Love, Gilda (2018) Eng

1
00:00:24,459 --> 00:00:25,677
man: Rolling on take two.

2
00:00:35,296 --> 00:00:37,820
man 1: Wow, there she is.
It's Gilda.

3
00:00:37,994 --> 00:00:39,691
Oh, man,
have you ever seen her dance?

4
00:00:39,865 --> 00:00:43,565
- man 2: Yeah.
- men: She's bad.[chuckling]

5
00:00:44,174 --> 00:00:47,221
man 1: Man, when they passed out rhythm, that Jewess got it all.

6
00:00:47,699 --> 00:00:49,875
woman: Hey, Gilda,  why you come here all the time?

7
00:00:50,267 --> 00:00:52,400
Gilda: 'Cause I just love
this disco.

8
00:00:53,096 --> 00:00:54,141
♪ This disco ♪

9
00:00:55,011 --> 00:00:56,839
David Letterman: She was
the very first performer

10
00:00:57,144 --> 00:00:59,015
chosen for the cast
ofSaturday Night Live.

11
00:00:59,363 --> 00:01:01,148
woman: Radner became a star
by creating

12
00:01:01,322 --> 00:01:03,846
such memorable characters
as Roseanne Roseannadanna...

13
00:01:04,020 --> 00:01:05,326
A Mr. Richard Fanner...

14
00:01:05,500 --> 00:01:06,805
woman: ...and Emily Litella.

15
00:01:06,979 --> 00:01:08,894
What's all this fuss
I keep hearing...

16
00:01:09,069 --> 00:01:11,027
TV anchor: Soon to be the star
of her own one woman show

17
00:01:11,288 --> 00:01:12,289
on Broadway.

18
00:01:13,334 --> 00:01:14,987
These days she's making movies.

19
00:01:15,162 --> 00:01:16,641
There it is!

20
00:01:16,815 --> 00:01:18,556
host: Here she is, live,
Miss Gilda Radner.

21
00:01:18,730 --> 00:01:20,602
- Gilda Radner!
- Gilda Radner!

22
00:01:20,819 --> 00:01:21,777
Gilda Radner!

23
00:01:22,125 --> 00:01:23,561
[crowd cheering]

24
00:01:23,822 --> 00:01:26,695
♪ Yes, darling,
I am disco Gilda ♪

25
00:01:27,217 --> 00:01:30,351
♪ When the music changes
I don't miss no dancing ♪

26
00:01:31,569 --> 00:01:35,312
♪ I am the baby born between
the thighs of disco madness ♪

27
00:01:35,573 --> 00:01:37,880
♪ I can dance for hours
if I want ♪

28
00:01:38,054 --> 00:01:39,969
♪ Soul, beat ♪

29
00:01:40,883 --> 00:01:42,841
Gilda: It's the story
of my life, you know.

30
00:01:44,582 --> 00:01:46,236
People say, "Okay,
you're a star now.

31
00:01:46,410 --> 00:01:48,238
Gilda Radner, what's it like
to be a star?"

32
00:01:49,370 --> 00:01:53,200
♪ Disco, disco, disco, disco ♪

33
00:01:53,374 --> 00:01:55,811
♪ Disco Gilda ♪

34
00:01:57,552 --> 00:02:01,077
♪ Disco, disco, disco, disco ♪

35
00:02:01,338 --> 00:02:04,254
♪ Disco Gilda ♪

36
00:02:04,646 --> 00:02:06,213
[crowd cheering]

37
00:02:06,778 --> 00:02:09,259
[applause]

38
00:02:14,960 --> 00:02:16,310
Gilda: This is side one.

39
00:02:17,615 --> 00:02:19,835
If I should talk like this,
can they understand?

40
00:02:25,536 --> 00:02:27,582
When I think back on my life...

41
00:02:28,887 --> 00:02:30,976
I always felt that my comedy

42
00:02:31,455 --> 00:02:33,283
was just to make things
be all right.

43
00:02:34,415 --> 00:02:35,981
I love the naivety,

44
00:02:36,373 --> 00:02:38,462
that the soul can believe
what it wants to believe.

45
00:02:39,420 --> 00:02:40,899
I could be prettier than I was.

46
00:02:41,117 --> 00:02:43,119
I could be people
that I really wasn't.

47
00:02:46,078 --> 00:02:49,430
I would use comedy to be
in control of my situation.

48
00:02:51,258 --> 00:02:53,869
[music playing]

49
00:03:15,325 --> 00:03:16,979
I can't believe
this is her handwriting.

50
00:03:19,329 --> 00:03:22,419
Are these actually her papers?
Like, what she...

51
00:03:23,594 --> 00:03:26,945
There's check marks.
Oh, it's like we're detectives.

52
00:03:27,119 --> 00:03:28,512
This is a real honor.

53
00:03:30,122 --> 00:03:31,559
Like, seriously, this is huge.

54
00:03:32,734 --> 00:03:34,736
"Gilda smoking. Gilda Radner."

55
00:03:34,910 --> 00:03:36,259
Melissa:
"Shopping in supermarkets.

56
00:03:36,477 --> 00:03:37,956
Staring. Restaurants."

57
00:03:38,130 --> 00:03:40,524
Bill: "Elevators. Mail.
Aerobics."

58
00:03:40,872 --> 00:03:43,135
"Number 12, toilet,
really liked your work."

59
00:03:45,094 --> 00:03:46,530
[chuckles]

60
00:03:46,704 --> 00:03:47,357
Amy: Okay,
I'm gonna give it a try.

61
00:03:47,836 --> 00:03:48,793
This is, um...

62
00:03:49,707 --> 00:03:51,927
Gilda Radner,
her voice and her writing.

63
00:03:53,015 --> 00:03:54,930
"First and foremost,
above everything else,

64
00:03:55,104 --> 00:03:56,888
my main priority
is that I am a girl.

65
00:03:57,149 --> 00:03:58,977
I've never wanted
to be anything else.

66
00:03:59,630 --> 00:04:01,806
I'm fascinated with boys
but I never wanted to be one."

67
00:04:02,503 --> 00:04:03,721
I agree, Gilda.

68
00:04:04,331 --> 00:04:06,724
"To be a girl and be funny
means you have to sacrifice

69
00:04:06,898 --> 00:04:08,726
a lot of things
because of your loud mouth."

70
00:04:09,510 --> 00:04:10,815
Bill: Being neurotic's
the only subject

71
00:04:11,033 --> 00:04:12,339
I didn't have to research."
[chuckles]

72
00:04:12,861 --> 00:04:14,428
Yes.

73
00:04:14,602 --> 00:04:16,908
"I can't even begin to imagine
how I got famous.

74
00:04:17,344 --> 00:04:18,693
It seemed like I just took
the next job

75
00:04:18,867 --> 00:04:20,172
and then it turned out
that millions of people

76
00:04:20,347 --> 00:04:21,826
were watching me do it."

77
00:04:22,044 --> 00:04:23,611
Bill: "Maybe you know me
and maybe you don't,

78
00:04:23,785 --> 00:04:26,744
or maybe you heard of me
but never saw me,

79
00:04:26,918 --> 00:04:30,313
or maybe you used to know me,
but don't know me anymore.

80
00:04:30,661 --> 00:04:32,750
But one time in my life
I was famous

81
00:04:32,924 --> 00:04:34,274
and it seemed like
everyone knew me."

82
00:04:35,536 --> 00:04:37,755
[crowd cheering]

83
00:04:37,973 --> 00:04:40,323
[applause]

84
00:04:50,681 --> 00:04:51,639
Thank you.

85
00:04:53,945 --> 00:04:54,903
Thank you.

86
00:04:56,731 --> 00:04:59,081
This was really always my dream.

87
00:04:59,386 --> 00:05:00,387
When I was a...

88
00:05:00,952 --> 00:05:02,998
when I was a little girl
growing up in Detroit,

89
00:05:03,172 --> 00:05:04,521
my dad used to take me

90
00:05:04,869 --> 00:05:06,784
to see shows
when they'd come in to town.

91
00:05:07,176 --> 00:05:08,699
And we'd sit in
about the third row

92
00:05:08,873 --> 00:05:10,440
and I'd look up on the stage
and the people up there

93
00:05:10,614 --> 00:05:12,790
just always looked so happy
to be there.

94
00:05:13,095 --> 00:05:15,184
And I thought to myself that
that's what I wanted to do.

95
00:05:15,358 --> 00:05:17,317
And that's where I wanted to be.

96
00:05:17,621 --> 00:05:19,710
And I remember when
they'd come right down
near the foot of the stage

97
00:05:19,884 --> 00:05:22,060
and they'd look out,
I always was sure
they were looking right at me.

98
00:05:22,234 --> 00:05:23,845
Right at little Gilda Radner.

99
00:05:24,454 --> 00:05:26,804
And now that I'm finally
up here, I can't see a thing.

100
00:05:26,978 --> 00:05:28,676
[crowd laughs]

101
00:05:28,850 --> 00:05:30,417
[applause]

102
00:05:31,766 --> 00:05:34,769
Gilda: Nobody says,
"Oh, I had a great childhood,
everything was perfect."

103
00:05:34,943 --> 00:05:35,987
Nobody says that.

104
00:05:36,988 --> 00:05:40,122
It's the choices you make
in dealing with it.

105
00:05:41,166 --> 00:05:43,430
If I ever have my own comedy
act this is how I'd open it.

106
00:05:44,735 --> 00:05:46,737
'Cause people wanna know,
well, what made you funny?

107
00:05:47,129 --> 00:05:48,304
And I know what made me funny.

108
00:05:48,609 --> 00:05:50,219
[crowd cheering]

109
00:05:52,308 --> 00:05:54,919
[music playing]

110
00:06:02,362 --> 00:06:05,234
From the time I was a kid,
I loved to pretend.

111
00:06:06,670 --> 00:06:09,760
And to play and be in plays,
and put on costumes.

112
00:06:15,984 --> 00:06:17,899
I was really a child of comedy.

113
00:06:19,074 --> 00:06:21,990
In the tradition of Chaplin
and tons of fun.

114
00:06:22,382 --> 00:06:23,557
Oh, they were great!

115
00:06:24,209 --> 00:06:25,385
And Lucille Ball.

116
00:06:26,124 --> 00:06:27,952
Anybody who's willing
to risk it.

117
00:06:29,606 --> 00:06:31,303
I would be glued
to the television,

118
00:06:31,478 --> 00:06:34,394
then I'd go act out things
like it in the backyard.

119
00:06:47,842 --> 00:06:50,148
I'm a child who came in
an older marriage.

120
00:06:50,366 --> 00:06:52,847
My dad was in his 50s
when I was born.

121
00:06:53,021 --> 00:06:55,719
I think I was just such a joy, such a miracle

122
00:06:55,893 --> 00:06:58,243
that he would have children
later in his life.

123
00:07:00,028 --> 00:07:01,551
The world revolved around us

124
00:07:01,725 --> 00:07:03,597
and he was the best audience
in the world.

125
00:07:04,728 --> 00:07:07,731
After a hard day's work,  he'd sit for hours in his chair

126
00:07:07,905 --> 00:07:10,691
and I could do pantomimes
and routines, and anything,

127
00:07:10,865 --> 00:07:12,432
and he'd watch, and he'd laugh.

128
00:07:14,521 --> 00:07:18,089
Humor was a wonderful,
unifying thing in our family.

129
00:07:25,140 --> 00:07:27,229
Michael: We were fortunate,
we came from...

130
00:07:28,230 --> 00:07:30,624
a family
that was relatively affluent.

131
00:07:30,885 --> 00:07:33,540
Our father was in the hotel,
apartment business.

132
00:07:34,976 --> 00:07:36,978
And we were in Detroit
at the time

133
00:07:37,152 --> 00:07:39,241
when Detroit was one of the
great cities in the country.

134
00:07:40,285 --> 00:07:41,548
So things were booming.

135
00:07:42,810 --> 00:07:46,640
[music playing]

136
00:07:51,166 --> 00:07:52,907
Gilda: My mother couldn't take
the winters,

137
00:07:53,124 --> 00:07:55,736
so every November, my family
would go to Miami Beach,

138
00:07:56,519 --> 00:07:58,042
and live for maybe four months.

139
00:07:59,348 --> 00:08:00,654
And then come back to Detroit.

140
00:08:03,613 --> 00:08:05,267
My parents
would take me out of school

141
00:08:05,441 --> 00:08:07,399
and take me to a new school
in Florida.

142
00:08:09,184 --> 00:08:10,968
I couldn't get attached
anywhere.

143
00:08:17,758 --> 00:08:19,194
I overate constantly.

144
00:08:27,071 --> 00:08:28,769
We had a pantry in the kitchen
with tons of food,

145
00:08:28,943 --> 00:08:30,292
she used to call that her room.

146
00:08:30,771 --> 00:08:33,164
She'd sit there on a little
step stool and just munch.

147
00:08:45,829 --> 00:08:47,527
Gilda: My weight
distressed my mother.

148
00:08:48,223 --> 00:08:49,529
And she took me to a doctor

149
00:08:49,703 --> 00:08:51,443
who put me on Dexedrine
diet pills

150
00:08:51,618 --> 00:08:52,793
when I was ten years old.

151
00:08:57,188 --> 00:08:59,930
Judy: Her mother was
trying everything
to control her weight,

152
00:09:00,104 --> 00:09:01,932
'cause her mother
was very beautiful

153
00:09:02,106 --> 00:09:05,980
and I think it was hard for her that Gilda was not as thin

154
00:09:06,458 --> 00:09:07,416
as she would've liked.

155
00:09:19,950 --> 00:09:21,778
[music playing]

156
00:09:32,310 --> 00:09:34,617
Gilda: When I was
four months old, Dibby came.

157
00:09:36,010 --> 00:09:38,142
She stayed with us
for 18 years.

158
00:09:39,796 --> 00:09:41,493
Michael: My father was at work.

159
00:09:41,668 --> 00:09:43,583
My mother was busy doing
whatever she was doing.

160
00:09:43,844 --> 00:09:45,410
But Dibby was the constant.

161
00:09:46,934 --> 00:09:48,892
She was a kind,
wonderful person,

162
00:09:49,327 --> 00:09:51,547
and you know, we thought of her as our second mother.

163
00:10:06,562 --> 00:10:08,346
Gilda: Dibby and I
became inseparable.

164
00:10:11,785 --> 00:10:14,962
When I would come home crying
because someone called me fat
at school

165
00:10:15,179 --> 00:10:17,312
she would tell me,

166
00:10:17,486 --> 00:10:19,357
"If they call you fat,
just make a joke about it
and laugh."

167
00:10:21,925 --> 00:10:24,449
I made them laugh
before they hurt me.

168
00:10:24,885 --> 00:10:27,278
Before any kid could go,
"Hey, you fat thing."

169
00:10:27,583 --> 00:10:30,194
I would say, "Hey, I'm fat,  I can't see my toes, you know."

170
00:10:31,587 --> 00:10:33,589
And then I realized
what comedy is.

171
00:10:33,894 --> 00:10:35,199
It's hitting on the truth

172
00:10:35,373 --> 00:10:36,418
before the other guy
thinks of it.

173
00:10:59,702 --> 00:11:01,095
When I was 12 years old,

174
00:11:01,356 --> 00:11:02,879
my father went
into the hospital

175
00:11:03,053 --> 00:11:04,402
for some routine tests.

176
00:11:05,795 --> 00:11:07,014
He had been having
terrible headaches

177
00:11:07,188 --> 00:11:08,319
for a couple of years.

178
00:11:09,364 --> 00:11:10,974
Michael:
And they checked him out

179
00:11:11,148 --> 00:11:12,846
and it turned out
that it was a brain tumor.

180
00:11:17,328 --> 00:11:20,941
He got sicker and sicker
and he went into a coma.

181
00:11:22,290 --> 00:11:24,596
And it was like
he was 40 years older.

182
00:11:31,342 --> 00:11:35,085
Gilda: It was too great
and sudden a loss
of a person whom I adored.

183
00:11:38,132 --> 00:11:40,134
I was 14 when my father died.

184
00:11:41,396 --> 00:11:42,614
I was only a child.

185
00:11:50,318 --> 00:11:52,363
That's like a pivotal age...

186
00:11:53,800 --> 00:11:56,541
when you're going
from being a child into a woman,

187
00:11:56,716 --> 00:11:59,457
so I just never went
into being a woman. [chuckles]

188
00:12:09,511 --> 00:12:12,993
I started going to
an all-girls private school
on the east side of Detroit.

189
00:12:14,429 --> 00:12:17,040
There was more emphasis
put on being funny

190
00:12:17,301 --> 00:12:19,477
and being involved
in activities

191
00:12:19,651 --> 00:12:21,523
like the
theater department

192
00:12:21,697 --> 00:12:23,699
than there was on dating.
So I was encouraged that way.

193
00:12:25,875 --> 00:12:28,051
And the more comfortable I got, the funnier I got.

194
00:12:42,544 --> 00:12:46,591
In Ann Arbor, I suddenly found that you could major

195
00:12:46,766 --> 00:12:49,420
in putting on makeup
and costumes,

196
00:12:49,594 --> 00:12:51,205
that you could get degrees
in it.

197
00:12:52,249 --> 00:12:54,425
And so I went
into the theater department.

198
00:12:59,517 --> 00:13:02,956
I was in a comedy-satire group
called The Eastbound Mound.

199
00:13:04,174 --> 00:13:07,525
And we all just took life  to see what was funny about it.

200
00:13:16,404 --> 00:13:18,798
Ann Arbor, the summer of '66.

201
00:13:20,234 --> 00:13:21,409
Little Johnny.

202
00:13:22,453 --> 00:13:23,672
Oh, there's me!

203
00:13:24,107 --> 00:13:27,545
Billy! Must have been
a short-term boyfriend.

204
00:13:28,242 --> 00:13:30,200
Bob! Oh, that was
another boyfriend, Bob.

205
00:13:30,374 --> 00:13:31,419
Oh, there's Harold.

206
00:13:32,028 --> 00:13:33,421
That was another boyfriend.

207
00:13:33,638 --> 00:13:34,988
Another boyfriend, Jim.

208
00:13:35,162 --> 00:13:36,903
- Michael: This one?
- Judy: It's a guy!

209
00:13:37,077 --> 00:13:38,730
It's a naked guy in the shower
but I have no idea who it is.

210
00:13:38,905 --> 00:13:40,341
- Yeah, more...
- Who do you think it is?

211
00:13:40,515 --> 00:13:42,038
- I don't-- I don't know.
- Whose bum is that?

212
00:13:42,212 --> 00:13:44,562
John: Gilda had
quite a few boyfriends.

213
00:13:45,172 --> 00:13:47,696
[music playing]

214
00:13:50,612 --> 00:13:53,049
Gilda: My biggest motivation
has always been love.

215
00:13:54,834 --> 00:13:57,097
I would see a guy  that I would fall in love with,

216
00:13:57,271 --> 00:13:59,882
and then I would just wanna
be with him
and go wherever he went.

217
00:14:02,929 --> 00:14:05,496
I never graduated  from the University of Michigan

218
00:14:05,670 --> 00:14:08,151
because I fell in love
with a Canadian sculptor,

219
00:14:08,325 --> 00:14:10,632
and wanted to be his wife
and a homemaker.

220
00:14:17,465 --> 00:14:20,120
Judy: She was cooking
and keeping their apartment.

221
00:14:20,685 --> 00:14:22,296
He loved having her do that,
you know,

222
00:14:22,470 --> 00:14:24,211
like he was being taken care of that way.

223
00:14:25,429 --> 00:14:28,215
Gilda: Jeff couldn't handle
if I was ever funny.

224
00:14:29,085 --> 00:14:30,608
And it was very frustrating.

225
00:14:31,566 --> 00:14:33,873
There was just a part of me
that wasn't being used.

226
00:14:35,962 --> 00:14:40,053
And I actually reached a point where I felt like I was dying.

227
00:14:44,448 --> 00:14:47,799
One day I went to the theater, and I sat there and I thought,

228
00:14:47,974 --> 00:14:49,758
"Oh, I just felt so good."

229
00:14:50,150 --> 00:14:52,456
You know, that feeling,
I felt like I belonged.

230
00:14:52,630 --> 00:14:53,718
Even in the audience.

231
00:14:53,936 --> 00:14:55,416
And so I ended up asking

232
00:14:55,590 --> 00:14:57,374
if I could work
in their box office.

233
00:14:58,985 --> 00:15:00,334
Marcus: They came in
and she goes and peeks

234
00:15:00,508 --> 00:15:02,379
through the hole,
a little cubbyhole

235
00:15:02,640 --> 00:15:04,425
that I handed the tickets,
and she says,
"You're kinda cute."

236
00:15:06,253 --> 00:15:10,083
Gilda: Eventually they asked me
to be in these pantomimes  for kids in the school system.

237
00:15:10,648 --> 00:15:13,129
And then they asked me
to be in a children's
theater production.

238
00:15:14,783 --> 00:15:16,480
Michael: They made  a whole industry up for Gilda.

239
00:15:20,920 --> 00:15:23,748
[cheering]

240
00:15:24,880 --> 00:15:27,665
Gilda: Godspell, it was
very successful in New York,

241
00:15:27,970 --> 00:15:30,059
and they posted open auditions

242
00:15:30,233 --> 00:15:32,975
in Toronto
for the Toronto Company.

243
00:15:33,367 --> 00:15:35,847
And I went cold from the street and auditioned.

244
00:15:37,719 --> 00:15:39,895
Paul: Everybody
from that age group,

245
00:15:40,243 --> 00:15:42,942
early 20s I guess,
was auditioning for it.

246
00:15:43,246 --> 00:15:46,902
And I went as a pianist
who would accompany...

247
00:15:47,816 --> 00:15:49,209
Martin: I remember Gilda got up

248
00:15:49,513 --> 00:15:52,429
and she was dressed
in sideway pigtails,

249
00:15:52,864 --> 00:15:54,866
and she sang
"Zip-a-Dee-Doo-Dah".

250
00:15:55,650 --> 00:15:57,130
And I remember thinking,

251
00:15:57,304 --> 00:15:59,001
"Oh, that's the saddest thing
I've ever seen."

252
00:16:00,002 --> 00:16:01,917
Stephen: She was very quick to tell us

253
00:16:02,091 --> 00:16:05,007
that she was not a singer,
which was accurate.

254
00:16:06,226 --> 00:16:09,881
So we were doubtful at first.

255
00:16:10,056 --> 00:16:12,623
Then suddenly, Stephen Schwartz
and John-Michael Tebelak,

256
00:16:12,797 --> 00:16:14,321
and all the creators said,
"You're hired!"

257
00:16:14,495 --> 00:16:16,627
I mean, they just--
they loved her.

258
00:16:17,237 --> 00:16:19,282
And I thought,
"Hmm, I gotta rethink.

259
00:16:19,456 --> 00:16:22,155
You know, I'm singing
"My Funny Valentine",
I could be off here."

260
00:16:22,982 --> 00:16:24,940
♪ Well at the outset there
Appeared before the master♪

261
00:16:25,201 --> 00:16:26,811
♪ A man that ran
Into the millions ♪

262
00:16:26,986 --> 00:16:29,162
- ♪ What? ♪
- ♪ In the millions ♪

263
00:16:29,336 --> 00:16:30,815
Gilda: We all started out
together, didn't know
what would happen,

264
00:16:30,990 --> 00:16:32,730
we just spent a year
jumping up and down.

265
00:16:32,948 --> 00:16:34,515
[piano playing]

266
00:16:34,906 --> 00:16:37,126
♪ I can see a swath
Of sinners sitting yonder ♪

267
00:16:37,300 --> 00:16:39,520
♪ And they're acting
Like a pack of fools ♪

268
00:16:40,216 --> 00:16:42,523
♪ Gazing into space
They let their minds wander ♪

269
00:16:42,784 --> 00:16:45,308
♪ 'Stead of studying
The good lord's rules ♪

270
00:16:45,961 --> 00:16:48,572
♪ You better pay attention
To your comprehension ♪

271
00:16:48,920 --> 00:16:51,314
♪ There's gonna be a quiz
At your ascension ♪

272
00:16:51,575 --> 00:16:53,490
♪ Not to mention
Any threat of ♪

273
00:16:54,013 --> 00:16:56,493
♪ You better start
To learn your lessons well! ♪

274
00:16:56,928 --> 00:16:57,929
David: Yeah!

275
00:16:58,104 --> 00:16:59,235
[crowd cheering]

276
00:16:59,409 --> 00:17:00,541
[applause]

277
00:17:00,715 --> 00:17:01,672
[David chuckles]

278
00:17:01,933 --> 00:17:03,196
Thank you. I did it!

279
00:17:05,894 --> 00:17:07,983
First professional job
I'd ever had,

280
00:17:08,157 --> 00:17:09,550
I don't...
I can't speak for Paul.

281
00:17:09,724 --> 00:17:11,073
- Was that the first...?
- Same for me, yeah.

282
00:17:11,247 --> 00:17:12,640
Gilda: Okay. Our first job...
[chuckles]

283
00:17:13,641 --> 00:17:15,817
And that company of people
actually--

284
00:17:15,991 --> 00:17:18,037
- There were some
really amazing people in there.
- Yeah.

285
00:17:20,952 --> 00:17:22,302
Martin: We called ours
the Friday nights.

286
00:17:22,476 --> 00:17:23,999
The Friday night services.

287
00:17:25,261 --> 00:17:27,611
And this was a group of people who gathered religiously

288
00:17:27,785 --> 00:17:31,746
at the rented home that Marty
and Eugene were sharing.

289
00:17:31,963 --> 00:17:34,053
The famous 1063 Avenue Road.

290
00:17:34,836 --> 00:17:36,490
Martin:
That became the party house.

291
00:17:36,838 --> 00:17:37,926
Two-thirty in the morning,

292
00:17:38,231 --> 00:17:40,189
of all of us doing tapes
and laughing,

293
00:17:40,668 --> 00:17:42,583
Paul would play,
I'd stand there

294
00:17:42,757 --> 00:17:44,498
I'd stand there
with a spoon, like a mic.

295
00:17:45,325 --> 00:17:46,891
Martin: Testing,
one, two, three.

296
00:17:47,066 --> 00:17:48,458
woman: Make a premise.

297
00:17:48,806 --> 00:17:49,981
Bob: You have no premise,
you just start...

298
00:17:50,156 --> 00:17:51,766
woman: Just start doing it.

299
00:17:52,027 --> 00:17:55,422
Martin: And our first contestant
is Miss Mary Quaint.

300
00:17:55,596 --> 00:17:57,511
- [woman laughing]
- Gilda: Hello, Bob.

301
00:17:57,685 --> 00:17:59,339
Martin: Why do you feel
that you are deserving

302
00:17:59,861 --> 00:18:01,515
of the title Queen for a Day?

303
00:18:01,906 --> 00:18:07,651
Gilda: Because my husband,
who was completely ruined...

304
00:18:07,869 --> 00:18:09,436
[all chuckling]

305
00:18:10,741 --> 00:18:12,917
...in an automotive accident.

306
00:18:13,222 --> 00:18:14,658
Martin: He's completely ruined.
Is he dead?

307
00:18:14,832 --> 00:18:16,747
Gilda: No, he's home
in three beds.

308
00:18:17,008 --> 00:18:19,489
[all laughing]

309
00:18:19,750 --> 00:18:22,927
Paul: They were some form
of power couple,

310
00:18:23,102 --> 00:18:24,799
but there was comedy power.

311
00:18:25,669 --> 00:18:27,454
They had figured out,
both of them,

312
00:18:27,628 --> 00:18:29,586
at such an early age...

313
00:18:30,587 --> 00:18:34,287
that to laugh
is the ultimate panacea,

314
00:18:35,026 --> 00:18:37,377
to the degree  that you can control anything.

315
00:18:38,639 --> 00:18:40,467
Martin: I was young enough
to think

316
00:18:40,728 --> 00:18:44,949
that if you were
as clever as Gilda was,

317
00:18:45,254 --> 00:18:47,648
and therefore,
blessed as Gilda was,

318
00:18:47,952 --> 00:18:50,825
then what would ever make you
unhappy about anything?

319
00:18:52,261 --> 00:18:55,395
You have family money,
everyone adores you,

320
00:18:56,135 --> 00:18:57,484
every guy falls in love
with you,

321
00:18:57,658 --> 00:18:59,355
and every girl wants you to be
her best friend.

322
00:19:00,313 --> 00:19:02,837
She would walk into the room...

323
00:19:04,186 --> 00:19:05,753
and all the energy
would go to her.

324
00:19:07,102 --> 00:19:08,756
And I think
that was her comfort zone.

325
00:19:10,236 --> 00:19:12,281
But she would have depressions

326
00:19:12,455 --> 00:19:15,154
and she would have
emotional uncertainties.

327
00:19:16,329 --> 00:19:18,983
And at 22 to her 26,

328
00:19:19,158 --> 00:19:23,074
I wasn't sophisticated enough to
understand that that was valid.

329
00:19:24,337 --> 00:19:25,686
Especially with creative people.

330
00:19:27,166 --> 00:19:28,645
And we would breakup,
get back together,

331
00:19:28,819 --> 00:19:30,038
Breakup, get back together.

332
00:19:30,386 --> 00:19:33,476
And then in July, we broke up.

333
00:19:34,042 --> 00:19:35,522
Again.

334
00:19:35,696 --> 00:19:36,958
That's when she went
to Second City.

335
00:19:39,656 --> 00:19:41,571
Paul: When the Second City
organization

336
00:19:41,745 --> 00:19:43,791
came to Toronto
in those early 70s,

337
00:19:43,965 --> 00:19:47,186
they had raided ourGodspell cast for their nightclub shows.

338
00:19:47,708 --> 00:19:48,752
[crowd chuckling]

339
00:19:48,926 --> 00:19:50,754
They would do sketches...

340
00:19:51,755 --> 00:19:54,584
and then the current set
would be just the improv set.

341
00:19:55,890 --> 00:19:58,501
Gilda: It's about the most
stressful thing
you could ever imagine.

342
00:19:59,154 --> 00:20:01,156
We're just frantic
behind stage. You kinda said,

343
00:20:01,330 --> 00:20:02,984
"Will you work with me?"
"Will you work with me?"

344
00:20:03,202 --> 00:20:05,291
The guys would wanna
work together,

345
00:20:05,508 --> 00:20:07,597
and the girls said,
"Okay, let's try to do
this idea this way."

346
00:20:08,076 --> 00:20:09,512
Then the guys would realize
they needed someone

347
00:20:09,686 --> 00:20:11,340
to serve the coffee
in the scene.

348
00:20:12,950 --> 00:20:15,126
Like, I never had the guts
to go out by myself.

349
00:20:15,823 --> 00:20:18,913
I used to have to drink
a beer and eat a bag of
potato chips first.

350
00:20:21,220 --> 00:20:24,048
When it came to improvisation,
she sometimes, you know,

351
00:20:24,223 --> 00:20:28,183
maybe wasn't as strong as, say,
a Dan Aykroyd or Joe Flaherty.

352
00:20:28,575 --> 00:20:30,054
But she always found a way

353
00:20:30,272 --> 00:20:32,056
to endear herself
to the audience.

354
00:20:33,144 --> 00:20:35,364
Gilda: I consider myself
a circus performer.

355
00:20:36,235 --> 00:20:38,454
Working without a net,
I'm on the tight rope.

356
00:20:38,933 --> 00:20:42,197
And if I'm bombing,  you're gonna see it in my face.

357
00:20:43,677 --> 00:20:45,287
And if they're not laughing,

358
00:20:45,548 --> 00:20:48,290
you do something, get louder,
you know, do anything.

359
00:20:49,857 --> 00:20:51,772
You're working
for the audience.

360
00:20:51,946 --> 00:20:53,252
[applause]

361
00:20:56,516 --> 00:20:59,258
And one day I got a phone call and it was John Belushi.

362
00:21:02,913 --> 00:21:04,524
[grunts]

363
00:21:06,134 --> 00:21:08,136
He said, "You know,
this is John Belushi.

364
00:21:08,310 --> 00:21:10,007
Do you wanna be the girl
in the show?"

365
00:21:10,356 --> 00:21:12,836
And I say it in those words
because that's what he needed,

366
00:21:13,054 --> 00:21:14,360
a girl to be in the show.

367
00:21:14,534 --> 00:21:16,057
- Who's gonna be the girl?
- man: This on?

368
00:21:16,797 --> 00:21:18,189
man 2: You be the girl.
Okay.

369
00:21:18,364 --> 00:21:19,278
[chuckles]

370
00:21:28,243 --> 00:21:30,071
Gilda: Humor comes out
of tension

371
00:21:30,289 --> 00:21:32,900
and there is no better center
for tension than New York.

372
00:21:35,424 --> 00:21:38,514
I think it certainly keeps
the comic mind active.

373
00:21:40,037 --> 00:21:42,475
I find the more leisurely
and pleasant my life is,

374
00:21:42,692 --> 00:21:43,954
the less funny I am.

375
00:21:45,826 --> 00:21:50,352
And now, The National Lampoon
Radio Hour,
Singles Bar of the Air.

376
00:21:50,744 --> 00:21:54,138
Our male listeners today
will now be approached
by Ellen Madderson.

377
00:21:54,313 --> 00:21:56,445
A dynamite chick who comes
to The National Lampoon
Radio Hour

378
00:21:56,619 --> 00:21:58,882
Singles Bar of the Air
every week.

379
00:21:59,056 --> 00:22:01,058
Always hoping to find
that perfect mate.

380
00:22:01,232 --> 00:22:02,669
Will that perfect mate be you?

381
00:22:02,930 --> 00:22:05,149
Listen to Ellen now,
as she says hello to you.

382
00:22:05,541 --> 00:22:09,284
Hiya, fella. I like to ride
my bike, take long walks,

383
00:22:09,458 --> 00:22:12,505
frolic on meadows
and run hand in hand
across moonlit beaches

384
00:22:12,679 --> 00:22:14,463
with my hair blowing behind me.

385
00:22:14,681 --> 00:22:16,073
Janis: These guys loved her.

386
00:22:16,639 --> 00:22:19,990
She didn't argue it. She wasn't
a... a feminist saying,

387
00:22:20,251 --> 00:22:22,863
"I insist", 'cause that
wasn't her personality.

388
00:22:23,733 --> 00:22:26,562
And they loved
when she would pitch stuff
'cause it always funny.

389
00:22:27,258 --> 00:22:30,610
But the guys weren't saying,
"Hey, let's think of a way
to put Gilda in the sketch."

390
00:22:30,784 --> 00:22:32,089
That was never part of it.

391
00:22:36,267 --> 00:22:38,313
Gilda: I found  that in the writing session...

392
00:22:39,270 --> 00:22:40,924
I couldn't always
get my ideas in.

393
00:22:41,098 --> 00:22:42,665
I'd have an idea but
I wouldn't say it fast enough

394
00:22:42,839 --> 00:22:44,145
and then one of the guys
would say it.

395
00:22:45,059 --> 00:22:48,105
So I said,
"Why don't I do the typing

396
00:22:48,279 --> 00:22:49,933
while you guys think
of the ideas?"

397
00:22:52,371 --> 00:22:55,504
So I put myself in this
little control position.

398
00:22:55,852 --> 00:22:57,680
I could get my idea
in there faster,

399
00:22:57,854 --> 00:22:59,987
'cause I was kinda running
how fast everything would go.

400
00:23:01,684 --> 00:23:05,296
Gilda: Okay, guys, you ready?
One, two, three, four.

401
00:23:05,906 --> 00:23:07,342
[music playing]

402
00:23:11,390 --> 00:23:17,221
♪ I'm a woman, I'm a human
I'm a sister ♪

403
00:23:17,483 --> 00:23:23,314
♪ I'm a sinner, I'm a person
I am me ♪

404
00:23:23,489 --> 00:23:26,230
Belushi was a teacher to me,
a mentor.

405
00:23:26,492 --> 00:23:29,843
And mostly,
he just made me laugh
like you couldn't imagine it.

406
00:23:30,017 --> 00:23:31,888
[music playing]

407
00:23:43,509 --> 00:23:46,381
Everything he did, his comedy, everything was suicidal.

408
00:23:47,295 --> 00:23:49,863
The way he ate,
the way he drank,
the way he walked.

409
00:23:50,211 --> 00:23:52,039
The way he... he moved.

410
00:23:53,170 --> 00:23:54,911
He was kamikaze comedy.

411
00:24:01,918 --> 00:24:04,921
Because all of us came
to New York to do the show,

412
00:24:05,095 --> 00:24:06,532
and he and his wife Judy,

413
00:24:06,836 --> 00:24:08,969
they looked out for us
like the mama and papa.

414
00:24:09,230 --> 00:24:11,450
You know,
they kinda took care of us.

415
00:24:18,239 --> 00:24:21,677
Janis: The Lampoon Show  seemed like a natural extension

416
00:24:21,851 --> 00:24:23,374
because they were having
so much fun

417
00:24:23,636 --> 00:24:25,072
doing theRadio Hour.

418
00:24:25,507 --> 00:24:26,856
Some people think
we get all our guns

419
00:24:27,030 --> 00:24:28,989
and ammunition free
from the Red Chinese.

420
00:24:29,468 --> 00:24:30,556
But that's not true.

421
00:24:31,034 --> 00:24:33,210
They cost money. A lot of money.

422
00:24:33,863 --> 00:24:36,126
And I can't get anymore
from my dad, that's for sure.

423
00:24:36,866 --> 00:24:39,347
Anyway, I've given up a life
of comfort and wealth,

424
00:24:39,869 --> 00:24:43,525
surely you can send something.
A dime, a dollar.

425
00:24:43,743 --> 00:24:45,266
A pair of socks,

426
00:24:45,614 --> 00:24:48,225
some 50 caliber tracer bullets
or whatever you can to...

427
00:24:48,399 --> 00:24:51,794
the Symbionese Liberation Army
that's the SLA in LA.

428
00:24:51,968 --> 00:24:54,667
Four-eighteen Fishman building,
Los Angeles, California.

429
00:24:55,624 --> 00:24:57,931
[jazz music playing]

430
00:25:07,984 --> 00:25:11,901
Gilda: I had learned
how to be more forceful
and get my ideas out.

431
00:25:12,989 --> 00:25:15,383
And the guys really did
support me.

432
00:25:15,949 --> 00:25:18,604
And I feel I was used
really well in the show.

433
00:25:25,132 --> 00:25:28,048
Paul: By this time, she was just
this underground sensation,

434
00:25:28,439 --> 00:25:31,530
and everybody knew about her,
including Lorne Michaels.

435
00:25:34,097 --> 00:25:36,665
Lorne: She was incredibly
comfortable on stage.

436
00:25:37,318 --> 00:25:40,190
I knew that she could do
almost anything,

437
00:25:40,364 --> 00:25:42,410
and also that she was
enormously likable.

438
00:25:42,758 --> 00:25:44,281
So I started with her.

439
00:25:45,674 --> 00:25:47,197
- Take nine.
- For what?

440
00:25:47,458 --> 00:25:49,330
Oh. [chuckles]

441
00:25:49,852 --> 00:25:51,680
Gilda: I was a real novice
in television
starting this job.

442
00:25:51,898 --> 00:25:53,247
man: Gilda Radnay!

443
00:25:53,595 --> 00:25:54,465
Ner.

444
00:25:54,988 --> 00:25:56,467
Ner... Gilda Radner.

445
00:25:58,339 --> 00:26:00,080
Paul: A lot of people were
from the theater,

446
00:26:00,341 --> 00:26:02,038
Lorne had hired them anyway,

447
00:26:02,212 --> 00:26:04,301
you know, and it was
her first television thing.

448
00:26:05,868 --> 00:26:07,696
Couple of minutes here with
the gang from Saturday Night

449
00:26:07,870 --> 00:26:11,352
which premiers here
on NBC at 11:30
on the 11th of October.

450
00:26:11,526 --> 00:26:13,789
Lorne Michaels is the producer.
How does it work?

451
00:26:14,137 --> 00:26:15,443
Well, we've got eight,

452
00:26:15,704 --> 00:26:18,228
and we're hoping
for two to really work.

453
00:26:18,533 --> 00:26:20,230
- [woman chuckles]
- So not all of these people

454
00:26:20,404 --> 00:26:22,972
will become stars...
Essentially, yes.

455
00:26:23,146 --> 00:26:26,019
Gilda: It was a strange time  because we were all very quiet.

456
00:26:26,323 --> 00:26:28,064
We didn't know who should speak

457
00:26:28,238 --> 00:26:30,110
'cause there were
so many of us on, you know.

458
00:26:30,284 --> 00:26:32,329
So, we were all polite and
waited for someone to speak.

459
00:26:33,722 --> 00:26:35,594
host: NBC'sSaturday Night!

460
00:26:39,249 --> 00:26:42,862
Gilda: In the first show,
I think I was on
a total of a minute.

461
00:26:44,951 --> 00:26:46,517
- Mister Bee.
- Yes?

462
00:26:46,692 --> 00:26:48,955
Congratulations, it's a worker!

463
00:26:49,259 --> 00:26:51,697
We weren't so hot
the first couple
of shows, you know.

464
00:26:51,871 --> 00:26:54,351
People were reading books
in the audience.

465
00:26:55,048 --> 00:26:57,224
But we were allowed to do
eight more,

466
00:26:57,441 --> 00:27:00,140
and somewhere
about the fifth or sixth show
something snapped.

467
00:27:00,314 --> 00:27:02,577
No, New Shimmer
is a dessert topping!

468
00:27:03,099 --> 00:27:06,494
- It's a floor wax!
- It's a dessert topping!

469
00:27:06,712 --> 00:27:08,452
It's a floor wax,
I'm telling you!

470
00:27:08,627 --> 00:27:10,106
It's a dessert topping, you cow!

471
00:27:10,367 --> 00:27:12,543
Hey, hey, hey!
Calm down, you two.

472
00:27:12,761 --> 00:27:15,024
New Shimmer is a floor wax
and a dessert topping.

473
00:27:15,198 --> 00:27:16,025
[crowd laughs]

474
00:27:17,940 --> 00:27:20,334
Gilda: Monday night we'd come in
and have a writer's meeting.

475
00:27:21,596 --> 00:27:23,467
And every idea was discussed.

476
00:27:24,120 --> 00:27:26,601
Then Tuesday night,
everyone stayed up all night

477
00:27:26,775 --> 00:27:28,690
'cause there was a read through on Wednesday.

478
00:27:29,735 --> 00:27:31,954
Rosie: Gilda threw
her whole self into it.

479
00:27:32,259 --> 00:27:36,350
It was not at all strange
to call Gilda and pick her brain
about something.

480
00:27:36,698 --> 00:27:39,353
And then her to come in
in her pajamas and a coat,

481
00:27:39,527 --> 00:27:41,485
and just come and sit
and write with us.

482
00:27:43,400 --> 00:27:45,185
Gilda: And we never
sit around here and say,

483
00:27:45,359 --> 00:27:48,405
"Gee, I wonder what the kids
are laughing at today."

484
00:27:49,232 --> 00:27:51,539
We make each other laugh.
We put it on the show.

485
00:27:51,757 --> 00:27:53,280
Jane: I can't-- I can't.

486
00:27:53,976 --> 00:27:57,414
- [laughing] Anymore. I can't.
- man: One more. One more.

487
00:27:58,372 --> 00:28:00,504
- But it strikes me funny, now.
- Gilda: Think of your dog
dying.

488
00:28:00,679 --> 00:28:02,724
- Think of your dog dying.
- Jane: My dog did die.

489
00:28:02,898 --> 00:28:05,161
- Gilda: All right.
- Think of your dog dying.

490
00:28:05,335 --> 00:28:09,165
[both laughing]

491
00:28:09,339 --> 00:28:11,777
...on Sunday when you leave
him at my house.

492
00:28:11,951 --> 00:28:12,995
[laughing]

493
00:28:14,127 --> 00:28:15,694
- Okay.
- Gilda: Oh, God.

494
00:28:16,651 --> 00:28:20,524
Amy: To be a woman on that show
was extremely different

495
00:28:20,699 --> 00:28:22,135
than it was when I was there.

496
00:28:22,875 --> 00:28:25,529
There was so much in the world

497
00:28:25,704 --> 00:28:29,359
that had yet to be carved out
for women,

498
00:28:29,577 --> 00:28:30,709
in not just comedy.

499
00:28:31,144 --> 00:28:33,407
I love being a fireman...

500
00:28:33,886 --> 00:28:36,366
Gilda: As those years went on
and the women's movement
changed so many things,

501
00:28:36,540 --> 00:28:39,282
that made me able
to reflect that in my comedy.

502
00:28:39,500 --> 00:28:42,111
Now, here are a few choice
facial expressions, you know,

503
00:28:42,285 --> 00:28:44,070
for when you're not on
a construction site.

504
00:28:44,723 --> 00:28:46,986
[crowd laughs]

505
00:28:47,421 --> 00:28:49,205
Rosie: When Lily was there,
Ann and I wrote a sketch
called "The Hard Hats".

506
00:28:49,379 --> 00:28:52,774
And Belushi didn't wanna touch
it, and Danny didn't want...

507
00:28:52,948 --> 00:28:55,777
they really didn't...
It was a switch.

508
00:28:55,951 --> 00:28:57,953
Strut your stuff
in front of Gilda.

509
00:28:58,127 --> 00:29:00,956
Rosie: Finally, Lorne twisted
Danny's arm to do it.
[chuckles]

510
00:29:01,174 --> 00:29:03,350
- Boom ba-ba! Boom ba-ba!
- [crowd laughs]

511
00:29:03,524 --> 00:29:05,482
[applause]

512
00:29:05,787 --> 00:29:07,441
Gilda: I suppose being
in the thick of it,

513
00:29:07,615 --> 00:29:10,226
I don't even realize
what strides we were making.

514
00:29:10,661 --> 00:29:11,880
But that's 'cause women were.

515
00:29:12,576 --> 00:29:14,361
[sighs] That was terrific.

516
00:29:15,405 --> 00:29:16,319
How was it for you?

517
00:29:16,798 --> 00:29:17,756
Okay.

518
00:29:19,453 --> 00:29:20,671
Was it just okay or was it...

519
00:29:22,021 --> 00:29:23,065
really okay, you know.

520
00:29:23,762 --> 00:29:25,024
Well, it was really just okay.

521
00:29:25,459 --> 00:29:27,417
[crowd laughs]

522
00:29:28,244 --> 00:29:29,637
Lorne: She and Chevy
were the first two people

523
00:29:29,811 --> 00:29:31,291
that the audience
connected with.

524
00:29:31,857 --> 00:29:34,642
Because they were essentially
playing a version of themselves.

525
00:29:34,816 --> 00:29:36,252
[applause]

526
00:29:36,426 --> 00:29:37,688
And now a new feature
on Saturday Night.

527
00:29:37,863 --> 00:29:39,603
"What Gilda Ate." Gilda.

528
00:29:40,039 --> 00:29:41,605
Thanks, Rob. Okay.

529
00:29:42,084 --> 00:29:44,478
I started the day
with one piece of dry toast

530
00:29:44,652 --> 00:29:47,481
and two egg whites scrambled
in a no-stick Teflon pan.

531
00:29:47,698 --> 00:29:49,657
Lorne: In the early days
of the show,

532
00:29:50,092 --> 00:29:53,748
I would put her out there
when there was no time
for a sketch.

533
00:29:53,922 --> 00:29:56,490
It was like four minutes
and I had two and a half,

534
00:29:56,664 --> 00:29:59,101
I could just put up a slide
that said "What Gilda Ate"

535
00:29:59,275 --> 00:30:01,669
and she could talk about it,
and be interesting about it.

536
00:30:01,843 --> 00:30:04,367
...but I didn't order dessert,
but on the way back
to the office

537
00:30:04,541 --> 00:30:07,544
I had a Fig Newton
and an almond dry candy bar.

538
00:30:07,849 --> 00:30:11,331
And then, when I got back
to the office I told everyone
I was going to the bathroom,

539
00:30:11,505 --> 00:30:13,246
but I really went
to a coffee shop

540
00:30:13,420 --> 00:30:15,378
and had apple pie à la mode,
and I ate the whole thing.

541
00:30:15,552 --> 00:30:18,468
And then on the way after work,
um, I went to a drugstore

542
00:30:18,642 --> 00:30:20,296
and bought
an M&M peanut munch bar...

543
00:30:20,470 --> 00:30:21,558
Thank you very much, Gilda.
That's enough. Thank you.

544
00:30:21,732 --> 00:30:23,212
- I'm not finished yet.
- I know,

545
00:30:23,386 --> 00:30:24,779
but we have to go on
with the show, I'm sorry.

546
00:30:24,953 --> 00:30:26,737
- I'll just go get a snack.
- [crowd laughs]

547
00:30:26,999 --> 00:30:28,609
Hi, I'm Gilda Radner.

548
00:30:29,001 --> 00:30:30,959
And-- Okay, now. [chuckles]

549
00:30:31,438 --> 00:30:32,743
[applause]

550
00:30:32,918 --> 00:30:34,180
[crowd cheering]

551
00:30:36,225 --> 00:30:37,487
I found that my comfort

552
00:30:37,661 --> 00:30:39,881
in live television
was laughter.

553
00:30:40,316 --> 00:30:43,363
That I can do almost anything
if people are laughing.

554
00:30:43,624 --> 00:30:46,409
That's what hugs me
and holds me
and gets things out of me.

555
00:30:46,583 --> 00:30:50,065
Live from New York,
it's Saturday Night!

556
00:30:50,239 --> 00:30:52,111
[crowd cheering, applause]

557
00:30:52,285 --> 00:30:53,764
Rosie: She loved to be loved.

558
00:30:53,982 --> 00:30:56,985
And she saw
that being on the air

559
00:30:57,377 --> 00:30:59,335
was like adrenaline,

560
00:30:59,509 --> 00:31:02,382
and she developed characters
quick.

561
00:31:02,948 --> 00:31:04,601
man: You really like that soup,
don't you?

562
00:31:04,819 --> 00:31:06,125
Uh-huh.

563
00:31:06,299 --> 00:31:09,258
More than anything
in the whole wide world!

564
00:31:09,737 --> 00:31:11,086
Gilda: A lot of my characters

565
00:31:11,260 --> 00:31:12,696
had a lot to do with
growing up.

566
00:31:14,916 --> 00:31:17,049
I am so bored!

567
00:31:18,224 --> 00:31:19,660
Because...

568
00:31:20,313 --> 00:31:21,270
my...

569
00:31:21,967 --> 00:31:27,973
room is the boring room
of the world!

570
00:31:28,321 --> 00:31:29,670
[crowd laughs]

571
00:31:29,844 --> 00:31:31,802
Judy Miller was
the child in me,

572
00:31:32,194 --> 00:31:34,849
no doubt about it,
and it was a great freedom.

573
00:31:35,023 --> 00:31:39,288
You cannot tell me! Oh, no!
That's the graduation. No!

574
00:31:39,767 --> 00:31:43,031
In a sense, it might be  some defiance about growing up,

575
00:31:43,379 --> 00:31:47,383
or fear of it, not wanting
to emulate grownups.

576
00:31:47,557 --> 00:31:50,473
[yelling]

577
00:31:50,647 --> 00:31:52,998
woman: Judy, what's going on
up there?

578
00:31:54,956 --> 00:31:58,655
[crowd laughs]

579
00:31:58,873 --> 00:31:59,874
Nothing.

580
00:32:01,571 --> 00:32:03,356
host: Where did Emily Litella
come from?

581
00:32:03,791 --> 00:32:05,227
Oh, right from a...

582
00:32:05,488 --> 00:32:07,447
a lady who lives in
Stoney Creek, Ontario.

583
00:32:07,621 --> 00:32:09,405
Can I say hello? Oh, I will.

584
00:32:09,666 --> 00:32:11,668
Oh, I'm sorry, Lorne.
[chuckles]

585
00:32:11,886 --> 00:32:12,887
Hello to Dibby.

586
00:32:13,540 --> 00:32:15,498
She's Mrs. Gillies who
raised me

587
00:32:15,672 --> 00:32:17,674
and she's Emily Litella.

588
00:32:18,197 --> 00:32:20,721
She has all those difficulties Emily does.

589
00:32:20,895 --> 00:32:23,419
What's all this fuss
I keep hearing

590
00:32:23,637 --> 00:32:28,511
about the 1976
Presidential erection?

591
00:32:28,685 --> 00:32:29,991
[crowd laughs]

592
00:32:30,383 --> 00:32:32,602
Emily is very hard of hearing.

593
00:32:33,429 --> 00:32:36,389
And, um, she's always
getting things wrong.

594
00:32:36,824 --> 00:32:38,086
Sorry, that's election.

595
00:32:39,087 --> 00:32:41,002
The editorial was
about the Presidential election,

596
00:32:41,220 --> 00:32:42,656
not Presidential erection.

597
00:32:43,396 --> 00:32:44,440
- Election.
- Oh.

598
00:32:44,614 --> 00:32:46,268
- That's very different.
- Yes.

599
00:32:47,095 --> 00:32:49,358
- Never mind.
- [crowd laughs]

600
00:32:49,576 --> 00:32:51,360
Chevy:
The crowd just adored her.

601
00:32:51,534 --> 00:32:53,928
I mean, how many people play
an old lady,

602
00:32:54,102 --> 00:32:57,279
you know, on a show,
when they can be thought of as

603
00:32:57,497 --> 00:32:59,499
young, and sexy and vibrant,
you know.

604
00:32:59,890 --> 00:33:01,370
No, Gilda went for it.

605
00:33:01,544 --> 00:33:04,591
And I promise, from now on
I will do my best.

606
00:33:04,939 --> 00:33:05,766
See that you do.

607
00:33:06,071 --> 00:33:07,072
Bitch.

608
00:33:07,246 --> 00:33:08,987
[crowd laughs]

609
00:33:09,900 --> 00:33:12,468
Gilda: I was the first one to ever say bitch on television and the censors let me do it,

610
00:33:12,642 --> 00:33:15,384
'cause they said, "Well,
it was a nice, sweet,
old lady saying it."

611
00:33:15,776 --> 00:33:18,605
[music playing]

612
00:33:18,866 --> 00:33:21,173
I only named those people
for television.

613
00:33:22,609 --> 00:33:24,741
And I put outfits on them
for television.

614
00:33:24,959 --> 00:33:27,527
But they've always been
inside me.

615
00:33:29,442 --> 00:33:33,141
After I'm done
being interviewed all day,  I go right into Emily Litella.

616
00:33:33,837 --> 00:33:37,015
I can hardly walk,
I can't lie down.
Everything's stiff.

617
00:33:38,581 --> 00:33:42,150
Or if I have a cold,
or whenever I'm sick,
I'm Lisa Loopner.

618
00:33:42,324 --> 00:33:45,806
She's the one that I
most often will slip into

619
00:33:45,980 --> 00:33:47,460
because she doesn't care
what she looks like.

620
00:33:48,591 --> 00:33:50,115
Yeah, I basically stole

621
00:33:50,289 --> 00:33:52,769
pretty much, almost all
of my characters from Gilda.

622
00:33:53,335 --> 00:33:55,990
Myself and another writer
Emily Spivey,
would sit in our office

623
00:33:56,164 --> 00:33:57,861
and just look
at old Gilda sketches

624
00:33:58,036 --> 00:34:00,473
and talk about how amazing
she was. And then,

625
00:34:01,169 --> 00:34:05,478
just do very weak 2.0 versions
of what she did. [chuckles]

626
00:34:06,435 --> 00:34:09,699
Melissa: I think Gilda used  every single part of her being.

627
00:34:10,004 --> 00:34:11,571
Depending on what
she was playing,

628
00:34:11,745 --> 00:34:13,529
her posture changed,
her neck changed. Like, she--

629
00:34:13,703 --> 00:34:16,967
There was a lot of like,
head and neck thing
she would do.

630
00:34:17,316 --> 00:34:19,840
And sometimes I wonder
if it's why I'm so physical,

631
00:34:20,014 --> 00:34:23,452
because I grew up really  just watching her so intensely.

632
00:34:24,366 --> 00:34:27,282
Bill: Everything she did,
you could tell she was having
a lot of fun.

633
00:34:27,804 --> 00:34:30,677
And I just... I just went, God,
if I can get to that place,

634
00:34:30,894 --> 00:34:33,984
'cause when I started SNL,
I was a nervous wreck
for four years.

635
00:34:34,550 --> 00:34:37,205
I was like, "How do I
just relax to where
I can get to that?"

636
00:34:41,731 --> 00:34:43,777
Gilda: There's always a moment
before I go on.

637
00:34:44,299 --> 00:34:46,258
"I'm gonna get out there,
I'm gonna fall apart.

638
00:34:47,302 --> 00:34:49,913
I'm gonna fall over  and I won't be able to do it."

639
00:34:50,653 --> 00:34:53,221
And then,
right before I have to go on,

640
00:34:53,743 --> 00:34:56,746
- I can't wait to go on.
- [applause]

641
00:34:57,007 --> 00:35:01,099
♪ La cucaracha, La cucaracha
La la la la la♪

642
00:35:01,534 --> 00:35:04,145
It's like every Saturday
I've done an opening night

643
00:35:04,319 --> 00:35:06,452
of an under-rehearsed
off Broadway show.

644
00:35:06,713 --> 00:35:08,628
You're not too bright,
are you, Fern?

645
00:35:08,889 --> 00:35:09,803
I mean...

646
00:35:10,369 --> 00:35:12,240
[chuckles]
whatever your name was.

647
00:35:12,501 --> 00:35:15,722
[crowd laughs]

648
00:35:16,940 --> 00:35:18,594
- Lisa.
- [chuckles]

649
00:35:19,029 --> 00:35:21,858
As a matter of fact,
you're extremely stupid.

650
00:35:22,250 --> 00:35:26,080
Well, you're right, Fern,
you know? And I'm proud of it.

651
00:35:26,298 --> 00:35:27,299
[crowd laughs]

652
00:35:28,038 --> 00:35:32,130
You know, we all can't be brainy
like Fern here.

653
00:35:32,304 --> 00:35:33,740
[crowd laughs]

654
00:35:33,957 --> 00:35:36,569
Tragedy struck the world
of show business this week

655
00:35:36,743 --> 00:35:40,050
when TV personality
Howdy Doody committed suicide

656
00:35:40,225 --> 00:35:42,052
on Thursday
in his Beverly Hills home.

657
00:35:42,662 --> 00:35:45,360
Few people knew that Doody
had a wife.

658
00:35:46,274 --> 00:35:48,537
- Debbie Doody.
- [crowd laughs]

659
00:35:49,364 --> 00:35:53,368
I see she's approaching me
right now. Howdy, Debbie?

660
00:35:54,543 --> 00:35:56,893
- [chuckling]
- Oh, I'm so sorry.

661
00:35:57,067 --> 00:35:59,940
Gilda: No laughs at all.
It was quiet in the studio.

662
00:36:00,114 --> 00:36:01,768
...what's in the future
for Debbie Doody?

663
00:36:02,334 --> 00:36:04,074
I don't know.

664
00:36:04,727 --> 00:36:05,989
I didn't know what to do
and I knew the camera
was on both of us,

665
00:36:06,164 --> 00:36:07,469
so I just flung myself
on Laraine.

666
00:36:08,078 --> 00:36:09,689
Moment of grief.

667
00:36:10,516 --> 00:36:11,865
Thank you. Thank you.

668
00:36:12,039 --> 00:36:13,388
Back to you, Jane.

669
00:36:16,609 --> 00:36:19,046
[music playing]

670
00:36:21,440 --> 00:36:23,616
Gilda: The harder I tried
to do something well,

671
00:36:23,877 --> 00:36:25,008
the funnier it was.

672
00:36:25,226 --> 00:36:26,880
[crowd laughs]

673
00:36:27,054 --> 00:36:29,230
[applause]

674
00:36:30,753 --> 00:36:32,407
We were trying to be
the best we could

675
00:36:32,581 --> 00:36:34,844
but because it was
the two of us

676
00:36:35,105 --> 00:36:37,586
without all the skills
and the training,

677
00:36:38,108 --> 00:36:39,371
it came out funny.

678
00:36:42,591 --> 00:36:43,853
Lorne: She was an athlete,

679
00:36:44,071 --> 00:36:46,769
and she was really gifted,
physically.

680
00:36:46,943 --> 00:36:48,162
[crowd laughs]

681
00:36:48,380 --> 00:36:49,337
[man groans]

682
00:36:51,034 --> 00:36:51,992
Candy, baby.

683
00:36:53,298 --> 00:36:54,734
Amy: When she played
Candy Slice,

684
00:36:54,908 --> 00:36:56,997
basing her character
on Patti Smith,

685
00:36:57,432 --> 00:36:59,129
she just committed really hard.

686
00:36:59,304 --> 00:37:00,827
♪ Ahh ♪

687
00:37:01,001 --> 00:37:05,179
♪ I'm your biggest
Fucked up fan ♪

688
00:37:05,832 --> 00:37:10,358
♪ The rock man
And roll man ♪

689
00:37:12,012 --> 00:37:13,579
♪ Till I'm sick! ♪

690
00:37:14,493 --> 00:37:15,494
[burps]

691
00:37:15,668 --> 00:37:17,496
[applause]

692
00:37:20,194 --> 00:37:23,284
Gilda: There's a real strong
familial affection...

693
00:37:24,329 --> 00:37:25,591
in this group of people.

694
00:37:26,505 --> 00:37:28,855
I mean, we yell at each other
and scream at each other,

695
00:37:29,290 --> 00:37:31,945
we make each other cry.
Make each other laugh.

696
00:37:34,252 --> 00:37:36,079
We see each other
outside of work.

697
00:37:39,387 --> 00:37:41,737
Laraine: We were
the unholy three, I suppose.

698
00:37:42,695 --> 00:37:44,218
But also we were the good girls.

699
00:37:44,392 --> 00:37:46,264
The boys were late,
the girls were on time.

700
00:37:47,265 --> 00:37:49,136
Chevy: Oh my God,
it was so much fun.

701
00:37:50,093 --> 00:37:51,138
We were all family.

702
00:37:51,878 --> 00:37:53,619
Mostly due to John hating me.

703
00:37:53,923 --> 00:37:56,578
He's like a little brother
hating his big brother.

704
00:37:57,710 --> 00:38:00,365
Gilda: Part of Lorne's
overall plan

705
00:38:00,974 --> 00:38:03,106
was to keep us innocent.

706
00:38:03,672 --> 00:38:06,458
And keep us the underdogs
of television.

707
00:38:11,376 --> 00:38:13,421
We were working so hard
all the time

708
00:38:13,595 --> 00:38:16,337
that we were very insulated
from the success.

709
00:38:17,817 --> 00:38:23,083
Yee-hoo! Live from Mardi Gras,
it's Saturday Night.

710
00:38:23,562 --> 00:38:25,303
[crowd cheering]

711
00:38:25,912 --> 00:38:27,696
[music playing]

712
00:38:29,263 --> 00:38:31,047
narrator: NBCSaturday Night.

713
00:38:32,135 --> 00:38:33,789
Anne: We were mobbed
in New Orleans.

714
00:38:34,312 --> 00:38:38,011
It became such a thing,
they had to reroute the parade

715
00:38:38,185 --> 00:38:41,449
because they were
so many people in front
of where the TV cameras

716
00:38:41,623 --> 00:38:43,669
were gonna be that they
couldn't get through.

717
00:38:44,104 --> 00:38:46,062
Gilda: Hi! Oh, hello.

718
00:38:46,236 --> 00:38:47,107
Hello!

719
00:38:47,281 --> 00:38:48,238
[crowd cheering]

720
00:38:49,805 --> 00:38:51,981
Anne: And Gilda particularly
was vulnerable.

721
00:38:52,155 --> 00:38:54,984
I remember some drunken college student like, jumped on her.

722
00:38:56,203 --> 00:38:57,552
And she had to wear a mask

723
00:38:57,726 --> 00:38:59,554
in order to
get through the crowds.

724
00:39:01,251 --> 00:39:02,252
So...

725
00:39:02,775 --> 00:39:04,385
you know, at that point,

726
00:39:04,559 --> 00:39:06,605
they realized
that they were, like, famous.

727
00:39:08,215 --> 00:39:10,652
[indistinct chatter]

728
00:39:10,826 --> 00:39:15,135
Gilda: We all were miraculously
made into celebrities.

729
00:39:18,138 --> 00:39:21,576
All of a sudden, I came back
from summer vacation
and people knew who I was.

730
00:39:22,795 --> 00:39:25,841
The ratings that had been
Carson repeats,
turned in from what,

731
00:39:26,015 --> 00:39:28,627
two million into five million
Americans now watch

732
00:39:28,801 --> 00:39:31,717
- on a... on a Saturday night.
- Thirty, 30 million.

733
00:39:32,152 --> 00:39:34,197
- Thirty million?
- [chuckles]

734
00:40:12,975 --> 00:40:14,760
Janis: Gilda knew more people.

735
00:40:15,848 --> 00:40:17,197
She had more friends.

736
00:40:17,893 --> 00:40:20,113
But she was hungry
for a relationship.

737
00:40:21,375 --> 00:40:26,815
Gilda came down to New York,
dating Brian Doyle-Murray.

738
00:40:27,120 --> 00:40:30,166
And then she started dating
Billy Murray.

739
00:40:32,168 --> 00:40:35,041
Oh! This is really beautiful,
Todd.

740
00:40:35,215 --> 00:40:36,782
It's a wrist corsage.

741
00:40:36,999 --> 00:40:39,262
Anne: Todd and Lisa
uncannily mirrored

742
00:40:39,611 --> 00:40:41,569
the Bill, Gilda relationship,

743
00:40:41,743 --> 00:40:44,442
which was
slightly sadomasochistic.

744
00:40:45,181 --> 00:40:46,879
- [screams]
- [laughs]

745
00:40:47,096 --> 00:40:48,924
Noogie patrol!

746
00:40:49,925 --> 00:40:51,840
Rosie: We would try to leave it
a little loose,

747
00:40:52,014 --> 00:40:54,016
so that there was room
for them to play.

748
00:40:56,802 --> 00:41:00,458
[crowd laughs]

749
00:41:05,245 --> 00:41:07,290
Anne: One of the things
that was a factor,
that was difficult,

750
00:41:07,465 --> 00:41:10,555
was that he had
a longtime girlfriend
on and off,

751
00:41:10,859 --> 00:41:12,687
and she would
show up periodically

752
00:41:12,861 --> 00:41:14,820
and Gilda would
fall into a depression.

753
00:41:16,082 --> 00:41:19,477
Gilda used to say
it was really hard for her
to see Ghostbusters

754
00:41:19,738 --> 00:41:21,522
because every single guy
in the movie

755
00:41:21,696 --> 00:41:23,350
had been her boyfriend
at one time or another.

756
00:41:24,090 --> 00:41:27,180
Harold, Bill Murray,
Dan Aykroyd,

757
00:41:27,397 --> 00:41:28,703
but not Rick Moranis.

758
00:41:28,921 --> 00:41:30,400
- Oh.
- No. No.

759
00:41:31,967 --> 00:41:35,580
Laraine: I remember
she was involved  with a very good-looking actor.

760
00:41:36,406 --> 00:41:38,670
She called him a "Clit Snipper".

761
00:41:38,974 --> 00:41:40,889
And I went, "What the hell?"
And she's like,

762
00:41:41,063 --> 00:41:42,500
"You know,
there's like a ball buster,

763
00:41:43,065 --> 00:41:46,721
he was a clit snipper."
I was like, "Oh, God. Man!"

764
00:41:47,374 --> 00:41:50,029
Janis: I think that Gilda
didn't have an opportunity

765
00:41:50,203 --> 00:41:51,421
to meet the shy guys
in the corner.

766
00:41:51,596 --> 00:41:52,727
She never was around them.

767
00:41:53,598 --> 00:41:55,730
And she was very needy.

768
00:41:57,340 --> 00:41:59,604
And I don't know that
that was something
that guys want.

769
00:42:00,474 --> 00:42:02,911
Or that at least the guys
that she went after wanted.

770
00:42:23,018 --> 00:42:24,846
Gilda: I can't tell
if guys are looking at me

771
00:42:25,020 --> 00:42:28,589
'cause I'm a girl
and maybe just attractive,

772
00:42:28,807 --> 00:42:31,157
or they're just looking at me
'cause they recognize me
from the show,

773
00:42:31,374 --> 00:42:33,289
and I'll maybe
never know again.

774
00:42:37,511 --> 00:42:40,514
Cecily: "Being funny got me
famous, and being famous

775
00:42:40,688 --> 00:42:43,430
is almost as bad for dating
as being funny.

776
00:42:44,257 --> 00:42:46,302
First of all, I had to work
every Saturday night,

777
00:42:46,564 --> 00:42:48,653
and most guys figure
you're too busy for dating,

778
00:42:48,827 --> 00:42:52,439
or already dating someone,
or so glamorous
you don't even have a phone."

779
00:42:53,701 --> 00:42:55,050
Melissa: One little note card
just says,

780
00:42:55,224 --> 00:42:56,661
"You look different
in real life."

781
00:42:57,966 --> 00:43:00,534
It's always a strange thing
to hear, you're like,
I look like me.

782
00:43:00,969 --> 00:43:04,451
You look different.
You look so much better.

783
00:43:04,886 --> 00:43:07,323
Or like, has anyone
ever told you, you look
like a pretty Amy Poehler?

784
00:43:08,368 --> 00:43:10,500
"I'm going to tell you
the most embarrassing thing

785
00:43:10,675 --> 00:43:12,285
that's ever happened to me
because I think people
like to know

786
00:43:12,459 --> 00:43:15,070
that celebrities
get embarrassed
just like everyone else.

787
00:43:15,244 --> 00:43:16,855
I was leaving dinner
in a small restaurant

788
00:43:17,029 --> 00:43:18,683
with a gentleman
that I had a huge crush on.

789
00:43:18,857 --> 00:43:20,728
It happened to be
the first day of..."
[mumbles]

790
00:43:20,989 --> 00:43:23,601
Oh! [chuckles] It's a period!
Period story!

791
00:43:24,079 --> 00:43:25,994
Maya: "After I had
a physical examination

792
00:43:26,255 --> 00:43:29,519
the lab sent me the results
of my blood tests
and urine sample,

793
00:43:29,694 --> 00:43:32,392
attached to the reports
was a note, saying..."

794
00:43:32,566 --> 00:43:35,395
Mellisa: "Dear Gilda,  I'm a big fan, I wanted to take this opportunity to say

795
00:43:35,569 --> 00:43:37,615
that it was an honor
analyzing your urine.

796
00:43:38,485 --> 00:43:40,313
Sincerely, Thomas Owen."

797
00:43:40,530 --> 00:43:41,575
Tom.

798
00:43:42,228 --> 00:43:44,317
I'm sure
that's not ethically okay.

799
00:43:45,405 --> 00:43:50,105
And I love that she clearly
found it hilarious,
because she saved it.

800
00:43:52,412 --> 00:43:58,331
Gilda: Success and celebrity-dom doesn't quite go with comedy...

801
00:43:59,332 --> 00:44:01,595
'cause there's something
about being an underdog

802
00:44:02,117 --> 00:44:06,426
and a voyeur
that makes comedy possible.

803
00:44:07,949 --> 00:44:11,300
And so, how do you keep on
looking at what's going on

804
00:44:11,649 --> 00:44:15,348
if suddenly everyone's looking at you, and make that funny?

805
00:44:16,697 --> 00:44:19,700
Next, seven. Come right here.
Okay. It'll be a dollar.

806
00:44:20,048 --> 00:44:23,095
Dollar, thank you very much.
One dollar, great.

807
00:44:23,356 --> 00:44:26,925
[music playing]

808
00:44:27,099 --> 00:44:29,188
Welcome to my house.

809
00:44:33,279 --> 00:44:35,107
You have just come
through my door

810
00:44:35,455 --> 00:44:38,850
and you are now standing
in my living room.

811
00:44:39,807 --> 00:44:43,071
I have lived in this apartment
for two years.

812
00:44:43,332 --> 00:44:45,683
You will be here
approximately five minutes.

813
00:44:45,857 --> 00:44:48,816
Come on, come on, this way.
This way. That's right.
Let's go, let's go. Move it.

814
00:44:49,034 --> 00:44:50,949
I wanted to invite you
to look up here,

815
00:44:51,210 --> 00:44:53,386
where I have the actual
Gilda Radner,

816
00:44:53,603 --> 00:44:55,736
buy anything you want section
of my home.

817
00:44:55,954 --> 00:44:57,825
And here, a terrific,

818
00:44:58,130 --> 00:45:01,960
reproduction of a poster
of Roseanne Roseannadanna.

819
00:45:02,134 --> 00:45:04,702
And that's a steal
at 15 dollars.

820
00:45:07,966 --> 00:45:10,055
I think when I first
went on television,

821
00:45:10,446 --> 00:45:11,839
I didn't have Roseanne in me.

822
00:45:12,579 --> 00:45:16,104
She came out of living
and coping with New York.

823
00:45:17,105 --> 00:45:19,804
We were doing a parody
that Rosie Shuster wrote.

824
00:45:20,021 --> 00:45:23,155
And my character
was supposed to work
in a hamburger joint.

825
00:45:23,372 --> 00:45:25,679
I was fired from my job
making burgers

826
00:45:25,853 --> 00:45:27,942
in the back kitchen
at Burgerland

827
00:45:28,116 --> 00:45:31,729
because a lot of costumers
complained about hair
in their burgers.

828
00:45:31,903 --> 00:45:33,252
[crowd laughs]

829
00:45:33,948 --> 00:45:36,646
There was a wig in the back,
so I put that wig on

830
00:45:36,821 --> 00:45:39,954
and everybody said,
"That wig's too big,
the chroma key is making it

831
00:45:40,128 --> 00:45:42,522
go..."
You know, it wasn't good.

832
00:45:42,740 --> 00:45:44,959
And everyone's yelling at me.  I said, "Yeah, but it's funny. Let me wear this."

833
00:45:45,612 --> 00:45:48,310
There's a lot worse things
that could be in burgers.

834
00:45:48,484 --> 00:45:50,617
[crowd laughs]

835
00:45:52,053 --> 00:45:53,707
So then I went into
Alan Zweibel,

836
00:45:53,881 --> 00:45:55,840
who's like
in charge of update.

837
00:45:56,841 --> 00:45:59,669
Alan: We would go to  restaurants with pads and pens

838
00:46:00,061 --> 00:46:01,541
and you know,
think of something

839
00:46:01,715 --> 00:46:03,021
and just start writing.

840
00:46:03,412 --> 00:46:06,111
She would call the first draft
"The vomit draft",

841
00:46:06,328 --> 00:46:10,071
you just vomit it out and then
you start picking out the corn.

842
00:46:11,029 --> 00:46:13,335
Gilda: Why not have somebody
come on the news, you know,

843
00:46:13,640 --> 00:46:16,077
a woman come on
and just be like gross,

844
00:46:16,251 --> 00:46:17,687
which is very close to my
sense of humor.

845
00:46:17,862 --> 00:46:19,080
Gross pig humor.

846
00:46:19,820 --> 00:46:21,648
Alan: She would just act it out
in front of me

847
00:46:21,822 --> 00:46:24,433
and then would actually ad-lib or improv things,

848
00:46:24,607 --> 00:46:25,957
that were better
than anything I thought of.

849
00:46:26,131 --> 00:46:27,785
[crowd cheering]

850
00:46:28,394 --> 00:46:31,397
A Mr. Richard Fanner
from Farlane, New Jersey,
writes in and says,

851
00:46:31,745 --> 00:46:37,142
"Dear Roseanne Roseannadanna,
last Thursday, I quit smoking.

852
00:46:37,359 --> 00:46:39,884
Now, I'm depressed,
I gained weight,

853
00:46:40,058 --> 00:46:42,843
my face broke out,
I'm nauseous, I'm constipated,

854
00:46:43,017 --> 00:46:45,019
my feet swelled,
my gums are bleeding,

855
00:46:45,193 --> 00:46:48,370
my sinuses are clogged,
I got heartburn,
I'm cranky and I have gas."

856
00:46:48,631 --> 00:46:49,589
[crowd laughs]

857
00:46:49,763 --> 00:46:50,764
"What should I do?"

858
00:46:52,287 --> 00:46:55,725
Mr. Fanner, you sound
like a real attractive guy.

859
00:46:55,900 --> 00:46:57,379
[crowd laughs]

860
00:46:57,771 --> 00:46:59,468
You belong in New Jersey.

861
00:46:59,642 --> 00:47:01,035
[crowd laughs]

862
00:47:02,297 --> 00:47:04,734
Alan: Roseanne Roseannadanna
was probably

863
00:47:04,909 --> 00:47:08,260
the most popular thing
that came from our brains.

864
00:47:09,087 --> 00:47:10,653
- Gilda Radner.
- [crowd cheering]

865
00:47:11,045 --> 00:47:13,134
[applause]

866
00:47:23,014 --> 00:47:24,580
Thank you.

867
00:47:24,754 --> 00:47:28,193
Like, my dressing room at NBC,
I share this with...

868
00:47:29,063 --> 00:47:31,805
with Laraine Newman
and Jane Curtin.

869
00:47:32,414 --> 00:47:34,721
[music playing]

870
00:47:54,828 --> 00:47:58,353
Laraine: We got
our own secretaries
to deal with the fan mail.

871
00:47:58,788 --> 00:48:02,183
And you know, some people
had management,
and they were working for them,

872
00:48:02,357 --> 00:48:04,098
they have something
outside of the show.

873
00:48:05,491 --> 00:48:08,189
Rosie: Everybody knew
that this funny Camelot

874
00:48:08,407 --> 00:48:10,626
was gonna disband in some way.

875
00:48:11,018 --> 00:48:12,585
People were getting
pretty burned out.

876
00:48:13,760 --> 00:48:17,111
woman: John and Dan were off
doingThe Blues Brothers.

877
00:48:17,503 --> 00:48:20,636
I think that more demands
were made on Gilda,

878
00:48:20,810 --> 00:48:22,160
and so I think she was

879
00:48:22,464 --> 00:48:25,467
under more stress
as a result of that.

880
00:48:26,120 --> 00:48:28,122
man: Do you have
your own aspirations
as where you wanna go,

881
00:48:28,296 --> 00:48:29,863
what directions
you wanna move in?

882
00:48:30,429 --> 00:48:32,083
Gilda: That's something
I'm having trouble with
right now.

883
00:48:32,605 --> 00:48:33,519
To be...

884
00:48:34,215 --> 00:48:36,043
completely honest,
I don't know.

885
00:48:36,783 --> 00:48:38,916
There's days
when I'm very dissatisfied.

886
00:48:40,395 --> 00:48:42,528
And I think, what's next?
And what should I do?

887
00:48:43,921 --> 00:48:46,227
You know, if all of us
started thinking
about the future

888
00:48:46,401 --> 00:48:49,056
and got ambitious,
and all that stuff,  then the show would fall apart.

889
00:48:50,231 --> 00:48:52,494
And they keep us
so running ragged here

890
00:48:52,668 --> 00:48:54,192
that there's not much time
to think about.

891
00:48:56,324 --> 00:48:57,847
Welcome to Woman to Woman.

892
00:48:58,805 --> 00:49:00,633
Hello, Paula baby.

893
00:49:00,807 --> 00:49:02,809
This is Baba Wawa speaking
to you live--

894
00:49:02,983 --> 00:49:04,332
[screaming]

895
00:49:04,506 --> 00:49:06,204
man: Colleen Fernville!

896
00:49:06,378 --> 00:49:07,509
[sobbing]

897
00:49:07,683 --> 00:49:09,468
Hi, Susie. I'm sorry I left.

898
00:49:09,685 --> 00:49:10,773
We've been drugged.

899
00:49:13,080 --> 00:49:14,995
Paul: That was stressful
for Gilda.

900
00:49:15,256 --> 00:49:17,563
Certainly remember
once her saying,
"I'm just one person."

901
00:49:23,482 --> 00:49:25,832
[applause]

902
00:49:26,964 --> 00:49:28,748
You want another vodka and tab?

903
00:49:29,357 --> 00:49:34,145
No. I don't... I don't think so.
I think that 12 is my limit.

904
00:49:34,884 --> 00:49:37,191
Yeah, well, I think my limit's
about a thousand.

905
00:49:38,105 --> 00:49:40,368
Gilda: There was a time
in my life
onSaturday Night Live

906
00:49:40,542 --> 00:49:43,763
when nothing in our personal
lives was sacred.

907
00:49:43,937 --> 00:49:46,113
I read
in the National Enquirer...

908
00:49:47,767 --> 00:49:49,943
that the Food
and Drug administration

909
00:49:50,117 --> 00:49:53,077
was considering banning
saccharin from the market.

910
00:49:54,600 --> 00:49:55,644
I nearly died.

911
00:49:56,080 --> 00:49:58,169
[crowd laughs]

912
00:49:58,734 --> 00:50:00,867
If you could find a joke,
so what if your whole world
was falling apart?

913
00:50:01,041 --> 00:50:02,390
[applause]

914
00:50:37,817 --> 00:50:41,386
Judy: I think that the pressure
for her to be so thin

915
00:50:41,560 --> 00:50:43,997
to be on television
was enormous.

916
00:50:45,085 --> 00:50:46,478
She had to be able to eat

917
00:50:47,000 --> 00:50:49,350
because that was a way
that she got love,

918
00:50:49,524 --> 00:50:52,788
or, you know, where she needed to fill that emotional void.

919
00:50:55,791 --> 00:50:59,708
And in order to be thin,
she'd have to, you know,
find some way to handle it.

920
00:51:01,928 --> 00:51:04,235
Janis: She'd be hysterically
funny

921
00:51:04,452 --> 00:51:07,151
talking about standing in front of the refrigerator
and shoveling food

922
00:51:07,325 --> 00:51:08,369
and how much she ate.

923
00:51:10,023 --> 00:51:12,634
I don't even think we knew
the words eating disorder,

924
00:51:13,244 --> 00:51:14,897
or bulimia, or anorexia.

925
00:51:16,551 --> 00:51:18,423
Judy: Although we were worried
about her,

926
00:51:18,727 --> 00:51:21,295
I didn't feel like I could
broach the subject.

927
00:51:22,949 --> 00:51:25,647
Janis: She never said, "Help me", to anybody I knew.

928
00:51:27,084 --> 00:51:31,088
And I suspect somebody
walked her into the hospital.

929
00:53:04,093 --> 00:53:07,401
man: I need Laraine
and John please.
Laraine and John.

930
00:53:09,534 --> 00:53:11,971
Lorne:
Gilda had boundless energy

931
00:53:12,145 --> 00:53:15,844
and she was always
looking for something
that would hold her interest.

932
00:53:16,628 --> 00:53:19,935
So she found a way to...
to take what she was
already doing

933
00:53:20,109 --> 00:53:22,286
that was funny and...
and take it to another level.

934
00:53:28,988 --> 00:53:31,338
woman: Ladies and gentlemen,
the call is now five minutes.

935
00:53:31,512 --> 00:53:33,862
Five minutes, please.
Five minutes.

936
00:53:36,387 --> 00:53:40,695
Places, please. Act one.
Places, please.
Places for Act one.

937
00:53:41,827 --> 00:53:43,176
[applause, crowd cheering]

938
00:53:49,443 --> 00:53:51,924
Gilda: It was the dream
of my life to be on Broadway.

939
00:53:52,403 --> 00:53:56,537
[music playing]

940
00:53:58,278 --> 00:54:00,672
To actually tap dance and sing.

941
00:54:01,673 --> 00:54:03,631
[crowd laughs]

942
00:54:08,767 --> 00:54:10,551
Alan: It was a one woman show,

943
00:54:10,725 --> 00:54:13,859
and it was not only her
performance but her material.

944
00:54:14,207 --> 00:54:16,383
♪ I love to be unhappy ♪

945
00:54:17,079 --> 00:54:19,081
♪ I live to be in pain ♪

946
00:54:19,734 --> 00:54:21,780
♪ When days
Are full of sunshine ♪

947
00:54:22,389 --> 00:54:24,130
♪ I'm looking for the rain ♪

948
00:54:24,826 --> 00:54:28,177
Gilda: I love
that my Broadway show
is a series of memories.

949
00:54:28,352 --> 00:54:31,616
I remember
when I was in high school

950
00:54:32,356 --> 00:54:34,009
at the...
at the end of the year

951
00:54:34,183 --> 00:54:35,881
they always had the prom.

952
00:54:40,015 --> 00:54:43,323
But what I learned was
it was never the party
that was the good part.

953
00:54:43,715 --> 00:54:45,151
It was always after the party.

954
00:54:46,457 --> 00:54:47,936
[music playing]

955
00:54:48,241 --> 00:54:52,724
♪ Honey, touch me
With my clothes on ♪

956
00:54:52,985 --> 00:54:58,033
♪ Sweetie, baby
Longer than you do ♪

957
00:54:58,338 --> 00:55:03,691
♪ Honey, kiss me
With your mouth closed ♪

958
00:55:03,996 --> 00:55:08,740
♪ Just like you love me
And I love you ♪

959
00:55:08,914 --> 00:55:10,089
[applause, crowd cheering]

960
00:55:19,968 --> 00:55:22,319
Gilda: I'm proud that I did
that show.

961
00:55:24,277 --> 00:55:25,626
But what I learned was,

962
00:55:25,800 --> 00:55:27,149
that wasn't
what I wanted to do.

963
00:55:29,891 --> 00:55:32,111
I didn't wanna be Gilda Radner,

964
00:55:32,677 --> 00:55:35,549
a solo performer personality.

965
00:55:37,769 --> 00:55:40,728
I saw what could happen,
that you could end up

966
00:55:41,338 --> 00:55:43,644
being just Gilda Radner.

967
00:55:45,820 --> 00:55:47,082
And when you weren't
being Gilda Radner,

968
00:55:47,256 --> 00:55:48,562
you had to stay in your room.

969
00:55:51,652 --> 00:55:54,481
And I was lonesome,
you know who for?

970
00:55:55,264 --> 00:55:56,353
For myself.

971
00:56:03,229 --> 00:56:05,971
Here's Gilda!

972
00:56:06,275 --> 00:56:08,277
- [applause]
- man: Yeah!

973
00:56:08,452 --> 00:56:12,107
[music playing]

974
00:56:12,543 --> 00:56:16,198
Alan: Gilda was gonna
be appearing
in Yolo Live in Chicago,

975
00:56:16,373 --> 00:56:19,637
the night that we were
getting married in the temple.

976
00:56:20,289 --> 00:56:24,990
So we rented out
Sammy's Romanian restaurant,
Downtown, in New York,

977
00:56:25,425 --> 00:56:26,948
the Sunday night before,

978
00:56:27,296 --> 00:56:29,473
and had all
theSNL people there.

979
00:56:29,647 --> 00:56:30,865
[music playing]

980
00:56:31,039 --> 00:56:32,650
[crowd cheering]

981
00:56:36,305 --> 00:56:38,873
SNL was an extension
of adolescence.

982
00:56:39,396 --> 00:56:42,007
And so when Robin and I said,
well, okay, we're gonna
get married,

983
00:56:42,181 --> 00:56:43,269
Gilda screamed.

984
00:56:43,661 --> 00:56:45,097
She just shrieked,

985
00:56:45,532 --> 00:56:48,579
"Oh, God, we... we might have to
be grownups pretty soon."

986
00:56:49,362 --> 00:56:52,060
♪ I got no one beside me ♪

987
00:56:53,061 --> 00:56:55,499
♪ To love and to guide me ♪

988
00:56:56,195 --> 00:57:01,418
♪ And who's gonna do
My hair after the walk ♪

989
00:57:03,245 --> 00:57:04,856
♪ Now that you're gone♪

990
00:57:05,726 --> 00:57:09,817
♪ Hey, what's happening
With this thing ♪

991
00:57:10,035 --> 00:57:11,819
[crowd laughs]

992
00:57:12,516 --> 00:57:15,475
Alan: And shortly after,
she got engaged to G.E.

993
00:57:15,693 --> 00:57:18,391
[rock music playing]

994
00:57:26,660 --> 00:57:28,227
Gilda: I married G.E. Smith,

995
00:57:28,575 --> 00:57:31,186
the lead guitarist in the band forGilda Live.

996
00:57:33,101 --> 00:57:36,365
Laraine: I think that was
her version of
a walk on the wild side

997
00:57:37,192 --> 00:57:38,585
because they were so different.

998
00:57:39,543 --> 00:57:41,283
Janis: I don't know
that anybody knew
that had been dating,

999
00:57:41,458 --> 00:57:43,155
but I know
everybody was surprised.

1000
00:57:44,417 --> 00:57:46,550
Tom Snyder: Since the last time we were together on television,

1001
00:57:46,767 --> 00:57:48,465
- you've become
a married person.
- Gilda: That's right.

1002
00:57:48,639 --> 00:57:50,379
How is it different

1003
00:57:50,597 --> 00:57:52,512
from what you thought
it was gonna be, being married?

1004
00:57:52,686 --> 00:57:53,687
Any surprises?

1005
00:57:54,253 --> 00:57:55,776
That... that it's better.

1006
00:57:56,429 --> 00:57:58,562
Right. And wonderful,
a wonderful state.

1007
00:58:00,128 --> 00:58:01,608
That's all. [chuckles]

1008
00:58:02,391 --> 00:58:03,741
- Okay.
- Good night...

1009
00:58:04,568 --> 00:58:05,612
and goodbye.

1010
00:58:05,830 --> 00:58:08,572
[applause, crowd cheering]

1011
00:58:13,620 --> 00:58:17,276
Gilda: My contract was up with
NBC forSaturday Night live.

1012
00:58:18,495 --> 00:58:19,887
I was not going to go back.

1013
00:58:23,456 --> 00:58:25,980
I didn't wanna just keep taking one job after another.

1014
00:58:26,807 --> 00:58:28,374
And I think
that frightened me enough

1015
00:58:28,548 --> 00:58:31,290
to turn down
some very wonderful jobs,

1016
00:58:31,508 --> 00:58:33,292
and look at myself more.

1017
00:58:34,119 --> 00:58:36,034
[music playing]

1018
00:58:44,129 --> 00:58:48,350
I wanted to know more
what my life was, I suppose.

1019
00:58:55,488 --> 00:58:57,577
Sometimes I look through
the Want ads

1020
00:58:57,751 --> 00:59:01,668
and fantasize about having jobs with beginnings and ends.

1021
00:59:03,148 --> 00:59:06,281
And I think about being
the checkout girl
at the grocery store,

1022
00:59:06,978 --> 00:59:08,849
or be a shoe salesman
and be pretty funny,

1023
00:59:09,023 --> 00:59:10,721
and entertain
everyone who came in.

1024
00:59:11,330 --> 00:59:13,332
And I could go home
and be happy

1025
00:59:13,506 --> 00:59:15,508
as opposed to doing it
for 40 million people.

1026
00:59:21,122 --> 00:59:22,689
But I got this script

1027
00:59:22,863 --> 00:59:25,474
and the adventure
appealed to me.

1028
00:59:25,692 --> 00:59:28,521
Stuff like driving a truck
through the desert

1029
00:59:28,695 --> 00:59:30,828
while people are shooting
at you, you know.

1030
00:59:31,002 --> 00:59:32,394
When am I gonna get to do that?

1031
00:59:32,569 --> 00:59:33,787
[helicopter whirring]

1032
00:59:35,310 --> 00:59:36,877
[gunshots]

1033
00:59:37,095 --> 00:59:38,662
I thought, "That sounds
like the kinda movies

1034
00:59:38,836 --> 00:59:40,707
I used to watch
when I was a kid."

1035
00:59:49,977 --> 00:59:52,806
But the part itself
was not really funny.

1036
00:59:56,941 --> 00:59:59,683
Here was a girl
with no wigs,

1037
00:59:59,900 --> 01:00:01,685
was an attractive,
well-dressed,

1038
01:00:01,859 --> 01:00:03,730
young woman
in her 30s.

1039
01:00:04,252 --> 01:00:08,126
And I thought that could
either be a character
for me to portray,

1040
01:00:08,343 --> 01:00:10,258
or I might just have to
face the fact that,

1041
01:00:10,432 --> 01:00:11,869
that's what I am.

1042
01:00:13,044 --> 01:00:14,741
[piano playing]

1043
01:00:15,089 --> 01:00:16,917
There's lots of things
about me you don't know.

1044
01:00:25,883 --> 01:00:29,669
Jordan: When Gene met Gilda,
he had just gone through

1045
01:00:30,017 --> 01:00:32,237
kinda magic period
in his career.

1046
01:00:32,411 --> 01:00:33,934
- [crowd cheering]
- Gene: Thank you.

1047
01:00:36,110 --> 01:00:39,897
There wasWilly Wonka,  and there wasBlazing Saddles.

1048
01:00:40,071 --> 01:00:41,812
[gunshots]

1049
01:00:42,073 --> 01:00:44,728
And then a movie  that he wrote with Mel Brooks,

1050
01:00:44,902 --> 01:00:47,992
and starred in,
Young Frankenstein,
came out six months later.

1051
01:00:48,166 --> 01:00:49,689
Life, do you hear me?

1052
01:00:50,734 --> 01:00:52,779
Give my creation...

1053
01:00:53,562 --> 01:00:54,694
life!

1054
01:00:54,912 --> 01:00:56,565
Jordan: And so at that moment,

1055
01:00:57,088 --> 01:01:00,613
Gene became a very big
movie star.

1056
01:01:00,918 --> 01:01:03,355
[jazz piano playing]

1057
01:01:04,530 --> 01:01:06,010
Gene was not a comedian,

1058
01:01:06,401 --> 01:01:08,795
he did not make people laugh
for a living.

1059
01:01:09,970 --> 01:01:13,452
He was an actor that had been
in a lot of funny films.

1060
01:01:14,105 --> 01:01:15,933
She was in many ways
just as famous,

1061
01:01:16,107 --> 01:01:17,674
certainly in America.

1062
01:01:18,283 --> 01:01:20,546
Gilda: I had been a fan
of Gene Wilder's
for many years.

1063
01:01:20,764 --> 01:01:23,854
But the first time I saw him
in person, I was hooked.

1064
01:01:30,469 --> 01:01:33,733
It felt like my life went
from black and white
to technicolor.

1065
01:01:35,430 --> 01:01:37,519
Judy: I could tell by the way
she was talking about Gene,

1066
01:01:37,911 --> 01:01:39,260
that it was something special.

1067
01:01:40,348 --> 01:01:42,524
And it wasn't gonna
work out very well for G.E.

1068
01:01:43,177 --> 01:01:46,920
After a little while
they split up
and she was with Gene.

1069
01:01:48,356 --> 01:01:50,141
man: It's so wonderful
to see the two of you here,

1070
01:01:50,358 --> 01:01:51,838
joining me together.

1071
01:01:52,621 --> 01:01:55,233
This is wonderful
to see us here too.

1072
01:01:55,450 --> 01:01:58,018
- The two of us here seeing you.
- First appearance
ever together?

1073
01:01:58,366 --> 01:01:59,890
First with touching. [chuckles]

1074
01:02:00,194 --> 01:02:01,805
- First one with touching.
- With touching! [chuckles]

1075
01:02:01,979 --> 01:02:02,936
Where are you cutting this?

1076
01:02:04,721 --> 01:02:06,287
Gilda: Gene and I
lived together on and off

1077
01:02:06,461 --> 01:02:07,941
for the next two
and half years.

1078
01:02:10,814 --> 01:02:14,208
My new career became
getting him to marry me.

1079
01:02:15,209 --> 01:02:18,473
Being interested  in sports was one of the things Gene wanted in a woman.

1080
01:02:19,300 --> 01:02:21,650
So I took tennis lessons
in California.

1081
01:02:22,739 --> 01:02:26,003
Gene loved France.
So I took lessons in French.

1082
01:02:26,177 --> 01:02:31,660
[speaking in French]

1083
01:02:32,661 --> 01:02:34,620
Ooh la la! [chuckles]

1084
01:02:35,012 --> 01:02:37,188
Gene: I think
I have always been searching

1085
01:02:37,362 --> 01:02:40,234
for some kind of love
that was perfect.

1086
01:02:40,713 --> 01:02:44,325
And so, of course,
it could never work out. And...

1087
01:02:45,065 --> 01:02:47,633
she's like a little gnat
that's saying,

1088
01:02:47,851 --> 01:02:49,156
"It's never gonna be perfect."

1089
01:02:49,330 --> 01:02:51,115
I brought imperfection
into his life.

1090
01:02:51,289 --> 01:02:52,507
- [chuckles] Yes.
- [chuckles]

1091
01:02:52,681 --> 01:02:55,075
She brought imperfection
into my life.

1092
01:02:55,249 --> 01:02:57,077
- I taught him how...
- Before that, it was perfect.

1093
01:02:59,558 --> 01:03:03,040
Jordan: Growing up,  I would be with my Uncle Gene,

1094
01:03:03,214 --> 01:03:06,608
who was also a second father
to me, for a few months
of the year.

1095
01:03:07,914 --> 01:03:11,135
And when he and Gilda
moved in together,

1096
01:03:11,352 --> 01:03:13,267
that just sort of continued.

1097
01:03:14,181 --> 01:03:19,099
Not just us,
but Gene had created out  of his friends in Los Angeles,

1098
01:03:19,273 --> 01:03:22,320
that were also colleagues,
a family atmosphere.

1099
01:03:25,453 --> 01:03:29,240
Gilda: Here, at the luxury,
rich and famous home
of the rich and famous,

1100
01:03:29,457 --> 01:03:33,331
very rich and very famous
Gilda Radner and Gene Wilder.

1101
01:03:35,550 --> 01:03:36,900
It's me, Robin Leach.

1102
01:03:37,378 --> 01:03:40,512
Let's make our way
quickly down the driveway,

1103
01:03:40,729 --> 01:03:43,254
you can see
a beautiful tennis court,

1104
01:03:43,732 --> 01:03:45,996
an expensive, luxury swing.

1105
01:03:46,953 --> 01:03:50,870
Coming along the path
is the very, very expensive,

1106
01:03:51,044 --> 01:03:53,786
rich and successful dog
of the Radner-Wilder's,

1107
01:03:54,091 --> 01:03:56,006
Miss Sparkle Radner-Wilder.

1108
01:04:00,053 --> 01:04:01,707
I had changed lives.

1109
01:04:02,664 --> 01:04:04,666
I left New York.

1110
01:04:04,884 --> 01:04:07,539
I stopped hanging out
with theSaturday Night Live
crowd.

1111
01:04:08,366 --> 01:04:11,935
And I'd lost touch
with a lot of people.

1112
01:04:12,109 --> 01:04:13,893
Paul: I mean,
Gene took Gilda away from us.

1113
01:04:14,851 --> 01:04:18,680
But we also were aware  that she had physical problems,

1114
01:04:19,246 --> 01:04:23,555
and we just were aware
that he was getting her
taken care of.

1115
01:04:24,164 --> 01:04:26,340
Jordan: I think the thing
that Gene did the best

1116
01:04:26,601 --> 01:04:28,734
to help Gilda
was getting her to eat,

1117
01:04:29,126 --> 01:04:30,910
and enjoy eating.

1118
01:04:31,389 --> 01:04:33,870
He made her feel
that she deserved
to live life nicely,

1119
01:04:34,044 --> 01:04:37,917
and to look forward to things, not just on a weekly basis
but a daily basis.

1120
01:04:41,790 --> 01:04:45,142
woman: I don't know if you are
going to wear masterpieces...

1121
01:04:45,751 --> 01:04:47,448
in... on the movie,

1122
01:04:47,622 --> 01:04:49,973
but you are going to have
a masterpiece in real life.

1123
01:04:50,147 --> 01:04:51,104
Are we?

1124
01:05:14,649 --> 01:05:16,695
- Gene: Gilda!
- Hello, honey.

1125
01:05:18,871 --> 01:05:23,354
♪ Happy Birthday,
dear Ant-man ♪

1126
01:05:23,876 --> 01:05:29,316
- ♪ Happy Birthday to... ♪
- ♪ Happy Birthday to you ♪

1127
01:05:29,490 --> 01:05:30,622
[chuckles]

1128
01:05:32,189 --> 01:05:33,799
Gilda: There was a time
when I thought

1129
01:05:33,973 --> 01:05:36,497
that all I wanted to do
was work.

1130
01:05:37,542 --> 01:05:41,241
And now I know that  what I really wanna do is live.

1131
01:05:43,678 --> 01:05:46,899
I'm growing up,
there's no doubt about it,
I'll tell you.

1132
01:05:47,204 --> 01:05:48,379
And I don't mind.

1133
01:05:51,686 --> 01:05:55,473
When I look in the mirror
I see lines around my eyes.
[chuckles]

1134
01:05:56,343 --> 01:05:58,128
I see a woman more.

1135
01:05:58,519 --> 01:06:00,739
A young woman, mind you,
but I see a woman.

1136
01:06:01,392 --> 01:06:02,654
And less a child.

1137
01:06:04,830 --> 01:06:06,527
[indistinct chatter]

1138
01:06:06,745 --> 01:06:08,660
woman: What about you and Gene,
will you have children?

1139
01:06:09,008 --> 01:06:10,357
Gilda: We would
like to have children.

1140
01:06:10,836 --> 01:06:12,403
woman: What would happen
to Gilda Radner?

1141
01:06:12,577 --> 01:06:14,492
Would you go through a lot
of turmoil about that?

1142
01:06:14,666 --> 01:06:15,754
Oh, no. I think, um...

1143
01:06:17,060 --> 01:06:19,497
No, no more
than I go through anyway.
[chuckles]

1144
01:06:19,888 --> 01:06:21,455
I think it'd be good turmoil.

1145
01:06:21,629 --> 01:06:23,457
I think that's what life
is about.

1146
01:06:25,416 --> 01:06:28,027
I mean,
what could be lovelier
than having a baby?

1147
01:06:29,637 --> 01:06:32,249
The hair alone
would make people squeal
with delight.

1148
01:06:33,424 --> 01:06:34,903
- Do I talk now?
- woman: If you want.

1149
01:06:35,078 --> 01:06:37,906
Happy Birthday, Lindsay.
Happy Birthday, Lindsay.

1150
01:06:38,559 --> 01:06:39,996
Boing, boing!

1151
01:06:40,997 --> 01:06:43,564
But my career was still
very important to me too.

1152
01:06:43,738 --> 01:06:44,696
Hello, Ted.

1153
01:06:45,784 --> 01:06:47,438
I just wanted
to say good morning,

1154
01:06:47,612 --> 01:06:48,874
and have a lovely day.

1155
01:06:52,312 --> 01:06:55,663
So when Orion Pictures
gave Gene the okay
onHaunted Honeymoon,

1156
01:06:56,708 --> 01:06:58,405
I put off having a baby.

1157
01:06:59,580 --> 01:07:02,192
Gene was the writer, director, and the star,

1158
01:07:02,453 --> 01:07:03,671
and I was his wife.

1159
01:07:03,845 --> 01:07:06,326
[screams]

1160
01:07:07,110 --> 01:07:08,546
Just practicing.

1161
01:07:08,763 --> 01:07:10,069
After the second shadow,

1162
01:07:10,243 --> 01:07:12,245
- there'll be lightning.
- man: Yes.

1163
01:07:12,463 --> 01:07:14,682
Gilda: I got heavily
into the adventure
of movie making.

1164
01:07:14,856 --> 01:07:17,859
- Ow! This thing's pinching
my butt.
- Just hang on for a minute.

1165
01:07:18,034 --> 01:07:19,644
And I didn't even think
to look at my calendar

1166
01:07:19,818 --> 01:07:21,559
until I got
the first dizzy spell.

1167
01:07:22,255 --> 01:07:23,604
My period was late.

1168
01:07:23,996 --> 01:07:25,041
I couldn't believe it.

1169
01:07:25,954 --> 01:07:27,521
Gene and I were ecstatic.

1170
01:07:27,739 --> 01:07:28,740
[music playing]

1171
01:08:09,520 --> 01:08:11,261
You believe in the work you do.

1172
01:08:11,696 --> 01:08:13,480
You have joy
in the work you do,

1173
01:08:13,785 --> 01:08:16,396
and then you find the public's not interested in it.

1174
01:08:20,835 --> 01:08:22,402
After that,

1175
01:08:22,663 --> 01:08:24,317
well, I guess I can call it,
the weird lives began.

1176
01:08:27,668 --> 01:08:28,930
Pam: Gilda was...

1177
01:08:29,409 --> 01:08:32,934
just not quite herself.
Her energy level wasn't great.

1178
01:08:35,241 --> 01:08:36,634
Jordan: One morning
she just said,

1179
01:08:36,808 --> 01:08:37,765
"I don't know
what's wrong with me.

1180
01:08:38,636 --> 01:08:39,680
Something's wrong with me."

1181
01:08:42,509 --> 01:08:44,772
Gilda: I wouldn't be able
to get out of bed
for quite a few days.

1182
01:08:46,122 --> 01:08:50,038
Then out of nowhere,
I started having
weird pelvic cramping.

1183
01:08:50,909 --> 01:08:52,128
A series of blood tests
showed

1184
01:08:52,302 --> 01:08:53,651
absolutely nothing wrong.

1185
01:08:54,869 --> 01:08:58,438
And they basically sent me home saying, "Everything's fine."

1186
01:08:59,700 --> 01:09:03,400
There was something not right, but there was nothing wrong.

1187
01:09:04,314 --> 01:09:08,883
That was when they were saying
it was Epstein Barr,
or it was just psychological.

1188
01:09:11,190 --> 01:09:13,105
Gilda: I've gone to doctors
and seen

1189
01:09:13,758 --> 01:09:16,456
that they're just looking at
Roseanne Roseannadanna,
or Emily Litella.

1190
01:09:16,630 --> 01:09:19,720
And not really seeing that
here's a person who is sick,

1191
01:09:19,894 --> 01:09:21,157
who has complaints.

1192
01:09:23,202 --> 01:09:26,031
On Monday, October 20th,
the phone rang.

1193
01:09:26,597 --> 01:09:27,946
It was my internist.

1194
01:09:29,165 --> 01:09:32,211
He checked me into the hospital immediately for tests.

1195
01:09:33,995 --> 01:09:35,780
He said very calmly...

1196
01:09:36,824 --> 01:09:38,870
"We've discovered
there is a malignancy."

1197
01:09:39,784 --> 01:09:42,090
I had been diagnosed
with ovarian cancer.

1198
01:09:48,271 --> 01:09:50,229
After she was diagnosed,

1199
01:09:50,664 --> 01:09:54,102
she responded like I think
a lot of people respond.

1200
01:09:54,494 --> 01:09:58,498
And was absolutely convinced
that this was the end
of her life.

1201
01:09:59,151 --> 01:10:02,981
And she didn't take calls
from me, and she didn't calls
from Judy.

1202
01:10:03,590 --> 01:10:06,332
It was a pretty tough,
difficult time.

1203
01:10:11,119 --> 01:10:14,514
Gilda: Last night I had
the huge, angry,
violent breakdown.

1204
01:10:14,819 --> 01:10:16,255
Why me? Why me?

1205
01:10:17,604 --> 01:10:19,432
I thought I was supposed
to be the jester.

1206
01:10:20,694 --> 01:10:23,871
I end up somehow being the...
the beggar.

1207
01:10:26,134 --> 01:10:29,486
I feel like some fighter  who keeps getting knocked down to the floor.

1208
01:10:30,574 --> 01:10:34,230
Well, this time I'm having
a little bit of trouble
getting up.

1209
01:10:35,318 --> 01:10:38,495
I don't know. I'm getting
a little beaten up,
the old body.

1210
01:10:39,322 --> 01:10:41,062
Trying to find the confidence

1211
01:10:41,237 --> 01:10:43,064
to stand up
and fight some more.

1212
01:10:43,978 --> 01:10:47,591
But it seems like,
the gimme, gimme,
grabby, grabby, Gilda

1213
01:10:48,374 --> 01:10:50,376
doesn't want as much
as it used to.

1214
01:10:51,334 --> 01:10:53,161
Used to be,
"I wanted everything."

1215
01:10:53,684 --> 01:10:59,820
Career, husband, baby,  travel, stardom, lights, stage.

1216
01:11:00,430 --> 01:11:03,781
Well, all this keeping  getting knocked back down again makes me go,

1217
01:11:04,477 --> 01:11:06,566
"Okay, now,
just give me my health.

1218
01:11:07,350 --> 01:11:08,525
Just my health.

1219
01:11:09,352 --> 01:11:12,137
Okay? Just my health."

1220
01:11:23,627 --> 01:11:25,585
In the hospital,

1221
01:11:26,020 --> 01:11:28,153
I wanted to watch myself
in the reruns
ofSaturday Night Live.

1222
01:11:28,327 --> 01:11:30,024
'Cause it would
always make me laugh.

1223
01:11:31,287 --> 01:11:32,984
Young, dancing around.

1224
01:11:34,507 --> 01:11:37,249
Here I was, using the show
and my own self

1225
01:11:37,423 --> 01:11:40,296
to get me through
what was happening to me.

1226
01:11:42,428 --> 01:11:44,691
And I knew every night
I could look forward to it,

1227
01:11:45,039 --> 01:11:48,434
to seeing my friends,
to seeing myself,

1228
01:11:48,782 --> 01:11:51,611
going, "That is me.
And it's still me."

1229
01:11:54,788 --> 01:11:59,271
The most difficult part
of the whole chemotherapy
was my hair.

1230
01:12:00,664 --> 01:12:03,754
And I remember our friends
invited us to a party
and I wouldn't go.

1231
01:12:04,450 --> 01:12:07,148
Because I couldn't think,
how to... who to go as?

1232
01:12:07,323 --> 01:12:08,933
Who do you go as with no hair?

1233
01:12:09,412 --> 01:12:10,456
What character?

1234
01:12:12,110 --> 01:12:14,112
Just like I did
onSaturday Night Live,

1235
01:12:14,286 --> 01:12:16,854
I tried to think up,
who could I be
to get through this?

1236
01:12:20,771 --> 01:12:22,555
I knew
that I couldn't wear a wig.

1237
01:12:23,382 --> 01:12:26,690
And I thought
I'm gonna be better off
with a scarf or a turban.

1238
01:12:29,606 --> 01:12:32,043
So I kinda dressed like
a harem girl or something,

1239
01:12:32,217 --> 01:12:33,436
with this little hat on.

1240
01:12:35,525 --> 01:12:37,309
And I found a character...

1241
01:12:38,354 --> 01:12:40,094
to come back into the world.

1242
01:12:48,146 --> 01:12:50,409
The Oncologist wanted me
to see Joanna,

1243
01:12:50,583 --> 01:12:52,324
the therapist
who had a sharing group

1244
01:12:52,498 --> 01:12:54,457
at this place  called The Wellness Community.

1245
01:12:55,371 --> 01:12:58,330
Gilda said, "No,
I'm not that kind of a person.
I can't go there.

1246
01:12:59,679 --> 01:13:04,075
You know, I don't feel
like making people laugh
right now. I'm too famous."

1247
01:13:04,641 --> 01:13:06,643
And finally Joanna talked her
into going

1248
01:13:06,817 --> 01:13:09,994
and she came home that night
and she said,
skipping and dancing,

1249
01:13:10,386 --> 01:13:11,691
"You gotta come,
you gotta come along.

1250
01:13:11,909 --> 01:13:13,258
You won't believe it.
It's just wonderful.

1251
01:13:13,476 --> 01:13:15,129
I took charge
and I told everyone

1252
01:13:15,303 --> 01:13:16,870
what was going on
inside my mind,

1253
01:13:17,044 --> 01:13:18,611
and I started to cry
and then they started to cry.

1254
01:13:18,785 --> 01:13:19,786
Then I started to laugh,
then they started to laugh.

1255
01:13:19,960 --> 01:13:21,179
And I want you to come with me."

1256
01:13:21,962 --> 01:13:23,877
Gilda: My humor had come back
to me.

1257
01:13:24,530 --> 01:13:26,880
So it doesn't matter there
that I'm Gilda Radner.

1258
01:13:27,054 --> 01:13:31,711
It's not my reputation,
it's really who I am,
and who I've always been.

1259
01:13:37,674 --> 01:13:39,240
In the hospital,

1260
01:13:39,415 --> 01:13:40,938
I would think up things
to make people laugh.

1261
01:13:41,547 --> 01:13:43,723
Like, I'd wait
till the nurse left the room

1262
01:13:43,897 --> 01:13:46,422
and then I'd buzz for her
and say into the intercom,

1263
01:13:46,857 --> 01:13:50,034
"Nurse", in the most
pathetic way possible.

1264
01:13:50,643 --> 01:13:52,166
"Nurse."

1265
01:13:53,080 --> 01:13:54,952
I always got them laughing
that way.

1266
01:13:56,693 --> 01:13:57,650
Gene: Okay.

1267
01:13:58,216 --> 01:13:59,826
Gilda:

1268
01:14:03,221 --> 01:14:04,875
Hello.
Hi.

1269
01:14:06,137 --> 01:14:08,748
This is my doctor.
Doctor, look, he's filming.
[chuckles]

1270
01:14:09,183 --> 01:14:10,533
Filling out my chart.

1271
01:14:12,926 --> 01:14:14,667
- Are you filming now?
- Gene: Yes, dear.

1272
01:14:14,841 --> 01:14:16,234
Oh. Here,
should I show my hair?

1273
01:14:16,408 --> 01:14:17,844
Gene: Oh, yeah. Please.

1274
01:14:18,628 --> 01:14:19,629
This is...

1275
01:14:20,020 --> 01:14:21,195
Wait, it's flaking.

1276
01:14:23,763 --> 01:14:25,417
- This is what--
- I love it like that.

1277
01:14:27,854 --> 01:14:29,334
[Gene chuckles]

1278
01:14:29,508 --> 01:14:31,467
I was panicked this time.
I didn't wanna come

1279
01:14:32,076 --> 01:14:35,079
for this treatment. I thought
if I filmed it, you know,

1280
01:14:35,253 --> 01:14:39,257
it would add a dimension
to take my mind off of it,
you know.

1281
01:14:40,301 --> 01:14:41,389
You're gonna take the blood?

1282
01:14:41,564 --> 01:14:42,521
Yeah.

1283
01:14:43,304 --> 01:14:44,567
So, are you nervous?

1284
01:14:44,784 --> 01:14:47,004
No. Doesn't care.
God, that's all I need.

1285
01:14:47,700 --> 01:14:49,485
Chemotherapy is so much fun.

1286
01:15:40,144 --> 01:15:42,494
Alan: Gilda was not gonna take
this shit lying down.

1287
01:15:43,408 --> 01:15:44,801
There's not a chance in Hell.

1288
01:15:45,628 --> 01:15:46,803
Cancer, fuck you.

1289
01:15:46,977 --> 01:15:48,892
I'm...
I'm gonna go out and play.

1290
01:15:49,370 --> 01:15:51,198
Let me figure out
how to do this.

1291
01:15:51,938 --> 01:15:55,463
♪ I am well, I am wonderful
I am cancer free ♪

1292
01:15:55,812 --> 01:15:58,858
♪ No little cancer cell
Is hiding inside of me ♪

1293
01:15:59,032 --> 01:16:00,643
♪ But if some little
cancer cell ♪

1294
01:16:00,904 --> 01:16:02,470
♪ Is sneakily holding on ♪

1295
01:16:02,862 --> 01:16:04,385
♪ I'll bash and beat
Its fucking head ♪

1296
01:16:04,560 --> 01:16:06,170
♪ And smash it till it's gone ♪

1297
01:16:09,565 --> 01:16:10,566
Hello.

1298
01:16:14,700 --> 01:16:16,920
Hello, it's a beautiful day
in October.

1299
01:16:17,224 --> 01:16:19,444
Gil, sit down over here
'cause the friend's
got the camera.

1300
01:16:19,618 --> 01:16:21,185
- The group is here.
- All right.

1301
01:16:21,359 --> 01:16:24,014
Hello. So nice to see you again.

1302
01:16:24,623 --> 01:16:25,972
I'm Gilda's brother.

1303
01:16:26,146 --> 01:16:27,626
woman: You're doing it
while I'm sitting.

1304
01:16:27,931 --> 01:16:29,976
The voice you're hearing
in the background is my mother.

1305
01:16:30,150 --> 01:16:32,065
Michael: Mother,
look at the camera.

1306
01:16:32,413 --> 01:16:33,937
- Gilda: Mom, look up
at the camera.
- Michael: Look at the camera.

1307
01:16:34,372 --> 01:16:37,201
- [inaudible chatter]
- [chuckles]

1308
01:16:39,029 --> 01:16:41,858
Gilda: My house became a resort
for my friends and family.

1309
01:16:42,032 --> 01:16:43,686
Who's that out there,
Gene Wilder?

1310
01:16:43,947 --> 01:16:45,122
Oh, I can't believe it.

1311
01:16:45,296 --> 01:16:46,732
[kisses]

1312
01:16:46,906 --> 01:16:48,865
I love you
and everything that you touch.

1313
01:16:49,039 --> 01:16:51,345
- Gene: Thank you.
- And I... and I... [chuckles]

1314
01:16:52,738 --> 01:16:54,566
Judy: Gilda was in remission.

1315
01:16:55,132 --> 01:16:56,873
And we were thrilled about it.

1316
01:17:00,267 --> 01:17:03,183
Gilda: How often do we
get to know exactly
what our battles are?

1317
01:17:03,488 --> 01:17:06,709
Or get to find out
what we're actually made of?
Or how brave we are?

1318
01:17:11,452 --> 01:17:14,630
I kept thinking,
there must be a purpose
to this somewhere.

1319
01:17:15,108 --> 01:17:19,286
That a comedian
who does, you know,
Roseanne Roseannadanna,

1320
01:17:19,460 --> 01:17:23,290
and all this stupid stuff,
gets the most unfunny thing
in the world.

1321
01:17:24,117 --> 01:17:25,902
How am I gonna get people
to laugh about it,

1322
01:17:26,337 --> 01:17:27,991
to be able to speak the words,

1323
01:17:28,948 --> 01:17:31,516
to be able to not be afraid
to be treated for it?

1324
01:17:33,910 --> 01:17:35,433
Alan: She said,
"You know something?

1325
01:17:36,260 --> 01:17:39,698
My jokes are my only weapon
against this fucker."

1326
01:17:40,525 --> 01:17:43,659
She said, "Zweibel,
can you help me
make cancer funny?"

1327
01:17:45,225 --> 01:17:46,400
I was starting a new
show called

1328
01:17:46,574 --> 01:17:47,924
It's Garry Shandling's Show.

1329
01:17:48,664 --> 01:17:52,363
And she was nervous at first
about doing the show.

1330
01:17:53,146 --> 01:17:56,323
We took a walk once
and she started to say,

1331
01:17:56,584 --> 01:17:59,457
"It's been six or seven years
since I've been on TV.

1332
01:18:00,371 --> 01:18:02,982
And I'm afraid that when I walk
through the door,

1333
01:18:03,156 --> 01:18:06,246
the studio audience
isn't even gonna remember me."

1334
01:18:08,118 --> 01:18:09,162
- Hi, Garry.
- Oh, Gilda!

1335
01:18:09,336 --> 01:18:10,903
It's Gilda Radner, everybody!

1336
01:18:11,077 --> 01:18:13,427
[crowd cheering, applause]

1337
01:18:33,404 --> 01:18:36,059
Really. Don't... don't...
don't milk the applause
like that. It's...

1338
01:18:36,276 --> 01:18:37,930
[crowd laughs]

1339
01:18:38,452 --> 01:18:40,367
Oh, I'm sorry, Garry.
I haven't been on television
for a while.

1340
01:18:40,541 --> 01:18:42,805
- Oh, that... yeah.
What... what was wrong?
- Oh, I had cancer.

1341
01:18:43,762 --> 01:18:46,547
- What did you have?
- [crowd laughs]

1342
01:18:47,679 --> 01:18:50,073
I just had a series
of bad career moves.

1343
01:18:50,290 --> 01:18:51,639
[crowd laughs]

1344
01:18:51,814 --> 01:18:53,467
Alan: This was verboten.

1345
01:18:53,990 --> 01:18:55,469
You don't make cancer jokes.

1346
01:18:56,035 --> 01:18:58,211
You know,
Gilda was the first person...

1347
01:18:59,778 --> 01:19:01,737
that I ever saw
do that publicly.

1348
01:19:03,303 --> 01:19:04,827
[crowd laughs]

1349
01:19:08,831 --> 01:19:09,832
Are you looking
into the camera?

1350
01:19:10,006 --> 01:19:11,703
- No.
- [crowd laughs]

1351
01:19:11,921 --> 01:19:13,661
- No, I didn't.
- Don't... don't look into
the camera.

1352
01:19:13,836 --> 01:19:15,446
- I didn't.
- Don't.

1353
01:19:15,794 --> 01:19:16,752
- I didn't.
- You don't come in here
and look in the camera.

1354
01:19:16,926 --> 01:19:17,840
I didn't.

1355
01:19:18,492 --> 01:19:19,450
I'll bop you.

1356
01:19:19,624 --> 01:19:21,104
[crowd laughs]

1357
01:19:21,278 --> 01:19:23,367
I will,
if I see a tape of this show...

1358
01:19:24,455 --> 01:19:25,412
and you're looking into the...

1359
01:19:26,065 --> 01:19:27,850
[crowd laughs]

1360
01:19:28,546 --> 01:19:31,027
[cheering and applause]

1361
01:19:31,767 --> 01:19:34,247
Gilda: The calmness
came over me,
like I was suddenly home.

1362
01:19:34,770 --> 01:19:36,728
Back, making people
laugh again.

1363
01:19:37,990 --> 01:19:40,297
Alan: She was on a mission
when she got sick.

1364
01:19:41,428 --> 01:19:43,866
She felt
that she could be of help...

1365
01:19:44,823 --> 01:19:46,172
by being an example.

1366
01:19:46,520 --> 01:19:48,784
And that's exactly what she did.

1367
01:20:03,276 --> 01:20:06,192
Gilda: And I thought
since I'd always dreamed
of being a writer,

1368
01:20:06,366 --> 01:20:08,194
romanticized, fantasized
about it...

1369
01:20:09,021 --> 01:20:11,023
that in this book  there's something I could do...

1370
01:20:13,286 --> 01:20:15,549
to actually show people
that I'm not afraid.

1371
01:20:19,162 --> 01:20:24,036
I think that cancer taught me
more tools for life
than I ever got before.

1372
01:20:28,171 --> 01:20:32,392
Pam: There were numerous times
that we thought
she was in remission.

1373
01:20:33,480 --> 01:20:37,354
Her cancer, unfortunately,
kept rearing its head.

1374
01:20:38,268 --> 01:20:41,271
Judy: I remember once  Pam and I were there together,

1375
01:20:41,532 --> 01:20:43,795
and they came out
and they were talking,
and then they got quiet.

1376
01:20:44,143 --> 01:20:47,103
I said to Pam later, I said,
"What did Gilda say to you?"

1377
01:20:47,581 --> 01:20:48,931
'Cause they stopped talking
when I came out.

1378
01:20:49,105 --> 01:20:51,150
And Pam said, "She said to me,

1379
01:20:51,455 --> 01:20:53,587
'For a little while there
I thought I was gonna
get away with this.'"

1380
01:20:55,981 --> 01:20:59,550
I think she finally realized  that she wasn't gonna be okay.

1381
01:21:37,327 --> 01:21:40,156
Gilda: I had wanted
to wrap this up in a neat
little package.

1382
01:21:41,157 --> 01:21:43,724
About a girl who is a comedian from Detroit,

1383
01:21:44,073 --> 01:21:47,293
becomes famous in New York
with all the world
coming her way,

1384
01:21:48,512 --> 01:21:51,602
gets this horrible disease
of cancer, then fights it,

1385
01:21:51,819 --> 01:21:53,256
and then miraculously,

1386
01:21:53,560 --> 01:21:55,998
things neatly tie up
and she gets well.

1387
01:21:57,521 --> 01:21:59,131
I wanted a perfect ending.

1388
01:21:59,915 --> 01:22:02,352
So I sat down to write the
book with the ending in place

1389
01:22:02,526 --> 01:22:04,180
before there even
was an ending.

1390
01:22:05,746 --> 01:22:07,705
Now I've learned the hard way.

1391
01:22:09,968 --> 01:22:11,317
It's about not knowing.

1392
01:22:12,666 --> 01:22:14,016
Having to change.

1393
01:22:14,755 --> 01:22:16,844
Taking the moment
and making the best of it...

1394
01:22:17,715 --> 01:22:19,847
without knowing
what's going to happen next.

1395
01:22:32,295 --> 01:22:34,993
[music playing]

1396
01:22:44,437 --> 01:22:49,660
♪ Honey, touch me
With my clothes on ♪

1397
01:22:49,921 --> 01:22:54,926
♪ Sweetie, baby
Longer than you do ♪

1398
01:22:55,448 --> 01:23:01,324
♪ Honey, kiss me
With your mouth closed ♪

1399
01:23:01,585 --> 01:23:06,155
♪ Just like you love me
And I love you ♪

1400
01:23:08,679 --> 01:23:13,336
♪ Now whatever happened
To Johnny Mathis? ♪

1401
01:23:14,076 --> 01:23:17,514
♪ Two moments when your lips
Met mine ♪

1402
01:23:19,429 --> 01:23:21,474
♪ So in love were we two ♪

1403
01:23:22,475 --> 01:23:25,652
♪ We didn't know what to do
And chances ♪

1404
01:23:25,957 --> 01:23:30,092
♪ Were awfully good that
Love could be so fine ♪

1405
01:23:30,657 --> 01:23:32,572
♪ And whatever happened ♪

1406
01:23:32,746 --> 01:23:35,619
♪ To slow, slow dancin' ♪

1407
01:23:35,880 --> 01:23:39,971
♪ And imaginin'
How heaven could be? ♪

1408
01:23:42,060 --> 01:23:46,456
♪ Falling in love
Was wonderful, wonderful ♪

1409
01:23:46,847 --> 01:23:51,896
♪ Loving, baby,
Was a dream fantasy ♪

1410
01:23:52,462 --> 01:23:57,684
♪ Honey, touch me
With my clothes on ♪

1411
01:23:57,858 --> 01:24:03,038
♪ Sweetie, baby
Longer than you do ♪

1412
01:24:03,516 --> 01:24:09,305
♪ Honey, kiss me
With your mouth closed ♪

1413
01:24:09,609 --> 01:24:13,744
♪ Just like you love me
And I love you ♪

1414
01:24:16,573 --> 01:24:18,314
♪ Seemed so sad ♪

1415
01:24:19,315 --> 01:24:21,056
♪ Hurt so bad ♪

1416
01:24:22,448 --> 01:24:23,884
♪ Don't be cruel ♪

1417
01:24:25,408 --> 01:24:26,626
♪ I'm a fool ♪

1418
01:24:27,758 --> 01:24:29,281
♪ Only you ♪

1419
01:24:30,587 --> 01:24:32,067
♪ Mr. Blue ♪

1420
01:24:32,632 --> 01:24:33,764
♪ Can't you see? ♪

1421
01:24:34,025 --> 01:24:35,157
♪ Must I be? ♪

1422
01:24:35,635 --> 01:24:41,554
♪ Baby, Baby ♪

1423
01:24:43,774 --> 01:24:50,128
[music playing]

1424
01:25:02,793 --> 01:25:07,014
♪ Now whatever happened
To Johnny Mathis? ♪

1425
01:25:08,364 --> 01:25:10,670
♪ Gee
Wasn't his vibrato great? ♪

1426
01:25:13,717 --> 01:25:18,548
♪ So much love have we two
With so little left to do ♪

1427
01:25:18,809 --> 01:25:22,726
♪ Too much, too little
Too late ♪

1428
01:25:24,380 --> 01:25:28,471
♪ Too much, too little
Too late ♪

1429
01:25:29,994 --> 01:25:31,909
♪ Too much, too little... ♪

1430
01:25:32,997 --> 01:25:36,261
"To be famous is more or less
a stab at immortality."

1431
01:25:36,435 --> 01:25:38,916
"A chance to leave your name,
and your work,

1432
01:25:39,090 --> 01:25:41,048
and the memory
of millions of people."

1433
01:25:41,223 --> 01:25:44,269
"Unfortunately,
it doesn't help you personally
with being dead."

1434
01:25:44,791 --> 01:25:49,056
"'Cause once you're dead,
it really doesn't matter
much to you

1435
01:25:49,231 --> 01:25:51,363
about restaurants
and what's on television."

1436
01:25:51,537 --> 01:25:52,930
[chuckles]

1437
01:25:53,496 --> 01:25:54,714
"I was thinking
I'd like to be buried

1438
01:25:54,888 --> 01:25:56,325
with the television at my feet,

1439
01:25:56,629 --> 01:25:58,414
and I'd like
to have my tombstone read..."

1440
01:25:58,588 --> 01:26:00,590
"Gilda Radner had a great time."

1441
01:26:00,981 --> 01:26:04,550
"I just wanna make sure
anybody passing by my grave
gets a good laugh."

1442
01:26:04,942 --> 01:26:08,467
"A good, deep, mortal laugh,
even if I don't hear it."

1443
01:26:10,208 --> 01:26:13,472
♪ Touch me with my clothes on ♪