Lover - RMM (Updated)

I got too much shit on my mind

Fuck it...

All of this shit got me high now
Why don't I get a reply now?
Tell me that this is another game
For when it's all over I don't feel insane
Why I got life in my body, it's over
How can I be happy if I'm never sober?

Fuck it all, fuck it all, got me insane
Can I just beg for 3 shots in my brain?
For now it's all gone
I'm in a better place, I don't feel alone now
I know you're gonna miss me but it's alright
it's alright
I know I'm not the one but please text me when you're gone
I just wanna die together
I don't even wanna live forever
I just want you now more than ever
but I can't have it, please tell me again

It's not a phase, can I promise that to you
I told all my friends and now they don't hate you
but that's a memory
left behind
Can I please press rewind
I just wanna call you mine
but you don't feel the same way, and I know that it hurts you
but now you don't feel the pain, cause it's all in my heart
when you told me you loved me, you tore it apart
I know I'm not healthy, I'm sorry I'm crazy
I'm sorry I loved you, I'm sorry you made me
I'm sorry you made me

Got me insane now
Got me insane now
Got me insane

When I walk to your friends, and they tell me I'm nothing
I use all this music so I can be something
but it doesn't cure the pain
it doesn't cure the pain
when I don't want this life, I just walk to the sky
and I dream about how I could live in this lie
but I still feel my heart, and I thought it was gone
but the memory calls and I don't check my phone
and you're still there
You tell me I'm sick but the drugs stop the pain
Can I please just stop breathing this life ain't worth livin'

I hope that he loves you, before that he shows you
it's all just a dream and you're all alone now
I feel all the pain, would I take it again?
And I know you're not worth it, before we all die
That my vision is focused on saying goodbye

I'm not ready for this shit
I take full blame for the heartbreak
but I promise it was love
and I promise there was more
but please take that shit away
I'm not coming for you now
there's an angel far above
and he wants you to be true
he wants me to be with you
he wants me to be with you

Fuck it all, fuck it all, got me insane
Can I just beg for 3 shots in my brain?
For now it's all gone
I'm in a better place, I don't feel alone now
I know you're gonna miss me but it's alright
it's alright
I know I'm not the one but please text me when you're gone
I just wanna die together
I don't even wanna live forever
I just want you now more than ever
but I can't have it, please tell me again

When you told me you loved me and I said the same
And I wake up, I take it, take all of the pain

I look for the brightness, I look at the sky
And I think of the wonders of being alive
Do I wanna die?
I've been thinking of it
but we're not on the wave yet, I promise I'll take you
I promise you're worth it, I promise it's past due
and I'm worth it

I'm worth it
I'm worth it