?
Oh, I'm sorry. Hey, look.

670
00:45:31,186 --> 00:45:33,562
Look, I found this photo album

671
00:45:33,772 --> 00:45:36,023
with these pictures
of my mother and my sister.

672
00:45:36,191 --> 00:45:37,483
Oh.

673
00:45:37,901 --> 00:45:40,694
Hey, when are you going
to the conference?

674
00:45:41,613 --> 00:45:44,114
Monday.
And when is Lydia coming?

675
00:45:44,324 --> 00:45:46,450
Lydia's coming on Sunday.

676
00:45:46,659 --> 00:45:48,202
Okay.

677
00:45:49,454 --> 00:45:51,163
Are we going running?
Yes.

678
00:45:51,372 --> 00:45:53,332
Yes, we are.
I just have to go pee.

679
00:45:53,541 --> 00:45:55,209
I'Il be right back.

680
00:46:00,757 --> 00:46:03,967
[♪♪♪]

681
00:46:59,107 --> 00:47:00,983
[FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING]

682
00:47:02,360 --> 00:47:03,986
JOHN:
Ali?

683
00:47:07,240 --> 00:47:09,658
I couldn't find the bathroom.

684
00:47:09,868 --> 00:47:12,244
It's okay, baby.
Come on, let's get you cleaned up.

685
00:47:12,412 --> 00:47:13,453
[ALICE SOBBING]

686
00:47:13,621 --> 00:47:15,414
I don't know where I am.

687
00:47:21,296 --> 00:47:23,297
[SOBBING]

688
00:47:27,552 --> 00:47:30,762
[♪♪♪]

689
00:47:37,020 --> 00:47:38,687
LYDIA: I like that necklace.
You do?

690
00:47:38,897 --> 00:47:40,230
Yeah.
Haven't seen this?

691
00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:41,899
Nope.

692
00:47:42,358 --> 00:47:44,776
My mother gave it to me.

693
00:47:45,403 --> 00:47:48,113
When I was, um, a little girl,

694
00:47:48,323 --> 00:47:52,159
like, in second grade,
my teacher told me

695
00:47:52,368 --> 00:47:55,746
butterflies don't live a long time.
They live, like, a month.

696
00:47:55,955 --> 00:47:59,708
And I was so upset, and I went home,
and I told my mother, and she said:

697
00:47:59,918 --> 00:48:03,045
"Yeah, but, you know,
they have a nice life.

698
00:48:03,254 --> 00:48:05,505
They have a really beautiful life. "

699
00:48:05,715 --> 00:48:10,177
So now it always makes me think about
my mother's life, and my sister's life.

700
00:48:10,386 --> 00:48:14,848
And to a certain extent,
you know, my own.

701
00:48:18,561 --> 00:48:21,855
You are gonna be around for a long time.
Yes, yes.

702
00:48:22,065 --> 00:48:24,191
There's some things I wanna do,
you know?

703
00:48:24,400 --> 00:48:28,153
I wanna take a sabbatical with Daddy.
I don't think that's gonna happen.

704
00:48:28,363 --> 00:48:32,908
And I wanna see Anna have a baby,
and I wanna see Tom graduate.

705
00:48:33,117 --> 00:48:36,995
You will.
And I'd like to see you go to college.

706
00:48:39,666 --> 00:48:43,377
Not for law or medicine or anything,
but for drama.

707
00:48:43,586 --> 00:48:46,380
And if the acting thing doesn't
work out, you could-

708
00:48:46,589 --> 00:48:50,759
You could teach or do workshops.
You'd have some kind of a backup plan.

709
00:48:50,969 --> 00:48:52,636
Yeah.

710
00:48:53,471 --> 00:48:55,889
I don't want a backup plan.

711
00:48:56,557 --> 00:48:57,766
I-

712
00:48:57,976 --> 00:49:03,021
I wanna do this. I'm gonna give it a shot. It's
not gonna happen if I don't believe in myself.

713
00:49:03,231 --> 00:49:06,858
I believe in you, Lydia.
I do, I believe in you.

714
00:49:07,068 --> 00:49:09,861
It's just that, you know,
life is tough.

715
00:49:10,071 --> 00:49:12,990
It is tougher than you know.

716
00:49:13,199 --> 00:49:14,366
And I-

717
00:49:14,575 --> 00:49:18,704
I just- I want you to have
some kind of security before I go.

718
00:49:19,622 --> 00:49:21,790
Mom, for God-

719
00:49:22,041 --> 00:49:23,667
You have to-

720
00:49:25,253 --> 00:49:28,547
You can't use your situation
to just get me to do everything

721
00:49:28,756 --> 00:49:30,841
you want me to do.
Why can't I?

722
00:49:31,050 --> 00:49:33,885
Because that's not fair.
I don't have to be fair.

723
00:49:34,095 --> 00:49:35,971
I'm your mother.

724
00:49:36,597 --> 00:49:39,433
Right?
Yeah.

725
00:49:39,642 --> 00:49:42,853
[♪♪♪]

726
00:49:53,489 --> 00:49:54,916
[BLEEPING]

727
00:50:05,084 --> 00:50:06,209
[SIGHS]

728
00:50:08,588 --> 00:50:11,882
[♪♪♪]

729
00:50:20,183 --> 00:50:22,976
JOHN: Hey.
What's going on?

730
00:50:23,186 --> 00:50:25,479
I'm just working, how about you?

731
00:50:26,272 --> 00:50:28,148
Nothing.

732
00:50:30,610 --> 00:50:32,069
I need something to read.

733
00:50:32,278 --> 00:50:36,156
I thought you were reading Moby-Dick.
Yeah, I was,

734
00:50:36,365 --> 00:50:41,328
but I got tired of reading the same
page over and over again. I can't focus.

735
00:50:41,537 --> 00:50:44,206
Well, that happens to me
when I read Moby-Dick too.

736
00:50:44,415 --> 00:50:47,918
Why don't you try something lighter.
Like The Cat in the Hat?

737
00:50:48,127 --> 00:50:50,712
How about one of those plays
Lydia has downstairs?

738
00:50:50,922 --> 00:50:53,256
They're quicker,
they're easier to read.

739
00:50:53,466 --> 00:50:56,384
It might give the two of you
something to talk about.

740
00:51:01,724 --> 00:51:03,683
Okay.

741
00:51:11,984 --> 00:51:14,444
You work all the time.

742
00:52:10,668 --> 00:52:15,213
What I liked about it was how-

743
00:52:15,423 --> 00:52:18,842
How big, how-

744
00:52:19,051 --> 00:52:24,055
How wide the scape of it was.

745
00:52:24,265 --> 00:52:25,891
Yeah. The scope of it.

746
00:52:26,100 --> 00:52:28,727
The scope, that's the word.
Oh, God, listen to me. Heh.

747
00:52:28,936 --> 00:52:31,438
It's unbelievable you had
to live through that.

748
00:52:32,356 --> 00:52:33,940
You must have known...

749
00:52:34,150 --> 00:52:36,484
Must have known somebody
that died from AIDS.

750
00:52:36,694 --> 00:52:40,155
Oh, yeah, honey. Everybody did.

751
00:52:40,740 --> 00:52:43,241
We lost a lot of people.

752
00:52:44,785 --> 00:52:46,578
What did you think?

753
00:52:46,787 --> 00:52:49,748
I mean, you and Malcolm
played the Mormons, right?

754
00:52:49,957 --> 00:52:53,043
The husband and wife?
You did scenes in your acting class.

755
00:52:53,252 --> 00:52:55,045
Yeah, how'd you know that?

756
00:52:56,631 --> 00:52:59,007
I don't know,
you must have told me.

757
00:52:59,592 --> 00:53:02,177
I didn't tell you.
Mm...

758
00:53:02,345 --> 00:53:03,762
Well, then...

759
00:53:04,055 --> 00:53:05,847
I don't know how I know it.

760
00:53:07,475 --> 00:53:08,975
Mom, did you read my journal?

761
00:53:11,562 --> 00:53:13,146
Uh...

762
00:53:14,232 --> 00:53:16,024
Why?

763
00:53:16,234 --> 00:53:18,818
Why would you do that, Mom?
Oh, gosh.

764
00:53:19,028 --> 00:53:21,613
I am so sorry.

765
00:53:21,822 --> 00:53:25,367
Lydia, I honestly didn't understand
what I was reading.

766
00:53:25,576 --> 00:53:28,995
You didn't understand "Lydia Howland"
written across the front?

767
00:53:29,205 --> 00:53:32,290
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I-
I don't believe you.

768
00:53:32,500 --> 00:53:34,000
I didn't mean to.

769
00:53:34,418 --> 00:53:35,543
Okay, it's fine.

770
00:53:35,753 --> 00:53:37,337
I just can't...

771
00:53:37,546 --> 00:53:40,465
Lydia, I didn't- I really didn't know.
Just stop!

772
00:53:40,675 --> 00:53:43,009
I wouldn't do that to you.

773
00:53:44,053 --> 00:53:45,303
[DOOR SLAMS]

774
00:53:45,471 --> 00:53:47,722
So you can't eat this.
No, I know.

775
00:53:47,932 --> 00:53:51,851
No sushi, no hot do
- Hot dogs are the worst. I love hot dogs.

776
00:53:52,061 --> 00:53:53,603
No alcohol.
No alcohol.

777
00:53:53,813 --> 00:53:55,897
No cigarettes.
Never even smoked.

778
00:53:56,107 --> 00:53:57,565
Well, you- I mean-

779
00:53:57,775 --> 00:54:00,735
JOHN: Never had a cigarette in your life?
ANNA: Not one.

780
00:54:00,945 --> 00:54:02,612
CHARLIE:
We can't be too careful.

781
00:54:02,822 --> 00:54:06,908
He even grabbed my hand the other day
as we were walking down the stairs.

782
00:54:07,118 --> 00:54:11,288
CHARLIE: Protecting my investment.
Anna, return my "Words with Friends. "

783
00:54:11,497 --> 00:54:14,666
Oh, I'm sorry, Mom. I haven't had time.
Oh.

784
00:54:14,834 --> 00:54:15,875
CHARLIE: Yeah.
LYDIA: Hey.

785
00:54:16,085 --> 00:54:18,211
Hey, hey. Thank you.
Congrats.

786
00:54:20,047 --> 00:54:22,841
There you are.
Thanks. So twins, huh?

787
00:54:23,175 --> 00:54:25,635
Yes, a boy and a girl.
Kind of perfect.

788
00:54:25,845 --> 00:54:28,471
What your mother and I were hoping for.
It's so wonderful.

789
00:54:28,639 --> 00:54:29,681
[PHONE VIBRATING]

790
00:54:29,849 --> 00:54:30,974
Oh, gosh.

791
00:54:31,142 --> 00:54:33,643
I'm sorry, I've gotta take this. Hello?

792
00:54:33,853 --> 00:54:35,812
How far along are you?
ANNA: Five weeks.

793
00:54:36,022 --> 00:54:39,274
Right now, it's very early days,
but, um...

794
00:54:39,483 --> 00:54:42,819
Well, the timing of things, how
we found out and when we did,

795
00:54:43,029 --> 00:54:45,947
well, it really worked out in the end.
LYDIA: Great.

796
00:54:46,407 --> 00:54:49,242
That's amazing.
TOM: So, Mom, how you feeling?

797
00:54:49,452 --> 00:54:50,952
Mostly fine.
Really?

798
00:54:51,162 --> 00:54:54,873
Yeah, I use this thing,
you know, instead of a memory.

799
00:54:55,082 --> 00:54:57,751
Reminds me to take my medication,
things like that.

800
00:54:57,960 --> 00:55:00,045
It's nice how the technology can help.

801
00:55:00,254 --> 00:55:04,174
ANNA: I think it has the same...
Lydia, what time is your play?

802
00:55:04,508 --> 00:55:05,592
Eight o'clock.

803
00:55:05,801 --> 00:55:07,761
Nervous about tomorrow night?
LYDIA: Yes.

804
00:55:07,970 --> 00:55:10,638
I'Il be fine, but I'll have to block you out.
CHARLIE: Heh, heh.

805
00:55:10,848 --> 00:55:12,557
I'm sorry. What time again?

806
00:55:12,767 --> 00:55:14,100
LYDIA: Eight o'clock.
Okay.

807
00:55:14,310 --> 00:55:18,021
You don't have to schedule it.
I wanna put it in. And where is it?

808
00:55:18,230 --> 00:55:20,231
The Saugatuck Theater.
Can you spell that?

809
00:55:20,441 --> 00:55:22,817
LYDIA: S-A-U-
Mom, we're not gonna forget you.

810
00:55:23,027 --> 00:55:24,319
LYDIA:
Just let her do it.

811
00:55:24,528 --> 00:55:27,447
It's S-A-U-G-A-T-U-C-K.
Oh, God.

812
00:55:27,656 --> 00:55:29,240
Anna, you're not helping.
You're not.

813
00:55:29,450 --> 00:55:31,826
Why worry about remembering
something she doesn't have to?

814
00:55:32,036 --> 00:55:33,995
If you just let her, she won't worry.

815
00:55:34,413 --> 00:55:37,624
You don't have to talk about her
like she's not sitting here.

816
00:55:37,833 --> 00:55:41,044
I'm not, I'm talking to her. Aren't I, Mom?
Yes, you are.

817
00:55:41,253 --> 00:55:43,671
Yes, and what makes you an expert?
Shut up.

818
00:55:43,881 --> 00:55:45,215
Grow up, Lydia.
Suck it.

819
00:55:45,424 --> 00:55:46,758
That's very articulate.

820
00:55:46,967 --> 00:55:48,385
Girls, girls, you know-

821
00:55:48,594 --> 00:55:50,720
LYDIA: Are you kidding me?
That's enough.

822
00:55:50,930 --> 00:55:52,972
Stop it, please.
ANNA: You shut up.

823
00:55:53,182 --> 00:55:56,059
No, both of you, stop it.
JOHN: What is going on here?

824
00:55:57,978 --> 00:56:00,730
Alice, this is a beautiful spread.

825
00:56:01,440 --> 00:56:03,400
Thank you, Charlie.

826
00:56:04,193 --> 00:56:05,276
TOM:
Very valuable

827
00:56:05,444 --> 00:56:09,572
Lydia, baby, I know that we argued
about something yesterday,

828
00:56:09,782 --> 00:56:13,118
but I can't remember
what it was about.

829
00:56:13,285 --> 00:56:14,661
Oh.

830
00:56:14,995 --> 00:56:17,997
It was nothing, honestly.
No, I upset you.

831
00:56:18,207 --> 00:56:22,335
And I should apologize.

832
00:56:24,964 --> 00:56:27,090
No, no.

833
00:56:27,299 --> 00:56:28,508
I should apologize.

834
00:56:28,717 --> 00:56:30,009
I'm...

835
00:56:30,678 --> 00:56:34,139
I feel really bad.
I was so insensitive yesterday.

836
00:56:36,851 --> 00:56:38,643
Will you forgive me, honestly?

837
00:56:39,520 --> 00:56:41,271
But for what?

838
00:56:41,480 --> 00:56:47,902
It was about you respecting my
privacy, and I don't want that.

839
00:56:48,112 --> 00:56:50,989
And I take it back completely.

840
00:56:51,740 --> 00:56:53,533
And I'm sorry, okay?

841
00:56:53,951 --> 00:56:55,743
I'm sorry.

842
00:56:59,665 --> 00:57:02,459
It's not as if I can remember it. Heh, heh.
Heh, heh.

843
00:57:02,626 --> 00:57:06,337
Yeah, I know, right?
That's why I tried to drop it.

844
00:57:06,547 --> 00:57:08,298
[BOTH LAUGH]

845
00:57:13,512 --> 00:57:15,430
What's it like?

846
00:57:17,183 --> 00:57:20,518
Like, what does it actually feel like?
Um...

847
00:57:20,686 --> 00:57:24,397
Well, it's not always the same.

848
00:57:24,607 --> 00:57:28,401
You know, I have, uh-
I have good days and bad days.

849
00:57:28,611 --> 00:57:35,283
And on my good days, I can, you
know, almost pass for a normal person.

850
00:57:35,493 --> 00:57:40,371
But on my bad days, I feel
like I can't find myself. Um...

851
00:57:42,208 --> 00:57:48,755
I've always been so defined
by my intellect,

852
00:57:48,964 --> 00:57:52,800
my language, my articulation,

853
00:57:53,010 --> 00:57:57,013
and now, sometimes, I can see
the words hanging in front of me

854
00:57:57,223 --> 00:57:59,891
and I can't reach them.
I don't know who I am,

855
00:58:00,100 --> 00:58:02,644
and I don't know
what I'm gonna lose next.

856
00:58:08,526 --> 00:58:10,318
That sounds horrible.

857
00:58:15,991 --> 00:58:17,825
Thanks for asking.

858
00:58:20,829 --> 00:58:23,748
[♪♪♪]

859
00:58:46,272 --> 00:58:48,356
Oh, Lydia.

860
00:58:50,317 --> 00:58:52,443
They're leaving us.

861
00:58:52,820 --> 00:58:54,571
One has quite left us.

862
00:58:54,780 --> 00:58:57,282
Quite and forever.

863
00:58:57,491 --> 00:59:01,202
We alone remain
to begin our lives over again.

864
00:59:01,412 --> 00:59:05,415
We must live.

865
00:59:06,166 --> 00:59:10,003
There will come a time
when we all will know why...

866
00:59:10,754 --> 00:59:13,881
for what purpose
there is all of this suffering

867
00:59:15,676 --> 00:59:18,136
and there will be no mystery.

868
00:59:18,512 --> 00:59:20,179
But now we must live.

869
00:59:20,389 --> 00:59:24,601
We must work, just work.

870
00:59:25,811 --> 00:59:28,187
Tomorrow I'll go off on my own
and I'll teach.

871
00:59:28,397 --> 00:59:32,358
I'Il give evertyhing I have
to those who might, perhaps, need it.

872
00:59:34,236 --> 00:59:36,195
It's autumn now.

873
00:59:36,989 --> 00:59:40,867
Soon it will be winter.
The snow will cover evertyhing.

874
00:59:41,702 --> 00:59:43,786
And I'll be working.

875
00:59:45,914 --> 00:59:47,832
Just working.

876
00:59:49,543 --> 00:59:51,878
[APPLAUSE]

877
00:59:55,841 --> 01:00:01,304
[JOHN & TOM WHOOPING]

878
01:00:08,896 --> 01:00:12,023
WOMAN 1:
There she is. Hey, you were amazing.

879
01:00:12,232 --> 01:00:14,359
WOMAN 2:
Yes, you were so good.

880
01:00:14,568 --> 01:00:18,237
WOMAN 3: Incredible.
MAN 1: You killed it, totally.

881
01:00:18,989 --> 01:00:21,157
MAN 2: Miss Howland,
would you sign this for me?

882
01:00:21,325 --> 01:00:23,117
[LYDIA & MAN 2 LAUGHING]

883
01:00:23,702 --> 01:00:25,745
It was just wonderful.

884
01:00:25,954 --> 01:00:28,790
I- I found it so easy
to empathize with her.

885
01:00:28,999 --> 01:00:33,294
You- You really caught her despair,
but also her joy.

886
01:00:34,463 --> 01:00:37,340
Thank you. Awesome.

887
01:00:37,716 --> 01:00:40,760
Will we get to see you in
anything else this summer?

888
01:00:41,053 --> 01:00:43,680
Um, no, this is the only job I got.

889
01:00:43,889 --> 01:00:46,724
Oh, so you're here
for just the season.

890
01:00:51,146 --> 01:00:53,523
Yeah.
ANNA: Mom. Mom.

891
01:00:54,400 --> 01:00:56,150
This is Lydia, your daughter.

892
01:00:57,569 --> 01:01:00,571
No, I- I know that.
Heh, heh.

893
01:01:03,617 --> 01:01:05,660
LYDIA: Thanks for coming.
Weird, embarrassing.

894
01:01:05,869 --> 01:01:09,414
Don't be embarrassed.
Don't, please. Please don't be.

895
01:01:09,623 --> 01:01:11,290
Giraffe.

896
01:01:11,500 --> 01:01:13,543
Hammer.

897
01:01:14,962 --> 01:01:17,046
Comb.

898
01:01:17,589 --> 01:01:20,591
Oh, I know what that is.

899
01:01:20,801 --> 01:01:23,386
It is like a chicken, but it's not.

900
01:01:24,304 --> 01:01:27,223
It is a duck.

901
01:01:27,433 --> 01:01:28,725
BENJAMIN:
How about this one?

902
01:01:28,934 --> 01:01:30,059
ALICE:
A basketball.

903
01:01:30,769 --> 01:01:34,188
Can you spell water for me backwards?
Could I spell it forward first?

904
01:01:34,356 --> 01:01:35,398
Mm-hm.

905
01:01:36,191 --> 01:01:41,446
W- A-T-E-R.

906
01:01:41,655 --> 01:01:48,244
R- E-T-A-W.

907
01:01:48,454 --> 01:01:49,620
That's very good.

908
01:01:49,830 --> 01:01:52,623
Now, can you tell me that name
I asked you to remember?

909
01:01:52,791 --> 01:01:56,461
Ugh. You always tell me,
and I can never remember it.

910
01:01:56,670 --> 01:02:02,383
Was it John Black, John White,
John Jones, or John Smith?

911
01:02:02,593 --> 01:02:03,634
Smith?

912
01:02:03,969 --> 01:02:07,221
And his address,
was it East Street, Washington Street,

913
01:02:07,431 --> 01:02:09,849
Humboldt Street, or Main Street?

914
01:02:10,058 --> 01:02:14,353
Just to jump in here, we're both
concerned about the rate of deterioration.

915
01:02:14,772 --> 01:02:18,065
Is that normal?
Well, every case is different.

916
01:02:18,275 --> 01:02:21,903
With familial early onset,
things can go fast.

917
01:02:22,112 --> 01:02:27,033
And with people who have a high level
of education, things can go faster.

918
01:02:27,534 --> 01:02:30,369
They've managed to sustain
their mental processes

919
01:02:30,579 --> 01:02:34,749
through innovative means
and that delays diagnosis.

920
01:02:34,958 --> 01:02:39,462
Now, clearly, Alice's memory is failing,
but she's still incredibly resourceful.

921
01:02:39,671 --> 01:02:41,047
Thank you.

922
01:02:41,256 --> 01:02:43,508
I know you're- You're discouraged,

923
01:02:44,092 --> 01:02:47,178
but sometimes I've seen patients
plateau at this point.

924
01:02:48,347 --> 01:02:50,139
Don't lose hope.

925
01:02:50,516 --> 01:02:54,352
I read your name in the Alzheimer's
Association Care Conference brochure.

926
01:02:55,187 --> 01:02:57,814
You're gonna give a speech.
Will you be there?

927
01:02:58,023 --> 01:02:59,857
Yes. I'm looking forward to it.

928
01:03:00,067 --> 01:03:04,111
I'm going to be away on business
in Minnesota, and I'm worried.

929
01:03:04,321 --> 01:03:08,032
Are you sure this is a good idea,
considering the state that she's in?

930
01:03:08,242 --> 01:03:11,536
She's gonna be under a lot of stress.
It'll be great for her.

931
01:03:11,745 --> 01:03:14,997
Everything will be fine.
But you're not worried about it,

932
01:03:15,207 --> 01:03:18,251
are you, Alice?
No, I don't think so.

933
01:03:19,002 --> 01:03:24,090
"Various ways to prevent
the production of amyloid

934
01:03:24,299 --> 01:03:26,175
are being tried.

935
01:03:26,385 --> 01:03:29,178
There is a new study

936
01:03:29,388 --> 01:03:33,891
that combines base and gamma
secretase inhibitors

937
01:03:34,101 --> 01:03:38,771
and this is one of our best hopes
for the future. "

938
01:03:38,981 --> 01:03:41,190
That's it. That's the end.

939
01:03:41,400 --> 01:03:44,235
It's good, Mom. It's good.

940
01:03:44,987 --> 01:03:48,155
It's very scientific.
Yes, well, you know.

941
01:03:48,365 --> 01:03:52,827
Yeah. And I'm sure it's valid,
but, um...

942
01:03:53,036 --> 01:03:54,579
But what?

943
01:03:54,788 --> 01:03:58,457
I mean, is there any value
in making it a bit more personal?

944
01:03:58,917 --> 01:04:00,710
I don't understand what you mean.

945
01:04:00,919 --> 01:04:04,755
You know, you're not speaking
to a room of scientists.

946
01:04:04,965 --> 01:04:09,343
What I wanna know, really, is, like,
how you feel, what does it feel like?

947
01:04:09,553 --> 01:04:11,721
What does this disease mean
to you?

948
01:04:11,930 --> 01:04:14,515
You weren't listening
because that's all there.

949
01:04:14,725 --> 01:04:16,183
That's in the speech.

950
01:04:16,393 --> 01:04:17,768
Okay.

951
01:04:18,645 --> 01:04:22,982
Don't ask me, then.
Oh, no, then I won't ask, then.

952
01:04:27,738 --> 01:04:29,155
Hey.

953
01:04:29,781 --> 01:04:32,617
Mom, just give it
one more shot, okay?

954
01:04:33,076 --> 01:04:35,995
I can't
because I have done it already.

955
01:04:36,163 --> 01:04:37,496
Huh?

956
01:04:37,664 --> 01:04:41,292
I- I use this...

957
01:04:42,210 --> 01:04:44,962
Yellow- Yellow thingy to mark it,

958
01:04:45,172 --> 01:04:51,719
so I don't have to read the same line
over and over and over and over again.

959
01:04:51,929 --> 01:04:53,095
Got it. Totally.

960
01:04:53,305 --> 01:04:55,348
Just print out one more.

961
01:04:55,557 --> 01:04:57,475
It took me three days to write this.

962
01:04:57,684 --> 01:05:01,395
You can print out one more.
No, it took me three days.

963
01:05:02,272 --> 01:05:03,731
Sorry.
Three days.

964
01:05:03,899 --> 01:05:05,399
[COMPUTER BLEEPS]

965
01:05:21,750 --> 01:05:24,877
[CHATTERING]

966
01:05:29,257 --> 01:05:30,341
WOMAN:
Here you are.

967
01:05:31,802 --> 01:05:33,219
ALICE:
Thank you.

968
01:05:43,855 --> 01:05:45,898
Hi.
Hi.

969
01:05:46,483 --> 01:05:48,442
BENJAMIN: Hello there.
Hello.

970
01:05:49,695 --> 01:05:52,780
Hi. Oh, Tom, this is my doctor.

971
01:05:52,990 --> 01:05:54,407
My son.
Travis Benjamin.

972
01:05:54,616 --> 01:05:57,076
I'm your mother's neurologist.
My son, Tom.

973
01:05:57,285 --> 01:06:00,079
Pleasure.
So how you feeling, Alice?

974
01:06:00,455 --> 01:06:01,914
I think I'm nervous.

975
01:06:02,124 --> 01:06:04,750
You're gonna do great.
Break a leg.

976
01:06:04,960 --> 01:06:07,044
Nice to meet you.
Yeah.

977
01:06:10,507 --> 01:06:15,177
It is a great honor to welcome
our next speaker, Alice Howland.

978
01:06:15,387 --> 01:06:18,014
A former professor of linguistics
at Columbia,

979
01:06:18,223 --> 01:06:22,309
she's written textbooks
and has lectured all over the world.

980
01:06:22,519 --> 01:06:24,979
Alice is living
with early-onset Alzheimer's

981
01:06:25,188 --> 01:06:28,482
with the care and support
of her loving family.

982
01:06:28,692 --> 01:06:31,902
Please welcome Alice Howland.

983
01:06:32,404 --> 01:06:34,363
[APPLAUSE]

984
01:06:40,078 --> 01:06:43,622
Please give me just a minute.

985
01:06:44,583 --> 01:06:46,125
Um...

986
01:06:51,006 --> 01:06:52,673
"Good morning.

987
01:06:52,883 --> 01:06:55,342
It's an honor to be here.

988
01:06:55,969 --> 01:06:59,263
The poet Elizabeth Bishop once wrote:

989
01:06:59,473 --> 01:07:03,642
'The art of losing isn't hard to master.

990
01:07:03,852 --> 01:07:07,646
So many things seem filled
with the intent to be lost

991
01:07:07,856 --> 01:07:10,858
that their loss is no disaster. '

992
01:07:11,068 --> 01:07:12,777
I am not a poet.

993
01:07:12,986 --> 01:07:16,864
I am a person living
with early onset Alzheimer's.

994
01:07:17,074 --> 01:07:24,080
And as that person, I find myself
learning the art of losing every day.

995
01:07:27,876 --> 01:07:33,047
Losing my bearings,
losing objects, losing sleep,

996
01:07:33,256 --> 01:07:35,758
but mostly, losing memories. "

997
01:07:36,093 --> 01:07:37,760
Oh, no.

998
01:07:43,892 --> 01:07:46,644
Thank you. Um...

999
01:07:47,270 --> 01:07:50,648
I think I'll try to forget
that just happened.

1000
01:07:50,857 --> 01:07:53,692
[ALL LAUGHING]

1001
01:07:56,530 --> 01:08:00,157
"All my life,
I've accumulated memories.

1002
01:08:00,367 --> 01:08:04,620
They've become, in a way,
my most precious possessions.

1003
01:08:04,830 --> 01:08:07,248
The night I met my husband,

1004
01:08:08,250 --> 01:08:11,377
the first time I held my textbook
in my hands,

1005
01:08:12,546 --> 01:08:18,759
having children, making friends,
traveling the world.

1006
01:08:18,969 --> 01:08:21,053
Everything I accumulated in life,

1007
01:08:21,680 --> 01:08:24,181
evertyhing I've worked so hard for,

1008
01:08:24,391 --> 01:08:27,977
now all that is being ripped away.

1009
01:08:28,270 --> 01:08:34,608
As you can imagine, or as you know,
this is hell.

1010
01:08:35,402 --> 01:08:37,194
But it gets worse.

1011
01:08:38,321 --> 01:08:39,822
[♪♪♪]

1012
01:08:39,990 --> 01:08:41,532
Who can take us seriously

1013
01:08:41,741 --> 01:08:44,660
when we are so far
from who we once were?

1014
01:08:44,870 --> 01:08:48,706
Our strange behavior
and fumbled sentences

1015
01:08:48,915 --> 01:08:55,754
change others' perceptions of us
and our perception of ourselves.

1016
01:08:55,964 --> 01:09:02,261
We become ridiculous,
incapable, comic.

1017
01:09:02,596 --> 01:09:04,847
But this is not who we are.

1018
01:09:05,056 --> 01:09:06,807
This is our disease.

1019
01:09:07,017 --> 01:09:10,811
And like any disease, it has a cause,

1020
01:09:11,021 --> 01:09:13,147
it has a progression

1021
01:09:13,356 --> 01:09:16,066
and it could have a cure.

1022
01:09:16,484 --> 01:09:20,696
My greatest wish is that my children,

1023
01:09:21,031 --> 01:09:27,620
our children, the next generation,
do not have to face what I am facing.

1024
01:09:28,121 --> 01:09:30,581
But for the time being, I'm still alive.

1025
01:09:31,291 --> 01:09:32,458
I know I'm alive.

1026
01:09:33,335 --> 01:09:34,835
I have people I love dearly.

1027
01:09:36,171 --> 01:09:39,256
I have things I wanna do with my life.

1028
01:09:40,467 --> 01:09:45,346
I rail against myself
for not being able to remember things,

1029
01:09:45,555 --> 01:09:50,684
but I still have moments in the day
of pure happiness and joy.

1030
01:09:50,894 --> 01:09:54,563
And please,
do not think that I am suffering.

1031
01:09:54,981 --> 01:09:57,233
I am not suffering.

1032
01:09:57,442 --> 01:09:59,151
I am struggling.

1033
01:09:59,361 --> 01:10:02,947
Struggling to be a part of things,

1034
01:10:03,156 --> 01:10:08,160
to stay connected to who I once was.

1035
01:10:09,663 --> 01:10:12,498
'So live in the moment,' I tell myself.

1036
01:10:12,707 --> 01:10:15,084
It's really all I can do.

1037
01:10:15,293 --> 01:10:17,253
Live in the moment.

1038
01:10:17,462 --> 01:10:21,131
And not beat myself up too much-

1039
01:10:21,341 --> 01:10:24,969
And not beat myself up too much

1040
01:10:25,178 --> 01:10:29,056
for mastering the art of losing.

1041
01:10:30,100 --> 01:10:35,312
One thing I will try to hold on to, though,
is the memory of speaking here today.

1042
01:10:36,273 --> 01:10:37,564
It will go.

1043
01:10:37,774 --> 01:10:39,817
I know it will.

1044
01:10:40,277 --> 01:10:42,987
It may be gone by tomorrow,

1045
01:10:43,697 --> 01:10:49,994
but it means so much
to be talking here today

1046
01:10:50,287 --> 01:10:52,663
like my old, ambitious self,

1047
01:10:52,872 --> 01:10:55,374
who was so fascinated
by communication. "

1048
01:11:03,174 --> 01:11:05,884
Thank you for this opportunity.

1049
01:11:06,678 --> 01:11:09,013
It means the world to me.

1050
01:11:11,891 --> 01:11:13,684
Thank you.

1051
01:11:33,413 --> 01:11:34,872
[CHUCKLES]

1052
01:11:49,220 --> 01:11:51,388
It's the Mayo Clinic.

1053
01:11:51,765 --> 01:11:53,932
It would start up next spring.

1054
01:11:54,142 --> 01:11:56,393
And I'd be heading up my own team.

1055
01:11:56,603 --> 01:11:59,480
So you want us to move to?

1056
01:12:00,398 --> 01:12:01,940
It's in Rochester, Minnesota.

1057
01:12:02,650 --> 01:12:05,194
Well, it could be
a whole new adventure for us.

1058
01:12:05,403 --> 01:12:09,114
You might even like it there.
Everything I know is here.

1059
01:12:09,324 --> 01:12:13,619
Anna and Tom
and the babies that are coming.

1060
01:12:13,828 --> 01:12:17,414
It's just a two-hour flight.
We'd see them as often as we do now.

1061
01:12:17,999 --> 01:12:19,458
Ali, this just came up

1062
01:12:19,667 --> 01:12:23,337
and they haven't even made
a formal offer, but don't you see?

1063
01:12:23,546 --> 01:12:26,757
This is it. They're working
on many cutting-edge treatments.

1064
01:12:26,966 --> 01:12:28,926
They've got resources.
I understand.

1065
01:12:29,135 --> 01:12:31,887
I understand that work is important.

1066
01:12:32,097 --> 01:12:34,598
I miss working.

1067
01:12:35,725 --> 01:12:41,522
I think you should ask them
if you can start in a year.

1068
01:12:42,732 --> 01:12:45,317
It's not academia.
They don't give sabbaticals.

1069
01:12:45,527 --> 01:12:49,488
But to pick up and move

1070
01:12:49,697 --> 01:12:53,200
right when- When- When- Ugh.

1071
01:12:53,910 --> 01:12:55,702
Why can't I say what I wanna say?

1072
01:12:55,912 --> 01:12:58,705
Ali, one way or the other,
we'Il still be together.

1073
01:12:58,915 --> 01:13:01,834
So no time off?

1074
01:13:02,043 --> 01:13:05,212
I can't take a year off.
Financially, that's not an option,

1075
01:13:05,422 --> 01:13:08,424
and God knows where we'Il be
further down the line.

1076
01:13:08,633 --> 01:13:10,467
That's it then. That's it.

1077
01:13:10,677 --> 01:13:14,388
What?
Well, you don't- You don't want that.

1078
01:13:14,597 --> 01:13:18,851
A year at home with me, watching this.

1079
01:13:21,396 --> 01:13:22,521
I didn't say that.

1080
01:13:22,730 --> 01:13:24,731
You didn't have to.

1081
01:13:27,902 --> 01:13:51,842
[♪♪♪]

1082
01:14:36,888 --> 01:14:38,180
JOHN:
Ali, what are you doing?

1083
01:14:38,389 --> 01:14:39,681
I can't find it.

1084
01:14:39,891 --> 01:14:42,226
You can't find what?
I can't find my phone.

1085
01:14:42,435 --> 01:14:46,104
It's the middle of the night.
It's important. It goes off at 8:00

1086
01:14:46,314 --> 01:14:49,066
and it asks me these questions.
I have to find it.

1087
01:14:49,275 --> 01:14:51,985
We'll look for it in the morning.
I have to find it.

1088
01:14:52,195 --> 01:14:54,488
Help me find my phone!
I'Il help tomorrow.

1089
01:14:54,697 --> 01:14:57,282
I promise you. Tomorrow.
Help me. No! I want it.

1090
01:14:57,492 --> 01:14:59,618
I'Il help you find it.
Help me find it.

1091
01:14:59,827 --> 01:15:04,122
I promise, but come to bed. Come.
Help me. God. Help me find my phone.

1092
01:15:04,499 --> 01:15:06,959
Come to bed with me, please.
All right.

1093
01:15:07,252 --> 01:15:10,087
Please?
Okay.

1094
01:15:10,672 --> 01:15:11,713
JOHN:
Come on.

1095
01:15:12,674 --> 01:15:16,093
JOHN: Since the beginning, I
completely understand the situation.

1096
01:15:16,302 --> 01:15:18,095
ANNA:
Hey.

1097
01:15:19,681 --> 01:15:20,722
Anne?

1098
01:15:20,890 --> 01:15:22,849
JOHN:
I look forward to seeing you guys.

1099
01:15:23,142 --> 01:15:27,479
Hi.
Hey, Mama. Hey.

1100
01:15:28,982 --> 01:15:30,107
It's Anna, Mom.

1101
01:15:31,067 --> 01:15:33,318
I thought you were my sister.

1102
01:15:33,528 --> 01:15:35,529
It's okay.
How are you feeling?

1103
01:15:35,738 --> 01:15:38,532
Oh, so uncomfortable.

1104
01:15:38,741 --> 01:15:41,910
I can't breathe, I can't sleep.

1105
01:15:42,120 --> 01:15:43,620
Was it like this for you?

1106
01:15:43,830 --> 01:15:45,747
I didn't have two at a time.

1107
01:15:45,957 --> 01:15:47,499
This is true.

1108
01:15:47,709 --> 01:15:50,544
JOHN: Did you get the green curry?
I did. It's right here.

1109
01:15:50,753 --> 01:15:52,504
Oh, great.
Everything on track?

1110
01:15:52,714 --> 01:15:55,340
Yes. They made
a very generous offer.

1111
01:15:55,550 --> 01:15:58,010
Oh, that's great.
I guess.

1112
01:15:58,219 --> 01:16:00,262
No, it is. It's the right decision.

1113
01:16:00,763 --> 01:16:02,681
JOHN: Would you like some water?
Yes.

1114
01:16:02,890 --> 01:16:05,726
John, what happened?
Who was on the phone?

1115
01:16:05,935 --> 01:16:09,187
That was that hospital, honey,
the Mayo Clinic.

1116
01:16:09,397 --> 01:16:10,814
Is someone sick?

1117
01:16:11,024 --> 01:16:12,524
No. Nothing's wrong.

1118
01:16:12,734 --> 01:16:15,152
Everything's absolutely fine.

1119
01:16:16,946 --> 01:16:18,947
Oh, my God.

1120
01:16:21,284 --> 01:16:23,785
Oh, no.

1121
01:16:25,955 --> 01:16:29,249
I was looking for that last night.

1122
01:16:31,127 --> 01:16:34,171
[WHISPERS] That was a month ago.
Right.

1123
01:16:39,302 --> 01:16:42,763
[♪♪♪]

1124
01:17:04,577 --> 01:17:06,578
[INDISTINCT DIALOGUE]

1125
01:17:11,542 --> 01:17:37,984
[♪♪♪]

1126
01:17:49,288 --> 01:17:51,748
[SQUAWKING]

1127
01:17:52,917 --> 01:17:54,876
JOHN:
Ali. Hey.

1128
01:17:57,171 --> 01:17:59,673
Wake up, baby.
It's time to wake up.

1129
01:18:00,717 --> 01:18:02,467
It's time to get dressed.

1130
01:18:02,677 --> 01:18:04,553
I'm gonna help you.

1131
01:18:06,431 --> 01:18:08,932
I've got some very good news
for you.

1132
01:18:15,648 --> 01:18:18,358
Let me help you with your pants.
Come.

1133
01:18:18,943 --> 01:18:22,237
No, I- I want my green one.

1134
01:18:22,447 --> 01:18:25,449
Oh, no, I think this one
will be really, really nice.

1135
01:18:25,658 --> 01:18:27,617
Let's put that one on.

1136
01:18:27,827 --> 01:18:29,327
Okay.

1137
01:18:32,331 --> 01:18:35,500
Okay. Lean on me.
Mm-hm.

1138
01:18:37,211 --> 01:18:38,503
Okay, hold on.

1139
01:18:38,713 --> 01:18:42,340
[♪♪♪]

1140
01:18:47,513 --> 01:18:49,139
Oh, there she is. Hey.

1141
01:18:49,348 --> 01:18:51,349
What's the matter?
She looks terrible.

1142
01:18:51,559 --> 01:18:54,060
JOHN: Well, she just
delivered the babies, honey.

1143
01:18:55,021 --> 01:18:57,022
[BABY COOING]

1144
01:18:57,440 --> 01:19:02,944
Anna, you had your babies.
I did, Mom.

1145
01:19:04,280 --> 01:19:06,448
This is Allison.
JOHN: You look so beautiful.

1146
01:19:06,657 --> 01:19:08,241
ANNA: Thank you.
That's Charlie Jr.

1147
01:19:08,451 --> 01:19:10,160
Little Charlie.
My goodness.

1148
01:19:10,369 --> 01:19:11,953
Yes.

1149
01:19:12,163 --> 01:19:14,289
[BABY COOING
AND CHARLIE CHUCKLES]

1150
01:19:14,957 --> 01:19:18,084
There you go.
Can I hold her?

1151
01:19:18,419 --> 01:19:20,337
CHARLIE:
Is that a good idea?

1152
01:19:21,130 --> 01:19:23,507
I know how to hold a baby.

1153
01:19:24,091 --> 01:19:27,636
That's okay. Mom, you can sit
right there in that chair.

1154
01:19:28,346 --> 01:19:31,348
There. That's good.

1155
01:19:32,642 --> 01:19:35,769
CHARLIE:
There we go. All right.

1156
01:19:36,187 --> 01:19:38,313
Hi.

1157
01:19:38,815 --> 01:19:41,525
CHARLIE: Something tells
me you've done this before.

1158
01:19:51,494 --> 01:19:53,036
She looks like you.

1159
01:20:03,422 --> 01:20:06,132
JOHN: There are days she
knows where she is, certainly,

1160
01:20:06,342 --> 01:20:09,177
but there are just as many days
when she doesn't.

1161
01:20:09,762 --> 01:20:13,223
Maybe she thinks she's a child
back in New Hampshire or who knows?

1162
01:20:13,432 --> 01:20:16,726
ANNA: It's happening more and more.
She doesn't know what's going on.

1163
01:20:16,936 --> 01:20:18,562
TOM:
Yeah, I just-

1164
01:20:18,771 --> 01:20:22,148
I keep thinking about what she said
in that speech, you know,

1165
01:20:22,358 --> 01:20:24,276
how important her memories
are to who she is.

1166
01:20:24,485 --> 01:20:26,278
ANNA:
Yes, but that was months ago.

1167
01:20:26,487 --> 01:20:28,989
JOHN:
Guys, this is difficult for all of us.

1168
01:20:29,198 --> 01:20:32,742
But it's important to remember
who Alice was.

1169
01:20:32,952 --> 01:20:35,120
She would not want to be a burden.

1170
01:20:35,329 --> 01:20:38,081
Anna, you have the babies,
you wanna go back to work.

1171
01:20:38,291 --> 01:20:41,459
You're not in a position to care
for her, not seriously, Tom.

1172
01:20:41,669 --> 01:20:43,795
And I can't keep Mayo waiting.

1173
01:20:44,005 --> 01:20:47,549
The beginning of this month, I am gone.
I want to take her with me.

1174
01:20:47,758 --> 01:20:52,137
I will get her the best possible care,
and once she's adjusted to Minnesota,

1175
01:20:52,346 --> 01:20:56,057
she will be happier for it,
and so will all of us.

1176
01:21:00,646 --> 01:21:02,731
Lydia's gonna flip.
Oh, so let her.

1177
01:21:02,940 --> 01:21:05,984
Well, she is.
Well, she has no right to.

1178
01:21:06,193 --> 01:21:08,904
If she cared, she wouldn't be
on the other side of the country.

1179
01:21:09,113 --> 01:21:11,323
Hot in here.

1180
01:21:16,662 --> 01:21:18,747
Who is he exactly?

1181
01:21:18,956 --> 01:21:22,751
His name is Bill Thompson.
He's a manager.

1182
01:21:22,960 --> 01:21:25,462
Why is he so important?

1183
01:21:26,756 --> 01:21:28,632
He'll open doors for me.

1184
01:21:28,841 --> 01:21:31,635
Get me into auditions
I wouldn't be able to get into.

1185
01:21:31,844 --> 01:21:33,595
Got me some good headshots.

1186
01:21:33,804 --> 01:21:35,639
I see.

1187
01:21:35,890 --> 01:21:37,182
What's his name?

1188
01:21:37,350 --> 01:21:38,391
[KETTLE WHISTLING]

1189
01:21:38,559 --> 01:21:40,060
Bill Thompson.

1190
01:21:40,269 --> 01:21:42,062
He's with Thompson
and Gould,

1191
01:21:42,271 --> 01:21:44,564
if you wanna look him up.
They're good.

1192
01:21:44,774 --> 01:21:46,900
Kettle's boiling.

1193
01:21:49,779 --> 01:21:51,529
Where's Elena?

1194
01:21:51,781 --> 01:21:54,908
I'm making myself
a cup of tea.

1195
01:21:55,326 --> 01:21:59,871
Cool. Where's, uh,
your caretaker?

1196
01:22:01,499 --> 01:22:04,084
Elena's not here today.

1197
01:22:04,293 --> 01:22:08,129
Her daughter's sick.
She's at the doctor.

1198
01:22:10,091 --> 01:22:11,841
So you're alone?

1199
01:22:13,052 --> 01:22:16,304
I can make myself a cup
of tea.

1200
01:22:16,931 --> 01:22:21,393
Okay.

1201
01:22:22,019 --> 01:22:24,938
You wanna check out my
headshot? If I send you a link,

1202
01:22:25,147 --> 01:22:28,733
can you open the file,
download the file?

1203
01:22:29,318 --> 01:22:31,027
Yes.

1204
01:22:31,988 --> 01:22:33,113
Good.

1205
01:22:33,280 --> 01:22:34,364
[COMPUTER BLEEPING]

1206
01:22:34,532 --> 01:22:36,282
Okay, um...

1207
01:22:37,952 --> 01:22:39,828
I'll talk to you later. I love you.

1208
01:22:40,037 --> 01:22:42,205
Bye.
Bye.

1209
01:22:42,373 --> 01:22:44,633
[COMPUTER BLEEPING]

1210
01:23:15,156 --> 01:23:16,239
Hi.

1211
01:23:16,449 --> 01:23:21,161
Alice, I'm you, and I have something
very important to say to you.

1212
01:23:22,079 --> 01:23:26,750
You've reached that point, the point
where you can't answer the questions.

1213
01:23:26,959 --> 01:23:30,128
So this is the next logical step.

1214
01:23:30,337 --> 01:23:32,172
I'm sure of it.

1215
01:23:32,631 --> 01:23:35,008
Because what's happened to you.
The-

1216
01:23:35,217 --> 01:23:39,137
You know, the Alzheimer's.
You could see it as tragic, but...

1217
01:23:39,680 --> 01:23:41,848
your life has been anything
but tragic.

1218
01:23:42,058 --> 01:23:45,101
You have had a remarkable career

1219
01:23:45,311 --> 01:23:47,062
and a great marriage

1220
01:23:47,271 --> 01:23:49,689
and three beautiful children.

1221
01:23:52,193 --> 01:23:55,403
All right, listen to me. Um...

1222
01:23:56,781 --> 01:23:57,947
This is important.

1223
01:23:58,157 --> 01:24:00,992
Make sure that you're alone
and go to your bedroom.

1224
01:24:01,202 --> 01:24:04,454
In your bedroom,
there's a dresser with a blue lamp.

1225
01:24:04,872 --> 01:24:06,706
Open the top drawer.

1226
01:24:06,916 --> 01:24:10,543
In the back of the drawer,
there's a bottle with pills in it.

1227
01:24:10,753 --> 01:24:14,172
It says, "Take all pills with water. "

1228
01:24:14,381 --> 01:24:17,258
Now, there are a lot of pills
in that bottle,

1229
01:24:17,468 --> 01:24:22,347
but it's very important
that you swallow them all, okay?

1230
01:24:22,556 --> 01:24:26,184
And then lie down

1231
01:24:26,393 --> 01:24:28,228
and go to sleep.

1232
01:24:30,773 --> 01:24:34,359
And don't tell anyone
what you're doing, okay?

1233
01:24:42,743 --> 01:24:46,579
[♪♪♪]

1234
01:25:03,305 --> 01:25:06,307
In your bedroom, there's
a dresser with a blue lamp.

1235
01:25:06,517 --> 01:25:08,393
Open the top drawer.

1236
01:25:08,602 --> 01:25:12,063
In the back of the drawer,
there's a bottle with pills in it.

1237
01:25:12,273 --> 01:25:15,608
It says,
"Take all pills with water. "

1238
01:25:18,571 --> 01:25:22,907
Dresser with lamp. Dresser...

1239
01:25:23,117 --> 01:25:26,286
Blue lamp. Dresser.

1240
01:25:38,799 --> 01:25:41,634
Make sure that you're alone
and go to your bedroom.

1241
01:25:41,844 --> 01:25:45,221
In your bedroom,
there's a dresser with a blue lamp.

1242
01:25:45,431 --> 01:25:47,348
Open the top drawer.

1243
01:25:47,558 --> 01:25:51,144
In the back of the drawer,
there's a bottle with pills in it.

1244
01:25:51,353 --> 01:25:54,814
It says, "Take all pills with water. "

1245
01:25:55,024 --> 01:25:57,650
Now, there are a lot of pills
in that bottle,

1246
01:25:57,860 --> 01:26:02,989
but it's very important
that you swallow them all, okay?

1247
01:26:03,199 --> 01:26:08,786
And then lie down and go to sleep.

1248
01:26:11,415 --> 01:26:16,127
And don't tell anyone
what you're doing, okay?

1249
01:26:34,980 --> 01:26:36,648
ELENA:
Hello?

1250
01:26:39,568 --> 01:26:40,902
[DOOR CLOSING]

1251
01:26:41,403 --> 01:26:42,695
[ELENA COUGHING]

1252
01:26:47,785 --> 01:26:50,995
[♪♪♪]

1253
01:27:09,682 --> 01:27:12,767
May I have a cookies-and-cream
and a chocolate hazelnut?

1254
01:27:13,227 --> 01:27:14,560
You know what you want.

1255
01:27:14,770 --> 01:27:16,896
Cookies-and-cream
and chocolate hazelnut.

1256
01:27:17,106 --> 01:27:20,316
You usually have the original
with blueberries and coconut.

1257
01:27:20,526 --> 01:27:21,567
Okay.

1258
01:27:21,777 --> 01:27:24,862
Original with blueberries
and coconut, please.

1259
01:27:34,915 --> 01:27:37,583
Ali, you see that building
over there?

1260
01:27:37,960 --> 01:27:39,544
Do you know what that is?

1261
01:27:40,546 --> 01:27:43,006
I don't think I know that.

1262
01:27:43,632 --> 01:27:46,926
That's Columbia,
where you used to teach.

1263
01:27:47,803 --> 01:27:51,264
Someone told me
I was a good teacher.

1264
01:27:51,473 --> 01:27:54,183
Yes. You were.

1265
01:27:56,312 --> 01:27:57,812
I was really smart.

1266
01:28:00,107 --> 01:28:03,026
You were the smartest person
I've ever met.

1267
01:28:03,235 --> 01:28:05,236
[♪♪♪]

1268
01:28:09,283 --> 01:28:13,745
Ali, do you still wanna be here?

1269
01:28:17,541 --> 01:28:19,250
I'm not done yet.

1270
01:28:19,460 --> 01:28:20,752
Do we have to go?

1271
01:28:22,421 --> 01:28:23,838
No.

1272
01:28:25,007 --> 01:28:26,632
Don't worry.

1273
01:28:26,842 --> 01:28:28,676
Take your time.

1274
01:28:40,189 --> 01:28:43,232
[♪♪♪]

1275
01:28:51,116 --> 01:28:52,617
[DOOR OPENS]

1276
01:28:52,785 --> 01:28:56,829
JOHN: Is this all of your stuff?
LYDIA: I shipped some boxes as well.

1277
01:28:57,331 --> 01:28:59,582
Are you sad to leave L.A.?

1278
01:28:59,917 --> 01:29:02,752
I'm trying to convince myself
I'm an East Coast girl.

1279
01:29:02,961 --> 01:29:04,545
Where's Mom?

1280
01:29:04,880 --> 01:29:06,714
She's sleeping.

1281
01:29:10,636 --> 01:29:12,762
Well, here it is.

1282
01:29:13,222 --> 01:29:15,098
Your old room.

1283
01:29:16,308 --> 01:29:17,642
Wow.

1284
01:29:21,688 --> 01:29:22,855
[SIGHS]

1285
01:29:23,023 --> 01:29:25,942
So how did it work out
with your manager?

1286
01:29:26,902 --> 01:29:30,571
It's a West Coast company, you know.
Not so good.

1287
01:29:31,115 --> 01:29:34,450
Well, that's too bad.
Are you sure you don't mind?

1288
01:29:36,036 --> 01:29:38,413
We've had this conversation.

1289
01:29:39,164 --> 01:29:40,623
Okay.

1290
01:29:40,833 --> 01:29:44,752
It's New York City.
I'Il audition, do theater.

1291
01:29:45,629 --> 01:29:48,464
I know that this is where
I need to be, though, so...

1292
01:29:49,550 --> 01:29:51,926
You're a better man than I am.

1293
01:29:53,804 --> 01:29:57,390
Dad, I've got her, okay?

1294
01:29:58,809 --> 01:30:01,269
[JOHN SOBBING]

1295
01:30:09,194 --> 01:30:11,946
[♪♪♪]

1296
01:30:26,420 --> 01:30:28,921
[PEOPLE SINGING INDISTINCTLY]

1297
01:30:42,936 --> 01:30:45,271
It's getting pretty cold, huh?

1298
01:30:45,981 --> 01:30:47,815
Wanna head home?

1299
01:30:49,401 --> 01:30:51,319
Come on, let's do it.

1300
01:31:04,416 --> 01:31:08,669
♪ Birds go by above you ♪

1301
01:31:09,379 --> 01:31:13,257
♪ Sing away your blues ♪♪

1302
01:31:15,302 --> 01:31:17,136
Hey.
Hi.

1303
01:31:17,721 --> 01:31:19,013
How was your walk?

1304
01:31:19,223 --> 01:31:20,806
I don't think I know you.

1305
01:31:21,016 --> 01:31:23,100
Yes, you do.
Hey, Mom, it's Elena.

1306
01:31:23,310 --> 01:31:25,228
I'm gonna get you
some juice, okay?

1307
01:31:25,437 --> 01:31:28,940
Come, let's take off your coat
and go inside.

1308
01:31:45,415 --> 01:31:49,043
LYDIA: "Night flight to San Francisco,
chase the moon across America.

1309
01:31:49,795 --> 01:31:52,755
God, it's been years
since I was on a plane.

1310
01:31:53,090 --> 01:31:56,300
When we hit 35,000 feet,
we'Il have reached the tropopause,

1311
01:31:56,510 --> 01:31:59,720
the great belt of calm air.

1312
01:32:00,889 --> 01:32:05,309
As close to the ozone as I'll get,
I- I dreamed we were there.

1313
01:32:06,019 --> 01:32:09,021
The plane leapt the tropopause,

1314
01:32:09,606 --> 01:32:14,110
the safe air, and attained the outer rim,
the ozone, which was ragged and torn,

1315
01:32:14,319 --> 01:32:18,364
patches of it threadbare
as old cheesecloth, and that was...

1316
01:32:19,116 --> 01:32:20,908
frightening.

1317
01:32:21,577 --> 01:32:23,160
But I saw something only I could see

1318
01:32:23,370 --> 01:32:26,497
because of my astonishing ability
to see such things.

1319
01:32:28,500 --> 01:32:31,168
Souls were rising...

1320
01:32:32,379 --> 01:32:34,964
from the earth far below,
souls of the dead,

1321
01:32:35,173 --> 01:32:37,592
of people who'd perished

1322
01:32:37,801 --> 01:32:40,803
from famine, from war,
from the plague...

1323
01:32:42,598 --> 01:32:48,269
and they floated up,
like skydivers in reverse,

1324
01:32:48,478 --> 01:32:53,149
limbs all akimbo,
wheeling, spinning.

1325
01:32:54,401 --> 01:32:56,986
The souls of these departed
joined hands, clasped ankles

1326
01:32:57,195 --> 01:33:01,240
and formed a web,
a great net of souls.

1327
01:33:02,701 --> 01:33:06,621
And the souls were three-atom
oxygen molecules of the stuff of ozone

1328
01:33:06,830 --> 01:33:10,875
and the outer rim absorbed them,
and was repaired.

1329
01:33:14,796 --> 01:33:17,465
Because nothing is lost forever.

1330
01:33:21,178 --> 01:33:23,971
In this world,
there's a kind of painful progress.

1331
01:33:24,181 --> 01:33:27,183
A longing for what we've left behind...

1332
01:33:29,186 --> 01:33:31,228
and dreaming ahead.

1333
01:33:32,314 --> 01:33:34,523
At least I think that's so. "

1334
01:33:36,943 --> 01:33:38,611
That's it.

1335
01:33:47,704 --> 01:33:48,954
Hey.

1336
01:33:52,584 --> 01:33:54,543
Did you like that?

1337
01:33:58,757 --> 01:34:02,760
What I just read, did you like it?
Hm.

1338
01:34:02,928 --> 01:34:04,470
Yeah.

1339
01:34:05,889 --> 01:34:07,765
[GRUNTING]

1340
01:34:10,769 --> 01:34:12,520
And what-?

1341
01:34:13,730 --> 01:34:15,398
What was it about?

1342
01:34:19,486 --> 01:34:21,112
Love.

1343
01:34:21,863 --> 01:34:22,905
Yeah. Love.

1344
01:34:24,032 --> 01:34:25,700
Yeah, Mom.

1345
01:34:27,744 --> 01:34:29,870
It was about love.

1346
01:34:35,877 --> 01:35:04,113
[♪♪♪]

1347
01:35:13,707 --> 01:35:16,625
♪ If I had a boat ♪

1348
01:35:16,960 --> 01:35:19,962
♪ I'd go out on the ocean ♪

1349
01:35:20,338 --> 01:35:22,923
♪ And if I had a pony ♪

1350
01:35:23,592 --> 01:35:26,552
♪ I'd ride him on my boat ♪

1351
01:35:26,887 --> 01:35:29,597
♪ And we could all together ♪

1352
01:35:30,223 --> 01:35:33,100
♪ Go out on the ocean ♪

1353
01:35:33,268 --> 01:35:38,230
♪ Set me upon my pony on my boat ♪

1354
01:35:40,150 --> 01:35:43,152
♪ If I were Roy Rogers ♪

1355
01:35:43,320 --> 01:35:46,155
♪ I'd sure enough be single ♪

1356
01:35:46,323 --> 01:35:51,410
♪ I couldn't bring myself
To marrying old Dale ♪

1357
01:35:52,954 --> 01:35:55,831
♪ It'd just be me and Trigger ♪

1358
01:35:56,166 --> 01:35:59,376
♪ Go riding through them movies ♪

1359
01:35:59,544 --> 01:36:04,632
♪ Then we'd buy a boat
And on the sea we'd sail ♪

1360
01:36:05,926 --> 01:36:08,886
♪ And if I had a boat ♪

1361
01:36:09,471 --> 01:36:12,181
♪ I'd go out on the ocean ♪

1362
01:36:12,641 --> 01:36:15,351
♪ And if I had a pony ♪

1363
01:36:15,727 --> 01:36:18,229
♪ I'd ride him on my boat ♪

1364
01:36:18,980 --> 01:36:21,565
♪ And we could all together ♪

1365
01:36:22,150 --> 01:36:24,985
♪ Go out on the ocean ♪

1366
01:36:25,153 --> 01:36:30,366
♪ Set me upon my pony on my boat ♪

1367
01:36:31,868 --> 01:36:34,745
♪ The mystery masked man was smart ♪

1368
01:36:34,913 --> 01:36:38,040
♪ He got himself a Tonto ♪

1369
01:36:38,208 --> 01:36:42,962
♪ 'Cause Tonto did the dirty work
For free ♪

1370
01:36:44,673 --> 01:36:47,383
♪ But Tonto he was smarter ♪

1371
01:36:47,759 --> 01:36:50,678
♪ And one day said, "Kemo sabe ♪

1372
01:36:51,263 --> 01:36:57,685
♪ Kiss my ass, I bought a boat
I'm going out to sea" ♪

1373
01:36:59,229 --> 01:37:01,814
♪ And if I had a boat ♪

1374
01:37:02,607 --> 01:37:05,317
♪ I'd go out on the ocean ♪

1375
01:37:05,735 --> 01:37:08,279
♪ And if I had a pony ♪

1376
01:37:08,947 --> 01:37:11,323
♪ I'd ride him on my boat ♪

1377
01:37:12,033 --> 01:37:14,827
♪ And we could all together ♪

1378
01:37:15,328 --> 01:37:18,122
♪ Go out on the ocean ♪

1379
01:37:18,290 --> 01:37:23,294
♪ Set me upon my pony on my boat ♪

1380
01:37:53,283 --> 01:37:56,535
♪ And if I were like lightning ♪

1381
01:37:56,912 --> 01:38:00,122
♪ I wouldn't need no sneakers ♪

1382
01:38:00,415 --> 01:38:06,003
♪ I'd come and go
Wherever I would please ♪

1383
01:38:06,922 --> 01:38:10,132
♪ And I'd scare 'em by the shade tree ♪

1384
01:38:10,300 --> 01:38:13,427
♪ And I'd scare 'em by the light pole ♪

1385
01:38:13,595 --> 01:38:20,559
♪ But I would not scare my pony
On my boat out on the sea ♪

1386
01:38:22,020 --> 01:38:24,813
♪ And if I had a boat ♪

1387
01:38:25,273 --> 01:38:28,317
♪ I'd go out on the ocean ♪

1388
01:38:28,485 --> 01:38:30,986
♪ And if I had a pony ♪

1389
01:38:31,780 --> 01:38:35,574
♪ I'd ride him on my boat ♪

1390
01:38:36,451 --> 01:38:39,286
♪ And we could all together ♪

1391
01:38:39,704 --> 01:38:42,331
♪ Go out on the ocean ♪

1392
01:38:42,499 --> 01:38:47,503
♪ Set me upon my pony on my boat ♪

1393
01:38:48,755 --> 01:38:57,554
♪ Set me upon my pony on my boat ♪♪

1394
01:39:08,525 --> 01:39:10,526
[♪♪♪]