Infinite Sadness

Earth's continual rejection of the hero has been very costly (but for whom, we don't know yet).

I have discovered something potentially very powerful but it has backfired (it is akin to learning about curses).

I don't understand why my hardships must continue. Is it because Earth cannot hook into the meta? Then it is forgivable.

Is there a conspiracy against me? There can be no judgement without first submitting yourself to the test. My starting position is very interesting(ly bad)and I did very well with multiple legendary acts. In a place with simulators it is not wise to do a lot of judging without at first learning.

Is it because Earth is mentally and morally bankrupt? How depressing.

I am not doing well, I can sense there is a small chance of death in the coming weeks and months if things do not improve. Any mind electricity or bio electricity you can spare is much appreciated.