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- I still don't know how this could happen. I knew how weak he suddenly could become. I knew that he wasn't immortal. But it happened much too fast for me to even be able to grasp the scenario.
- When Lilly left, I had to rely on Hisao for everything. Being around people did still scare me stiff, and I would often space out when doing things. Lilly helped me with that. Hisao helped me with that. And for a while, I thought I was happy. I thought I would be able to overcome my crippling anxiety and fear. Hisao was what could carry me through a day. He made me happy. He made me realize the beauty in such simple things. But not today. Everything I knew about the life I lived at Yamaku shattered during that day.
- It was only a day after Lilly left for Scotland. One day. Lilly told me that she would leave, but when I asked her what I was supposed to do without her, she just smiled at me and said ”You have Hisao, right?”. I did, but not for as long as I thought.
- I couldn't even see what was going on in the dorm hall. All I had heard was that a boy had collapsed in his room. That alone was enough for me to feel like my heart had been crushed by a hand.
- ”Please, no... Don't let it be Hisao... Please...”
- When I came out on the school yard, I saw a nurse carrying a boy in his arms. The boy did have brown hair, but that was all I could make out. There was a big group of people looking at what happened, so I couldn't bring myself to get as close as I would have wanted to. They carried the boy to a waiting ambulance outside of the school gate, and it drove off.
- The fear of knowing that it could be Hisao that had collapsed led me to stay in my room for the rest of the night. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, I didn't do much of anything. Lilly wasn't here, so the day was spent curled up in a ball on my bed.I could only think about Hisao and Lilly.
- In the end, I did manage to get a few hours of sleep, but a knock on the door woke me up the next day. I had to gather my thoughts before I opened, and to my surprise it was Mutou who was standing there. He looked pale and he had a worried look on his face.
- ”Hanako, I have to talk to you about something.”
- ”W-what?”
- ”Yes. It's about Hisao.”
- ”N-no...”
- I backed off and let him in, and he sat down on my office chair while I walked over to the bed.
- ”I assume that you know about what happened yesterday?
- ”N-no, I don't..”
- ”Oh. Well, I'm terribly, terribly sorry that I have to tell you this, but Hisao had a cardiac arrest yesterday. The nurses did everything they could do to help him, but he was declared dead this morning.”
- My eyes widened, and all I could do was to stare at Hisao. The knot in my stomach that had been there since yesterday began to grow. I tried to say something, but I couldn't even make a single sound. Tears began to break through my eyes. I kept staring at Hisao, but he just became blurrier and blurrier before the tears that were streaming down my chins began to hit the floor.
- ”A-a-are you sure it was Hisao?” I managed to force out, but it was more like a wisper.
- ”Yes.”
- I couldn't bring myself to go to class today either. It's been a week since I heard the words that made me even more miserable than I had been earlier. It's been a week where my thoughts have consisted of nothing but Hisao.
- ”I-I didn't even get the chance to tell him how much he means to me... Why did it happen to him...”
- There's only one thing I can do now. Lilly is not with me. Hisao is not with me. The boy I love is dead and the only person I can call a friend is in Scotland. I might as well end it all while I still have the chance. One step will be all it takes for me to disappear from this world. One step to make the pain go away.
- ”Suicide, you say?”
- The police officer scribbled down some words in a notebook.
- ”Yes, that's the most likely scenario,” Mutou muttered. ”Hanako has always been a mentally unstable person, but I think hearing about Hisaos death is what pushed her over the edge. I'm actually a bit surprised that it hasn't happend earlier.”
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