based and redpilled - god

Yeah I get this vibe too, it truly is terrifying, knowing that this painful existence now, is to only subdue an eternal torturing non-dual experience of loneliness. There is no escape either way. When realised, all other doubts shatter as it makes total sense, there's no other way of explaining it. When you experience it, it's a hell which can only be pacified by any means of ignorance as you beg for soberness to be in this reality again. Even from the concept of God being a seperate entity, it still applies, even if you're true to a religion.

Let's say Christianity: why the fuck would something all perfect need other seperate entites? Angels, demons and us. The fact that he's perfect, it clearly means he allowed rebellion in the first place. It's just to split up everything. There's fun in chaos. The garden and the apple, even Satan being there, it truly was all willed by him at the end of the day. It's utterly horrifying to think God is just a bored lonely psycho looking for self-glorification. What does it mean for Jesus to be tortured? It truly has no meaning, no basis, really has no effect, only for God to allow for salvation, but just why the fucking length?

Even the "end times" and judgement day. It's all nothing but a concert, as it's all written there. We have to suffer and wait until God claps his hands and say it's over. How merciful is that? Why must we endure? He knows every outcome yet he still allows this hell of a show to roll. To gather a big crowd perhaps so we can all be in awe. All can be true in the Bible to a Christian, and also this realisation. Cut everything out of the picture and think of only God, what's the point of his existence? He's some infinite powerful magician, that's it, and still that absolutely means nothing. Everything is meaningless and empty, all thought, chaos and duality in this world and ourselves is to sway away from that emptiness. It's a realisation we don't want to realise but still go looking for it.

Also how did a bunch of illiterates write the bibile?