Whatever smfh

MARlSS: -Shay sat in the living room watching tv and relaxing. She was actually in a pretty good mood today. she pulls her phone out and looks down at it texting someone. she smiles as amber crawls up into her lap purring. Shay pets her and looks back up at the tv.-
Tsaaq: Freedom spent the majority of the day in her room, trying to get ahead on school work mostly. She got up from her desk and walked out of her bedroom yawning a little as she made her way to the kitchen. She'd spotted Shay in her peripheral and waved lazily. "Hey." She greeted as she went into the kitchen and grabbed an apple for herself and leaned on the counter as she took a bite.
MARlSS: -Shay turns and smiles at Freedom.-"Hey"-she sets amber aside and gets up making her way to the kitchen.-"Umm hey I need to talk to you about something."-she bites the inside of her cheek.-
Tsaaq: She'd lowered her head and had a contemplative expression on her face as she chewed slowly. "Yeah?" She turned quickly as she watched Shay come into the kitchen. Freedom took another bite of her apple but attempted to chew even slower just because it seemed like her eating was loud.
MARlSS: -shay takes a deep breath and smiles abit at freedom.-"Well Leon has offered for me to move in with him and well I mean I am already there alot. Half my stuff is already there. I wanted to see if maybe you wanted to have nika as your new roommate. I can take care of the paperwork and all. "
Tsaaq: "Um... I don't know if she can afford to do that." Freedom said quietly after swallowed. "I unno if I can even do that." She sighed, glancing at the apple then shrugging as she tossed it in the trash. "I'll figure something out though, that's real nice that ya'll are taking it to another level and shit."
MARlSS: -Shay frowns looking at freedom.-"I can stay and take care of things until you find a new place or something."-she rubs her arm abit.-"Yeah he suggested it. "-she sighs and looks around. she wasnt sure what to say to freedom.-"So umm how have you been doing?"
Tsaaq: Freedom shook her head and waved her hand. "It's aiight. I guess it's just time to move back in with my aunt." She shrugged before lowering her head. "I shoulda known better than to move out and shit. That's my fault. I don't want you to be all tied up on this place if you don't gotta be." She said. Freedom lifted her head and thought a moment before shrugging. "I'm aiight. How are you?"
MARlSS: -Shay felt terrible and shakes her head.-"No no I don't mind doing it. its the least I could do."-she shrugs abit and she offers freedom a small smile.-"I'm doing better. less stressed out. how are your classes anything interesting?"
Tsaaq: "Really it's aiight. I'm a stupid fuckin' kid. I need adult supervision. Those rules at my aunt and my mom's house ain't there to opress me, they there so I don't get my ass in trouble. I understand that now." Freedom spoke a little louder then resumed having her head lowered. She puffed out her cheeks and crossed her arms over her chest. "Just trying to get my junior classes and I'll be that much closer to graduating and moving on." Freedom answered.
MARlSS: -Shay blinks abit.-"Freedom you arent a kid. You are grown and can make your own decisions and rules. But if you want to move back then okay."-she nods her head hearing about her classes.-"That is good. I have a few more years then I can be on my own working."
Tsaaq: She shook her head. "Being an adult ain't got nothing to do with a number. It got all to do with what's up here." Freedom said as she pointed her head. "And I ain't no adult. And just cause I did adult shit doesn't make me one." She shrugged, going over to the dining table and sitting. "I guess. I been thinkin' of transferring or somethin'. Going to school in the city or some shit." She said. "But that's money so prolly not."
MARlSS: -shay frowns and sits down with freedom looking at her.-"What is going on freedom. I know you might not want to but im here if you need someone to listen to you."
Tsaaq: Freedom folding her hands as stared at the table. "It ain't nothing new. I always hated this shitty small town bullshit." She muttered. "But it's aiight. Imma get out when I graduate and never have to see any of you mother fuckers again. That's fine." She shrugged. "Ain't nothing to worry yourself about."
MARlSS: -shay blinks abit and nods her head.-"Okay. Well if you need help with anything or just want to talk im here. "-she got up from the table.-"I can help you pack if you want.."
Tsaaq: "Ain't you did enough? I ain't ever asking shit from you again Shay. You don't think I appreciate nothing. I don't got time for that." Freedom asked with a sigh. "I don't need help with nothing, it's fine. Shit. Damn it, I don't need nobody to feel bad for me. I don't need nobody holding some shit over my head so they can talk shit about me behind my back. And I ain't no fuckin' charity case neither. So you and your man have a great life. I'm glad for you. I am." She nodded her head as she got up as well. "I never unpacked from last week." Freedom muttered. "I kinda knew somethin' like this would happen. And I wasn't about to look like a dumbass again."
MARlSS: -shay looks at freedom and she stares at her.-"What the hell is your problem freedom like seriously. All I have done was help you and try to be your friend. Yeah I fucked up i owned up to it and I haven't held anything over your head. All you ever do is yell at me and say how much of a piece of shit I am. Don't you think maybe I get tired of feeling like a piece of shit. Leon offered. I havent given him an answer. I was leaving it up to you. I really don't know what your problem is and why you are snapping out at me because I havent on anything but try to be nice and fix our friendship but I can see you obviously don't want that to happen. "
Tsaaq: ((Oh no why did I crash from the ooc room -.-))
MARlSS: [i have no clue lol][
Tsaaq: She pursed her lips. "I don't tell you you're a piece of shit, don't fucking tell that lie. Every time some shit happen what do I say? Everybody human, everybody got flaws. If I tell you some shit that you did that hurts me that don't make me an asshole."  Freedom shook her head. "What you did to try and fix our friendship?" She asked quietly waiting on the answer with her arms crossed.
MARlSS: "you dont have to come right out and say im a piece of shit you say with your actions. I gave you space and everytime I talk to you like now in a calm manner and try to be nice and talk to you all you do is catch an attuide and yell at me. I haven't been aroudn here much because I don't want to piss you off even more then what I have. I can jsut be in the same room as you and I can see you getting pissed off. "
Tsaaq: "That defnitely ain't true." Freedom shook her head. "You obviously don't know what me pissed off is, or you should. I unno. Kinda disappointed that you think you just automatically make me mad like what kinda shit is that. I don't feel that way about nobody not even the mother fuckers who do piss me off. So all that shit is percieved by whatever guilty conscience you got." She sighed.
MARlSS: "I dont have a guilty conscience. What I have is someone who is constantly snapping at me everytime I try to talk to them is what I have. You must think you are just some hig h and mightly person or something. Because everyone is a mother fucker and does you wrong probably. You know what I'm done arguing with you. okay I've stepped back from you and now i'm just going to keep my mouth shut and when you feel you are ready to talk to me i'll be here."-she turns around and heads to her room to start packing her things.-
Tsaaq: Freedom rolled her eyes. "I think you feel attacked and I unno why cause I don't be doing shit to you honestly. I been trying to stay out of your way and let you live." She sighed uncrossing her arms. "Usually when you say shit like that to me? I get sad. But I'm actually having a real hard time giving a shit what people think of me anymore. So thanks for that much." Freedom said, not moving from her spot until she decided to sit down once more. Deciding to just lean on her hand and think quietly to herself.
MARlSS: -Shay heard freedom but just decided to hold her tongue. she  grabs a bag and was folding clothes puttingthem into the bag. she  mumbles to herslef abit and  pushes her hair from her face. her door was wide open incase amber decided she wanted to come into the bedroom.
Tsaaq: She sighed, finally moving from her spot she moved down the hallway and stood in Shay's doorway a moment. "You'll be in my prayers as always." She said before moving away from the door and went back towards the kitchen.
MARlSS: -shay looked over her shoulder and nodded.-"and you will be in mine."-she  kept packing and left her room. she goes down the hall and into the kitchen she goes into a cabinet pulling out the cat food and of course amber came running out-
Tsaaq: She sat down at the table again. "You don't gotta do that... Cause you Hindu or some shit." Freedom finally spoke but still didn't look up or at her.
MARlSS: -shay heard her.-"Just because we don't pray to the same god doesnt mean I can't pray for you."-she pours the cat food into the bowl and feeds amber-
Tsaaq: "I would prefer you wouldn't though. I already got some shit I already feel like I'm gonna go to hell for and I'm working real hard to be holy and I honestly don't need more shit on my soul." Freedom said sternly. "So thank you, that's nice. Even though I'm pretty sure you ain't being sincere. Still don't."
MARlSS: -shay turned and looks at freedom.-"I'm being very sincere actually. I always pray for you. Weather you like it or not because I actually care about you weather you believe it or not."-she goes to the fridge and grabs a few things to start making a sandwhich.-" I don't tell you who to pray for. So please don't tell me who to pray for. I don't see how you could have  bad things on your soul. You are beyond holy. "
Tsaaq: "That might be true and you might be right. But right now? Lookin' back You liked me maybe for little bit. But cared? Not really. Not with your full ass anyways. Half assed caring, like paying for shit and fighting bitches. And that was okay. But I'm tired of people being half assed with me. I deserve a full ass." Freedom said sternly, crossing her arms again. "Well I do." She replied. "I unno why you think that I think I'm so fuckin' perfect. I don't feel that way at all. Ever. There you fuckin' go. All I do is make mistakes and I'm scrambling like a dumbass to try and fix it just to find out it don't mean shit. All I got now is a dream and god, so I'm trying not to fuck it up. I don't got shit else."
MARlSS: -she looks at her.-"I care more then you think I do freedom. You are the first true friend I have actually had that is not family. Everyone just either wanted to be friends with me because of my brother or because I had money. Everyone thinks i'm just a rich snobby girl who gets what she wants. That is far from the truth. I do care about you if i didnt even half ass cared I would have just left and not said a word to you. You think I just wanted to live with you and pay for place. I mean seriously who does that. You are not a charity case to me. You are my friend. Weather you hate me or not. You say you dont hate anyone and everyone makes mistakes and all that but  deep down you hate me. I know you do. Im okay with that because not everybody is going to like me."
Tsaaq: She pursed her lips. "I unno." She muttered before she shrugged. "I don't hate nobody. I don't have it in me." Freedom said with a heavy sigh. "I truly believe that shit. There is no use in hating nobody it don't benefit me. It don't make me a better person. Why the fuck would I hate you?" She asked. "The only person I'd ever hate is myself for being so fuckin' dumb all the time." She grumbled angrily.
MARlSS: "You shouldnt hate yourself. You should love yourself. Because how can you lov others if you cant love yourself."-she takes a deep breath-"You know why I say you hate me. Because I slept with derek which was a huge mistake."
Tsaaq: "It's lot easier to say than to fuckin' do." She whispered before shaking her head. "I don't hate you for that..." Freedom sighed. "I wasn't mad at nobody. I was just... Sad." She shrugged again. "I unno how else to explain it."
MARlSS: -she sighs-"I hate fighting with you freedom I really do and im sorry."-she puts the stuff back in the fridge and takes a bite out of her sandwhich.-
Tsaaq: "It's whatever, it's what humans do though." Freedom said with a frown. "It's fine. I'm sorry too." She sighed. "I'm trying to just fade into the background where I belong so there won't be any more drama maybe."
MARlSS: -she nods her head and sighs some-"I think im going to go lay down for abit"-she makes her way to her bedroom-
MARlSS: [i have to go shower and get little one ready for bed]
Tsaaq: ((Okay tyt.))