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- Mishka - Today at 8:37 PM
- That's right. The fact that you "refuse until you do as I want or we hit a brick wall" is testament.
- Ravan - Today at 8:38 PM
- A testament to what? You just wanting to be correct so you can feel good about yourself with this decision of yours?
- If this is what makes you happy, again, that's on you
- But all I can see is that you're hurting from it
- Mishka - Today at 8:38 PM
- If I wanted to feel good I would have followed this advice a long time ago
- Ravan - Today at 8:38 PM
- and you're going to keep hurting
- Mishka - Today at 8:38 PM
- ^ But see this name?
- He gave this to me. It stands for little bear.
- It's my cross to bear
- Ravan - Today at 8:38 PM
- Yeah
- Ruskie
- Right?
- Mishka - Today at 8:39 PM
- I'll carry it proudly.
- Ravan - Today at 8:39 PM
- Then carry it
- Nobody told you to give up on the name
- Mishka - Today at 8:39 PM
- Jesus carried it even as he bled like mad
- Even as people threw rocks even as his own mother cried her eyes out and I'm not even christian(edited)
- Ravan - Today at 8:39 PM
- That'd be some tragic irony
- I digress
- Mishka - Today at 8:39 PM
- He did it because he believed it was what he needed to do
- Ravan - Today at 8:40 PM
- You're not Jesus
- You're not some martyr for this either
- Mishka - Today at 8:40 PM
- I won't drop my cross. Because doing so means that I'm the same weak-willed coward
- Ravan - Today at 8:40 PM
- And what's wrong with being weak-willed or a coward?
- Mishka - Today at 8:40 PM
- And it would be an insult to everything it all stood for
- Ravan - Today at 8:40 PM
- Not every human is perfect
- Mishka - Today at 8:40 PM
- Just because it is what commonly occurs does not make it right
- And doesn't make not NOT wrong
- Ravan - Today at 8:40 PM
- Nobody can honestly look you in the eye and say they have never made a mistake
- That'd be true if it wasn't essentially empirical evidence
- Everybody knows water is wet when you touch it
- Everybody knows fire burns
- Mishka - Today at 8:41 PM
- Then why don't we let criminals run free
- It happens so often we might as well let it
- Ravan - Today at 8:41 PM
- unless they lack the ability to feel
- Alright when it comes to criminals and letting them run free, that's because a single innocent man being sentenced to being guilty is much worse than letting 10 guilty men be innocent in the eyes of the law
- Unless it's rape
- then you're fucked
- Mishka - Today at 8:43 PM
- Literally.
- Ravan - Today at 8:43 PM
- Might as well give up right then and there because you're going to be on a sex offender list, your name will be plastered everywhere and everybody will see that blemish on your record as some of the lowest of the low
- literally yes
- but another thing that we know is that people aren't perfect
- Mishka - Today at 8:44 PM
- Our imperfections don't excuse us from our crimes
- Ravan - Today at 8:44 PM
- No it doesn't, and that's why you suffer consequences
- Then you move on
- and learn
- Mishka - Today at 8:44 PM
- I said crimes
- Ravan - Today at 8:44 PM
- If you just stop here right now and say that you're going to avoid moving forward, then you're effectively excusing yourself from this whole thing
- That's how you develop as a human being
- You don't know the consequences of something you've done until it comes back and hits you, either sooner or later
- Mishka - Today at 8:45 PM
- Right, because being a weak willed coward is nice progress
- Ravan - Today at 8:45 PM
- Who's going to call you a weak willed coward other than yourself that's too prideful to admit any imperfection whatsoever?
- If you weren't scared of being imperfect or being less than whole for moving on, then you wouldn't be behaving this way
- There is strength in accepting that you have your weaknesses too, as cliche as it sounds
- Mishka - Today at 8:46 PM
- It isn't about being imperfect or being less than whole
- I already treat myself like garbage
- Ravan - Today at 8:47 PM
- It's about not giving up and standing by your principles
- namely to never break a promise
- Mishka - Today at 8:47 PM
- Yes
- That is what I'm doing
- Ravan - Today at 8:47 PM
- I'm sorry Xion
- Mishka - Today at 8:47 PM
- Not giving up
- and standing by my principles
- Ravan - Today at 8:47 PM
- But just because you do so
- doesn't mean others play by the same rules
- Mishka - Today at 8:47 PM
- The reverse is also true
- Ravan - Today at 8:47 PM
- And that doesn't mean you shouldn't follow your own
- Mishka - Today at 8:47 PM
- But why is one more valid than the other
- Ravan - Today at 8:47 PM
- But it does mean that you should be able to recognise a lost cause
- If you can accept that one isn't more valid than the other, then you should also be able to accept that moving on is something you CAN do
- Mishka - Today at 8:48 PM
- In that case history should be much different
- Ravan - Today at 8:48 PM
- but you absolutely refuse to do so as well
- Mishka - Today at 8:48 PM
- Joan of Arc wouldn't have burned at the stake
- Susan Anthony wouldn't have gone to prison
- Ravan - Today at 8:48 PM
- But they did those things
- They'll be remembered for them(edited)
- But will you?
- Mishka - Today at 8:48 PM
- I don't need to be remembered
- Ravan - Today at 8:48 PM
- It's not about being remembered obviously
- Mishka - Today at 8:49 PM
- They didn't do it to be remembered
- Ravan - Today at 8:49 PM
- But if somebody else is in your situation
- Would you honestly be able to tell them that this is the correct choice?
- That they should carry on, stuck in the past without ever budging an inch?
- Would you honestly wish that on another person?
- Two people?
- Mishka - Today at 8:49 PM
- Assumptions.
- Ravan - Today at 8:49 PM
- Dozens, hundreds, thousands?
- Because that's what they did, and I highly doubt they'd tell even their most loved ones to do the same things that they did
- Nobody wants others to suffer, but they also don't want to suffer
- It's kind of a paradox
- Mishka - Today at 8:50 PM
- They wouldn't wish it on another person but that doesn't invalidate their motivations and resolve
- Again, their actions are not about the effect on others
- Ravan - Today at 8:51 PM
- It doesn't, but does it validate them either?
- What about the people that cared about them?
- Mishka - Today at 8:51 PM
- That's for them to decide
- Ravan - Today at 8:51 PM
- And other people would say it's selfish of them to go dying off without giving a damn about what they want
- Mishka - Today at 8:51 PM
- Susan anthony could have just decided that women would always be subservient and unequal but she didn't
- Ravan - Today at 8:51 PM
- And I can see why they'd say that, because you learn to care about other people
- Ideals don't keep the ones you love with you
- And they learned that
- and you're going to learn that
- If you want to go through with it, again
- Mishka - Today at 8:52 PM
- Yet in the end they chose ideals regardless
- Ravan - Today at 8:52 PM
- be my guest
- They chose their ideals regardless
- But would you rather choose him, or your ideals?
- Because in the end you chose your ideals
- You didn't choose him
- Mishka - Today at 8:53 PM
- How dare you
- Ravan - Today at 8:53 PM
- This never was even about him
- It's about your pride being too inflated and you being unable to realise that you need to tone this shit down a notch or twenty
- If all you wanted was to be with him, you would've coexisted, trying be damned
- Mishka - Today at 8:53 PM
- Oh what a well played song
- TRYING BE DAMNED?!
- I TRIED
- EVERYTHING
- Ravan - Today at 8:54 PM
- And you still didn't find a way
- Mishka - Today at 8:54 PM
- That doesn't mean I didn't do everything
- Ravan - Today at 8:54 PM
- If you think waiting on somebody with its miniscule chance of working is better than trying more than just everything
- Then sure
- Mishka - Today at 8:54 PM
- You're not even making any sense
- What else can you try than everything?
- There is no such thing as more than everything
- Ravan - Today at 8:55 PM
- More obviously
- You gave up when you gave him that ultimatum
- Because that was your last option
- Mishka - Today at 8:55 PM
- All I did
- Ravan - Today at 8:55 PM
- That was you giving up on him if he didn't acqueisce to your demands
- Mishka - Today at 8:55 PM
- was ask for a bit of time
- to speak to me
- Ravan - Today at 8:55 PM
- And he chose those people over you
- Mishka - Today at 8:55 PM
- My only demand
- was to talk
- so we could reach an understanding
- Ravan - Today at 8:56 PM
- And he dropped you for it
- Why do you want to make yourself suffer for that?
- Mishka - Today at 8:56 PM
- And that's fair? And that's right? And that makes me wrong?
- Ravan - Today at 8:56 PM
- You idolise him, you might even deify him
- But he doesn't care
- It isn't fair, it isn't right, and it certainly doesn't make you wrong
- Mishka - Today at 8:56 PM
- Wrong for after all I've spent listening, I ask to be listened for once?
- Ravan - Today at 8:56 PM
- but it does show that he didn't care
- That's the only conclusion I can draw from all this
- He didn't care.
- Not to the extent you were hoping for him to care at any rate
- Mishka - Today at 8:57 PM
- And
- Ravan - Today at 8:57 PM
- And?
- There's no and
- He didn't care.
- You're suffering over something he didn't give a damn about.
- Mishka - Today at 8:58 PM
- And?
- Ravan - Today at 8:58 PM
- He left you to suffer.
- Mishka - Today at 8:58 PM
- Is that supposed to assuade me
- Ravan - Today at 8:58 PM
- If you think it's right to wait for him despite his obvious lack of giving a damn, so be it
- Mishka - Today at 8:58 PM
- Is that supposed to invalidate me?
- Ravan - Today at 8:58 PM
- Know that you're just doing this for your own pride
- not for him
- Because you didn't understand
- You didn't try to understand
- And you still don't understand
- Mishka - Today at 8:59 PM
- >you didn't try to understand
- Ravan - Today at 8:59 PM
- Does that trigger you? Every time I bring up trying?
- Mishka - Today at 8:59 PM
- You are literally serious about that aren't you
- You really want to pin this as my pride and that I didn't try at all
- Mishka - Today at 9:00 PM
- Because what else coooooould it beeeeee
- Life isn't some cliche chick lit
- Ravan - Today at 9:00 PM
- And what else can I draw from all this? You refuse to move on because of your principles despite all logic pointing to the fact that he didn't give a fuck.
- Mishka - Today at 9:00 PM
- Sometimes checkov's gun really is just a decoration
- Ravan - Today at 9:00 PM
- He chose people he knew for two weeks over you
- Mishka - Today at 9:01 PM
- You know
- I'm not even the first.
- Ravan - Today at 9:01 PM
- You're not even the last.
- Mishka - Today at 9:01 PM
- As far as my sources tell me
- Those tumors are almost in the same basket too
- It won't be long till "Noel" joins me here, one way or another.
- How's that for swallowing my pride?
- Would you like to know what else I know?
- Ravan - Today at 9:02 PM
- too bad I have literally no idea what you're talking about
- Other than what I can assume :^)
- in which case
- Good for you
- Congratulations
- Mishka - Today at 9:02 PM
- >A talk of this magnitude
- >:^)
- Are you serious.
- Ravan - Today at 9:02 PM
- You literally made me pour my heart out just so you could tell me you were right
- I'm serious
- I'm happy that you got your way
- I'm happy that everything worked out for you
- Mishka - Today at 9:03 PM
- So what? Gonna do what he did?
- Give up?
- Walk away?
- Write me as a lost cause?
- Because I had the gall to stay true to myself instead of doing "humanity's tried and tested?"(edited)
- Hate me now?
- Ravan - Today at 9:10 PM
- I don't really know what to say. You've made me do this all for your entertainment? So that you could feel validated in your decision, which you yourself know to have a low chance of success? I legit care about you, even if you don't believe it. I legit believed that this guy you were talking about was some next level amazing type of person. When you told me he dropped you for people he knew for a few weeks? I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry because he didn't care about somebody who basically devoted themselves entirely to him. Jealousy? Envy? Probably one of those two feelings, or a mix of them is what I'm feeling right now.
- I've wanted to make amends for that situation this whole time, and it's hurt me to see you be so sad about it. But all this was just for you to tell me that you were right, and I was wrong, even when you already knew that things were going well. I guess I should've seen it coming, the great bamboozle. I can't even be mad in all honesty, I've had worse than this, and I think I'll have worse than this in future times too. But our friendship? It probably didn't matter, I was probably just somebody to toy with as you waited for him to come back. If it made you happy in the end, I'm glad for you. But my worth, my dignity as a person isn't just something you can toy with and try to goad me into ignoring. I have no hate for you, only disappointment. Disappointment in myself for believing I had made a new friend that gave a rat's ass about me, disappointment in believing that I could overcome my issues with people, and disappointment in you for making sport out of all this, just for my reaction. I don't care what you think of me anymore, because it certainly can't get any worse than somebody to toy with.
- Have a nice life, I hope you have a happy time.
- Mishka - Today at 9:10 PM
- I did not do this for my own entertainment.
- I am the farthest from amused by all of this
- [Clyde auto response about blocking here]
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