HOLY FUCKING SKYPE

u quit:I
[8:01:23 AM] DJ Luna: Sadly
[8:02:25 AM] Jelani Carew: damn
[8:02:29 AM] Jelani Carew: may I ask y?
[8:02:46 AM] DJ Luna: Well
[8:03:02 AM] DJ Luna: I know I really didn't put in a lot of effort
[8:03:21 AM] DJ Luna: But I spent my time re thinking shit
[8:03:43 AM] DJ Luna: And well
[8:03:52 AM] DJ Luna: I wanna try again
[8:04:22 AM] DJ Luna: With being champ I mean
[8:05:01 AM] Jelani Carew: ppl leave to become Champs when they feel they can do better than the current Champ
[8:05:17 AM] Jelani Carew: tell me straight what I was doing wrong
[8:05:22 AM] DJ Luna: Look I have nothing against you
[8:05:25 AM] Jelani Carew: don't tell me nothing
[8:05:28 AM] DJ Luna: It was not you
[8:05:28 AM] Jelani Carew: ok
[8:05:36 AM] DJ Luna: This was me
[8:05:42 AM] DJ Luna: Being too used to power
[8:06:00 AM] DJ Luna: Once your in charge its hard to follow again
[8:06:22 AM] Jelani Carew: right your used to your own time table
[8:06:44 AM] Jelani Carew: this is about me wanting you to get on more frequnetly
[8:06:47 AM] DJ Luna: No
[8:06:56 AM] DJ Luna: I'm on all the time normally
[8:07:12 AM] DJ Luna: I just took a break
[8:07:17 AM] DJ Luna: I needed clarity
[8:09:07 AM] DJ Luna: Also
[8:09:12 AM] DJ Luna: Not gonna lie
[8:09:16 AM] DJ Luna: I felt useless
[8:09:31 AM] Jelani Carew: u don't want to be led by me. im not saying that out of emotion but out of fact. when some1 takes the blame off of you the blame is really on you. what im trying to discern is what it is
[8:09:37 AM] Jelani Carew: oh
[8:09:39 AM] Jelani Carew: :I
[8:09:43 AM] Jelani Carew: : I
[8:10:01 AM] Jelani Carew: but Bops I literally have piles of things that you could be doing
[8:10:05 AM] DJ Luna: Look idk if it was me or what but I got on and felt 100% useless
[8:10:38 AM] Jelani Carew: while you were taking your break I had to get inventive
[8:10:56 AM] Jelani Carew: and did that thing withregina to attract GTs
[8:11:02 AM] Jelani Carew: it worked we had a boom
[8:11:12 AM] DJ Luna: I figured it would
[8:11:19 AM] DJ Luna: Appeal to the thirst
[8:11:23 AM] DJ Luna: Imo
[8:11:28 AM] Jelani Carew: so theres a lot of new peeps there
[8:11:29 AM] Jelani Carew: lol
[8:12:04 AM] Jelani Carew: but seriously I NEED you, as in your an intergrell part of what makes the league run
[8:12:11 AM] DJ Luna: What
[8:12:13 AM] DJ Luna: I've been dead af
[8:12:26 AM] Jelani Carew: youse fault is that?
[8:12:40 AM] Jelani Carew: whose* lol
[8:12:48 AM] DJ Luna: Mine
[8:12:52 AM] Jelani Carew: but look in these Early stages
[8:13:04 AM] Jelani Carew: getting memebrs and keeping them was key
[8:13:21 AM] Jelani Carew: now we are getting to a stage where we need to train them
[8:13:31 AM] Jelani Carew: and THATS where you come in
[8:13:36 AM] DJ Luna: I'm sure reapz can do it
[8:13:44 AM] Jelani Carew: I need all of you
[8:14:08 AM] Jelani Carew: Legit all of you if we want the league to be string
[8:14:20 AM] Jelani Carew: stong*
[8:14:42 AM] Jelani Carew: you feel useless because you get on and you haven't interacted with any of the GTs
[8:14:52 AM] DJ Luna: Your making this overly difficult
[8:14:59 AM] DJ Luna: (emo)
[8:15:39 AM] Jelani Carew: Bops... lets be honest, you barely tried :/
[8:15:51 AM] DJ Luna: I know I didnt
[8:16:03 AM] DJ Luna: I take full responsibility in that
[8:16:54 AM] DJ Luna: Tell me
[8:17:07 AM] DJ Luna: Made any new champ frens?
[8:17:17 AM] Jelani Carew: ye
[8:17:27 AM] Jelani Carew: b4 there were only 2
[8:17:38 AM] Jelani Carew: but ive doubled it since we talked
[8:17:45 AM] DJ Luna: If one of them is adamant
[8:17:49 AM] DJ Luna: XD
[8:18:00 AM] Jelani Carew: ive Added Arewzo & Oi
[8:18:08 AM] Jelani Carew: none of them r adamant lol
[8:18:19 AM] DJ Luna: Adamant rage is cool
[8:18:26 AM] DJ Luna: I got him on skype
[8:18:43 AM] Jelani Carew: in total its Loki, Queen, Arewzo & Oi
[8:18:56 AM] DJ Luna: Shade is going to die btw
[8:19:02 AM] Jelani Carew: what?
[8:19:11 AM] DJ Luna: Spoilers?
[8:19:13 AM] Jelani Carew: but I seen them booming yesterday
[8:19:17 AM] DJ Luna: XD
[8:19:27 AM] DJ Luna: A league is a fragile thing
[8:19:48 AM] DJ Luna: Sometimes if you take even 1 piece
[8:19:54 AM] DJ Luna: It all dies
[8:20:17 AM] Jelani Carew: yea ive seen it happen... you know that
[8:20:22 AM] Jelani Carew: whats going on?
[8:20:41 AM] DJ Luna: Internal affairs
[8:20:53 AM] DJ Luna: It doesn't concern cam tbh
[8:21:07 AM] Jelani Carew: if Shade dies I wont let them split apart
[8:21:24 AM] DJ Luna: Just let them bleed a bit
[8:21:33 AM] DJ Luna: I'll give you what's left
[8:21:46 AM] Jelani Carew: give me whats left...
[8:21:54 AM] Jelani Carew: your planning a coup
[8:21:58 AM] DJ Luna: Sorry I probly sound evil
[8:22:14 AM] DJ Luna: Shade is my creation
[8:22:26 AM] DJ Luna: Nobody is more suited to kill it
[8:23:16 AM] Jelani Carew: dude...
[8:23:27 AM] DJ Luna: ?
[8:24:10 AM] Jelani Carew: your taking the easy way out and... I don't think it wil pay off
[8:24:29 AM] DJ Luna: In what way is this easy?
[8:24:58 AM] DJ Luna: I'm killing my old league and forming my original dream out of it
[8:25:57 AM] Jelani Carew: from everything you've told me Building a league just isn't that easy man.
[8:26:18 AM] Jelani Carew: your tryna uild from the bandwagoners that will follow you
[8:26:33 AM] Jelani Carew: and from the corpse of something YOU built in the first place
[8:26:59 AM] DJ Luna: Well let me fill you in a bit
[8:27:01 AM] Jelani Carew: How the actual fuck would ne1 be able to trust you from doing that?
[8:27:08 AM] DJ Luna: Loki
[8:27:13 AM] DJ Luna: Shot
[8:27:16 AM] DJ Luna: First
[8:27:40 AM] DJ Luna: I had every right to come back
[8:27:52 AM] DJ Luna: I told them when I left I would be back
[8:28:15 AM] DJ Luna: But when I was gonna give up cam and go back to shade
[8:28:27 AM] DJ Luna: Loki said no
[8:28:29 AM] Jelani Carew: dude
[8:28:35 AM] Jelani Carew: that's fucked up
[8:28:45 AM] Jelani Carew: you waited until it got stable under his rule
[8:28:53 AM] DJ Luna: Its
[8:28:55 AM] DJ Luna: Not
[8:28:59 AM] DJ Luna: Stable
[8:29:03 AM] DJ Luna: It's boring
[8:29:04 AM] Jelani Carew: even if they weren't all that string you could change that
[8:29:20 AM] DJ Luna: There's a big fucking difference
[8:29:21 AM] Jelani Carew: that's the easy way out bop
[8:29:43 AM] DJ Luna: Are you not listening
[8:29:51 AM] Jelani Carew: yes it gets boring but that's when you make it UN boring
[8:29:59 AM] DJ Luna: He kept me from going back to a place I built
[8:30:01 AM] Jelani Carew: by being in there getting live
[8:30:23 AM] Jelani Carew: He stabilized it and you tried to come back and reap the rewards
[8:30:38 AM] DJ Luna: >reap the rewards
[8:30:54 AM] Jelani Carew: even if they weren't all that string you could change that
[8:31:01 AM] DJ Luna: Loki is not better
[8:31:02 AM] Jelani Carew: strong*
[8:31:04 AM] DJ Luna: Than me
[8:31:08 AM] DJ Luna: In any sense
[8:31:33 AM] DJ Luna: And if he was a real champ he would do what's right and not what keeps him in power
[8:32:00 AM] Jelani Carew: Bops no1 is saying that man... but he has a right to what hes done for league
[8:32:17 AM] DJ Luna: He's handed weak players gl
[8:32:30 AM] Jelani Carew: You Can make them better
[8:32:35 AM] Jelani Carew: like evrytime
[8:32:35 AM] DJ Luna: I
[8:32:38 AM] DJ Luna: Cant
[8:32:44 AM] DJ Luna: He stopped me
[8:33:12 AM] Jelani Carew: you weren't the best when you got to frost but everystep f the way you had tutors and you got better
[8:33:23 AM] Jelani Carew: that's how it goes man
[8:33:25 AM] DJ Luna: Your missing the point
[8:33:36 AM] DJ Luna: I can't help them if Loki doesn't let me
[8:33:58 AM] Jelani Carew: ok but you should be focusing on... CAM
[8:34:14 AM] DJ Luna: Are we still on that?
[8:34:19 AM] Jelani Carew: no dude
[8:34:31 AM] DJ Luna: I
[8:34:38 AM] DJ Luna: I didn't mean it like that
[8:35:00 AM] DJ Luna: Sorry I'm being torn in a lot of directions
[8:35:08 AM] DJ Luna: It's stressful
[8:35:22 AM] DJ Luna: Oh btw
[8:35:38 AM] DJ Luna: Pyrope is already calling for lokis blood
[8:35:52 AM] Jelani Carew: by whos hand?
[8:35:52 AM] DJ Luna: This will probly get messy
[8:36:04 AM] DJ Luna: He's loyal to me
[8:36:44 AM] DJ Luna: And like most people
[8:36:50 AM] DJ Luna: He's bored in shade
[8:37:23 AM] Jelani Carew: Bops... I thought you trusted me this time
[8:37:29 AM] DJ Luna: Its
[8:37:31 AM] DJ Luna: Not
[8:37:33 AM] DJ Luna: You
[8:37:35 AM] Jelani Carew: if you wanted me to absorb Shade
[8:37:40 AM] DJ Luna:  No
[8:37:44 AM] Jelani Carew: id have found a away to do it
[8:37:50 AM] DJ Luna: That doesn't fix my problem
[8:38:35 AM] Jelani Carew: the only thing I see here is that you don't want to be bored
[8:38:35 AM] DJ Luna: Tbh if you had done this back when I was in Xeon I would have joined right away and been all in
[8:39:05 AM] DJ Luna: But my problem isn't boredom
[8:39:06 AM] Jelani Carew: I WAS LOYAL BOPS!! THATS WHAT LOYALTRY IS
[8:39:34 AM] DJ Luna: I've tried to do what's best
[8:39:41 AM] DJ Luna: For everyone
[8:40:26 AM] DJ Luna: Tell me
[8:40:45 AM] DJ Luna: If lotus begged you to come back would you?
[8:40:56 AM] Jelani Carew: No
[8:41:05 AM] Jelani Carew: id think about it al lot
[8:41:11 AM] Jelani Carew: I miss ppl
[8:41:14 AM] Jelani Carew: but No
[8:41:23 AM] DJ Luna: Trust me
[8:41:31 AM] DJ Luna: I feel you
[8:42:46 AM] Jelani Carew: well what IS the problem Bops?
[8:42:57 AM] DJ Luna: I
[8:43:09 AM] DJ Luna: I am selfish
[8:43:18 AM] DJ Luna: That's really it tbh
[8:43:49 AM] Jelani Carew: what do u even want?
[8:43:56 AM] DJ Luna: Everything
[8:44:04 AM] DJ Luna: Power
[8:44:07 AM] DJ Luna: Respect
[8:44:17 AM] DJ Luna: And control
[8:45:33 AM] DJ Luna: ....
[8:45:41 AM] DJ Luna: Am I going insane?
[8:45:46 AM] Jelani Carew: u don't get those thing through bing disloyal... Loki did nothing wrong, he just knew his value and what he's done for Shade
[8:45:59 AM] DJ Luna: His value XD
[8:46:06 AM] Jelani Carew: you might be cuz you don't see it but
[8:46:11 AM] Jelani Carew: you have ALL those things
[8:46:20 AM] Jelani Carew: POwer: your a great battler
[8:46:32 AM] DJ Luna: Average*
[8:46:35 AM] Jelani Carew: Respect: you still command loyalty form many
[8:46:43 AM] DJ Luna: Few*
[8:47:05 AM] Jelani Carew: Control: when you have both those 2 that's a measure of control
[8:47:36 AM] Jelani Carew: u have all those thing in our eyes
[8:47:39 AM] DJ Luna: Am I not good enough?
[8:47:46 AM] DJ Luna: To be a champ?
[8:48:33 AM] Jelani Carew: ofc you are. every1 values you as highly as such, but right now your making one of those bad plays that youll regret
[8:48:47 AM] Jelani Carew: and id be a shitty mentor if I didn't let you know that
[8:48:55 AM] DJ Luna: Like every decision I make?
[8:49:07 AM] DJ Luna: Cause they all seem to end badly
[8:49:12 AM] Jelani Carew: this is your sign
[8:49:20 AM] Jelani Carew: im here to help u dude
[8:49:26 AM] Jelani Carew: wherever you go
[8:49:32 AM] Jelani Carew: but gawddamn
[8:49:42 AM] Jelani Carew: wheres the trust?
[8:49:43 AM] DJ Luna: ....
[8:49:59 AM] DJ Luna: I think I'm losing it
[8:50:03 AM] Jelani Carew: this Is a bad play of what you have
[8:50:22 AM] DJ Luna: What do you think I should do?
[8:50:28 AM] DJ Luna: Stay in cam?
[8:50:30 AM] Jelani Carew: i would sresay i think your being manipulated
[8:50:36 AM] Jelani Carew: daresay*
[8:50:46 AM] DJ Luna: By who?
[8:51:21 AM] Jelani Carew: idk you have to look around yourself, i don't have the information to judge that
[8:51:45 AM] DJ Luna: I can assure you this is my plan
[8:52:26 AM] Jelani Carew: i WANT you to stay in Cam becuz ik what i have planned and where we could go 2gther
[8:52:52 AM] Jelani Carew: but if you blow your hand like this
[8:52:57 AM] Jelani Carew: no
[8:53:24 AM] Jelani Carew: but if your heart truly isn't with Cam then you should go although you didn't give it a chance really
[8:53:35 AM] DJ Luna: I didnt
[8:53:38 AM] Jelani Carew: but not like this
[8:53:38 AM] DJ Luna: At all
[8:53:58 AM] Jelani Carew: u came because Id like to think you believed in me
[8:54:14 AM] Jelani Carew: and knew i would come through in the clutch
[8:54:49 AM] Jelani Carew: and if that means anything
[8:55:05 AM] Jelani Carew: do Your OWN thing
[8:55:20 AM] Jelani Carew: and we'll be Camp friends
[8:55:26 AM] Jelani Carew: Champ*
[8:55:32 AM] DJ Luna: How certain are you that this is a bad play?
[8:55:43 AM] Jelani Carew: %100
[8:55:56 AM] DJ Luna: That's a bit biased
[8:56:24 AM] Jelani Carew: the bases for the plans making was flawed so everything that cmae from it started flawed
[8:56:38 AM] Jelani Carew: Loki did nothing wrong
[8:56:45 AM] Jelani Carew: i think you know that
[8:56:55 AM] DJ Luna: He's not good
[8:57:01 AM] DJ Luna: At being a champ
[8:57:07 AM] DJ Luna: And its killing me
[8:57:34 AM] Jelani Carew: what about me?
[8:57:43 AM] Jelani Carew: how am I at being Champ?
[8:57:49 AM] DJ Luna: You don't hand weaklings gl
[8:58:03 AM] Jelani Carew: but do u trust me?
[8:58:12 AM] Jelani Carew: do u trust me with Shade?
[8:58:16 AM] DJ Luna: I trust your method
[8:58:24 AM] Jelani Carew: I am my method
[8:58:40 AM] DJ Luna: Ik
[8:58:56 AM] DJ Luna: Do I trust you with shade?
[8:58:58 AM] Jelani Carew: that's something my gf even has trouble understanding
[8:58:59 AM] DJ Luna: No
[8:59:07 AM] Jelani Carew: ok why?
[8:59:08 AM] DJ Luna: I don't trust anyone with shade
[8:59:23 AM] Jelani Carew: ...that's not true
[8:59:33 AM] DJ Luna: Isn't it?
[8:59:34 AM] Jelani Carew: you trusted Orange with Shade
[8:59:43 AM] Jelani Carew: so im sure it is now
[8:59:43 AM] DJ Luna: I was young
[8:59:58 AM] DJ Luna: And I didn't feel ready
[9:00:34 AM] Jelani Carew: just not me huh? listen the fastest way to get to the things you want is with me garunteed hands down
[9:00:56 AM] DJ Luna: To what end?
[9:01:04 AM] Jelani Carew: and that's not saying you cant do it yourself
[9:01:09 AM] Jelani Carew: but together
[9:01:15 AM] Jelani Carew: we just better
[9:01:19 AM] Jelani Carew: period
[9:01:39 AM] DJ Luna: You know
[9:01:44 AM] DJ Luna: It's funny
[9:01:52 AM] DJ Luna: After a joined cam
[9:02:11 AM] DJ Luna: Half of shade wanted to join you and the other half wanted me back
[9:02:32 AM] DJ Luna: I forced them back to loki
[9:03:27 AM] Jelani Carew: Bops... theres ever been only 1 time i can think of where ive let you down
[9:03:43 AM] Jelani Carew: and that's when i couldn't stop Xeon from forming
[9:04:02 AM] DJ Luna: It killed me
[9:04:27 AM] DJ Luna: To watch name leave without even talking to me
[9:04:47 AM] Jelani Carew: and it was because gogeta just didn't have any clout and i hadn't the power at the time to stop yall
[9:04:57 AM] Jelani Carew: but this isn't one of those times
[9:05:21 AM] DJ Luna: My leaving doesn't hurt cam
[9:05:29 AM] Jelani Carew: it does
[9:05:35 AM] DJ Luna: Not really
[9:05:43 AM] Jelani Carew: u said it yourself
[9:05:47 AM] Jelani Carew: u didn't try
[9:05:59 AM] Jelani Carew: so what would happen if you did?
[9:06:10 AM] Jelani Carew: i garuntee you wouldn t be bored still
[9:06:18 AM] DJ Luna: I would have to deal with reapz
[9:06:30 AM] DJ Luna: Not really my favorite thing
[9:06:51 AM] Jelani Carew: whywould you?
[9:07:03 AM] Jelani Carew: hes not Champ I am
[9:07:08 AM] DJ Luna: He's there
[9:07:14 AM] DJ Luna: That's enough
[9:08:19 AM] Jelani Carew: reapz will do w/e I say not because hes bullshiter but becuz if hes putting faith in some1 that's it hes there
[9:08:37 AM] Jelani Carew: he wont be a problem for you
[9:09:01 AM] DJ Luna: I don't think you know how much he bothers me
[9:11:00 AM] Jelani Carew: u know how much Drix was getting on my nerves back at Lotus? but i made due because ik he was just mad that i had everything under control
[9:11:06 AM] Jelani Carew: more so than he did
[9:11:22 AM] Jelani Carew: when i took a break cuz i needed to get my mind right from Xeon
[9:11:31 AM] Jelani Carew: it just fucked with him
[9:11:40 AM] Jelani Carew: and intern he fucked with me
[9:12:02 AM] Jelani Carew: but I continued to do what was right for the league
[9:13:08 AM] Jelani Carew: that's the thing imo that going to make me a gr8 Champ and whats keeping you from being the Cham you see yourelf as
[9:13:57 AM] Jelani Carew: being self less when it comes to the league
[9:14:05 AM] DJ Luna: I think what hurts the most
[9:14:16 AM] DJ Luna: Is that I was so close
[9:14:42 AM] DJ Luna: I almost had the balance right
[9:15:12 AM] Jelani Carew: you cant be selfish if you want to be Champ. i member you complaining to me often about how they needed your attention always
[9:16:00 AM] DJ Luna: Ye
[9:16:12 AM] DJ Luna: But while I was there it was fine
[9:16:35 AM] DJ Luna: Everyone got along and shade was a powerful and respected league
[9:17:00 AM] DJ Luna: Around top 4 back then
[9:18:27 AM] Jelani Carew: Bops we can still get there
[9:18:39 AM] Jelani Carew: and the fastest way there is together
[9:18:44 AM] Jelani Carew: u know that
[9:19:08 AM] Jelani Carew: theres no reason why we shouldn't just combine our power
[9:19:37 AM] Jelani Carew: and move forward together as one
[9:19:47 AM] DJ Luna: And support you
[9:19:54 AM] DJ Luna: And cam
[9:19:57 AM] Jelani Carew: I brought you here to Frost
[9:20:01 AM] DJ Luna: And your dream
[9:20:12 AM] Jelani Carew: its not just mine
[9:20:22 AM] Jelani Carew: that's how you need to think about it
[9:20:27 AM] Jelani Carew: its yours
[9:20:31 AM] Jelani Carew: and our GTs
[9:20:45 AM] Jelani Carew: and Regina & Radecs & Reapz
[9:20:45 AM] DJ Luna: My dream is a league ruled by battle and music
[9:20:58 AM] DJ Luna: A league of cancer and peace
[9:21:05 AM] DJ Luna: Perfectly balanced
[9:21:10 AM] Jelani Carew: well then we should get started
[9:21:29 AM] Jelani Carew: Anob is right there with you and so am I
[9:21:40 AM] DJ Luna: I can't stay forever
[9:21:46 AM] DJ Luna: You know that
[9:22:37 AM] Jelani Carew: im not forcing you do nething Bops I cant... but i will damn sure plead my case
[9:23:04 AM] Jelani Carew: it just doesn't feel right for me to let you go again
[9:23:17 AM] DJ Luna: You want to hear something funny?
[9:23:33 AM] DJ Luna: I've never been a prof
[9:23:36 AM] DJ Luna: Ever
[9:23:48 AM | Edited 9:24:13 AM] DJ Luna: And when I was in lotus it was all I wanted
[9:24:27 AM] Jelani Carew: do u... want to be?
[9:24:31 AM] DJ Luna: No
[9:24:34 AM] Jelani Carew: lol
[9:24:48 AM | Edited 9:25:05 AM] DJ Luna: It's not a life for me
[9:24:53 AM] DJ Luna: Too easy
[9:24:56 AM] DJ Luna: Imo
[9:25:32 AM] Jelani Carew: lol whats really funny is you don't see how respected and powerful you really are
[9:25:50 AM] DJ Luna: Isn't that my usual problem?
[9:25:52 AM] Jelani Carew: and those things are a measure
[9:25:57 AM] Jelani Carew: of control
[9:26:09 AM] DJ Luna: Fun fact
[9:26:17 AM] DJ Luna: I could have killed rain
[9:26:28 AM] DJ Luna: When the merge happened
[9:26:40 AM] DJ Luna: Sora offered to be absorbed
[9:26:58 AM] Jelani Carew: :O
[9:27:01 AM] DJ Luna: I was the one who wanted things to be equal
[9:27:19 AM] DJ Luna: Not my best play
[9:28:02 AM] Jelani Carew: absorbtion is always better
[9:28:15 AM | Edited 9:29:00 AM] DJ Luna: I think it's funny how I've killed shade about 3 times
[9:28:48 AM] DJ Luna: I suppose I'm just stubborn
[9:29:11 AM] Jelani Carew: ur like a female in ths regard
[9:29:18 AM] DJ Luna: ....
[9:29:19 AM] Jelani Carew: u know what you wan
[9:29:28 AM] Jelani Carew: but how you get it is hay af
[9:29:47 AM] DJ Luna: That's not far off tbh
[9:29:48 AM] Jelani Carew: u know what i mean xD
[9:29:53 AM] DJ Luna: XD
[9:30:09 AM] Jelani Carew: the thing is IK how to get there
[9:30:20 AM] DJ Luna: Oh really?
[9:30:27 AM] Jelani Carew: and every option that wanst me hanst panned out
[9:30:42 AM] Jelani Carew: ye... i needed to belive in myself
[9:30:49 AM] DJ Luna: Oh god
[9:30:50 AM] Jelani Carew: that's for sure
[9:30:59 AM] DJ Luna: I fucking feel you
[9:31:35 AM] DJ Luna: With shade it was hard
[9:31:46 AM] DJ Luna: I didn't have any experience
[9:32:08 AM] DJ Luna: Nobody helped me learn
[9:32:34 AM | Edited 9:32:47 AM] DJ Luna: And not to top you or anything but I had a site in like a few hours
[9:32:57 AM] Jelani Carew: naw its fine
[9:33:03 AM] DJ Luna: Like
[9:33:07 AM] DJ Luna: Wtf
[9:33:11 AM] DJ Luna: XD
[9:33:27 AM] Jelani Carew: tbh i just have more pressing matters :/
[9:33:36 AM] Jelani Carew: a site can wait
[9:33:51 AM] DJ Luna: Ok here's where you priorities should go
[9:34:03 AM] DJ Luna: Plug
[9:34:07 AM] DJ Luna: Site
[9:34:09 AM] DJ Luna: People
[9:34:16 AM] DJ Luna: League rules
[9:34:19 AM] DJ Luna: Done
[9:34:29 AM] Jelani Carew: why the site? : I
[9:34:40 AM] DJ Luna: It gives a sense of
[9:34:45 AM] DJ Luna: Community
[9:34:57 AM] Jelani Carew: lets be real for a moment if no1 told you that leagues needed a site would you have one?
[9:35:06 AM] DJ Luna: Idk
[9:35:14 AM] DJ Luna: I wouldn't have a plug
[9:35:17 AM] DJ Luna: XD
[9:35:23 AM] Jelani Carew: my answer was always no
[9:35:32 AM] Jelani Carew: plug was something enjoyable
[9:35:41 AM] Jelani Carew: so it crept its way in
[9:35:59 AM] DJ Luna: A site is more than a formality
[9:36:16 AM] DJ Luna: It's a way to look at what you have
[9:36:43 AM] Jelani Carew: true
[9:36:57 AM] Jelani Carew: then having a shitty rushed site is unacceptable to me
[9:37:04 AM] Jelani Carew: no offense
[9:37:13 AM] Jelani Carew: not saying yours was shity
[9:37:15 AM] DJ Luna: .....
[9:37:24 AM] DJ Luna: Sergio did good work for me
[9:37:39 AM] DJ Luna: Tho my welcome msg was...
[9:37:44 AM] DJ Luna: Cluttered
[9:37:48 AM] Jelani Carew: i just have an image in my mind of how i want the site to be
[9:38:01 AM] Jelani Carew: and if its not that then meh
[9:38:13 AM] DJ Luna: I had no vision
[9:38:24 AM] DJ Luna: Shade was not my end goal
[9:38:34 AM] DJ Luna: I wanted dj
[9:38:52 AM] DJ Luna: Fucking edjim
[9:39:12 AM] Jelani Carew: you have
[9:39:19 AM] Jelani Carew: the most potentail
[9:39:28 AM] Jelani Carew: to help the league grow
[9:39:33 AM] Jelani Carew: in way pf culture
[9:39:38 AM] Jelani Carew: of*
[9:39:47 AM] DJ Luna: Culture?
[9:39:55 AM] Jelani Carew: i have plans that ive BEEN needing your help with
[9:40:00 AM] Jelani Carew: in that regard
[9:40:01 AM] Jelani Carew: yes
[9:40:08 AM] Jelani Carew: the way the league makes you feel
[9:40:19 AM] Jelani Carew: while your there
[9:40:35 AM] Jelani Carew: Lotus had culture
[9:40:41 AM] Jelani Carew: Shade had Culture
[9:40:53 AM] Jelani Carew: Xeon even
[9:41:04 AM] Jelani Carew: albeit little af imo
[9:41:24 AM] Jelani Carew: and even Cams small speck of culture is growing
[9:41:30 AM] DJ Luna: Xeon felt
[9:41:31 AM] DJ Luna: Like
[9:41:40 AM] DJ Luna: Nazi Germany
[9:41:43 AM] DJ Luna: Tbfh
[9:42:08 AM] Jelani Carew: u have a role that your very good at
[9:42:10 AM] DJ Luna: This focus on training and obeying those above you
[9:42:20 AM] DJ Luna: What role is that?
[9:42:29 AM] Jelani Carew: growing a culture
[9:42:36 AM] Jelani Carew: its what you've been practicing
[9:42:44 AM | Edited 9:42:55 AM] Jelani Carew: subconsciously i think
[9:43:07 AM] DJ Luna: 0_0 I thought I was just being stupid and running around
[9:43:18 AM] Jelani Carew: but the Champ role on top of that messed with you
[9:43:34 AM] DJ Luna: Maybe
[9:43:48 AM] Jelani Carew: that's just my opinion on that 1
[9:43:54 AM] Jelani Carew: the outside looking in
[9:43:59 AM | Edited 9:44:23 AM] DJ Luna: Tho I was a decent champ when I could keep my head clear
[9:44:11 AM] Jelani Carew: u were
[9:44:42 AM] Jelani Carew: honestly in all,I want you to stay and respect if you leave
[9:45:07 AM] DJ Luna: I don't see a point in leaving
[9:45:19 AM] Jelani Carew: but this will be the 2nd time you've left my side and that... just doenst sit well with me
[9:45:19 AM] DJ Luna: Clearly I've gone insane
[9:45:43 AM] Jelani Carew: your figuring out your identity
[9:46:10 AM] Jelani Carew: which is fine we all are continuously doing that and will do that until the day we die
[9:46:58 AM] Jelani Carew: but theres things that you know and theres things that ik and ik that if you want shade here I can bring shade here
[9:47:21 AM] Jelani Carew: and Ik where to go to take us where you ant to be
[9:47:24 AM] DJ Luna: I don't want shade
[9:47:47 AM] Jelani Carew: tbh i kinda do now
[9:48:00 AM] DJ Luna: If I wanted shade you really think I couldn't just take it?
[9:48:12 AM | Edited 9:48:24 AM] Jelani Carew: tbh u trid >.>
[9:48:35 AM] DJ Luna: I tried the quiet way
[9:48:42 AM] Jelani Carew: true
[9:48:53 AM] DJ Luna: If I went in there
[9:49:02 AM] DJ Luna: More people would support me
[9:49:10 AM] Jelani Carew: true again
[9:49:54 AM] Jelani Carew: Bops i think we've a long way to go 2gether b4 we part imo
[9:50:04 AM] Jelani Carew: your my first son
[9:50:15 AM] DJ Luna: Your only notable one
[9:50:18 AM] DJ Luna: Tbfh
[9:50:26 AM] Jelani Carew: ^^' ill take it
[9:50:31 AM] Jelani Carew: lol
[9:50:51 AM] DJ Luna: I wonder what keeps chappo in lotus
[9:51:06 AM] Jelani Carew: im not sure
[9:51:10 AM] Jelani Carew: his E4
[9:51:32 AM] DJ Luna: I remember leaving my e4
[9:51:36 AM] DJ Luna: For gl
[9:51:42 AM] Jelani Carew: so do I
[9:51:45 AM] DJ Luna: At least I was mod
[9:51:50 AM] DJ Luna: That helped a bit
[9:51:51 AM] Jelani Carew: runs in the family
[9:52:01 AM] DJ Luna: XD
[9:52:34 AM] DJ Luna: I remember right after I joined
[9:52:35 AM] Jelani Carew: we get E4 and be like ok that was cool
[9:52:51 AM] DJ Luna: Devin asked me to try and recruit you
[9:53:13 AM | Edited 9:53:22 AM] DJ Luna: And I said there was no way you would leave
[9:53:24 AM] Jelani Carew: ^
[9:53:41 AM] Jelani Carew: even tho Gogeta was being... difficult ik he needed me
[9:53:50 AM] Jelani Carew: like hella bad
[9:54:04 AM] Jelani Carew: i recruited his BESt members
[9:54:16 AM] DJ Luna: Here's what's odd
[9:54:28 AM] DJ Luna: You made lotus crazy powerful
[9:54:36 AM] DJ Luna: Then it exploded
[9:54:48 AM] DJ Luna: Xeon got crazy powerful
[9:54:48 AM] Jelani Carew: from power  :I
[9:54:54 AM] DJ Luna: Then it exploded
[9:55:08 AM] Jelani Carew: BOredom
[9:55:08 AM] DJ Luna: Then shade got crazy powerful
[9:55:13 AM] Jelani Carew: and loose bonds
[9:55:18 AM] DJ Luna: And it exploded
[9:55:29 AM] Jelani Carew: are what make Leagues that r powerfull fallapart
[9:55:33 AM] Jelani Carew: imo
[9:55:39 AM] DJ Luna: Xeon was broken because of cancer
[9:55:44 AM] DJ Luna: It got
[9:55:47 AM] DJ Luna: So bad
[9:56:07 AM] DJ Luna: I to this day have not seen worse
[9:56:20 AM] Jelani Carew: gotta have a good culture
[9:56:27 AM] Jelani Carew: weve both seen that
[9:56:32 AM] DJ Luna: True
[9:56:38 AM] Jelani Carew: a dynamic culture that includes all sorts of likes
[9:56:52 AM] Jelani Carew: so when you tell me your dream
[9:57:01 AM] Jelani Carew: it makes perfect sense to me
[9:57:57 AM] DJ Luna: All I want is to figure out the balance
[9:58:10 AM] DJ Luna: Cancer and peace
[9:58:19 AM] DJ Luna: Fun and competitiveness
[9:58:22 AM] Jelani Carew: the balance to be CHamp or to have a good healthty league?
[9:58:41 AM] Jelani Carew: cuz Lotus is the closest ive seen to that
[9:58:49 AM] DJ Luna: Almost
[9:58:54 AM] Jelani Carew: ik what it looks like
[9:58:58 AM] DJ Luna: If the champ had been better
[9:59:04 AM] Jelani Carew: ^
[9:59:15 AM] DJ Luna: Gogeta is so bad
[9:59:21 AM] Jelani Carew: i thought about taking Champ at least 8 times daily
[9:59:33 AM] Jelani Carew: but i was loyal
[9:59:47 AM] Jelani Carew: I don't regret not doing it
[10:00:04 AM] DJ Luna: Xeon was a fools endeavour
[10:00:24 AM] DJ Luna: A harsh cruel league
[10:00:37 AM] DJ Luna: But we were too stubborn to leave
[10:01:02 AM] DJ Luna: Determined to beat everything
[10:01:18 AM] DJ Luna: And leave lotus in the dust
[10:02:43 AM] Jelani Carew: you would have done it if i had joined
[10:02:46 AM] Jelani Carew: tbh
[10:03:00 AM] Jelani Carew: i have the structure memorized
[10:03:17 AM] Jelani Carew: and if Orange had a me
[10:03:24 AM] Jelani Carew: it be ove
[10:03:34 AM] Jelani Carew: i would've told him everything he was doing wrong
[10:04:00 AM] Jelani Carew: i doubt Zyns would have but Orange would have listened
[10:04:55 AM] Jelani Carew: me and you 2gether will always be 10x more than when we r apart
[10:05:05 AM] Jelani Carew: that's just fact
[10:05:19 AM] Jelani Carew: we both have good intentions
[10:05:46 AM] DJ Luna: Orange had
[10:05:53 AM] DJ Luna: So much warning
[10:05:58 AM] DJ Luna: From the gls
[10:06:07 AM] DJ Luna: Me and Devin especially
[10:06:20 AM] DJ Luna: I mean weedle as an ro
[10:06:27 AM] DJ Luna: Just
[10:06:31 AM] DJ Luna: Red flag
[10:06:54 AM] Jelani Carew: damn
[10:07:11 AM] Jelani Carew: just thinking about all that made me realize how much i did for Gogeta
[10:08:01 AM] Jelani Carew: i gave that man updates reports and did everything he was suppose to be doing
[10:08:05 AM] Jelani Carew: for him
[10:08:28 AM] Jelani Carew: like i said im firm in the belief if Orange had me itd of been over
[10:11:16 AM] Jelani Carew: BOps ik you wont be here forever but we r going to be big on Youtube b4 you leave
[10:11:22 AM] Jelani Carew: im trying to make sure of that
[10:14:44 AM] DJ Luna: I won't leave yet
[10:14:56 AM] DJ Luna: But for now
[10:15:01 AM] DJ Luna: I need sleep