Reconstruction of: AITAH for wanting to leave my wife because she had a "go bag"??

AITAH for wanting to leave my wife because she had a "go bag"??

Original post here: https://www.reddit.com/r/AITAH/s/7fl52IUvJE

Warning: this is a reconstruction from another language (here: https://twitter.com/BimagoElCinico/status/1755033782032146498), so it may not recover the original wording to the letter.

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My wife and I have been together for 5 years, we have a 2 y. o. child and we were planning to expand the family. I decided to organise my wife's closet because there was a mold problem in the garage and I decided to inspect all the house. There I found a gym bag with clothes, some nuts, some tampons and about $1000. I asked my wife about it and suddenly her face lost its colour.

At first she told me it was just an emergency bag in case an earthquake hit us or something like that. I asked why then did she hide it from me. After some back and forth, she timidly confessed it was a go bag. Basically, women who need to run away from their abusers are told to carry a bag with all the necessary supplies like money, clothes and such. I asked her why exactly she felt the need to do that. I haven't even talked loud to her, we barely discuss. Why does she thinks I'm going to turn into an abuser?

She said she's not saying I'm an abuser, that she only wanted to do it for her peace. I don't believe in her excuse, I don't think she trusts in me. Otherwise, she wouldn't have to go so far. I took some days to reflect and I have reached the conclusion I can't be with a woman that doesn't trust in me and sees me as an abuser.

I asked for separation and told her I can't be with a woman that doesn't trust in me. I think trust is the basis of the relationship and if she doesn't trust in me, then it's better to we separate. Now she's excusing herself saying she read too much "mom forums" and she let herself be influenced by them.

She showed me the forums where they discuss "go bags" and how every woman should carry one. I get the logic, but I can't stay with a woman that doesn't trust in me and knows she never needed to do such a thing.

I accepted to take more time to think about it, but I think divorce will allow her to find a man who she trusts in and that is not an abuser, since she doesn't trust in me.