First, an aside to golurk:

"did you actually sincerely think i would be petty enough to do This because of a pokemon argument" yes, completely - youve been a shithead for months and not just to me. lashing out at other people isn't excused by your anger at me.

it never once came up between us when i was buying you stuff, but happened after i put you down for insulting everyone in #pf-game a few days ago. and it turns out i was right about your contempt for me but for the wrong reasons

please, after this, never speak to me again. i mean that sincerely.


Answers:

what rina thinks about this isn't relevant, is it? she know's whats happening; go ask her if you want

yes those are radical beliefs. i don't share them.

i didn't think anyone was playing along with a charade, i thought they liked me, would hope it's still true to some extent, but again, i understand.



What do i want to do now? probably, stop here.

in my personal life, a lot of answers are going to be vague or nonexistant because i don't have them, and nobody is going to care if it comes down to a shitstorm anyway. I'm still the person i've always been. that was the "i don't hold it against you if you don't want to be friends" part earlier. the problem is not going to be solved in a useful timeframe.

in terms of projects, it all boils down to Cora's willingness to vouch for me.
i'm very touched that she has been, and others, and that there is even a discussion here

but all it means is her reputation is on the line, in a way that's worse than mine, and i don't think it's fair in that way. being willing to continue with Cora as my shield feels selfish, like trying to keep things normal. Maybe i'm missing a chance to be vouched for in future internet things, but again, feels selfish. it's not the right thing to do.

so, i'm out of the projects. what happens to this server, the friendships, isn't up to me, it's up to you guys. I'll still be here if you want me. I might try one of those leave-and-come-back things that i didn't realise i was causing.


for the mechanics of stopping:

3dpe-the-project is shared between myself, jac and solshine. They're welcome to continue with it. I'll follow the project, stick around here if it's ok. Jac has all the website files etc too. i was only really in it to make the pf game

pf, it's finally my turn, take out my recent non-archive creations please. collabs are at mopp's discretion. well, any of my things are at your discretion, if you think it matters. i would like it if you left windie in. good luck wth the game, i look forward to playing it.
Site/archive wise, I've still got ftp access but i'm not a dick, you'll have to contact Poryhedron if you're desperate for anything.
I probably won't make a non-pf fakemon site because of the community problem, but i'm not gonna hand over what i've got either in case i change my mind.

anything else, you know how to contact me. I'll probably be making some non-community-risking non-copyright-infringing games