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- YenniToday at 01:09
- it takes time
- but it will
- get better
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:11
- For you maybe
- For me not
- YenniToday at 01:12
- for you as well
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:12
- Nope
- YenniToday at 01:12
- yep sis
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:12
- This is it
- then howeverlong I can last being like this
- Seeing anyone and everyone do better
- Til i finally fucking commit
- YenniToday at 01:13
- if it's up to me you'll never commit
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:13
- Its not up to you
- YenniToday at 01:13
- and yeah, there's always gonna be people doing better
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:13
- Everyone doing better
- With less hrt time
- YenniToday at 01:13
- plenty of people doing worse
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:13
- A non fucked body
- I cant
- YenniToday at 01:14
- you body isn't fucked
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:14
- It fucking is
- Ribcage shoulders hips weight neck face kneecaps ankles upper arms
- I want to crack my 2 lower ribs
- YenniToday at 01:16
- body shape wise, shoulders ribs fine, yes in that cosplay w the front facing one didn't look good, ngl. other outfits like your normal stiped tops, look completely fine.
- weight imo fine
- face good imho
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:16
- None of that
- Is fine
- Its all
- Awful
- YenniToday at 01:17
- it's not
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:17
- It
- Really
- YenniToday at 01:17
- you see it as awful
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:17
- Is
- At thats not
- Dysph xd
- It nags me in my mind
- 24/7
- Forever
- YenniToday at 01:17
- yeah
- mood
- thats
- dysph
- I have it as well
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:18
- Not dysph for me
- Reality
- YenniToday at 01:18
- and honestly don't know if that nagging ever goes away ngl
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:18
- Where no matter what I do
- Will never ever be happy
- Since I cant change them enough
- So I want to give up
- YenniToday at 01:19
- You can't give up
- not yet at least
- plenty of stuff left to happen, to change, and to do
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:20
- Ive given it long enough
- Im done now
- YenniToday at 01:20
- you're not
- not even at a year yet sis
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:21
- and 10 years can pass and il still be thr same
- Still unhappy
- Probs every inch of skin scarred by then
- YenniToday at 01:21
- Not if I can help it
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:21
- Not even getting to 10 years
- YenniToday at 01:21
- or have any say in it whatsoever
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:21
- Fucking yikes a fucking year
- YenniToday at 01:21
- yeah
- do you wanna see someone
- mtf
- also a year in
- there
- infinitely better than that
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:22
- Cherrypicked
- YenniToday at 01:22
- not really lol
- you know how you brose tt
- yeah
- yeet it on controversial
- get buncha these
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:23
- Wow
- So im
- That tier
- Great
- Cool
- YenniToday at 01:23
- you're not lol
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:23
- Lol
- No
- YenniToday at 01:23
- dysph's a bitch
- and I can't change how you view yourself atm
- but you're not at that tier
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:24
- tfw you wake up and you're still stuck inside that same gross ugly mutilated corpse as last time
- Ruins my day to wake up and remember that I have this awful body. Takes me forever to get out of bed.
- YenniToday at 01:26
- yeah, felt that 100%. you feel the same. smth we have to fucking live with sadly. doesn't go away I'm fairly sure. just lowers in intensity.
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:26
- Or
- YenniToday at 01:26
- but it'll get managable
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:26
- It gets
- Worse
- And worse
- And worse
- YenniToday at 01:27
- since? also 2 weeks ago?
- that it's been getting worse?
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:27
- Somethinf like that
- Last weeks been the worst so far
- YenniToday at 01:27
- cause yeah I've noticed your mental slowly getting worse last few weeks
- honestly think you have severe seasonal depression ngl
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:28
- hard cried about 4 times already
- YenniToday at 01:28
- and I dunno what to do abt that looking at your situation
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:28
- Xd
- YenniToday at 01:29
- w the gatekeeping from trans stuff if you were to get anti depressants seasonally
- if you lived here, would get you to docs, on hrt and anti depressants since they don't gatekeep like that over here
- but honestly if it's this bad, might have to possibly delay trans system stuff and get on antidepressants seasonally
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:30
- Haha xd
- YenniToday at 01:30
- not haha xd
- you've seen them work wonders on james
- sim time last year you had mega yikes as well
- even you said last night in boom that it's a yearly occurance
- to me that all just points to seasonal depression
- and a p bad case of it
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:32
- seasonal realisation of how awful I am
- Now with added dysphoria
- YenniToday at 01:33
- not reallyyy, seasonal depression, makes dysph worse and harder to deal with, and it manifests like that
- just makes you feel like it's that
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:33
- No
- Just
- Deluded
- Myzelf
- Previously
- With everyone
- Hugboxing
- Ogbhaha its fine it looks good hahaha
- Since they know I go off the deep end otherwise
- YenniToday at 01:33
- ?
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:33
- I hate it
- YenniToday at 01:34
- even today james said no when you asked an opinion on those skirts
- even luke said the front body shots weren't good
- we don't hugbox sis
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:34
- I hate it I hate it I hate it stop goving hope it justbgets torn down every fucking time I cany
- YenniToday at 01:34
- I know
- it gets torn down
- over and over
- feels like absolute fucking shit I know
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:35
- Great
- So xan I
- Stop
- YenniToday at 01:35
- No
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:35
- Inject air
- exit bag
- whatever prescription painkillers
- YenniToday at 01:36
- I know you won't want to go in the future. so I can't let you
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:36
- What future lmao
- YenniToday at 01:36
- your future
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:37
- Being cremated jn a few montgs
- He was sych a good son
- YenniToday at 01:37
- no
- not that future
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:38
- Only 1
- YenniToday at 01:38
- honestly, if you want me to let you go. I could only maybe barely fucking do that after you've tried literally everything to get better.
- anti depressants, multiple of em see which ones work. new job, uni mastes, better job after that, diff dosages for hrt and so many more things
- I'll get you to try them, go though all the things I can think of.
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:41
- Wont work
- YenniToday at 01:41
- we won't know
- untill we try
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:41
- It wont
- And I know it wont
- YenniToday at 01:42
- would you say hrt works for me?
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:42
- Yes
- YenniToday at 01:42
- yeah
- I literally
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:42
- Your body isnt shit
- YenniToday at 01:42
- said those words to you
- verbatim
- before I tried it
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:42
- You
- Starting from good
- Me
- Polisging a shit
- Still shit
- It just has makeup on
- YenniToday at 01:43
- you're not shit
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:43
- Stop
- YenniToday at 01:44
- like yeah seen you pre hrt pics and sure, those weren't good ngl.
- wouldn't call it shit
- look where you've come now
- you're so much greater than you once were
- Alice MargatroidToday at 01:45
- Polished shit
- Its not gokd enough
- Nowhere close
- And its never getting vetter
- goodnight
- YenniToday at 01:46
- sis
- you in bed?
- Anything bad with you?
- neeeeddd a fat promise and answer on those
- okay
- okay
- thank you
- I'm here, always okay
- I really am though
- once I start caring about someone, I just can't let them go. need to always be there if needed, so I am, because I care about you, even if you don't.
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