I don't know what's going on

I have a very,very bad habit of giving up on a run and/or resetting a bunch on stuff I shouldn't reset over when I don't even have a time in a game's category,or don't even have a good time in the category and I'm not intending to get a good time. A recent example of this is an area called "Curie outside" in the Glitchless category for SOMA. There is a jump done towards the end of that area in order to skip a different area called Lambda(watch a video of it here to see what I mean: https://www.twitch.tv/videos/216078417?t=19m30s). I tried my first runs of the category recently(today,in fact),and the first time I got to that jump,I took upwards of 4 minutes to get it without success. You'd think since it was my first run that I should continue on despite that timeloss,since first runs of any game,even of speedruns that are very easy, are complete shit regardless of how much practice you put in. Well,I tend to think differently than that. I think improving very quickly(and getting PBs almost every day)in other speedgames before has spoiled me to where I expect to get every trick in any game within 5 minutes or very few tries,which is usually not how it goes. My own frustration with these tricks vs. what I expected from just watching a run is the embodiment of the statement "This is way harder than it looks." I either need to take it down a notch and just do speedruns for fun(no matter what timeloss I end up having during a run),or just take a break and rethink how I should approach speedrunning.