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- AnnieToday at 5:34 PM
- Don't dare stay with anyone who takes out their frustration by breaking things.
- It's the shortest of distances between breaking things and breaking people.
- AvacyneToday at 5:35 PM
- I know but this os the first time hes done it
- And I know hes a mess right now
- AnnieToday at 5:35 PM
- That's fine and all.
- AvacyneToday at 5:35 PM
- He just lost his dad
- And his moms slowly dieing to copd
- AnnieToday at 5:36 PM
- But first is once too many. Am I saying leave him? No, Am I saying this is his first and last chance to fuck up like this? Yes. At least in my view...
- AvacyneToday at 5:37 PM
- I dunno annie
- I just dont
- This is the first guy Ive actually wanted to come into my life as more then a friend
- AnnieToday at 5:38 PM
- I'm only giving you my perspective, hon, and my caution.
- AvacyneToday at 5:38 PM
- Then this happened
- AnnieToday at 5:38 PM
- You have to trust your gut and your heart.
- AvacyneToday at 5:38 PM
- Well let me correct that first guy Ive wanted since my incidents in the army
- And I know he needs time to cool off
- But just poofing?
- AnnieToday at 5:40 PM
- All I can say is that from what you've said, I see all sorts of warning signs
- AvacyneToday at 5:40 PM
- I saw them too with Meka
- I stayed next to him while he encased himself in booze and prescription meds
- People do some rather insane things when they loose someone close especially if they looked up to them
- AnnieToday at 5:41 PM
- Ava, just be careful
- AvacyneToday at 5:42 PM
- I am my gut already says run but it says that even of a guy gets to close to me in walmart
- I guess part of my issue is
- I want to not be afraid of guys no more
- I want to be who I was before the army
- And Ive pushed and pushed and pushed
- Then the one guy I was willing to take that leap of fauth with
- The one guy I could trust more then my childhood friend does this
- AnnieToday at 5:45 PM
- Just be careful, ok?
- AvacyneToday at 5:45 PM
- I am
- But thankyou
- AnnieToday at 5:45 PM
- Of course!
- AvacyneToday at 5:46 PM
- I deleted my stuff in the ravens because I shouldnt have vented like that
- AnnieToday at 5:46 PM
- I couldn't be a friend and also be silent, hon.
- AvacyneToday at 5:46 PM
- Especially out of left field like that
- AnnieToday at 5:46 PM
- Nothing wrong with venting. Or out of the blue. G_d knows I've done it often enough.
- AvacyneToday at 5:47 PM
- I just wanna curl up and goto sleep and not wake up for atleast a week
- I didnt sleep last night
- I probably wont sleep tonight
- I probably wont sleep until he responds
- But I fear hes gone for good
- AvacyneToday at 5:47 PM
- I just wanna curl up and goto sleep and not wake up for atleast a week
- I didnt sleep last night
- I probably wont sleep tonight
- I probably wont sleep until he responds
- But I fear hes gone for good
- And honestly that worries me more
- Even if he appeared today and said its over atleast Id know he hadnt died
- He suffers from extreme depression and ptsd
- And has admitted to contemplating suicide
- And that me and meka and a few of his own friends have always just arrived in time to stop him
- AnnieToday at 5:52 PM
- The "just in time" is also worrying, hon. That's cries for attention.
- AvacyneToday at 5:53 PM
- But heres the thing
- He never tells us that we did
- It usually comes out once weve managed to get ahold of him when hes drunk enough and hes feeling blabby
- Everyone Ive asked said it takes him being plastered to get him to blab about his emotions
- Hes one of those men who will be masculine even if it accost him his sanity or booze finally make him let it out
- Its a super dangerous thing
- AvacyneToday at 5:56 PM
- Cause he dont vent it when he needs to
- AvacyneToday at 5:56 PM
- Im just praying
- That this wasnt our last conversation
- Me calling him a asshole
- I dont think I could handle that well knowing that because I got snappy with him and said what I did and it ended that way
- Id hate myself
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