twilight (nihil)

j man: how does someone with no money get a gram of heroin
intercrural: doing junkie shit i'd presume
j man: pawning my moms furniture
j man: selling her jewelry...
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intercrural: truckstop cottaging
j man is now Online.
j man: thank you for the present
j man is now Online.
j man: im trying to build the courage to slice my wrists
j man is now Away.
intercrural: veins are gross
j man is now Online.
j man: yeah
j man: it's going to be really gnarly and painful
j man: but it just takes a few very quick and hard accurate slashes
j man: im trying to build the mental fortitude for the pain
j man: body is going to jerk violently, presumably
j man: the build up in heart pressure will help the process too
j man: pumping myself up
j man: i can do it
j man: it's going to hurt like hell
intercrural: i believe in you
j man: i dot have much time
j man: encourage me
j man: just some slashes
j man: easy quick
j man: im such a pussy i can do t
j man: im man enough
intercrural: you'll have the undying respect of people on the internet
j man: i have a carpet blade it can easily cut through
j man: i don't care about that
j man: the online people
j man: this is way harder than a gunshot man lmao
intercrural: sorry to say i don't have much experience in encouraging people to self harm when they want me to
j man: BEcaus it's going to hurt like a motnerfueke
j man is now Online.
j man: it's not self harm i plan on however it's spelled
j man: bleeding out
j man: it's going to hurt so ba dude
j man: i wish i still had beers
j man: you can do anything drunk
j man: alright
j man: here we go
j man: no more stalling
j man: gonna put on a song and go to town
j man: see where it take me
j man is now Away.
intercrural: remember, up the river, not across the valley
j man is now Online.
j man: of course my man
j man: gonna go thru the elbow crease too
j man: some big veins there
j man is now Away.
intercrural: there's an artery in the armpit I think
j man is now Online.
j man: lmao
j man: that's last resort
j man: same with thighs
j man: or jugular
j man: im not going to a mental hospital, fuck that shit
j man is now Away.
intercrural: last question before u depart
j man is now Online.
j man: an what's that?
j man: don't stall me a bunch please
intercrural: anything in particular that put you over the edge that you're okay with relaying
intercrural: sorry
intercrural: just fucking around before the reality hits me
j man: im unwell it's not worth discussing
intercrural: that's okay
j man: you'll find friends dots pull the plug on yourself
j man: this sloppily at least
j man: alright
j man: no more stalling
j man: im fucking ready
j man: growling like an animal
j man: ill try to talk to you after I wont go immediately
j man: if I can manage it
j man is now Away.
intercrural: i hope you find whatever you're looking for
intercrural: see you later
j man is now Online.
j man: im shaking
j man is now Online.
j man: I cut myself but it's not lethal
j man: And now I feel drained
j man: I need to finish it but I can't push myself
j man: How do I do this
j man: I need help
j man: I don't have the courage to go on
j man: What do I
j man: I have to pump myself up son eagle
j man is now Online.
j man: lol
j man: it's 6am
j man: now or never
j man is now Away.
intercrural: i hope you will be happy someday, wherever you are then
j man is now Online.
j man:  I did it
j man: in dying Jacob
intercrural: there's nothing really to say i think
intercrural: there's probably some confession im forgetting about that I'll regret for a long time
j man has changed their name to Justin is dead.
Justin is dead: dude lo
Justin is dead: ten body has so much blood
Justin is dead is now Away.
intercrural: i respect that you're pulling this off on christmas
intercrural: maybe an "i love you" works
Justin is dead is now Online.
Justin is dead: I'm doing something novel
Justin is dead: Check my YouTube and rip the video
Justin is dead: aight?
Justin is dead: Seeya on the other side
Justin is dead is now Away.
intercrural: all i see is your liked videos
intercrural: please
Justin is dead is now Online.
Justin is dead: I recorded all the blood and stuff
Justin is dead: it'll finish as a die
Justin is dead: I wish I did something more creative but  I can't think we'll
Justin is dead: it clotted lol
Justin is dead: gonna have to cut more
Justin is dead: lame
Justin is dead: I lost so much blog already
Justin is dead: bo idea how I'm conscious
Justin is dead: LOl
Justin is dead: it's really nearly
Justin is dead: I'm not scared or nervous
Justin is dead: i didn't even feel pain
Justin is dead: it's wonderful
Justin is dead: kiwis it don't clot
Justin is dead: I'm shaking Jacob
Justin is dead: I'm crying
Justin is dead: I'm bro c
Justin is dead: C
Justin is dead: ph God
Justin is dead: I'm going into shock
intercrural: i love you
Justin is dead: in trying to calm down
Justin is dead: I'm calm
Justin is dead: I'm no longer dying you know
Justin is dead: it clotted
Justin is dead: lol
Justin is dead: now I'm weak and I can't think
Justin is dead: why did this have to happen
Justin is dead: clotting
intercrural: cut more so my emotions can be validated you little shit
Justin is dead: Trust me I'm going to die
Justin is dead: I'm not letting myself liv
Justin is dead: I'm just taking a small break
Justin is dead: to talk tone one
Justin is dead: before I perish
Justin is dead is now Online.
Justin is dead: alright
Justin is dead: I'm gonna cut more
Justin is dead: i love you too
Justin is dead is now Online.
Justin is dead: make sure you rip my video before it gets taken down
Justin is dead: i might as well
Justin is dead: leave something neat
Justin is dead: you know
Justin is dead: j wish I planned it out better
Justin is dead: it's just me panicking as I record my blood and wound
intercrural: don't worry about it
Justin is dead: I'm calm now and I'm going to finish the job
intercrural: got my shitty download site open already
Justin is dead: this is my final goodbye
intercrural: i can only reiterate what ive said before
intercrural: goodbye friend
Justin is dead: goodbye
Justin is dead: I hope you have a great life
Justin is dead: im happy to go to another realm
Justin is dead: bye
intercrural: bless you
Justin is dead is now Away.